lost in darkness @ [300103]

Nyah, what's up with everyone taking driving lessons? At the rate things are going, looks like I'm gonna be the only one left still taking public transport. Although I can still hang on to the hope that even though you fellas have driving licenses, the car itself may present a problem! Muahahahaha!!!

Okay, feeling rather paranoid and inferior today....read a blog that had me gagging and then after a while I realised that I shouldn't really be gagging cos it's her bloody life and it isn't mine and what the fuck has it got to do with me? Last night had me thinking about dying again all because my dad was causing such a loud goddamned row cos he was pissed drunk and I lost my temper after specifically abstaining for yelling at anybody and this morning I woke up wishing I really had utilized a knife. Fuck it. What a wonderful way to end a month. Fuck fuck fuck.

Shit, I have to talk about something else.

I put a bid for another doujin [even though my first hasn't arrived yet]. Anyone wise would stay clear of it; you try to outbid me and I will personally slit your goddamned throat.

I'm still that mad. I need a holiday. A long holiday. So how about that trip to wherever-it-was, N?

Wonder how people can still keep in touch after so long? I've dropped contacts, I've been living like a fucking hermit for these few years and some people - fuck it, I'm being angry about nothing. Like I said, it's not my life.

It's pissing me off to no end, the lack of companionship. Everyone's working and doing their own thing now and I kinda understand why my sister's a loner herself. Doesn't fucking matter if you had a plethora of pals before. In the end you're still left with yourself and nobody gives a shit.

Gotta go for a lecture now. Thank God, one might think, otherwise my pointless rambling would go on and on and on.

lost in darkness @ [290103]

Ah, good. She's finally updated; the only thing I can say about this story is that it's painful. Arggh. It's good!

Bah, will blog later. Am currently dealing with shit about attendance (or rather, lack-of).

lost in darkness @ [250103]

It's a Saturday and I'm in the com lab in school cos we had a one-hour lecture this morning which I normally wouldn't have attended had it not been for attendance purposes. Sigh. I'm not blaming the new lecturer for such a dry boring subject, I can tell it's torture teaching something like this - BioProcess Technology. I killed off a dozen brain cells being stoned in the lecture theatre. Arggh. The good thing is, I'm going out with N today and we're planning to catch Eminem's '8 Mile'. Hmm! Plus, the rest of the peeps are dropping by some club to watch Missy Elliot perform. Don't think we'll be joining them though.

The remainder of my cash is going to a present for my sis cos it's her birthday on the morrow. =( I didn't even buy her a cake. Actually, for the past few years, we don't really celebrate each other's birthdays so much. Just a present will do. Quite sad.

Harry Potter doujinshi on eBay! I'm watching it baby.

lost in darkness @ [220103]

Yikes! This makes me look like a total geek, it does. And no, I do not have those books for breakfast, lunch and dinner! I just have a good memory with things I like. There. [And by the way, friend...I can tell you more than just that...]

Am now rotting away in the ELP, waiting about four goddamn hours for the 6 o'clock lecture to commence....it's so bloody boring! Didn't bring along my discman cos the battery's flat and I haven't recharged it. I know I should have! Blast it. I can't bloody live without music.

Hmm. Hakkai cel on eBay. I want.

I sat for a BioProcess Tech e-quiz this morning and failed twice! Hah! I found it funny. Joseph and myself got the same scores - 45 over 100. Yeah, made me wanna roll over and die. Just 5 more marks to a pass! And I couldn't make it! And no N, it's not your fault...I just didn't study. Bleargh.

Oh, yeah! I was totally stunned yesterday upon learning that Ishida Akira was actually the seiyuu for the uke in 'Level C'! [dies] N's comic shop has that DVD and she was telling me about it; naturally, being the yaoi freak that I am, I checked the title out and *gasp* couldn't think straight for a couple of hours. Didn't help that I was reading a review at a site called Boysonboysonfilm.com and it went something like '....and Ishida Akira moans and gasps [or something like that] life into Mizuki [Miyuki? can't remember which]'. I almost had cardiac arrest. But after I got over that, well, heh heh... I've always wanted to hear the man moan and gasp.

I can't believe I typed that.

And I know I should've expected this, but all them well-known seiyuus actually are quite active in this genre of animation - Koyasu Takehito, Seki Tomokazu, etc. Well, who cares as long as they're comfy doing those roles eh.

And now, a couple of things I wanna know:

Why are there Malay reviews on fanfic.net? Please tell me you fellas are Indonesian.

Why do people think Matsuda Ryuuhei is attractive? o_O

lost in darkness @ [210103]

In true Singaporean fashion, my dad has introduced two new members to the family - luohan fish. (That's flower horn for you foreigners)

[dies]

I knew it was just a matter of time before my dad succumbed to this stupid trend. I don't understand it myself; one day he's criticizing the fish, the next day we have not one but two of them swimming around in their tanks. Right smack in the living room.

Sigh. In Linus's words, "Fathers are like that."

The bigger one's a real HUGE specimen - I swear if I could cook it, it'd last me for several days. It doesn't have those markings (of numbers or Chinese characters) but it has a bit of color. Last night it was yellow and pink but today it's just red. And mostly grey.

I wonder why I'm talking about these fish.

Hey hey, I won the doujinshi in the end! Haha. [And blew my budget sky high in the process] Fortunately my dad gave me more cash to cover the cost. He's too obsessed about his stupid fish, is my guess. [Just a final remark about them - they actually have teeth! God. They're pointy and red and quite menacing. Hmm.]

Also, where realisations are concerned, I just looked at the calendar and damn, my sis's birthday is this Saturday. Or Sunday, I'm not sure which. And Ros's b-day is on the following Monday. Looks like I gotta go rob a bank already - as my father likes to say.

I can't bloody wait for CNY to come round the corner! I need moolah!!!

lost in darkness @ [190103]

I watched Ocean's 11 a while ago [spurred on to, after reading the book adaption] and my word, it has got to be the coolest heist movie for a long time. Clooney [Ocean] is just so slick it's unbelievable. Pitt [Rusty] is similarly professional. And the rest of the 11? A little lacking on the cool quotient but the two mentioned above make up for it big time. Pity about Julia Roberts though; I thought she had a bigger role.

Anyhow, someone's outbid me for the doujinshi I had my eye on....N's telling me to up my bid but I don't think I can. It's costly enough as it is. [am really sad] Somehow I think I'm not fated to own doujinshi. Sigh. Besides, my sister hinted that she might like the Kougaiji plush for her birthday pressie. (!!!!) What, you think I own a bloody bank?

A rather empty Saturday evening for me. [Or early Sunday morning] Am downing Bacardi Breezer and mentally cursing the report on Molecular Genetics that I have to do. Blast it - I heard we didn't even get results. How the hell am I supposed to do a report without info? Plus those irritating evening lectures that start this week and the fact that the CNY holidays seem soooo far away....argh. Bastards.

Went to the Esplanade with As on Friday. Bullshit is all I can say to it. The library absolutely SUCKS. Aw well maybe them arty-farty bastards would say otherwise, but hell, it's the worse library I've ever seen. I did see the DVD of Guys and Dolls which I so desperately wanted to borrow, but apparently you had to be a bloody member for that. Fuck it!

And why in God's name isn't everyone ficcing these days??? Muses died? Get off yer lazy asses and write, bastards!!!

lost in darkness @ [170103]

Hurrah! I'm bidding on a doujinshi! After a long time of simply ogling at it, I finally put a bid. YAY! At the rate things are going, I think I stand a high chance of winning it too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

N turns 19 today and we're gonna have a small party at her house. I'm gonna be escorting her allllll the way from Bugis. [beam, beam] Even though I haven't got her a present yet [I'm pretty shameless].

Yesterday a couple of us got shifty and ditched some lectures. =p Bad thing was, we were nosed out and marked absent! Hah! How unlucky, is all I have to say. But that's not gonna stop me from ditching in the future. [Although I'm being really obedient today, sitting around waiting for the damned lecture to start...]

There's LOTR doujinshi on eBay!! Gasp gasp! Among all the relics of swords, axes, etc. I'm just staring at the prices. They're unbelievable.

lost in darkness @ [160103]

Gahhh! Got myself a complete can badge set of the Gaiden boys for only $20!!! Waiii!

Right, just blogged for that. I gotta rush through my stupid speech tomorrow for the presentation. Fucking bastards the whole lot of 'em.

lost in darkness @ [110103]

Something else I wanted to put up - delayed by a whole month, sumimasen!

Yes! Screencap from Araiso High School's OVA. It's Kubota hugging Tokitou, in case you don't know.

Anyway, I'm freezing here cos it's been raining the entire day. Nothing worse than rain on a weekend. Hope the weather lightens up tomorrow, or I'm just gonna end up wasting another day huddled in bed.

I've an Immunology project to be done by Thursday, something about future trends in vaccines or some such. It's a pain in the ass! I've just spent a week back in school and already my temper's running short. Studying biotechnology could have been much more interesting if not for the staff. It makes me so pissed sometimes I feel like I can't be bloody bothered to pursue this in university. I've had just about enough of being exclusively excluded for reasons I can't fathom. Just the other day I had another bout of depression and on the bus ride home I made a list of things to do if I was told I had only a month left to live. Unsurprisingly, the first thing was:

Tell those lecturers of mine [with some exceptions] to bloody fuck off.

Crude, I know. I'd kill them without remorse if I could.

(Oh, yeah, anyone in school reading this? Drag me to the counsellor. That should do the trick huh?)

Let's move on to less violent topics. Today I let Ham-Ham [formerly known as Sadayel!] run about on my sister's bed, cos mine is too cluttered. He was being such a sweetface the both of us melted into puddles. He did some really cute stuff, like standing on his hind legs when I told him to and pricking up his ears, etc. Once I get that digicam my father's been thinking of buying, I'll plaster Ham-Ham all over this blog. Yosh!

And btw, check this ficcer out. Gotta love the way she writes!

lost in darkness @ [100103]

Back to being stuck in the com lab again. Sigh.

This morning my mentor started up her characteristic bitching; what a sad start to a Friday. Of course, it's really not her fault the goddamned school is being anal about discipline, but I'm not forgiving when it comes to her.

Anyway, I've been meaning to put this up for quite a while....if anyone reading this frequents fanfic.net's Saiyuki section, I'm sure you've come across this particular author called elizabeth and her only story titled 'rain'. And if you were curious and read it, well, I'd understand perfectly if you'd never want to see her name floating around fanfic.net ever again. However, for those who have been spared the atrocity of it - here's the MST of her fic! No no, I'm not being mean, but if you've read her fic you'll see things from my [and half of Saiyuki ficcers'] POV. I get more laughs reading the reviews left by 'em.

It's Di's birthday today. N sent me a rather ambiguous message saying the peeps are meeting at town later at 4 but my class doesn't end till 5. I'll still go, at any rate, it being a weekend and everything. [rolls eyes]

Currently I'm wading through the miscellaneous section of fanfic.net's anime sub-category. There're only 2 Witch Hunter Robin fics I've come across, and it's a pity cos WHR is a really great anime. [spoilers!!] Robin isn't a typical anime heroine, appearing with unlimited powers and seems to get everything right. She's just as insecure as any 15 year old might be and I think that's what I like. Wonder if she'll be able to crack Amon's barriers, being the lead chara and all.

Oh, and last night, in a fit of depression and wrath, an idea for a fic struck me! Wow. That's a first. Naturally it involves Gojyo and Hakkai BUT! BUT. It's not sweet and fluffy no mo'. [Damn, in a fit of depression and wrath where does that come in eh?] For starters, it's about those limiters coming off. Hmm, hint enough? Very rough, very disturbing. And I'm gonna make it a chaptered story [also a first!] cos one-shots are irritating aren't they?

Read a couple of blogs. Am appalled at the vast difference between the both - one speaks endlessly of love and contentment while the other is dealing with a dysfunctional family and battling depression. What is this?! Feel sorry for both. And this hasn't even let me in on the password. What in hell is all this anyway?

lost in darkness @ [090103]

In case anyone noticed the dates, this is just the second entry of the day. Need to get something off my chest is all.

My school's having this New Year gathering thing sometime this week. I can't be bothered with any of this shit, but today, while drawing lots for the blasted singing competition that's to be held during this gathering....well, the ironic thing had to happen. My name came up.

I was so shocked I couldn't breathe. I can't bloody sing to save my life and here they are trying to get me to SING in front of the entire school? Un-unh. So I try to be rational and I'm explaining to my class rep that I really wasn't the best candidate for this. He said it wasn't his fault that I was picked but I don't seem to have any other choice. [I know drawing lots is a fair method, and I know I'm being unreasonable but I just can't do this.]

Wrong, wrong. I always have a choice.

I'm not going to turn up for this. I've already done my duty of telling him that even with attendance taken, I'm not showing up for this gathering thingy. And if he doesn't want to change his mind about picking someone else [problem is nobody wants to volunteer which makes me so fucking pissed - like, why in God's name are they even holding this when they KNOW people just aren't interested?!] then on that day my group isn't going to have a performer. Sorrayyy.

I'm selfish, yes. But there's no way I'm going to embarrass myself. I know it's not my rep's fault, and I really don't blame him; I just want him to understand my plight here. But looking at things....

I'll just fill up the damned form, sign it, do the necessary stuff and just not turn up on that day. They can't force me to stay, after all.

Another thing that's troubling me is the state of my body right now. I'm going to have to see a doctor soon, cos I really don't feel good. Even as I'm blogging I'm trembling for no reason. I've been nauseous for a week already and I've stopped eating cos I just want to hurl when I see food. Also, it's a convenient excuse for the abovementioned singing thingy. Hah. [N would scream I don't take my health seriously enough but that's the way I am babe]

Joseph made me crack up so bad today I burst a lung. He was telling me what he would do if he had Pete J's job and it was just plain INSIPID. He wanted to substitute the Ring with a Banana [???] and have Frodo destroy it in Mount Doom. Also, he would replace the elves with handicapped people [cos I think he's tired of the perfection] and have them fire plastic bullets [the kind that stick to walls] at the battle of Helm's Deep. I know it's mean, really. Joseph is the Devil, I'm convinced. No offense!

I feel a mood swing coming on. Have to take Hakkai's breathing lessons into consideration now or I'll end up shouting the house down.

lost in darkness @ [090103]

Gods, Claire has finally gotten off her lazy ass to give me Sabaki no Chi. AND I LOVE IT!!! Jeez the damned story is so sweet and sad and Eldra [is so weak!] has such a sad, sad face it makes me wanna cry just looking at it. :((((((( Shonen-ai only, in case anybody's wondering. Indeed, the only physical thing the both of them ever do is just a light kiss! JUST ONCE! Dang, for someone who's practically weaned on yaoi [hahaha] I was appalled. Not that I expected more....it was clearly specified: SWEET FLUFF MATERIAL.

To bitch about school would take hours so skip that. But today something really stupid happened in the morning: the disciplinary board reprimanded me for wearing slippers to school. On a rainy day. ????? I almost laughed in the old geezer's face. But nothing beats Shaw's response when asked what he was gonna do with his long hair: "NOTHING." Damn right! 'Tude it up, boy!

lost in darkness @ [010103]

Jeez, it's the start of a new year altogether and I'm staring dumbfounded at the television which is currently airing some countdown party at Sentosa. Boy is it lame or what? The main theme seems to be 'good clean fun' which is predictably boring! Foam parties are strictly not for KIDS! Much groping takes about. In fact, were it not for that reason, I'd be right there partying too. Changed my mind at the last minute cos my body can't take the atmosphere; afraid I might collapse and look like a right fool.

Yeah, didn't blog at all for December. Too much going on for me. But I'll make up for it by blogging like hell now cos semester starts in 5 days' time and [gasp] my labcoat is still unwashed. Lazy bastard, me.

N bequeathed me one of her hamsters. I've named it Sayadel, after the angel that appears as a vulture, but it's pretty redundant cos all I ever do is coo at it and that name seems, well, pretty much for show only. [rolls eyes] I had to call it something!

Tomorrow I'm off to N's house to watch FF Unlimited.

On an altogether different note [makes me wonder why I even mentioned the above] I won Gojyo and Hakkai plushies from eBay!!! Gojyo's arrived but his green-eyed interest is still in the air somewhere. When Hakkai arrives, I'm gonna link their arms together and make sure they NEVER EVER come apart. In that spirit too, I'm posting my first 2003 fic tomorrow! Gojyo Hakkai as usual. A one-shot that's way too short.

What next? Hmm, yeah. Two Towers absolutely rocks! Eomer, Eomer, Eomer!!!! Gwahahahaha! He's so scruffy and dirty but damn I don't care. My main gripe: when in Middle-earth HELL did the elves arrive at Helm's Deep to assist Theoden's men??? Haldir didn't even make an appearance and he dies. WTF! I was in such a shock I couldn't untangle my tongue to swear. But as my sister patiently tells me, if Pete J had stuck to the book, people would have walked out of the theatre halfway through. True words! No disrespect Tolkien sir. Demo...demo...

I really can't blame those ficcers who don't read the books but just base their fics on the movies....

Sheikh Haikel's rapping on the tv now. And God my back aches. I've been stitching stuff for a couple of days now and my eyesight has definitely deteriorated. Gah. Gotta go check on Sadayel and catch some shut-eye.

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