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Angel's Song
Saturday, March 10, 2001
12:39 a.m.
Ah, it was a long day, filled with irritating customers.
I ran the gambit from having a woman yell at me and call me things that would make a sailor blush, to a scary man asking me out. KOWAII! He looked like a serial killer, I tell you!
Ahem. Anyway, I thought I would torture-I mean-share the lyrics to another song I like. ^_^
ANGEL'S SONG
Written by Chris Stein & Debbie Harry
Performed by Debbie Harry
Now for all you'll ever know
That you've never seen me
And someday you're gonna show
What your one desire means
Now I'll only set the stage
Put those lights on me
I'll make sure the power's on
On the scenery
Oh, what will the signal be
For your eyes to see me?
Watching off sides as I wait
Just in case you need me?
So I still will set the stage
Send my thoughts to you
I'm receiving every wave
The sound, send love through
[spoken]
You know, love's not what you think.
Too weak to stand on, like quicksand, in which you sink.
Love is anything you make it.
How can I let you feel my love? Feel me? And still feel free?
I may not have the answers now. So what?
To be in time, is on the beat.
Oh, what will the signal be
For your eyes to see me?
Watching off sides as I wait
Just in case you need me?
So I still will set the stage
Send my thoughts to you
I'm receiving every wave
The sound, send love through
[spoken]
Now I have revealed exactly why I'm here.
I'll be your angel, if you want to see how perfect sharing love with
an angel can be.
Aaaaaah, ahhhh ahhh ahhh ....
Oooohhhhh .....
All right
Wickety Wa
Monday, February 12, 2001
09:47 p.m.
One two, Freddy's comin' for you.....
Three four, better lock your door..............
Five six, grab your crucifix.......
Seven eight, gonna stay up late..........
Nine ten, never sleep again.............
Hee! I have no idea why, but that grim little rhyme has
been floating around in my head all day. Maybe it's time to
watch Nightmare On Elm Street? ^^ Or it's an indication that I should sleep more?
When you feel down in the mouth, watch a quicktime movie of a hamster. It is surprisingly, weirdly cheery. I want to cuddle the little guy, he was so cute! He's a hammy star!
Where does the expression 'down in the mouth' come from, anyway? I knew it's origin once, but I have forgotten it.
Anyway, I am done with my pointless ramble for today. One last thing, for Lyra:
Thanks for being there imoutochan! You helped me keep my mind off things that it is not ready to deal with yet. Love ya! *Hugs*
Faded Flowers
Saturday, February 10, 2001
11:44 p.m.
I came home from work today to the news that my nana-that's my mother's mother-had died this morning.
It was quite a shock, and I am still not sure how I feel.
I should be crying, hysterical, yet I am not. The tears almost come. They prick at my eyes and make them burn, but they don't spill out. I wonder why? Is it that I am still too numb? That it hasn't really sunk in yet?
I don't know. I feel empty.
I keep thinking of her rose garden. It was her pride and joy.
Strangers would stop in front of the house to take photos of those carefully tended, delicate blooms.
And now her rose garden will lay empty forever.
May you find peace and joy in the next world, nana.
I love you.
Bear In The Big Blue Hellhouse
Tuesday, January 30, 2001
10:01 p.m.
I am back from my convention trip. It was an experience.
Riding the bus is something I plan never, ever to do again. It was hideous, and I would rather chew off my own foot than do it a second time. The bus was filled with unsavory, unwashed people who use trash bags as luggage. And they chattered incessantly! At two in the morning, the constant, mindless droning of the people in the back of the bus haunted me, making sleep next to impossible.
They covered such intellectual topics as the merits of Jennifer Lopez's butt and how hot the 'Scream Babe' was. Aghh! I wanted to strangle them with my hair! ^-^
Ah-and then there was the Furry Convention. It is a brave new world, that has such people in it. ^^ I have been to many cons, but they were always Sci Fi cons before. The con geeks of furry are very different. They are weirder!
Many of them were roaming around wearing furry tails and carrying plushie dolls. One guy, I swear he was at least fifty, had bear ears on, and was carrying a Bear In The Big Blue House toy. He also had to weigh 300 pounds. It was a sight that will be burned into my memory forever!
I only sold one piece in the art show. I was a bit disappointed, I must confess. I was a real outsider there. Everyone seemed to know everyone else. I guess I should be used to that, though. I tend to feel like an outsider most of the time. I guess it's just the way I am. Does that seem whiny? I don't mean to be. I just get a little melancholy sometimes. It seems like all my online friends know each other and many more besides. They have chats and join lists-and I feel like the proverbial urchin looking in the window from out in the cold.
Bah! Ignore me! I am having a 'feeling sorry for myself' week. ^_^
Shadow Lover
Monday, January 15, 2001
02:03 a.m.
Hm..I haven't 'blogged' in a couple of weeks, have I?
I planned to, really I did, but time creeps by. ^^
I got the Exorcist on dvd. I still love that movie. It scared the hell out of me when I was a kid. Perhaps it was the Catholic upbringing that made it seem so terrifying. I am not really scared by it now, but it still gives me a few thrills, especially with some of that added footage! The 'Spider walk' is creeeeeepppy!
Today was a tense day here and there. I am afraid my insecurities created a problem between myself and imouto. I didn't intend it, but when I get a cool response from even my closest friends, I get paranoid. Anyway, I think she understands where I was coming from now, and I hope she knows I did not mean to upset her. ^^ Nee, imouto? I love you like you were my blood sister, you know. There! I have said mushiness in cyber-public! Ack!
And now for something completely different! A man with three buttocks! (Okay, not really.)
Actually, I just thought I would post the lyrics to a pretty little song. It's written by Mercedes Lackey, and it's meant to be sung by Vanyel. I think Riathynn likes to sing this!
The Shadow Lover
Shadow-Lover, never seen by day,
Only deep in deams do you appear
Wisdom tells me I should turn away,
Love of mist and shadows, all unclear-
Nothing can I hold of you but thought
Shadow-Lover mist and twilight wrought.
Shadow-Lover, comfort me in pain.
Love, although I never see you face,
All who'd have me fear you speak in vain.
Never would I shrink from your embrace
Shadow-Lover, gentle is your hand
Never could another understand.
Shadow-Lover, soothe me when I mourn
Mourn for all who left me here alone,
When my grief is too much to be borne,
When my burdens crushing-great have grown,
Shadow-Lover, I cannot forget-
Help me bear the burdens I have yet.
Shadow-Lover, you alone can know
How I long to reach a point of peace
How I fade with weariness and woe
How I long for you to bring release.
Shadow-Lover, court me in my dreams
Bring the peace that suffering redeems.
Shadow-Lover, from the Shadows made,
Lead me into Shadows once again.
Where you lead I cannot be afraid,
For with you I shall come home again-
In your arms I shall not fear the night.
Shadow-Lover, lead me into light.
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