Heads we will and tails we'll try again.

Mascara tears rain black into the basin.

Saturday, August 30, 2003 02:05 p.m.

happy teachers' day.

i cannot describe what miss lim felt yesterday when she bought us our ice creams and hardly anyone was there and also when she recieved our quite late card. she bought 25 sticks for everyone of us, and many of us did not even take one. we went around giving the different teachers their cards and we totally forgot about her, leaving her to clean up the classrooms and even going to the toilet to wash the dirty tupperwares, only having to run down to the staffroom later to pass it to her. disappointed might be the word to describe it. she isn't such a bad home tutor after all. perhaps we were the bad students. we never invited her for any class lunches, we never bought her one of those class jackets we had, we never invited her for any class stayovers or outings. she supports us in alot of things and is fairly reasonable. why? i feel sad for her.

i feel if there's any teacher that doesn't deserve anything, it'll be mr saw. he's not reasonable. he thinks it's right to let students type out one alphabet of the dictionary for detention. i seriously think that detention should be a time for you to do your work or do some community service and not to do silly things like typing out the dictionary. any detention would be a deterrence because it's already taking up our time and we people do not like our time to be taken up.he says he can't click with us year ones and can click better with the year 2s. oh so big deal. really. perhaps he's been trying too hard to put up a strong and fierce front to us that we saw through it. suit mr. saw. suit his stupid ideas and thoughts. not that it actually bothers me.

was reading the national geographic issue that i accidentally took home from terence. i'm really sorry terence! :) there's this particular article in there about the north korea and south korea standoff and the demilitarized zone. just reading about it sends chills down your spine. it's amazing how the north koreans can spend almost all their revenue building up their nuclear arsenal and their military and their own people are dying from poverty. it's so scary sharing a piece of land with an enemy with the same blood as you. it's frightening at the thought that the enemy is that close to you. maybe it's because in singapore we don't have a land border. we're just surrounded by the sea. somehow after reading it, i'm extremely intrigued and i want to travel to korea. i want to get a military pass as a toursit and visit the demilitarized zone. i want to take that special tourbus up to north korea and spend 3 days there. i want to see the chain borders with my own eyes.

there's just so many things i want to do! gen left last night for africa and so there'll be hardly any shopping sprees and pigging out sessions! :) haha. take care girl!! will miss youu soo much! :)

Monday, August 25, 2003 09:22 p.m.

an unsent letter :

" I was just thinking about he and she relationship and how they can end it as quickly as they started it. it then puzzles me how one can just love a person for one day and the next day, forsake him. which then lead to why many people actually step into a relationship. some step into it becuase they're forced to. some step into one because of the lucrative offers it brings. some step into one because they truly love the person. i know i step into this relationship because i love you.

But isn't that what everyone says? Didn't she said that too? Then why did their fairy-tale relationship end? weren't they going to get married? What happened to those 'i love yous'?

Perhaps it was the stress they were facing. Perhaps it was a change of emotions and feelings that led to the end. why am i even scruntizing their once perfect relationship and their not so perfect break up?

That is because i realize that this might happen to us too. Just because we have an extremely open relationship and we love each other doesn't mean we'll never breakup. Naturally and obviously, i don't want our relationship to ever end. It sounds so clichê but i really treasure you and whatever we have.

True, we may have our own opinions, differences, thoughts and even mannerism but we have to take it in our good stride. We've got to accept each other.

I don't know. To me, it is extremely heart wrenching to see beautiful things come to an end. And i don't want us to ever end. "

Was gathering up several letters exchanged a while back for disposal just now when i came across this particular letter written a few months back. Never sent it and ever regretting it.

Would it have made any difference anyway?
The photos would be the next to go.

Monday, August 25, 2003 07:21 p.m.

i think i'm the most incompetent and the worst sister anyone can have.

i knew all along sarah was going to have her piano exams but i didn't bother finding out how she was doing and whether she needed any help. and i just had to find out from the cell group that she's been feeling really down because she hadn't been able to catch some of the scales and her sight reading is really bad. and when i want to teach her, it's too late. she's having her exam tomorrow.

well at least i tried teaching her. but when i actually teach her, i flare up at her. what's my damn problem really? its not as if she's not feeling down enough already and i have to add more salt into the wound.

really. i think i'm the worst sister anyone can have. sarah's always so nice to ask me over to her room to sleep with her, she's always getting me little things when she comes back from orchard. she's always encouraging me to go for cell. she's always telling me not to stress out and all. but i never did any of this things for her. i laugh at her stupidity, not that she is stupid at all. i don't help her with her work. i'm never ever there for her. i become rather domineering that she's scared of sharing her problems with me for fear that i might make fun of her.

i just hope she'll pass the exam tomorrow. and i really hope i'll always be there for her. going to try to make the best out of the situation. she's my only sister i've got.

sarah, i'm sorry. i love you no matter what.

Sunday, August 24, 2003 07:08 p.m.

My personal note to Suzy :

Dear suzy,

i understand that both of us are in need of hard cash. let us limit our spending in school to only one bowl of noodle king. in that way, we'll be able to have a disposable income at the end of the week and we can reward ourselves by shopping. no more gummies. no more ice cream. shopping can be extremely theraputic.

and suzy. don't let one guy change you and waste your time. think hard and think smart. i'm glad you remember the jeremy leow quote :) i'm here for you always alright?

i'm glad you did your shopping and all. we'll exchange our stories when we go back to school on monday okay? and please remember to post my extremely lame conversation with you on friday! :) haha the world needs some humour :) *winks*

love, me :)

Sunday, August 24, 2003 06:49 p.m.

weekend homework very much not completed. i really wonder how i'm going to cramp all that in a mere few minutes later. had an extremely eventful weekend though! :) stayed over at ron's house with LEE-anne! and alex on friday and then met them again for lunch at nooch on saturday and for shopping later before going over to gen's place to stay over :)i didn't realize that clifford stayed so near gen! quite funny how everybody seems to be getting homies these days!

had so much fun with ron, LEE-anne and alex! haha don't ask me what's with the 'lee' in front of the 'anne'. i think the little pixie would be able to tell you a better version of the Lee story :) haha. went out on friday to watch 'down with love' with ronn and alex before we met Lee at holland village for dinner. somehow we had to rush home before midnight to catch the amazing race so we ended up at ron's place. spent the rest of the night playing twister and monopoly and eating microwaved popcorns! :)shopping was fun on saturday! myself and lee were trying on so many clothes and having so much fun while alex and ron just mopped around, praying that we'll finish! :) haha. i got lee her fragrance and her MAC makeup eraser and she got me my african body scrub and body mist from body shop! :) ron and alex got me my favourite nail polish from anna sui and they got lee her stila eye-makeup for dance! and because we dragged the guys around, we both got them each a nice shirt from zara! :) so now, since we got most of our shopping done and the guys got their shirts, we're all going out for a nice dinner next weekend! haha can't wait! i missed the three of them so much! haha. i think we haven't had this kind of lame stayovers in a long long time! if only mich and chris were there :) haha. you guys missed out on so muchh! make sure you guys turn up next weekend! :)

i don't want to start school tomorrow. too much work that is being piled up. never had so much fun in so long! i can't believe i managed to eat what i craved for, bought what i needed and stayed over and spent time with the three of them. i don't want to go to school!

i think the monday blues are attacking.

Wednesday, August 20, 2003 10:48 p.m.

An EYECANDY - someone found to be pleasing to your eye and his activites and life do not bother you at all and you garner no interest in him.

stories get distorted when they're being passed around different people. you know what i'm driving at. what story was there when there was only a nickname? how can one nickname result in a story? i sure was interested when i heard the distorted story. people with great imagination should put them to better uses. really.

Wednesday, August 20, 2003 10:18 p.m.

Walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

When's this fever gonna break?
I think I've handled more than any one can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down
If said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

And slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again'
Oohh..

Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world and be together forever.
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Because without you they're never gonna let me in

Sunday, August 17, 2003 05:55 p.m.

went to Jurong east for lunch with the entire cell group and i had the best fish in my entire life. really! we ordered 4 big fishes and they were all cooked differently with different types of sauce. delicious.
happened to walk by a houseware shop. goodness! that shop is really cool. it has everything you want and you need for your house. from wine opener to those tea cups you use during wedding tea ceremonies and even those noodle bowl that the noodle king man in school uses. ah! and it's really cheap! the shop must be really old and all and it has everything piled up from the top of the ceiling to the bottom and you have to almost tiptoe in order to move across the shop! :) very interesting. i never knew one shop could sell so many things.

jurong east was alive at around noon and somehow the atmosphere was different from that you find in novena or toapayoh. everybody just crowds to that central area and so many things happen at the same time. somehow jurong east still has it's charm having not gone through much of a redevelopment process. i think it's slightly less developed than jurong west? :) and thus retains its old neighbourly charm! :)

oh well. surfed through NUS websites yesterday and there are actually a few courses that i am actually interested in doing. even law looks interesting. now at least i know what i want to do, i can aim and work hard towards it.
got to get back to studying. so much weekend homework to do :(

Sunday, August 17, 2003 12:38 a.m.

saltwater

We are a rock revolving around a golden sun. We are a billion children rolled into one. So when i hear about The hole in the sky, Saltwater wells in my eyes.
We climb the highest mountain, We'll make the desert bloom. We're so ingenious, We can walk on the moon. But when i hear of how the forests have died, Saltwater wells in my eyes.
I have lived for love but now that's not enough. For the world i love is dying, and time is not a friend. As friends we're out of time, and it's slowly passing by, Right before our eyes.
We light the deepest ocean. Send photographs of mars. We're so enchanted by how clever we are. Why should one baby feel so hungry, she cries. Saltwater wells in my eyes.

Was supposed to have added this in a long time ago. we heard this song during GP period and suzy, claire and myself decided we'll put this up. quite amazing how some people write songs with so much passion and love.

mommy had some guests come over for dinner and among them were 2 china scholars who were my age. they're on some exchange programme here for 20months before they start their scholarship prog. studying at NUS and then serving out the bond of living in singapore for 6 years. so, in total, they'll be here for like 10 years? one of Singapore's many ways of attracting foreign talent. oh well. the two of them somewhat changed my impression on people from the mainland china. they speak good english and look more japanese than chinese. they have manners and all. quite impressive. they were telling me things like how they're the only child as a result of the one-child policy and about corruption in their government and how many people in their hometowns live in poverty. say except for them because they're one of the very few that can afford a decent education.

oh yesterday was a fun day at school! :) suzy wrote it all down in her blog already. haha. we were playing and talking so much! and sophie, sarah and myself think that sk and his boss had some misunderstanding?. haha. quite funny on how we concluded that! aye. somehow i expected that to happen? it's like i think sk felt a little left out or smth? i mean like sk was like super chummy with friends and all then boss came in and kind of stole the limelight. i guess like after a while, sk would get tired of always being the follower and not the leader. and not getting the deserved attention. well, the twist in this entire thing is that friends never ever liked sk but sk thought they were all one big happy family. if you can actually get what i am trying to say. i actually pity sk now. really. oh well. afterall, he ended up being the loser.

oh well. this group of friends that we know of are the most hypocritcal bunch i've ever met. seriously. girl A goes around telling everyone how much she just hates girl B but then in front of girl B, she just becomes so angelic and so best friend-ie. and the worst part is that, girl B knows about it. basically the whole group does that to each other.goodness.

" what goes around comes around "

I so totally believe in that statement. it is just when it will come around. the same applies to sk and his boss. one day boss will feel the pinch too. ah. i'm just thankful i have a group of friends that are not hypocritical and can be depended upon. they have made life in cjc bearable.

thank you :)

Saturday, August 16, 2003 11:34 p.m.

yay. i can finally use the computer after it being down for the past week! :)

doesn't anyone know the difference between eye-candies and crushes? you don't long for your eye candy. you don't want your eye candy. it's the total opposite of a crush. goodness. some people really don't know the difference.

Thursday, August 14, 2003 05:47 p.m.

omg! haha this is so funn. i just finished reading all the newspaper articles melvin sticked up on his wall! haha his room is sooo messy! he was just telling me he memorized the steps to his bed so that he won't step on smth. haha. well, i'm offering to clean it up for a small fee :)

oh yes. and i told him how to use his moisturizer and cleanser and toner! so fun. he's actually listening to me. haha well, he thought that you could only use the johnson's and johnson's daily facial cleanser once a day. haha. talk about reading word for word! :)

and i've just fed his fishes again. fed them just now and they ate all the fish food up! :) haha. so fun :) now i'm going to loan him my sucker fish so that his tank would be cleaned up! :) haha.

going home for tuition now.

Thursday, August 14, 2003 04:40 p.m.

am at melvin's house now using the internet. haha he's so nice to let me use it and he even served me apple juice :) haha.

suzyy is so mean!. haha she really wants to go up to my eye candy and point to him. well she almost did it today and it's so embarrassing!she was like 'hannah, your eye candy!' and he was just standing there. she was just short of pointing to him okay. i think he roughly knows already. ugh.wait till i do that to her 2 eye candies. haha. she's so desperate to be close to one of them, that she asked miss smith to put the two of them on the same table for miss smith's wedding. how bad can she get?

some girl jumped to her death at the begining of the week. i heard it's because she didn't make it for one of her bio tests? aye. why. was it the stress that was amounting up?

during GP today, we watched some national geographic prog., which talked about the oppression that women in many developing countries like pakistan and india faced. the women were burned alive or had their eyes and noses all cut off just because they were seen with another guy from outside the family. and the men said they did it out of honour. right. what honour?

it's so funny just how this entire world functions. i wonder what would happen if sin was rid of this world and everything was carried out justly and rightfully and there was no such thing as temptation. how would life actually be then? if given a chance to redeem ourselves and start anew once again, would we actually fall back into our old ways and habits?

the complexity of human nature once again

i think i might just do psychology in university.indepth studying of the human mind and a greater understanding of human behavior. well, that's if i can get past next week's tests and the promos.

Tuesday, August 12, 2003 09:37 p.m.

many pimples have appeared and seven have been popped.

Sunday, August 10, 2003 09:58 p.m.

" Her skin was now as white and flat as unglazed china and her eyes were full of fear. Gone was the flush of power, the translucence that seemed to last decades longer for her than for other women. "

ron and myself ended up going to the country club too. he was somehow swayed by the words of my mother " ron, there'll be girls and food." hahaha. swam a little bit but spent most of time lounging around the poolside having chicken wings and tiramisu. it's somehow a bad combination. ron did his chem work while i read the examples in the amath textbook on applications of differentiaion. haha talk about having a break from school. went over to my grandma's for dinner before daddy sent ron back.

i don't want to go back to school tomorrow. math test. dreadful and i've got dental after school. ugh. but claire's coming back tomorrow so maybe things wouldn't be so bad. things are starting to pile up. written report for project work, tests, promos in like 10 weeks? revision and then there's the planning of the year end sunday school camp. ugh. "junior college is like some like mental assault course" it was something from our GPworksheet. how true.

better get out of here. mommy's abit unhappy that i'm always in front of the computer and besides i need my 8hours of sleep.

would someone please tell me how to eliminate ugly eye bags the natural way? cold tea bags? cold spoons? a tan? what?

Sunday, August 10, 2003 01:22 p.m.

man. i'm soo tired. just came back from lunch and church and mommy says we'll be going to the country club later. sarah has some tennis lesson and she and daddy want to go to the driving range. i don't want to go! besides ron's coming over for the afternoon. ugh.

i'm really tired. went for supper last night with melvin at nachia 24hr restuarant near our place. it's this neighbourly store selling pratas and malay food. haha. i think we took like 30 mins just to walk back to my house. haha thats only because we took the long route back and were walking as slow as the snails :) Melvin! i know you're reading this, thank you so muchh for hearing me go on and on about everything from waxing to school life :)

alright. i'll write later. i'm going to see if i can get some nap before ron comes over :) haha. can't wait!

Friday, August 8, 2003 11:08 p.m.

OPTIMISM - "The tendency to be hopeful and to emphasize or think of the good part of a situation rather than the bad part ; The belief that good things will happen in the future."

Does that sum up what I intend to do about my quite crushed life? well, let's just say that it's just one of the tedious tasks i'm going to embark on.

Friday, August 8, 2003 10:42 p.m.

"I didn't think of all the ways i hurt you and myself.

and i couldn't say a things to you. i kept it to myself in my mind.

I can't find the answers when you're gone

And you know I need you now, and this ain't easy to admit

But no one needs to know what goes on behind the door in my room

I'm kicking through the walls in my mind

And I can't stand without you

And I won't find the answers

since you're gone. you're gone "

that few lines have been stuck with me for awhile. anyway, our class won the dance-in-line competition thing. wonderful. almost the entire class went down to seoul garden after school for lunch and had a rather interesting conversation with michelle along with sobia and joanna. Following that i went down to orchard to watch heroic duo with reuben.

oh, by the way, it's bridgitte's birthday today. happy birthday bridigitte! :)

Thursday, August 7, 2003 11:26 p.m.

why do people fall in love? why do people fall out of love? why does love have to hurt? why do some people play with love? why are people getting married and then divorcing faster than they take to prepare for their marriages? what do people cry about when their loved ones leave?

why is the world so mixed up? why do people kill other people? what do the terrorists want? why can't some governments ride out corruption and all? what can we do about our natural resources depleting?

why do we have so many feelings? why can't we all just live like robots? why can't we lead simple lives? why are there scheming people?

why are some people so smart? why are some people so pretty? why do some people hate their family? why are some families such so close? why do people commit offenses?

why? why does all these have to happen?

why? why is everything so complicated?

why? why can't i just comprehend?

Thursday, August 7, 2003 10:59p.m.

"i bite. if you're smart enough, you should just exit."

ah. went down town today to meet gen for shopping! haha i managed to get my bobbi brown eyebrow pencil and earrings and other stuff! haha that was so fun.now nobody can say i have disappearing eyebrows :) and oh man! going to town with clifford and sarah was super comical too. gosh! haha clifford is some major major flirt okay and he can be extremely himbo too :) he's really funny! and he craps so much!! we were like laughing so hard, i think the entire bus could hear us! :) haha. ooh met sean and sabrina k. at orchard too!

oh man! haha reuben just called.i almost couldn't guess it was him if not for that honeydew line. haha he tried tricking me by saying i kicked his dog and he demands US$60000 for his dog's funeral! oh man. i am not that dumb you know :)

i hope our class wins the dance-in-line competition again tomorrow. i think the entire class has put in alot of effort and yes! celestine is such a pro at the chinese dancing! she is so good! haha:) oh well. today's math lesson sucked. mrs loke went too quickly and she gets quite agitated easily at times. i don't know. this is something about cjc that i cannot get used too. the principal has his own moods. i remember brother paul blowing up at us because many of us didn't bring our project notes for the IPW lecture. he literally screamed right into the microphone. and today, mrs loke was quite pissed when our class made alot of noise and she just rushed through all the tutorial questions. aye. i admit we were a bit noisy during break but it's our well deserved break. where is the professionalism? where was the professionalism in brother paul? my principal?

am i too demanding to expect the teachers and principal to control their anger? am i being too much by comparing them with the teachers and miss heng back in scgs? is it wrong to ask people to attempt to control their feelings and anger? i don't know. i really don't know. i think we should like try to suppress our anger at all times? i mean it's okay if we cannot and let it all out but, but sometimes in our anger, we hurt other people unknowingly and this can be so bad and things might end up screwed up. i don't know. i don't know really.

maybe it's just the way i suppress everything and only let everything out when the lights are down and all. maybe it's because i've stoned and freezed my entire heart, i don't feel anything. oh man.

we'll be going out as a class tomorrow for lunch at seoul garden. goody. can't wait. another pigging out session. haha won't forget when i went to thomson area with sarah on wednesday and man! we just majorly pigged out.! haha we had chicken rice, cheese prata then went over to her house for chocolates and chips :) ugh. haha.

run hannah. run hannah. you know you can do it. shall go back to reading newsweek. and i just spoke to claire! haha yay! she'll be back on monday and i'll be able to fatten her up! :)

Tuesday, August 5, 2003 10:28 p.m.

just finished math tuition. applications of differentiaion is extremely hard. i really don't know how i'm going to pass monday's math test. suzy just messaged and said she won't be coming to school tmr! what noneness is this! who's going to play word games with me tmr? we spent almost all our lectures today playing word games and sooz won me 3-2! :)

"i've realized your attitude towards me is changing"

many things have been happening lately and it's starting to hit hard that not everything revolves around me. not everything i want, i'll have and everybody doesn't have to please me. i know this makes me sound so selfish, so arrogant, so into myself. but really, i am actually all these.

i want everything to work out for the good of me. i want everything to fall into place nicely the way i want it to be. i want everybody to give in to me.i don't care about what everybody is going through. i want people to know what i'm going through but i don't want to hear them out. i want this and i want that. i want so many things but i don't give. i don't give anything at all.

i've always realized it but i never did anything to amend my selfish and extremely arrogant acts. over the last few days, the fact that i'm so arrogant and selfish has become even clearer through the reactions of several people. And that's why i'm using this entry to apologize to that group of several people.

to him - i've never treated you with enough respect. i've always made fun of you. you always tolerated me. before you actually lose your entire patience on me, i want you to know that i know i've been extremely selfish in my thinkings and in my wants. and at times, extremely bimbotic. i hope you'll never ever lose it on me. i'm sorry.

to her - yes. enough is enough. not everyone comes from the same educational background. the same social and economic background. i need to be more understanding, less selfish, less arrogant. i ask for your guidance. sorry.

to him(II) - the end came and your words did come through. is it too late now to put the words into actions? i'm sorry for those times and i'm even sorry for now. for somewhat destroying your surroundings with my arrogant and extremely bitchy acts and words.

i just hope everything goes back to normal. and i'll have the common sense not to get carried away by everything and fall back into those traps again. i'll learn. i'll try. i might fail and fall. but i'll get up again :)

all this aside. chinese test is tomorrow. i have not even started. and suzy is not coming to school which means i'll have to rely on sarah. ugh. claire's warded in the hospital. GET WELL SOON CLAIRE! :) and there's PE tomorrow.oh and before i forget! i ran yesterday! haha i'm so proud of myself. at least i didn't procrastinate about running! i'm just glad there's no lessons on friday and the week's coming to an end!

this is getting really long and i'm not in the mood to actually write. i'll write about my thoughts when i was taking a bus to school today, tomorrow instead.

Saturday, August 2, 2003 11.26PM

went over to thomson for pratas today and ended up spending the entire day at ron's house. both of us were so tired after lunch that we slept all the way till four before deciding to go for a run. alright. donned his ever so comfortable raffles shirt and ran all the way to thomson plaza with him. it was so extremely tiring just trying to catch up with him. haha. stopped at thomson plaza and treated ourselves to blizzards. met one of his friends from RI and started talking to him. that guy was super funny! he was talking in chinese and saying how he's determinded to conquer the chinese market and how he's determined to fit into china. haha. we ran back to his house and after showering, his mom asked me to help her match her jewellery with her clothes and choose one of her many bags to match her dress :) haha that was sooo funnn! you could just see ron rolling his eyes and complaining about how everything just didn't match! haha his mom ended up wearing this light purple dress for some wedding dinner :)

since we were left alone at home with his younger sister (she's from sc!), we were left with the task of making our own dinner. and yes, everything turned out horrid. haha. RON CAN'T COOK FOR NUTS! so much for wanting to impress me! :) he decided to cook udon. he put in too much water and the water just overflowed from the pot when it was boiling. that was just the begining. haha he tried cracking an egg and half the egg went into the pot, the other half unto the stove. and so he had to like crack like 5 eggs in total! haha total failure. the vegetables he put in were overcooked and i think he added in too much soya sauce and the soup was extremely salty. haha:)i wanted to help him but he was so insistent on coooking that all i could do was sit and watch. if i moved abit, he'll make some horrible old man noise.i couldn't even give my two cents worth of comments okay! i was like some suppressed woman from the 1800s where men rule the world and women just had to shutup! haha. the udon was soooo baddd, we ended up having to throw it away and let his younger sister take over. haha. not that we had any food when his sister took over! haha i think that not being able to cook just runs in the family? she burned the pizza up.but that was only because she was doing her work upstairs and forgot about the pizza.(see how hardworking sc girls are!) and yes so in the end, i was finally allowed to do something. haha i took out 4 packets of instant noodles and dumped in 3 eggs. haha it turned out so good okay. i think both of them wanted to kiss my feet :) grin. haha

after dinner, we watched some tv, had strawberries dipped with chocolate sauce and i helped his sister with her geography assignment and then both of us talked about everything from homosexuality to school work, until my dad came at about 10 to pick me up. extremely exhausting day but nonetheless fun. i enjoyed talking to ron :)he's still the best! :)

i better go now. got church tomorrow morning and mommy and daddy are serving tomorrow during communion. i left my phone in ron's room! ahhh. got to go meet him tomorrow to get it back and get those loop earrings i wanted for a long time!! :) yay. and terence has a friend that likes bobbi brown too! she has good taste! haha.

Saturday, August 2, 2003 12:01 a.m.

am i'm dumb or am i really dumb?

i've done such a wonderful thing. i cannot undo it now. i've majorly just archived my entire index page. god.now i'll have to link it back to the main page. why is this entire blogging thing so complicated? why oh why. can't they have some idiot's guide or something? or some undo button? this is getting annoying. i really don't understand anything about this stupid html and it doesn't help that this entire site is not idiot proof.

click on the "current" link under diary and my older entries will show up. yes. thank goodness it didn't get deleted or something.

laught at me. laugh all you want :(

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