Monday, June 23, 2003
*Alejate ~ Josh Groban*
So it's officially over. It was a great 2 months and 2 weeks. It was great while it lasted. Now its time to pick up the pieces and move on with my life, although things wouldn't be the same.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 11:01 a.m.
Sunday, June 22, 2003
*Final Distance ~ Utada Hikaru*
I wanna be with you now
Futari de distance mitsumete
Ima nara maniau kara
We can start over
Kotoba de tsutaetai
I wanna be with you now
Sono uchi ni distance mo
Dakishimerareru you ni nareru yo
We should stay together
Yappari I wanna be with you
call my name and save me from the dark @ 09:32 p.m.
Sunday, June 22, 2003
*Bitter ~ Ninedays*
Been listening to that Ninedays CD lately, especially yesterday, when I had that song *points up* on loop. Stupid habit, I always do this when having a fight with someone. Well, the 'fight' is over I suppose, but we still have a lot of things to talk about. I'm still confused over some things. Well, that's my problem actually. Still. Should probably stop playing this CD now, but I guess I still have some residual feelings from yesterday. Heh, my bro probably wants to burn this CD...as in, burn with fire, because Ninedays annoys him. "Who cares about a Story of a Girl?". Heh, and yeah, I understand, songs are annoying if it's overplayed. When I listened to 'If I Am' for the umpteenth time, I started thinking 'jump off that ledge already! I would if I were you!'. Of course I'd wear some kind of parachute, but hey.
On a different note, Intan, my neighbour, finally flew off to Bangkok. I'm gonna miss her quite a lot. She's like a younger sister to me. She was all teary eyed when she said goodbye to her relatives, and when she was gonna say goodbye to her friends and I, she looked kinda embarrassed, but probably thought 'screw it!' and actually let her tears flow. Her friends were all "Aaw, don't cry. We're gonna visit you. Promise." I wasn't gonna see her off at the airport coz I thought there's no more room for me in the car (yes, I still have no wheels) , so I just went to her house before they were supposed to leave. I eventually went coz her brother was saying how he's gonna be driving all alone in his car. I just looked at him at the time and looked at what I was wearing and glared at him. "I'm wearing shorts and a t-shirt. *looked at his parents who were wearing formal attires* You expect me to go to the airport like this?!" He just laughed and said he'll wait while I change. So I ran that 5 m to my house, changed and locked all the doors. Turned out my family were already ready to go *rolls eyes*. You people need to start telling me about these things! Heh, good thing I already showered earlier. And he just had to ask me about my thesis *rolls eyes*. Yes, I know that you're done, but did you just have to rub it in? And he asked me what I was doing tonight. I said I was gonna work on my thesis. Then he had this annoying grin and said,"Damn, I was gonna ask if you wanna go play pool tonight, since we didn't get to go the other day." Intan and I both glared at him. Grrr. Yeah, it was pretty amusing I guess, since we were gonna sneak out of our houses a few nights ago to play pool but didn't. We were trying to find out which clubs were open at that time and we eventually felt sleepy. Yeah, we were gonna sneak out around 11 pm. It was kinda stupid. Oh well, but at least it was memorable.
Alright, gotta stop listening to this song. *Changes song to 'Tide is High'*. Yeah, shut up. I've been brainwashed, that's my excuse.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 05:09 p.m.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
*Seven Nation Army* ~ the White Stripes
This song is addictive. My bro and I have been playing this on the guitar since 3 days ago. Anyway, yes, I'm back from my vacation. Now I'm slaving away cleaning back the house coz my parents back. Heh, goodbye bachelor pad. I'm gonna miss you *tear*. Parents, you love them, but they drive you nuts at times. They've been dragging me and my bro to clen up the house at ungodly hours. My bro is already complaining of Child Labor violations. Hehe, yeah, I'm exaggerating, but still *rolls eyes*. It was all peace and quiet before they came, but now there's alot of yelling, especially by Fraulein Mom, the cleaning-nazi (no offense to all you Germans out there). Heh, she was the vacation- nazi before, but now she's the cleaning-nazi. Go figure.
Yeah, it's almost a month since I last updated. Sorry, real life got in the way. That and general laziness, hehe. And you suggest I have an LJ? Heh, right. I mean, I'm updated right now coz I promised someone. Alright, I was ordered to do it *rolls eyes* No, I am not whipped. What's that? Whatever.
My vacation was good. I'd say great, but I got dragged to my parents events too much that it wasn't. We went to these temples mostly. Bedugul, Tanah Lot, Tampak Siring and these other temples. Had to wake up early to get dragged to those places. I'm not saying that it's bad, it was quite interesting, but all I wanted to do was hang out at the beach. Same with my bro. Luckily we were able to spend one whole day at Kuta Beach while my parents went to Besakih... yes, another temple. Oh, interesting fact. Some temples have free range monkeys living near the area. Some are tame, some are wild. Pretty cute, especially when they tug at your pant legs to ask for food. They get annoying when they follow you around though. Luckily we had a guide with us, so these creatures didn't do any monkey business... well, aside grabbing my brother's ass anyway.
Thankfully my GPRS worked during my vacation... okay, not all the time, but still. And I encountered some netcafes so I could actually chat and stuff. Yeah, so I'm a net-addict. Sue me XP. Actually, it's not so much the net that I'm addicted to, but the company that I've encountered there. Yes, there's the phone to actually 'chat' but that's friggin expensive. And SMS texting, but I couldn't reach everyone by that. I'm just glad I could reach the people I care about, even on vacation.
Anyway, after Bali, we went to these relatives. We had a blast in Semarang, although my little cousin is an annoying little brat. Yeah, she had her moments of cuteness, I'll give her that. Now, these other relatives in these other places, they're not so fun. They have these tendencies like vultures eyeing its prey, so no, no barrels of yay there. Had to rely on texting Andy and GPRSing Cait to remain sane. My bro was also great. Of course he was having the same predicament as I was, so we just made the most of it. I actually learnt some wrestling moves. Aint that productive?
Sweets, thanks for those calls. Must've cost you a fortune. You're so sweet XP. Or was it an attempt of control?*raises eyebrow* And no, no scamming on people XP I mean, you should know, I texted you while I was at the beach, hehe. Now that I've updated, are you happy now? Btw, that episode where you get yelled in Indonesian by my 5 year old cousin was pretty funny, hehe. And then the call at the airport, where you claimed you got yelled by the Indonesian operator, hehehe. Sorry, but that wasn't yelling XP. Btw, some of those calls helped me survive through the day.So, thanks again. And sorry about my current situation. It sucks, but we'll get through this.
Andy, thanks for the texts... and playing operator XD We appreciate it very much. And pool is fun, eh? When is our next match? Bring it on!
Veen, sorry bout what happened. I hope you're doing okay now. Man, and here I thought Manila was safer than here. Well, if you are gonna get a licensed gun, don't slack off on the shooting practice XP Hope everything turns out alright.
Dush, where are ya? Haven't talked to you in a long time. Hope we get to chat soon.
Piper, having a relationship with your comp? Yeah, I know what that feels like *gets smacked* But you gotta do what you gotta do... and take what you can get I guess. Hehe, more power to all of us XD Btw, kata orang, rajin pangkal pandai, hehehe.
Koi, man, we gotta meet soon. I've missed ya. How's campus? Seriously, I need to go there. They probably think I don't exist anymore. Oh yeah, someone is sucked into the world of Chobits and she also bought X. She compared me to a friggin persocon! Gah! I mean, come on, I don't say 'chii' that often. That's your gig, right? Chii? Chii? Chii.
Alright, this is the update for now. Right now I have that Attomic Kitten song 'the Tide is High' in my head, thanks to my bro. Grr, what have I done to deserve this? No, don't answer that. And now popcorn has a new meaning... don't ask.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 09:19 p.m.
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
*Informer ~ Snow*
OMG, I haven't heard this song for a long time... it's on Channel V. Heh, it reminded me of those junior high days. *looks at CD rack* And I actually have the CD,LOL. Hehe, I'm not sure what show that's on Channel V right now, but they're playing these old songs. I saw "Breakfast at Tiffany's" earlier... now this... hehe... Koi, our own version of Tembang Kenangan?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,CAITLYN!!!
Hope you have a grand year... and enjoy the day. And... ooh, Ricky Martin is on tv right now. Just thought you'd like to know *evil grin*
Piper, thanks for backing me up on the guilty pleasure thing. Besides, Britney is a good entertainer, so there. Heh.
Just realized I'll be in Bali only for 3 and a half days. Grr, why couldn't we stay longer? Oh well, guess I'll just have to make the most of it. And I could just watch Matrix Reloaded when I get back. It's already out today, but I'm guessing alot of people are watching them today. Might as well watch it next week. Or tomorrow. We'll see.
This site is down again. Heh, is it bandwith-theft problem again? Grr, some people... And you're giving up silver-shining.net? Alright then, I guess I'll just have to inform my contacts.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 08:23 p.m.
Monday, May 26, 2003
*St. Patricks Day ~ John Mayer*
Hey people, I'm back! Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. Sorry I didn't reply sooner, but I was in an antisocial mood... having my annual birthday ritual. Wallowing in self despair. But some people made a point on how I should go out and have fun. So yeah, I finally went out and watched X2 with friends. Not that was a really fun experience, but it was better than nothing, heh.
Things have happened during my one week hiatus. Buffy ended. I wasn't really satisfied with the ending but it was okay, wasn't bad. At least the last shot was of Buffy and Faith... so yeah *evil grin*. Yay Fuffy. Other than Buffy, I've been cleaning up the house, with some help from friends. Thank you, Adrie, Yogi and Didit. Especially Didit, who I just met that day. Hehe, but at least he got to watch my Xena and Britney dvds. Yes, I have Britney dvds. Shut up. Heh. What else? Oh yeah. One month. Nuff said. And yeah, once again I got dumped by a friend over a boyfriend. Heh, what else is new. But then again, whatever, I don't really care anymore. They can go and make it like bunnies (Anya! *sobs*), I don't give a damn anymore. Besides, one month (and a week). Nuff said.
I'm going to Bali on the 31st. Yay! I've never been outside the airport there before, so yea, I'm excited. Anyone know the good places there? I'm going to meet my family there, and we're gonna have a family vacation. Well, my bro and I are planning to go bar-hopping and um... admiring the "beauty of the beach" *ignores glares from certain people, especially a certain somebody*, if we get to slip away from our parents. Can't imagine going to a pub with them... heh. Hm, what to do, what to do... hehe, this should be fun.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:04 p.m.
Sunday, May 18, 2003
*Somebody ~ Depeche Mode*
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
call my name and save me from the dark @ 10:36 p.m.
Sunday, May 11, 2003
*Kiss the Rain ~ Billie Myers
Hehe, finally, my bro has caught the ED bug. Nyahahaha, and he's gonna buy the New Guy DVD. Sweet! And by God it's cheaper there. So, good for me, mwuahahaha.
[bhs Indo]Gah, gak lagi-lagi deh makan ketan pagi-pagi. Kenyang sih kenyang, tapi rada2 mual juga. Iya, ketannya beli dari ibu2 yang jualan, yang muter kompleks. Di saat2 kayak gini pengin makan masakan rumah... atau makanan jadi yang ada di Carrefour. Hm, apa gue ke sana aja? Tapi kalo ke Lebak Bulus, taksi untuk pulang susah dicari. Pilihan lain ke DBest atau Hari2...kalo ke Hari2, nanti tergoda untuk beli DVD. Ah, tidak!!! Jadi aku harus bagaimana? (IBD'97, 1999). Btw, kenapa dari masjid kompleks ada orang ceramah tapi kesannya marah2? Gak ngerti deh gue. Heh, skripsi. Gah. Hehe, maaf kalo yang baca ini jadi bingung. Salah sendiri kenapa baca XP[/bhs Indo].
Koi, so tomorrow at noon in front of Wendy's at Playan? I don't have to pick you up right? Alrighty then, see ya there.
Been d/l-ing Kelly Clarkson's songs. She's pretty good. Heh, funny. A few weeks ago, I was listening to Evanescence and other angsty alternative/ rock songs. Now I'm listening to mushy love songs. Gah, somebody shoot me...or not.
Kiss the rain whenever you need me
Kiss the rain whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain and wait for the dawn
Keep in mind we're under the same sky
And the night's as empty for me as for you
If you feel you can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain, kiss the rain, kiss the rain
Kiss the Rain ~ Billie Myers
call my name and save me from the dark @ 10:11 a.m.
Friday, May 9, 2003
*The Trouble with Love ~ Kelly Clarkson*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANDREA!
Hehe, beware of rainbows, bandits and being home alone *evil grin* Party hard though! You've earned it XP
No, people. I'm not referring to Andrea Corr *points up*. That Andrea will be having her birthday on the 17th... not that I would know or anything *puts on innocent front* (yeah, edited coz I got the dates mixed up. Last month was Caroline Corr's bday). But speaking of Andrea Corr, I wanna see her new movie! Yes, people, Andrea is in a movie once again, this time in a leading role (I think), mwuahahaha. At least she's getting more screentime this time. Last time in Evita she only got, what, 3 minutes? Gah, 3 minutes of singing in a bad wig and being kicked out by Madonna. Hopefully the Great Ceilli War, or whatever they decide to call that movie, will do well. And speaking of movies, the Wrong Turn is coming out this month. I want the damn poster! A poster with Eliza on it... just her... and a mutant-monster-thing. But Eliza on my wall is always a good thing, so I don't care about the creature. Heh, hopefully this movie comes out here. We still don't have X2 yet, so I'm not really counting on it. But one can hope right? Always have Faith *eg*
call my name and save me from the dark @ 09:44 a.m.
Thursday, May 8, 2003
*It's Only Love ~ Heather Nova*
Had a pretty good weekend with my friends. It's been a while since we hung out like that. We had dinner and then we went to this cafe and just talked over java and smokes. Yeah, I got lured to ciggarettes again *sigh*. Anyway, one of my friend just had a bad break up, so the discussion of the evening revolved around love and relationships. Heh, long distance relationship came up, and I just had to hide behind my mask of indifference. I drank, took a drag and just grinned whenever the subject came up. They didn't know, so I let it slide. Heh. Anyway, we had a pretty good time that night and morning. They crashed at my place after and... trashed my place -_-;;. Gah, I'll get them back for that.
Last night I had another discussion on love. Hell, the topic of love seems to follow me like a puppy on my heels this week. The other day I heard a friend got engaged. Congratulations! Sorry, I was slow to notice. I'd say your name here but I don't know if you're comfortable with it. Let me know ;) You know who you are.
Back to last night. Love. What is it? Heh, I've discussed it many times with many people, but there's no final conclusion. All I know, right now, it's a terrifying feeling, because it takes the control away from you. And I hate losing control. Yea, love is a many splendoured thing(Webster,1955). Yea, love lifts us up where we belong(Cocker,1982). But love breaks and love divides, love laughes and love could make you cry (Corrs,1999). So what the hell is love? Guess I'm still finding out.
Heh, moving on to another topic. Isn't it nice when you're able to talk and discuss things with someone? And the person you're talking with understands what you're talking about? You don't always have to agree with them, but it's okay, because it's a discussion, and different of opinions are allowed, and it won't make them regard you any less. If you know what I'm talking about, and if you have someone like that in your life, consider yourself lucky. I know I do. Some people spend a lifetime searching for this kind of blessing, I guess I'm fortunate enough to have a number of people like this in my life. I'm thankful for that. It's always nice when you can have a mature conversation with another person, regardless of age. Wisdom doesn't come with age, I'm more convinced of that now.
Alright, enough of that. Now I wanna rant about the latest Buffy ep,"Touched". God, why?! Why the Food?! Yea, okay, I gotta admit that it was hot... but why?! Heh, but since I was watching with my Fuffy glasses on, all I can say is Food happened because it was convenient. Enough said. Same with Fander. Nope, no love there. But question, though. When Food and Killow happened, where did Dawn and the other SiTs go? the basement? Poor things. Or maybe the went back to the Bronze and got drunk while the lust bunnies were at it? Dum dum dum... another unsolved mystery (read:crappy writing) of the Buffyverse.
Skripsi...grr...argh
~Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
and though I can't be with you tonight
my heart is always by you side~
If You're Not the One
- Daniel Beddingfield
call my name and save me from the dark @ 11:55 p.m.
Friday, May 2, 2003
*Your Body is a Wonderland ~ John Mayer*
Hehe, I've been playing this song for a number of people for quite sometime now, but I never get tired of it. You're right, Sweets, this song never gets old. But then again, Fyro's right, this song has a whole new meaning to it now *cough*
Yeah, I've been sick a few times lately. Nothing serious, though it did give me a scare. Fever, fatigues, sore throat... but thank god for the wheezing of an almost asthma attack. At least I know that it's symptoms of a regular cold/flu for me. And it's nice when people show or tell you how they care about you, especially at those sickly hours, even when they're far away. And thoughts do count. Knowing that people care, I guess it lifts your spirit somehow. I actually felt better.
Koi, that jailbait badge sounds interesting XP. Yes, yes, I promise you I'll tell you about it when we meet. I'd rather talk face to face than using the phone. Heh, pulsa Jakarta-Bogor rada-rada mahal dan gue lagi pelit XP. But thanks for being cool about it.
Fyro, good luck on your German test today. Oppenheimer and Faust *shudders*. Yep, good luck on that one, mate. Hope you'll do alright. And seeing you're still high from the rising of an undead American evil lawyer, I think you'll do just fine. But fan-girl mode might make you remember the wrong quotes, nyahahah. Hope that doesn't happen.
Aw, Veen, don't be jealous of me XP. When Kiggs, get here, I'll drag her to Manilla to see you and Dush. Don't worry.
Yeah, I know I should sleep and stuff, but what the hell. I'll take a nap later. Yep, back to my broody vampire mode. Well, not quite that broody anymore, but... yeah.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 08:58 a.m.
Monday, April 28, 2003
* BGM : If You Tolerate This The Your Children Will Be Next ~ Manic Street Preachers *
Another bomb exploded. This time at the International Airport, near KFC. Gah, idiot terrorists! What the hell do they think they're gonna accomplish by doing that? They're destroying their own country and hurting their fellow Indonesians. I'm assuming the bomber were Indonesians. Cause foreign terrorist should have better things to do. Officials say that the airport were supposedly secure and they have taken precautions. Right. Whatever. Heh, I think that this bombing has something to do with the GAM situation. Or they want us to think that. Gah, conspiracy theories. And the Aceh thing, if GAM wants that area to be 'free', just give it to them. Sure it's a lot of bull, their so-called fight for freedom, 'cause they're actually terrorising their own kin and people, but hey, if the military fights them, it'll just give another excuse for one particular country to send their troops and invade. Okay, so maybe I'm being harsh and very accusing, but things like this could easily be turned into something else. Heh, I better stop before I say something stupid. Politics. When will they understand that it's the little people that gets hurt in the fray?
Don't feel too good today. Read some stuff, might type them up today, but I think no campus tomorrow. Dunno why but I'm feeling fatigued. Took some vitamins, will take some more later. Might be the signs of a cold or flu, but will not take it lightly because of the SARS scare. Gah, wouldn't be funny if I caught it.
Just realized that my thesis chapters are far from complete. Aaaaargh! Should finish it tomorrow. *sigh* And my mom really wants me to go to Bali at the end of next month. Decisions, decisions.
Sorry, nothing fun to add. Well, okay, I did watch Daredevil and Darkness Falls. Heh, Emma Caulfield had the right idea. Go far far away from anything UPN related and do those movies. She looks good in that movie. The movie was pretty good too. Stay in the light. I will. Daredevil? What Daredevil?
Gravity keeps my head down
Or is it maybe shame
At being so young and being so vain
call my name and save me from the dark @ 01:57 a.m.
Sunday, April 27, 2003
*BGM : Still Frame ~ Trapt*
Couldn't sleep. Too much caffeine. Just had to drink coffee at 4 am. Stupid,stupid. Might as well clean my room. Hehe, coffee...love the stuff, but I tend to get hyper after my third cup. I remember going hyper at campus, after one night of cramming,3 cups of coffee without any food and lack of sleep. Hehe, Koi, that was a fun day, wasn't it? *snicker*
Somehow I had this talk about future plans with a number of people and suddenly... marriage came up, and I got nervous and jittery and... well, you get the idea. Please don't bring up that subject to me. Bring it up to me again in... oh, ten years? Yeah, maybe my fear of commitment would be gone by then *gulp*. Heh, maybe you guys should watch Four Weddings & a Funeral. Hugh Grant's character got the right idea.
I'm interested to get a cellphone with GPRS. Preferably Siemens. Anyone have any ideas? Oh, want that Siemens MP3 player also, the one you can attach to the cellphone. Don't need camera, need MP3 player.
Alot has happened in the past few weeks. In my bro's words : 'life has become more interesting'. Hehe, love my bro to pieces, whatever that means. I'm glad that we're close, despite our 7 year gap. Gap...pastels...food...*NOTE to self: Free Association while lacking sleep= not good*. Anyway, changes in my life, guess it will affect future plans, at least near future. But we'll see how it goes. Like Eric Martin and Mr.Big would say 'going where the wind blows'.
Koi, sorry about bandwith. Hopefully not because of that jerk stealing my Faith...pic. Well, it's already end of the month. God, end of the month. Need to go to campus. Already have stuff until chapter 3. Just need to get my ass to Depok. Gah, I need a new alarm clock. Hey, my bday is coming up *hint, hint*. My old one has retired. [bhs ind]Eh, jadi deadline terakhir kapan?Kayaknya gue bakal dibakar hidup2 deh sama Mbak Ratna. Iya sih, gue udah bikin sampe bab 3, tapi tetep aja. Heh, iyaaa, gue yang salah. Kalo elo gue beliin pulsa, mau gak jadi jam weker gue? Beneran deh, jadwal tidur gue bikin gue gak bisa ke kampus.[/bhs ind]
Fy, hope your exams go well. Yeah, rant about chem all you like. I'm all ears. Graduation for both of us, right?*sigh* I hope all goes well. And hey, you have Las Vegas to look forward to. Las Vegas. Godzilla. The Bet. Heh, sorry. My free association capabilities suck at this point. No, I couldn't sleep. I blame that hazelnut coffee, among other things *eg*.
Kiggs, don't know what else to say. Time will make you believe I guess. And no, I couldn't sleep. I think you know why. And stealing words from Alanis: 'I couldn't help it, it's all your fault'.
Dush and Veen, miss you guys. Busy scheds, huh? Hope to see you soon. I know, I've been in lurkermode, but maybe I'll go online once in a while.
Piper, hang in there. Yeah, it's tough, but, yunno, keep the Faith and all that *grin*. Hey, PMed you back. Kinda messy, I was under the influence... of caffeine. Hehe, like that Anywhere lyric? D/l the song. It's pretty good.
Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
this picture's frozen and I can't get out (of here)
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you
And every time I think I've finally made it
I learn I'm farther away than I've ever been before
I see the clock and it's ticking away, and the hourglass empty
What the fuck do I have to say
Keep it inside the image portrayed
As if I couldn't stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no way
A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it
I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need
A small reflection on when we were younger
We had it all figured 'cause we had everything covered
Now we're older it's getting harder to see
What this future will hold for us, what the fuck are we going to be?
I'm afraid I'm falling farther away (from where I want to be)
Still Frame ~ Trapt
call my name and save me from the dark @ 10:09 a.m.
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