Tuesday, February 28, 2006 11:26 p.m.
Skipped econs lecture today and instead, went out for ice cream at Scoopz with Juan Juan. Haha. The only reason why I'm feeling guilty now is because I've added more calories to myself and I didn't exercise today. Peach ice cream was really good though! Mummy lent me this book "Money & Wealth in the new millennium" It's a prophetic guide to the new world economic order and I can't wait to start reading it once I'm done with the IT quiz this Thursday especially since I now know much more about the huge current account deficit the USA is facing, the possibility of a worldwide financial crisis and the makings of the Asian Financial Crisis in 1997 after econs class yesterday. I believe it'll be interesting trying to bring in and put the biblical and economic perspective together.Monday, February 27, 2006 10:52 p.m.
This morning, the sun was shining so brightly and as I entered the school and saw how the sun shone on the buildings, realized how relatively quiet the roads were at 825AM and noticed the flowers in the trees, everything looked so fresh, so welcoming, so serene, so clean, so warm. I felt like I was somewhere else and it was almost like one of those pictures you find in the glossy overseas university prospectus. Somehow, I felt so excited to enter this place of higher learning and let my brain get tickled by some interesting theory, be challenged intellectually or to gain some fresh insights. After feeling some sort of bliss for probably a mere 30 seconds, I snapped out. The sun was still shining brightly, everything still looked fresh. But who am I kidding? Behind those grey buildings, I was going to get shot down (in every aspect), going to feel terribly lousy in a matter of minutes, going to get shackled with yet another project or test to study for and I was going to feel so small against those who speak up fearlessly in class, those who complete all their assignments and readings and understand everything the tutor says and those who are active in their CCAs and are yet seemingly running without any sweat to first class honours. School honestly tires me out. Sometimes I just want to throw my work, my grades, my readings to the wind and just heck care about everything to do with school. But I can't. Mid semester break went by in a flash. Sure I managed to complete my assignments but I'm still lagging behind in my readings and I'm still clueless about my tutorials. I don't know. School really just drains me of everything. No doubt I am learning new things that never fails to get me all excited intellectually (like analyzing the USA's current account deficit and all) but it's tiring. I wish things could go a little slower, that I could take time to appreciate the different modules, that projects weren't so demanding, that we weren't loaded with so much work and that I could manage everything much better and excel at the same time. Ah yes, that I could manage everything much better and excel at the same time. In other news, I ran when I came home from school just now. I am fat and I need to lose weight. Got an eye infection too and my right eye is all red and it's irritating me because it hurts each time I blink. Hopefully, it'll be gone by tomorrow.Sunday, February 26, 2006 01:23 a.m.
Went for the Asian Aerospace 2006 today with E because I managed to get hold of 2 VIP tickets and a car park label so we met my cousin, aunt and uncle there. Was really hyped up and excited about it but after it all, I guess it was just ok. We caught the aerial show but it wasn't even entertaining and rather disappointing because it was just a few sophisticated fighter jets flying and doing some flips and 90degree ascent and all then finally, it was the Airbus A380 which was really short and fat but really silent compared to the normal commerical planes and probably the only flying plane you could take a picture of. I guess it was just nice walking around but I wouldn't pay $21 for it and cram with everyone else and take the shuttle bus. There was hardly any solid display! The aerial display at the national day is probably better, it's not like I'm going to buy a plane engine and the exhibitor's booths were rather boring or empty since trade days are over and the planes on display were all those private jets, it was boring. They don't even give out those small plane models anymore and you can't walk into the private jets! The cool thing was that I realized the F16s travel faster than sound because you see them first before you hear them. I believe having lunch, and sitting at the sponsor's chalet pavillion sipping champagne, eating crackers and watching the planes fly by is probably the best thing. Saw the President and Teo Chee Hean at the lounge too but no big deal. Really. The only thing we got out of the show was a burnt face, arms and legs and I got horrible tan lines at all the weird places like my feet, arms and neck. After the show, we went down to Dan's house for Jac's birthday dinner/cookout with the usual bunch. We had lamb, mushroom soup, salad, pasta, wine and ice cream cake :) Food wasn't too bad (edible at least) but I guess the company, sitting around chatting and all is still the best. Happy Birthday once again Jac! I hope you enjoyed yourself and our cooking! I want to go out with you soon because I realized I miss you! Dinner last night at Newton before cell started with E, Eunice and James. Church tomorrow and school starts again on monday. Bleah.
Invitation card/ F16/ Military plane/ Airbus A380/ plane engine/ Airbus's booth/ E/ comparison of Boeing&Airbus/ homecooked dinner/ jac&dan/ half of the dinner folks.
Thursday, February 23, 2006 03:49 p.m.
Absence makes the heart fonder. Yes? Or, Absence makes the heart wander?Which is it?
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 05:30 p.m.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAC :)Wednesday, February 22, 2006 05:25 p.m.
Business law assignment is killing me. I know what I need to write, I've more or less gotten my points but I just don't know how to write. I hate lawyers too because they write so damn well, they use up all the good words and when I'm trying to write my assignment, I end up using the same words as them and attempting to rephrase those words would just destroy the entire meaning of the sentence but copying their words would just mean that I'm plagiarizing their work. How in the world do you rephrase "Statutes are laws that are enacted by Parliament"? Gosh. I had grand plans today to complete this work and that work. But once again, my grand plans are falling apart and I'm lagging behind already. I've really no idea how to stick to my time table and I don't know how to get myself motivated to do work.Tuesday, February 21, 2006 12:07 a.m.
Sushi, shopping and girlfriends time today. Fantastic. Fantastic. Save for the fact that I had to endure accounting project meeting after all that but thankfully it was much better than I had expected. I've resolved to better manage my spendings too. E's helping me with that. Last Monday, I completely spent my entire weekly allowance my mum gave me in the morning on earrings and I can't remember what else. Today, I had only $5 left from the $52 I had in the morning after sushi and shopping. I need to learn how to be more responsible with my money and start saving. It's definitely going to be hard and I hope I stick to my resolution and not return to careless spending so quickly but I think there'll now be less shopping, din tai fung, sushi, cheesecakes and ben&jerrys for a while. Tomorrow, I shall attempt to hit the books before they hit me back in about 8 weeks time at the exams. Juan - I hope things are ok. I'm sure everything will turn out fine in the end. Stay strong and we're always here :)Sunday, February 19, 2006 11:23 p.m.
Seems like a pretty long day today and I just want to jump into bed right now and get myself into the holiday mood since it's afterall mid semester break but I have to do my accounting project. Ugh. I'm probably going to spend my entire mid semester break doing projects and projects and more projects. If I have time after that, I'll then have to catch up on my studies. Ugh. Church today then it was lunch in the canteen with the guys before I went over to E's to do a project before heading over to my grandma's again. Pretty much the usual, except that my father praised me on my driving skills today and E's mum gave me this huge red fish konayaku jelly that I want to eat right now but my mummy thinks it's too pretty, we have to display it in the fridge for another day before we consume it. Haha. Accounting test on Friday was a real pain. I'm not really confident about that one and considering we lose half a mark if we answer wrongly, even if I do get half the questions correct, I'll still end up failing. Good thing was after that, Juan Juan and myself went down to Newton for some really fattening but yummy oyster omelette and fried prawn noodles before I went back down to cell for a while. Saturday was 'be domesticated day'. I baked cookies right from the scratch, all by myself, for my dearest boyfriend. Amazing. Truly amazing. There was so much tragedy involved, I'm amazed I pulled out of it and he didn't choke on them. Haha. Can I also please boast that I did it all by myself without my maid's help? First four batches turned out burnt and only after a while, I mastered it with the perfect shape, colour and taste. Spent close to 4 hours doing it before I went shopping at Ikea, met E and then headed over to Ben Tan's house for fellowship and dinner with some of the church people. I don't want to make you puke but I suspect I'm the next big thing in the baking scene. Yes, yes. Not the next big thing in the banking scene but the baking scene. Watch out Famous Amos! Hahaha. Anyhow, I'm going out tomorrow to shop with Juan Juan, then we're going to meet Shuhui for some studying and then we girls are going to pig out on sushi before I go for my accounting project meeting at 6! Thank goodness sushi has little fat. I'm excited! Good food, good company! Oh yes, before I forget, no one tell my father after you read this or else I'll cut your head off. But on Friday while I was driving up to school on the PIE and there was this massive jam, the Honda car in front of me braked really late. So to prevent myself from banging into him, I applied the emergency brake, everything on my passenger seat flew front and guess what, the motorcycle behind me bumped into daddy's car and gave it some scratches right on top of the exhaust. I heard this thud and then I looked in my rearview mirror, saw the motorcyclist and then he drove off. Super scary and after that I was driving along the expressway at about 40Km/h. Thank God I have a boyfriend who's into cars so after dinner with Juan, I drove down to church and he used his car wax to wipe away the scratch marks. I think you can still feel the scratches but at least it's not visible. Really really really Thank God or else I'll probably be banned from driving my dad's car ever or I'll have to downgrade and drive a 1.6litre. Thank God.Thursday, February 16, 2006 06:57 p.m.
I think one of the biggest news today is the move by the Police to keep teenagers under the age of 17 off the streets after 11PM or else their parents would be notified if they're caught loitering by the Police! Haha, when I heard it this morning on the radio, I couldn't believe my ears and only after checking the newspapers, did I believe it. Haha, I couldn't contain myself so I messaged my sister and started frightening her and telling her to come back by 11PM or else the Police will call my mum. Haha. The reason why they're doing this is because more teens under the age of 19 (thank God I'm 19years and 7 months so this is not applicable to me) are committing more crimes like rioting and theft and they are also falling victims to crime. I don't know what to make of it. I don't know if I'm in full support of this whole move or I am against it. I bet the young punks that hang around Orchard Cineleisure late on Saturday nights will probably hate the Police and they're probably bitching about it and plotting ways to work their way around it. I guess those that don't even stay out late probably wouldn't bother. In general, I'm assuming parents that quarrel with their youths over their curfew timings are doing a little dance since they can now threaten their kids that the police will catch them. I honestly don't know what to make of this. It's like a statewide curfew (i'm thinking of those curfew which was imposed on the whole nation during the 1950s, 1960s) and if I'm 16, I'll probably make a big fuss out of it. Right now, I'm 1 year 5 months away from watching my first RA movie so this doesn't bother me but rather, it's like a joke to me. Haha. But, I'm thinking if such a move is actually necessary. Shouldn't it be the parents responsibility to ensure that they look after their child, educate them well and make sure their kids don't go out and start a fight and are back home doing their work or resting? Is the Police taking things a bit too seriously? Are they going to be proactive in catching these teenagers and notifying their parents? Is it really going to decrease the crime rates? The teenagers can always shoplift at 3PM! They don't have to do it at 11:30PM! They can always pick a fight and riot at 6AM in the morning while they're waiting for their school bus and it's still dark! What does it really mean by loitering? If the church youths hang around Caltex Station (like we always do on Friday nights) past 11PM, are their parents going to get a call? If you're 15 and you're walking along the roads or getting a quick bite at the nearest coffeeshop at 1145PM because you just finished your part time job at Macdonalds, would the Police let you off? If you're 17 and you're at the Prata Place with your friends and you've just finished eating and you're letting you stomach rest and at the same time, having a chitchat with your friends before you guys head home, is the Police still going to notify your parents? What if your parents know that you're out hanging out at some place? It's really actually quite funny and I don't know which other country does that. The scandinavian countries? I'm waiting for my sister to come home so that I can laugh at her. Hahaha, but I hope my dad doesn't use that against me and say that I have to be home by 11PM too because I might become a victim or whatever because I will really kick up a big fuss. I also have this urge to roam around Cineleisure this Saturday night and laugh at the below 17kids that have to return home. Haha, but I'm not that mean and the ever ready and reliable police might decide to increase the age to 21 and then I'm screwed. Haha. In other news, SMU has raised their school fees by 15%. I think that means those entering this new academic year will have to pay something like $7500! Gosh! That's quite alot for a local education even though I know the Americans probably pay more and all. Thank goodness my fees are only like around $6200. They had this debate on the radio station this morning about the fees hike and whether universities should be more transparent and all and quite a number of students and alumni of both NTU and NUS were calling in, airing their grievances and slamming the school and the government. Haha. I promise you my thoughts on that some time soon. Right now, I have to start revising for my accounting exam tomorrow night unless I want to get a miserable grade.Tuesday, February 14, 2006 11:52 p.m.
E came over just now and surprised me with his presence and Hilton's cheesecake! Haha. The whole surprise thing was really hilarious and surprising (naturally) and how it all started was because I couldn't come out tonight because I had something on till 830PM. So after E was done with class at 7PM, he drove down to The Cheesecake cafe at Siglap to get me my favourite cheesecake and he wanted to wait downstairs with it till I came home. But the cafe was closed so he ended having to drive back down again to Orchard and pop into Hilton to get me cheesecake instead! Haha. The funniest thing about this whole surprise was that he didn't want to let me know about it and since he couldn't be downstairs my house in time when I got home because he had to travel back to Orchard, he called Jac up and told her to come up with something that would make me go downstairs. So my goodfriend called me up, told me to go down and collect the Canola Oil from her because her father was delivering it to our house. Haha. Well, the amusing (and rather coincidental) thing was that my mum just told me yesterday to email Jac to inform her mum that we'll need 4 bottles of canola oil! I really thought Jac was going to bring it over (because she did it last time) but the thing is that I haven't sent the email and my mum was like saying she didn't send it also so it was weird that they were delivering when we haven't ordered but anyway, I told mummy to go down and collect it with my maid because I was going to shower. Mummy went downstairs (with the money even) and E was waiting downstairs too and he got such a shock when he saw my mum and maid instead of me. Haha, after explaining himself to my mum, he came up, walked into my room and gave me one of the biggest surprises of my life! Hahaha. Afterwards I couldn't stop laughing about it when he told me everything! Haha. Another mini surprise too was that E got me both the cheesecakes I like from Hilton! Before I untied the ribbon on the silver box, E asked me what cheesecake I liked because I've never brought him there before so he doesn't know what I eat from there. I said American cheesecake and the oreo cheesecake and lo and behold, he got those two cheesecakes! Haha. Oh well, I totally didn't see it coming because we agreed to meet up tomorrow instead and Jac was certainly way too convincing that she ended up making my mum go down instead of me. Haha. Good job Jac! By the way, I really need 4 bottles of canola oil. Haha. Had a romantic lunch with Shuhui and Juan Juan today in school at the cafe by the Quad and we munched on the best pineapple tarts, chocolates and sipped coffee half way during lecture so it was a really fantastic day in school as well! Seeing E, spending some time with him and getting such a nice surprise (not forgetting having fattening but yummy cheesecake) just made the day even much more fantastic! :)Monday, February 13, 2006 11:16 p.m.
Did I also mention my little, sometimes very annoying sister (whose lovelife is probably way more exciting than mine) wanted to get me a stalk of rose just now from some girls that were selling them at the train station? Sarahwong! you're just so cute sometimes I want to hug you and press your stomach. Hahahahaha.Monday, February 13, 2006 10:55 p.m.
Went to get a haircut today after school because I was really quite frustrated with how thick it was and how I think I messed up my fringe while I tried cutting it yesterday. Chopped off about 3 inches and gosh, I feel lighter. Haha. Went with my sister to get our eyebrows done too and then went earring shopping together and spent all the allowance our mum gave us this morning. Haha. Skipped Accounting tutorial this morning. I don't know why but I think it's partly because I didn't really do my work and I didn't want to go down there and get shot down by the relief tutor. Found out my econs tutor is a really brillant, intelligent and humble person. I like her and I hope she gets the job at the IMF. My business law tutor is equally brillant too and he gives us very interesting insights into the cases we're analyzing even though he blabbers fun nonsense half the time. Anyhow, weekend was great time of resting. Had my daddy's car on Saturday so decided to pick E up instead and then we went for cell leaders meeting in church before we went down to Orchard, had sushi and walked around and tried to do some shopping. I found a hot pink satin heels that were on discount and it was such a good deal and so gorgeous, I wanted to get it but guess what, they didn't have my size! Why why why! Just when I found beautiful cheap shoes! So anyway on Sunday after church, E and myself went back looking for them but they still didn't have my size. It sucks really. Bummed around at his house before I went to my grandma's house for chap gor meh dinner. School again tomorrow! 2nd last day before mid semester break! Meeting Juan earlier to do some studying and to have lunch toether. I'm starting to panic for the accounting test this Friday! I don't know what they'll test or what the big picture in accounting is, I'm scared. I hope I pull through.Thursday, February 9, 2006 06:17 p.m.
IT lesson this morning was mindblowing! As much as I hate it that I spent hours yesterday doing my excel assignment, I have another microsoft access going to take me hours to do assignment due after the mid semester break and I have to wake up early for class, the class is absolutely mindblowing. My tutor is interesting and he shares so much about technology, information systems in the world that it just increases my general knowledge. It has really nothing much to do with technology and today, I was just fascinated with NRIC numbers, matriculation numbers and what they mean, ER modeling and databases. Anyway, got details in the email today about the summer internship in Los Angeles. I've got the job at a German shipping firm's branch in Los Angeles during summer. I don't know if I'm glad about it right now, it's a bit confusing and I reckon I just have to decide if I want to accept it or do something else during summer. I guess whatever I choose, there will always be a tradeoff. I'll have to forgo some tangible and intanglible stuff, face up to whatever consequences it might bring if I accept the summer internship and I'll probably gain some things but lose maybe the experience, exposure and the money if I choose something else over the job in LA. I don't want to say what my reasons are for wanting to go and not wanting to go here but ask me personally and I'll probably share with you and ask for your wise opinion too. I guess what my OB tutor Jimmy Wong once said is really true. Well, the best option available right now is to do a cost-benefit analysis and weigh my choices carefully and objectively. I don't want to leave room for regrets. I want to go for a run (I feel so fat!) but it's raining and I hope the rain stops soon.Wednesday, February 8, 2006 11:58 p.m.
Don't laugh at me but I dug and cleaned my boyfriend's ears today. Haha. E came over today to study and after we were back home from a MacDonald's lunch, we were both so tired, full and restless, I decided to dig his ears for him because last Friday when he came over, he showered and I gave him cotton buds to clean his ears and the cotton bud came out yellow. This guy has never ever dig his ears and he doesn't even use cotton buds to clean his ears after his shower. So I dug and dug and cleaned out almost all the ear wax, I felt so good and clean even though it wasn't my ears. My mum thinks I'm obsessed with cleanliness but I maintain that I did it out of love and not because I am obsessed with clean ears or I'm disgusting. There's still some left but it's a bit deep in and I'm going to do it when I'm bored again. Haha. There was so so much ear wax, even he was amazed his ears could store up so much ear wax. Haha. I even donated a packet of cotton buds to him and made him promise that he'll clean his ears after he showers each time. Now, he has no more excuses when he says he can't hear me when I say I want to go shopping or have sushi or pasta for dinner. Haha.Tuesday, February 7, 2006 09:50 p.m.
Do you think everything else in life is much more manageable and bite sized if your family life and personal relationships are coming along just fine? Because you know that you can always turn to them for help, advice or whatever and that you'll always have their love and support? It seems like it. Especially after having a good 45 minute talk with mummy last night. Anyhow, went back to school today for 2 lectures and Shuhui, Juan Juan and myself ended up talking (mostly about food) the entire time during the second lecture. Haha. We girls are going to have bak chor mee this Thursday, marina south steamboat and sushi during our mid semester break and hopefully din tai fung this coming monday! I'm so excited! Can't wait to chomp down all those delicious food. Haha. Let's not forget our plans to eat cheesecake and I want to bring them to eat crab noodles soup! Haha. Went to Jurong Point after lectures with Juan for butterfly buns and I managed to get a top at a discount! Feeling much better already. Yesterday wasn't exactly a great day. It probably didn't help that I had only about 4 hours of sleep and I was worried about the Econs test. I felt it was hard to participate during business law and then we had this make up tutor for our accounting tutorial because my tutor is serving the nation and gosh, she really sucks. Oh well, thank God she's a relief tutor. Sunday was church and then lunch with E, Adrian, Justin, Raymond and Guangzhao at United Square before we had ben&jerrys! I think coke and ice cream are my comfort food. I actually suspect I'm addicted to coke. Oh well, studied in church for an hour or two while E played soccer with the guys then went back to his house for dinner with his family and his mum taught me how to play mahjong! It's quite interesting so I'm going to play it again the next time I go there and hopefully, I'll master it soon! Quite tired now but I'm probably going to try to do my IT excel assignment which is due this Thursday. I hope it doesn't take too long.Saturday, February 4, 2006 11:56 a.m.
My grand plans yesterday to finish up all I have to study for the econs test this monday was not grand at all. Ended up only spending about 1.5 hours on econs and it was so dry (think graphs, MR, ATC, MC curves) I ended up stoning for most parts of the day or running to my laptop to entertain myself with some interesting reads on the internet. Thankfully, E came over with lunch after he was done with relief teaching at Barker and motivated me to study a little bit more till we went for cell since he was also attempting to study for his management accounting test this morning. Feeling really lethargic this morning and really don't know how much econs I can squeeze into my head before I go to my aunt's place in the evening to celebrate 2 of my aunt's birthday. I don't want to study! Ugh.Thursday, February 2, 2006 11:52 p.m.
Econs tutorial was so draining but relatively useful today that right after the lesson, I bought myself a cup of coke, sat down in the canteen just to let my brain cool down and have some time to myself. I know, rather loserish but Jac called just as I sat down so I talked to her for almost an hour before I trained down to City Hall to meet E and have dinner at some Hong Kong restaurant near his place before we went back to his house to relax. Was originally intending to train down straight after econs and sit at Starbucks and revise Econs (I have approx 7 more chapters to go and the test is this monday!) till E finished school but I'm glad I didn't do that because I don't think my brain could take it and I'm glad I talked to Jac. No school tomorrow and I probably can afford to sleep in a little but I hope I make full use of my day before I go for cell in the night. I always have these grand plans to revise this chapter and that chapter and to do this and that but when I actually wake up, everything's haywired and I become super unproductive and that sucks. I need to learn how to concentrate harder, be more productive in my readings and be more self disciplined. Yeah, I think what I really need is self discipline.Wednesday, February 1, 2006 10:59 p.m.
Selena Tan! My take on jealousy, or at least what I taught at cell the other night :) and to anyone else who wants to know more about jealousy. Let's begin by asking ourselves a few questions. Is jealousy a worldly characteristic? Is jealousy all that bad? Is one of the attritbutes of God a jealous God? If we've answered Yes to all 3 questions, isn't there a contradiction now? How can jealousy be a worldly characteristic and yet our mighty and holy God has that characteristic too? How can we reconcile that? First, let's get it straight. Our God is a jealous God. Exodus 20:5 tells us so. "... for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God." So what kind of jealousy does God possess? Is it any different from the jealousy that we posses? Consider this few verses:Joel 2:18 " Then the Lord will be jealous for his land and take pity on his people. "
Zechariah 1:14 "... I am very jealous for Jerusalem and Zion."
Zechariah 8:2 "...I am very jealous for Zion; I am burning with jealousy for her."
2 Cor 11:2 "I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy.
Let's then consider the times we've been jealous.
I'm jealous of that girl because she got 5.0 for her GPA and she's the club president and she excels in everything she does.
I'm jealous of that other girl because she's flirting with my boyfriend.
I'm jealous of that girl because she has all the nice clothes and she drives a lexus. What's the difference between this 2 jealousy? If you haven't noticed, God is jealous FOR us but in our case, we're jealous OF someone. What then does it mean by God is jealous for us? It means that he is jealous for us to know the true God, for us to be kept from the evil one that always comes to knock at our door to lure us away. God is jealous for us to be His only and for us to be prepared and ready for the bridegroom when he comes. God is jealous for our best. He knows (and thousands that have gone before us can testify to this) that a life with Him, despite the many trials and temptations we face, is better and much more worth it than a life that follows the world. The jealousy that many of us, many a times, possess is a characteristic of worldly behavior. (1 Cor 3:3). Inward jealousy can become an outward violent expression as we have seen in 1 Samuel where King Saul who was jealous of David especially after coming back from war and hearing the women cry out " Saul has killed thousands and David, his tens of thousands" and Saul had tried to throw spears at David while David played his harp and even sent David out to fight the Philistines because he wanted David to be killed in the process. You don't even have to look at King Saul to know that inward jealousy can become an outward violent expression. You read in the newspapers about a jealous ex husband who looked up his wife then shot her and himself so that they'll both die together and she won't get to live with her new lover. Or how about the times we spread nasty rumours about someone which aren't true simply because we're jealous of them or of what they have? Having said that the jealousy we possess is often a wordly kind of jealousy. Can we possess a godly kind of jealousy? In my opinion, yes! We can be jealous for someone's salvation especially if we know of the saving grace. I'm jealous for my cell girls or my sunday school class because I want them to have a living and real relationship with God, to walk in his ways, to obey Him and to live for him only despite the trials they face. I'm jealous for my sister and all my friends because I want them to walk the straight and narrow path and to seek the Lord constantly and always walk in his ways and have the abundant life. Ah. So my take on jealousy. I hope I made myself clear. There's indeed a clear distinction between being jealous FOR someone's best and being jealous OF someone's best. I pray you and I move away from being jealous OF someone's best and slowly steer ourselves to be jealous FOR someone's best. No doubt it isn't easy and jealousy seeps into our lives very easily, and even if we call ourselves Christians, jealousy still prevails in our lives, but I believe with God's grace and strength, we can slowly rid worldly jealousy out of my lives. For shouldn't we be contented that we've got the eternal life and we know the Lord Almighty and who cares whethere we've got 5.0 for our GPA, a five figure salary job waiting for us when we graduate, nice clothes and prada shoes to wear, a doctor for a boyfriend or even a big house, a 2 door car or a good body with a waistline of only 24inches? :)
Wednesday, February 1, 2006 10:31 p.m.
Had steamboat for dinner just now which wasn't too bad! I'm stuffed to my maximum now! Soup was slightly bland in the beginning but I guess after adding in the fishball, fish, meat, prawns and all, it became rather tasty. My mum's getting better at this. Finally. Haha. Well, E drove me up again to school today and he studied in the canteen for 6 hours while I went for both my accounting makeup tutorial and business law makeup lecture before we came back to my place for steamboat. Couldn't understand consideration in business law today. It's so confusing, I don't know especially when there is sufficient consideration. Anyway, IT lesson at 830AM tomorrow is cancelled so hooray! But I have to be back in school for econs makeup tutorial at 230PM which sucks because it means I have to travel 3 hours just to attend a 2 hour tutorial. Can't skip it though because class attendance equals our class participation marks. Well I actually don't have to go back to school this week if not for all the makeups. Ugh. Hoping to receive good news either tomorrow morning or friday morning. I don't feel like sleeping tonight and I just want to keep on refreshing my webpage but it won't bring the news any faster. Besides, it might come later. I just hope the news don't disappoint because I don't want to deal with such a critical and damn difficult dilemma. My heart just beats so fast. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------