Tuesday, March 29, 2005 11:54 p.m.
Shopping in Singapore sucks! Sucks sucks sucks! We had an all girls shopping trip today and we were horrified! We could not find anything at all! It's depressing! I used to be able to find something everytime I went out but right now, nothing! I don't even want to try shopping in Singapore anymore! It really really sucks. Anyway, I'm at Jen's house now! I'm staying the night since we're going out again tomorrow for Far East Chicken Rice and to walk along Orchard Road (I dare not use the word shopping anymore, just in case I get disappointed again). I only decided to stay over at 5 so I have to loan everything from her! We are having a cable tv marathon tonight! So just now from 8:05 till 10, we were watching "How to lose a guy in ten days", then from 10 till 11, we were watching "Miss Match" and from 11 to 11:30PM, we were watching "Friends" and now we're watching "Charmed". After this, we still have "Wild Card" and "Amazing Race" haha. I'm being spoilt every minute I'm here, so it's really good! When her mum knew I was coming over, she decided to cook my favourite indian curry and made chapatis to go along with it. Before she picked us up, she went to the supermarket to buy coke, chocolate cake and microwave popcorn! And she insisted that I shower with her jasmine bath gel and use some intensive hair conditioner to treat my hair! I love every minute spent here! Haha. This is all so nonsense but my hair is really really smooth and my ends aren't that frizzy! Ooohh, it really feels good!Sunday, March 27, 2005 04:30 p.m.
Woke up at 530AM this morning for sunrise service! Service was simple, short and sweet. It was beautiful sitting down there. At first, it was all dark and you could only see the moon. You sing a few songs, say your prayers and then you open your eyes and all of a sudden, the moon has disappeared and the sky is all bright. Beautiful. We had breakfast in church then it was sunday school. By then, I was dead tired and my eyes were closing. Last night was the Blessed event! The skit was very very good! I thought it was the best part of the entire programme. There were hardly any props and all, but I thought that the way the guys acted it out and presented the message was very good! It was really creative and it captured my attention totally. Well, my dad's flying off to Shianghai early tomorrow morning and he doesn't want to bring me along. I've been begging him but he doesn't want me to go because he doesn't want me to shop while he works! Argh. He has enough miles on his Krisflyer card to fly me up for free and the flight is not even full but no, I can't go! And even though I can write and pass him my shopping list, he probably won't get anything from there or he'll end up with clothes a size too small or in a different colour than what we requested! haha. My dad's always like that. We asked him to buy us shirts from Germany and he got us plain ole ones which we can find in Singapore. When he flew to Taiwan, he got us Hello Kitty hairclips(!!!) and a really awful looking hairband. The only right item he buys is the sweets and chocolates from DFS. haha. I still wish it was my mum who was flying up! She buys us the right kind of stuff we want and she would bring me along!Friday, March 25, 2005 07:39 p.m.
I had Good Friday lunch this afternoon with my mum's family and we were all busy discussing about the casino over Japanese food. I don't really know much about it except that I'd rather we not have it. But today, my Uncle told us all the other facts and information that the newspapers don't report. He gave us such interesting insights, telling us who the real sufferers of this casino would be, how the casino would turn out in the next few years, what were the proposals submitted and it was so so interesting!Wednesday, March 23, 2005 11:05 a.m.
My mum told this to me in Bangkok. "When you know God, your perspectives on many things change." Aunty Ivy (Hui Ling's mum) told me that too during last week's bible study. "When you know who God is, your perspectives on many things change." I can only agree.Saturday, March 19, 2005 06:51 p.m.
I just came back from high tea at the Swisotel Hotel with my bible study group! They had lovely chocolate tarts, fried ice cream and tempura! Yummy! I had a wonderful time talking to them! I was talking to Yue Chang about Illinois and he told me that there were many EDB and SAF scholars down there (Michelle told me that too this morning). I talked to Wei Sean about surgery, Eugene about America and Education, Pin Fern about Motorola and advertising and there were so many more topics discussed, it was so interesting! I'm really sleepy right now. I think I only averaged about 10 hours of sleep for the past 2 days. I was out on most mornings but on Friday afternoon, we played waterbombs and it was so wild! Boys against Girls and everyone was just throwing waterbombs at everyone, I was completely drenched. Oh oh! Gilly called today from Perth! So so nice to hear from her again! We talked for about 1.5 hours so I'm hoping it really isn't going to burn her pocket! haha. I've got to go visit my great grandaunt now. I hope we come back early after dinner because I'm really falling asleep and tomorrow will be another long day in church.Thursday, March 17, 2005 02:09 p.m.
I am supposed to pack all my A level books, story books and everything before I leave for camp. I have no idea how I'm supposed to do it! I organized my wardrobe on Monday and my mum donated all my school uniforms back to school. So that's one part of my room settled. I've been trying to sort out all my worksheets and lectures notes and it's giving me a headache! I don't have enough space in my room to store all my stuff! It's frustrating me! I got my maid to clear out the 3 drawers of my bedside table so that I can stack each drawer with my Geography, Economics and Math worksheets! And after sorting them out, cleaning the drawers, I realized that all my worksheets cannot fit into the drawers! I don't know where I'm going to keep the rest of the worksheets. I don't have any space on my bookshelves too because they're either filled with lecture books or story books. I haven't even found the space to put my 15 new story books! It's irritating. The problem is that I don't know what to throw and what to keep. Oh well, I'll find a way somehow. I just needed to release all that! Anyway, I'm supposed to go in to camp soon! But somehow, I can't seem to find my sleeping bag ( I couldn't find it too when I wanted to bring it to Bangkok) and I haven't packed my overnight clothes.Saturday, March 12, 2005 08:08 p.m.
Wednesday, March 9, 2005 10:41 a.m.
Once I realized that Starbucks was actually wired up, I had the urge the whole of last night to run downstairs with my mum's laptop to use the internet! haha. Anyway, I'm having breakfast again at Starbucks while waiting for Aunty Thelma to pick us up at 10AM. We'll be going to her office so that mummy can work for a while before we head out for a Thai lunch! Finally I'm going to eat something Thai! haha. I'm supposed to follow along to the office because there's a big mall just next to the office. Hopefully I can get some last minute shopping done. I want to see if I can get my mum her birthday present. Last night, we all went out for a good good good chinese seafood dinner! It was super yummy! Came home quite late and started packing. We came to Bangkok each with only a 3/4 full trolley bag and we're going back to Singapore with 2 full, buldging trolley bags and 2 carton boxes! I really don't know what my dad's going to say. I'm going to be landing first at 630PM while mum's flight is only going to land around 640PM. haha. So that leaves me with a few minutes to walk around the airport DFS. I hope I can pick up some stuff and I'm supposed to buy Rum for my aunty.Tuesday, March 8, 2005 09:58 a.m.
There's internet connection here! There's internet here! YAY! Oh my. I didn't quite realize that! haha. My mum urgently needed to send out an email so she asked the waiter at Starbucks if starbucks was wired up and he said they were! oh my oh my! So right now, I'm sitting down at starbucks, right after my breakfast using the internet! If only I knew that starbucks was wired up, I would have come here everyday to use the internet since my mum brought her laptop along! Starbucks is just across the condominium we're staying in and it's where we have breakfast everyday! The condo we're staying in is one of Aunty Thelma's properties in Bangkok and it's super nice! It's supposed to be like a condo but they have services like laundry, room service and all! The whole area where the condo is situated is filled with expats. This area is also pretty central. We're about 20mins away by taxi from Siam Center.There is an international school just a lot away from our condo. All around our condo are either other condos or service apartments. There is starbucks, charlie brown and spas at the condo opposite us! It doesn't quite look like Bangkok unless you drive out of this street lined with condos and service apartments. I've been having so much fun here shopping everyday! Every morning around 11AM, I'll take a cab out to some shopping district and shop till around dinner before continuing again! It's super fun! I don't even have time to go for a Thai massage. Haha. My mum went down to Hwa Hin on Sunday and was only back yesterday so that basically left me on my own! Cab fares here are super cheap! Flag down rate is 35B which is about S$1.50 and travelling for 20mins on the cab will only be about 80B which is like around S$4! So everywhere I go, I cab. Or I get sent around! haha. Traffic here isn't that bad except yesterday. The drivers here are really scary and the cab drivers just weave in and out of the traffic! It's scary! Aunty Thelma is also a super super fierce driver! She drives an SUV and she speeds down the road at 120KM/h and horns at any motorcycle that cuts into her lane! haha. Our cab driver yesterday was also super fierce. He didn't want to wait in line to swing out to the main road so he just went on the other lane, sped down with cars coming at us from the opposite direction! Super super scary! I was holding on so tightly to the seat and the guys were going "faster faster!" But I realized that despite the fast and furious driving by all the Bangkok drivers, I haven't seen any road accidents yet! haha. The weather's pretty cool and I don't even remember sweating it out at all. It's really dry here though and my lips are cracking and my face and body are all drying up. It can get quite cold here especially when I'm walking downstairs in the condo or when I'm in the shopping mall. I have no idea why it's so cold but I always end up freezing! I've been spending quite a bit too. So far, I've spent close to 10,000B which is about S$450? My mum says I have to lie to my dad about how much I spent because my dad called her up yesterday morning to tell her to watch me and give me a budget so I won't overspend. Haha. Well, she just gave me more money today so I've got another 3000B to spend today before I go back tomorrow! It's not that I spend everything on shopping. A portion of the money is spent on food and I don't eat along the roadsides because Aunty Thelma says it's dirty so I either eat at the Italian, Japanese or Chinese restaurants in the shopping malls. I have one of mummy's friend's kids for company. There is this 20 year old boy from Glasgow, Alex and his 16 year old brother, Brian. Most of the time, we're together since my mum and their dad with Aunty Thelma have to work. Going shopping with the 2 of them can be a bit irritating since those shopkeepers see that they are white, they ain't so generous in giving discounts which makes me very angry so they've learnt to either walk in front of me or behind! (I'm really good at bargaining now though) haha. They don't even like shopping anyway but they accompany me or else they won't know what to do! haha. But otherwise, they're very good fun and they introduce me to all sorts of nice italian food! haha. Aunty Thelma's 2 kids are really cute but they're too young to follow us around to shop and eat! haha. Her daughter, Han, is so so so like my sister! Her actions and all are all similar to my sister's and she reminds me so much of Sarah! haha. She's really cute and though she and her brother goes to international school here in Bangkok, she doesn't speak to us in English because she's so shy! haha. Aunty Thelma's son, Gan, who is one year older than Han is a super good looking 12 year old Thai! haha. He's really quiet unlike Han and he's always reading his comics but he's really really good looking! haha. Anyway, I've got to go now. My mum has to go off to work and I have to shower and head out shopping! It's my last day shopping and tonight, Aunty Thelma is going to buy all of us dinner. I hope it's thai though since I haven't eaten any thai food ever since coming here. haha. I don't know how to pack my bags because I simply have too many things now and I came here with almost a full bag. My mum bought plently of goodies for the extended family so that's additional load. Well, my mum's thinking of packing some of our stuff in a box and checking that in. I think it's a splendid idea but my dad's probably going to flip! Anyway, I'll sort that out tonight. I hope I find some nice stuff today so that it'll be a nice end to my trip here!Friday, March 4, 2005 04:07 p.m.
Thank you Lord. Thank you Lord! Thank you! It wasn't perfect but thank you! I couldn't have done it without you! Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord! I'm off to Bangkok now! I haven't packed in my shoes, sleeping bag and face products! I can't find my sleeping bag and I don't have enough cash to last me to the airport!Thursday, March 3, 2005 10:44 p.m.
I don’t know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day;I don’t borrow from its sunshine, for its skies may turn to grey;
I don’t worry o’er the future, for I know what Jesus said.
And today I’ll walk beside Him, for he knows what is ahead. Every step is getting brighter as the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden’s getting lighter, every cloud is silver lined;
There the sun is always shining, there no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow, where the mountains touch the sky. I don’t know about tomorrow, it may bring me poverty;
But the one who feeds the sparrow is the one who stands by me;
And the path that be my portion, may be thro’ the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me, and I’m covered with his blood. Many things about tomorrow,
I don’t seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow,
And I know who holds my hand. ***
It's a weird feeling altogether now. A part of me is giddy with excitement because I want to know my grades and I want to see what God has in store for me for the next few years of my life. Yet, another part of me is crippled with immense fear. The fear of failure. The fear of rejection. The fear of being pitied. I still don't know what I am going to do if I end up with CCD. I don't know. It's really weird. My heart is racing and I can almost hear my own heart beat. Right now, I just don't want to be alone. I want to do something, talk to someone, eat, pack my bags, so that my thoughts will not run back to the results tomorrow. Bible study just now really helped settle me down abit. We memorized Psalms 100, talked and shared about creation and Sabbath and it was all lovely to be with people. But now that I am alone, it's weird. I am trying so hard to make myself busy. It's funny. I really don't know what grades I'll bring home tomorrow. I don't feel confident because I have never brought home 3As. I want the good grades but I don't know if I'll get it since I really messed up my papers. I don't know. I'm still so scared. Somehow, less than 24 hours from now, my life will change drastically. It will never be the same again. Never. Though I panic like nobody's business, I'm place my hope in Jesus Christ. I believe that God has a plan for me and a place for me, somewhere. And I think that no matter what grades I get tomorrow, I think it'll simply be my greatest pleasure to be walking right in the center of God's will. So, even if I get CDE and end up having to go to Poly or some private university, no matter how painful it will be and how many people laugh and talk behind my back, if it is the Lord's will, it'll be my greatest pleasure to walk that road. He does not lead me year by year,
Nor even day by day;
But step by step my path unfolds -
My Lord directs my way.
Wednesday, March 2, 2005 03:32 p.m.
DONE! I've finally booked my flight to Bangkok all on my own! My mum will leave on Friday morning while I take the last flight out on Friday evening and the both of us will be back on Wednesday evening! So that'll be 6 days of Bangkok! I've never stayed so long in Bangkok and I have no idea how I am going to spend my 6 days but I guess it'll just be shopping, shopping and more shopping. I hope I don't get bored shopping! I'm still scared about my A level results. I am so so so so so so darn scared. If I do badly, I'll be crying my way to Bangkok.Tuesday, March 1, 2005 06:20 p.m.
O.M.G. The A level results are really coming out on Friday. Really really really. Now that I actually know when it's coming out, I'm freaked out. I am totally freaked out! CCD? CCC? BCD? O.M.G. I don't know what to do if I get horrible grades. I have little confidence in my results because math and econs was so so horrible! And I attempted a question in geog that I didn't study for! I'm probably going to dream and think about my A level results. I am so so so so scared! What am I going to do if I do badly?Tuesday, March 1, 2005 11:06 a.m.
When are the A level results coming out?!? This Friday, next Monday or sometime next week? My mum's going up to Bangkok this thursday for business and she wants me to accompany her! I am supposed to book our tickets right now but I want to know if the results are coming out on Friday so that at least, I can try to fly out on Friday evening instead of Thursday evening. Oh well. I'll just get my Dad to pick my results up if I am not in Singapore. I don't even know if the school will allow it! I think I'll only come back next Wednesday but everything is still not confirmed. That's the problem when I travel with my mum. Her flight plans and all are never confirmed till she's actually on the plane. Whatever it is, I can't wait for Bangkok! Cheap cheap shopping and even cheaper food! And I'll be on my own, with my dad's charge card, since my mum has to work! Ha! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------