09:30:2003||16:21
This is a great archive, Nok-nok!
It's a great place for Invader Zim info. Has some pretty good scripts, too. Anyway...
Polar, the Chicken's blog is http://k.unveiled.org/index.html and I put it up here because you said you wanted it. Okay, Kahran is soooo bored, (yes, I've run out of nice slash fics to read) she's actually downloading IZ episodes off Imesh. Just a couple of IZ eps I particularly like.
*cringes at tagboard* I called Dob "Dibby"?! What happened to the oh-so-adorable Dib-Monkey or Dob-Worm...? Must lay off the chocolate...
Oooh... heard a nice new band lately. They're German and they're called "Die Prinzen". Found em while looking for WeiB music. Sang this song called "Schwarz" and some guy on Imesh thinks it's about Schwarz. O_o (It's a nice song, though)
Hmm... lessee... what else to rant on... can't get on RO... so that's why I'm blogging...Running out of things to do. *yawn* Methinks I'm gonna disconnect, take a bath and wait for IZ to show on RPN9. GIR! Draw me a bath!! XD

09:29:2003||19:21
Waaaahooooie!!
Two days of doing absolutely nothing! Wahoohoo!! This is great. Hmm... now I'm being scolded by my grandmother for no apparent reason. (And here we are back on the topic of the dratted medicine.) Oh well, I'm going to go and wallow in my new obsession- Invader Zim fanfiction. ^^

09:28:2003||13:10
......O_O........
First things first, Nok-nok, I already made my GIR layout, when are you gonna release yours? ^^ (Change of layouts by next month.)
Again, I gotta cut this short. My mom's lecturing me about being "madaya again... what can I say? I prize every minute of my load time while she just waits for her downloads and plays solitaire while we're connected!! Mou-i.... >_<
Now I've got Velvet Underworld stuck in my head.. dratted WeiB Gluhen... O_O

09:127:2003||19:41
If its not on google, it's not anywhere....
Drat certain senior citizens. First they drag an exhausted me off to mass (where I almost fell asleep from the day's fatigues) and now she's not convinced that there is no english site for this piece of goddam medicine that's released in fucking germany!!!! *heave heave*
My precious RO time is being wasted... O_o *wanders off to find Invader Zim pics*

09:24:2003||21:17
Wooooh.... O_o
Just spent two hours reconfiguring my modem. Damned thing went muy loco on me and I had to reinstall it. Thanks for the advice, dad! ^^
I love my father...
If it wasn't for his suggestion, I never would've been able to actually think about how to fix the dratted thing. Yeah, yeah... unlike my beloved... I'm a total daddy's girl. I admit.
Oop... speaking of my girl... I've got a pic to email to me. O_O

09:21:2003||20:15
MODEM PROBLEM!!
Had to configure a new modem in before I could get online. Kay, lots to blog about.
Got a haircut today!
Yeah... gone is the insanely long ponytail. It's now shoulder length. I like it though... people might scream tommorrow. O_o
Changed jobs on RO at last!
Yeah... one of my alts is finally a swordie! I'm taking a loooong trip around Rune-Midgard to head to Payon and buy me a bandana. Talk about cosplaying on RO!!
And the biggest one of all...
I found my brother!! That's right... C-chan, the great only child has a half brother. Figures, huh? He texted me earlier and whaddaya know... he plays RO, too!! Happy day. ^^

09:20:2003||10:48
>_<
And once again, my damned mom got into one of her temper tantrums... I hate it when she does that. Gets mad at me for no damned reason at all. She's so damned stuck up about herself... I CAN'T STAND IT! Daikarai okaasan!
She's always like this. She just panicked all of a sudden when Imesh stopped on us then she got mad at me. I hate this. She always lets out her frustrations on me. I can't stand it. I don't even know why she does this.
It's a good thing I don't get mad whenever she just pops up beside me prodding at my screen going "who's that"and mispronouncing all sorts of things. It pisses me off but I never actually say a word. My grandfather says its due to the separation thing and she's sorta like me; hiding our self-destruction behind the facade of a happy someone. But what I don't understand is why she has to lash out at me. Why me?!
Damn... Chou-sempai's online and I can't RP with her in this state of mind. And here I was about to post something about Charen from culturecrash. She's on my shoujou list. Hmm... both my girls and they're flaming bionic redheads. What's the irony in that.
Okay... I'm better now.

08:19:2003||23:15
Ir won't work?!
I'm not exactly sure what the heck's wrong with the CD, but it really should work fine... weird... O_o
Speaking of which, I just got me a skull ring on RO! Some guy was giving away gifts for newbies so I partook of his generosity. Gave me a skull ring! ^^
Of course, Mukuro's wearing it... I like to imagine it came from my little mage alt (who is making a LOOOOOOOONG trip to Payon, btw.). :D
Achi Joni has a blog?! Boggles the mind... I thought I was the only one in the family who had one! >_<
Info:Achi Joni is my cousin, Xogens batch. Uh, she's the one I think Ms. Villarante calls "Joni, Joni please don't cry...". I dunno. That's what Ms. V said when I asked about Achi Joni.
Great! I can keep in touch with my cousin's more interesting life. :D

09:17:2003||20:26
Happy anniversary, baby!!
I've been connecting on and off and on and off the whole night simply because too many people were on but anyway, onto the topic at hand.
Yep, today's the day! This is the day I started the obsessive compulsiveness. Hmm... I can hear Kiamoy retching in the background. *Happy smile* It's been three years to this very day.
Speaking of Kim, hot is my fellow altar boy... er... girl... ^^;

09:14:2003||17:50
Live with it!! >:p
Yet another haircut cancelled by this dratted weather. Gragh! I wanna get my hair cut!! It's getting too long for its own good. Meanwhile, I think I'll do some blog-hopping. >:D
Lessee...its raning like there's no tommorrow here.. and I've got Colourblind stuck in my head.
Nobody told me you'd be so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the life when I close my eyes
I'm colourblind.

Guess that's enough from the musical blog as of today. ^^;
Updated Mukuro's blog today. It's about that fanlisting I blogged on a few days ago.

09:13:2003||20:12
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Added Kaeru o my list.
Not to mention I'm on another HomunculusXEike thing. Dunno why. Not much to blog about.
Hope the ACET went well for you guys. I'm taking mine tommorrow. >_<

09:12:2003||21:48
Dratted slow server... >_<
Too many people on Ragnarok so I had to get off for a while. Oh well...training can wait.
Been listening to Simple Plan recently and heard a pretty good song. It's kind of what I wana tell my mom but can't. Ever heard of "Perfect"?
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Then there's also "Numb" by Linkin Park...
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertow)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertow)


I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you


That's basically the gist of what I wanna say. My mom expects so much of me but hey, I mean, I'm not perfect and I don't want to be like her. Depressed is not exactly the word I have on my mind right now...disappointed maybe.
But of course, I'll get over it soon enough and go back to being my usual cheery self.
Ne, good advice and all...are you trying to imply something there? >:9
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! My heart...my heart..... *sobs* ;_;
I take that back...mebbe it might take longer for me to go back to my normal cheery self..
O_O. FWAHAHAHAHAHAH-!!!! Okay, I'm back to my normal cheery self now. I can't help myself. The very thought that My baby uses emoticons as immaturely as I do crack me up.
Mou... I love you....

09:08:2003||16:07
Back on R.O. !!
Yeah, reinstalled my Ragnarok Online CD which might just make me twice sa busy as I already am online. Yep, guess that means no sleep for poor widdle C-chan.
Any Filipinos who wanna find me online in RO, take a stab at one of my two usernames. Pretty obvious, if you ask me. Hint: They're both found on this blog.
Hmm...gonna have to finish with my three RPs first before rejoining the RP community. Poring, what out! Mwahahahaha-!!

09:07:2003||13:10
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Hmm...thought I'd blog. Something up with my dad's imesh so we decided to check out the problem. News...well... O_o
Made one solitary entry over here. Not sure if anyone noticed though. *sigh*
About noticing...what am I writing for? Why am I doing this?! Why am I rebelling?! I'm so confused.... *sobs* (Okay...here we go again with one of Sey's self-battery) I really don't know why I'm so hell-bent on proving my parents wrong... well, except for my dad, maybe. He's the only member of this family (aside from my grandfather) who doesn't drive me up the wall, despite what he did. I love my dad. Love him deeply.
My mom...well, I don't wanna get that out here. I'm not one to bash her that shamefully on my blog. My mom's... well, she's nothing like me.
Grgh...better get out of this melancholy mood before actually making another entry up there. :p

09:06:2003||00:48
I'min I'm in I'm in I'm in.....^^
Yeah! *pumps fist into the air* I'm in! Woohoo! ^^
Starting today, that's LJ *points up* is gonna be in my links list. *Points to the right* Yep yep...guess who's managing it. *manic smile*
Like ya said, monopoly isn't so bad. That's three RPs for me so far. Whopee. ^^
The sad thing here is I can't be the manic stalker. Oh well. It's a good enough sacrifice. :p
*chibi dance of joy*

09:05:2003||21:05
Kuyuyuyu... O_o
Leshee....I'm being interviewed for the first RP and got accepted for the second one which is on Yahoo groups. Yes, character obsession IS a beautiful thing. Makes our lives a bit more interesting. We never get to see each other online anymore. Hmph! >:|
What else to blog on...grooving to Sting again here. What can I say? He's a great singer. His lyrics are so... profound. O_o
*drums nails on desk* Now I gotta come up with a journal entry for my honey. 'Scuse me. :3

09:02:2003||11:16
Kyuyuu....
Rain...and its wonderful for my mood. Dunno. Classes got suspended today and I'm freezing cold here. Not much to blog about... *hmm... maybe have some fun...*
Ah, so you've come by my blog at last. It does a youkai lord good to see you here, Touya. ^^
Monopoly is a good thing. I mean, without monopoly where would all my romantic fantasies go? Off to someone who barely knows Cicero-kun. *sighs* I can't have her RPed by someone who won't give Sey0chan the time of day! My romantic plans would be ruined! *sobs*
And with my...erm, scuse me, I mean OUR third year anniversary coming up yet. I can't stand the heartbreak! u_u'''
I'm gonna go saunter off and look for more RPs to monopolize. >_>
Ooh! Ooh! Guess who sent this in! *happy grin*
(And all this while listening to "Searching for Juliet" by Vaness Go. >_<)
Last rants:
Why am I doing all this? Why do I care? Why do I bother? I love her, by the gods, I love her. I don't care how ridiculous, how stupid or how disgusting this love may seem but I'm damned happy with it. This is all my sacrifice, all my creative juice, all my dedication. I lvoe her and that's all I want to prove. I don't know why I'm proving it and to whom but it doesn't matter to me. I love her. So there. I spent a good half an hour crying last night. Yes, its that time of year again when I bother myself with all this nonsense and whatnot about my impossible love. Curse? I don't think so.

08:31:2003||12:39
It's gonna be up soon!!
Spent my Saturday afternoon working on a new profile pic for Reiki and the Mukuro support clique I was telling everyone about. Can't wait to upload it... ^^
Okay, so it's up. Now, I'm working on another RP!! (Can anyone say "monopoly"?) Yeah, pretty much, I'm monopolizing Mukuro's RP. ^^
It's just something I feel like doing. Besides, if anyone got hold of her in an RP, what'll happen to all my romantic fantasies, ne? (Everyone chucks papayas at Sey)
Hey! I believe I've been doing a pretty good job so far as Reiki's Mukuro so there! >_< *Holds up a sign that reads "The Great Monopolizer"*
I can't stop grinning...

08:30:2003||15:48
Pinaglabanan!!
Changed my layout. :D
It's almost my anniv so I thought I'd do something flashy. Might take a while to load. Anyway, Pinaglabanan. It's a military celebration to commemorate this battle that took place where we celebrate it. (Redundant, I know....)
More on that sometime. Have to check if the layout works.
Okay, so the layout works. Yay! It might take a while to load, though since it's an 800 height or so pic. Hehe... but I'm proud of it!
OK. On Pinaglabanan. My back hurts, my feet hurt but I'm a good tired. ICA placed 3rd in the marching competition, though and that's pretty much good news. But on to other matters.
Ne, of course I sympathize. I know what you're going through. You know its wrong but there's somthing about it that keeps you coming back for more. *Points upward to blog title* :9
Freak!!! (j/k)
And that's all for this week. Still some things I gotta do... (Finish my novel, mo pit, English thingie, make my site...)