sparklesparkle!
Monday, February 24, 2003
01:01 a.m.

We interupt your normal blog viewing and my study break to bring you this important news!

Hikaru no Go episode number 64 seems at first to be some lame flashback episode - it is in fact a sidestory from back in the 7th grade. It has Chibi!Sai (Yay Sai!), wakai!Hikaru and most importantly! KAGA!! Yes, everyone's favorite man, Kaga returns for Hikaru no Go 64. I squealed, it was embarrassing, but he is such a punk! Also new vocab for 64 - nisenmono: fake, you may remember this word from the Tora-chan Go-ban episode, I don't even know why people bother selling antiques when Sai and Hikaru are around. ^^; And kaki - flowerpot.

That is all, back to Hikago now. Squee!

EDIT: New ending theme as well - "Music is my Thing" Ummm, right. I thought Igo was your thing? ^^; It isn't too bad but I really like the depressing old ending, "Days". The preview was a little distrubing because it had Waya drawn in one scene like some uke doujin reject. ^^; He looked more slender/fragile and was lifting up his shirt either a) itching his chest or b) putting on deodorant. ^^; It looks like a Isumi epiosde though and well as dealing with Hikaru's current problem of course. Yay, Isumi san.

PoS new cast members
Saturday, February 22, 2003
11:45 p.m.

WB released the cast list to the next Harry Potter film - "The Prisoner of Azakaban". Although everyone already knows Sirius and he seems to be getting the most attention and...DOES ANYONE KNOW WHY!?! Really as far as JUST the third book Sirius is barely in it at all. Maybe it is because Gary Oldman is the more famous than some of the other new actors or maybe because I am sure he has signed a two film contract, who knows? Anyway cast is as follows:

Remus Lupin - David Thewlis
Sirius Black - Gary Oldman
Petter Pettigrew - Timothy Spall
Albus Dumbledore (recast after the recent death of the talented Richard Harris) - Michael Gambon
Aunt Marge - Pam Ferris (she played the Headmistress in the movie adapation of Matilda)
Sir Caddogan (*snerk* The portrait that replaces the Fat Lady at Gryffindor Tower for a bit) - Paul Whitehouse

Go forth and look them up my children. I couldn't really find anything that I had seen, but then I don't watch many movies.

Stealing a Toonymouse quote,
Saturday, February 22, 2003
05:25 p.m.

"I'm aimless". Yeah, bad puns. In other news I am not at school and I still can't log onto aim, in hopes in was only my screenname (not that that would make sense) I have been trying to log on to every name with a saved password stored on Darsh - nada. Blah. So yeah, that sums up my day. I should have just told my dad to drop me off at Youji's, hee.

Pluside is that I have new supply of genisoy bars (downside to that is found out D&W was having valuecard sale after I had already bought some at Meijer (note to fans (HA!) do not go to Meijer on Super Saturday Special)), also have sushi from D&W, which is better than sushi at Meijer. Mmm, grilled salamon rolls, grilled eel, cucumber rolls, and inari - my mom and I will feast. Also helped random mom of a John classmate my mother knew pick out some sushi, felt very helpful and spreading the sushi love - she of course, thought everything had raw meat in it. Oh, also got my eybrows done, so yay! Not so done however, as to be able to impersonate feudal Japanese lady or modern scary old lady. Just so you know. *snerk*

Curse you AIM!!
Saturday, February 22, 2003
12:11 a.m.

Okay...me being here would imply the internet is working, yes? Albeit very very slowly. One of those happy fun times that I type lots of stuff and it takes about 30 second for it to show up on the screen. And aim still says connecting, it has said that for over 10 minutes now. Ummhmmm.

And the ants go marching....
Friday, February 21, 2003
11:38 p.m.

Grrr, grrr, and double grrr - although I suppose two grrr's make a double grrr, don't they? So I just got back from Kalamazoo and Miller and Hal Holbrook doing Mark Twain monologues. The show wasn't so awful and I did laugh sometimes although the end of the Huck Finn monologue kinda drifted off to nothing because he didn't end it at a good place. Plus the beginning of the show distracted me because on the tail end of talking about why he like cats Twain said, "If it were possible to cross men and cats, men would be better off and cats deteriorated." and this made me think of catboys/men Mmm, yeah mankind would look sexy with twitchy fuzzy ears and a tail.

But! I digress from what should be a rant! Yes, indeed I was in Kalamazoo! At Western Michigan University! Not 20 minutes from Christy's house and did I see her at all? Noooo. I mean, considering how much we drive to have sleepovers or whatever women of 20 have when they get together to watch men, hentai, eat phallic food, and read/discuss smut amoung other current issues of our time; sleepover sounds a little too high school or something. ^^ But does anyone else see the stupidity of me driving (well, my dad was driving) all that way and not hanging? So grr I say. I felt just horrible writing to her 2 minutes before we left that I had to cancel our tentative dinner plans. I actually hadn't talked to my Dad about it, only my Mom, and he didn't want to get home at 1AM or some old personish excuse. ^^;

Yeah, and I have been wearing my contacts for three days now - during the day I mean. ^^; I kinda slept on my glasses and they are kinda not good right now so I will have to get them straightened. And during the car ride home my right contact (my right eye is my weaker eye) got really dried out after bugging me all evening and it fell out so I am typing this with only one contact and it throws my depth perception off just enough to be annoying. Plus half of my vision is a big blur, highly annoying. I should do something about that but I think I will just stay like this until I go to bed. I'm heading back to school tomorrow afternoon so I can study and stuff for next week. Lots of exams. Yay.

I had something clever a second ago...
Sunday, February 16, 2003
11:04 p.m.

Before aim distracted me anyway. XD Yes, so I am alone in my single, Christy having departed about an hour ago for the snowy fields of home. My room has finally cooled down to some what non broiler temperatures, a mircle since I only turned off the heat...about 6 hours ago. However, this dorm is quieter than 2nd Floor E.Shaw and without the roomie moving around I am of course reminded of how very loud Zechs is. Of course, it isn't intrusive he is just...purring. Yes. Mmm, purring Zechs.

Complaining that we don't argue? Or was it fight? I forget, but be fight because we argue about a lot of things. I think part of the reason we never get in huge arguments is because one of us will stop and say, "Fine! Whatever!" and that will sorta end the topic. ^^; Plus, we have a bit of the "throwing stones" issue, who are we to say something is not right? Even between ourselves. Although there was the memorable time I called you a 'dumbass' because you were freaking out and looking for something (I think in my room) and I said something like, "It is right there, dumbass!". Heh, then as we were walking away I had to apologize because I realized I had never sworn at you before. Heheheh, but everyone knows that is just how I show I care. I can't remember if that is the the scenario or not but it was something like that.

Nya, I am suddenly really tired, I think I might go to bed early tonight. Plus the evil red seat wooden chair of infinite pain and suffering (TM pending) is KILLING ME!!! Gaah, my back - I need a new chair ASAP. The ones that live in Mason-Abbot are torture devices, I mean who makes a chair to hit you right beneath your shoulder blades? Painful pain. I haven't looked at all of classwork I might have supposed to have been accomplishing this weekend. I have sure I have kanji or vocab quiz in Japanese I think vocab because we still have about two quizzes worth in lesson three and we haven't learned enough new kaku or yomu kanji for a quiz. Need to print out poly sci notes, although since I don't have a sleeping roommate anymore there is nothing to stop me from printing them out before class. Is it just me or has this entry gotten really boring? Ill stop now, I have to get out of this chair anyway.

Rules of Combat #3
Thursday, February 13, 2003
06:56 p.m.

Okay, I have been grabbed by the scruff of my neck and ripped out of my depression my chronic headache is nothing to me know (besides a pounding in my temples, but still). For everyone I have ever told, "Now, don't go thinking that Rachel is a horrible person/bitch, remember that you are only hearing my side and of course I exaggerate because you are my friend and on my side yaddayadda etc etc." FORGET EVERYTHING! And if Zakem san is reading this (which I doubt) you can forget that locker room conversation we had just two hours ago before Tae Kwon Do. Rachel is simply, a bitch. There is no other way I can think to describe a person that would conduct her actions of this week. Through observation and a slight intervention I now know that her odd new behaviour of staying up late, watching loud TV, and leaving the room's lights on are purposeful attempts to annoy me - I can only assume, out of the room. Because my typing annoys her she is now in turn trying to be annoying? Does this not sound a little crazy to anyone else? Yes, I type at night, yes my keyboard is loud. But I have never typed for more than 5 minutes after she has gone to bed and this is just to say good-bye to everyone. And once she let me know of her learning issue of not being able to read with any noise (including Zechs' (admittedly loud) keyboard) I have tried to not type when she is reading. Which is kinda hard because she reads in bursts, getting up to do any other things and whatnot.

Anyway, last night my mom called to see if I had the Harry Potter books (which of course I did) because Joe needed to read them for English class (O.o How come I never got to be in a cool class like that?! I don't care if it is uni frosh lit! (Oh...I didn't have to take freshman lit, maybe I would have...but I doubt it!)) Anyway, so because she called on this horrible day I then had to cry and be stupid and tell her all my horrible not that tragic problems (in the grand scheme of the universe) and at one point she when were talking about how I should get a single.
"Just let Rachel win, and you move out."
"Mom, this isn't a competition!" (Insert righteous/scolding voice)

Well, apparently it was a competition, a competition to see who gets to stay in the room and who has to move out. Well, I guess she does win then. And she can brag to all her friends that she finally got rid of me and be really proud. Fuck you bitch, this has little to do with YOU and more to do with ME and the fact that you are crazy and I don't have to have it out with you because I think you're unbalanced.

Oh, funny aside, I had never brought up the issue of a single before because Rachel is already on the Shaw single list so I would have to move to another hall and that would be so obvious that a HALL move is just to get away from my roommate and I didn't want Rachel to think I hated her, because I don't (err, see far below the Rachel post "Love and Hate it is like Catholic confession.") but it has gotten to the point that it is no longer about Rachel it is about ME. Staying in this room is not a healthy option, mentally, emotionally, and it is starting to affect my physical health too. And then I find out that she is trying to force me out?! I mean how old are we? I have this to say, Rachel will be a very successful businesswoman but I don't think she will ever have true go to the wall friends. Maybe I only see her bad side but she talks trash about people behind their backs, is extremely nitpicky, and petty in her actions towards those that slight her in any fashion, real problem or imagined. I mean, case in point was that she picked at Grant the entire time he was here. I have never mentioned it before because hey, not my business but that is what I saw. If their words could have been physical actions they would have been poking each other in the arm for two weeks. I argue with anyone about anything but I don't fight. Fighting is always about something stupid or emotional stability or some crap. But this is another rant or another time.

And for me, I am far far from perfect but at least I can say that although I will argue about everything, I am loud, brash, tackles in many situations, critical of many things; But when I am nice, I mean it. I don't have hidden motives to make people like me, or move ahead in work/school. And no, I don't have friends hanging from the rafters (...in the non dead metaphorical sense) but I have people that care for me and people that I care for in return. And I think the older she gets the more people will not want to waste time on someone that is pretty on the outside but pretty much running on an agenda inside. Honest emotion is better than going around with a fake business smile (obviously not including hours actually spent in the office or with coworkers/bosses.) But whatever, I'm done with this bullshit.

Purging or something
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
04:20 p.m.

Okay, so you probably want to turn back now because I am just going to babble for a while in hopes that I will feel better. Lately, okay TODAY (and last nigh) I have been feeling very depressed. It actually took me until just a few minutes ago to figure out that depression is what I am feeling, the emotion being that far removed from my normal mode. I get sad, upset, or any other set of "negative" emotions but not depressed. Part of this is that since my natural reaction to EVERYTHING is to laugh - laugh at myself, situations, others, laugh it off, up, whatever - that is what I do. And even knowing that about myself for a good couple years now, I can't seem to do a lot about it. So not only do I hide most of my genuine emotion from most other people I hid from myself a lot too. And only on a day like today can I really see that.

My alarm has not gone off for two days, and I can't figure out why. Yesterday I woke up in time to dash next door to the BCC for Marketing so I was cool having made it to class. But this morning I woke up by myself around 10:20 and had a mini panic attack realizing I had missed a "surprise" quiz in poly sci. FUCK. ME. Now I am so angry with myself I don't even want to finish this, but I am going to. This is now 3 out of 3 quizzes I have NOT taken in this class. Only one of those days was a purposeful skipping of class, the other two (and I have ONLY missed classes with quizzes) were accidental. I may have to drop this class just to save my GPA. And I could just say fuck it, it is all right the tests will make it up but our first test isn't for two weeks and I have no idea how I will do. The reading is boring, the lecture is for two hours at 8:30AM, the only reason anyone goes to class is to fill in the blanks the prof leaves in the notes he posts on blackboard (MSU website for profs to put notes, announcements, etc). The lectures are mainly stories about the people that invented certain theories or practices of political science and aren't very useful.

And now, I am just sitting her without the motivation to do anything. Not go to stats, or nihon kurabu, or to Sarah's to watch Angel at 9. Not. Anything. And this is what disturbs me; I have done a lot of lazy things in my life regarding school but it was always because I decided one thing was more important than another whether that thing be sleep, friends, books, horses, another class's work, whatever. But never have I not done something because of complete apathetic-ness, the utter lack of will to do anything. It's kinda scaring me, and I almost didn't notice until Christy imed me when I was deleting my email and I let it just sit there for 20 minutes without any thought about answering - and not because I didn't want to talk to her, I just didn't know what to say, which is so lame because a lot of our conversations hinge on a whole lot of nothingness that are neithertheless very entertaining. Plus, it is Christy, if I don't talk to her who the hell am I going to talk to? Amber maybe if I had seen her in the last FOUR MONTHS. Gah, I need to positive horse talk or I just might wilt or something. And she doesn't use aim that much (dial-up! Ugh!) or like boyonboy action, I mean she barely understands the interest in anime. Gotta love my Amber. ^^

A bit ago I was in the bathroom and noticed a sign for free condoms (what with the romance coming up - well, for people that are not me (mrrr, even more depressing thoughts)) and they had colors (and on inspection made in Japan, heh). And I really wanted a purple on but the ones left were yellow (because that must be a horrible look for a guy), blue, and teal. So I snatched the teal one, it is very pretty and made me feel a lot better and that is when I realized how truly pathtic I was today. On a normal day teal condoms would be something to giggle at and possibly some hyper comments, and I would probably have still taken one even though I should leave them for people that have a use for them - but it was like that shiny teal latex was the highlight of my day and THAT IS SO PATHTIC! I wonder how many times I have used pathetic or some synonym in this...whatever this is spewing of pathetic Kathleen-ness that is rarely heard.

Christy just logged off, now I am alone with this stupid-ness (hey, at least I didn't use pathetic and adding 'ness' to words makes them better). So when she gets back she can be surprised at the crap I was writing while we were talking. 'Cause if I talk to her about things I won't feel the need to write it down here but here I can just flow with the tide of my thoughts (ooo, poetic) without having to make sense.

The condom is pretty, it looks like sea foam, the color I mean not what actual sea foam looks like. God, I feel so...stupid. I wonder if I could get bumped to a single for medical reasons, emotional ones. When I can set my own schedule I feel so much better than when I am constrained with a roommate. It wouldn't be so bad but I feel past the point where I can talk to Rachel about things that bug me, because I so often don't mention the little things and then I forget about them until something bigger happens. She just isn't the kind of person I find easy to talk to, she is busy and direct in an indirect sorta way and I always feel on the defensive when we talk about things. Well, I have to pee and I am running out of crazy talk so I'm outta here.

"Wolves have threesomes"
Saturday, February 8, 2003
01:54 p.m.

Wow, sugoku yuki ga futteiru. I hope my parents made it to K-zoo alright. People that are cooler than me (re: My, mom, my dad, and Christy) are seeing Jesus Christ SuperStar right now at Miller. My parents left around 12 so I hope they didn't encounter any problems in the snow belt. Hmm, I think this is one of the entries where I had something to say when I sat down but between two phone calls and the dog talking to me I have forgotten. I think it had something to do with Wolf's Rain. Meh, in any case, the female of the pack introduced in episode 5 does look like Gren with a little bit of Houki, or whatever Hotohori's empress' name was. And I am sure that she is indeed female or Hige would have said something tackless like, "Yo, dude, why are you dressed like a woman?"

Oh! Now I remember what I wanted to say! Heh, I knew there was a reason I had left the other window open. Skids. Boy Meets Boy Skids. Today, he was san the trademarkered Skids' hat. You heard right, hatboy for 4 panels was just a boy without a hat. And he was SEXY. Now I for one have always thought that the hat was an integral (mmm, Integral sama) part of Skids' adorable manly Skidness. I mean, even when Christy and I were making up wacky Tybalt and Skids settings in regency period Skids still got to wear his baseball cap. But now I have this to say, Tybalt must not have seen Skids without his hat because he would have been forced to abandon "the plan" and show his immediate lust by jumping on the unsupecting Skids. He looks that rawr! without his hat, that is one boy that never has to worry about hat hair he is adorable with the hat but without? Total sexcity manlyness.. And randomly? in the second to last panel it looks like Sandra made a small error and has Skids wearing his hat. ^^ Of course, he is almost off panel, so maybe he sneaked it back on thinking no one would notice. ^^

Duran Duran baby
Thursday, February 6, 2003
10:56 a.m.

Why am I typing? I am functioning at about 30% of my gross motor skills, let alone fine motor skills. I need to go to class, I have to. I can't think, being this sick is really bad when it is at the point that it is affected your brain, cold medicine does not help the brain working problem either. Lalalalalalalll, must go to class today. 12:40 self, don't forget.

And maybe I shouldn't respond to people when I am all high on sickness but I don't think your rant was offensive at all. You are a person that has thought on the subject a lot, you have an opinion, you are entitled to that. And genger roles are bullshit, so yeah, be happy people and theoritically you shouldn't need another set of hormones to help you achieve that happiness, maybe some people do. I don't know. I never thought about gender much as a child/teenager and only lately have thought about what makes a person a typed gender or something, I have lost my train of thought because all I can think about is my mom being all stupid and thinking since I like Queer as Folk that I wanted to have a "sex change" and be a gay male. Silly silly mothers. How long was that sentence? Do I have puncutation? puncpunkpunkpunk. I like Stone, a lot. He is all cool and punk fae. Punk is a good word. So yeah, if any trans people find your blog and get on your case I will verbally beat them down for you (not that you don't do a damn fine job of doing that yourself, probably much better than me.) I had another point, I forget it. Whatever, I think you are being resonable or something. Yes, somethings are good. ...Can we still pretend we are going to stalk Zan someday? I want to commission him to draw Ramon, that would be cool. I'm too shy.

And I think you are a perfectly normal (in that relative non crazy sense) adjusted girl, and I know what watching Queer As Folk REALLY means. : D

work brain work! We have a test, a lesson test, a lesson two test. Even if you cannot function in English can you at least scrape up some Japanese for me? Pleeeeeeeeeeease, I need to take this test. I should go away from my blog now, I am probably making OTHER people's brains hurt with my non making sense, it doesn't even make sense to me and I am staring at it right now. I wonder how bad my grammar has gotten. Oddly, my typing is not so bad as it was in the beginning, I am hitting more right keys at faster speeds, at least I think I am. Who knows. Okay, must stop. Stop now. Mrrgragh

Get Backers seiyuu babble
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
06:29 p.m.

Randomly, I am going to send out some Koyasu love. His character, Jubei, finally showed up in episode...12. And I squealed like the fangirl I am, and just had some intense happy feelings (...not THOSE kind). Koyasu san hasn't been in a lot of the new stuff I have been watching and while I really like a lot of other seiyuu now; verse when I started out in anime, I realized how you never forget that first seiyuu that you desperately listened for, and learned his kanji so you could check the credits. And I am just really happy. Heh, GetBackers has both Miki san and Koyasu san but no Seki san, in this day and age how very odd. ^^

Yosh, on to the new ex-VOLTS member - Emishi Haruki. Haruki is voiced by Madono Mitsuaki, this is assuming I am getting his first name right, the kanji has about 4 different readings for names - but "Mitsuaki" is the one getting google hits. Madono san is a seiyuu who has not had a lot of big parts but was Maron in Bakuretsu Hunter (Was it Maron that you liked Brett Weaver as?), Roger in Pet Shop of Horror, Ken in Gekigangar, and Ken in Nadesico...I know that Nadesico has some Gekiganger elements, are those characters at all related? Huh.

Yeah, Beth and I are talking 80's. I'm going to post this and continue the CareBears talk. Buh-bye.

Get Backers
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
11:52 a.m.

Is rocking my world right now. Exciting things are afoot in episode 14. New ending, hope Christy doesn't pull a Hikago and get mad. ^^; MAKUBEX gets the final ending shot all to himself leading me to think he might be the main villain for a while. Kazuki got a fangirl (and general VOLTS fangirl), although when she first saw him she called him "kanojo"^^; and this with him wearing a normal t-shirt. S(h)id(o) has a fanboy, an ex-VOLTS member and member of "la resistance" (Yeah...I have that SouthPark movie song in my head). He is a interesting, he fights with a whip and makes people all bloody. Everyone got screentime in this episode, so that was nice. So many characters, so little time! We learn a Himeko secret which made me O.o and laugh. And wow I have to go to class now. Later!

PS everyone go watch Wolf's Rain, episode 4 was very very good. And Live_Evil seems to be cranking these things out just a day after they air in Japan. Wow. O.o Tsume's sexiness commands you, Kiba's big ocean blue eyes, Hige's I smell everything even when I am human and am so very cute, and Toboe's "don't call me Chibi" overall IAMSODAMNCUTE and the biggest sweetie EVER. I think he will keep the pack together, even with being the youngest least dominant member of the pack. Yes, and Cher has lips, it is amazing to watch an anime woman speak and have lips. Be amazed.

Accomplishments!
Thursday, January 30, 2003
08:23 p.m.

Things were done today, yay! And good things too! Step one is class blah blah whatever. Then after I left Japanese (Jane san *shudder*) I went to an advising appointment and got advised and that was good. At the end she also mentioned this Asian Specialization she sorta knew about and we looked it up so I headed from Marshal (yeah, no one knows where that is, I know. Secluded Econ building, blah) to 108 International Center and I was able to go right in and talk to Hiromi Maenaka and filled out some forms and now my major is BA of Economics, Business Cognate, and Asian Studies Specialization - Emphasis on Japanese language. Sweet, sweet, sweet. For any MSU Japanese students that read this - do you exist? Here is what you have to do to earn the stamp/certificate that lets employers know about all your hard Japanese work:
One core class (3 or 4 credits) - My ISS 330B worked
JPN 101-202 - 20 credits
6 or 8 credits from a list of courses.
And get this! For me personally they have 5 Anthropology course, 5 PLS (both in college of Social Science and will count towards my major as well). AND 3 econ courses. Sweeeet.

After Tae Kwon Do, where I wore my uniform for the first time (belts are hard to tie), I went to a resume workshop. It was a tad too basic for someone who has already made a resume but I did learn a few things.

Talking on aim, heard Rachel is going home this weekend - so Christy is coming to live with me for the weekend. Fun things will happpen for sure. ^^

In other news, Rachel cannot study when I am on aim, so I can't be on anymore when she is studying. I am torn to be annoyed by this. On one hand, she needs quiet and I should facilitate that, Zechs' keyboard being kinda loud. On the other hand, it is just a keyboard - not music or TV or me yelling on the phone. So, eh. I like to study in bursts in between doing other stuff, like aim - which is one of my favorite things. But I am not the only one in this room. Maybe you will see less of me and night, maybe not. Depending how often Rachel is here studying.

Things that drive me nuts
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
07:31 p.m.

Well I'm busy so I will only post one now. But it is a big one. People that assume that if I don't answer their im in under two minutes it means I am not talking to them anymore and they get all huffy. Take a chill (80's flashback) a) you are probably not the only one I am talking to. b) I am most likely doing three other things at the same time, important things like homework and looking up kanji. And it seems there are two different types of people that do this to me all the time. The insecure aim hanger on that most of the time I don't want to talk to but do anyway and if I am silent they have a nervous break down. And then there is the rl friend that just doesn't seem to get that aim is not instantanous conversation and YES I MAY BE DOING SOMETHING OTHER THAN TALKING TO YOU BUT THIS DOESN'T MEAN I AM IGNORING YOU. GAAAAAAAH! But I never say anything to them because I know they will get mad. ...Geez, she is doing it right now, how long have I been silent? 4 minutes now. I swear, only 2 out of 5 people know how to use instant messanger. If only she wasn't my friend...^^

In other news, our Tae Kwon Do gi...uniforms...I don't know what that it in Korean - came tonight. I haven't tried it on yet. Back to kanji now.

Groan
Monday, January 27, 2003
07:03 p.m.

You know how trapped animals will chew off their own limbs to escape traps? I am feeling like that right now, except I had to take a Stats exam while combating that feeling. I haven't had cramps this bad in I can't remember when. I really managed to get them under my control since the first two years I started my period. This day is going so badly, I can't even think of something good that happened. And another thing - how can I be retaining around three pounds! of water and still have to pee every 15 minutes? This glorious day has not only been the worst first day but also the last day of my period rolled into one fun ball of pain. Yay. Graaaaaaaaa. I have a marketing exam tomorrow morning. Hikaru no Go 63 is downloading, I can't even work up excitement. Oh, one good thing that happened today, maayasakamoto.net had the MP3s for "Stray" and "Gravity" online, I really really like "Gravity", better even than Steve screaming out "Stray".

Well, Duh
Sunday, January 26, 2003
09:48 p.m.

"SAVE SOME FOR KIMAHRI!" I worry that that line never ceases to incite hysterical laughter from me. Never has the babble of fangirls during really long plot before battle had such realistic in-game results. ^_______^ My Dad came into the den (where I had escaped from after dinner chitchat with the relatives) to see why I was giggling like a fool.

And I can look at it this way - At least PL Nunn IS saving some for Kimahri. Looking out for his interests and all that. I don't know who is looking out for T-Dawg but she did draw a Auron X Tidus. Although I don't think her Tidus looks really Tidusy. Eh, time to go back to school now.

Can't sleep Ronso will eat me Can't sleep...
Sunday, January 26, 2003
02:01 p.m.

*twitchshuddertwitch* I have chills, and my eyes - honest to god - hurt. You know those people that always find your blog by searching for Kimahri yaoi? Well, I'm going to help them out. PL Nunn drew a Kimahri X Tidus. Gah! The twitching is back! Owwwie. At least this ML keeps me on my toes.

Uh-huh
Sunday, January 26, 2003
12:40 a.m.

Funny how I keep wandering back into the den and playing with the computer, although some of it was schoolwork. I thought I was going to go to bed. Geez, I should have just logged John off aim and seen if anyone was on. Oh, and randomly? I am not going to correct that stupid long post below. I started reading it after I was a bit more rested and realized a lot of it didn't make sense, just try and deal. XP

Seiyuu Fun Time
Sunday, January 26, 2003
12:13 a.m.

Doing my job, looking up seiyuu, taking down names, bringing fans into new anime - one otaku at a time.

Interesting thing about Wolf's Rain is that for having a pretty famous production team the talent appears to be all newbies or people that haven't done a lot of work. Pulling in the Kingdom Hearts fans - a lead male Kiba, is voiced by Miyano Mamoru who spent some quality time as Riku. Does this get the fangirls going? Tsume, other apparent lead male, voiced by Miyake Kenta - your guess is as good as mine, couldn't find anything. Toboe, is a character I haven't met yet. They look female on the cast page in both human and wolf form but who knows. Anyway, Toboe is played by Shimowada Hiroki - whom has played a random (male) student in Onegai Teacher. Interesting apperance is Suyama Akio, who plays Hige, the non bishonen sweetie, and also played Doug in the Japanese dub of the Doug cartoon...Hee. X's Kanoe shows up through seiyuu Koda Kaho, voicing Cher Degre. Ishizuka Unshou, now this is interesting - I think this was the guy who on first hearing him I thought he was Seki Toshihiko. But maybe not, I'll go back and check the character's name later.
(EDIT): Yeah, just kidding. The guy I thought was Seki Toshihiko is Miyamoto Mituru who plays Hubb Lebowski *snerk*, who is a cop type guy and Cher's ex-boyfriend. Quent is the mean scary bounty hunter that tries to kill the wolves. (/EDIT).
Ishizuka san voices Quent Yaiden in WR, and has also been in Blue Seed, Macross, and Maze. Darcia is played by Kuroda Takaya, who was Lin in King of Fighters (Are they good?). And the uber mysterious Cheza played by Ogasawara Arisa. Ogasawara san was Meifa in Cowboy Bebop: Boogie Woogie Feng Shui. Hee

I hope you appreciate all I do for you guys, spending all this time looking up seiyuu for new shows, and kanji, and other roles, and kanji. Yeah, it is normally really hard....Not like "Wolf's Rain"'s website had an English translation of the cast and crew...Not at all. ^^;

Corrections
Saturday, January 25, 2003
09:24 p.m.

This is why it pays to read your email before irrate posting. Tiffany said that the fire was caused by one of the dryers malfunctioning and so there was ACTUAL FIRE. I feel vindicated for standing outside. And also? I just feel a whole lot better that someone wasn't STUPID enough to set off the sprinklers on purpose, makes me feel good about humanity, ya know? Now the question remains...who did Kelly see get arrested? ^^;

Oh, and apparently the laundry room is horribly flooded and some of the guys' rooms in that area are wet too. Poor guys. ^^;

Grrr, Argh
Saturday, January 25, 2003
08:08 p.m.

Geez, beloved internet, how I have missed you. Mrr, I hate this keyboard. Anyway, explanations, excursions, adventures, oh my! I am finally back at home after spending the whole day with my aunt and cousin and occasionally cousins. It was decided that I would go home on Saturday with my cousin since she is moving out of her house in EL in order for her to go to Honduras for the last of her graduation requirements. I was will them from 9:30AM to now. And while that is tiring (although I now know where there is an outlet mall near EL!) that is not even half the story.

So last night I was talking on aim like normal when the internet when down around 12:40, not that big a deal it happens sometimes when they work on the network or they is just a glitch in the system. So I disappear from aim, which is always sad - and my ex roomie called me to make sure my internet was also down. ^^; She is even more addicted to the 'net than me. We talked for about 45 minutes, the internet came back up (according to Megan) so she went back on and I went to bed. I am asleep for less than two hours when I wake up to the fire alarms going off. Graaa, great, cooooold. I flip on our light once I struggle out of my loft and start throwing on shoes, two coats, a scarf, and my gloves. This takes me less than a minute. Meanwhile, Rachel gets out of bed after I turn on the light, she gathers: socks, sweatshirt, hat, gloves, coat, shoes, in a big pile in her arms. We go outside our room, I lock the door, and standing right by the exit (across from our room) she is taking her time putting on all these clothes. Good thing it wasn't a real fire. -_- Although I did grab a pair of socks to put on outside but just did it at the top of the stairs too. I honestly don't know if she would have left if I hadn't turned on the light. It is 3:40 in the morning! How do you know whether or not the fire is real?!

We go outside and are there for about 25 minutes. What set off the fire (supposedly)- I find out later - is that some DUMBASS decided to hold a lighter up to the sprinklers. This sets off one quadrant of sprinklers and the whole building(s) smoke alarms. So East and West Shaw are all outside, yay. There were people in bathrobes, and shorts, people with no shoes! It was just crazy. We get in and back in our beds around 4:10 and I am just waiting for the alarm to go off again. This happens in every dorm I know, the alarm goes off not in a drill and after the fact the alarm goes off again for 5 minutes or so. This did not happen until FIVE AM. Of course, I hadn't managed to fall into deep sleep yet so I heard the "man" outside even before the alarms in our rooms went off. "There is a fire emergency reported in this building, please proceed to the nearest exit". Fun, fun. I guess they didn't check the system again for a long time, maybe not until the Fire Marshell left or something. So we get up, knowing what it is but we have to check. Most everyone is chillin' in the hall waiting for the alarm to go off. We then see our next door neighbour Kelly, who was just coming home for the night. She had seen someone get arrested and told us about the sprinklers - confirming what we had heard earlier from the guys on the ground floor pissed off about ruined "stuff" from the sprinklers going off.

Back to bed, tiiiiired. I get up at 8:30 in order to be dressed and ready by 9, which was the earliest my cousin and aunt might have been coming. And the rest is not fun enough to share.

...Although I have to say that I was pissed because the internet was down AGAIN this morning. So I couldn't get on and check my mail or the comics. Of course, Keenspace being down the only one I might have been able to check would be BMB via Sandra's LJ. I watched an episode of the new anime "Wolf's Rain" instead. Huh-huh baby, Steve Conte sang Yoko Kanno's music (and some other guy's lyrics) for the opening theme, which I wil go out of a limb and say is called "Stray". Then in a suprise (but not really, considering how much they work together) Sakamoto Maaya sang the ending theme (in English, really good English). There are two bishonen, and one plain looking happy guy, whom you can tell will be the leads (the hot guys probably more than the others, plain guy might even have a lame death, he has that kind of face...So, Christy - You haven't watched this show yet, huh? Let me know who dies. ~_^) I think the show will be good, and plus Oooh! Seatbelts music.

Yeah, I'm done now, and I am not rereading this so sorry for any errors. I am checking mail, comics, and getting off the 'net. Bye

Lotsa stuff
Friday, January 24, 2003
11:00 p.m.

I just returned from watching "Swim Fan" in Wells for free. What a stupid movie, although it was funny hearing Hagiwara sensei scream really loud when she saw a dead guy's bloody head. I went with Hagiwara sensei, a nice Korean woman whose name I have already forgetton, and a JPN 302 student Steve Levy? san, who is also nice.

Before this most everyone from Nihon Kurabu had gone to Flint to see a Japanese Woman's paintings in a gallery and also hear her play the koto. Her paintings were REALLY pretty. They all looked like they were in oil pastels and I liked them a lot, any one of them I could have hanged in my house. I was really suprised about how beautiful the koto sounded. I found it really relaxing, I now want to buy a CD for the times I just want to zone. I also got in a lot of listening practice today since there was Japanese all over the place. Although everyone tried to make sure we understood and repeated things in English for the club members, the Korean teacher with us, and some random English-speaking people that were also at the gallery but not with us MSU people.

And for the record? Being with teachers outside of class is a little strange but it was also fun. Steve and I rode with Sakakibara sensei to Hagiwara sensei in their friend's car who works at the MSU art musuem. Sakakibara sensei asked us a lot of questions in Japanese so we talked in Japanese, although of course his was better than mine, even if that isn't much to brag about since I think my skills are sub par for 202.

After returning from Flint we all went to "Korea House" for dinner and that was very good. I got Jap Choa, my mom is going to be so jealous. : D Except I saved her my leftovers - I am such a good daughter. And then everyone mentioned above decided to go to one of the movies in Wells. I don't know what happened to the people in the van. ^^ It is kinda funny because Steve and I had been saying how any movie but Swim Fan would be good because we could tell that movie was going to be bad. ^^; And Hagiwara sensei wanted to see this French movie "Murderous Maids" so we were going to do that but it was a much longer wait than the other movies, so we ended up going to that one on Hagiwara sensei's suggestion. ^^: And Steve and I immediatly reverse our positions saying, "Oh yeah, Swim Fan would be great, that is fine." - Laughing the whole time. ^^

So, that was my night. omoshirokatta desu ne? I haven't bloged in a while. Good times, good times.

Mmhmm
Tuesday, January 21, 2003
10:00 a.m.

Exercise and smut first thing in the morning. I mean, that has to be practically the same thing as sex, right?

....

Heheheheh. I feel good, off to class!

PS: Kammy is a smut!God, that is all I have to say. Everyone go read. Everyone that likes yaoi, I mean. And between original characters (from the Glamour Lust Universe).

Search Referals!
Saturday, January 18, 2003
05:59 p.m.

Thanks to Christy for reminding me to look at them, although we have some scary ones this time 'round.

"Sexcapades" anime
sailor seven ballz download
sailor-and-the-seven-ballz download
Geez, mention once you stayed up, wasting three hours of your life with hentai and people find my blog from it.
bronze/zetsuai doujinshi male/male
pirates het slash - Okay, so I already told Christy this when she showed it to me, and we won't go into the nonsense that is finding pirate het slash in _my_ blog. But, there are no such things as hetero pirates.
kkh yaoi
Sprite
"sailor moon and the seven" +download
zoro ruffy sex
+Incoherent Babble +AMV +download
download "sailor moon and the seven ballz"
crutches site:pitas.com
"getbackers" scanslations - Scanslations make you go to hell, or at least up your chances.
"i use my tusks to pull me onto ice and rocks - THE WALRUS!
otakon eating excel poster 2002 - This is such an old reference.
Ai no Kusabi drinking game - Sweet
Let's Learn Japanese Yan-san - DEAR GOD NOOOOOO! Run from the Yan san, not into his deadly and deceptive embrace. Maybe I managed to scare them from Jane san though...
Hermione/Snape
snape hermione fanfiction
Eh, not like I can throw stones - I read Harry and Snape. ^^; Besides this still doesn't scare me as much as the person trying to find Yan san or Harry and Ron slash. I suppose Hermione deserves fair chance at nailing the teacher.
hikaru no go lemons

Stayed tuned for next time, kids.

That's Chicago!
Saturday, January 18, 2003
05:18 p.m.

Mummy and I went out today with one of her friends and friend's mother and someother lady. We went at saw the hollywood version of Chicago. I thought it was done really well, the talent performed well, and oddly enough there were scenes I though Richard Gere really stole from these two attractive scantily clad singing women, Catherine Zeta-Jones and Renee Zenegelweirthehell.

Then we went out to eat and spilt a Monte Cristo (Dude...shut up : P (But thanks ^^)) because a full one would probably kill you on the spot and we still only managed to eat a quarter of one together. Our server was very very attractive, and I was feeling confident that day since people I would have told you never notice anything had noticed that I was losing weight - so I flirted with him a bit, and that was fun, I had forgotten...^^ And Mom gave him a nice tip so I am sure everyone was happy.

It is snowing here and there is an advisory for all of Sunday so I don't think I will make the trek to Portage to see my girl. : ( I guess she is still at work since she isn't online. Which means no Yue this weekend. : /

Drugs, addictions, friendships, the like
Thursday, January 16, 2003
02:37 p.m.

Gaaaaaaaaaah! Must. Have. More. Hikaru. No. Go. I just watched 62. Really, I don't think a show has sucked me in as much as Hikago - especially considering how little I actually know about the driving force aka igo. It seems like everything I do lately demands more and more of my time. Hikaru no Go, Japanese, future plans, having enough Christy time, manga, school, club activities. I swear, I have hit the ground running this semester and I don't see myself stopping anytime soon. Well, at least I am getting enough sleep, so that is still good.

And just a notice, mainly for you WMU people since it is far far too late for us 202 MSU no gakusei. If you ever want to watch a video that will SCARE YOU SO VERY BADLY watch the Jane san videos, and we thought Yan san was scary...Jane san has - in ten minutes - made me not want to do home stay even more than before.

Oh yeah! Christy kun, Kiri san also wants to live in the dorms/apartments so you guys could room together, she is very nice. ^^Aa, 'kun' o tsukeba ii darou? ii oto to omoite onna no hito de tabun dame da yo. itsu nihon ni tsuku, Christy chan o tsukai hou ga ii desu. Totemo kawaii. Hora, sumanarai to ite 'san' o tsuketetiru. ^^ Nandemo nai. Meh, I'm just babbling because it feels good to be getting back in the Japanese groove - although for me it always takes a long time. ^^;

Blahblahblah
Monday, January 13, 2003
04:01 p.m.

I am beginning to think that it is unhealthy to log on to Direct Connect several times a day hoping that Hikaru no Go 62 will have been released. ...I NEED IT LIKE I NEED BLOOD!

And not like it would do any good because it will still take be several days after the fact to find some with an open slot and a good speed. New releases are hard to get ahold of j0.

Started an ultimate challenge today, I have to exercise 300 minutes this week and lose three pounds. I did do 50 minutes today, so that is good. Hopefully I will lose the weight too.

I got up at 6:30, I am very very tired. Don't expect to talk to me at all hours tonight.

Oh yeah, I got a cute little AMV of WISH, a CLAMP manga that for some reason got a AMV and it only took me 10 minutes to dl. Christy told me about it; the video is labeled on DC as the Wish Opening but since there isn't an anime...Well, I relabeled mine. I actually got it last night before I went to bed but I was a bit out of it so I didn't watch it until after political science lecture. Who knew that Kohaku has reddish brownish hair sometimes. I always thought they (they being a genderless pronoun) had blonde hair, at least according to the color pics in the graphic novels.

Hehyukyukyukyuk
Sunday, January 12, 2003
02:37 p.m.

Spent all of Friday night at the mall with Megan (Toony) and Sarah (Zakem san). They managed to buy some clothes; I managed to buy three plushes. A terry cloth Zebra, a pig!horse, and THE (BRITISH) WALRUS OF DOOM! The Walrus was actually a steal at 4.99. Damn you KB Toys.

I am a Walrus - I use my tusks to pull me onto ice and rocks. ph33r the Walrus.

I froze trying to get a damn bus to the mall, seriously, I could not feel my thighs, face, or ears - the latter of which had started having a buzzing noise inside my head. Very alarming to go out in 10 degree weather not even including wind chill. I also jumped on the 22 because I didn't want to wait for the #1 so I ended up taking a roundabout trip to Haslett and Lake Lansing before ending up at the mall - where Megan and Sarah had been waiting for almost an hour. Oops.

We stayed at the mall until 9 and then we went up to Sarah's room because she lives right by the bus stop and it the it was now 7 degrees outside. We messed around there until 2. Sarah had bought Cheer Bear, which had come with a Care Bears video so we got the fun nostalgia trip with that, and that pretty much set off the tone for the night. ^^ Megan played some Vice City, I did things to Sarah's laptop - uninstalling and installing stuff etc etc. I also talked to Christy a little bit but since I kept hitting keys that should not be in the location there were! namely the caps lock instead of shift and lots of fun letters that are all scrunched too close together - I kept getting stupidly mad at the computer and that didn't accomplish anything. ^^;; We also watched StrongBad email and a lot of the night was spent as Teen Girl Squad. Alght! Alght! Alght!

And since it was so late and so cold and I didn't want people to find my frozen body the next morning if I attempted to walk the two blocks to my dorm so I slept on Sarah's couch/mattress on the floor. And that was good too despite my lack of a toothbrush.

And I like to think that I did my part in entertaining Sarah's neighbours by making Sarah scream and sound like she was getting raped while I tried to make her watch that flash of the haunted room. And yelling things like, "Harder! Touch me harder!" And...O.o I have no idea what that was in regards to now...Huh. Oh well, it was funny at the time. Maybe the girls remember. ^^

I think Rachel is hung over, she is curled up on the couch under her comforter but keeps leaving. Oh...apparently it is more than throwing up; she thinks it is the 24-hour flu. Beer the night before probably didn't help, but she would know if it was the beer. I hope she doesn't give me anything! That poor girl has been sick since before we started school again.

And lastly, I leave you with this.

"Yeah...Just kidding."
"...I'll kill you all..."

GetBackers
Friday, January 10, 2003
05:50 p.m.

In case you want pictures of Ban and Ginji.

Sweet. I was checking out the cast page and we all know who is going to show up when that name that starts with 'ko' and ends in 'hito' is in the cast section! Yes, Koyasu Takehito plays someone named Juubee, at least I think that is what his first name kanji is. ^^ Mmm, Koyasu Takehito.

EDIT
Weiss People all over the place! Just scanning the page I see someone with "three trees" - sounds like Miki Shinichiro to me. He plays someone whose last name is either Amago or Amako and whose first name I can't figure out just using the online database.

Hmm, he is the only other person I recognize just on the kanji scan so I'm going now. ^^

Work Damn you Work!!
Thursday, January 9, 2003
02:50 p.m.

AND IF THIS ENTRY FUCKS UP ONCE MORE I AM GOING TO...I don't know, but something! Well, apparently my thing to do was to save this in WORD and go to bed. Heh. Anyway, take 2 or 4 or whatever I am up to – picking up from last night in 4,3,2,1.

Okay, trying this again - I still have math and junk so I will make this shorter than it was going to be and just talk about "GetBackers". "If it is lost we will find it!". Why? Because I smell ambiguous yaoi, it smells of bishonen mansex XD.

So what is so is "GetBackers" about besides hot boys whose grasp of English is not the greatest? I don't know much yet, but the premise is that the two stars can find almost anything and have a great reputation (this leading the female character and us to them to help her find her kitty mascot (key chain thing) that a dastardly policeman (gasp!) stole from her when she was suspected of witnessing dastardly deeds (gasp!). It is obvious that the boys' studly exteriors are hiding secret pasts that most likely involve a lot of emotional/physical pain (Isn't that always the case?).

Starring the voices Morikubo Shotarou (ph33r my kanji looking up and Japanese website navigating skills) as the cheerful, cute, and blonde Ginji Amano. Morikubo san hasn’t done much; he was Excel’s Iwata, Orphen’s Orphen, and Hale Nochi Guu’s Robert. Ginji has the power to generate electricity and be cute. He also appears to be the ex-leader of a street gang (His members all “counted on him” – and gee, I am sure they all lived happily ever after). Next is Kanna Notuboshi as the sexy, sharp haired Midou Ban (Ban chan to Ginji) whose weapons include a very strong grip and eyes that can hypnotize…literally. While the boys seem to have a pretty equal relationship, Ban chan does seem more of the “brains”. Kanna san has also voiced Kaze from FF:Unlimited, Guts from Berserk! (under the name Hayashi Notuboshi) - Ah! Now you remember him? He played Tasuki ^^.

I just got the email telling us which series won the vote and GetBackers is in, yay! I think this show appeals to both fangirls and fans of silly action shows. So everyone please go give it a try!

First class with Ryu sensei
Wednesday, January 8, 2003
04:21 p.m.

Wow, Ryu sensei is so cool. My friend tells me she is Korean. And she has pretty much unaccented English and Japanese and is very happy and I have a feeling she will become one of my favorites. Yay

Badabow!
Tuesday, January 7, 2003
07:37 p.m.

OKay, now they are in Ogata sensei's hotel room! And there is pornish music playing XD. Sai is making me want to cry and just when I start to tear up they switch from him to Hikaru and Ogata sensei who make me want to go find yaoi about them. Stop jerking me around, Hikaru no Go! ^^;

Hikaru no Yopparai!
Tuesday, January 7, 2003
07:29 p.m.

Ogata sensei is very drunk at the moment, he is all cute and fuzzled and keeps leaning in to talk to Hikaru.

... ... ...

Bad Kathleen, bad. >:D

Sweet
Tuesday, January 7, 2003
06:08 p.m.

Tae Kwon Do appears to be a good investment of time and money. Will let you know more after class on Thursday when we will really get started, and Ron (the prof) says we will hate him on Friday. Hee, bring on the pain!

In other news
Tuesday, January 7, 2003
12:12 p.m.

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I don't know about the slut part but I do have some nerdish qualities. ^^

O.O
Tuesday, January 7, 2003
11:34 a.m.

Crap on a stick! My marketing class is in overflow! My alarm didn't go off so I woke up 4 minutes before class started so I threw on some clothes and ran next door to the business college. The class was PACKED. There must have been seats for over 200 and kids were all standing in the back; I managed to find a place to sit on the steps running the sides of the lecture hall. Lucky that the building is right next door to my dorm and is my first class on Tuesday, I don't know what the heck I'll do on Thursdays. Blah, I'm going to go shower now.

Hikago love
Monday, January 6, 2003
11:45 p.m.

*sigh* For some reason Touya sensei gets hotter and hotter the more I see him.

And Sai! Don't make me sad, please!

59 episodes down.

Oops, the roomie is starting to stir, gotta go.

Eh
Monday, January 6, 2003
07:10 p.m.

Business Statistics - I have no real wowing first impression, the prof seems like he really wants everyone to learn and be comfortable in class although that looks harder than it seems because there are 200 people in that class, holy crap. I think I will be taking advantage of the smaller groups of recitation, hope I have a good TA. And in other news I am very cold (19 degrees F outside), and I have cramps. How was your day?

...How can it be not even 7:30? I feel like I have been going all day. Gaaah~

First Day Report
Monday, January 6, 2003
03:04 p.m.

Ah, school days, forcing yourself to go to bed at 1 and then waking up every hour dazed and confused is so not helpful. I got up at 6:50 and then attempted to have a nice shower - however! This ended in failure and EXTREME PAIN due to the new "sandals" my mother bought me to replace my old poor broken slides. It is very very important that I have a pair of shower sandals so that anything gross lurking in the hallway or on the bathroom floors cannot eat me, it is also important that the sandals NOT be instruments of torture! Mom said that since it wasn't soccer season the stores didn't have any slides in stock (Like soccer players have to be the only ones that wear soccer slides?!) so she bought a pair with those little "massaging nubs". Can we say, "most painful foot torture ever." boys and girls? Owwwww, they still are tender. I also forgot my gloves, brrr.

Anyway, so I got to Political Science 200 and my professor looks almost exactly like the villain of the week from an episode of first season Buffy called "The Pack". He was an evil zookeeper, so a little weird on that front. Class looks to have a lot of reading and Squee! I get to write what looks to be 4 mini essays, I am so happy and should do well.

Now I have a large break in my schedule until Japanese at 12:40, so I went home thinking about napping. Rachel made it back almost right after me, she sounds really really sick. Like harsh lung coughing and since she has trouble breathing she gets really tired. She needs to get better soon ^^; and I also hope I don't get whatever it is that she has. A friend of mine has Mono and is going to miss the first week of school, ouch! And I think Rachel is kinda screwed in how much she will learn this week too. ^^;

Went to Japanese, there are 27 people in my section! Why the heck aren't more people flunking out?! These classes were not meant to be this large. We talked about that new book (we are intermediate now, whoo!) and how all the reading is muzukashi so blah blah blah ganbatte takusan benkyou shite kudasai etc etc. A bunch of my friends are in that class and I met a few more during introduction period.

Went to Poly Sci res. right after, my TA guy talks in a really fast monotone; sorta like a dumb jock impression. This being the first day, we didn't do much except get into our groups and write a little bit on a question. I am with three left-handed males. O.o Huh. ^^;

And now I am back here waiting for dinner to start because I am starving, having only eaten a soy bar all day. I switched Tae Kwon Do to T/R so I don't have to rush to Stats in my gi or whatever you would call it in Korean. So I don't have class until 5:30. Speaking of which I need to print an updated schedule, later.

Brrrr
Sunday, January 5, 2003
08:50 p.m.

Back at State, the roommate is MIA. She may be at home, she may be stuck in London or at Detroit Metro, who knows? I am sure she is fine. And in other news I am FREEZING! I actually had to turn up the heat - something I never have to do at the dorms. Blah, I'll just huddle in my blanket a while longer.

Downloading Hikaru no Go as we speak, yay. ^^ I have class at 8:30 tomorrow, icky. I don't think I mentioned that I have FIVE classes on Mondays that go until almost 7. >.< Sometimes I don't know what I am thinking when I make my schedule.

*SNERK!*
Saturday, January 4, 2003
06:57 p.m.

Man, who knew a tracker could be such a source of amusment?! I love it, ha!

bronze+cathexis+download
rahxephon art poster
Rahxephon character quiz

And believe me when I say that this is the best! I choked on a piece of ice laughing but it was worth it. On Jan 02 Thursday at 18:49:58 someone found my blog using Yahoo! with the search "christy's sexcapades" Who knew there were so many people interested in Christy's sexlife? ^______^
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sunfizz sprite
pirate pinup (Mmm, pirates)
Sailor Moon and the Seven Ballz
fruits basket doujinshi H
ginny and draco lab (...Ewwww, Ginny sex! Ginny sex with DRACO.)

*sigh* I am so amused right now. Oh yeah, heading back to school tomorrow afternoon. Good-bye Grand Rapids, hello MSU. I already received email from my Stats prof and my poly sci prof intructing me to pring the first day's lecture notes and class outline. I actually can't wait to get back into my groove ^^;. I gained three pounds as the scale tells me most of this I attribute to PMS and the rest to eating too many phallic symbols with Youji while watching Queer As Folk and the vagueness that was Taboo. I think that may have sounded vaguely dirty but we all know that everyone is interested in Christy's sexlife. Heehee. So going back to school and my routine will be good for that.

Well, I'm up.
Friday, December 27, 2002
04:19 a.m.

What is it with John and vomiting? Never have I seen someone so healthy that gets stomach viruses all over the place. This latest is really messed up, he gets sick when he lies down, and then is blacking out when he makes the dash to the bathroom. Both my Grandmother and I woke up to a large crash and I ran out to knock on the boy's bathroom soon before she came out. I knocked as asked in they were alright and it turned out to be John saying, "Yeah, I am just sick to my stomach and throwing up a lot." So Grandma and I are chillin' in the hall waiting for him to come out. She probably because she is a nurse and me since I tend to save John's life a lot and am used to rushing up in the middle of the night to check on him and his ailments.

So the boy gets out we go through the routine of offering assitance and then we all go back to bed. Sarah seems to have managed to sleep through the crash ^^. Then there is _another_ crash, this one turns out to be John sprawled in the hallway, not remembering he fell. So I go get my Mother thinking it is some inner ear thing. She comes and so does my Dad and we fuss for awhile and my Mom and Grandma get him proped in his bed sitting up and I fetched him a barf bucket, something I said he should have done before.

Oh wait, before that happened John had been propping himself up on his door jam since he told us laying down made his stomach hurt. My parents said he should try lying down and resting - John then heads to the bathroom turns to talk to my mother who had been cleaning up the bathroom and promptly falls over. My Mom and Grandma manage to stop most of his motion and alll I hear are lots of "John!'s" and "Oh no! Look!'s" So I say several times, "Unless someone stops me I am calling 911." No one did, so I did and got through on the second ring and John woke up and my Mom told me he was okay and John is all, "Did you call 911? Don't be calling them! blahblahblah." So I tell the lady sorry, he is okay bye. Whatever, I hope they don't send a crusier to check on us, that would wake up Nana who has managed to keep sleeping. Although I don't think I was online with them long enough for the computer to give them my address.

So now it is 4AM and boy am I sooooo not tired. adrenaline is a funny creature, and it is making AP Biology notes run through my head about the adrenal system. Wheeeee!

Random
Thursday, December 26, 2002
12:29 a.m.
And randomly? Happy Beginning of Kwanzaa, I hope everyone gets a nice gift and has fun lighting the candles. Maybe I'll remember to post a Happy Kwanzaa on the 31st but don't count on it. ^^; And for the British following (look at me - assuming I have readers. ^^;) Happy Boxing Day, do whatever the heck it is that you do, something about giving your servants gifts. Canada gets Boxing Day off too, only to be expected. And also why? - When I try and type w00t and spell my w like a hacker wannabe moron with the / and the \ (edit: Well that certainly answers that question the blogger can't even read it, apparently) does it also show up in my blog just //00t? Anyone know? (edit2: WTF? Now you can see it? What did I do to make it show up? ^^;)

Blaaah
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
11:58 p.m.

Holiday hangover already? What is really sad is that I am sitting here hoping BMB would update magically at 12 EST verse the normal 12 PMT so that I would have something to do - if only for a minute.

I could be watching anime but I am in a great mood to read and have nothing new to do so. I'll have to go to the check out something tomorrow. Except - Sarah will be back tomorrow and then I will have to try and be entertaining and junk. I don't think I try hard enough, there are times I think she thinks I don't like her or something because she is talking to me and I am staring kinda blankly at her thinking about something completely different. And then she'll ask me if I'm okay, or the more dreaded "You're being quiet today". Gaaaah, then I feel bad, but contray to what most people see I am not a ball of hyper activity 24/7 more like 18/6 or 5 ot something. And especially not at home - the place I consider my chill zone. But now I feel bad! Like I am complaining about her something - and I'm really not. Sarah is a great friend, although I am not sure we are compatable to live together. ^^;;

I want Christy to be here so that we can get a start on the new 24 or so hours of Buffy she needs to watch. ^^ I want to give her her presents. I want to spend some time with a friend that understands the taking of turns of babbling. And whom I don't feel like when I am quiet I disappoint her. Meh. I should go read Christy's manga, serve her right for not being online for two days. Although she just logged on 5 minutes ago. Bitch. ^_~

I did remember to send out Christmas cards last night, I like people to get them on Christmas when they open their email. So I send them rather late and than there is always the danger that I will forget, but I didn't. So yay.

The List of Loot
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
07:07 p.m.

X 1 w/ box
X 2
KareKano 1 w/box
KareKano 2
(These boxes are kinda ugly for the curious, I don't recommend spending the extra 10 bucks for them).
Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 2 boxset. Mmm, Spike.
10 Things I Hate About You
Dumbo
A bundle of Sailor Moon man...comics. CHIX comics to be exact. Ewww, I didn't even think they made those anymore. Bless John, he tried and I managed to change my vocal horror into a semblance of excited Kathleen squeal. ^^;
New shower sandles to replace the ones that broke
A toothbrush
some new underwear
A new piece of luggage! //00t!! I really needed a new heavy duty piece so that I would be able to safely bring things to Japan.
148 piece tool set - I now have a complete wrench set, amoung other things.
Sleep sack - like the sleep sheet that I needed to stay at some of the hostels in Europe, only a more official variety that won't take up a quarter of my suitcase. WIll be good for Japan if we bum around another week after school lets out.
Lots of money from people that aren't my parents. The question is: Grunty, RahXephon, or bank account? ^^;; Have to go do more family stuff now, they're calling me.

Bye now!

Wednesday, December 25, 2002
12:58 a.m.

Merry Christmas everyone! *MWAH*

I loved tonight! I saw all these great people I never see anymore. Highlight of course was Ryan and Erin. Erin and I always have fun seeing each other this once a year (we NEVER see each other anymore, it is sad). But maybe seeing each other so little is part of what makes the Christmas Eve party so great and we have so much to say to each other.

And Ryan is just the man, he is so fun. Suprising like Joe since they were good friends for a real long time, but I don't hold it against him. ^^ Seriously, seeing childhood friends is just the best, people who you grew up with, spent summers together, built things. Yay. We spent this night drinking beer. Or Ryan would open beer and I would steal his for a sample. I think I tried four different beers and I had him try cognac. And we talk and laugh and he tells me I am stupid. Those are the memories. ^^

Graaaa
Tuesday, December 24, 2002
12:24 a.m.

Something about the holidays...

That just gives you that feeling...

Yeah, you know what I am talking about...

...I need smut. Seriously. ^^;

Everyone go find boys and report back.

Oh, and sorry I missed you luv. I had to finish baking the cookies I left when we left the house.

That is all.

Wow, 20 years and
Monday, December 23, 2002
03:07 a.m.

This is really the first time I have felt horrible because of parental disapproval about something that is a big part of my current self. I mean, thinking one boy is hot is okay, but apparently adding another boy doesn't equal two hot boys together. My math just must be messed up.

I honestly did feel not well for a second with my mom talking to me in THAT tone.

So not only do I have to worry about her thoughts on why I want to support gay rights, I also have to worry about what she thinks about me watching boys being intimate. Although the one should cancel out her thoughts about the former. ^^; Even if I did as much as tell her I think I am pansexual with a heavy emphasis on boys - mainly because I think they look better in jeans. The first time I glance at a good-looking girl I don't imediately think about sex, I probably won't think about it at all. *cough* Not so will the boys. : D

I mean this is _me_, her horribly pathetic overweight virgin daughter. Have I EVER giving her cause for worry?

But whatever, that is what the internet is for. To meet people who share your interests. Writing Fiction and Poetry is apparently also for that. ^^ Everyone should take that, it is a good place to find best friends. Two years come this spring semester. Because you met people that understand.

SailorAres: Whee, that was fun.
YoujiK33: What?
SailorAres: Having my mom think there is something totally wrong with me.
YoujiK33: I read your latest blog entry, by the way. I take it your mom found out about QAF ^_^*
SailorAres: Latest theory - I want a "sex change".
YoujiK33: ^_^* Oh dear.
SailorAres: "Nooo, I am perfectly comfortable in my own skin."
SailorAres: Blah, when I really started feeling bad was when I thought that if she found my brothers watching some show centered on lesbians that would be okay because guys are pigs.
YoujiK33: Aww.
YoujiK33: Too bad I wasn't there. Especially since I'm wearing my Beauty Man Garden shirt today ^_^*
SailorAres: Then there was the, "That isn't any better than porn." to which I wanted to say, "No, it is a heck of a lot better, porn was what we watched the night before."
SailorAres: > = )
YoujiK33: LOL!

And really? That is all that matters, those few people that understand.

And not like I think she doesn't love me anymore. Once she seemed to get the questioning over life went on as normal and she still hugged me good night and junk.

And I should go there now, it is late. Night everyone! If you are reading this you are probably close to me and I love you for all your little quirks and things that make you you.

PS: I haven't proofread this at all, sorry if I don't make sense. It is like writing email in CSE at 8AM all over again. ^^

Queer as Kathleen
Sunday, December 22, 2002
04:39 p.m.

"Kathleen, I worry about your lifestyle (something something, I forget) if you want to watch a show like that."

Excuse me for a moment.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Thank you Mother, your concern is noted. But notice, that is me watching it - not you. No one is saying you have to, me and the heterosexual lifemate lead perfectly normal lives, thank you very much. We just like the boys, naked, oh, and the kissing of other boys is nice too. ^^

*Rawr*, boys.

*Sigh*, I love my Mommy.

^^
Sunday, December 22, 2002
01:52 p.m.

Awww, see what happens when you leave me? And while Harry Potter on the agenda is always a good thing, as your consuel I must ask if you really want Lucius' children or you are projecting your negative feelings towards Two Towers and having positive lustful thoughts about the apparently far superior adaptation of Chamber of Secrets. And your desire to bear children the result of movie!Arwen and Aragorn reproducing, or her being in the movie and Frodo and Sam not being in it enough. ^^

Wheee, that was fun.

Whee! Random fun
Thursday, December 19, 2002
12:25 a.m.


what's your cowboy bebop theme song?

Originally I got "Blue", which is the sad final end theme, and while one of my all time favorite Bebop songs - it just doesn't represent me, "Blue" being the "loner" song. I am just not a loner despite my lack of socialization, I enjoy people a lot - just not people in general. And my minor histrionic behaviour doesn't help. Hee. ^^;

Actually, I just found it odd that changing the "What food would you be" question could change your answer - I think they put too much thought into that. ^^

Sweet
Saturday, December 14, 2002
05:50 p.m.

And the unofficial grades are:

Japanese 201 (long said to be the hardest semester of MSU Japanese I think Christy can recall one of the, "If you survive" pep talks. ^^) 3.0

CSE 101 (die class die) 3.0

ISS 330B Asian Social Science Political Perspectives 4.0

Yay.

I feel so dirty
Saturday, December 14, 2002
05:36 p.m.

And again - not in that good way. Well, sorry for trying to do something fun and trying but whatever. On to plan B - it wil still be good, in fact it may even be better, but grrr.

Oh, and I now know that "Adult Bookstore" in code for "pornstore with some random novels from the 70's". Bleach.

Like, Oh My Gawd.
Sunday, December 8, 2002
01:23 p.m.

Everyone just forget my lame high school babble below. You know, the part about me lamenting relationships for myself. That sounded so much like some 14 year old I can't stand it.

Blah.

Apparently boys suck
Saturday, December 7, 2002
11:29 p.m.

And not in that good yaoi way. >:) I think my lack of relationships hurts my ability to come up with sound advice in times like these. I mean, I can be sincere, but it is hard to make any great leaps of comparision. Anyway, despite my desire (well, not _that_ kind...err, sorta, but not, yeah ^^) for a boy of my own, I kinda feel lately like that so is not going to happen, like ever. Everyone around me has problems, and every hurts everyone else. And I sorta sit on the sidelines and feel like I should be doing something, or at least be 100% - Whoo! Everyone go watch that new Christina Algulierra (or whatever her name is) video it has kissing boys. Hee. ^^ - Anyway, 100% on her side, but when you are friends with both people it is hard to bash the boy. ^^; Yeah, whatever, maybe by some miracle there will a boy I actually haven't known my whole life at the Christmas Eve party. ^^

I have two exams, Japanese on Tuesday, and ISS on Wednesday. I'll be back in GR on Wednesday evening or Thursday morning/afternoon. Ja.

The weekend report plus random Japanese
Monday, December 2, 2002
02:44 p.m.

Okay, whee. Have gone to Speech practice and back again. I was running a bit late but since we didn't have class just our 5 minute block with Sakakibara sensei to say our speech for it was okay. I asked her about my lame sentence that whoever had graded my sakubun had made and she made it better for me. //00t. They had changed a huge compound sentence and ended it and then had -"Blue ga itakara yokatta desu." Which was just stupid. I have my noun modification sentence back - better and stronger, instead of something that sounds like I am three weeks into JPN 101.

Then I did my speech, although I didn't have to have in memorized yet and she gave me a list of things I need to work on. Practice rising intotation after vowels, stop being stupid and saying naninanimette when it is matte (in this case hajimatte) - lately I have just been really dumb about me and ma, just since this semester and intransitive/transitive verb pairs. I don't know. And then the dreaded rarirurero, what is funny is that Nakano sensei had this very same conversation with me last year in 102 when I was practicing with her for our speech. I make my R's too...R'y. So we went over the placement of the tongue again. ^^; So I still have the same problems with pronounciation - at least I am not develping a ton of new horrible habits (minus the me/ma that is just me not paying attention when I read).

Went to Portage this weekend. Had fun as normal. We watched the latest volume of CardCaptor Sakura (wait for it), looked at the crispness of Fruits Basket on DVD, Okiayu Ryoutarou doing his Shigure snicker, Seki san talking about Kyo, and watching Yuki's voice come from Hisakawa Aya's mouth (which is rather surreal). Also watched some Buffy (Christy likes Xander, I would be worried about him if I hadn't already watched 6 seasons of him. Although she may yet kill Giles.), 2 Jubei chan (which looks good), 7 Hale nochi Guu (I already have the opening "Love love love love Tropicana!"), and 4 Real Bout High School (which isn't as good as the first episode lead me to believe.). Oh yeah, you were waiting weren't you? ...Yue. XD Probably Christy is the only one laughing now but it was funny to me. ^^;

Finally got to see Harry Potter, we went on Saturday night and there was snow and it was cold but there was also Snape! And Lucius. And Tom. And Lockhart getting smacked up! by Snape. It was good. And we giggled a lot and cheered and I sometimes made comments too loud and once the man in front of us turning around but I don't think we annoyed anyone too badly. And hey, the theater was pretty empty - they should know better than to sit in front of the fangirl section. Oh yeah, and he didn't turn around until the end when I had my Lucius "Dishevelment! He is disheveled" bout. Oops. ^^;

I also stayed the night Saturday due to a little thing called "Lake Effect Snow" now I remember why I hated going to a school in the snow belt. ^^ But it was cool as we had the house to ourselves and watched Buffy and read Harry Potter humour (disturbing, but oh so funny), and I read Christy's WIP Weiss PWP - and it is very yummy. Yay. ^^

So I can't think of anything else to report. The girls behind us at the theater were talking about Anita Blake and she liked Richard so Christy had to refut with "Richard is stupid, I hate Richard!" ^^; So very stressful for her. Hee. Time to start memorizing my speech. Later.

Damn Straight
Sunday, December 1, 2002
03:04 p.m.

What Dogma character are you?
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I don't know what makes this better, being God's spokesperson or being Alan Rickman. *purrr*

Shame and Love It is like Catholic Confession
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
11:17 p.m.

Okay, *ahem* (disclaimer: not to offend any of my Catholic readers - my Dad's side of the family comes from a long line of European Catholics). So a friend's recent entry about another friend's behavior in her blog as lead my to realize that I have never posted anything good about Rachel in here - at least not that I can remember. And really, that is a sad state of affairs. The weblog shouldn't be used just as a tool of venting your frustrations and anger, or extreme moments of excitement - there should be some normal friendly posts.

So Rachel, my roommate. She is a very active, intelligent woman who is very on top of her schoolwork and I am sure will someday be a brilliant businesswoman with her General Management degree. She always tries to smile and people and say casual greetings to them - which while not having a lot of meaning, can make people's day a little brighter. And okay, maybe I don't _love_ Rachel like I have loved my other roommates (minus poor neurotic Elie who was only will be for a week before my Toony came to live with me) but let's face it - I say I love a lot of people. And for the most part I do, love - however little I actually think about it, I have come to realize, is very important to me. I love my family, I love my girls, I love my classmate acquaintances that make me laugh, I love Ramon, and I would love that guy who I wish I would met soon..*ahem* But this is a Rachel post. So no, I don't _love_ Rachel but no matter what I say I do like her. *nod* There, that is better. And since I spent some time talking to the youngest of my brothers on his birthday today, I will quote him. "PEACE OUT YA'LL" - Except, ya know it would look more like YALL, but whatever. ^^

Bethie and co
Saturday, November 23, 2002
03:01 p.m.

Man, I had so much fun last night and all we basically did was chill in Beth's room. Amanda was there and Beth's friend Newman, it was fun. I talked to her friends when they imed her. I also drank two cans of Diet Dr Pepper and was all wheeeeeeeeeee, 'cause of caffeine. It was great, I hadn't had any pop in a long time.

At like, 3 in the morning we went to IHOP, which I have never been to, and we ate breakfast. I had really yummy whole grain pancakes - which I still can not decide if they were made with whole wheat flour (good) or just enriched wheat flour (bad, since it is just like having normal flour so what is the point?) but it had strawberries on top, yum! And then to bed around 5, mmm, sleep is good. But then I was really hot for a while in my loft, so :/. But it was cooooold outside. Yes.

Oh, and I showed Beth my blog because I told her the ER story and we were talking about yaoi (I showed her my remix Doujinshi, that being the one with the most sex instead of romance. : D - Although she didn't really get it. Ha, you all know what I mean.) and that made me remember my comment about what I should do with it so I just had her read it so now my readers are increasing all over the place. And if not exponentially then at least liner.

Yeah, and the night would have been a whole lot better if I hadn’t started talking to poor bereaved Youji and realize I had abandoned her in her hour of despair. Honestly, some people are just evil. Although that was partly HER fault, because she BLOCKED me, ME. *sniff Just because I wanted to have fun on Beth’s screenname and imed her with a, “Hey Baby.” Honesty, some people have no sense of adventure. ^^ But I hope you recover your children in all due haste and that they are okay and you press charges against Drew’s idiot friend. Joe’s friends steal beer from our garage, although my Dad doesn’t do anything about besides telling my Mom to lock the garage door. Mom maintains this is because my Father ALSO stole beer from his neighbour’s, so he can’t really smack them down if they can just waltz into our garage and take our beer.

Urge to Maim...Rising.
Friday, November 22, 2002
02:12 p.m.

Ugh, I am having a bad moment or several bad moments actually. I know EVERYONE already knows this because I only mention at least once every time I talk to friends. But I so don't want to live with Rachel another semester. I think she not only dislikes me (which I can totally handle - I realize that I annoy a lot of people, probably more than I amuse with my me-ness.) - but not only that, I think she looks down on me, which makes me want to smack her. We don't even talk anymore, the awkward silence is horrible. Not in that compatible typing away on aim silences or Deeva and I in our caves while her raver bass drills a hole in my skull, but real icky I will be quiet so I don't scream at you sort of silence. Of course, this could just be leftover from last night when I seriously almost yelled at her. Okay, y'all know I watch three shows - Buffy, Angel, and ER. Every Tuesday and Sunday I go to Sarah's room and watch Buffy and Angel with her (and sometimes Dane) but Thursday Rachel watches Friends, Will and Grace, Scrubs, and she does watch ER too. But lately she hasn't seemed into ER and will start doing other stuff during it. No problem. BUT last night she ended up talking on her cell for a good 15 minutes of ER during a dramatic scene when Dr. Cordey and a recent widower are whispering in one of the Trauma rooms. So I can't hear a bloody thing. And it got to a point when I seriously almost yelled, "Well you take the fucking phone outside!?" and then was completely APPALLED that I would do something so rude. Horrible feeling. So after that I was just quiet. Although during a commercial break I had to stop by aim and vent at Youji so I didn't go insane. I mean, do I ever talk in the room during her TV or when she is on her cell with someone?

I hate Rachel's attitude. I hate how she mocks people different than her and doesn't even realize it. I think she thinks she is so nice and open-minded, but she isn't. At least I know I have a tendency to mock preps, and I am trying to break that habit – honest, but her comments about gay people, racial and religious minorities. Gaah, I can't take it anymore. Maybe I should just spread out all my yaoi one day, blast Sailor and the Seven Ballz from my computer and then she would immediately get a room change based on the fact that I am a sexual deviant. Hee, deviant. You know I need a change when such a label actually is making me purr (seriously, I made this noise...O.o) just at the thought of her not being here.

And I know she is busy and on a million eboards and volunteers all over the place to better her resume. But my sympathy is at the end. I just don't _care_ anymore. This year I have been very conscientious of alone time in the room. So I don't come back from class sometimes until 4. I go to the language lab and/or the bookstore and study for hours after my last class ends. And she is gone a lot at night with clubs or study groups...And I have run out of frustration for now so going now.

Squeeeee!!
Monday, November 18, 2002
09:16 p.m.

Look at the beautiful~ness!! The super great yaoi superhero Youji not only designed this layout but also put it up for me! Yay, now maybe I'll study the script so I can learn how to do this stuff by myself. ^^ Gah, I shouldn't get all happy I need to study for ISS. More reading!

So the star of this layout is Zoro from One Piece. He is a master of the three sword techinque (one goes in his mouth), a former pirate hunter turned pirate in order to fulfill a debt to his new captain, Monkey D. Luffy,and very sexy with a deep man voice. Bring on the slash. Yay!

CSE - Dumber than advertised
Sunday, November 17, 2002
03:36 p.m.

Yeah, so I have my 3.0 Bridge Task in CSE on Monday. So Sunday finds me in Wells' computer lab with my fellow East Shaw Hall/CSE section 48 person/new found friend Theresa. Theresa and I are redoing 4 days of CSE crapwork in order to be better prepared for our BT in the hopes that we will pass on the first attempt. The UBT (Which we have to take to raise our grade higher than a 3.0 (I'm shooting for a 4.0)) promises to be a bitch if we are trying to do it and retake the 3.0 BT. CSE is so FREAKING repetitive!! I want to jab something with a sharp object. Seriously. But you know what? I don't want to destroy school computers just because I am BORED. Man, people suck. One of the computers I was using had had the coating on the monitor screen scrapped off. >.< Major glare factor.

Lalalala, so boring. At least the TA type people in here are trying their best to help even if they are not part of our track so can't help too much. Ah well. We are starting up again. Day 23 pivot tables. Bye now.

Bloooooooood *please click to help!*
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
08:22 p.m.

Gaaah, I am so sleepy, with a side of slight fuzzyness. I totally blame my not full allotment of blood. Although I do feel quite acomplished for donating today. For a good cause and all that. Plus, since this is our competition with Purdue before our game (on Saturday) I maybe helped defend our title as reigning blood giving champions. Plus I also got a T-shirt (I Bleed Green, *shrug*) and some apple juice and a cookie.

I need to study but I think I should maybe nap first to get rid of the fuzzyness. I drank a ton of water to aid my plasma revival and now have to pee all the time. : / And I ate dinner even though I wasn't really hungry because the nice old lady who treated me like a 5 year old (because it was my first time donating) told me too. I am way too literal.

Oops
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
05:04 p.m.

So this being a Wednesday Zakem san was hanging out in my room (Manning san was here too, we went to give blood later). And she is playing on my computer when she sees a link to Toony's LJ in my history. So she starts reading but feeling really bad like she shouldn't since Megan never told her about it. So then I had to pipe up and say, "Don't worry about it she never gave it to me either." Hee, last year when I could tell she was getting really frustrated with me but never said anything. So I thought I remembered her typing an entry on occasion so I go on livejournal and type in her handles and get a return with one, so I read it. Found out the problems (one of which I maintain is _not_ my fault). And this year, I never see her unfortunately, so I check it every once and a while to make sure everything is good with her.

And I wonder if Zakem san will tell her and she will be mad. ^^; Hell I don't care, what is the worst she can do to me? Read my journal? Like I care, everyone can read! Not like I talk trash (much) and they do help you get to know a person more. All good.

Need help
Thursday, November 7, 2002
08:57 p.m.

I have become addicted, but it is so good! For one terrifying moment I actually thought I had been converted to Hermione and Draco, but I think I am over it...mostly. This author writes the best inner Draco! Just how I picture him - not really EVIL evil, just evil. *nod* I think I have been reading this fic for over an hour now, and laughing hysterically. Good thing the roomie and the boy are out, I know I used to drive Megan mad when I found something this funny and would have laughing fits.

And I just can't wait for the ending! For some reason with het fics I am more aware of the fact that _of course_ they will end up together okay. I mean, you can tell in yaoi as well, but it doesn't have that romance novella quality since - well, I don't even think there are gay romance novellas. But I don't care! I want to knooooooooow.

Oh yeah, and this fic would be more perfect if Draco rat hadn't hooked up Ginny and Harry - Super ICK! I almost stopped reading but the devious inner mind of Draco wouldn't le me. Evil prat.

So, back to the fic...Stop staring at me! I blame the Mirror of Maybe ML and their stupid list of recommended fics. I'd go put my favorite Snape/Harry fics up but since it seems a Snape centric list of all types I bet they are already there.

Midnight Blue said chapter 16 would be out soon, so I will have that to read and maybe the insanity will stop.

*twitch* ::wanders off to read more::.

I have problems
Thursday, November 7, 2002
12:07 a.m.

But then you already knew that, didn't you? So reading lemons was fun but with the Roommate and the Boy being in here it is just kinda - awkward. ^^; So I move on to looking for Snape fics. Mmm, Snape. And I find all these _weird_ parings. But then I think - Can I really call them weird? I mean, pairing Snape with anyone is kinda odd ^^;, so I think I am going to read a few to see what is up. The Mirror of Maybe ML people were all about this one author's Hermione/Snape (ummm) and I really had to think hard for reasons about why that is any different from Harry and Snape. Well, expect for the lack of mansex factor, Eh, chicks. All that means is that the fic will have to be really good. I can read all sorts of PWP, pointless slash smut but put a girl in it and random sweaty sex just doesn't seem as plausable. ^^;I know that made no sense, but what are you going to do? 'Tis what I like.

Oh yeah! And when searching for JayKay's archive the first thing that pops up is Ginny and Draco fanfiction. I mean, what is up with that?! And as distrubing as that was (I really don't like Ginny paired with anyone) it still falls short of my icky feelings when people slash Ron and Harry. Seriously, I feel horrible that I delete any that come through the ML without reading them. But I tried! They were all stupid or featured super uke!Harry who cried a lot about having sexual feelings for his best friend. And Ron is always mean or indesive. They are the only pairing I have have come across were I want to tell people they are wrong for writing it. XD How horribly mean of me! At least I know I am not so far gone that I would actually do something so rude.

Ouch
Monday, November 4, 2002
11:38 p.m.

So, last night Rachel busted her knee playing club soccer. She was in horrible pain last night and couldn't walk. She has crutches now. And I think I know Grant a little better now. And at least I can understand him when he talks. ^^; I really think he was just mumbling before and doesn't really have a weird accent. I mean, I never had any trouble understanding David - or any of the British people I met in Europe. Maybe he is just shy. ^^

The list of things I have forgotten
Saturday, November 2, 2002
09:56 p.m.

Canada - dammit. I wanted to go. >.< I can't believe I forgot about it, I even fetched my passport from home. I was actually looking forward to having a few beers and I was thourghly looking forward to going to a male strip club and enjoying the normal course of events at a strip club. Like near naked men and loud music. : / D'oh, I have never gone either, not even to the more common female strip joints. I hope Jo and Sarah had fun without me, and I hope that Jo doesn't get too drunk and forget about Sarah, she seems to sometimes leave her at parties - not the most safe of practices. I am sure they will take care of each other, and I hope they ogle some men for me. ^^

And for another thing: My stupid blog layout. >.< How could you forget to put it up for me? You will have to do it when next we meet - which should be sometime after I get the next volume of CCS. Or Harry Potter, I am not sure what comes first or if we will be able to get together to cheer for Snape. ^^

I think that is all. *sigh*

Scroll on my scritchities
Saturday, November 2, 2002
12:56 a.m.
So, just checking in. Once I met Grant and got rid of most of my issues I no longer felt the need to post. ^^; Hanging out with Youj was major fun as usual. Even if stupid people have stupid websites that don't give stupid hours. ^^; Whatever, at least it wasn't just us, right? We did get to go eat in public in our costumes, and I briefly met a cowboy in the lobby. Oh yeah, I was a cowboy too (or a wrangler) - but please, never, ever, a cowgirl. I hate that word. I just always use my old gear from working/riding/living out at the barns.

I miss horses. Not just riding, which was never natural with me - but the smell, and feel, and just _being_ with horses. I always was super good at ground work. I honestly cry if I think to much about Blue or even Polo (Ick, I am getting that nostaglic - I did love polo though...). Gah, I just can't think about it, dammit DAMMIT! (edit: Okay, that was lame, I don't even know why I put that here.)

Whatever, I don't feel better - but let's talk about something else. I would talk about Grant but I think he at least deserves his own entry so I will do that later. I really need to pee now. ^^; And sleep would be nice too. I just need to say good night to Manning san (who missed the lesson test today (warui da na) we are talking DDR, he is like my DDR coach. ^^

Oh yeah, and I don't care what you call me in you blog. ^^; I think anyone who reads it knows vaguely who I am. Do you have a preference for your own name?

Night!

Hmmm
Wednesday, October 30, 2002
12:35 a.m.

I just told Dane that I didn't say anything, and I didn't. I just raised my eyebrows at her in reference to something Dane said to her. There has been a huge pause in my writing this and the actually happening since I started talking FFX with Dane, Youji - he wants your language primers. I told him you would be coming Thursday. ^^; But he doesn't want to start over again - he already did to get Fawkes overdrive. That is Fawkes right? ^^; He doesn't rename the aeon so I get confused. I need more otaku friends.

At Sarah's room
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
11:14 p.m.

Whee! I borrowed anime from Dane - a new friend of Sarah's, maybe they are going fun and exciting places, we'll see. I have been informed that he is my boy self. Us and Ranma. Hee. Japanese, Anime, DDR, and other such geeky things. Hopefully the start of something fun. Hee.

So yeah, I'm at Sarah's. I am sure Grant is here by now. Ick, sexcapades. Well, I hope they are having fun. I am having fun with Sarah and Dane. We are all having fun. I like that one Sprite commerical with the SunFizz, it is good, we all like it. Yay.

I have a BT in CSE tomorrow at 8AM then I have to watch Yan san because it all my hurry to get to Sarah's before Buffy started I forgot my Yan san video. >.< So now I have to go to the lab instead of my own peaceful viewing.

Everything is okay, yes. No worries. I am so incoherent now. Sigh.

Araa...
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
10:45 a.m.
Umkay, I am really glad I am wearing something. There are men outside my window. Doing something to the side of the building. But you know what? I live on the 2 floor. Yes. They are in a cherry picker. I think I will wave to them before I head out to class. But first I have the task of getting dressed (I'm in my robe ^^;). Time to go get dressed in the closet, I do that normally anyway, and - Pulling my shades down seems rude. ^^; I know they didn't come on a social visit but still....Yes, I am weird. And I need to stop speaking in short abrupt sentences, but it is kinda early and this is how I am thinking after the weirdness of the workers outside my window.

Dialogue check today, I found out late last night that Sakakibara sensei expects us to memorize it, it is a really long dialogue dammit!

So, good morning everyone - have a great day.

If you give a girl some pocky...
Monday, October 28, 2002
11:03 p.m.

Curses! I am upset eating, stupid sexual anxiety (and it isn't even mine, dammit!) Ah, well. I finished a box of pocky from Chicago and that is the end of it since I won't actually open any of my other snacks laying around. I won't let this stupid trip ruin me, I have made too much progress. Stupid Grant, stupid Rachel, stupid dorm rooms.

Well, in other news it looks like Youji will be coming to see me for Halloween, we are going on a spooky hayride! Whoo! If anyone knows any good parties we should go to around MSU, let me know. And by good, I don't mean falling down drunk. Not really our thing. Drunk guys are stupid. I kinda want a boy to play with. Blah, boys. ^^

living with people sucks
Monday, October 28, 2002
01:19 p.m.

So, yeah. I think my roommate is mad at me. But for all the people I have lived with, _this_ time I can honestly say it is not my fault. THE BOY is coming tomorrow night. Yes, THE BOY, Rachel's boyfriend - whom is from England, (London - I think). And yes, yes you might be thinking, "But Kathleen, haven't you already done this before?" Indeed I have. But the vast difference was that I love Toony, and I even enjoy her boy. Rachel is just so different than me, in the same way that Toony and I were so alike. Both of these situations aren't ideal but I am sensing crash and burn for Rachel and I. I honestly don't want to have to dodge her sexcapades from two weeks (TWO WEEKS!). Not only that but Toony realized I was doing her a favor in allowing David to stay with us. Rachel seems to think that _I_ am the huge inconvenience to her time with Grant in the room that I have paid to live/study/sleep in. I have, in so many words, been given rules - "If you could...", Many of her sentences have started like this in the past weeks, grrrr. Maybe I shouldn't be so nice, or try to get along with people. Honestly. So Tuesday night I'll be crashing at my good friend Sarah's room, it will be like a sleepover - fun, yes? But Rachel is sorely mistaken if she thinks I am vacating for the whole two weeks (of course, I would leave on the weekend, I think they are entitled to that).

I just have this huge sensation of dread verse my minor anxiety when David was coming. I just, dammit. Maybe I will like Grant, maybe I won’t hate him, maybe this whole week won’t be some uncomfortable torture with Rachel and Grant wanting to have sex all the time, with me being so much worst than a third wheel. Whatever, I do have that comfort of knowing THIS IS NOT MY FAULT. Whatever happens, no one let me blame myself, okay? Get a room. That isn’t mine. *nod*

Nifty
Tuesday, July 30, 2002
10:37 p.m.
My first entry to successfully make it on my blog, cool. And it seems that pitas makes your entry one huge paragraph so I guess I didn't have to worry that I was babbling and not breaking off for a new topic. ^^;

Returned from Otakon by way of Climax through FunksTown
Tuesday, July 30, 2002
09:05 p.m.
Okay, kids. Let's see if I can add an entry to my pitas blog. The computer tends to crash whenever I try. Anyway, I have returned from Otakon, man it was fun. JAFAX is fun in its own small intimate settings but Otakon is HUGE and there was so much to do! For some reason the yaoi fangirls had taken over the con this year and Youji and I watched Ai no Kusabi (at least the some of the sex scenes ^^; we had wanted to watch the FANily Feud game as well) and then on Saturday we watched Bronze: Zetsuai after 1989 since Youji hadn't seen it. Which was an interesting experience watching yaoi on the big screen in a huge room of yaoi fangirls and even a few fanboys. Other yaoi/shonen ai that was shown was Zetsuai, Cathexis (The Zetsuai music videos), KKH, Fish in the Trap, Song of the Wind and the Trees (like, the first yaoi anime ever - it is an interesting thing to watch. I want to say there was more but I can't think of anything else. Youji and I also watched One Piece - which contrary to my roommate's assessment does not suck. It was so much fun, and to my knowledge it did not get picked up this year, leaving me free to download it. There were pirates and a boy made of rubber, and a mysterious girl pirate, and swordsman whom used three swords (one in his mouth). And it had a high slash factor if you are a fangirl/boy. I was making comments about Ruffy (the lead rubber male) and Zorro (the swordsman who becomes the first member of Ruffy's pirate crew) - Ruffy is made of rubber - he is really, really, really, bendy - Zorro has an incredible talented mouth with a lot of dexterity, he (after all) uses it to fight with his third sword. TeeHee. The amusing thing about my H One Piece observations is that usually I am not the one to point them out when I am in the company of Youji, it is her job to get me into new slashdoms and me to laugh at her and call her 'ecchi'. Did I mention that Ruffy and Zorro are stuck on this tiny boat alone in the middle of the ocean? And Zorro calls Ruffy either Captain or my companion? : D *Ahem* moving on. Otakon for me only had one low period and that was when Christy and I cut out on the rest of Sat.'s yaoi to watch the Game Show. The Otakon game show has a prequiz and the three highest scores get to compete for prizes by testing their anime knowledge in Jeopardy! like style. The quiz is extremely hard, so unlike JAFAX you don't get a lot of morons up there. Their knowledge can be frightening sometimes. Anyway, in the Say What? category the gamers were asked what a line in an English dub had been dramatically changed from the original Japanese and it was multiple choice. And as a joke one of the choices of a Generator Gawl line change was, "YAOI KAZAWOIE" and one of the helpers then went around throwing YAOI KAZOWOIE (which I might be spelling wrong) buttons. Christy had one thrown almost right to her but I didn't get one ;_;. Christy and I had been talking to a newbie sitting next to us who had been sorta down on our newly bought yaoi manga we were looking through to pass the time until the game show started. AND THEN WHEN I OFFERED TO PAY HER GOOD AMERICAN MONEY THAT COULD BE USED IN THE DEALER'S ROOM SHE WOULDN'T SELL IT TO ME! She said she was going to give it to her boyfriend, >.< I wanted to ask her if her boyfriend was bi, cause most people's straight boyfriends wouldn't like a button advocating their interest in male/male relationships. I was kinda depressed after I tried a bit more to get a button but to no end, but I am happy that Youji got one and I didn't mean any of the stuff about me killing her in her sleep for her button - honest. ^^;...But it would have been really easy since she was sleeping right next to my bed in the hotel and...nevermind. ^^; And I did win all that cool stuff at our local GVSU JAFAX so it was Christy's turn to have some cool con stuff. And this brings us to the dealer’s room - which was HUGE this year, much bigger than where I was told last year's was AKA this year's video room 1 (where I watched Otaku no Video first thing Friday morning). And I just realized that everything before this was one huge disjointed paragraph, oops. Christy and I spent money all three days, only buying one thing on Sunday. Although mine doesn't count cause it is a Christmas present and I got two free ADV/Suncoast T-shirts, "THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY FOR JUSTICE", they are hideously bright orange - I love them. I also bought volumes 1-3 of Hikaru no Go and a lovely random yaoi manga called (kanji kanji kanji) BOYS - it called to me, I got carded cause it was an over 18 title, first time in my entire 20 years of existence I had bought something with an age restriction - I felt so special ^^. I think I'm going to make scripts in case in one else has it and would like a translation. Scanslations prompt pirating IMO and I think pirating is EVIL! And scripts would make my Japanese come back to my brain so that when I resume 201 in the Fall my new sensei will not think I am an idiot and my 3.0 in 102 was a fluke. Oookay, other manga. I bought Trigun 3 (Patrick Steward, baby!) and Trigun Maximum 2 (mmm, Wolfwood). Trigun 3 was what I had Yasahiro Nightow sign after his panel (with MadHouse People and Sato san (storyboardist or art direction for Digi Charot, KareKano, Vandred and many others)) it was great fun. We learned of a couple MadHouse secret projects (shhh) and saw Nightow san's video game "GUN GRAVE" which will be made into an anime. Gun Grave will be coming out for your PS2, please buy it. I also attending Sato san's solo panel and at the end I got his autograph cause no one else wanted it in the lull before the Yasahiro Nightow/Madhouse panel began. Sweet. I also bought a set of really pretty Fruits Basket pencil boards, and Fruits Basket manga volume one, I would have bought volume 8 if it had been there cause that is the Hatsuharu cover ^^. Then it was off to the man that had some "RED HOT YA~OI DOUJINSHI! GET YOUR RED HOT YA~OI DOUJINSHI HERE" ^^; I think he was trying to embarrass Christy and me cause we had these vaccant grins on our faces but *pish* like that would work. We are proud of our obsession and told that to the girl that who tried to tell us that you could pretend you were buying it for a friend. They are both DuoXHeero and one is H. However, the one that is not H is SIGNED by the artist NATTSU. I have no idea if she is famous and have not taken the time to translate her little message (Japanese written by natives is extremely hard for me to read since it tends to be a lot more messy that you read/write a new language and be very precise); the DJ is called Moon Child. Christy and I also had a little discussion about how Japanese fans always have Duo as seme and Heero and uke and American fans are predominately Heero seme and Duo uke. Personally, for "in character" fics I tend to see Heero/Duo as a switch couple, and there is nothing I hate more that any of the Gundam pilots reduced to a whiny, crying, stupid, abused, girly uke. Hello! Gundam Pilots! Can we say out of character? But that is a rant for a different time. I will actually be surprised if anyone is still reading this. Ooh, and I bought all the G-boys in pin form. 'Fei and Quatre are bigger that the other ones and look like they have plushies of the other three. I am really into 3X4X3 and 2x5X2 right now so I was doing cute things to them. ^^; And since 2X5X2 is a rare pairing I will plug Christy's and Mel's site, "Death and the Dragon" http://4dw.net/deathndragon. Go read, be happy. And that is all I bought. I got a lot of free stuff, Hamutaro poster, Excel Saga posters, many posters, ADV, Pioneer, and Bandai trailer CDs. I love Trailers. A free issue of NEWTYPE USA, which had an incredibly sexy Ayato from RAHXEPHON on the cover. He looked like a pinup and was a little weird since series Ayato makes me want to hug him and tell him everything will be okay. I love RahXephon btw, ADV will be getting my money for it and for Full Metal Panic and Saiyuki if they ever stop having issues over the name with the Japanese licensor's who want ADV to call it, "Paradise Raiders" : P. But seriously RahXephon is one of the coolest things I have watched, everyone be sure to buy it from ADV. And if you bootleg the whole thing with no intention of buying it I will kick your ass. Bootleggers are going straight to Hell. Fansubs are for previewing purposes only not a replacement for not buying a title that is licensed in your area. Whew, again, off topic. I need to use this thing more I have so much I want to rant about. But my BG is so ugly; maybe I can have Christy make me a pretty layout like hers. Maybe she will write about our trip too, go read at youjik33.pitas.com. She was my co-pilot in my mini-mobile, YAOI mobile, space shuttle mini van for the whole drive from Michigan to Maryland and back again. The drive was a whole 'nother adventure which I won't take up space here taking about. I have a feeling only my friend's will care about the non-Otakon stuff. Soooo, yeah. I can't think of anything else to add except that now I don't feel an urge to go to AnimeExpo anymore cause Otakon is closer and from what I hear of Otakon much more organized and we still get cool guests and have lots of anime and so what if AX gets all the title acquisitions? I went to one panel at Otakon ONE, and that was the Madhouse/Yasahiro Nightow one. I hopped on the 'net when I got home to see if any announcements had happened. I highly recommend Otakon for east and mid-east fans. Save your money. Although in Youji's and my case we are going to save money for a plane ticket to YaoiCon when we are out of school and have real jobs. Maybe I'll go to AX one year just to see, I could visit my K san. *Shrug* Otakon was so kick ass. Everyone go, prereg 7 months in advance in a group and only pay 30 dollars. Yay! If anyone would like to talk to me about any of the stuff I put in here they can reach me at SailorAres @ Hotmail.com Take of the spaces, of course. Byeeeeee!