Monday, November 24, 2003
*Stellar ~ Incubus*
Lebaran sebentar lagi... One More Day till Lebaran ^^
Akhirnya gue sampai Semarang juga! Coba ya, orang-orang pemudik, kalo nyetir di jalan kira2. Masa macet di Subang sampai 15 jam, gara2 orang2 gak mau ngantri seh?! Kalo kata adik gue "orang-orang Indonesia sedang mengalami dekadensi moral"... tuh anak birokratis sekali ^^;
Can you imagine being stuck in the same county for 15 bloody hours? Well, I can! Goddamn Sunday drivers! My mom actually locked my window so that I can't open it and shout at the idiots. She just grinned thru the rear-view window when I shouted "why can't my window open?" Grr, automatic things. You just gotta love em.. not really. Gah. I slept mostly thru the trip, since my parents won't allow me or my bro to drive. Heh, whatever. We had dinner at a heinous diner last night. Creepy looking place, with it's old get up and in the middle of nowhere location and the fact that I don't think it's very hygienic. Will not go back there ever again. Stopped at one of those rest stops with free coffee and all. Good washrooms. That's pretty rare these days on the road. Oh yeah, what's with the majority of people and their ability to trash places with ...trash? I mean, seriously, what's so difficult about finding a trash can? Oh yeah, one of my cousin came with us on the trip, and he was counting down the minutes till fast-breaking. And he counted the time of the whole journey. He also brought his digicam (yes, I envy that 13 year old for that) and managed to caught my bro sleeping with his mouth wide open. Splendid, blackmail just got easier *rubs hands*.
My mom and my grandma are cooking right now, and I managed to get the okay to have some net time to my self. Yay, grandma! He he. Hey, I already helped, but yunno, I needed some time off from all these house chores. I mean, I'm starting to get a rep for being domesticated, and if Andrea already has the nerve to ask me to cook for her, I know something's wrong XP (btw, miss ya, babe, and here's your long awaited update ^^).
Oy, Koi, if you do stop at Smg, do give me that shout. We could go to Simpang Lima or something. Hopefully I'll be here when you're here, coz I'm gonna be in Solo for 2 days or so. Maybe more, but hopefully not, as I'm not that comfortable with that side of the family. Eh, not my fault if some people are just insensitive users. Yeah, I know, I know, I'm supposed to forgive and all..but sometimes things runs too deep to forgive at face value, and if I do manage to say I forgive them this year, I feel that it's just gonna be lip service *shrugs*.
Alrighty then, gotta get the food ready for after mass tomorrow. Which remindes me, did I actually bring appropriate clothes? Oh well, I'll just snag a shirt off my bro if not. Not that it's a big deal anyway.
Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri (Lebaran)
Mohon maaf lahir dan batin!
Happy Iedul Fitri
Please forgive any wrong doings and such (in other words, let's just forgive each other, eh? ^^)
call my name and save me from the dark @ 03:50 p.m.
Thursday, November 6, 2003
*Everybody Hurts ~ the Corrs*
Just going through the motions these past few days. Snubbed my toe a few days ago, probably sprained it or something. I'm sure it's not broken, coz the swelling subsided. Fractured though? maybe. I know, I know, I'll go to the doctor's in a few days if the pain doesn't go away. I just don't like going to the doctors' when it's not necessary. I know, I know, I intend to keep my promise, Princess XP.
Anyway, my life is pretty much eventless these days. Not that my mind hasn't been spinning from ... issues. Gah, sometimes I think I think too much. Or I just think too much, period. I just want to get things over with and enjoy some burden-free time. August, Bali, that should be a nice break from everything.
It's a silly time to learn to swim when you start to drown
~My Number, Tegan and Sara
call my name and save me from the dark @ 07:42 a.m.
Saturday, October 25, 2003
*Love to Love You ~ the Corrs*
Am bored. Yes, I'm aware that after all those entry-less days, I shouldn't open this entry with a statement like that. But hey, whatever. Right now I'm just lazing around listening to my old Corrs album. Yeah, so technically I'm listening to Andrea while chatting with Andrea right now (wish you'd sing also, Princess XP *gets bricked*).
Well, I've watched Kill Bill on dvd, pirated edition of course. Can't wait to see it in the theatres. Oh yeah, I got my Smallville dvds, season 1. So now I can relive the Clex over and over again, with some Chlana on the side. Hm, what else? Fasting month starts on Monday. Heh, can't have those regular dirty talks in the daytime. But hey, no biggie, I can handle it. Still working on my thesis with some fics on the side. Received some good news from some friends, which made my laugh hysterically. Still planning that Bali vacation, bit by bit. Trying to find a good hotel, with a good price, good food, well, good accomodations I guess... not those motels with paper thin walls XP. Okay then, nothing much happening on my front. Carry on XP
~Break those pillars down~
call my name and save me from the dark @ 07:55 p.m.
Sunday, October 5, 2003
*Impossible~Christina Aguilera
While she's away at that long waited Xtina concert, I'm here doing a test, which looks very familliar... and MMPI-ish, or something like that. I'm schizotypal, histrionic, avoidant and dependant? Um, okay, schizotypal... could be. Histrionic... could happen. But how can one be avoidant yet dependant? Alright, this test construct needs to be re-analyzed, from it's validity to it's... argh, what's the word I'm looking for? Guess I really should re-learn the test construction material again. *sigh* Memory like a cheese grater...
call my name and save me from the dark @ 02:12 a.m.
Saturday, October 4, 2003
*She Will be Loved ~ Maroon5*
Well, nothing much to tell. Reason for the lack of updates lately. Right now, I'm even doing it coz somebody asked me really nicely. Like I said, nothing much to tell. I'm still doing my thesis, battling insomnia (among other things) and ...breathing XP. Hehe, I know, I sound very apathetic right now. Maybe I am. I haven't even picked up my guitar in days, and she's usually my first love. Oh well. I got a new swimsuit yesterday, planning to re-learn the art of swimming after all these years. Oh yeah, got myself a pair of earplugs also. I'm all set to go into the waters again. See, I'm overcoming my trauma one thing at a time and all that crap. My therapist will be proud. Oh wait, I don't have a therapist. Oh well *shrugs*.
So, Xtina concert tomorrow at Cologne? Wish I could be there with you XP. I expect a full report on that night. Hehe, have fun! You deserve a break after everything ^_~. Yunno what though? As much as I like Xtina and would go to see her concert, I'm glad that she's not stopping here. I'm broke, hehe. And I don't want to ask my parents money for that. I've always worked to get the tickets for all the concerts that I went to, and I'd like to keep it that way. Pride and all that. Besides, makes the experience more memorable and fun. Like that time singing along with Andrea...Corr (XP) and Dolores O'Riordian. Oh well, guess this time I'll just have to live vicariously through you, babe XP.
Vush, what's with the Inquisitions?XP Hehe, we got nothing to say Xp. Too bad we always miss each other at chat. Heck, I've even missed Andrea at chat a few times too many this week, as weird as that sounds (XP) but hey, now the weekend is here, all is good. Now where are you two? Hehe, come on, let's chat again some time. And for goodness sakes, women, go bug Andrea about that 'thing'. Why am I always the one getting interrogated? XP Oh, Dush, glad you're better. You too, Veen.
piper, sorry, still haven't replied your pm. Will do soon (but procrastination wagon and all, don't know how soon is soon, maaf ^^). Glad you're updating W&D though. Hope everything is going well with you.
Alright, that's it for now, folks. Sorry to disappoint, nothing amusing in this entry. See, that's what you get when you update under pressure *smiles sickeningly sweet at a certain someone*.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 02:08 a.m.
Saturday, September 20, 2003
*Bigger than My Body ~ John Mayer*
I'm back, people! Yep, still alive. Just didn't feel like blogging for a while. Yunno, one of those antisocial moods of mine. Thanks for the concern. Ooh, looks like piper is also taking a break from the academia hecticness (I know, it's not a word. Sue me.). Some updates at Wicked & Divine (btw, piper, a friend of mine commented on how W&D could also be Wicked & Denial, lol). Veen, Dush, I miss you guys. Sorry for the no show. I blame it on Bennifer XP. And... Styro? ROFL, somehow that ship name doesn't surprise me. Better than Stof XP. But I still like Vush better though *eg*.
Anyway, watched Pirates of the Carribean with April at Citos, finally. Pretty good. The effects were great and Johnny Depp stole the show. Orlando and Kierra were alright, but Johnny was great. The whole Keith Richards thing that he had through out the movie was funny. The movie was worth my money. Great humor, although apparently not everyone got it. There were times that only a few of us that were laughing. Oh well, I guess the majority of the audience didn't get the jokes. Pity.
And speaking of pirates...I bought the *cough*pirated*cough* new album of John Mayer. Pretty good, but only 10 songs in it. Makes me wonder if they're gonna release a special edition later. Yes, yes, Andy, I'm a smooth criminal XP.We've already established that XP And you'd be my partner in crime if you actually lived here XP Don't worry though, I plan on buying the original sometime. It is John Mayer after all.
Yeah, as you can see, I haven't updated in a while. Laziness has prevented me to do so. Yes, babe, I am a lazy ass. Thanks for pointing that out XP. Not that I've done interesting things this week anyway. You probably had more interesting stories with your time in the woods and all. Hehe, ever made a wrong turn back there? Anyway, basically I just stayed home, wrote some stuff for my thesis, caught up on my sleep, did chores around the house, doing errands for my mom... see nothing interesting. The only thing new that I got last week is Christina Aguilera's Stripped album, the cassette version. Was gonna buy the CD, but since it's a BMG production, I'm gonna wait a while, just in case they decided to launch a special edition version. Hello, Westlife and Avril. And CA's first album. And many more. Is it a wonder why I don't trust BMG?
On the thesis front, got my feedback and I'm moving on to chapter 3. Still working on chapter 2,though, but that's okay. Oh yeah, thank you Mr. Kelly Schwartz for the Finnas scale. It's great how there are still people out there who's willing to help out.
Met Gita, Mel, Ling and Dinast at campus yesterday. And as usual, I couldn't resist the temptation to buy drinks at the canteen. Well, at least today was only one Iced Tea (Teh Botol) and 2 bottles of Green Sands. We talked nonsense of course. Can't really remember the quotes but I remember Mel ranting about the president and how she (the president) stated in the papers that she's getting a headache from working out the country's problem. Well, here's a solution, lady. Step down. Duh. *rolls eyes*
Oh yeah, yesterday, a friend called me and asked me if I'm interested in going to her house for a beauty clinic demo.
me: "what? could you repeat that again?"
Dita:"A beauty clinic demo."
me:"You're definitely asking the wrong person, buddy. Besides, *sings* I am beautiful no matter what they say..."
Dita : "Haha. Funny. Come on. Think about it."
me: "We'll see.."
And of course, we all know that 'we'll see' is Joey-speak for NO *eg*
Alright, people, nothing amusing in this entry. Dunno why, I just don't have the energy. There you go, babe, an update, just like I promised last night XP.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 01:48 a.m.
Monday, September 8, 2003
*All Right Now ~Christina Aguilera*
Yeah, nothing new from me this weekend, except that my room has a new layout. Got rid of the suitcases, the coat-hanger, and now I could fit 2 mattresses here, so my bro and I don't have to sleep outside, unless we want to. The tv with cable is in the living room, so if we wanna watch late night tv, we'd have to camp out there still.
Koi, Pirates tomorrow at Citos? Or do you wanna watch at PIM where it starts at 12 something instead at 2 m? Then after that we could watch Wrong Turn *eg*. Unless you gotta go to campus, I'll pick you up at West Cape Station, okay?
Dhieta, wanna come with? Pirates! Pretty boys! Then after that, a slasher movie...slasher movie, not slash *g*. Although... nah, just kidding ^^. Come on, join the fun.
Right now I'm watching Christina Aguilera : My Reflection. Yep, bootleg DVD. And I'm describing it to Andy just to spite her *eg*. Hehe, you know I love ya, babe. Just I can't help teasing ya XP Vencomigo, vencomigo baby *eg* Yeah, I'm gonna buy the official Stripped album when I'm sure there isn't gonna be a special edition. I'll probably buy the first album instead, the special edition one XP. Yeah, I'm on a Xtina roll right now...but I'm listening to her on a Britney skinned winamp XDD
Alright, right now I just wanna relax. I'll resume organizing these... trinkets I happen to find in my room tomorrow.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:30 a.m.
Friday, September 5, 2003
*Komm, susser Tod ~Arianne*
Went to campus again today at noon. Woke up late. Missed Koi by a few minutes. Oh well, Monday, eh, Koi? Got those Jay Chou and Evanescence's Origin CDs though. Thanks!
Done the administration stuff for the members of Level 21, that new group we just proclaimed, our support group for the last 21 people left from our class, still doing our thesis. Administration stuff meaning 'buying' the semester. Oh well. Re-submitted my thesis proposal coz I changed topic and advisor. Got feedback from advisor. All good on that front.
Oh yeah, today's program was brought to you by the (non-existent) letters : F & G. Still wondering where those buildings are. We have building A,B,C,D & E at campus. Now they're constructing building H . Am I missing something here?
Andy, hope today was a good one for you. Last night's chat was great ^__^. August, Bali, always cheers us up. I'll research those hotels and accomodations again. And that EVA convo, after you quoted that Come Sweet Death song XDD. It is surreal how we are alike in many ways. And "why the hell did they use a German title?" I'll ask Koi coz she knows all things EVA, practically a walking encyclopedia. But right now I'm sticking to my theory coz Asuka is half German. Komm susser Tod. That's what's written on the official CD XP. Blame them. Besides, I don't have a german keyboard XP.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 01:54 a.m.
Tuesday, September 2, 2003
* St. Patrick's Day ~ John Mayer*
Should sleep. Haven't slept since yesterday. But it's great that I don't feel fatigued. Went to campus and met Koi and Nday. Talked at the food court/ cafeteria from 11 am until 4 pm. Well, at least me and Koi did. Nday had to do some school stuff, but eventually we all talked together. I think someone is permanently scarred for life after the talks that we had *eg*.
Watched the VMAs. Great kiss. Too bad Brit and Xtina didn't kiss, that would've made my day... and also everyone else that I know *eg*.
Almost had a panic attack the other day. Went to PIM with my mom by cab. The cab driver had a stereotypical JI get up, white shirt and long beard. It actually crossed my mind what if I was blown into smitherins if the cab had a bomb planted on it. Mom reverted to her silent panic as usual. I just maintained a calm facade and talked to the guy. Hey, turns out he's alright. Not sure if he is a JI or not, but at least we didn't blew up or anything. I just hope I don't see his face in the news someday as a suspect of something. It's sad how even I'm turning into a prejudiced jerk. But now that I think about it, it was funny.
~No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And we'll both be safe 'till St. Patrick's Day~
call my name and save me from the dark @ 02:07 a.m.
Friday, August 29, 2003
*Love Soon ~ John Mayer*
Blue. SUV. Shiny. Purring engine. The newest baby to the family. Finally. A car. Beware road users, mwuahahaha. Funny, not the haha kind, how my parents don't trust me or my bro to use the car yet. I wonder why *snickers*.
Nothing exciting on my front. Things are kinda slow these days. Not that I'm complaining. Sometimes the peace and quiet is comfortable to some extent. Well, actually, it's not that peaceful. Parents, usually the mom type, are nagging me again. If it's not about my sleeping pattern, it's about my thesis, then my eating habits and then my tendencies to get hurt. Hello, it's not that I planned the infliction of pain to myself. Heh, I understand how parents want everything to go well,especially their kids. My mom especially, she seems to live in this bubble of perfection. In her perfect world, she wants me to finish school already. Then go back to school. Then get a job. Then get married, raise a family... and probably be a prototype of her. She never really stopped to ask me what I want.
Gah, it just occured to me that my parents never really listens to their kids. I guess we get along coz heavy issues aren't discussed among us. Well, alright, my mom tells me stuff, and I guess she is pretty open with me. I guess she likes it how I'm a good listener and all. But don't expect me to do the same. Heh, I remember telling her how I tried smoking once, and she went ballistic. Excuse me, it was just a smoke. It's not like I'm planning to become a crackwhore. Is it a wonder how my bro and I tell eachother secrests and turn to eachother for those heavy talks instead of our parents? I feel kinda guilty about this, but somehow we only turn to our parents for financial support. God, we're such leeches. Oh well, in my twisted mind it's justifiable because it's a compensation of some sort for the lacking in emotional support.
Sure, the ideal thing is to actually sit down and talk to them how we feel...but how are we supposed to have a productive talk session if they don't listen. I know they want the best for their kids, but do they actually know what's best for us? Hello, it's my life I'm living here. I sound like a spoilt ungrateful brat, especially when I know there are people with greater problems. But hey, I never asked to be born *shrugs*. Ah well, enough ranting for now. Just had to get some of that outta my chest. Hehe, you are probably bored of this particular rant, but bear with me XP.
Anyway, enough of that. Wrong Turn is still not out yet, despite the commercials on tv. Guess I'll just watch Pirates sometime this week. Watched American Wedding on bootleg, and it was hilarious. I doubt that they're gonna leave it uncensored if shown in theatres here. Too bad you guys aren't gonna get Wrong Turn in theatres. Maybe you will, but sometime near halloween?.
~You can cross the line whenever you want to
I'm calling it love soon
Close your mind and waste some time if you have to
I'm calling it love soon
It's not about you now
It's what we are~
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:58 p.m.
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Bored again...
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:04 a.m.
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Was bored. Did this quiz. Interesting result ^^;
Bondage Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
call my name and save me from the dark @ 09:55 p.m.
Monday, August 25, 2003
*Not Myself ~ John Mayer*
Right, my bro woke me up at 11:30 am yesterday... just so that I could cook spaghetti for our lunch. That brat! But hey, I forced him to help and he got stuck doing the dishes so it's okay in the end. Hehe, we even had fun. We had good music and made good food. Although it was funny how my bro changed the music from Lifehouse to Siti Nurhaliza *lol*. He still has a crush on her. Yeah, she's talented and she is pretty... but it's just so funny that he actually has a crush on her. She's very conservative. God, he even tuned in for '1 hour with Siti' on those tv channels. Now I've got that song 'Percayalah' stuck in my head. Just great *rolls eyes*. Oh it's not that bad. With the parents out of town, the weekend had a relaxing atmosphere ^^.
Read some thesis stuff... read a thesis of a friend, which IMO isn't that good but got her outta college. Grr, maybe I should just do that... as long as I graduate, right? But I wanna make it count, yunno... not just another thesis that's gonna be molting in the library. I want people to actually read it and get something out of it. Ah, me and my need of achievement. Or acceptance? Whatever *shrugs*
Thank you for the peptalk last night. And don't worry, even though you kept me up till morning, I didn't really get into trouble or anything like that. Just like what I told you yesterday XP Glad you had a blast with that party ^__^ Although, ROFL about your friends' comments when you were texting me XD They're hilarious. And the socks-napping episode ^^; So that's what you guys do for fun over there?XP *sigh* Well, one more week of August. It's gonna be September soon. You're gonna join the employment force earning an income while I'm still existing as a poor struggling student. Well, great novels are made out of those situations right? We'll pull through. I'm sure of it.
~Suppose I said you're my saving grace...when I'm not myself~
call my name and save me from the dark @ 08:28 p.m.
Saturday, August 23, 2003
*Doing Just Fine~ Boyz II Men*
Yeah, I'm bored. So here is another test result:
Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge
of the Dreaming, all imagination and
creativity, everyone knows your beautiful
realm, but none truly understand it. You are
dark and brooding, creative, and spend a lot of
time by yourself, just thinking. You are almost
as serious as Destiny, but not quite. Everyone
is enchanted by you, but you keep them all at a
distance, even when you shouldn't.
Which Endless are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Gee, never saw that one coming *sarcastic mode on*
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:02 a.m.
Friday, August 22, 2003
*Everything You Do~ M2M*
Haven't really done anything interesting these days. I think I pulled a muscle or something yesterday, my lower back and right leg hurts. Not that I was doing anything strenuous yesterday. Just got together with a few friends and hung out at a cafe. Was gonna watch a movie, but didn't. Was gonna watch Tomb Raider 2, but after you're stunning review, I think I'll just wait for the dvd to come out... or maybe for it to play in the cheap theatres.
Checked out Dita's comp problems. Looks like it needs to be taken to the shop. I think either her Windows or mouse port is messed up. Parents are at grandma's again, so my bro and I have some freedom this weekend. What to do... what to do?*eg*
call my name and save me from the dark @ 11:52 p.m.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
*Victoria ~ John Mayer*
Gah, I hate eyedrops with a passion. I remember being cornered at the mall by a certain someone just so I'd get those horrid liquid in my eye. I remember this person telling me not to squirm while I can't help but... squirm. Hey, like I said, I don't like them. Wasn't my fault that we probably made a scene at the mall with me flat by the wall and this person hovering over me...*sigh* the good old days. Well, at least now we all know why contact lenses aren't for me, don't we?
I read...well, skimmed through this book at the QB Bookstore today...okay, yesterday, : Things to Learn Before You Turn 30. Interesting read. There were pointers on how to clean your place in an hour just in case company decided to drop by. Pointers on how to suggest a raise to your boss. Pointers how to hold your liquor and nurse a hangover (somehow this reminded me of you. No explanations needed right?*eg*). I wanted to get the book, but it was pretty expensive. Oh well.
Watched T3 today...er, yesterday. Not bad. Moral of the story? You can't change history... or something like that. My fave line outta the whole movie? 'Talk to the hand' being said with an Austrian accent. Hehe. Oh well, there goes my money. And I know I'm gonna part with some more cash coz of Tomb Raider 2 and Pirates and Wrong Turn. So much for saving up. *sigh*
call my name and save me from the dark @ 12:36 a.m.
Monday, August 18, 2003
*Mahadewi~ Padi*
Woke up because of an annoying sound of fragile breakable matter crashing on the a hard surface. Turns out Pops broke one of Mom's crystals. Ouch. One of those picture frames of the family. And guess what, the frame that was broken was the one with my pic on it. Heh, figures.
Someone asked me to translate these Padi songs from Indonesian to English. Here's one of their earlier songs. Mahadewi = (High) Goddess(?). Love this song. This song conveys the feeling of awe you get about a certain person in your life. Okay, I'm starting to get mushy. Somebody stop me XP.
Goddess
The tapestry of the sky is perfection
Stars majesticly remains on their thrones
But one shining star
Glides down greeting me
Reff1:
There are words uttered
There is peace that I feel
When her light touches my face
My pain is erased
All in the universe also smiles
Bowing and worshipping her presence
I look upon her face, in awe
Feeling like I know her
Reff2:
But where it could be
Only my heart can answer that
The goddess instills her values
My search is over
The goddess instills her values
The goddess is made for me
The goddess instills her values
The goddess is made for me
Okay, the wordings sounds so... old english. I'll try to find better words. In the meantime, enjoy.
call my name and save me from the dark @ 10:48 a.m.
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