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Thursday, January 29, 2004

Blahhhhhh....... I'm so tired. I had fun at Leslie's party, and I met Spork and Sky-Z and I was very happy. ANd then it turns out that my friend Sachi from school knows both of them from the Kumoricon. So.. like.. yeah. :D It's cool. You're only six degrees or less from knowing somebody famous. That tends to happen a lot in my family.

For example, my great uncle Mike Flynn was in a band with the guitar player from Alice Cooper. And then some guy my dad knew from Minnesota (a neighbor I guess) named Mario Rossetti dated the daughter of Johnny Cash. Isn't that neat? XD

I've been really tired and less energetic than usual, so I'm gonan try and go to bed early. I dfoubt that will happen, though. Here's a weird song I wrote.

Silver (By Saffire Raynius of course)

Darkness creeping near
Stark night bright and clear
Take me from this land I fear

Voices high and low
Some that I don't know
Speaking of a lie I fear

Monsters closing in around me
Suffocating silence, murdering unreliability
Show me the way through the rain
Help me find myself enclosed in
Prison bars of silver

I once assumed that all was peaceful
That no matter what I said
I would always be ahead
Now I'm not so much as slightly hopeful
Lost in my own self-depricating fear of living

The full moon may come and go
and no one would ever know
Trapped inside an angry beast
I cannot see my true blue self

(Chorus)

Trapped inside my silver cage
Stifling all my rage
Door's unlocked but handle is silver sin
I can feel you through the bars
But outside is too far
I'd be leaving my pretty silver cage
Shining shining shining shining poison silver sin

THE END OMG 00;

I need to scan more SR comics and Hex pages, but I'm too lazy. = I guess I could upload the last two SR comics of this plot arc...

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 08:47 p.m.

Back in --- *snore*

Friday, January 23, 2004

in my head: Wind - Naruto OST 1
feeling somewhat: exhausted and relieved

In the time of 5 school days, I procrastinated heavily, gave up on many things and picked up new ones, pondered the meaning of life, found Jesus (again), became really depressed and pulled myself out of it, got an average of 4 hours of sleep per day, and did pretty much no chores.

This is, of course, without the stress of finals.

Trish, my bum cousin who is taking up valuable space and doing nothing at all, is gone from our house because a family friend of hers has breast cancer. = maybe when she comes back, she'll actually get a job instead of putting more stress on Mom's small salary.

I played my guitar 'til it hurt, trying out about 25 different guitar tabs... I printed out the ones that were somewhat in my reach, and I will practice them, eventually. Among the ones I printed out were You Are Not Alone & The Place I'll Return To Someday (FF9), Tifa's Theme (FF7) and some other things.

So..... yeah. I need to beta my website now and see if the links work. = I put up the sound page, and I'm working on recording my half-assed song about werewolves. I will, when Dad doesn't walk in on me... blarrg.

I'm so sorry, Sensei! How could I forget? Yesterday was EDO-SAN'S BIRTHDAY! I've known her for six years now, and I still love her very dearly. She's one of the clsoest friends I've ever had, which is amusing, considering that I just recently got the nerve to ask her personal things like her sexual orientation. wtf i am weird. I drew her smut for her birthday, wow. I never draw smut. It turned out reasonably well, except for Kiba's chest, because I can't draw manly chests from a side view. ><;; Smut is here.

That's all I can really think about for now.. looking forward to meeting Sky-Z at Edo's birthday party if possible. She sound slike a great person, but I must admit that I am somewhat fearful. = She's gonna kick my ass for sure.

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 09:13 p.m.

blarg

Thursday, January 15, 2004

In my head: FF9 - Bran Bal Theme
I feel: tired

I've just been so busy lately, I haven't updated anything. At all. I'm serious. I have been able to update the layout on my site at my new host but I'm not so sure that I really want to go through and list about 150 pictures that are old and crappy anyway. I might just leave the old site, at my old host, open and post that if they want to see some really old art they should go there.

I've been somewhat antisocial, too. I'm starting to scream when the phone rings again, which usually means that I need a break. The problem is, I just had Winter Break PLUS 4 snow days. It's a three day weekend this weekend, but I'll have tons of work to do(2 HUGE projects x__x) and I'm not sure just what my parents are doing..... mom wants to see Grandma really bad, but I have to meet for this project or else I'll seriously bomb it for my English class, and I love English.

At long last, we were told what our semester-long projects were going to be for second semester. It only counts in English class, and it will be a challenge, but I'm going to be exploring something that I love: feminism. We're supposed to find two plays related by some common topic or author and then explain the similarities they have. There are people I know that are going to do gay rights and all sorts of controversial things, but I'm going to do feminism, which has honestly been shoved under the table this year when it comes to politics and all of the other stuff I've been thinking about. I love being a feminist, and I like working for a cause. I only laugh when someone says "Femi-Nazi" because I suddenly know how young and stupid the world has become.

New DOTD location, for now: Saffytaffy.Shinkan.Net. I miss Edenlust. Her site has faster load times, and for some reason, sometimes the images don't work on my Hex site. = Oh well.

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 10:44 p.m.

.:* Winter Storm 2004!

Friday, January 9, 2004

In my head: Rose of April -OverClocked Remixes
I feel: apathetic

Hahaha.... I get school off tomorrow. This is so funny that it's not even funny. I'm talking serious wtf stuff. More freezing rain is due tomorrow, adding another inch of ice to the already crunchy snow and ice. Very funny. It may seem like Portland is filled with wimps, but I'm telling the truth when I say that it's not me, it's the idiots. A lot of people who live here don't know how to drive when stuck in the snow. Balme it on all of the California immigrants who've never seen snow in their lives. For once, they have to turn down their (c)rap music and hit the brakes. At least it's keeping the crime rate down. :D

On the bright side, I only had to go to school one day this week.

I'm going to add another person to my stalk list. Sky-Z. I've written about her before, but now that I know her better, we are SO soulmates. She's like me hyped up on Sprite Remix constantly. In fact, that's what she is. We've deicded that we need to get married. This might cause conflicts with Jamie, though; she already proposed to me. = Oh well. Spork ruined our wedding anyway because she got us all confused. T__T Not like it'd work. We're both extremely uke when it comes to anything, though we do have out seme moments... Even though she says she's uke, I know that she's secretly seme. Because.. no one is more uke then I am. >P

Damn. I'm lazy. And I just remembered that I downloaded some new Photoshop brushes that I need to use someday.

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 12:10 a.m.

Twin Snow Days no jutsu!

Wednesday, January 7, 2004

How lucky am I? I'm actually getting TWO snow days out of this socalled winter storm. What happened is pretty amusing. We got 5 inches of snow on Tuesday, and then it started to sleet (pardon my grammar, 2 hours of sleep) for the rest of the day. Mom went out to check the snow conditions today and there was a thick layer of ice on top of the snow. It's also sleeting/raining freezing rain right now-- I can hear it-- and that makes things impossible to walk on. I haven't gone out once in the last two days, but hey, I took a shower XD

I've been working on Hex more now since I have the nights to myself. The storyline for the second to last chapter has changed a bit as I go along, but it's still pretty much the same. It's not a happy book. I knew that before I even started it. Hex originally was just an idea, a reference to how Syou knew Fang before the Firewolves. I figured that there must've been a reason why Syou was always so angry with Fang and how he treated her, and angst angst angst. It's because at the end of their little Sherafurean adventure, he lost his memory. Durrrr.... Actually, his mom foresaw that his fall would come with unpleasant memories, so she went ahead and erased them. The sad thing is that now, seven years after the events in the book, Syou erased her memory of everything that happened before Hex and after. Sooo.. no one will ever know. Except Niamo. But she knows everything, so it kinda doesn't count. XD

That will probably make nooooo sense whatsoever. XD Speaking of which, I should get off my ass and start scanning the first chapter, or else people will get mad. o___o;;

I apologize for the typos... two hours of sleep really messes things up. I'm too cold to sleep though, so I'll just sit here and typo. Maybe i can direct my energy into something more productive, like working on my Hawaiian Kiss picture. >D SakuLee......

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 07:08 a.m.

new layout!

Monday, January 5, 2004

I spent two days on this layout, tweaking things here and there. It's Edward. :D I <3 Edward and Al. I miss them. =\

Anyway, I might not post tomorrow depending on the weather. There's supposed to be a huuuuuge ice storm that's going to cover Portland and surrounding areas, and it might cause a power outage.

I've been drawing more SakuLee art lately. I need to enter that into the Sakulee fanclub at DevArt.

I'm not writing much because I am incredibly tired. Last night I coudln't sleep until 4:30AM. You think that's late, right? Well, I get up at 5:30AM. Now do you see what I mean? The only thing keeping me afloat right now is the fact that I downed three Krispy Kremes in the span of about three minutes, and the added effect of Barq's caffeinated root beer. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee etc etc etc.

The layout image was made form three different screenshots of the anime and some experiments in Photoshop Elements. :D

Saffy had a deep discussion with Al at 10:44 p.m.