Wednesday, March 29, 2006 09:18 p.m.
The blanket warrior and my big baby! :) Haha. If finances permit and we're able to arrange something, we might be headed up to Hawaii or Bangkok after I finish my internship in Los Angeles and visit Yaozhang in Seattle! I really hope we get to go to Hawaii but even if that doesn't fall through, I think coming home and spending time with my blanket warrior would be more than enough!
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 10:29 p.m.
I felt so lonely in school today. It wasn't about not being surrounded by friends or noise but it was more of a feeling of inner loneliness. It's like how you can have so much love in your life yet no joy. Same. It was like I had many friends whom I smile at, say hello, stop and have a short warm chat while walking toward the canteen but when it comes down to the crunch, to the time when I just need a friend to be available and a friend to rely on, to honestly rebuke me in love and to be open with, there are just so few. Booking air tickets and making travel arrangements is really such a pain. I think leaving is going to be so much more painful.Thursday, March 23, 2006 07:57 p.m.
I'm feeling down again. I cannot explain why. I don't feel like doing anything. I just feel very tired, very defeated, very plain and the worries about life, about school and everything in between is starting to float back. This is like a cycle, some days I feel like I'm on top of the world, that everything's running along just fine and I can handle whatever the world throws at me. Other days, like today, I just feel like lying in bed, be all moody, wear frumpy clothes and whine about how the world sucks and everything in it sucks even more and not do anything except to eat ice cream, drink coke and have someone by my side. I think it's pms.Wednesday, March 22, 2006 10:30 p.m.
I'm reading my econs textbook now in a bid to study for my test and hopefully ace it. But because I get distracted easily, I'm online. Anyway, while reading the chapter on labour market, I came across this rather ineteresting self exercise. Here goes. You want to make a career in broadcasting. The local radio station is offering an unpaid summer internship that would give you valuable experience. Your alternative to the internship is to earn $3000 working in a car wash. How would you decide which job to take? Their recommended answer: Even though you are receiving no pay, the valuable experience you gain as an intern is likely to raise the pay you will be able to earn in the future, so it is an investment in human capital. You also find working in the radio station more enjoyable than working in a car wash, presumably. To decide which job to take, you should ask yourself, "Taking into account both the likely increase in my future earnings and my greater enjoyment from working in the radio station, would I be willing to pay $3000 to work in the radio station rather than in the car wash?" If the answer is yes, then you should work in the radio station, otherwise you should go to the car wash. Who ever said economics was a dead and purely theoretical subject? I also believe for that question, all we really have to do is use the cost-benefit criterion to decide whether to take the internship or work in the car wash! If costs exceeds benefits, you don't take up the internship. If benefits exceeds costs, you take up the internship. Simple. And the costs and benefits don't have to be purely financial or economic. Honestly, the cost-benefit criterion is probably one of the most practical theories in economics and I even use it sometimes when I'm caught in such situations! Haha. Anyway, 830AM class tomorrow morning and I'll be done for this week! Hooray! But that also means I'm one day closer to my exams. The boyfriend came over this morning before he went off for his afternoon classes. Always nice having some time together even though not much studying was done. I'm going to eat fried prawn noodles and oyster omelette now!Tuesday, March 21, 2006 09:49 p.m.
Skipped econs lecture today and ended up in Orchard with Juan Juan for shopping and fried mars bars. I'm in love with fried mars bars and I'm glad we both managed to get bottoms! I realized the Robot battle is not as simple as it seems and I'm glad I didn't major in computer engineering or something like that. 9 chapters of macroeconomics to study by Sunday night but right now, a little to tired to get my brains working.Sunday, March 19, 2006 11:36 p.m.
2 more weeks of lectures, 3 more weeks of tutorials, 1 macroeconomics quiz and IT quiz to study for, 1 robot to be build and 4 exam papers to take and I'll be done with freshmen year. I feel like I'm approaching this week with some sort of expectancy and a small degree of excitment. I don't know why. It's not that I've completed all my tutorials for this week or I'm on schedule or I've kept up with my readings. Oh well. Once again, with 4 weeks to the exams, I'm starting to panic. I catch no balls for accounting and that frightens me. It's like stats last semester. Sec 1 to Sec 3 Camp took a huge load of me. It was tiring but I had fun and I was so extremely thankful and glad to see the entire sec3 class coming together to make this camp possible :) I believe that no matter how operationally messy and chaotic it was, as long as the people enjoyed themselves, made friends, had good fellowship and desired to grow closer to God and the camp committee took away learning points, I think the camp was a success. Anyhow, makeup econs tutorial on Saturday morning so I left camp on Friday night and then E sent me down to school and after my tutorial, we sat in the canteen and he did his work while I worked on my accounting project. The completion of that project is another weight of me. Had chicken rice for dinner at Bishan, went back to his place before going down town for Haagen Dazs. Good stuff.Thursday, March 16, 2006 12:24 a.m.
Spent about 5 hours today doing accounting project and now I'm really scared. I thought it was quite manageable but after today, I think it's actually quite difficult and I'm starting to panic because I'm going to be away in camp for the next 3 days and we have to complete this project by Monday morning. Crap a doo doo. Anyhow, I was doing my project halfway when E called to ask where I was since I was quite near his school. 15minutes later, he was tapping my shoulder and he had a McDonald's McFlurry ice cream in his hand! Very nice suprise and was really sweet of him to walk from his school to Kea building just to get me ice cream. Definitely made project meeting much more bearable. Met up with him after he finished class then we had dinner at Funan, picked up soyabean and headed back to his place for a while. Classes early tomorrow morning and then I will be going into camp. Rather excited about it and glad that it's finally happening after weeks of planning. The only thing bugging me is that I've got moutains of work to catch up and this dreaded accounting project which is making me lose sleep.Tuesday, March 14, 2006 12:34 p.m.
How come the questions in the test always seem much more manageable and easier after you've gotten back your paper and you're going through it than when you're actually in the lecture hall doing it? My accounting tutor was going through our mid semester quiz yesterday and honestly, I thought the questions were chicken feet! Why then did I struggle while doing the test and end up getting such a miserable grade? Anyway, woke up too late to go to school in time so I decided to give classes a miss today. Super tired anyway. It was a long day in school yesterday and after I got home, the sunday school kids came over for dinner and camp planning. Right now, all I want to do is fall back into bed and take a good long nap again. Too tired to function properly.Saturday, March 11, 2006 01:28 a.m.
Decisions decisions decisions. I wished it was much easier and less painful. And I wish I didn't cry so easily. E came over this morning before we both went out to settle whatever we needed to do and we met back at my house again in the evening for dinner. It's always nice having some time together. Cell afterwards, MacDonalds for supper and then some talking in the car. Other than that, I'm glad it's the weekend and I don't have to go to school. The only major spoiler is that I still have plenty of readings to read, tutorials to catch up on and projects to do. I seriously can't wait for summer break. 7 more weeks of pain, 7 more weeks.Thursday, March 9, 2006 10:29 p.m.
Summer plans. Proverbs 16:9: In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.Tuesday, March 7, 2006 09:50 p.m.
It's hard to get moving.Sunday, March 5, 2006 11:12 p.m.
Q) Why did Moses spend 40 years wandering around in the desert?Ans) Because he refused to ask for directions! HAHA. This is what happens when you read too much of "Why men can't listen and women can't read maps." Men just refuse to ask for directions when they're lost. I had a fun time dissecting the book and laughing over many parts with the girls but I have to admit, some parts are really true! Jokes aside, we all know why Moses and the Israelites spent 40 years in the desert right? Spent a few hours with E today after church and lunch at waffletown with the rest. Probably the only time we got for each other this week and will most probably be the case for the next 8 weeks till we're both done with exams, projects (I hate projects) and school. Well, not really complaining because what's 8 weeks of pain for 13 weeks of gain. That's provided I don't end up working in LA during summer. Of course, it isn't just about spending time with him. More than anything, I want to get through this 8 painful weeks without drowning and then enjoy my holidays and do everything and anything I fancy that has nothing remotely to do with school.
Saturday, March 4, 2006 07:18 p.m.
COME FOR THE SEC 1 - SEC 3 MARCH CAMP!We promise you a wonderful, unforgettable time of great fun, amazing games, warm fellowship and learning!
Saturday, March 4, 2006 03:51 p.m.
Have you ever had one of those days when you refuse to move or do anything or even talk to anyone and you cannot give a good reason why you don't want to do anything? Yeah, I felt that way yesterday and today and so this morning, I wanted to give Alex's wedding a miss but my mum yelled at me, said my feelings didn't matter and I was being irresponsible to just lie in bed, not attend the wedding, meet my friends or do anything so I got yelled out of bed. Attended Alex's wedding and I honestly don't regret going for it! I'm actually glad I went for it. It was so simple, so beautiful, so warm! It was really quite great! I think attending the wedding kind of lifted my spirits a little. Janine was really really pretty and everyone was dressed up so beautifully as well! Shopping afterwards for a while before I came home. My dad is away in KL for business and it's unfair that he drove up and didn't take the plane! I wish he flew up instead so that I'll get the car. I feel very immobile. I have truckloads of work and readings to complete this weekend but once again, I don't feel like moving or even doing anything. But I must and I'll probably do a little later before I feel even lousier about not completing my work. I feel very low and down, I cannot give you a good explanation but I think it has a bit to do with everything that's going on and everything I'm involved in so you can't really pinpoint and say that it's work or it's church or it's relationships. Ugh. And it's not PMS in case you're speculating. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------