don't rain on my parade.

Wednesday, March 31, 2004 07:45 p.m.

chickens. just received my SATs admission ticket. don't like it at all.

Wednesday, March 31, 2004 07:08 p.m.

this morning, there was that uniform spotcheck and our class was called up along with 3 other classes. the malay teacher came around picking on us and in total, 14 out of 19 girls in the class were caught for socks! can you believe it?!? 14 out of 19 girls! even aveline and liqing were caught.

ah. she's so biased. she's too biased. 14 out of 19 girls is way alot! goodness. i especially pulled up my socks when we were told of the spotcheck ok. what's wrong with low socks anyway. it's not that our socks can't be seen? besides what does have to do with our grades? surely wearing high socks won't get you 3As?

and it was utterly embarrassing standing in the middle of the assembely yard, taking out our old socks and putting on long thick white socks with half the school staring down at you from the corridors. plus, they confiscated our old socks. argh. i really hate this long socks rule.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004 09:08 p.m.

Lydia just called me from australia!! :) yippie yay yay! 2 months since we last talked! can't wait for her to come back in a month's time to share all her new found knowledge and information.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004 08:29 p.m.

don't feel like studying. i've simply got no mood to do anything.

Monday, March 29, 2004 08:14 p.m.

where will it all end?
4-year old Angelo wakes up and discovers that his new beagle puppy had chewed up his plastic guitar. The little fellow has a fit of grief. Mom's nerves tighten. she naps at husbang Tony as he leaves for the office

still feeling the unhappy send-off, tony greets his secrretary with some cold and unreasonable instructions. she picks up the mood, and at coffee-break tells off a fellow secretary. at closing time the second secretary tells her boss she's ready to quit.

an hour and a half later, after fighting heavy traffic, the boss walks into his house and blurts out angry words to little nelson, who had left his bike in the driveway. nelson runs to his room, slams the door and kicks his scottish terrier.

where does it all end? each person may think he or she had reason to be upset. but what was needed in this imaginary situation was one person who would absort unjust treatment without lashing out. this is when christians have a unique opportunity. by knowing the father's will, by heeding the son's example and by relying on the spirit's help, we can endure bad treatment in order to show others a better way. in chain reactions of frustration and anger, we can be where it all ends.

that's excatly what i'm going to work on (with God's strength and help, of course). i'm trying so hard not to bark back at people when they're chewing half my neck or do something back when they've angered me greatly.

Monday, March 29, 2004 07:52 p.m.

it's a good day today :) minus the fact that i had to stay back to do econs case study and mr ang was so cranky, he was on the verge of snapping.

Sunday, March 28, 2004 04:44 p.m.

yay! I HAVE A PHONE AGAIN! yeah, the number's still the same though and i upgraded my plan too! daddy just decided after church to get me a new phone and settle it once and for all so now i have a 6610!! :) and we were walking around PS waiting for my turn to get the phone when we walked into dorothy perkins and i saw a really pretty black handbag and daddy got it for me!! yayyay! i got another handbag. haha. he says it's consolation that i lost my mobile.

oh. and the dorothy perkins people were so nice. i think they know that i have the shopping card so the manager told me to come back on thursday because new stock is coming in and she introduced me to their new range of clothes and how their theme is candy girl. haha :) daddy was so shocked i had the shopping card for like topshop, perkins, selfridge and karen millen. haha.

oh, and when i was buying the phone and all, the lady serving me just asked if i was from scgs. and i was like yeah! and so i found out she's my senior from the class of 2001! started chatting about the teachers, her a-level results, our mutal friends and all that. haha. so cool! didn't know she recognized me. i really couldn't recognize her! and when i was getting my new SIM card, some girl served us and said she used to stay at our place! haha. the world's so small.

i'm off to captain's ball now!

Saturday, March 27, 2004 12:05 a.m.

just thinking. I really don’t know how I feel towards losing the phone. Sure I felt upset and miserable but I don’t know why. It’s my first time, my father didn’t yell and it’s not as if the phone is the most important thing in my life. I want my phone back but i don't think i'll die if it doesn't return.

It’s so difficult explaining this weird feeling that suddenly washed through me. Feels somewhat like enlightenment. Surely there are more important things in life (like my salvation and the A-levels) and so I will stop mopping around and stop hoping that a phone will drop from the sky. Mommy says I should be thankful that the phone was lost and not my life or something. A bit over exaggerated but it’s true.

So, after this entry, I’ll write no more about losing my phone. Because the fact is that my phone is lost and I must move on because there are simply more important things in life. My father will get me a new phone when he’s ready.

I’m at peace.

Friday, March 26, 2004 11:34 p.m.

i hope i wake up tomorrow and find my phone right next to me.

Friday, March 26, 2004 10:53 p.m.

i told my father about it and he was so totally unemotional. i'll rather he yell at me or scold me for being careless. all he said was "good." i ask him if he could sign for a new sim card and get me a new phone and he said "you sign for your own sim card and pay for your own phone." argh. and he said all those without raising his voice.

i suppose i won't get a phone till he realizes he can't contact me. if he insists i pay for a new phone, that'll be $588. ohman. i feel so lousy now.

Friday, March 26, 2004 06:22 p.m.

I LOST MY MOBILE PHONE!!!! asdfjkhawoeurbndfjnaeradufhbawerjn

arghhh. i think it rolled out of my bag in the bus. so somebody probably picked it up. argh. aewirhpausdhfpaejrpaesnrpaenapienfadwqeirquihwernpafzlr.
so call me at home till i get a new phone.

Wednesday, March 24, 2004 06:17 p.m.

"For nothing is impossible with God" -- Luke 1:37

thank you celest :)

Tuesday, March 23, 2004 05:18 p.m.

after only 2days, i'm sick of school (again). so what if the timetable states that we end early? i end up staying back till 3 plus to do work. yesterday it was geog and math. today it was math. i bet everday, there'll be something to do that will require me to stay back. so much for those 1.10, 1.50 days.

Monday, March 22, 2004 06:03 p.m.

day 1 of term 2! you know how shiok my timetable is? i end at 1.10 on monday, wednesday and friday and 1.50 on tuesday. thursday is a bit off. we end at 5.10! haha. the early days make up for thursday! it's like back to primary school! oh well, but it'll change again once they settle the J1's combination and timetable. i hope it'll be a more even week!

Sunday, March 21, 2004 06:15 p.m.

i'm back from camp! camp was quite okay but i'm so tired. i have to say chang did a wonderful job as camp commandant. got a brief overview of the old testament from WTOT. oh! and on saturday, during class time, i joined the sec4s and kevin and karen were doing "living and dead" so in the begining, we drew pictures of God's creation based on the description of our friends! it was super hilarious to see what people drew :) then after that we discussed the topic of death. we drew out our "wills" and talked about the fastest method to die and the people we would want to meet before dying :) very interesting. a few more thoughts about camp but i'll save it for some other time.

today, the J2 class ushered at shineforth. not a bad experience just that we kind of miss worship since we got to stand around and usher people in. oh! and i came back from church and realized we got a new flat screen computer! no more chunky box! haha. oh well, school's starting tomorrow again. it's too fast! i haven't even really done anything useful during my holidays. this sucks. aye. i wanted to study for the soils test tomorrow then i realized that i didn't copy lecture 8 and almost the entire lecture needs to be copied. great. i don't know what i'm going to do and i didn't even touch math. aye.

Thursday, March 18, 2004 11:21 p.m.

just came back from borders with daddy and sarah! yay! got 4 books in total! "the five people you'll meet in heaven", "the time traveler's wife", "trading up" and "man and wife". yay! quite excited to read all those books especially "the five people you'll meet in heaven" and "the time traveler's wife"! sarah got some book too. haha oh, met melvin and his family there! :)

before borders, went to hotel phoneix for dinner with daddy's sisters. spent the afternoon at upper pierce reservoir! it's really deep in. mommy had to like pack 6 boys at the back of her car. haha. it's really serene and it has this magnificent view of the reservoir with huge untouched forests at the background but there were like an anzillion ants! had a good time there though i didn't get much reading done.

don't think i'll be going early for camp tomorrow, which means i'll miss amazing race :( mommy wants me to stay at home and finish up my homework. was supposed to complete some this morning but nicolle called so we ended up talking for an hour. i doubt i'll be able to finish that pile of homework. don't know if i should stay over tomorrow night. aye, the holidays are coming to an end and i haven't even really enjoyed it.

Wednesday, March 17, 2004 07:34 p.m.

finally! the end of the paper making workshop at the science centre. i'm so tired from standing around, bending down, running around and all! but looking back, i think it was quite satisfying. i had a wonderful time conducting the workshop with jeremy yesterday! he's good in engaging the participants :)

yesterday too, there was this 5yr old angmoh girl called sarah. she was so sweet! she made the paper, drew trees and houses on it, wrote her name and gave it to me at the end of the workshop :) and throughout the workshop, i met like so so many henry park people. truman from p2, isaac from p3, sherman from p4. and some more but i just couldn't remember their names. quite an eye-opener too, met a young girl who attended the workshop today and she had a stroke when she was 3 so she can't really bend and her mind is slightly slower. a primary3 boy who didn't like going to school because of a bully. quite sad when you actually think about it because they're so young and they actually do have problems. aye.

but yes! tonight, my holiday begins! no need to do school stuff, can play all i want and sleep till as late as i want! haha.

Monday, March 15, 2004 11:21 p.m.

came back an hour ago from dinner and chit-chat with chang, zhimei and benphua! haha. chang treated us to crystal jade then zhimei and myself treated him to gelare :)

today was the first day of the paper-making workshop at the science centre. wah. it was super tiring. didn't get much rest in between the workshops. had to make paper pulp, prepare this prepare that and when the workshop started, we had to run around helping the kids and then ironing the recycled paper. the second session was so chaotic and messy. i wonder what it'll be like tomorrow and on wednesday. i'm getting sick of repeating and repeating the whole paper making process.

Sunday, March 14, 2004 11:57 p.m.

Happy fantastic fourteenth birthday Cheryl!! :) grow strong!
Happy birthday Ryan Yang!! i'm sure you don't want me to reveal your age! :)

Sunday, March 14, 2004 05:33 p.m.

christ's perspective vs world's perspective.

Saturday, March 13, 2004 05:26 p.m.

it's the holidays! it's the holidays! yay! so happy. the holidays are finally here. anyway. this morning, went over to east coast park to witness my cousin's baptism. it was my first time seeing a water baptism at the sea :) there were about 15youths and a few adults getting baptized. so proud of my cousin! met his girlfriend too. can't believe she still can recognize me after like a year! haha. oh and i was talking to my little cousin from mgs and she was telling me about jacq's class concert! haha. (jacq! are you glad that even a pri2 girl knows about your class concert? she even knows it for the st.luke's hospital!)

yesterday had cell. wah. only 6 people turned up and our class was locked so we ended up having it along the corridor. haha. did sharing. before cell, went out with yado. we were thinking of cutting our hair but couldn't find a good salon. bleah. bumped into benphua and he was going to meet chang and justineng so we ended up having dinner with them all before going down to cell. i met karen yu at lido too! haha. haven't seen her since like sec4? so cool. she hasn't changed much though. oh! and benphua bought a book from borders about men and women or something like that and i was just flipping through it and i realized why men cannot stand shopping around aimlessly for half hour while women find walking around and window shopping for 3 hours relaxing! so interesting! :)

yeah. better go get changed now. going for dinner to celebrate my cousin's baptism :)

Thursday, March 11, 2004 10:20 p.m.

i love the unknown.

Thursday, March 11, 2004 08:29 p.m.

i'm mightily exhausted! school ended late. after school, had to stay back to prepare for the science centre activities next week. we're going to be conducting workshops to teach little children how to recycle waste paper! haha. but it was so dead today recycling those waste paper over and over again just so that we can give them samples during the workshop! and we have like 240 papers to make! plus, we had to stand up recycling those waste paper. my goodness. at the end of the day, my legs were so tired, it felt as if i've been walking around on 3-inch heels.

yeah! but can't wait for it to be all over on wednesday. on wednesday itself, jeremy and myself will be conducting the workshop so it'll be loud and fun :) haha. hopefully we don't screw things up and embarass ourselves in front of the kids! oh oh! qianhui was dressing up while we were preparing today! she was all black and had some words drawn on her body and all. i think it's to be sent in to perfect10 for some judging to see whether she deserves to win that prize to see blink 182 live in sydney. haha. really cool. i hope she wins :)

got to go prepare cell now. tomorrow's the last day of school! i can't believe i finished 10 whole weeks of school and all it's rubbish!

Wednesday, March 10, 2004 08:12 p.m.

if i had five chances. i'll have already wasted 3 chances to:
1) bimbotic-ness
2) streaks of violence
3) laughing at the one

i'm down to two precious chances! the first wasted chance, i admit, was my fault. the second and third wasted chance is definitely not my fault! i wouldn't have wasted the third chance today if not for sarahwalker and her stupid comment. argh. hahahaha. i must control. i must control. i must control. haha.

Monday, March 8, 2004 06:53 p.m.

whoever has the idea that going for a facial is relaxing, rid it! it's painful. they poke a little, then pinch your face then blood squirts out and finally they extract that yellow root! yikes. just came back from facial with mommy. my face is hurting. i think the lady got irritated because i kept on telling her to stop. haha. wanted to cut my hair but i reckoned that it will take too long so i'll wait till next week.

school was very easy today! going to drop chinese so it means i'll end super early on mondays and thursday would no longer be a 4.30 day! but i don't know if they'll change the time table again once the new batch of J1s come in. i think the school didn't do too well and once again, i'm all panicky.

Sunday, March 7, 2004 08:37 p.m.

bite reality. period.

Friday, March 5, 2004 11:28 a.m.

okay. i'm scared. i am so so scared i won't make the grade and i won't get my B3 and 7/10 for project work. i think i'm going to get a c6. argh! i want my mommy to send me to school! taking the bus will just make me more nervous! ahh. can't imagine what the J3s are feeling right now.

Friday, March 5, 2004 12:13 a.m.

once upon a time, debbie was talking to her two friends. then she saw a bug on her wall. she got scared and started yelling on the computer. after that the bug got nearer and she realized it was a beetle, she started screaming more! but being the twit that she is, she didn't call for her father or her brother and she didn't want to listen to her friends advice to kill it!

so the beetle continued on living. suddenly, the beetle FLEW to her computer area. she was shocked that the beetle could move, jump and fly!! it was the most amazing discovery for her. then mysteriously, the beetle disappeared.

now, debbie, being that twit she is, started panicking. she was afraid the bettle was lurking in some dark corner. All of a sudden, she rolled her chair back and crushed the poor beetle. and being the twit she is, SHE STEPPED ON THE CRUSHED BEETLE!! and so, she had to wash her feet twice and sterilize her leg.

3/4s of the story focussed on debbie being a twit. a dumb twit. now, this last part focuses on her being the WORLD'S GREATEST BIMBO. the twit refused to clean up the crushed bettle because the cleaning equipment was in the maid's room and her maid was sleeping. being the bimbo, she assumed she had to use the MOP to clean some beetle's grave. and i, had to teach her how to pick a few pieces of tissue and clean it up. my goodness.

this is probably the worst narrative story i've ever written. debbie, i officially crown you "world's greatest bimbo" hahahaha. congratulations.

the reason why i wrote this story down is because it's all part of my game plan to get cheryl and herself to talk during cell. (also, i've been forced!) hahahaha. can't believe i even got to bribe them with skittles and M&Ms and i keep on e-socialising (the bimbo's alternative word to msn chatting!) with them, i haven't started on cell stuff. oh my.

Thursday, March 4, 2004 10:24 p.m.

goodness. you know what it's like not having your mother at home fussing around and all?

nobody picks up the phone. nobody rushes you to shower. nobody cares how long you've been sitting and staring at the television. nobody tells you it's late and it's time for bed. nobody nags.

so weird. now the house is exceedingly quiet except for the occasional "your call!" and then the sudden outburst "are the two of you ever going to put down the phone?!" haha.

Thursday, March 4, 2004 06:54 p.m.

oh! all the best to all those recieving their A-level results tomorrow. i'm sure you all will do well :)

quite worried about getting back chinese and project work. was telling sarah that i don't think i can stomach not getting at least a C6 tomorrow. sure, chinese's not that important now and we only need a D7. but what if the ministry decides to change the requirements again next year? And, what if i get E8? then all my friends would be going home early, having breaks and i'll have to retake chinese. and even so, C6 is not at all fantastic.

i guess all this pales in comparison to those recieving their A-level results tomorrow. oh my. sure can't count the butterflies in their stomaches.

Thursday, March 4, 2004 06:38 p.m.

common tests are finally over! don't know about the results though. don't feel so relieved. geog's definitely down and i'm hoping to at least pass econs and math.

went down town after geog for lunch with half the class. then shopped around with szu, claire and sarah before splitting up with szu and claire. ah. szu, i'm sorry i didn't call you back. guess we were both expecting each other to call. sarah and myself walked around somemore. tried the fcuk skirt and i can't remember what else. then came home.

you know what. i don't even know why i'm writing out what i did during the day. what i really want to say isn't really about my day. i don't think i'll be heading up to KL already since i'm too tired and i have to be back by tomorrow evening to lead cell.

Tuesday, March 2, 2004 05:02 p.m.

oh my goodness. the more math sums i do, the more confused i get. and the more i mix up all my formulas. all of a sudden, i can't seem to remember whether integrating lnx gives me 1/x or whether i differentiate 1/x to give me lnx. and all of a sudden too, i've completely forgotten how to do poisson and binomal distribution.

oh my. oh my. hello 3 Fs.

Tuesday, March 2, 2004 11:48 a.m.

it's probably the first F i'm going to get for economics. how glorious.

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