Life: Status : Where : Hell Reading : Manga backlog woooooo Playing : Can't play anything till show is done Listening : Metal Gear Solid 2 theme, Evolution, Aka to Kuro, .hack//SIGN OST 1 Manga Obsessively Chasing Down : The Wanderer 1-2 Gundam X 1,3 Gundam Fight 7th Hobbies: anime obsessions : G Gundam Gundam SEED Gravitation Kaikan Phrase Princess Nine Pretear Argent Soma Violinist of Hameln Rurouni Kenshin Yami no Matsuei Big O Scryed Witch Hunter Robin Zoids Hamtaro Inu Yasha manga obsessions : Paradise Kiss WISH X PSME Gravitation Basara Banana Fish Peach Girl Karekano Big O Akuma na Eros Pretear Angel Sanctuary Alice 19th tv show obsession Farscape - a season late and then they go and cancel it on me -_- Number of Farscape episodes PERIOD : 88 Number of Farscape episodes seen : 27 Someone has her work cut out for her . . . TV Backlog: Season 1 of 24 from 1 PM on 24 season 2 - 10/29, 11/5, 11/12, 11/19, 11/26, 12/3, 12/10, 12/17, 1/7, 1/14, 2/4, 2/18, 2/25, 3/4, 3/25 3/21 Farscape Other: general- older entries pitas , or why this is here technically home - for lists anyway fanfiction.net - an unhealthy addiction go jane.com - seema works there manga/anime- shoujo manga, you want it grand high license list - anime is my life anime on dvd - it will take your money manga maniacs - because we should all read manga comics- megatokyo - webcomic that rings truer than it should sluggy freelance - webcomic that has everything rpg world - cherry's behavior alone makes it worthwhile social stuff- otakon 2003 - so not ready metro anime - the club that will not die awa - without a doubt, one of the coolest cons animeboston - AOD party 2003 more blogs- touga no miko - MAKER OF THIS LAYOUT! WORSHIP HER! carpboy - who says I only wuv his release list skillz patrickD - working man danj - still working on his raziel - probably shouldn't crack a joke here cabbit - a local, woo konoha - female! oh, she's cool for other reasons too. leliel - he's in japan, woo! lizzard - bringing history to the young masses To reiterate - layout by the lovely Karyn With a fix from wolve

Uh huh, you believe this Tuesday, April 1, 2003 03:00 a.m. I swear next time I post something here - the new layout will be up. Really. Whether it will be legible is another matter - since I just had to do something goofy - which also messes up other things and what not and oh well, lemme just get it done. Arghh, so tired. Round up Tuesday, March 25, 2003 02:25 p.m. So West Side Story ended. Thank the gods. When you honestly go home and ponder if death is preferable to continuing being in the show, things aren't going too well. I'm rather suprised people came to see me despite my lack of notice. Heh. Trust me, had I been Maria, you would have gotten tons of notice and attendance would have been required! I lost the role of my dreams because of projection. The director still felt I couldn't project enough to pull it off. Never mind she that got the part couldn't. Never mind the work I'd put into making sure I could project. Never mind a myriad of other factors and that one person was pulling for me. But he was the person with the least pull. On the one hand, its nice to hear "you should have been Maria." Its proof that its not just in my head, its not a case of overblown ego - I really was good enough. But on the other hand its really painful. Because there is only one person I really wanna hear it from. And even from him it would be cold comfort. Because we can't go back in time. I still didn't get the role. Randy says to look for it, try again. And I want to. And I hope I have the chance. But when the odd were in my favor and I didn't get it. . . to go in cold somewhere else, is the most terrifying thing. So now, in this new show, I have a really great role, pretty much the female lead. Its totally different from any role I've ever gotten, its gonna be a blast. And I am happy. Very very happy. (And everyone local better come see me.) But it still can't make up for what I lost. One day, I'll be over all this. And I'll stop crying. I know this, because I've gone through this in the past. One day I'll stop. But it won't be today, or tommorow, or next week even. Emerging from hell Tuesday, March 18, 2003 04:38 p.m. You are a LONE WOLF BADASS! You work alone. You live alone. You die alone. Everything that is not the objective or the obstacle is a distraction and you seek to eliminate everything that interferes with your efficiency. Extremely badass, but others probably find you creepy. What Type of Badass Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Make of this what you will. Chronic and constant Monday, March 10, 2003 02:00 p.m. The topic of this entry is PAIN. Severe pain, pain I have been in for nearly a week now. I seemed to have pulled some muscle in my neck/shoulder region. And it Does Not Stop Hurting. Not for a second. Sure sometimes its not so bad, but its always in pain. And being no-medical-insurance-girl, and having no breaks till the show, its not really getting any better. I am not a dancer. I should not be playing a dancers role. Plenty of people can see that . . . But not the one that matters. Karyn and I were discussing the fact I need a new layout, and I do, but that is so not getting done till this torture is over (7 days, 7 days). Not to mention I need a good picture. The weeks before a show are so expensive. Things like getting my hair done, and whatever supplies I need for the show, too much eating out because I'm running from place to place, and of course, massive paycut to make all the final rehearsals and performances. I just wish it was worth it this time around, but it so isn't. But still I put in my 100%, because it would be wrong not to. But I don't have to be happy about it and I'm not. Pain patches, what would I do with out you? Blood Red Tuesday, March 4, 2003 04:02 p.m. My nails are blood red. Not that bright red people think of, but that darker shade. Seems kinda silly since I'm gonna have to kill it for the show, but for now I can look at them and smile. And pretend I tore a throat out.