Monday, October 27, 2003 - 04:59 p.m.
He he he!! You should see my web visit counter down the bottom right hand corner of this page - amazing!! I didn't realise that many people existed!!! Me thinks there's an error!!
Wednesday, October 8, 2003 - 01:39 p.m.
How can you avoid it? Arnie Schwarzenegger will probably be California's next Governor. The media is in a bit of a frenzy about it. But the thing that always sticks in my mind are the people who come out of the woodwork to claim bad things about the popular candidate. The latest things to come out are that Arnie is a womaniser etc. I don't believe, or disbelieve the claims. I'm not pro-Arnie or against him. But isn't it amazing how these people, who have apparently undergone devastating situations, such as a grope or some sort of upsetting sexual advance, suddenly come out during the most crucial time of his life and try to sabotage it?

The point I am trying to make is this. Why would a person, who has been through such an experience leave it until this point to say something? To me, it reeks of election plots and conspiracies! *laugh* Well, you know what I mean. LIke I said, I am not defending or attacking anyone - because you just never know who is telling the truth. But it's really convenient isnt it, that these people suddenly come into the spotlight and make allegations?

Just some food for thought!

Anyways, the media is reporting that Arnie is the new governer for California, so it didn't seem to make much difference?

Friday, October 3, 2003 - 09:24 p.m.
Today was an extraordinary day, and I guess one where I really proved to myself that I can stick up for myself - I'm just not that mouse from the country anymore.

An old acquaintence from a place I used to live - I won't mention town names because that got me in trouble last time and god knows, I don't particularly feel like telling someone else to fuck up! Let's just call this town Queer-undies!

Anyways, she called me a few days, out of the blew and said she would be in Melbourne and wanted to see if we could catch up. I said yes, because you know, she wasn't that bad and she's good for a yarn. So, we arrange to meet. Meanwhile, my work got busy, so I decided to give her a call this morning to see if I could rearrange our plans.

Anyways, we arranged to meet somewhere closer and more convenient. I figured I had never been to Federation Square before and I thought it would be nice for us to catch up and maybe see this so-called fabulous place. However, I told her that since I had never been there before, we should meet out the front and go from there - find somewhere to eat and it would be fun.

I get there on time and wait around out the front on the corner, as I had instructed. Little did I realise that it was the school holidays and being lunch time, there were squillions of people running around - not exactly the best meeting place, huh! Anyways, I waited and waited, wandered around a little to see if I could find her. However, I was confident that my instructions were clear and their intepretation was minimal, if that is the right word to use.

I waited for half an hour and then called the hotel where she was staying - she didnt have a mobile and I didnt hear from her, so I left a message on her voice mail. Quite innocently. I told her i was going to leave at about 1pm, and if possible perhaps we could arrange to meet up some time later.

I was starving, so I walked back to work after lunch - missing a phone call from her - city is a noisy place when you have a mobile - I didnt even hear it. Get back to work and she's left a message for me on my work phone, sounding rather unhappy, but not completely miffed at me - which is what anyone would expect. I toddle off to the bathroom - busting to go! Getting back, my colleague tells me my mobile rang and knowing that I was expecting a call from Carolyn, she answers it and tells her that I'd be wanting to hear from her and I've jsut got back from waiting and wondering. All the right things to say. Carolyn starts ranting at my friend, saying how inconvenient and rude it was. She was really rude to my friend. I just cant believe it.

So, when I returned back from the bathroom, Lisa filled me in. To be honest, I was completely disbelieving! However, once she told me, I was quite annoyed with Carolyn and really didnt feel like calling her back. After all, Lisa had just done both of us a favour by answering my mobile. I left it for a while, calmed down and decided to call Carolyn, thinking that she couldnt be that upset and she'd calm down. She gets on the phone and she abuses tripe out of me. What it comes down to for her is the following:

She thinks I meant to stand her up. that I deliberately wanted to upset her. She thinks that my instructions were poor, but then tells me where she was sitting, inside a cafe was the place to be. And if I opened my eyes up, I would have seen her - yeh carolyn, I am blind and there were tonnes of people around. She tells me that she is in an familiar city and I should have taken better care of her and that she was not going to say sorry because she wasnt taking any responsibility for what happened. Directly after this, she said that she might be able to make time for me, depending on what I wanted to do. It was inthe midst of this ranting, that i said, "Ok carolyn" and hung up on her.

Now, I didnt feel smug with myself - I do now. But I dont like being ranted at and abused, particularly by an irrational person. I might have taken that when we were both living in Queer-undies, but not now. I guess you could say, the big city has changed me and that'll be the message she takes back. My name will be mud. This is unfortunate, but I can only hope that the smarter of those who hear this, will understrand that there is always two sides to every story.

So, I spent about an hour or so thinking about it, worrying about it, and decided it wasn't really an issue. I didnt particularly care. She was never really interested in me, it was all about herself. I think that her lack of interest and inability to listen might have been parto f the issue from today's problem. You know,I'm more pissed that I wont get that black jacket and skirt she promised me. I'm happy that I didnt buy her lunch, likei had planned.

Do I sound like a bitch?

...There's always two sides to every story...