Saturday, March 31, 2007 06:28 p.m.
The boyfriend got into Copenhagen Business School too!! Yay yay yay!!! :) Now hopefully he'll be able to iron out some issues and then we're both off to Denmark this coming August! :)Tuesday, March 27, 2007 08:26 p.m.
So much for wanting a challenging internship! Details of my internship came today and within the span of 8 weeks, I have to do a project on economic hedge vs accounting hedge and organize an event. Oh great. I'm not looking forward to the project because I know nothing about hedging! They wrote down areas they want to expose me to and there seems to be alot of things I need to learn and do at my base department. On top of that, I'll be rotated to another department! My supervisor is some senior VP and he'll be assessing me on the project, my organization of the event, my general work attitude and my ability to handle the tasks given to me so I hope I live up to his expectations! Scary scary but it's going to be a great learning experience and it sounds terribly exciting so yay to a challenging and exciting internship! :)Monday, March 26, 2007 11:42 p.m.
The boyfriend, on finding out that a guy friend of mine is going to earn more money than him, started being all philosophical and went "you know, money is not the most important thing in life! You can have money but no happiness and besides the experience is more important than the pay...""Erm, you're right dear, but maybe your model answer should be something like, as long as I have you in my life..."
"Oh yeah! As long as I have you in my life, I'll never have enough money!!" Hahahaha.
Sunday, March 25, 2007 11:41 p.m.
This afternoon, I was going to take my usual sunday afternoon nap and I told the boyfriend to wake me up in 20minutes time. 2 hours later, I finally woke up and got a fright to know that 2 hours have gone by so I started grumbling. "Why you never wake me up!! I said wake me up in 20minutes! It's already 4.30pm!!" He replies very casually, "Your 20minutes is 2 hours, your 15minutes is 1.5 hours and your 10minutes is 1 hour what. So just nice, you wake up now. What are you complaining about?" Haha. Last night, I threw a tantrum and I don't know why but I somehow just started throwing a tantrum. It isn't one of your throw pillow and tear down the entire house kind of tantrum but it was the silent "I'm not going to talk to you until you talk to me and make everything right and make me happy" kind of tantrums. I was fuming and I refused to let the boyfriend send me home so I stomped off and went home on my own. Haha. Now thinking back, I actually think it's quite comical. Haha. I don't even know why I was throwing a tantrum and for the whole night, I thought my reasons were justified and he was all to blame but then I realized it takes two to clap and I'm partly to blame for it too and it was really unfair to push it all to him so I retreated. Thankfully, E is understanding and patient enough and he didn't blow up. Haha, it's really quite funny and I can't believe I did that.Friday, March 23, 2007 12:17 p.m.
Just reflecting on the week gone by and I recalled the incident at the Careers office on Wednesday Morning. I had gone there to sign a declaration form and I had thought it was going to be quite a simple matter. I passed up the form and the career lady looked at it and said that I wouldn't be able to do my internship at the bank because there was a vested interest and some potential conflict of interest. I was obviously very mad because I didn't think there was any potential source of conflict and so there I was arguing with her and there she was, remaining very stuck in her position that I won't be allowed to do that internship and all. I was really fuming mad because she not only didn't want me to do that internship, she wanted me to rush the bank for the forms and so I left the office, called the boyfriend up and explained to him everything in between sobs. I was deliberating whether I should have lied earlier on on the declaration form so that this issue wouldn't crop up and the career lady would have automatically approve my internship. But there and then, I decided that I made the right choice in not lying and so I decided to just leave it all up to God and just wait for the outcome. A few hours later, the careers lady called back and said that the director of careers and attachement has allowed me to continue on with my internship and that he believes there is no conflict of interest. I was obviously quite relieved and glad because if I couldn't do my own 'self-sourced' internship, I'll have to be assigned to one of the internships the school had posted and to be honest, I wasn't keen on that because it seems as if you only do simple accounting and you're not even given a project or rotated between the departments and I really wanted an internship that would be challenging and interesting and not so accounting focused. On Wednesday, I was quite glad I made the choice to honour God and not lie on the declaration form and I think it reminded me that if I honour God first, He'll honour me too. It also strengthened my belief and gives me confidence in my future decisions to do what is right in God's books, no matter what the World says or trys to get me to do and no matter what the outcome will be.Friday, March 23, 2007 11:42 a.m.
Finally, a day of rest! The control and risk management project has been handed up and I'm finally done with 3 whole weeks of assignments, projects, mid terms and presentations! Finally finally! The madness is finally over! Now, I'm only left with one more marketing case, a communications final presentation and a communications post test before the exams! Yay! BSF yesterday and we were discussing justification by faith and not by works or by honouring the law. Very interesting though it was a little heavy. My grandfather got warded in the hospital yesterday because he had a minor heart attack so we went to see him after BSF. He's going for the Operation this morning so quite worried for him. Apparently his heart is operating at only 85% efficiency because he has quite a bit of vessels blocked. I've declared today my day of rest so I'm going to have my lunch now, do my own things later, have a nap and then head for cell before popping by Mark's 21st at The Oosh.Wednesday, March 21, 2007 10:19 p.m.
I thought the boyfriend was studying and I was impressed that he was concentrating for so long and he was so attentive. Turns out he was playing warcraft and he was just acting hardworking. Haha. HR mid terms was a big flop for me because I barely studied for it and I'm just hoping I'll pass! E came up again so after my mid terms, we went for ramen before coming home. My throat is worst than before and it hurts like mad and my voice is almost gone but I don't know what else I can do or eat to make it better so I really hope I'll wake up tomorrow and it'll be fine because I need to talk!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 09:39 p.m.
My big hungry baby. Haha.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 09:30 p.m.
Today, I owned the entire econs class! Finally! We had this question on government bonds and money supply and we had to do some T-Accounts for the central bank and commerical banks and all the poor engineering students were confused about double entry system and how assets=liabilities and there I was, owning the entire class and making accounting sound so easy! Ha! Finally! For all the times they made me feel like an idiot for being so clueless and slow at differentiation or geometric progression, I finally owned them today! Haha. I am having a real terrible sorethroat right now and after coughing so much, I think I can feel this long tube (gullet?) going down from my throat to my stomach. It's gross and I sound like a man. It's really irritating me but I am also kind of glad it only worsen last night and not on Sunday night because I had 2 presentations yesterday and if my sorethroat was this bad yesterday, I would have most certainly not been able to present. So I guess while I don't exactly welcome this sorethroat, I'm glad I'm suffering now and not any earlier. E came to pick me up from school yesterday, we had a quick dinner before going back to his place to do some work. I have HR mid terms tomorrow and I still have about 300pages of readings and I really don't know how I'm going to finish studying. Wish me well.Sunday, March 18, 2007 10:13 p.m.
The boyfriend happily eating his fried egg (see the egg coming out from the corner of his mouth?) while I scrubbed and washed the dishes. Haha.
Marketing and communications presentation tomorrow and I am so not prepared! I'm quite worried for both of them because I don't know if I've met the task requirements for communications and I can't seem to remember my part for marketing. My throat is also hurting so I'm really not in the mood to give any presentation. Not looking forward to this week because it's going to be another killer week and I'm just waiting for Friday to come!
Saturday, March 17, 2007 08:27 p.m.
The case challenge is finally over! I'm extremely tired. We didn't make it to Top 4 but it doesn't really bother us and I think overall, it was really quite an experience. Case competitions are certainly not easy. I left the event slightly earlier today because I have completely lost my voice and I can't even utter a single word. My entire body feels so weak and I have such a throbbing headache. I don't know how I'm going to prepare for my presentations on Monday and present them and also finish up control & risk management's individual assignment. AUGH.Saturday, March 17, 2007 03:03 a.m.
My sleep cycle is completely screwed already. After the competition yesterday, E came to pick me up, I took a quick shower at home (I hadn't shower and brush teeth for 36hours) before we went out for dinner. He dropped me home, went to church and I was supposed to rest for half an hour, wake up and finish my speech before meeting him for desserts but somehow, I just knocked out till 2.30am. This sucks because I'm still tired and I haven't prepared my presentation and I really wanted to meet E yesterday night! Got to be back at SMU later at 8am for the presentation and I am so not looking forward to it. I hope we don't get gunned down on our financials during the Q&A session. Haha. We somehow managed to finish our case analysis by 5pm yesterday (we had to anyway) and despite the high amount of stress, it was quite fun staying in that small little room with the 3 guys for 20hours because we stole instant noodles, ate like crazy, went mad from the lack of sleep, tied to take cat naps here and there, tried to kill one another and somehow in the process of all that, churn out case solutions. Haha.
Friday, March 16, 2007 07:53 a.m.
It's nearly 8am now and I've been awake for the past 26 hours, save for the half hour nap I had just now when I suddenly knocked off on the chair as I was talking to the guys. The case is quite interesting: coming up with solutions to help Citibank expand into the credit card market, but there's alot of things to settle and it seems like our solutions are very general and it's very physically demanding on us considering we had full days in school yesterday before the case began. Networking dinner last night was also not very beneficial because it was with the consumer banking division of Citibank and to be honest, I think that's one area where most business and accountancy students don't want to go into for various reasons. The only people I've networked with are some SMU people in the committee and we exchanged numbers and all so that we can visit each other in Europe when we do our exchange. Some teams here are especially competitive but the other team from NTU (Daryl, Zhong Wen, Paul and friend) are extremely nice and we're neighbours with each other so we actually share and tallk and it makes things lighter and very much more fun. I think we're all maxed out already and I am a huge mess. I haven't showered since yesterday morning and I feel like some sleep deprived zombie. We still have a lot to cover before the dateline this evening so it's going to be full speed ahead. Honestly, I think all of us just want to quickly finish this up as best as we can, go home sleep and come back tomorrow to present. I don't think we give 2 hoots about making it to the top 4 already because we're dead and we have a whole lot of school work waiting for us and that seriously needs to get done.Wednesday, March 14, 2007 07:21 p.m.
Control and risk management mid terms this morning was a huge boo boo and i completely wasted my time studying for it. The questions looked easy but it was really tricky. The phone call came and I was kind of expecting it but at least now it's confirmed. The job scope's interesting and they're arranging for me to rotate to 2 other divisions but I'm also a little afraid because it's not my area of expertise and I'm afraid I'll screw up or not live up to expectations. Had project meeting before going for econs lecture. Oh my mama, we applied geometric progression and present value calculations in econs today and I almost fainted. The engineering students were the only ones that could answer my tutor when he asked about GP series. I have no idea how I'm even going to pass economic theory. Tomorrow's going to be a long long day. Got classes in the morning, lunch with the vice deans before the 3 guys and 1 girl have to go down to SMU for the Citibank Case Challenge. There's networking dinner tomorrow night before they release the case and we're given 20 hours till Friday 5pm to come up with solutions before presenting it on Saturday. That means we probably won't get much sleep tomorrow night and honestly, I'm already very tired from the past 2 weeks and I still have a whole lot of work to do so I'm not quite looking forward to it. Oh well, hopefully we get somewhere!Wednesday, March 14, 2007 11:47 a.m.
My internship is confirmed! Yay! :) Thank you Lord!Sunday, March 11, 2007 07:21 p.m.
Cheese brownies and some cheese marble cake and white chocolate cheese cake the boyfriend and I bought home the other day. It wasn't too bad and surprsingly, cheese and brownie goes well together but I thought the brownie was a little too chocolately for my liking! I still think that The Cheesecake Cafe and Hilton sells the best cheesecakes because it very light and yummy!
Sunday, March 11, 2007 01:47 p.m.
Just back from church because I'm exhuasted and my head is throbbing! Steve's baptism today and after that, had a quick lunch with Raymond and E. Yesterday was NTU's open house and it was quite fun selling the accountancy and business program to the prosepective students but it was so tiring! The booth was really crowded and all of us were just answering questions non-stop from 1.30pm till 7pm and they even had to queue up to ask us questions! Haha. I don't know how many times I repeated what accountancy is, what we're studying, the job prospects, the campus life, the quality of the faculty, the overseas opportunities, the compulsory internship, the admission requirements and all. I also found out that the Dean of Admissions is our family's close friend so I was talking to him and he's going to help me! :) Mum, Dad, Sarah came up to pick me up and we had korean dinner in town, did a bit of shopping and I tried looking for a black skirt but I can't find any! Even a small doesn't fit because I don't have hips and it's quite depressing because black skirts are supposed to be the easiest thing to find! Came home and slept all the way till this morning before church but I'm still tired.Friday, March 9, 2007 07:54 p.m.
To release all the pent up stress, I went to the hairdressers this afternoon and told her to chop my hair. I didn't give her any instructions and I didn't dare looked at the mirror so now I've got short hair! :) BSF yesterday and after class, we had fellowship where we shared and muched on potato chips! I'm just looking at my next 2 week's schedule and I'm honestly getting really scared. I have two mid terms, one assignment, one report, two projects, three presentations and the citibank case challenge! That's not forgetting tomorrow's open house where I have duties and I have to stay in school the whole day, It's crazy really and as it is, I'm really drained so I don't know how I'm going to live and make it through the next 2 weeks.Wednesday, March 7, 2007 11:36 a.m.
Haven't been going to school for the past 2 days because I'm really tired and there is this general sian feeling all round. Zaneta's 21st birthday party last night and it was a really cosy affair! Dad also crashed his car into a tree (believe it or not) so we've got another car as a replacement and it was quite an experience driving it yesterday because it's heavier and I felt like I didn't really have to accelerate because it's quite powerful. Haha. I forgot to bring a pen to church on Sunday so I got the boyfriend to take down sermon notes on his Palm Treo. He was obliging enough and after that, he sent them to my email with the subject title: "Journey to Calvary with Pilates." I couldn't stop laughing because it was supposed to be "Journey to Calvary with Pilate" Hahaha.Tuesday, March 6, 2007 10:16 a.m.
I got Copenhagen Business School for my exchange university! Woot woot! It's my first choice and I'm really glad I got it because they have my econs classes and Denmark looks like a really lovely place! I also got shortlisted for the GIP program to study at the University of St. Gallen in Switzerland so I have to attend some interview this week. I'm not too sure which university to choose if I eventually get the University of St. Gallen because I don't know if I want to go to Switzerland or Denmark or which of the 2 schools is better because they're both really good. More choices and even more decisions to be made. I'm not too sure if I'm ready to leave this August and spend the rest of the year in some european country. I know it will be a good experience and I should really just seize this opportunity and forget my fears or whatever but there are just so many other considerations! I hate making difficult decisions.Monday, March 6, 2007 10:13 p.m.
The company law assignment is killing me! How can they expect us to churn out some 1800 word report within 18 hours? There are so many directors duties to discuss but honestly, I'm not too sure which one fits into this question. Augh.Monday, March 5, 2007 11:49 a.m.
We got into the finals of the Citibank Case Challenge! Yay :) The competition's going to be held over 3 days next week and I think it's going to be very demanding and the case will definitely be very difficult but I guess it'll be a good experience since we'll be competing against the best teams from the 3 universities!Sunday, March 4, 2007 09:24 p.m.
I think there was supposed to be some documentary on Discovery Channel showing James Cameron (director of Titanic) uncovering Jesus' and Mary's tomb and how he claims they were once married but I think it's either showing at 10pm or next Sunday. I think it's quite similar to what Dan Brown was trying to argue in his book that Jesus and Mary was once married. I don't quite know the facts and all because I haven't watched the documentary and I've only been reading bits of it from the newspaper or on the Internet. Well apparently, since the tombs were found in the same plot of land, they must be family since in ancient times, families are buried together. Of course, your historians, archaelogists and theologians argue the bones of Jesus was just another man that was named Jesus and how names like Jesus and Mary (maria) were really common at that time and they bring out bible verses about how this kind of discovery will be prevalent as we approach the end times and say that the pharisees and opponents of Jesus would have discovered it at that time and used it to refute the disciples claims that Jesus rose from the dead. They also say it's impossible to conduct some DNA testing because we never had any DNA from the real Jesus. Interesting discussion and it's causing quite a stir so it'll be nice to hear what the church has to say about this even though my personal opinion on this new discovery is that it's really bull (long reasons) and it just makes for good television. Well, more on this when I get a clearer picture! I go back to school tomorrow and I'm so not looking forward to it. Business communications mid terms the first thing in the morning and after that, I've got like 18 hours to complete some company law assignment that is worth 20% of my grade. I'm not feeling very confident because writing doesn't come easy for me and company law is really confusing. For the next 3 weeks, I have assignments, projects and more tests and thinking about it gives me a mega headache. I'm honestly starting to feel like I'm losing control of everything. Lunch today at Soup Spoon with the usual church folks before I came home to nap. I've really been catching up on my sleep this mid semester break! Dinner with E last night at Ikea Tampines before we watched some ridiculous chinese show on Channel 8. Haha. Friday night after cell, we drove down to Changi village for my favourite yummy dessert (apparently it's not on the menu and only the commandos know about it) and his ji pah hor fun. Took a walk down the Changi broadwalk, he drove us past his camp, the spooky old changi hospital and Changi prison. The prison looks like a huge complex though I can't seem much of it but the high walls and the shutters make it look so cold and lonely inside. I really wonder what it's like in there and for those few minutes, I felt like going in there to give all of them a hug.Friday, March 2, 2007 04:19 p.m.
I'm already into my 5th lesson at BSF and it has really been a good time of learning! For the past 3 weeks, our theme was justification by faith and we examined God's grace and God's wrath. I think often, many people (including myself) think that either God's grace or God's wrath exists but we find it hard to believe that both co-exist at the same time or that a God of grace can still judge his people and pour out his wrath. We think that if God is a God of Grace and he's so merciful and forgiving, we can keep on sinning and all. But God's wrath is still present and while it's true he forgives, by repeatedly sinning, we're essentially storing up wrath for ourselves and at the end of the day, we're all still accountable to God. For a long time, these 2 concepts of God's grace and wrath have really been just head knowledge. I know that God's grace and wrath exists but I don't truly understand and I don't think I really realize it. But thankfully, I'm slowing able to allow my head knowledge of God's wrath to become heart knowledge and I think because of that, it has made me more conscious of my sins and I realize how wretched a sinner I am. The mid semester break has been a really good time of rest. But it has also been a week of internal struggles, a week of heartaches and a week where my head is just filled with so much thoughts, worries and anxiety. At this point, I am struggling to hold fast to my Christian faith, the biblical principles and the promises of God and not get sucked into the rat race or mindlessly chase after material goods and worldly pleasures. It's a difficult balance and it's very easy to get sucked in. My consolation is that God has a plan for me and through this, I'm really learning to be patient and learning to put all my trust in Him and not in my own abilities. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------