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-Hamasaki Ayumi-
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:: Blood Arts ::


:: Written In The Spirit ::
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¦¦Drain¦¦
¦¦Duvet¦¦
¦¦Dying Hope¦¦
¦¦Forever True¦¦
¦¦May I Love You?¦¦
¦¦No Me Ames¦¦
Separation Despite of Love
     ¦¦Prologue¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 1¦¦
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     ¦¦Chapter 3¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 4¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 5¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 6¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 7¦¦
     ¦¦Epilogue¦¦
¦¦The Killer¦¦
The Wait
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     ¦¦Chapter 7¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 8¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 9¦¦
     ¦¦Chapter 10¦¦
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¦¦You're Mine¦¦


:: All is at Lost ::

¦¦Kaoru Glare¦¦
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:: The Past is the Present ::

¦¦January 2003¦¦
¦¦February 2003¦¦
¦¦March 2003¦¦


:: Bloody Awakening ::

-January-
     01 Izumi-chan
     19 Utada Hikaru
     23 Ice
     29 Takarai Hideto [L'arc~en~ciel]
-February-
     16 Niimura Tooru [Dir en Grey]
     17 Niikura Kaoru [Dir en Grey]
     23 Rien
     24 Terachi Shinya [Dir en Grey]
-March-
     29 JR
     31 Hara Toshimasa [Dir en Grey]
-May-
     02 Molested Banana
     02 Hide [X Japan, Death]
-June-
     08 Varziel
     09 Nighcat
     12 Mori Ashiharawa
     17 Shoji
-July-
     04 Camui Gackt [Gackt Job]
-August-
     27 Zehna
-September-
     13 Tetsuki Greenleaf
     26 Seiji Hayashi
     28 Annie
-October-
     02 Hamasaki Ayumi
     03 Ogawa Tetsuya
     10 Kang Ta
-November-
     10 Jiyoru
     11 Count D
     20 Sakura [Zigzo]
     20 Hayashi Yoshiki [X Japan]
     24 Awaji Yukihiro [L'arc-en-ciel]
     28 Kitamura Ken [L'arc-en-ciel]
     30 Seph
-December-
     20 Ando Daisuke

Blurred Sillouette :: Vangeance est Dulcis

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Thursday, May 1, 2003

*giggles* *lol*
current mood: energetic
current music: the sounds of fighting in counter strike...@.@

ok, me and my good friend jamo-chan saw a while ago and i was so happy since the last time i saw her was last year and she's my best (100X) friend in the whole world.... oh.... and there are also others...^^

i had an exam a while ago in some company called berkeley or something and i thought it was a company but to my dismay, it was an unsirance company that has a good standing in the business... but i do have my doubts about it...

anyway, we met in glorieta in makati since it was the closest mall in my testing area and i saw her, just the same as always....

we had a phone conversation last night and it was hilarious.... it went like this:

me: hello
jamo-chan: hello
me: jamora!!!!!!!!!!
jamo-chan: hello one-chan
me: wah~
*talks about random things and the meeting place*
me: alam mo yung oav ng rurounin kenshin? yung huli? (do you know the last oav of rurounin kenshin?)
jamo-chan: oo (yup)
me: sayang at namatay si kenshin dahil sa AIDS... (too bad kenshin died of AIDS)
jamo-chan: actually STD yun eh... (actually it's STD)
me: NANI??????????~ (what)
jamo-chan: hai~ meron kasing STD outbreak sa japan nuong panahon na yun. niresearch namin yun! (yes, there was an STD outbreask in japan that era. we researched it...)
me: hontou ni? (really?)
me: so si kenshin ay.... (so kenshin is....)
jamo-chan: di mo ba alm ang mga hapon ay patagong maniac? (don't you know that japanese are not obvious maniacs?)
me: eh di maniac ka kasi hapon ka *laughs* (so you're a maniac because your japanese)
jamo-chan: hindi ah!!!!! (no i'm not~!)
me: *lol* umamin na rin! (you've confessed!)

so we talked to each other maybe 4 time because her boyfriend is calling her.

so we are now in makati and we walked about three blocks to the mrt station. we were in our spirits to walk theses days and it was fun.... i missed her so much!

and all the while, i was laughing my head outs because she's saying different things from what we were talking about... for example:

me: gusto ko nang jollibee!!!!! (i want jolibbee!!!!)
jamo-chan: there's no jollibee here...
*rides mrt while talking about kenshin and STD*
*walks towards a destination*
me: sa bayan ka na lang bumaba (can't you just go with me until the town of marikina?)
jamo-chan: may isang sakayan hanggang sa amin dito eh (there's an one taxi ride until my house there)
jamo-chan: san ka ba sasakay? (where are you going to catch your ride?)
me: sa automatic... (in automatic)
jamo-chan: automatic?
me: *sings automatic of utada hikaru*
jamo-chan: san yun? (where is that?)
me: dunh sa may farmers (somehere at farmers)
*walks some more*
jamo-chan: san ka sasakay? (where are you going to catch your ride?)
me: sa automatic nga~! (in automatic!)
me: dun o *points* (there!)
jamo-chan: oo nga alam ko... (yes i know it)
me: akala ko ba di mo alam kaya ka nagtatanong? *rolls eyes* *lol* (i thought you don't know it that's why you're asking...)
jamo-chan: *sweatdrop*

when we were in the jeepney to go back to the company that i was applying for because i have one more test, her cellphone rang and surprise, surprise, it was his boyfriend again....

i jokingly said that he should find me a woamn if he can...

of course, jamo-chan told her boyfriend about me and he was jealous of me for some reason and he said to jamo-chan that she should be careful and i might kiss her...

like duh~ we always kiss even if we were in our highschool days and we don't do it out of malice...... *rolls eyes*

anyway, we had a blast opf a time and we are going to schedule for our ice skating escapade because we missed ice skating and she thinks that she doesn't know how to ice skate anymore......

and i was the one who taught her!!!!! imouto-chan no baka!!!!!!!!!!!!!

edit #1: i got this test from jiyoru-chan *grins*

meierlink
You are MEIER LINK from "Vampire Hunter D :
Bloodlust"!

ANIME QUIZ - Which Anime Vampire Are You?
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really now?


04:22 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

-----------00-------------
actually i just dropped by to say hello and i suck

05:17 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Monday, April 28, 2003

geez~
current mood: okay
current music: the sounds of red alert @.@

we watched phonebooth. and i can only describe it in two words... IT SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

that movie lacks imagination and of course, the whole movie revolves from a man stuck in a phonebooth nd being threathen to death in which they don't have any background on whatsoever.

-0-

police oficers in ayala are very rude!!!!!!!

i was there because i have an interview and in chance, i saw some of my classmates who are going to be interviewed as well so we decided to go along all together.

when were in glorietta, we are suppposed to take a bus and we don't know where the bus stop is because there is a certain place for loading and there is another place for unloading.

i was asking politely for the police woman for directions... and this was the conversation that took place:

police woman: di dyan ang sakayan ng taxi! (that's not the laoding of the taxis)
me and others: di naman kami magta-taxi eh (we are not going to ride a taxi)
me and others:san po ba ang sakayan ng bus? (where is the loading of the bus?)
police woman: *points at the next corner*
police woman: di nyo pa ba alam yan, after five years? (don't you know that, after five years?)
me and others: di po, kaya nga nagtatanong eh, di kasi kami taga dito! (no, that's wy we're asking. we're not from around here)

and we walked towards the loading station with grumbles like "duh~ sorry, we're not from around here!!!!" and "i think she saw us here five years ago considering that we are supposed to be newly grad looking for jobs"

some poeple with badges are very abusiove that we were merely asking an innocent question about the whereabouts of things..... *sweatdrop*

anyway, my classmate in highschool gave me a pic of her graduation....^^

that is baliseng...^^

pare, tag ka sa tag board ko kung gusto mo!!!!!!!


12:19 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Sunday, April 27, 2003

lines, and it's god damn hot!!!!!!!
current mood: exhausted
current music: the one by.... uhmmm.... i forgot the singer but he's good and the lyrics are good too...^^

ok, i just came from a job fair in edsa shrine and after a long line waiting to be served with a number, i have to go to a fucking orientation that nobody is really listenning... the only good about he orientation was the venue... it was held in the chapel where it is sheltered and air conditioned...... *sighs*

anyway, at least i got a referral to a person in the citibank counter and she's nice...^^

well, i have to go job hunting again next week and i hope to get a much better job and i know i can get it!!!!!! *groans* all those walking in the smouldering heat of the sun.... *groans some more*

and i hope to get a computer after the first three months of work because i have to redo the layout of my journal... and i have some ideas but i don't have the pc needed.....-_-...

-0-

it was nice to have someone to talk too when you are walking under the heat of the sun..... my classmates are like a brigade walking along ortigas and we are like an army laughing together and joking.....

i'm not offended with their smoking habits just as long they are not puffing out smoke towards me or i'll get mad....

edit #1:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN!!!!!

i have to call him later then... ^^

edit #2: taken this test...

Are you NASTY or NICE?
Quiz made by Angela


nice picture of ayumi there...^^

and taken color quiz yet again...

Your Existing Situation
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Relationships rarely measure up to her high emotional expectations and her need to be made the center of things, leading to disappointment . Always has mental reservations and tends to remain emotionally isolated and unattached. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Circumstances are restrictive and hampering, forcing her to forgo all joys and pleasures for the time being.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks the determination and elasticity of will necessary to establish herself and to make herself independent despite the difficulties of her situation. Wants to overcome opposition and achieve recognition.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety. Desires recognition and position, but is worried about her prospects. Reacts to this by protecting at any criticism and resisting any attempt to influence her. Tries to assert herself by meticulous control of detail in an effort to strengthen her position.

i think this is very true now....

-0-

and the this is an interesting comic... *grins*


01:18 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Saturday, April 26, 2003

a little sad for another....
current mood: sleepy
current music: - - -

my body is sore bvut i have to go to the job fair tomorrow in edsa shrine... people who want to see me... i'm jmust going to be there submitting my resume to people... and i hope to get a decent job that i can really work hard!

anyway... i got nina's cell number... the only problem is i don't have any cellphone... well, i guess i have to wait.....

and while i was waiting for some of my classmates to finish their interviews, some of them waiting with me as singing something with the title of destiny thing... i don't know why...

-0-

my thesis partner and i were laughing our brains out becasue of a joke when i asked about she and her gf who were about to have their 6th year anniversary.... and i thought she was thinking about the lines of buying a dtuff toy for her...

and i was wrong about that...

they are over just like that! i don't know why though but i really want to find out... they are a couple since they were in their highschool days and i was really envious about them lasting that long and i think they are legally accepted as a couple....

*sigh* i tried to ask but i know i shouldn't.....

but there was something she said about things in life....

nothing ever lasts


07:19 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Thursday, April 24, 2003

grinning with a slight pain
current mood:
current music: close to you by ... i forgot the name......@.@

elo, it's me again and i'm going to ramble some of what happened to me today... *grins*

as you can read, i'm a little happy today... *points up* because i get to see some of my classmates and some of my schoolmates a while ago.

suprisingly, they came in two batches....

i saw my management batchmates in makati and i also saw one of my highschool batchmate as well in one company.... actually, the company is a prestigious gasoline company.....

then when i was going to be interviewed in JobsDB in ortigas, i saw some of my classmates. and it was like a reunion because after a while, there are some more batchmates came in and they were my classmates for crying out!!!!! but i was happy to see them.

and i met this girl in that company as well. she's cute and i was at home with her when i talked to her about things under the sun. haven't asked her about anything japanese... i just felt that i should just talk about everyday stuff... for now.....^^

her name is nina and she's from an exclusive school as well and she has the beautiful eyes that i've seen so far.... and even if she has those contact lenses... it was still beautiful.... *dreamy sigh* i wish i had the guts to get her cellular number...... well, i'm going to see her tomorrow... *grins some more*

*doki doki*

-0-

in other news... i think i bag up another job but i don't really like it but i'm willing to try. i'm still looking for more jobs and i don't limit myself to my capabilities.

i still have some jobs in mind and i would prefer to work near to my home and a little more challenge, not just talking to a person over the phone.....

i wish there is some jobs left for me......-_-


06:20 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

failed
current mood: nervous
current music: - - -

i just come home with sore feet from walking and riding things...@.@

anyway, i came from makati and get into the mrt to get my butt into an office where i don't really know what the product of that office is. tried my luck as a management trainee but i have a feeling that this isn't the regular office job and i don't like that feeling...

taken a test from p & g and i'm not going to let my spirits up by saying that i will pass...

but... damn it!!!!!!!! that test is a hard one!!!!!!

i love math but not to that extent that everything is math basis... @.@


06:28 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

enter the sensation
current mood: tired
current song: the sounds or ringing cellular phones

I just stole this survey from varziel..... *grins* i love stealing things....

01. Who was the first J-rock Band you heard?:
L'arc-en-ciel, my ex poisoned me with this one and found hyde so kawaii....^^

02.Who's the most recent J-rock Band you've heard?:
Camui Gackt...^^

03. Who's your favorite J-rock Band?:
L'Arc-en-ciel!!!!!!!!

04. Name 5 other Bands you Like:
Gackt, hide, X Japan, Dir en Grey and Glay... *sweatdrop*

06. Are you a fangirl/boy?
op kors!

07. If yes, of Who?
bishounen and pretty girls....^^

08. Do you cosplay?
well, i want to but haven't got the money..... yet.....

09. Who?:
KYO!!!!! and other jrocks!

10. Do you like Dir en grey?
Hai!!!!!

11. Are you a Toshiya fangirl?
Nope. 12. How about Kaoru?
*smiles evilly*

13. Die?
too overdressed but he's georgeous!

14. Kyo?
*faints* KYO IS MINE!!!

15. Shinya?
too skinny but he's pretty...

16. What's your favorite Deg song?
Ain't Afraid to Die

17. Do you like visual bands or non-visual bands?
yup, just as long their music is good...

18. What's the first J-rock song you heard?
Heaven's Drive by L'arc-en-ciel

19. What's the last song you heard?
Art of Life by X Japan

20. Do you buy J-rock magazines?
nope, i don't have the cash! T.T

21. What's your favorite?
no comment

22. Have you ever been to any J-rock concerts?
*cries*

23. Which ones?
*whines*

24. What would you do if you saw any J-rocker walking down the street in your town?:
it depends on who is the jrock.....

25. Which three Jrockers are you most in love with?:
Yuki, Kyo, Kaoru

26. Which three Jrockers would you most love to meet in person (Dead or alive)?
Kyo, Hide, Yuki 27. What are the three things you would like to say to/ask them?:
-"are those piercings real, kyo?"
-"did you and yoshiki had a relationship, hide?" *grins*
-"did you marry tetsu yet?" *grins some more*

28. Which three Jrockers can you relate to most?
Yuki, Kyo, Kaoru

29. Which three Jrock songs do you constantly replay? ain't afraid to die (dir en grey), route 666(l'arc-en-ciel), fragrance (gackt)

30. Do you currently have a Jrocker computer background?
I don't have a computer!

31. Which Jrocker would you most like to get fashion/makeup advice from?
Kyo

32. Do you read Jrock fan fiction?
OH YES!!!!!!!!

34. How many Jrock MP3s do you have?
I repeat, i don't have a computer!

35. And, finally, if you could sleep with any three Jrockers, who would they be?:
Yuki, Kyo and ..... HIDE!!!!1

-0-

in other news, i'm the member of varziel-chan's angel sanctuary and x japan blog crew!!!!! yey!!!!

whoever wants to be a memeber visit varziel!

-0-

i think i finally landed a job but it's not my dream job but i think i'm going to be happy with the atmosphere and the people. it's in the call center things and i was challenged with the english things that i have to say infron of the three interviewers. and i'm not that good when it comes to verbal english!!!! wah~ *cries*

anyways, i hope i can pass the training if ever it starts and i hope that there are other options that would be available from time to time.

edit #1: people who are in my dir en grey bc, domeng becomes shinya so update oyour bc people...^^

taken some tests:

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You're just a broken doll...the depressed beauty,or at least, that's your opinion...excluding the beauty part of course. You don't see your own beauty,but rather, are appaled by it. A million people could stand on a soap box, preaching to you about your goodness, your beauty, and you purity, but you would ignore them, taking there truths for granted. You're more likely to slit your wrists than recognize all the love people feel for you...so, all that makes is a shell of what once was, and what could be again.

What Kind of Person Are You?
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Everything's just data to you. Soemthing you observe and reflect on. What can you do, anyway? The world's corrupt and sooner or later it'll fall. The inhabbitants are rutheless and idiotic.
You're Mechanical wings. Everything's just data to you. Something you observe and reflect on. What can you do, anyway? The world's corrupt and sooner or later it'll fall. The inhabbitants are rutheless and idiotic.

What kind of Wings are you?
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05:30 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Monday, April 21, 2003

*squeals* @.@
current mood: okay
current music: - - -

i want everything to be ok... and yet everything is falling down like there is nothing in this world that are more important that the nothingness that is existing in our souls, the blackness of one's heart....

sorry for the drama tics that i'm doing right now....

just feeling miserable this day....

-0-

in other news... i'm a little happy since kaoru-neko is so playful nowadays and i don't know why..... ^^

and jiyoru became die of dir en grey bc!!!! *points right*

ok, who wants to be shinya????!?!??!?!?!?

varziel!!!!! i want to be yoshiki and mad hatter in the xjapan and angel sanctuary bc!!!!!!!!!!! arigato!

-0-

i just watched vampire hunter d, ring 0 :: the birthday, and the last oav of rurounin kenshin...although i didn't finished the oav of rurounin, i think it was a fulfilling day....

and yes, kaoru amd kenshim died and my great cousin told me why they died....

they died because of AIDS... now i wonder why and wat is kenshin doing to get that sickness... *grins*

-0-

currently, i'm finishing a comic book but i can't scan things yet becasue i don't have a scanner..

and i laughed becasue i'm looking back to my two comic books that i've finished and the drawings are not that good yet......

anyway, the comic book is called "deceitful angel"


02:11 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

got something.....
current mood: curious
current music: - - -

i got this from here. thanks tetsuki

Sexual fantasms You are now living in a civilized world. And yet, your fantasms take their roots in an archaic universe, an intact and forgotten universe, a universe where human beings were still connected to nature, in which people lived according to the rhythm of the seasons, where one was near to wild beasts and the huge forest of the origins. The man of your dreams is a primeval being, a being who hardly emerges from animality, a being who lives in harmony with the world, plants, trees, beasts, and the forces of the earth. This primitive, powerful and sensual being knows all the secrets of amorous ecstasy. He can show himself brutal without meaning it. But there's in him neither violence nor wickedness.

The man of your dreams comes out from the woods. He emerges from an old and wise world, from a land of plenty, from a lost paradise. He resembles a wild beast - of course he's human, but is still somewhat an animal, he's the brother of King Kong, with his primitive savagery and his awkward tenderness. He's a peasant, a woodcutter, a forest guard, or a poacher. Also a gardener, who knows the herbs that cure and those the perfume of which enchant the senses; or a vine-grower who amorously touches his grapes and takes care of his big wooden barrels with patience and relish. He resembles Pan, Bacchus or Dionysos, those ancient orgiastic and all-powerful gods. His wild sensuality knows of no limits; nevertheless, at the same time, he's all innocence. This man of extravagance can handle you roughly but without meaning it. And when he realizes that he can hurt you, he will become all tenderness and protection.

Love affairs Sensual, voluptuous, you intensely yearn to fulfill your heart's desires in couple life in the purest possible tradition, for your need for tenderness and sentimental security is boundless.

With you, love is not a simple item added to the list of your preoccupations - it's rather a force that possesses you entirely. When you give your heart, there's no question to take it back. The sense of stability, which is inherent to your first name, entails constancy and unshakable faithfulness on your part if your mate responds to your sensual appetite.

ohhh.... is that me?


12:43 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

^^
current mood: okay
current music: this guy is in love with you, pare by parokya ni edgar, passsenger seat by stephen speaks, with you by avril lavigne

well, nothing progressive happened to me since i last posted here... still dreaming on having a cellphone and PC as well and i really need a job even if it's the graveyard shifts, i would gladly do something not like cleaning the house over and over again like and stare at the ceiling and doing the cross stiching that is almost finished...

i was supposed to give the cross stich to someone but i decided not to since i don't give a fuck what would happen to the person and i don't even care nowadays....

-0-

in other news, something startled me yesterday when i recieved a call from a bank and i don't know when i gave them my rersume... didn't go to any bank to give out resume....

and the funny thing is that my mother was working with the bank when she was a fresh graduate... *grins*

the person said that i have a test with them on may and i don't know if i would take it and maybe by that time i have job now but i have to see it still and maybe i wouldhave a future there....

but please not as a teller.... i would just steal all the money there!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-0-

in other news, i have a small bruise on my knees but don't know where i got it and i have an ache in my lower back since last monday..... don't know why though but it's really a pain!!!!!!@.@


11:33 a.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Monday, April 14, 2003


current mood: disappointed
current music: blue blood by x japan

well, here i am, with cropped hair.... got my hair cut again and it was a relief becasue i wanted it to be trimmed because i don't like the cut when it became long.

and my mother is not listenning to me anymore.... well, when did she listen to me anyway?

never!

and now she insist that i went out with a man last friday in a mall... like i said that i was in ortigas (a place in the philippines) passing resues and walking in the hot scorching sun just to floor hop and look for companies that can be applied in!

and she didn't believe it...

and i reasoned with her and that got me a slap and the cleaning the whole house in 1 am in the morning that lasted until 2:30 i think....

imagining me, cleaning the whole household after walking under that scorching sun that day and haven't got any rest yet. and to top it all off, i have to wake up early in the morning to fix her breakfast becasue she has to attend something and to water all the plants and clean the lawn...

that's my mother...

edit #1: i want to have fun!!!!

ne~ ototo-chan!!!!! let's go ice skating!!!!!

and tetsuki-chan, you said that i can teach you to ice skate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


01:47 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Friday, April 11, 2003

itai.....@.@
current mood: tired
current music: bring me to life by evanesence

i've been walkingin the streets of makati and now ortigas lookingfor jobs... and it's a good thing that i'm wearing my trusty old rubber shoes for the long walk under the hot, hot sun.... *groans*

i took the test in a company yesterday and i passed and i was interviewed... and i met his girl and she has boyfriend you hentais!

anyway, she was from my alma mater in highschool but in a different location. and of course she was vry surprise when she realised that i was a bisexual and never had a boyfriend in my life... yet...

and she noted that i wasn't that obvious... (basically, i was wearing my very business attire that makes me a woman.... no wonder...*shakes head*)

well, she said that if we meet again, or maybe she would call me, she would introduce me to to her friend who is also bisexual and maybe we could hit it off.... *groans*

this reminds me of her being a match making oba-san.... *grins*

-0-

i walked and walked without someone to walk with me today in ortigas.. and it was a very tiring walk mind you nd it's really hot today especially when a person is walking in the middle of the afternoon in the summer.... @.@

and i think i'm not going to ride an elevator for a little while... i'm getting sick with the ups and downs that i'm going through a building...

i was floor hoping by the way and it ws fun except the elevator rides.....


03:54 a.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Tuesday, April 8, 2003

*phew*
current mood: lazy
current song: boys and girls, depend on you, monochrome, appears, naturally by ayumi hamasaki - adolescent sex, moonlight sonata, art of life by x japan

job hunting is tough these days and my oka-chan doesn't want me to take a job that requires the shift to be graveyard...

like i don't have choice if i can have the job and a high pay too and if the company is close to our house...

she thinks that i would become my one-chan who got pregnant and we don't know who the father is....@.@

sometimes i would like to blurt out, it would never happen mom!!!! i prefer women as my lovers!!! geez!!!!

anyway, one of my neko is going to be spanked later of the day!!!!!!

the blasted neko ate a bird!!!! not any ordinary bird!!!!

it has yellow feathers to begin with and i think it is some kind of a lovebird!!!!!!!!

no wonder thereare not birds in our vicinity~!!!!!!!!!!!

-0-

in other news, i think i really need to wear glasses now when i use the computer because i think my eyes are failing me already....

and i think i need it just yet...

i have to finish a cross stcih for someone....^^

edit #1: i have this crush, his name is kenneth... actually he's one of my one-chan's staff in a fast food chain and he's really cute!!!

and he has glasses... i think my weakness in a guy are glasses.... and my one-chan said that he looks like harry potter too....


02:00 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Wednesday, April 2, 2003

oh happy day...^^
current mood: crappy
current music: art of life by x japan

first and foremost... i would like to greet three people because it's their birthday!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE SALLY, ANCES AND OSMALIC

anyway, i wrapped something for ate sally and i should probable give it to her later in the afternoon after my chores are done....^^

-0-

in other news, i think i'm mising Count D lately...

you see, he's not in metro manila... he's vacationing somewhere in the philippines... i think he's hometown or something and he'll be coming back next week....

i miss him and i know now that it's really him that i'm texting... *grins some more*

we attended the installation of our friend priest somewhere out there and i don't want to know where exactly is the place...

and now my mother is blaming me of the lost of the fan sincethat time but if i remember correctly, i was using the fan of her friend not hers because she was saying that it was hard to get it under the table.. (the bags are user the table)... oh well, i'm home and i'm not going to school yet....

but i need to get back to get my transcript and get my alumni card andsome things like that....

*sweatdrop*

aloha to you too nightcat...^^


11:31 a.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

Tuesday, April 1, 2003

whockey another month has passed....
current mood: thoughtful
current music: art of life, weekend, unfinished, dear loser by x japan

ok, yoshiki is using the piano like there is no tomorrow in the art of life but it is great actually...^^ nie song yoshiki!!!!!

anyway, i'm here now and waiting for the time so that i can get the clearance for my transcript!!!!! but i have to pay somethings for it!!! damn it!

and it's the death anniversary of my grandmother... i don't know if i'm going to the cemetary because my mother shouted to me that i'm not wanted there because it's not her mother who is in the grave......

yup, we had a fight a while ago....

long story...

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!!!!!!!!

hmmm... tomorrow would be my cousin's birthday... good... *grins*

edit #1: shimatta!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah~ i got Count D's birthday... (look at my birthday list on the left side)... *grins wide*

god, i didn't know that i did that finding him in a search engine... *grins much more wider*

maybe i should send him an e-mail.......


12:55 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?



:: The Ardent Creator ::

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