Tuesday, January 30, 2007 11:18 p.m.
I need a hot caffe latte from Starbucks right now. I feel so drained.Tuesday, January 30, 2007 04:59 p.m.
Econs tutorial was cancelled today because the tutor is down with some throat infection! I only found that out when I walked to the classroom and saw the notice on the door. I sympathise with those people who have to travel all the way to school for a hour's tutorial only to find that classes have been cancelled. Haha. Thank goodness I had company law tutorial in the morning. Anyway, I met Lydia for lunch at Fish&co and it was a good 3 hour chit chat and fellowship! I think I really enjoy this opportunity I get to talk to her freely about so many things and somehow in return, be inspired by her and gain some valuable feedback.Tuesday, January 30, 2007 12:51 a.m.
I like watching the 9pm chinese drama because it can be highly entertaining sometimes and television has this funny way of making me disconnect with reality and ignore my work and somehow transport me to some place and time. But sometimes watching the 9pm chinese drama scares me too. What if what is being played out on television occurs in my real life? What if I become like that xiaoyang character and I'm left paralyzed after trying to save someone from being knocked down by the car? E thinks that watching the 9pm chinese drama makes me paranoid too because sometimes after watching the show, I start asking him absurd questions like "are you going to leave me like how that guy left the girl?" or "are you going to buy your mistress a big condo and leave me with nothing?" Haha. Mum flew up early this morning to Bangkok for business. I personally don't think it's a good time for her to go up considering the political situation and Thailand's relationship with Singapore right now so I'm really praying for her safety. Naturally since mum is out of the house, everything is haywired and no one cares about rules! Dad went out to buy Kim's fried prawn noodles so that we can have midnight supper, he's watching soccer highlights on ESPN, Sarah's happily talking on the phone and I'm still surfing the internet. The best part is that we all have to wake up at 6.30am tomorrow! Haha.Monday, January 29, 2007 06:07 p.m.
I really really hate marketing class. I dread going for it each week. My tutor doesn't like me (long story) and I don't like him too. He's not credible, he's discriminatory, he doesn't teach at all or give us a single valuable input. Seriously, the only thing he does is come into class, make some comments to earn his fees and we end classes. He has taken away any interest I ever had in marketing and now I just really hate the subject.Sunday, January 28, 2007 05:53 p.m.
After service today, E, Adrian and myself went to have Hainanese Pork Chop at Thomson before I came over to E's house. I don't know why I've been feeling so tired this whole weekend so I pretty much spent it sleeping in. Yesterday was Yeri's birthday celebrations so my family brought her out for Japanese at City Hall! Mum as usual, ordered a feast so we ate non stop but I had a really good time eating and laughing! We took a walk along the Singapore River after dinner, laughing and talking and acting all touristy! Haha. Friday afternoon, E came up to pick me up from school and we had lunch at the canteen before coming back to my place. I think he was doing his marketing but I just knocked out and slept for 3 hours straight till we went to meet his younger cell boys for dinner at Waffletown. After cell, we had a quick bite at Burger King before coming back. On Thursday, I attended my first BSF (young adults) class! Uncle Kelvin was as usual, very funny but he managed to bring his main point across! Thank God too I have a wonderful discussion group! The girls are all around my age and I think a quarter of my group is from NUS law. Haha. My discussion leader used to be from NTU accountancy too and she seems nice. I was having a short chat with her as we had all class fellowship after class and she was telling me the route she took after leaving school. Honestly, I'm excited to study Romans! Somehow, I'm not quite looking forward to this week. It seems like a whole lot of work needs to be done and there's so many other things going on at the same time too. Ah, I hope Friday comes quickly!Wednesday, January 24, 2007 10:42 p.m.
Econs lecture today was as intense as last week's lecture and after about an hour, my mind gets too saturated and so I spend the next hour daydreaming and counting the number of people who are also getting restless and sleepy! Haha. I think I need to do something to keep my concentration levels up! The boyfriend came up to accompany me and have tea with me while I waited for my HR lecture but by the time 5.30pm came, I so badly wanted to go home and rest so I ended up skipping the lecture and followed him home instead. Haha. I have a business communications assignment due tomorrow and it's a big pain in my neck. It's really not easy for me to churn out a decent piece of writing.Tuesday, January 23, 2007 01:52 p.m.
Last week I screamed when I found out we had to do differentation in econs. This week, I'm pulling all my hair out because we need to use simultaneous equations to solve our tutorial questions and my my, it sure doesn't seem like sec2 work! It doesn't help that the class is made up of a majority of engineering students and they're so mathematically inclined, I feel like some small snail crawling behind them!Monday, January 22, 2007 08:57 p.m.
I'm at the boyfriend's house now and we just finished having dinner with his parents and I made the biggest boo boo ever! We were going to start dinner and I wanted to wash my hands so I walked to the kitchen sink, turned on the tap and the next thing I know, his dad yelped really loudly!!! It turns out I had turned on the tap and his bowl of soup was in the sink! I was so embarrassed I didn't know what to do except to apologize profusely! Haha. I felt super super bad because it was his soup and I think he wasn't in a good mood. Thank goodness it wasn't my first time having dinner with them and E keeps on reassuring me that it's okay but it tarnishes the good record I have with them! Haha. I might never be invited for any of these dinners! Haha. The other boo boo I made was writing an email to a person and addressing the person as "Sir"! Turns out it's a lady and I only knew that because she replied saying "Regards, Miss XYZ" HAHA. I felt so bad I didn't know whether I should reply to apologize for the mix up! Why can't business communications class teach us all these stuff instead of getting us to do rewrites for cases and all! Haha. Well, the boyfriend came up today to pick me up and we were hungry so we had MacDonalds, took a walk at Chinese Gardens before going back. I realized that if we both were to go to China for our exchange/internship and we had to view such places or live in some 'chinese' environment that is something like Chinese Garden and on top of that all, speak mandarin, I might just go crazy. No kidding. So maybe, there won't be any china exchange for me but then again, we never know! I'm going to watch my 9pm show right now! After 8 hours of non stop lessons, I am too brain dead to do any work!Sunday, January 21, 2007 06:39 p.m.
If there is no destination, we have no direction and this journey is meaningless.Saturday, January 20, 2007 07:04 p.m.
I hate it when it rains and I'm outside! My legs are all soaked from walking back home in the rain and I always have this fear that I'll slip and fall and make a fool out of myself because the floor is so slippery and my slippers aren't that fantastic. But today, it didn't bother me. I actually enjoyed my walk back home in the rain, hearing the huge rain drops fall on my umbrella and slowly negotiating the muddy puddles. It allowed me to think of what transpired. I still don't know what to make of what was said or how to move forward or whether I'm even thinking too much. I just know it hurts. Anyway, the older girls came over to my place this morning for our weekly cell group meeting! We're starting on the book of 1st Peter! Yesterday after my classes, E came to pick me up and have lunch (he loves canteen B's vegetarian food) and we wanted to go swimming at my place because the sun was out but he didn't have his swimming gear in his car! What a pity because it's not very often he suggests that we go swimming! Haha. It was cell in the evening before we went for supper at MacDonalds! Tonight, my mum ordered that I stay home for dinner because she's trying this new dish so I'm home but I'll probably go out later to rent a DVD. I just feel like watching some chick flick and let my mind rot for 2 hours. I'm not in the mood to do anything.Wednesday, January 17, 2007 08:34 p.m.
I just finished my lectures and I'm waiting for my dad to pick me up! The school's a little freaky when it's so late at night and there's hardly anyone around. I don't believe I went for both my lectures. The HR lecture wasn't as boring as the forensic science lectures I had last semester but I think we kind of concluded that we could just read the textbook and not go for lectures. Haha. The econs lecture earlier in the day was seriously intense. The lecturer is also my tutor and I give him full respect because he really knows his work and he explains well. But listening to him and trying to absorb all the theories and make sense of them is proving to be quite difficult. It's a really heavy subject and now I'm kind of glad I didn't take economics as a major. I don't think I would have been able to cope with it because econs can get quite dry and mathematical and what's worst is that microeconomics is really theoretical and some of the assumptions are absurd! Haha. The only one complain I have is that he seldom links the theories to the real world which is quite a pity or else econs class would be even more interesting!Tuesday, January 16, 2007 08:42 p.m.
Every morning when my dad sends me up to school, we'll drive by the BKE exit and for the past few days, I've noticed this signboard on the road shoulder informing everyone that there was some fatal accident there on the 6th January at 3.02am and that if anyone witnessed the accident, they should call the Police up. It scares me. There's another one of this signboard at the junction of SCGS and I've been noticing it each time I go to church. Everytime I pass by one of these signboards, I get the chills. I wonder if one day it could be me, I worry for E when he drives home late at night and I worry for my Dad because he's on the road so often and he's usually so tired and stressed from work. I remember passing my driving a year and a half back and my dad telling me not to be too happy because I now have the license to operate a machine that could potentially kill me or worst, someone else. It saddens me when I read of car accidents in the papers and read of how that guy that died had such a promising future but now it's all gone or how the lives of his surviving loved ones are changed in an instant. I can never understand why my mum makes a big fuss whenever I have the car and I come home late but she always says that it's not because she doesn't trust me to handle the car and all but she doesn't trust the other road users who might be egomaniac drivers who want to drive at 160km/h and race with their friends or those irresponsible drunk drivers. Maybe she's right. But it also makes me wonder why these irresponsible reckless selfish drivers can't be more socially responsible and not speed or drive when they're drunk or physically tired. Don't they know their actions could wreck lives?Tuesday, January 16, 2007 02:12 p.m.
You know why I love having early days and coming home for lunch? Because my maid cooks yummy lunches! Today I had udon and freshly squeezed orange juice! Other days, I have pasta, fried rice, soup&salad, grilled chicken wings or pizza! It definitely beats having lousy canteen food that has MSG and lots of salt in it. Econs tutorial was surprisingly interesting today even though my tutor is quite an old guy. I hope I can catch up! I don't feel like going back to school tomorrow because it'll be a long day and my HR lecture will only end at 8.30pm!
Monday, January 15, 2007 07:59 p.m.
I survived 8 hours of back to back lessons today! It was crazy and it didn't help that I had to squeeze on the bus. I feel like a complete zombie right now. I don't know how I'm going to live with another 12 Mondays. Econs and company law tutorial tomorrow and there's work to be done but I seriously can't think or move at all. I need to sleep soon.Saturday, January 13, 2007 12:45 p.m.
I think my writing sucks. I can't write well and I'm not able to put my ideas into words.Saturday, January 13, 2007 12:16 p.m.
I am going crazy. I have a communications presentation on Monday and we are supposed to talk about anything related to communications and the issues faced today. I am stuck. I don't know what I want to talk about and it doesn't help that nothing's flowing into my head.Wednesday, January 10, 2007 10:19 p.m.
I don't know if I should buy my textbooks from the bookstore or get them second hand. I was looking through my econs notes and I realized that I'll definitely need a textbook to guide me. The problem is that getting new textbooks each semester is really expensive but I also don't want second hand textbooks because I like having new, clean books each semester that isn't highlighted. I'm fussy and maybe for that, I'll have to pay the price. Ah. E came over today after his class and had dinner here before he went off for his baptism and membership classes in church! He's going to be a member of Barker! I seriously eat too much when I'm with him. I've been sneezing the entire day and it feels as if I'm living in some bacteria colony and they're tickling my nose! I don't want to go back to school tomorrow! Why can't we have online classes and why can't school be nearer to home?Wednesday, January 10, 2007 11:25 a.m.
I got my economics elective! Yay! Thank you Lord!! It was a big mess this morning when I was trying to register for it because when I tried to click to register, a page appeared telling me there can be no more transactions on that page and other times it told me that the server isn't responding and it was exceptionally slow in loading so I obviously panicked. It took me about 45minutes to register and it couldn't have been my internet because I was happily reading about falling oil prices and the NKF saga and so you could imagine how terribly anxious I was since there was only one vacancy left for that class! I'm supposed to get ready to go down to school now for my first econs lecture at 1.30pm followed by my HR lecture at 5.30pm but the notes for the HR lecture hasn't been uploaded yet and I slept late last night because after dinner with E, I had to complete the communications pre-test so I probably won't go for my lectures today. I'm trying not to skip too many of my classes so I promise I'll attend both my lectures next week!Tuesday, January 9, 2007 11:20 a.m.
It turns out I couldn't get my economics elective because I've reached the maximum number of academic units this semester and so I had to write in this request form to overload for this semester and that meant I couldn't get my econs class yesterday and I have to wait for the main add/drop period tomorrow to fight with the whole school to get my econs class. I'm praying real hard I'll get my econs elective and that there'll still be vacancies tomorrow!Sunday, January 7, 2007 06:48 p.m.
Breakfast with E this morning at MacDonalds before we went for communion service in church. Pastor Malcolm's sermon was seriously good as usual and he talked about crossing our own Jordans and compared the Israelite's crossing with Jesus's crossing and related that to what we can do to ensure that when we cross our Jordans, we'll be able to shine forth at Galilee like Jesus did. It was a really good new year message. After service, E, Adrian, Evan & Gen, Steve & Jialing and myself went down to Soup Spoon for lunch and chit chat. It was quite fun and we girls were telling the guys that they have to excuse us from exercising and that shopping should be made an olympic sport because for once, we have enough girl power to counter the boys. Haha. Went necessary shopping at Kovan Mall with E then went back to his place for a while because he needed to change for games. I don't want to wake up at 6.30am to go back to school tomorrow! I also don't think I got my econs elective and I'm pretty upset about it because that totally screws up my curriculum planning for the next few semesters and augh.Saturday, January 6, 2007 11:49 p.m.
The boyfriend has been sitting in that same spot for the past one and a half hour playing his silly xbox and making all sorts of weird noises. For the past hour, he has only been uttering some intelligent words like, "uh huh", "I'm going to crash!", "Oh no! The car behind me is going to slam my butt!", "I've got an eagle on my butt, save me!", "Keep it cool, keep it cool, don't push it!" and "woot woot". We bought dinner back home just now and watched "Driven" and he was supposed to bring me down to Changi Village for desserts but he's still happily playing his silly racing game. I think he intends to try all the circuits out tonight but I'm in a good mind to confiscate the xbox and auction it on ebay and use that money to spend on my shopping.
Saturday, January 6, 2007 02:45 p.m.
I'm starting school on Monday and I'm quite apprehensive about it. All of a sudden, I'm not looking forward to 18 weeks of work, projects, datelines, assignments and everything else. University is really like a roller coaster ride. You know the minute you get on a roller coaster, you buckle up and it just zips you away quickly without much warning and you do all those twists and turns and upside down flips and the next thing you know, the ride's over. Right now, I so badly want to stop time and enjoy these last few moments of my holiday before I go right back in to the mess and rush. Well, Jac just left my place because zaneta and her came over this morning for breakfast and some chit chat about our lives and cell. On Thursday, I met E for some Indonesian grilled chicken lunch then I met Kaye and Kristi for coffee and chit chat. It was really heartwarming talking to both of them. Met E again after that for dinner and then we went over with soya bean to Roystan's house to chit chat with him and Matthew till late. E met the guys again for breakfast on Friday morning before he came over and we lazed around, washed his car and went down to Raffles Place to run some errands and have dinner at Maxwell market and Don's pies before we went down to church for cell! It's a lazy and hot saturday afternoon and augh, I don't want the holidays to end. I like not having to set the alarm clock and waking up at any time I fancy. I like the liberty I have to do the things I want to do or meet the people I want to meet and not have to worry about projects or rush to get assignments done.Wednesday, January 3, 2007 02:26 p.m.
I was just thinking about the ice cream and chit chat session I had with E and his friends yesterday. All four of us, except Matthew's girlfriend (who is studying medicine), are either studying business or accountancy or something related to those fields. It's funny how we start talking about our lives, laughing at Roystan's pictures and at everything else, catching up with each other, the guys talk about their business plans and then after a while, we get to the grim reality. What's our future going to be like? Are we going to stay in Singapore? What's our career path like? Where do we hope to work? What jobs do we want to go into? What's the job situation like in Singapore? Should we intern during summer or do something risky but extraordinary? Personally, I don't think it's difficult finding a job in Singapore, I just think it's difficult to find a good job in Singapore. I know God will provide but sometimes, I can't help feeling scared that I won't be able to secure a good job because I don't have good academic grades or outsanding extra curricular activities. So what's left for me?Wednesday, January 3, 2007 12:57 a.m.
It turned out to be quite a successful shopping trip! I'm starting to recognize that sometimes, there's no need to be excessive in shopping and make sure my wardrobe is stocked with 100 pairs of skirts, tops and everything else. I'm also learning that nice clothes isn't a substitute for good character and it's more important to be beautiful inside than outside. E picked me up after my shopping and lunch and we went to meet his friends, Roystan, Matthew and Matthew's girlfriend for ice cream and chit chat! The guys do talk serious but they also crack me up with the things they say! Haha. I hope we'll be able to visit Roystan in Sydney this year! After ice cream, E and myself went down to Vivocity for kolo mee and hotdogs before going back to his place to watch tv! I'm so glad I'm not starting school tomorrow because I don't think I'm quite ready to go back and get swarmed with assignments, projects, readings and waking up at 6.30am!Tuesday, January 2, 2007 10:43 a.m.
Wow, it's 2007 already! I don't know what this year will bring or how it'll turn out but I know who holds my hand and I'm kind of looking forward to the year!
A new year lies open before us.In spite of our resolutions, regardless of our plans,
We do not know where the road will take us.
No matter what - God is with us. I spent the first day of the new year sleeping in because sarah and myself only got home around 3.30am! Late lunch with the family before Yuri and myself went out shopping! I got a pair of polka dotted shoes! It's really cute and pretty and I can't stop wearing them around the house! Haha. Met E after shopping and we went down to Suntec's Crystal Jade for dinner. Just as our food was arriving, my eldest cousin and his girlfriend sat down on the next table to us! Haha. It was purely coincidental and of all the restaurants in Suntec and all the tables in Crystal Jade. So we ended up having dinner together but they left first because they were going bowling and my cousin secretly paid for our meal! I didn't know it till we got to the Cashier's! Anyway, a walk around Esplanade and there was this live band performing so we stopped to listen before we came home! On the last day of 2006, after the usual sunday service (and my last lesson with the sec3 class), E and myself went to Manhattan Fish Market for our new year's eve lunch! After that, we went to tour the Istana grounds! It was completely spontaneous because we didn't know it was open and we hadn't plan for it but we just decided to go in and look around since we've both never been there! The Istana grounds is huge and sprawling! The president even has his own 9-hole golf course! It took us a good 15minutes to walk from the main gate to the main building and we did a tour inside the main building but it isn't that big and there weren't many things to see inside. It was quite a fun mini-excursion and I want to play golf there one day! Went back to E's house, had a swim, ate popiah for dinner and watched Stuart Little before we went back down to church for watchnight service! Pastor Malcolm's message was really good and he talked about the principle of reaping and sowing. I realized as I was reading the responsive reading that the words have lots of meaning. I also realized that the service isn't just a midnight communion service or a service for us to usher out the old year and welcome in the new year as a church but it was a covenant service! Service ended around 1am and this whole group of us went to Holland Village for supper till 3am before E sent Sarah and myself home! I'm going out shopping again and hopefully, I'll be able to buy the things I want! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------