I'm taking him out for a surprise dinner. He thinks he's going to the crappy thai restaurant around the corner, but I'm taking him to this fabulous steak place and he's getting cake - of course it's Chocolate! hey! I've gotta get something out of this day too!!
I went to the chiro on Saturday morning, got that out of the way. Ok, so when I say it was a boring weekend, I neglected to think about my shopping trip with the little Mexican. We had fun, walking around Chadstone, looking at all sorts of fun things. Suffice to say, I spent money I probably didnt need to, but I got a high and that's all that coutns, dammit!!
Saturday night was where the boredom began. We went to the A*rts Centre for the Gl*ass Menagerie. It was crap! Not only were the seating positions crap, the seats were so uncomfortable and the acting was far from brilliant! I swear, a Tennessee W*illiams play means a lot more to me than just a piddling little play! I didn't enjoy myself at all. It was a shame, because as a kid in high school, I loved A StreetC*ar Named Desire was fabulous!
Sunday was a day of slothfulness. Glen and I did stuff all! I swear, I couldn't get used to the change in time - Daylight Savings finished and my body clock is all confused!
This morning I woke to rain, and became sad - no scoota ridings for me! Dammit!!!
Good news - My boss text messaged me today to tell me he was taking another week of holiday! Yay!!!! I like my boss a lot, but I enjoy coming and going as I please!
Went to my chiro yesterday to find the results of my xrays and discovered that I have a few things wrong with my back. I'll try really hard to explain this, but I'm planning to actually put a scan of my back on the site, to show you. Why? Because even though I'm a little upset about it, there are some amusing things to also know.
First thing is, I have a crooked back. When you are looking at my back, my spine curves quite drastically to the right, up to my neck. My spine is nowhere near straight. No wonder I'm getting migraines and feeling generally unwell.
Secondly, I have a tilted hip/pelvis - can't remember what it is exactly termed. However, this seems to upset me also! I guess it's all related.
Thirdly, I have what is known as Spina Bifida Occulta. It's non-threatening, but it is quite interesting. Sometime when I was a baby, my vertebrae were being formed, as you do, when you have all that spare time in the womb! So, my lower lumbar vertebrae, just one, suffers from this condition. You'll see on the x-rays that my vertebrae doesnt meet, like it would normally. In fact, it loops without meeting, much like a spiral coil does, if that makes sense. LIke I said, it's non-threatening, it's just quirky.
Fourthly - is there such a term? anyways, every normal person has 5 lumbar vertebrae - I have to be different, an individual if you like and have 6. What has occured, most likely as a child or fetus, I have had one of my sacrum vertebrae (there are normaly four/five of these) detech itself from the other sacral bones. Normally, these sacral bones will fuse because they don't get a lot of use and are therefore inflexible - they don't move. One decided that life wasn't for him, and decided to swap teams and become a lumbar bone! My chiro tells me this makes me more flexible - I beg to differ. However, perhaps Glen can cheer me on :P *laugh*
The only other thing I can remember about my visit yesterday was that I have almost near perfect hip/leg positioning. You know how some people's legs dont sit properly or evenly in their hip joints? MIne sit perfectly - the most perfect he's ever seen. However, because my pelvis isnt sitting properly, I still feel like one leg is shorter than the other - but it's not significant.
So, yesterday I had my first, what they term, an Adjustment. It was relatively painless. Ok, so it didnt hurt at all. Very swift and straight to the point. I have to go back tomorrow. In fact, he recommends I go back twice a week for 5 weeks to try and correct the problems and re-assess from there. You know, all the while I was gaping. My mouth hung wide open most of the time, I thought I was going to end up in a wheel chair when he said, "You've got Spina Bifida Occulta" - of course the only words I heard were the first two! I was devastated until he told me there was nothing to be concerned about - doc, I think you need to learn how to communicate a little better before one of your patients storms out and does something drastic.
anyways, i am good. Still in a small amount of shock - it's a little scary to think your back is so fucked - to actually see it, is too much reality for me. Enough to give me a migraine! But I survived and there were no migraines. I was fatigued and lethargic last night and I did get a little nausuous and floaty-like, but that was it. I even rode my precious scoota home frmo the practice - as if I had a choice! It was a niec ride too :)
Anyways, the weekend is almost upon me. I'm heading to the chiro again tomorrow morning. Margie is coming over for visits and some retail therapy - sorry Glen! And then we're heading off to the Arts Centre to see the Glass Menagerie - can't wait. Sunday is my day of rest and I can get an extra hour of it too, Daylight Saving finishes - hurrah. It's ridiculous to wake up at 7am in the morning and not see any sunlight. Goddamit!
Also! Say a little prayer for mum this weekend - she's running for local council and I want to see her get in so she can ruffle some feathers - of course, she enjoys it, so being paid to do such things is almost unheard of! Woo, go mum! Councillor Mum! Has a certain ring to it, doesnt it? :)
I've been riding my scoota, which I said before. I've been flat out at work, since my boss is still away and will be away for another two weeks - yipppee! You know, I am not really abusing this freedom, but I am not nearly as concerned about leaving work early or doing my thing at lunch, like browing a book store and using up a little more of my lunch break than I should. I'm still getting my work done and I'm productive, there's been no complaints from those who i am working with. I think I might have to sit my boss down and have a "chat" to him about how things are now. *grin* Somehow, I think he'll laugh at me, but all the same, I think he's pretty laid back and wouldnt notice if I did leave early, or was back from lunch a little later than I should be.
Anyways, I've had my massage appointment this week, another step towards a migraine free life - I hope. Tomorrow, I'm off to mys econd appointment with the chiropractor. I hope the xrays he took on Saturday will reveal something which can be fixed, without a lot of work. I hope. Fingers crossed. Perhaps tomorrow night I'll update, if I can remember or be bothered. You know, I'm on a computer all day, I'm sitting under a fluorescent light all day - so forgive me if I dont always update at night - it's sometimes too impossible to think of.
This weekend, I'm heading out for the Saturday evening to see the Glass Menagerie. Should be good. Has some local Aussie talent in it, so I hope that it meets my expectation. perhaps I will also go for a ride this weekend. though, I kinda dont know where. I'm still not ofay with M*elbourne, so it's hard to know where to ride.
Also, it's close to Marg's anniversary. On March 31, it will have been a year. I can't believe it. iw rote about her the night I saw her in hospital. It was dreadful and I still get a little teary thinking about her. Such a great lady who really had me buffaloed when i first met her. I knew her before I met her, as the Dragon lady. when I first met her, she met my eyes with hers - pearcing with a stare of disapproval. I wondered what I had already done to this lady who I hadnt ever spoken to. When I started working with her, I thought of her as a hard nosed, outwardly abrasive woman. Within the four months I got to know her, I realised her heart of gold, her great sense of humour, her ability to buffalo and hood-wink people into thinking she was the queen bitch. She had such a difficult life, raised her children alone and had always been a fighter. She was a fabulous mother, she offered so much support to those around her. She was so insightful and supportive. When I realised she was sick, I never imagined there'd be a day she wasnt around. the night I saw her in the hospital, I wanted to cry. I did when I left. So many memories.
Rest in peace Margaret R.
Anyways, it was fabulous. No problems whatsoever and I didn't feel nervous about any of it - I guess that just goes to show that practice makes perfect. I doubt I'll be catching the train to work unless it rains now. I'm hooked.
And yes, I know - you all want me to post pics, but I just keep forgetting to do it. Plus, Glen's camera didn't have any charged batteries, so once I get that sorted out, I'll take some pics - right along with those washing machine and scanner pics - cause I gotta sell them on E*bay!
Anyways, the rest of my weekend was busy. Friday night, we saw Nancy Cartwright at the A*stor THeatre, which was great. However, I could have done without the question time at the end. I mean, really who wants to listen to morons asking a voice-actor who they can speak to, to get a job working for the Simpsons? Or how do they contact someone in animation so they can work in animation? LIke she would know! it was dreadfully painful, but limited to the first few questions - I guess they learnt their lessons, either that, or the bouncer staff told them to restrict their questioning.
I don't know whether it was because of the late dinner we had Friday night, or my body saying it didnt want to shut down, but I couldnt sleep on Friday/Saturday morning. I remember it being 5am and then having to wake up at 7am was a drag! I had to get up, I had an appointment with the chiropractor. Lisa from work has been hounding me for ages, so finally I gave in because of all the migraines i've been having. Anyways, he was a nice guy and he confirmed all the symptoms I had been experiencing, plus diagnosed things I hadnt told him about, so I am convinced he can do something to help me. However, I had to toddle off to the radiology place to get some x-rays - twice in one day, I had to bare my lily white back to the world! Not a pretty sight!!
Went for a bit of a ride yesterday, washed both cars, buffed the bonnets because they were fading in the sun and clipped and pruned both courtyards - not bad work for us! At least our front courtyard looks liveable! I can actually see without having to stoop over and look under the tree limbs! Hurrah :) Very productive.
Anyways, I'm off!
Three hours later, it finishes, we go to bed and Sam can't stop thinking about the movie! You know, the main reason is because it is set in M*elbourne because I guess we're at the very tip of Aus, so would be the last to survive if such an incident occurred. Seeing buildings etc of a city I live in was a bit unnerving for me, because it made it more realistic to me - I mean, god this is the place I live in and they are dying from radiation poisoning in MY TOWN!
Trust me, spend your Saturday nights a little wiser than I did! Rent a movie, go out for dinner - celebrate life!! All I need is to watch a movie like this which spelled the end of human existence making me feel quite depressed with it! Good movie, but too close to home for me!
Let me explain.
Every time someone invites me out as part of a group, I shy away from it. I make up an excuse and say I don't want to go. It's a gut reaction. I mean, let's talk about this example...
GLen and I, and another friend have been invited to have dinner with X tonight. X has done some questionable things in the past, which I have not agreed with - Glen and friend have also shared this opinion. However, X is nice enough, though not my kind of friend - more like an acquaintence. Glen and friend accept X for whatever she is and let everything slide with this person. I find it hard to let things slide and it seems as if I have adopted the attitude of "PLeasing myself and not doign things that I don't really want to do". So, I said no to the dinner invitation because I'm no overly interested in spending a week night with someone who I don't "mesh" with and who is so wishy-washy, I find it hard to believe she can organise her life sometimes. Ok, don't get me wrong - I think she is sweet and I know she doesn't have a mean bone in her body! But I have shyed away from spending any time with her. And with me, once I start saying no, I tend to keep going until I've dug my hole and people start saying, "OH yeh, Sam won't come - she never comes."
So, I've been mulling over this and I've decided it's partly a self-confidence issue and partly an attention issue. I'm not entirely sure why I might crave attention though, so go figure.
I think I'm afraid that X will judge me, like she hasn't seen me in a long while and will think horrid things of me, like "OH, she's gotten fatter!" or "What does he see in her?" etc. Ok, so why do I care? I don't think I do, but I guess sometimes, ok a lot of the time, I'm a bit of an emotional wreck and don't like to put myself into these situations when I am feeling this way. You know?
I also think it's easier for me to be by myself than it is to hang out with a bunch of people (3 others) and be pleasant and compromising - X is a vego - I hate vego dining, it's so tasteless (Sorry to those who take offence at that!) and I always find that I've spent money on something I dont like, the night wasn't that interesting and I never really feel part of the conversation. I guess I'm just not a person who can dictate a convo - I prefer to listen and not contribute. Unless I have something in common with them, I dont find it a very two-way situation. Perhpas that's why I don't like going? I dont have anything in common with them?
I just don't know what is wrong with me. I've almost always done this and whilst I was living alone with no friends, i craved a social life, I am now with a semi-social life, which I don't enjoy. I can't win. I guess it comes down to the fact that I have this social life which I have acquired through Glen, but I'm not that interested in it. I don't hang out with his friends because we have nothing in common, so I choose not to hang out with them. Sometimes I really hate the assumption that because I am his girlfriend, I am an extension of his social life. WRONG!
You know something else about all of this? It's all expected, so how am I to let everyone down? Bad attitude, I know. I don't think like this and I dont make my decisions on this. I resent people making a big deal of my decisions - either way.
Sorry for the venting folks, but I'm really bugged by this.
Anyways, I had a great weekend :) We came back Sunday afternoon with Glen's motorbike and hauled it off the trailer. I had a flip out - I suddenly realised how big and heavy the bastard is and had a huge panic attack about Glen killing himself on it. I ranted and vented all over GLen, we had a slight argument about it, he went away to cool off, I skulked around to cool off - we made up. I'm slightly happier about it now - given I'm not panicking as much! And we're going to take it easy and be careful. That's all we can ask. I mean, Glen practically rides to work every day now, so it's not much different t- except he's on a push bike mostly.
Glen and I had the most awesome MOnday 3ever! It was a public holiday, so we took advantage of the niec weather and rode our bikes around. Unfortunately, it was a little busy around Bicentennial Gardens with Moo*nba etc, but all in all, it wasnt that bad. I think Glen was more stressed than - since I'm not riding a manual bike - I dont have to worry about stalling it!
I am feeling suitably taken by the Scoota-bug! Vrooom vrooom!! Pity I cant ride it to the hairdressers next Saturday - I think it'll smoosh my hair style! Oh well!
Today, I was in a meeting. M had a whinge about how he was doing L's work. M is a bit of a whinger, but you never take him seriously. So, passing on the message, which I believed to be not particularly serious, L got a little indignant and began transcribing an email to M, highlighting her responsibilities and how what he was doing, was what in fact, he was meant to already be doing. However, P came into the equation and said that perhaps L shouldn't compose the email. So, apparently L hasn;t sent the email, which is good (it was never serious enough to warrant a response), but apparently I now look like the trouble- maker! Do you know why? L says to me, "I had better not write anything, since the information was third hand and I didn't hear it." *groan*
It's Thursday afternoon here. I can't wait for the weekend. Not that we're going anything really fun! Not unless you count hiring a trailer, driving two hours to the in-laws, spending the long weekend there, hitching the bike to the trailer and driving back, as any sort of fun? I dont!
Off to do some work. Perhaps someone can email me and give me some code which codes a Comments link after each entry, so that i can log commetns on my page!!! PLEASE!
So, I did it! I bought my little scoota! Wooo!! It was very odd for me actually. You know, I'm usually overly excited about anything new I buy. Except, this time I have been very quiet about it and definitely not very excited. I just didn't have any enthusiasm for it, you know? I think I was scared. Though, that hasn't changed, since I am still scared of riding on the road, let alone in peak-hour traffic.
Anyways, it all worked well. I had to get Glen to ride it from the bike store to home, because I wasn't confident enough to get on and he has ridden a little more than me and rides a push bike to work almost everyday. I sat around for most of the day after that, just looking at it! Infact, we sat outside in the courtyard, just peering at it from our seats! Very odd people!! But it's so lovely!! I did finally take it for a ride on Saturday afternoon when it had cooled down a bit and I was in love!! (Sorry Glen!). It's just so lovely, nice and smooth to ride. I love the wind in my face - you know, that free feeling! Soon, I'll post some pictures on the site for you to look at, but really, if you look at the previous entry, I have a link to the Arriba on it and although the colour isn't the same as mine (Raspberry Red), it's exactly the same.
This weekend coming up, Glen and I are driving to his parents' place to pick up his bike to bring back with us. I'm a little nervous about it. I mean, I'm fine on the roads myself. I know there is a risk of getting into an accident or whatever, but more so, I am worried for Glen. I guess I'm being overprotective. I mean, the guy rides to work on hsi pushbike, so there is little difference, except for the speed. Plus, on the MB, he'll wear more protective clothing. Get over it Sam!
Not much else happening really! I'm back at work this morning. Couldn't wake up this morning. Felt ill when I woke up, like I had been sick, but I hadn't. Go figure. Maybe I am allergic to Work and the only medicine is a ride on my scoota??! Yes yes, perhaps that is it!
Had a bit of a blast from the past on the weekend. Someone I haven't heard from in a while emailed. I initiated the contact and I'm sure they reading this now! I'm just a little confused about it and not sure what will come of it, or what they/I expect. It's always awkward. Just taking it for what it is - a catch up. Whatever happens after that, will be unknown to me. I've learnt not to get my hopes up. I have a lot of great stuff happening in my life, so I have enough excitement as it is! Stay tuned...
