Monday, January 30, 2006 11:22 a.m.
I'm tired and I don't feel like going for another round of visiting. If not for my cousins, I'll probably be like stoning or stuffing myself with love letters and pineapple tarts. Yesterday was church ( I didn't quite get the message!), then both my grandma's house followed by lunch at my dad's first uncle's house then great grandma's house, mum's first aunt's house, my aunt's house to have pizzas (the best food i could eat after a whole day of chinese new year goodies and chinese food) and finally, I went over to E's house. Really don't feel like moving today but my dad says we've got 3 houses to visit and then my grandma's house in the night because according to the cantonese tradition, the second night is when all the family members especially the girls can go back to their mother's house for a good dinner since they couldn't come back since the reunion dinner if they're married out so tonight's the first time my dad can finally see his married sisters. I've got lots of work piling up and I'm panicking. It's like a whole mountain.Saturday, January 28, 2006 11:52 a.m.
It's a lazy saturday and yesterday was a lazy friday as well and I don't feel like doing my work even though I know I should capitalize on whatever free days I have and finish up all my readings (which I'm far behind right now) and prepare for the upcoming tests. Ugh. Supposed to be at the E's house now having reunion lunch with his family but I think it's way too weird for me to go so I told him I'll skip it (thankfully he's cool about it). Reunion dinner at my grandma's house tonight and I hope she makes steamboat! I like steamboat! I don't like those chinese food with like black mushrooms and 'hair' and the mixed vegetables (which I think is quite smelly) Haha. Anyhow, had cell yesterday night and we spent some time examining jealousy and loyalty. There's a clear distinction between being jealous OF someone's best and being jealous FOR someone's best. Ask anyone from our cell if you want to know more :) E came by to pick me up after that because he attended his friend's birthday party so he didn't come for cell and we went down to Newton to pick up some supper for his parents before we went over to his house to watch my taped 9PM show. Haha. I'm glad Thomas Ong and Jaclyn Tay are finally together and I seriously hope the next 9PM drama that Channel 8 shows wil be equally as good. Haha. Lunch now. I hope I don't get too sleepy after lunch to do my work!Thursday, January 26, 2006 06:23 p.m.
-Edmund- I've got to get to where I want to be (MSN)6:19
i just realised something about our nick Hannah - I've got to get to where I don't want to be. (MSN)
6:19
What -Edmund- I've got to get to where I want to be (MSN)
6:19
i get to go where i want to be and so, if i get to do that, you will end up not wanting to go to where i want to be Haha. See what SMU's analytical skills module teaches you? Well, I changed my nick. Haha. He claims that people might think he is bullying me. Haha. At least we both have a common destination that we want to go to.
Thursday, January 26, 2006 06:08 p.m.
My chinese new year break has officially begun but the crap part is that there's so much readings and tutorials to do! It's always like that during chinese new year. We always get work. The sucky thing is that next Wednesday, I'll have to go back to school from 930AM till 630PM for makeup lessons and on Thursday, I received good news today that our IT class has been cancelled but guess what, make up econs tutorial at 230PM. It sucks having to travel 3 hours just for a 2 hour lesson. And I can't skip econs tutorials because class attendance accounts for our participation marks. Ugh! That's one major thing I hate about universities. You have to make up for your lessons if they fall on a public holiday. Oh well. Such is life and I'm probably better off burying myself in my readings and trying to make sense out of it than whine about it here. Looking forward to Chinese New Year somehow. Even more excited about the 9PM show tonight. Weighing certain options in my life right now and recognizing that there's a huge price to pay (opportunity costs, tradeoffs and possibly regrets) if I choose anything over everything that's on offer. It sucks, really. I need to seriously pray about this. Time's running out. I need to talk to my parents, E and some older and wiser people and listen to what they have to say as well. It really sucks and it's no fun trying to figure out which option to choose. No fun at all.Wednesday, January 25, 2006 11:49 p.m.
E was really nice to pick me up from home today and drive me all the way to school and send me back again. We had lunch at canteen A then he sat at canteen B to do his work while I went for accounting lecture and after lecture, I joined him and we did some work till we met Adrian back at Canteen A for Macdonalds before we both went back to his house to play Xbox, watch my 9PM chinese show and have dinner together at Serangoon Gardens. I'm totally in love with the 9PM chinese show on Channel 8! It's the first chinese serial I'm hooked on and now, everyday when I go to school, I just keep on talking to Juan and Shu Hui about it. Haha! But I honestly think it's quite a good show and Channel 8 should show this kind of dramas! They have a star studded cast, relatively good plot with so many scandals and twists, it's so exciting! My boyfriend thinks I've become very aunty in the process because his mum watches it too and I've even resorted to asking his mum to tape the last episode on Friday for me since I'll be in cell and I've been rushing him home the last 2 nights so that I could watch every minute of it. Haha. I really hope I don't become an aunty so fast! Anyhow, I'm getting better at my Xbox! I believe with more practice, I shall be a worthy competitor soon! The thing is that I don't resort to scandalous means like knocking other people's car so they'll bang the wall and I can move on faster like some people do :) Haha. Well, besides all the fun, E and myself had a talk too today and hmm. I better sleep now. 830AM class tomorrow and after 3 hours, I'll be done and my chinese new year break will begin!Monday, January 23, 2006 10:56 p.m.
Today was a very long day in school. Thank God it's over. I felt so many different kinds of feelings today, I'll write it some other time. Now, all I want to do is draft out an email, lie in bed and talk to Edmund.Saturday, January 21, 2006 12:46 p.m.
E came over again yesterday to study and hang around and I guess it's good that we both, coincidentally, have wednesdays and fridays off. My maid made sushi last night so we were happily rolling the sushi for dinner (well, more like japanese popiah) before we went to church for the prayer meeting, which I was personally very touched and then we brought my sister to Adam Road for supper afterwards. E was telling me about what his younger cell boys prayed for him and I thought they were so cute! Haha. He's going to come over again soon and we're probably going to do some work before we either go for Fusion later in the evening or watch Memoirs of a Geisha. I want to watch Memoirs of a Geisha this weekend and I really hope it's good! Anyway, for quite a while now, I've been thinking about NTU. What can the school do to make itself world class? Should the school model itself after Harvard or MIT? What steps are we going to take to distinguish ourselves? How are we going to foster school spirit such that students that graduate will be individual publicity managers for the school and would contribute their talents, finances or whatever they have to help build up the school? Is there even a school spirit? What can we do to ensure that we get the best students each year? How should we drive our publicity so that people are keen to come to our school and are aware that we have an excellent and established business and engineering school? How can the school groom its students in the 3, 4 years that they are in the school to become educated, confident, articulate business leaders, engineers or economists? How can we improve on our strategies to fulfill our vision? Since we're so distant from main civilisation, how can we not moan about it, not shut ourselves in but capitalize on it? What can we do, how can we improve? I've been thinking, but my thoughts are so disorganized. One thing for sure, I'm set on writing to the school board (even though my writing sucks) to share with them my thoughts, my suggestions, my ideals for the school and to give them some construtive feedback. It's not that I love the school to bits, there's still some things I cannot stand about the school but it's just that I feel there's so much more we can do, so much more steps (which are within our means) that we can take to make the university world class and the best! Well, if you sing the same tune as I do or you have some construtive feedback to share, I'm all ears :) Off for lunch now!Thursday, January 19, 2006 04:14 p.m.
I'm done with school for this week and I'm honestly so thankful! I don't know why but Monday and Tuesday was really tiring and it really shagged me out, to the extent that I was sleep talking to E on the phone on Monday night. Monday morning lessons (business law and accounting) were interesting and I'm kept awake and participating but post lunch, I'm falling asleep during econs tutorial and getting irritated with my tutor because she really speaks funny and she's so long winded! By the time business law lecture comes round, I'm being overwhelmed with the rich content and then my butt starts itching and I can't wait to get home. Haha. Tuesday's 4 hour lecture was a bit of a stretch too. It doesn't help that the econs lecturer is so boring and accounting lecture before that killed me. Well, the good thing was today's IT seminar was so much lighter and it's actually quite interesting. I programmed my first robot, learnt more about hardware, softwares and I'm really quite interested so I hope in about 11 weeks time, I'll be more informed about technology and IT and I can talk tech sense with my father and my boyfriend. Haha. Nothing much to say because I think I was really too tired from school to do any thinking. Edmund came over yesterday, I made a new pair of contacts and glasses today and I'm intending on wearing my glasses more often because my eyes get really dry sometimes so I hope I don't look like a frog. Kind of looking forward to Chinese New Year this year and for once, we're not traveling out of the country so maybe I'll get more hongbaos this year and I get to sample more pineapple tarts and hopefully not put on any weight. Haha. I want to do some shopping but seriously, Singapore shopping sucks and the clothes are either expensive, cheesy or plain looking. Oh well, I'm going to take a quick nap now. Somehow, I really enjoy sleeping nowadays. It's like my hobby.Friday, January 13, 2006 12:50 p.m.
"Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrificesas much as in obeying the voice of the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
For rebellion is like the sin of divination
and arrogance like the evil of idolatry." - 1 Samuel 15:22-23 Obedience - Necessary and crucial for the Christian walk but very painful.
My thoughts on that some other time.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 11:16 p.m.
E was nice enough to drive up to NTU today to give me a lift back despite the rise in petrol prices and the time it takes just to drive there and then we went to munch at the Macdonalds at Serangoon Gardens and after that, went back to his house for x-boxing before we went out for dinner. We started with the tennis game but he laughed so hard everytime I made an empty swing and missed the ball or couldn't run in time and after a while, I felt it was way too slow for me so we switched to the racing game. Haha! It was hilarious. At first I took some really fast, class A car but it was too powerful for me so I kept on crashing and all so I switched to the Mini Cooper and after that, the boyfriend was just using his car to bully me and knock my car because if he played normally, he'll just beat me flat. Haha. The mini's so cute! It was rolling on its sides when I crashed against the wall and E hit me on the side. After a few rounds, I'm proud to say I beat him twice! I was yelling non stop and making all sorts of noises just to win the race so I hope his parents don't think I'm mad. Haha. I'm going to master this racing game and once Winning Eleven 9 comes out, I'm going to master that too and Jac and myself are going to beat the guys. Alright Jac? Haha. Went shopping with E yesterday afternoon and I managed to get 2 tubes and after that was dinner with his 2 best friends and one of their girlfriend at sixth avenue. The guys are really comical and they make me laugh till I tear! After dinner, we all went over to their secondary school teacher's house with Venezia Gelato for a 'board meeting' to talk to him about his non-existent dating life and how he should start dating and get married quickly and all since he's not very young. Haha, the guys were so frank and funny and they were coming up with all sorts of strategy and tricks! Haha. Oh well, yesterday and today was really good fun! 830AM class tomorrow morning and then I'll be done for the week!Tuesday, January 10, 2006 03:34 p.m.
I told E about that article in Her World and how the guy even expected the girl to split the cost of condoms and my boyfriend happily answered: "Just don't wear condoms lah! Then you won't have to split the check!" HAHA. Going out soon with E to have tea, buy his x-box games, buy a good book since mummy gave me $30 to spend at borders, do some shopping and maybe after dinner, we'll go back to his place and play his x-box together because he got a new second controller. Haha. I'll probably just end up whining and asking him to get off his x-box. School yesterday was very long, but bearable I guess. Shu Hui's coming to my business law tutorial (yay yay yay!) and my tutor is really really cool! I like him and I'm looking forward to business law tutorials! Sunday was lunch at din tai fung with E again before we went back to his place and then dinner at my grandma's. After camp afterglow on Saturday night, E and myself went out for prata and to meet his 2 best buddies and their girlfriends and I found out that one of his buddy's mother was my communications tutor last semester. Haha, if only I met him much earlier than I might be able to wrench a higher grade for communications. Haha. I managed to warm up to them so the night was quite enjoyable and Singapore's truly a small place.Tuesday, January 10, 2006 02:19 p.m.
I'm reading Her World and they have this rather interesting article about some guys who are well established professionals, possibly earn at least $100,000 annually, have their own condos and all but expect their dates or girlfriends to pay half the amount for their parking, beer, meals, entertainment, petrol and even condoms. Gosh. I know dating's expensive (E's credit card bills for the month of december went up to the region of $500 for all the eating and shopping we did during the 3 weeks after camp) but the guys don't have to be so sticky about bills and meticulous in making sure that they use their calculators and split the check equally right? The guys in the article rebutted and said that if you open your wallet for the girls, they take advantage and almost expect you to pay from then onwards and be treated first class. The writer argued that if your partner is miserly about his money, there is this fear that he might be short on affection too. She suggested too that if he counts his pennies with you, he might not be big enough to let the small things go. Personally for me, I believe that people should go dutch on their first few dates (don't you even feel bad making the guy pay for everything?) and subsequently, I believe that couples should work out the money issues and come to a common agreement about whether they should go dutch or the guy pays for everything or they eat at home everytime. If you don't like the fact that your boyfriend wants to go dutch, then I suggest you find someone else (a sugar daddy maybe?) to foot all your bills. Not just to berate the guys, but I think girls should also not expect their boyfriends to pay for everything even if their boyfriend's father is the richest man in Singapore and really, one of my biggest gripe is when girls go shopping and make their boyfriends pay for their purchases! Financial independence darling? You're wearing the top, not him! He can't possibly fit into those pointy heels! I think we girls need to be more sensitive to the guys (and at times, their wallets), just as we demand that our boyfriends be sensitive to us. I'm glad E and myself got this issue worked out and we're comfortable with the arrangements. At times, and many a times in fact, he pays for our meals. Other times I pay for them. Sometimes he pays for our movies or rental of DVDs, other times, I don't mind coming up with 2 tens to watch a movie together or paying for the rental of our bicycles. We don't keep count of the number of times we each paid for our meals and everything we do together and I don't return him a gift whenever he surprises me with something. After reading that article, I'm just glad I'm going out with a guy who isn't stingy with his money, who spoils me like crazy and isn't a miser on many other things including his affection, concern and love.Saturday, January 7, 2006 05:06 p.m.
I've got a 3 day week! I've got a 3 day week! Super yay! I managed to bring my friday's accounting class to monday morning and so now I have Wednesday and Friday off! The bad part is that on monday, I'm still in school from 830AM till 630PM and I have all my 3 tutorials on that day but I think it beats coming back to school at 830AM on Friday! Yay! Yay! Yay! I think that's the highlight of the day and it's probably making me feel slightly better right now. Been a bit down the past few days. I'm not too sure why but I think school and what I have to deal with this semester is getting to me and recently, I've been thinking of parents, relationships, my service in sunday school and a few other minor things so that probably got to me, but I should be fine in a couple of days. It's just that during this period, I don't feel like doing anything but drag my feet around and lie in bed. Had the sunday school's teachers retreat this morning, went for lunch before coming home. There's the december camp afterglow this evening so going for it in a few minutes.Thursday, January 5, 2006 07:54 p.m.
Did a major clean up of my room today and I'm pleased with the current state! Threw away all my A level lecture notes and worksheets, packed my storybooks into boxes and stored them under my bed, cleared out the pile of mess on my table, dispose of all those admissions nonsense from the various universites and in the process, found my acceptance letters from my dream universities and arranged my last semester's books neatly on the shelf! I'm proud of myself! Met debbie afterwards at Macdonalds then we moved on to Island Creamery for ice cream before I went to the bookshop. I wanted to run but it's raining so I'm excused!Tuesday, January 3, 2006 11:25 p.m.
I was just going through my iPhoto just now and I realized I've got this whole bunch of photos from grandma's surprise birthday party to the christmas musical and the latest picture being the one taken with all the above 18 ex-scgs girls at the young adults bbq on new year's day! I'm supposed to have my off day from school tomorrow but guess what, the make up business law lecture is actually tomorrow at 430PM! What a weird timing really and I don't feel like traveling 3 hours just to go for a 2 hour business law lecture! We'll see my mood tomorrow. Haha, I'm planning on meeting ShuHui for lunch tomorrow! Arsenal playing Manchester United tonight at 4AM! I want to go to Yado's house to watch it but right now, mum's not allowing me because my throat's gone and I'm having the flu plus she thinks I'll be too sleepy to drive myself there and probably too high or low to drive myself back after the match. Great. I hope Man Utd thrases Arsenal anyhow! Arsenal's a crap team! I'm going with 2-0 in favour of Man Utd :)
Grandma's surprise birthday party/ birthday cake/ guests and relatives/ all in the family / the young terrors in the family / the older cousins that keep me sane during family dinners :)
pizza at Spizza after the musical "Christmas is"/ E/ my surrogate little brother and a cool member of the wong clan, Jon Wong/ my big babies!
christmas tree at our home/ opening of presents!
my favourite girls in the kindy toilets (now you know what we do at cell)/ the above 18 ex-scgs girls in church :)
Tuesday, January 3, 2006 01:06 a.m.
A new year lies open before us.In spite of our resolutions, regardless of our plans,
We do not know where the road will take us.
No matter what - God is with us.
"When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you (God) who know my way" Psalm 142:3 So the new year is here and I'm excited! Somehow, I feel more ready to meet this year than I was last year. I know there'll be troubles, mountains to climb, heavy workloads, times when I feel weak and periods when it feels like everything sucks, my world is crashing in on me and I want to just hide in a hole but I'm still excited! I'm excited about school even though I know work is soon going to hit me on the head and I'll have less time to do anything I fancy, rest or see Edmund, I'm excited about my 13 week long summer vacation and what I can do during that long break, I'm excited about learning more about God and letting Him speak to me through His word since I'm embarking on this reading plan to read almost the entire bible in a year, I'm excited about my service in church and how God will use me in my home, school, cell and sunday school, I'm excited about so many things! I hope this excitement doesn't die! For me, 2005 went by really quickly. I don't know if the years just goes by faster as you get older but it really felt like 2005 was a really fast and short year. Maybe because I spent 8 months of 2005 holidaying, resting and doing whatever I wanted to do. I'm glad for the many things that happened, upset at certain things that occured and regret not doing some things. Well, went for watchnight service on the last day of the old year after spending the day with E and I thought service was really really good. Somehow those responsive reading helped me to reflect and I felt it guided me into true worship and Pastor Malcolm's message was seriously good. I think watchnight service is the best way to spend the first few hours of the new year! Debbie and Jac stayed over and we went back to church in the morning for service afterwhich was lunch with E and my cousin's 21st birthday party before I went over for the young adults bbq at Chang's. Today, I cleared out my hall with E, went down town for sushi and I bought a new pencil case from paperchase (one of my new year resolutions is that I'll use a pencil case and not just dump my pens into my bag) and then drove back again to the hall to exchange books with QG before having pratas for supper since E and myself were greedy. For all that driving, I used up one quarter of the petrol tank. I hope my dad doesn't ask tomorrow! Thankfully we didn't go in E's car. Starting school tomorrow and as I have mentioned, I'm excited! I hope I learn from last semester and I'll better manage everything this semester! 2 lectures tomorrow starting at noon and I'll be done for the week since there's no tutorials this week so I don't have to go back till next Monday! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------