Sunday, October 29, 2006 06:07 p.m.
Micah 6:8 "... What does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God."Friday, October 27, 2006 06:02 p.m.
The boyfriend waltzes into my house, brings with him french vanilla and tiramisu ice cream and immediately makes my horrible day ten times better!Friday, October 27, 2006 11:43 a.m.
I was rudely woken up this morning by my maid at 950am because she said they were going to sterilize and clean the water tanks so there'll be no water from 10am onwards. I can't live without morning showers so I literally jumped out of bed and into the cold shower straight away. Haha. Mum left last night for Israel and seriously, the house was noticeably quieter last night. Everything was slightly haywired too! Haha. I came home past midnight and my dad was don't know doing what when he's usually in bed by 1030pm, my sister was still awake when she has a morning paper today and my maid was listening to her music. Haha. I'm missing my mum and she'll be gone for the next 3 weeks because after working for 10days in Israel, she's going to take a 5 day holiday and tour Israel and the Holy Land (I'm so so envious) and before flying back, she's stopping over Bangkok for some trade show. I hope she takes lots and lots of photos of Israel! Yesterday morning, the boyfriend told me he was going back to his school to do his project but instead, drove all the way up to my school to mini surprise me and to study on his own while I went for classes. After my classes, he bumped into his AC friends so they talked, we hung out at the canteen before we went down town for dinner at the Manhattan Fish Market and then back to his place to watch TV and I tried learning how to play winning eleven but to no avail. Haha. While I may not be good at my controls, I think I'll make a fantastic football manager because I know exactly when to subsitute players or what strategy to take on at the different times and because of me, England (controlled by E) won Portugal 2-0 and on their second game, beat Portugal 3-0 on penalties! Haha.Wednesday, October 25, 2006 10:38 p.m.
I didn't go to school today because my wisdom tooth is coming out and it hurts quite badly so I haven't been sleeping well for the past 2 nights. I'm being a big chicken right now now because I don't dare to pluck it out! I'm scared to even open my mouth to let the dentist see it. And I thought I used to be quite fearless of injections and extractions and whatever. I remember walking out of the clinic, after extracting 2 teeth for my braces, smiling at my dad and telling him it was way cool and I couldn’t feel anything and then drooling blood as I talked because I couldn't even feel that I was drooling. Now, my mum has to beg me to get my tooth extracted. Haha. Had a really encouraging and lovely talk with Jac this morning and seriously, I'm very thankful for christian girlfriends. Thanks Jacq-o! Though I'm still feeling a little discouarged and down from school, I guess I know what I'm called to do or what I'm supposed to do and what's most important at the end of the day. Anyway, I spent yesterday with E and then we had dinner with his family because his mum cooked curry chicken. His family makes me feel very comfortable in their presence and they feed me very well! Haha. After dinner, we watched the 9pm show (which I am addicted to right now) while E and his brother in law played winning eleven before coming home! I quite enjoyed myself though somewhere in between all that, I suddenly miss my family and I just wanted to come home straight away and spend time with my folks. Ah.Monday, October 23, 2006 11:22 p.m.
I was reading through my tax textbook today and in between the pages, I found 2 strips of paper that were secretly slipped in by the boyfriend a while back! He never fails to put a smile on my face :)
Of course we all know that his definition of group companies is wrong but at least he helped me to remember that for companies to be in the same group, they need to hold at least 75% of the ordinary shares! Haha. It's nice having these kind of surprises to spice up studying a little.
My mother, in an attempt to keep up with fashion, went out shopping today and bought herself a brown tunic with puffed sleeves. Haha. It was a really lovely material and she looked quite good in it but my mum in one of those hippie stuff? She was happily trying it on just now and walked into my room and went like "how, nice or not? I see so many people wearing this kind of tunic so I went to buy it. I want to wear it on dress down Fridays and not tuck it into my pants and also this is long enough to cover my butt.." For a good minute, I lost my sensible oh-fashion-is-nonsense mother. Haha.
My dad, in an attempt to keep up with technology, asked me today on the drive home from school whether he can set up his own blog and if people can reply to what he writes. I asked him what he was going to write in it and he said, "talk about work and complain about my kids lor!" Haha. I think he was also very impressed with E's presentation at the sanctuary yesterday but he tried to act nonchalant about it and said "he reads books ah?" HAHA.
Sunday, October 22, 2006 09:58 p.m.
For all the times I showed off to others that my printer than runs on a toner hasn't dried up since I got it at the start of university and laugh at them when they have to buy ink, my trusty printer's toner is running low! Haha. E, help! I am also thinking of investing in a 80GB portable hard drive to back up all my 3000+ photos, 500+ songs and the thousands of files but I'm not too sure if it's worth it since I'll probably only use 10GB worth of space. Ah.Sunday, October 22, 2006 09:13 p.m.
I know I have to get down to studying because I haven't even opened my books since Thursday night but I seriously can't seem to sit myself down and get my mind to focus. This is truly a classic case of double mindedness.Sunday, October 22, 2006 07:52 p.m.
The boyfriend and I went supermarket shopping at Tanglin Marketplace today after having Japanese for lunch and we found Resee's peanut butter cups, cheetos, butter fingers and spinach dip!! I am so so happy and you should have heard me shriek with joy because I absolutely love Resee's peanut butter cups and I miss my cheetos with diet coke and ruffles chips with spinach dip! We're going to have our American junk food feast one day and eat all these bad food and watch DVDs non stop. Haha. Now the only thing that is missing is Krispy Kreme doughnuts! Today in church, we surprise celebrated Debbie and Eunice's birthday and Pastor David delivered a really simple but full of truth message. Yesterday, Mum prepared steamboat for dinner, E and myself went to watch The Fast and the Furious Tokyo drift and all the girls look like Ah lians and the guys look like Ah bengs and Yado's band also won the Battle of the bands! Had older girls cell at my place too and though it took up the whole afternoon, I thought it was very honest sharing. We learnt about double mindedness and it's seriously comforting to know that I have likeminded christian girlfriends around to listen, share, encourage and have fun together.Friday, October 20, 2006 04:38 p.m.
Love is love. So can you actually say you feel more loved or less loved?Friday, October 20, 2006 10:27 a.m.
At BSF last night, Uncle Kelvin mentioned that "the man who has Jesus, has everything, but loses the world. The man who has the world, has everything, but loses Jesus and eternity."Thursday, October 19, 2006 11:22 p.m.
I went for the BSF (young adults) intro class just now! I like it! But before I tell you more about it, I'll let you in on the little adventure my dad and I had while going to BSF! Haha. Dad came and pick me up from school and we drove down to the church across Maxwell market. We were just on time for BSF because the AYE was jammed and anyway, as we got nearer to the church, I asked my Dad how come there weren't anyone walking into the church and all. But he assured me it was that place and blah blah so he deposited me at the side of the road and I ran up the stairs of the church. When I got to the second floor, there was hardly anyone except for this bunch of teenagers having cell group and playing their guitars so I started asking them where BSF class was and all. This guy even asked if I knew what day of the week it was because it's only on Monday that Fairfield hosts the BSF ladies class. Haha. Finally, after like 3 minutes, I realized I was at Fairfield Methodist Church and there was no BSF at all. I panicked, called Dad and thankfully he was hanging around so I jumped back into the car and then when I told Dad it was Fairfield, he realized he dropped me off at the wrong place because BSF class was supposed to be at Telok Ayer Methodist Church which is just a stone's throw away from Fairfield methodist church. Haha, well to cut the long story short, I was late for 5 minutes and you should see me running into the church. You know how BSF has this really strict policy on being punctual and I really didn't want to give a bad impression. Haha, I just thought it was really funny because Dad has never made such a mistake and you know how he always preaches about being on time for BSF and all and today, it is entirely not my fault that I was late. Thank goodness I didn't go on my own or else I'll be so flustered! BSF class was really good. I think I'm really keen on joining it and doing an indepth study of certain books of the bible. The class is also very diverse and you get to interact with lots of people that come from different churches and have different experiences! I met Miss Chiam (my scgs bio teacher) at BSF too! This BSF (young adults) class is the only class in Singapore and it's for male and female singles (married people have to go to either the men or ladies classes) who are between the ages of 18-35. The class starts off with everyone (about 300 of us) gathering in the sanctuary to sing 2 hymns then everyone goes into their allocated dicussion groups which has about 15 people who are all around your age. They'll discuss the homework (with the discussion leader facilitating it) for about 40minutes and after that, everyone convenes back again at the sanctuary for a lecture by either Uncle Kelvin or his wife. Uncle Kelvin and Dad used to take a BSF class together and today, Uncle Kelvin expounded on Genesis 49 which is the prophecy of the 12 tribes and Jacob's death and he really made it very interesting. I guess this is the nice part of BSF. You get to do a really detailed study of certain books of the bible and I never realized that Genesis 49 has so many lesson points and applications for us because it just seems like just another prophecy or another account of the 12 tribes. I think this young adults class is much more enjoyable than the youth class and I really like it. All the excitment aside, what does God want me to do next year? Continue serving at Sunday school and cell or go back to BSF for a time of learning and refreshment?Tuesday, October 17, 2006 07:19 p.m.
I've been reading 'Know why you believe' by Paul Little because we're going to be doing apologetics next at cell and it's quite interesting following his arguments and trying to think of and recall my own personal experiences and reasonings on why I practice the Christian faith and believe in Jesus Christ. The challenging part is putting myself in the shoes of a non-believer and seeing if the arguements actually make sense. I'm very tempted to write out my thoughts and reason it out here why I believe the Christian faith is rational or whether the bible is reliable and all but I'll finish my lessons with the girls first before writing it here so that I won't spoil the surprise for them. I'm really worried about school and honestly, it's been very tiring.Monday, October 16, 2006 07:34 p.m.
The PSI reading was 123 at 7pm! Apparently, I heard that if the PSI readings reached 160, we won't have to go to school!Monday, October 16, 2006 06:50 p.m.
I don't think I have time to play politics or worry about whether this fella is my friend or not and whether I'm playing it right according to your books. I have better things to waste my time on.Sunday, October 15, 2006 09:40 p.m.
Don't you wish that sometimes God speaks in a loud, audible voice? Daddy wants me to rejoin BSF (young adults) next year. I'm quite keen on it because they're doing Romans and I quite like BSF. Besides, it's a good change and break from sunday school. Also, there's like 300 young adults there so it'll be a good experience and I don't have to be put on the waiting list because daddy knows Uncle Kelvin, who is the teaching leader so I get to bypass the waitlist! But of course, attending BSF means that I'll have to give up teaching at sunday school and friday night cell (Saturday afternoon older girls cell remains because they're my support group and all) because I don't think I can cope with so many stuff. Oh choices choices choices. What does God have to say about my ministry next year?Saturday, October 14, 2006 09:22 p.m.
I feel like I'm losing my grip on this thing. I find myself clinging on even more tightly than before but it seems to be moving further away from me. On one hand, I know I cannot hold it too tightly, yet on the other, I just want to hold it so tightly so that I'll never ever lose possession of it. Augh.Saturday, October 14, 2006 10:49 a.m.
I feel like crap. It's been like this for the past few days already but I think I just hit a new low today. I feel so unmotivated, terribly frustrated, annoyed, worried and anxious. I just don't feel like doing anything or even going out for cell. Of course, that's not going to make anything go away but really, I just want to walk around the house, moan, pull all my hair out and then fall into bed again and go into some deep sleep.Thursday, October 12, 2006 11:08 p.m.
How do you deal with disappointment? Do you just look at it in the face and then push it aside and say "whatever, I just hope it gets better" under your breath?Wednesday, October 11, 2006 04:57 p.m.
I really treasure the days when I come home early from school. By the way, I think Singapore's a really weight obessed nation! Have you not realized it's usually the skinny girls in singapre (or the weight obessed ones) that are usually depressed and all yellow faced? I know I'm generalizing but that has been my experience so far! I can't stand it when girls tell me that they want to achieve this perfect weight and how their boyfriends think they have a tummy so they'll need to do 500 situps everynight or how they cannot eat this and eat that because it's 457 calories and it's so fattening and they'll have to go on a diet after eating it and yadayadayada. Please! Skinny girls are ugly and not necessarily healthy and I think having a little meat on you definitely makes you look better and personally, I feel that being toned is more important than weighing a certain amount. Besides, I don't think you should lose weight just for your boyfriend (many girls say they're losing weight for themselves but it's so obvious it's for their boyfriends) and I think that since life offers you so much delicious food, why should you starve yourself and give up going to buffets or eating fried mars bars, chocolates, ice cream, waffles drizzled with maple syrup, sushi, oyster omelette, satay and a cold beer once in while just to satsify someone or to be ranked among the top 100 thin girls in Singapore? But of course we all know, eat healthily and exercise moderation. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAEGAN! :)Monday, October 9, 2006 10:57 p.m.
Many a times, I think I compound my own problems.Sunday, October 8, 2006 02:31 p.m.
You know what's good sportsmanship? Schumacher, despite his disappointment, going around to rally the mechanics and giving them all a hug and thanking them even though it was the mechanics and the car that screwed it up for him. The world is so unfair! Why did Alonso the cry baby win!? He doesn't deserve it and what's wrong with Ferrari's engines?! Why do they have to break down now at such a crucial time? Augh. I share Schumacher's pain.Sunday, October 8, 2006 02:06 p.m.
OH MY GOODNESS!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! Schumacher's engine just blew a few minutes back so he's now out of the Japan Grand prix!!! How is it possible?! He started out in pole position, was leading all the way and now Alonso the cry baby is number 1! Augh. Super super sad and unfair! It has absolutely nothing to do with Schumacher's skill but everything to do with Ferrari and their superior engines. It's seriously a big time mechanical fault. What a way to end the second last race of his career!Saturday, October 7, 2006 10:54 p.m.
I think one of my biggest fears in life is losing the people I love the most. We had dinner as a family just now and even though mum made the maid cook 6 different dishes, it was real good just sitting together, eating and talking. The PSI reading was 145 at 10pm! Oh my mama. The haze is killing my nose big time.Saturday, October 7, 2006 01:14 a.m.
I think I'm probably the only idiot in Singapore that bothers checking out the NEA website at 1am in the morning. Well, in case you've been stuffing yourself silly with mooncakes and have no time to even look out of the window, Singapore is blanketed with some thick haze! I can't even see new phoenix park from my room! It's actually quite frightening to look out of the window and haze gaze. It's gives me some eerie kind of feeling. My nose has been acting up and it's affecting me because I'm either sneezing and sniffing half the time or sleeping the other half of the time because I'm so worn out from sneezing. Anyway, mid autumn dinner at E's house just now with his family and we had dinner outside at his backyard! Really nice because it wasn't too warm and his mum decorated the backyard with those paper lanterns! Well before going for dinner, I decided to buy D24 durian ice cream over for desserts so we drove over to the ice cream parlour at Sin Ming and I had a pleasant surprise and a big hug when I pushed open the door! Clara Woon's working there so hello hello woman! I hope you're good and definitely nice seeing you! I'm going back there again and you're giving me bigger scoops of ice cream! Haha. The boyfriend has also recently found a sneaky way to get me out of bed quickly. Haha. He goes like "hey, quick wake up! I want to bring you out for sushi and if you don't wake up now, we won't have enough time then you won't get to eat sushi" Hearing that we're going to eat sushi is enough to get me out of bed, changed and out of the house in 20minutes flat. Haha. But, I obviously get cheated and like last night, we ended up along Thomson Road for dinner (good food though) and his lousy excuse was "oh, we save sushi for another time ok?" Haha.Wednesday, October 4, 2006 08:59 p.m.
I am suffering from extreme exhaustion. I can't wait for Monday when it'll be all over, at least for a while.Monday, October 2, 2006 07:40 p.m.
The haze is back with a vengeance! I can smell it in the air, the skies are grey and everything's so gloomy! I wonder what it's like in Indonesia and I wonder if they'll close school for a few days. I wish they would. I'm suffering from post mid-semester break withdrawal.Sunday, October 1, 2006 10:46 p.m.
Happy birthday darling! Thanks for being the best and for only giving the best! Have a fantabulous 22nd year! :)
I had wanted to do this whole elaborate surprise this morning for the boyfriend but he kind of messed it up for me and besides, I'm not good at surprises so I only managed a mini-surprise. Haha. Crashed his army cell's breakfast at MacDonalds afterwards to be a moderator of their boytalk before heading to church. The prayer led by Alvin was really honest and it's something I've been praying about for quite a while and he worded it really beautifully. I was reminded that our God is a God that judges and He has the final say, a God that gives and yet takes away and our success or fame or promotion in the world today is not because of connections, intelligence or even money. The message today was quite good too because it reminded me that missions isn't all about going to some third world country and that sometimes the mission field is in our neighbourhood or work place and that many a times, the best testimony is your life and not your words.
Had lunch at Ichiban Boshi after church, headed back to the boyfriend's house for a while to hang out and cut his birthday cake with his family before I went to my grandma's house and then my Aunt's house to watch the replay of the Shanghai Grand prix! I think formula one is really the best sporting event around because it requires so much strategy, risk taking and money! My dad and I are really upset Schumacher's going to retire because that means we'll never fulfill our wish of traveling to Germany in 2008 to see him race on his home turf!
In other news, our older girls cell went to Swissotel Merchant Court for high tea yesterday as part of our celebrations. Haha, I told E's cell that this morning and they're way way jealous. Point aside, I had a really good time of fellowship and feasting. Haha. I'm honestly glad we have this cell going and I do learn alot and often, I'm forced to really think about the way I act out my faith.
And for the depressing news now, I am going back to school tomorrow! Boo hoo hoo. The only good thing is that I have less than 2 months till the exams end and then I can rest again! Wish me well folks! It's going to be one heck of a tough journey!
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