This might seem like a strange entry, but I think this topic kinda plagues my mind from time to time. The topic is boring people.

Now, I don't consider myself to be boring, in any context. However, I can't help but feel that there are some people out there who I have come into contact with, who would disagree with me and that's fine.

Perhaps we should explore the reasons why I appear to be boring? Yes, let's!

My biggest issue is getting to know people. I don't fall into friendships fast. I have become quite choosy about friends. I don't want to waste anyone's time, but I like to know that the person I am befriending is someone I can eventually trust and hang out with, you know, be myself. So, here's my theory - perhaps I appear boring to people, only because I'm already not interested in forming a friendship with this individual, so I hold back, appearing to be uninteresting, when I'm UNinterested. See?

I mean really, how many people are out there that you can truthfully say are dull and boring? I know it's one of those hard questions, right up there with the concept of 'UGLY' people - there just isn't a truly ugly person in the world and if you find there is, you might be the one who has an 'UGLY' personality.

That's my humble and perhaps 'boring' opinion!

You ever get that feeling when you know there is something missing, but you just can't quite figure out what it is, or whether you miss it, or it's just that everyone else has it and you don't? I've got that feeling. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and content, well happy at least. I don't think anyone is truly content - I mean, we're all striving to be something better, to have something more. It's just a cycle of life.

I'm 27 years old, I have a wonderful life partner, a great job, I'm eating well, I exercise, I kick ass playing tennis and I'm trying hard to find the time and motivation to study for my teaching degree, even though I get lost most days and don't know whether it's for me.

I think I'm a bit lost. I'm finding that my dreams aren't what they seem, or what they used to be. I'm finding I'm a little bit unsettled with what I want to do with the rest of my life. I just don't know anymore. You know? The self doubt is killing me, the instability is just so unnerving.

I dont likw the idea of treading water. I want move ahead, or at least aim for the future, the things in front of me. I like to set myself something to do, whether it's buying something from the store, or my goal to be a teacher. I just have to focus on it and do it. I dont like stuffing around, because I'm the type of person who tends to make a decision, be confident in it and just do it. I hate the idea of dancing around the issue, when I know I can just do it.

So, I guess I dont have a solution, even after spilling it all out here. Which is strange, becuase when I write, I'm usually able to come to a conclusion about what i am meant to do and there is just nothing to say.

Perhaps I'm not living my life, or perhaps I am living life, but it's not what I had planned and I've forgotten to take notice that I am? There's no doubt that I am happy, wouldn't want to change anything about this happiness, but there is a void that I dont know how to fill. Maybe I am missing something? Maybe I am missing something that doesnt need to be missed?

We bought it!! We, ok Glen owns a 1992 Ford MAverick XLT! I meant to update my previous entry the other day, as someone kindly pointed out to me, there were no other details except for the car's name! Well, here it is!!

1992 Black Wagon, 4.2ltr 5sp Manual, 152000kms, Approved for 3 years Australia wide unlim. Kms. Warranty. Very clean and original - no off road. All XLT extras including: AC, PS, wide wheel pack, sun roof.

It's very nice and it's all ours! It's in at the mechanics getting its roadworth certificate and certain things fixed up. I've even got the dealer looking at finding us a bull bar. Would be nice, but not essential. Can't wait! I wish we could pick it up today, but alas. Damn banks!!

Anyways, that's my news!

My first entry of the month - thanks to Margie archiving my July notes.

Things have been quite busy. Work has been quite full on, which has been great. I've taken on more responsibility, which seems a bit odd. I've been working in the centre for almost a year - 2 years with the company coming up on August 20something. Should be good! Anyways, I've really just started to be more confident, know my way around and have that authority to do my own thing. So, now I am managing tender processes, taking on tenders and proposals without any babysitting from Phil, my boss - this is fabulous because I get to really guide the process.

Also, Glen has been looking at buying a newer car than his Toyota Blizzard, which is over 20 years old. We test drove some appalling vehicles over the weekend. We drove a 1992 Ford Maverick, which has been our favourite. Looky here for the piccy! You like?

I've been dealing with the dealers. They've been a bit difficult, so we were going to give up and suddenly, the dealer called me and came to the party. We test drove it on Saturday and I got to drive it tonight. Tomorrow, the mechanic will take a look at it, and if he gives us a good bill of health, we'll probably buy it.

Other than that, life is fine. Not much happening. Just doing my thing!!