Friday, December 31, 2004 12:15 a.m.
So here I am. My applications are due this afternoon at 5PM sharp and I am still sitting in front of the computer, fretting over what to write. I've finished writing my mustard essay but I think it's still so raw. It's like it's lacking some X factor. I don't know. I'm not satisfied. You cannot imagine how scared I am. I am so afraid that the admissions committee would not be able to see my main point, that they will think my essay is incoherent and my writing so childish. I am so scared I'll be rejected. I don't know what to do. It seems as if no amount of editing can really help. I still have 2 more short essays and I don't really know how to edit it anymore. The only thing I can do right now is to trust God with this application and pray He'll open the door for me if he desires for me to get into this school.Thursday, December 30, 2004 10:19 a.m.
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earthWould care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Wednesday, December 29, 2004 06:53 p.m.
HELP! I have no idea what to write for my essays. Many many essays due on friday and I have no big fat idea on what to write about.Tuesday, December 28, 2004 10:49 p.m.
It has been one long day! Came back around noon from Debbie's house because I stayed over last night. Went out at 2 with Jacq to shop and gosh, it's still very very crowded even though it's after christmas! Haven't people bought their presents already? Ugh. I don't know when it'll be a good time to shop already. Shopped till we met Gilly at 6 for dinner at this man tou restaurant at Scotts. After dinner, the three of us went to watch Oceans Twelve before coming home. Oceans Twelve is not bad! There are alot of twists and all but it is so cool! haha. Went over to Robyn's house for a BBQ last night before following Debb home to stay the night. Sunday night was supper with a bunch of people from church. Talked quite abit about shineforth and Melvin shared something but I'll write about it another day. I still have 5 essays to write and I have to complete them by Thursday night. UGH. I really have no idea what to write about! Darny darn darn.Saturday, December 25, 2004 09:48 p.m.
Ho Ho Ho!Friday, December 24, 2004 03:46 p.m.
Guess what! You won't believe this but the supermarket ran out of sprite and 7-Up! I went to the supermarket with my mum and Sarah to buy drinks and ingredients for my mum's dish tonight and there wasn't any sprite or 7-Up left! The only sprite they had was sprite ice which really sucks because it leaves this minty taste down your throat. Beggars can't be choosers so I had to settle for sprite ice. At first, I got only 4 bottles of sprite ice but my mum told me to get more. So when I went back to that shelf to find more sprite ice, there was only one left! Less than half an hour ago, there were at least 15 bottles of sprite ice! Gosh. The cokes were not even that popular! Met my dad for lunch at KFC after the supermarket trip. I still can't believe the supermarket ran out of plain o sprite. Unbelievable! Either more people like drinking sprite nowadays or everyone is making fruit punch for their christmas parties! Haha. Or maybe some silly Singaporeans are stocking up sprite for chinese new year!Friday, December 24, 2004 11:52 a.m.
I am desperate! I need a recipe to make fruit punch! My mum's side is having a christmas party tonight and I am in charge of making fruit punch! I don't know if adding fruit cocktails, sprite and rum to lemonade will get me fruit punch. I don't even know if I should put in rum or wine. Gosh. Headache. On top of having to make this fruit punch, I have to go get my mum's present! I haven't finish writing all my christmas cards too! I still got university applications to complete and photos to take. Oh my, oh my. Went out with Jacq yesterday to shop for christmas stuff then we went over to her house to spend the afternoon. My grandma's coming to church tomorrow!Wednesday, December 22, 2004 10:43 p.m.
Shopping today! Managed to get clothes for myself, christmas presents for my sister and father and I saw Sarah Walker working at Zara! Took a coffee break at Paragon. Honestly, Orchard is packed. It's way too crowded to do proper shopping. OK. This entry is superficial.Tuesday, December 21, 2004 12:53 p.m.
Would you rather be paid $4/hour to work alongside a lawyer and see how he prepares for a case, how much reading he has to do, how he goes about managing different cases and help him to do some paperwork or would you rather be paid $10/hour to work as a waitress at Ritz? I'd rather work as a lawyer's helper in this case. That doesn't mean that I wouldn't work as a waitress. In fact, I am thinking of doing waitressing for a while to know how tough it is to be a waitress. But when it comes to deciding between jobs, I'll choose a job that I am intersted in, that will open my eyes and a job that will allow me to gain experience. I wouldn't work for the money. It'll be a bonus if the job that I am interested in comes with a high pay package.Monday, December 20, 2004 04:14 p.m.
Why in the big fat world do you step into a relationship?Sunday, December 19, 2004 09:27 p.m.
Malacca was cheap shopping and even cheaper food! We had a Japanese meal for only about S$40 and chicken rice for only S$17! That is really cheap for a family of four! The shopping was really cheap too! Bought quite a bit of stuff. We only came home at 1AM after the wedding dinner. Driving back on the highway was quite dangerous. There were hardly any streelamps, unless you were approaching a toll station. There were also some lorry drivers who were sleeping while driving because they don't drive straight and they keep on swinging between the road shoulder and their lane. I noticed a few things while we were driving back and I want to write in to PM Badawi to give him my suggestions on how to make the highways safer since he said he wanted to reduce the number of road deaths! We saw firsthand a road accident! Just 30min away from Malacca, this bus crashed into the back of a lorry. Scary scary. Glass was everywhere, people were injured and when we drove by, we saw the fireman trying to rescue a passenger whose head was outside the bus but his body was inside the bus and it was clamped between the driver's seat and the side of the bus. Super scary but an extremely sad scene too. Managed to get down to Tuas in just 2 hours. There were about 12 Singapore cars with us at the checkpoint. I have only 2 reasons for the 12 Singapore cars at the checkpoint at 12:45AM. Either, they like us, cannot get hotel rooms and so have to drive home late after shopping or whatever or they are crazy Singaporeans who wanted to shop till the shops close before they make their way back. Haha.Thursday, December 16, 2004 11:54 p.m.
I've been babysitting my 3 younger cousins the past 2 days and it is so so tiring just trying to keep up with them! They have so much energy! They sing and dance on the coffee table, drink countless cups of ice milo, play uno for 2 hours and don't get bored, sing "Mamma mia, here I go again, Mama how can I resist you.." every time they're not talking, watch Hi5 and critize Charli for being a copycat, jump on the beds and laugh non stop for 20 mins while making up a song with only three words "I am happy!" Today, they decided they wanted to be hairdressers. So they set up the shop "Little Elfs Hairdressing" and got Sarah and myself to be their customers. haha. We actually had a real hair wash ok! It's nothing like the professional hair wash because we had water running down our backs! haha. But it was quite fun! After spending 2 days with them and watching Barney at 9:30AM on central, I actually think that the creators and producers of Barney are extremely creative! They teach the kids so many different things, including how to cross a street! The lessons are taught in a song-dance manner! I think it's done in this way so that the kids will catch the song and hopefully bring along with them the lesson! I think hi5 sucks though. It's so teeny poopy and they have so few lessons for the kids to take home! Anyway, I'm off for 8:30AM sunday school camp tomorrow! It's an overnight camp followed by carolling on saturday but I'm not staying over because we're heading up to Malacca on Saturday as a family for a wedding. I don't know whether we'll be back on saturday night or sunday morning because we still haven't got rooms.Monday, December 13, 2004 09:55 p.m.
I think I've just screwed up one of my applications big time. And that school is where I have a high chance of admission. Gosh. I'm such a cow! Went out with Gilly today. We were supposed to shop till we drop but we got tired so we ended up at Olio Dome drinking coffee with gelato and started talking about almost everything serious and silly. Bumped into Joseph and Vyasa too. I can't get over my application screw up! It's not like my choice school but I would still like to know that I've made it in! Ugh. What if I can't get into my choice school? I'll need to fall back on this school! I can really be such a cow sometimes. Ugh!Sunday, December 12, 2004 09:59 p.m.
Chelsea is playing Arsenal tonight! I hope Chelsea wins! I hope whichever team that plays against Arsenal will beat them! I think Arsenal is such a horrible team! (Michelle claims that Arsenal sucks because there ain't any eye candies! haha) President Bush is slightly overweight! Did you know that? Gosh! The media is getting so trashy! Who actually wants to know whether President Bush is getting fatter or not? Is it actually even necessary for the Americans and the world to know that he has recently put on the pounds? I bet all the slimming saloons will now try to get him to be their spokesmen soon! haha. Anyway, President Bush claims he put on weight because of the amount of doughnuts he ate during the election campaign! haha. I found 2 lovely books today at Times today! I wanted to get it but my dad wouldn't get it for me because it was just too much to spend for books! I hope Times or Borders will give me this card that allows me to get any book that I want from their stores for the rest of my life! haha. I know it'll probably never happen but I hate borrowing books from the library or sitting down at the bookstore and joining those comic crazy boys to read! I prefer owning my books. Did you watch the Star Search Awards? I am watching it at my grandmother's house and it's really nothing like the Oscars! We can't really expect much anyway. Haha. I thought it was exceptionally funny when Chcristopher Lee won the 10 most popular male actors and he didn't shake Fann Wong's hands! haha. I think it's because he didn't want to fan the flames of those rumours going around that he's dating Fann Wong! The girls sitting next to Fann Wong actually tried pushing Christopher Lee so that he'll fall on Fann Wong! haha! How teenagerish! But it was so so hilarious when Mark Lee won that award too, and just before he went up to the stage to collect his award, he went to Fann Wong, got her to give him a kiss, cupped that particular kiss and then brought it up to stage and planted it on Christopher Lee's cheek! haha! I almost died laughing! haha.Saturday, December 11, 2004 05:50 p.m.
I need inspiration. I think I convey my ideas better when I speak. I can't write. Off to leaders prayer meeting now. Yado's coming to pick me up.Saturday, December 11, 2004 10:38 a.m.
I took my second and final dose of the HepA jab yesterday and my left hand still hurts. It didn't really hurt the last time and I'm wondering why it's hurting this time. I can't even use my left hand to open the fridge door! I went christmas shopping with Sarah yesterday before cell. We had dinner together too then headed for cell. We formed teams and played the game of life. My team was Team Michelle Cheo. Dan's team was Team Ben Tan. haha. Team Ben Tan didn't go to college and were forever being fined for stupid things! haha. I've realized I've been spending quite a bit of time with my sister recently. On wednesday, we went out to chitchat and have some coffee. Yesterday, we had dinner and did some shopping together. Oh well.Friday, December 10, 2004 09:44 a.m.
Sometimes, I wish I could drive already. It'll speed things up a little.Thursday, December 9, 2004 08:56 a.m.
Today I woke up and fear just gripped me all over. Fear of men, fear of rejection, fear of failure and fear of death.Wednesday, December 8, 2004 04:19 p.m.
Youth camp! We had it at the Singapore Sports School this year and the facilities were excellent! The rooms didn't have aircons and the toilets were small but it beat Saribun flat! We had proper beds, pillows, purple bed covers (which matched the colour of my nails!), clean showers, hot water, proper toilets and airy canteens! haha. My group was ok. We won games though but it was a quiet group. No craziness or stupidity. I got to know them better during games and we could work together but that was basically it. I didn't really know how to communicate with them, with perhaps the exception of Ian, Thaddeus and Dawn. But now, I truly understand the hard work and effort the group leaders had to put in in trying to get the group together. Theme talks were good! The speakers used simple words to express big principles. Simply Good. The workshops were also very refreshing though I missed the first talk on methodism. I think besides the theme talks, the next best thing would probably be the fellowship I got with my close friens. Debbie came over to my bed each night to talk till like 1:30AM. Thank goodness, I had a really lovely bunk mate who didn't mind us talking. The third night, Teri and Jacq came over and we ended up talking about relationships. I think the thing that I didn't like most about the camp was the inability to spend enough quiet time alone with God. We had group QT this year but our group was quiet and nobody really shared during the group QT. I don't know. I would have liked it if I was allowed to do my own QT. When I spend quiet time with God, I like talking out loud my prayers because I tend to get easily distracted but this time I couldn't really. I don't know. I just didn't really like it that I didn't have enough time alone with God. Anyway. My whole body's aching now. We came back to church late yesterday and everyone went down to Waffletown for late lunch/early dinner. Jacq and myself decided to be all spoilt and got Edmund to send us back to church so that we didn't need to take the bus and Yado kindly sent us back home after waffletown. haha. Came home and slept like a log from like 7.30PM last night till 8AM this morning before going back to sleep again at 10AM and waking up for lunch at noon. You know what I like most about this holiday? I don't have to wake up in the morning and say to myself : "Shucks. Better go do my math/chinese jian bao/book reviews. Not much time left already since school is starting." hahaha.Saturday, December 4, 2004 05:57 p.m.
How do you ever peel prawns in public? There must be a proper way right? I had prawns for lunch and I spent just 5 minutes peeling one prawn. Usually, the stall owners would make a slit by the side of the prawn to make it easier to peel it or some nicer stall owners would actually peel the prawn for you but today, I had mean stall owners who left the prawn whole, even the prawn's long 'feelers' were not taken out. Yes, so how do you peel a prawn properly in public? It's rather embarrassing when my hands are criss crossing all over the place just to peel one silly small prawn. I saw a eldery couple today and they were absolutely so sweet. ok, they looked sweet. They each had their own plate of food but shared a plate of salad. Everytime, I glance over and look at them, they were always smiling, clearly enjoying each other's company and the old man would put some food into his wife's bowl. It was just so warming looking at both of them. I think this is what growing old together really means. When you care not about working harder to earn even more money or the children but just simply enjoying the simple pleasures of life, holidaying together and enjoying each other's company. Youth camp has officially begun but I am still stuck at home because I've not yet packed my bags and my parents are only sending me in at 7PM. I don't even feel like packing my bags. It's so mafan. Got to pack in shampoo, toothpaste (because debbie forgot to bring it and now I've got to lend it to her. haha), enough clothes for 4 days, paper, towels etc. Gosh. Not totally excited about this year's camp. It's a combined camp but that's not the reason why I am not overly excited. I guess, after playing so hard for the last 10 days since the end of my exams, I just want some peace and quiet, some time of quiet refreshment and not more noise, more games, more running around. I just want to slow down my pace and I don't think the youth camp actually helps to slow down the pace since we're going to have games everyday and like any camp, it's supposed to be activity packed. I heard we're even having night games. I'm still looking forward to the talks and worship and learning more about my master though. I kind of want a "silence and solitude" youth camp now. I don't know. I know no one in my group except for Dawn, who's my AGL. Maybe that's why I'm not too excited too. But I'm sure I'll make friends. Though I have no responsibilites at the camp, I still feel like I have to set an example, which means : no hanging around my own close friends and forming an exclusive clique. no running around, screaming and going all crazy with the girls. Anyway. I'm sure I'll excite myself up for camp by the time I reach the Singapore Sports School. I'm probably just whining now because I don't know anyone in my group, I'm not going to be close to Gilly, Jacq, Debbie and cheryl and I am tired. Off to pack now and off to camp for the next 4 days!Friday, December 3, 2004 12:49 p.m.
PROM! PROM! PROM! We spent all our time, moving around, taking lots and lots of photos. It was as if, films were the cheapest things on earth, memory cards had unlimited space and batteries didn't die. So from 630PM to 1130PM, we took photos non stop. with the exception of that 15 minute recess, where every camera was tucked back into pouches so that their owners could watch the results of Singapore Idol. Come to think of it, we were so busy taking photos, I don't excatly remembered what we had for dinner. I only remembered that we had soup, cold dish and vegetables with mushrooms. As usual, at any prom, there will be some people who were so gorgeously made up and looked like a million bucks and some who looked a bit weird in their dresses. Our prom was no exception! haha. It was a bit boring in the begining but it got better towards the end! At least the management was nice enough to screen the results of the Singapore Idol live! haha. Taufik Won! Yes yes yes yes yes! I really wanted him to win anyway :) Sarah and myself wanted to catch a movie but they only had French films so we ended up at Indochine with Terence, Sebestian and Chow Wee. The toilets at Indochine are really really cool! :) Sat around, talked and drank drinks with very very weird names like yellow submarine. haha. Came home at around 1:30AM and slept almost the whole day away before heading to the dentist to pick up my retainers. Went to Borders in the night with my family and I saw 2 books which I really really want! But mommy wouldn't get them for me because they were too expensive! $100 for 2 books. Ah. I hope Borders have a christmas sale soon! Youth Camp start tomorrow! I'm glad we're having better rooms and cleaner toilets this time. I'll be away for the next 4 days! Should be packing my bags now but I'm too lazy. Too lazy to do anything now. Prom pictures are up! Click here -----------------------------------------------------------------------------