Fukai Mori

ABOUT ME

Alias: Reki Strife
Birthday: August 11
Zodiac: Leo
Height: 5'5"
Weight: okay, that even I don't know!
Eye Color: blue-grey
Hair Color: Normal Hair, brown, bleached blonde, and dyed red
Status: Single, and staying that way!
Dirty Little Secrets: Likes Shotakon, the Muraki-x-Tsuzuki pairing, Blood the Last Vampire (Yuri, yummy), yaoi (which my parents seem to hate)

FAVORITES

Anime: Saiyuuki Reload
Manga: Legend of Mana, Shinsengumi Imon Peace Maker, Saiyuuki, Matantei Loki, Yami no Matsuei
Doujinshi: Menuki, Paradistar, Ramen Ikaga, Pretty Face, Three Wolf Moutain, View Finder, Wild Rock
Game: Final Fantasy 7, Legend of Mana, Chrono Cross
J-Rock, Pop Band: Two-Mix, AiM, Globe, Megumi Ootaga, SeeSaw
Bishounen: Thomas Schubaltz (Zoids GF), Hiko Seijuro (Rurouni Kenshin), Baramunku (.hack//Dusk)
Bishoujo: Wakuba (Yami no Matsuei)
Yaoi Pairning: Brad-x-Ran (Weiss Kreuz)
American Bands: Vast, Nirvana, REM
American Songs: "Here" (VAST), "Smells Like Teen Spirit" (Nirvana), "Loosing My Religon" (REM)
Movie: Ringuu, Star Wars (4-6 only)
Slash Pairing: Han/Luke, Wedge/Luke (Star Wars)
Book: Shogun (James Clavell)

FRIENDS BLOGS

Enkay's Blog
Jess's Blog
Suzuka Water Wings

ADOPTBALES

CLIQUES

CREDITS

Thanks Pitas.

Bye?

Well, it's bye for now. I'm re-doing my room, so I'm turning off the computer for a couple weeks. I'll be sure to post some before and after pictures of my room . . . >.>

Yup, ya'll will get to see my junk. >.> I might post a very jumbled picture of me up . . . I might, so don't expect one.

I've been in a bad way. The last couple of days. Extremely moody, bitchy, and suicidal . . . <.<

I need therapy.

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Sunday, November 30 2003 @ pm and she was listing to nothing
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This is seriously scary

This is really scary!

Today, I was sitting in the living room with my parents, and all of a sudden, my sister nearly pokes my eye out with the end of a broom!

You know, I would be in a hospital right now if I didn't use my reflexes to catch the end of the broom, and got very angry at her! I had told her to put the broom down numberous times, yet she didn't, and she nearly poked my eye out!

Do you know how scary that was? You probably won't understand the sentiments, unless something like that happened to you, but let's just say, I'm not going to forgive her very soon. The damn child new better. My parent's don't dicipline her enough . . . <.<

Kami-sama, when I was younger, if I did something remotly wrong it was "get the belt, you should know better ::whack smack whack!::". And everyone wonders why I resent my parents! v.v stupidity can't be helped, I guess

If something like that does happen to you, don't think anything of it. If you do, your psyce suffers a hell of alot. I mean, I spent about 15 minutes thinking of all the things that would effect having lost my eye! None of those were very happy thoughts!

I suppose I should be greatful that I didn't loose it, but the fact that it would have been my sisters fault, made me absolutly furious! Like I said, at the moment, forgivness is out of the question.

Anyway, I drew a new piccie!! ^^ Anyway, I couldn't scan it in, so I drew an oekaki of it. Here it is:

See, isn't she pretty? Looks sort of like one of Buruma's obnoxious haircuts. Anyway, sorry for no new updates! I'm scouting for other fics at the moment as well.

My step-father got a job, so my parent's wont ask me for anymore money . . . which is pretty good. They'll definitly be able to get me something <.< they have no reason to skimp on me, since they didn't for my sister!

Anyway, that's it for now. I've got to go throw up . . . >.> I feel sick.

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Tuseday, November 25 2003 @ 8.21 pm and she was listing to nothing
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Another Blog . . . you idiot ::smacks my head::

Yes, I did make another new blog! Yes, you all may smack me, and kill me . . . >.> I've got 3000 others, yeah, I know I don't use most of em, don't get mad!!

::sighs:: here's the address http://reki-blog.envy.nu

Yes, I know I was going to put up another update, but I still haven't gotten it finished yet! DAMN! I hate actually having a life. Having a life actually requires a person to do something . . . I forgot about that.

I use to not have a life, for anyone who doesn't know . . . . >.> I HATE having a life. ::sighs:: I'm going to browse the net alittle longer before hitting the sack.

Before I go, I'm going to discontinue "For You" until I get more inspiration and plot. Sorry you "For You" fans!!

Anyway, I'm working on a new YURI fic, so expect one in the future . . . ja!!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Monday, November 24, 2003 @ 11.42 pm and she was listing to nothing
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Maul me, Maul me

Well, ya see, I was going to put up an update . . . but god damn it! I just couldn't work on it!! It's getting to the boring part . . . ah well. I'll get it done next week, I know I will, so don't worry.

Anyway, I went manga shopping!! WAI!! And I got some new things!!

Got the 2nd Gravitation, Yuu-gi-ou vol. 2, FAKE volumes 2,3,4, Yuu Yuu Hakusho vol. 2, and Excel Saga vol. 2

They didn't have Naruto vol. 2 or Shaman King Vol. 2 . . . so I was alittle disapointed!

They had a bunch of things I wanted . . . but I couldn't decide, so I have left over!! ^^ Wait for Christmas money . . . and I'll be able to buy more!! Yea!!

Anyway, I Christmas shopped for my sister . . . with my mother. >.> You know, my parent's implied that they didn't have any money, but they got her 0 worth of merchandise! What's up with that . . . they were implying that they needed to borrow from me too!

All I got to say is that if they don't get me something nice . . . well, we can forget about ever loaning them money. Or actually believing what they say. >.> Damned liars!

With that out of my system, I think I'll go finish playing Kingdom Hearts . . . I'll be done with it soon, hopefully!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Sunday, November 23, 2003 @ 11.32 am and she was listing to nothing
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Guilty Gear X

Well, at the moment, I am playing Guilty Gear X with the character Jam! I'm nearly done with it . . . >.> the Archade mode, any how. I'm not at all finished with the whole game. I barely picked up since I first got it.

But anyhow . . . I'm sitting there, thinking what the heck are the characters saying. I really can't understand a thing, because, A) it's in Japanese, and B) their friggin voices are so messed up, that I couldn't hear them!

So if anyone, anyone at all has any sort of information on what they are saying, and it's English Translation, that would be very kind, if you would send it to me . . . ::begs:: ple~ase!!

Anyway, I was going to update my site, but alas . . . every friggin person needed to use my computer, because theirs sucks crap. I couldn't refuse . . . because I was already in a bad mode, and didn't feel like taking it out on them, so of course, everyone and their uncle used my computer!

No one will believe me after I write this, but I talked to my dad today. Actually, I really didn't want to, but everyone and their uncle picked up the damn phone and friggin gave it to me. >.< You could tell how pissed I was!

Well, excusing myself from the room, I talked, or well, he talked and I stuck my middle finger up the whole time, pretending to listen to his idiotic babbling, thinking, the whole time, how much I wanted to bash his head in! Man, I really wanted to tell him that I was flipping him off . . . I really want to do it in public. But I wont. Maybe once I get the money he owes me from that fund his family put together for me. Or after I get that Barbie (>.<) collection that's suppose to be mine. Or maybe once I get my collage funds. I would rather like to leave ripping him off. I would find that horribly amusing!!

Anyway, I downloaded the best music the other day. Some Orphen Revenge, Globe, some Noir songs, a couple instramentals from .hack//, some Gundam Wing. So far, I have been incredibly pleased with the Noir and Orphen Revenge songs. I really ought to by the next Orphen series to round out my collection . . . and the rest of Saiyuki when it comes out. ^^ And more manga . . . definitly more manga. I think I'll wait for after Christmas, before buying anything. I'll probably get some more cash from relatives! ^ Wai!

Actually, I'm not looking forward to Christmas at all. Probably because I'm too cheap, and poor, to buy anyone a friggin present. Guess I'll have to do something . . . baking cookies it is. >.>

You know, I am getting ahead of myself. Thanksgiving and my Uncles birthday come first. I must do those things first.

Well, I already know what I'm doing for Thanksgiving. We (my family, and my step-father's uncle) are going to be up at our family farm . . . so I might as well come along. It's not like Will (my Otaku cousin, who seems to have chilled out, thank Kami-sama), will be up there, which defeats the purpose of me going up there . . . but who really gives a damn, ya know? I think I'll take some writing when I go up there. I really need to move my ass on some of those things!

And I'm not sure what we are doing for my Uncle's birthday, guess I'll have to check with him. Thank Kami-sama that tomorrow is Friday . . . that means the weekend it coming up!

>.> ::looks back:: I have written alot, haven't I? Well, I'm hyper, so blame that on the Flax Oil and multi-vitamin I took this morning. It's giving me more energy than I know what to fucking do with!

At the moment, I feel like I can run a whole friggin 3 miles. I'm not, but that's what I feel like.

Anyway, since my adrenline is already running, I'm going to go finish my game of Guilty Gear X, playing Jam.

Night!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, November 20, 2003 @ 10.53 pm and she was listing to Sondo Matte Kissu, Orphen Revenge's main theme.
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Site is up!!

Well, I put up the new layout . . . hope all of you like it. Feedback would be nice!

Anyway, I added alot of stuff, and created my first quiz! ^^ I'm so proud of myself!! It's not that good of a quiz, but I did it myself . . . so I'm happy!

Well, that's probably it for now. I'm bored, and idealess . . . so ja!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Tuesday, November 18, 2003 @ 11.45 pm and she was listing to a Wild Wind ::Hiei and Kurama Duet::
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Kingdom Hearts
Well, I updated my site today. Added another chapter of 'Katsuya 1/2' and I fixed some minor spelling problems, as well as updating some anime info I learned about.

Things are progressing more slowly on my site . . . >.> Sorry all. I'll try to get my lazy ass moving faster. Though I kind of wished that I had a working scanner. T_T

Anyway, after playing 3 to 4 straight hours of Kingdom Hearts . . . I finally got stuck. Heh, I made it to Halloween Town . . . finally, after having the game for about a year . . . >.>

Yeah, I suck . . . so sue me.

I really should start playing more.

Anyway, Enkay, the program is actually a DVD player that lets you take screenshots. It's called Power DVD. It doesn't take that long to download, and it's very damn good. It even works on avi files, for when you download your anime. I was so overjoyed to know that! ^^

If you download it Enkay, hope ya have some fun messing with it!!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Sunday, November 16, 2003 @ 6.16 pm and she was listing to nothing
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Well, I'm back. I'm still in pain, yes, but it's only because of the medicine I was taking. It made me throw up, have horrid cramps, and diarrea! >.< Yeah, at the moment, I kind of want to die.

Anyway, we went to the farm, because my family (my step-dad's family) had a reunion. Well, they called it a "pig picking". I literally couldn't eat a thing . . . I'm afraid I'll throw it up. And that is not fun.

I tried eating after surgery . . . and then before bed it came all up! It was horrible! God, I was such a mess. And still am! Now I stopped taking the medication that the doctor gave me, and am now on aleve and some imodium ad.

I'm suppose to be resting, but I've been off the computer too damn long, and I had over 100 messages to read and crap! About 15 of those messages were actually spam . . . >.> Thank kami-sama for the spam blocker!!

Anyway, I probably didn't mention this before, but my site IS up, and has been up for awhile. All that's up now is the fiction, and I'm going to update that soon!

Umm, the next thing on my site is going to be a screenshot gallery. I downloaded a nice program to take em. It's really awsome, and I'm very excited about doing it!

Also, I know I mentioned this before, but I am making up for three days here . . . so I'll say it again. DB GT SUCKS FUCK. >.> It's another reason why the whole American dubbing things should never happen!

I like America and all, seeing as how I live here . . . but I hate their dubbing. Their translating is actually alot better than a Japanese person translating English. Ah, well . . . that doesn't matter.

>.< I'm hungry, so I'm gonna go grab a popcycle! ^^ Ja~

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Saturday, November 15 2003 @ 4.52 pm and she was listing to nothing
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I feel better, since I released that little angst bucket out. Everything is resolved, and I feel better. Just to note, I wrote that piece for ME. I really don't care about what you think of it.

Think I am concieted, I don't care. You can think I'm a bad daughter. I still don't care. You can think I'm a whiny brat, and I still won't care.

I don't know you, so your opinion doesn't matter at all to me. Just thought I'd say that.

Anyway, I got my site up! Woo!! New layout, fanfiction. Well, that's so far.

I just downloaded a program that plays DVD's and captures screenshots by pressing a certain button on the keyboard! It's great! Now I too can have a gallery!!

Anyway, I might not be on for a couple days. I'm going to get my wisdom teeth pulled out of my skull. >.< I don't want to go!! I can't eat or drink anything starting tonight at 10.00 pm. I'm going to end up starving by tomorrow. <.< It's not at all fair.

Stupid headaches!

That's it . . . I'm going to continue to watch Law and Order . . . don't ask.

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Wednesday, 12 2003 @ 7.16 pm and she was watching Law and Order (which I seem to do alot!)
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Not Worth It

Sometimes, I don't think life is worth all this pain. I'm beginning to not be able to handle it. And now, everything seems to be my fault, instead of the faulty party. Well, screw the people who believe that. Screw them! Fucking screw 'em! They don't understand . . . I doubt they ever will.

I need someone to talk to. Preferably, someone not human. Humans tend to come with too much emotional baggage, and they cling. Which is why I prefer to be "untouchable".

What I mean by that is that I don't give a damn about what anyone feels, anymore. . . I just don't care! I could care fucking less if my family just dropped off a bridge and died. I could care less if they decided to move to a different country and not tell me. I could just not care less.

I was, and still am, hypersensative. And I HATE being hypersensative more than any fucking thing in the world. I hate this whole emotions thing. I understand its a basic human function, but I think I would rather not have it. I'd much rather be passive about everything and anything. Then I wouldn't have to deal with anything . . . I'd be protected, which is probably what I want more than anything else in the world. But for me, that is inpossible, seeing as how everyone who knows me physically, hates me.

Well, not everyone. I may be overexagerating because I'm fairly upset, and still crying. I hate crying. It's probably why I denie being able to do it. I look so damn ugly while crying. I'm also hypervenalating as well . . .

Anyway, I doubt I will have any sort of relationship with anyone in the future . . . and I will be alone, which is presumably what everyone wants me to do. I like being alone though, so I really have no problem with that.

Kami-sama! Nobody understands, do they? Che, they don't. I'm in pain so much, it really isn't funny . . . yet, no one seems to be able to see that. Am I that good an actor? Happiness is practically impossible for me to achieve or to feel, because I have never ever felt what it feels like. I've wanted too, but . . . no one has ever given me that oppertunity.

I try and act like everything is okay, but . . . it's not. I want to believe that things like this, will just disappear, but they don't. And I just can't handle this.

As of late, I have begun my suicidal thoughts again. And they seem pretty damned good in comparison!

My step-father never seems to understand, and likes to take out all his anger on me. Yeah, sure, I don't mind that, but it starts to get personal when he calls me things like selfish, self-centered, and a bitch.

My own mother is just as bad. They both do not understand . . . as they say I don't understand anything at all; but I do. And I just wish for once, that they would just stop rubbing my damned face in it. Just for once, I would like them to shut the fuck up and to not just say anything.

But unfortunatly, that will not happen, and never will. I will forever have thoughts of worthless-ness and self loathing. And I will forever be scared by how I've been treated.

My step-father, he said something very interesting, and I found myself thinking even more about the subject. I don't remember exactly what he said, because I've just blocked out everything that happened, and do not want to think about, but dwell on this I must; because this will NEVER go away.

What I continued to think about was how he said all I do is screw people over. And I guess I do. And I vow to continue screwing people over . . . because, well, because they deserve it. I will screw my family over. As my step-father said, it is apperantly the only thing I am good at.

Kami-sama, now I am becoming cynical. I don't even sound like myself right now . . . I bet all of you are thinking what happened to the happy girl, who was bouncy and loved anime . . . well, that girl was just a facede. Somone I acted like to try to protect myself, because I couldn't handle what was happening to me.

I have never ever been good with trying to talk to people. Writing, has always been my forte, something I could do, and do when I felt like it. I have always felt like I've had a big imagination, and that has done me no good.

I trapped myself in those dream worlds I created, to be safe. And to feel appriciated. It's hard to live when your step-father calls you profanities every hour of the day, your real father hurt you even worst by not giving a damn about you . . . and hurting you by saying hateful and spiteful things; but it probably hurts the most, when your mother who is a clueless idiot, who just stands by and lets all of this happen.

I hate to talk about things like this, but I need to tell anyone who is willing to listen. I need to get this off my chest, before it ends up consuming my entire being, and I become mindless, and ensnared in my own head, where worst demons lurk.

I really can't remember anything in my past . . . hell, I can barley remember what I did last month, if I didn't do the same thing most days. And somethings I just don't remember, and I have just gone by what people of told me. I hate that feeling of helpless-ness. It's so very degrading, especially for a prideful person like me, who can't stand to be at all sensative.

Anyway, a couple months after I was born, my father and my mother divorced. I was young then, so I really don't remember or know anything of what happened, but all I know is that they split. And then that my mother, and my step-father were dating. The only thing I know asides from that, is that when I was younger, I fell on my head twice, and probably now have brain damage.

Anyway, when I got older, I had to spend time with him. I don't remember really anything about that. All I know is that I was forced to go with him, and to do what he told me. And I hated that. Then, when I was older, I had to spend the nights with him, at his house.

That was never a comfortable thing, even though he was married to another woman. I hated that. He would make me do almost everything. I had to clean up his dishes, as well as my own and his wifes. Then I would have to bring him drinks, and I would have to bring his dessert, and such.

I really don't mind cleaning up after myself, because I do have a weird habbit about that, but I was a GUEST in HIS HOUSE, it wasn't my resonsobility at all to clean anything up.

And if I disobeyed him, he hit me. On my arse, with my pants/skirt/whatever down. He'd hit me with a belt, a spoon, anything. And to tell the GOD damned truth, I did NOT deserve anyone of those beatings. I would refuse to do something, and he would just go off.

And when I had to go to stay with his family, it was just as bad. He was coddled by that mother of his . . . and always being mean to me. Telling me to stop playing video games, when I had only been on for about five minutes, so the others could play, and etc.

That was some of the worst times of my life. Once, he even threatened me to go with the others to the beach, but I refused. My cousins were blind not to see what was happening. I just wanted to leave that house, and as quickly as possible. And on the day we were suppose to come back home, he wanted us to stay an extra day. And that was the same time as when he threatened me. I, of course, insisted on going home.

But I realise now that my home is no different from that anymore. It's no longer a safe haven for me. All it is, is bad memories and pain. I seriously wish that I could stop crying now, but I can't seem to.

As I was saying, my fathers done that to me alot. The worst was when he locked me out of the car, and started to drive away. That has got to be the most horrifying experience of my life, and I have had quite a few of those!

And now, I no longer see my father. I've cut off all ties. And now, I no longer except them as my family . . . no matter how much they want me to, they have used up all their second chances!

And my step-father. All he ever does is threaten me, and call me bitch and crap. Words, that's all they are to me now. And now, I continue to look upon that man with pity, and wish he would take an anger management class, so that he could center that damned anger, instead of taking it out on others.

I use to care about him . . . and now, I can't find the energy to do anything but pity him. And he doesn't deserve that pity. I thought he was a good guy, at one point in life . . . but all he does is yell and scream, and threaten to take me to a mental hospital.

Here's some advice, I don't need a mental hospital, I need someone to understand. But as long as I refuse that help, then there is nothing anyone can do for me. I refuse the help on purpose. I don't want anyone to think of me as some poor abused kid, because physical abuse, I never have felt. Though, I guess you can count some of my fathers beatings, as physical abuse . . . but that's not the issue.

I take it back, I don't want anyone to understand me. No. I do NOT want that, because that will never happen. You WILL NOT understand something like that, until you have been in that situation. All I want, all I need, is some paticence. That is all I want, truely and formostly. And that is all that I have ever craved.

I sit here, crying and licking my chaped lips, realising that . . . these ranting will never do anyone any good. You may read them, but you do not fully understand them, so please, just stop reading this. I don't want you to. Because, you, the reader, does not understand. I wish to Kami-sama that you did, but you don't, and what I am about to write is ment for my parent's eyes only, and I plan on sending them this URL for them to read.

Your reading this now, and I bet you think that I've gone overboard, or that I'm insane, or that I'm lying. But you know what, I really don't give a damn about what you think of me . . . I just don't give a fuck. This release was ment for me. And I don't give a fucking damn if you don't except this or not. I am NOT lying. I refuse to lie in a place that I have called a sanctuary for a long while.

In the past . . . the things I said, I wouldn't have ment. But every damn thing here is true. And every damn thing here is how I FEEL and how I WISH that it wouldn't be like this. I've lied to you about alot of things, but do you think that has made me feel any better? No, for your information it didn't! I lied to protect myself, to keep myself in a hardened shell so that the pain wouldn't come in, and the pain I already had would not come out!

The reason I'm so anti-social . . . the reason I hate almost all people, is because I see you . . . and my father in most people, and I am afraid of you. And I am afraid of them. I hate this feeling, and I wish more than anything, that it would go away, but it won't. And because you are inpaticence people, you piss me off, and so I am cold to you.

You can't hold your temper well . . . and that scares me. I have always been scared. I only act tough. Inside, all I want to do is crawl up into a ball and cry, and cry for eternity. That's all I want to do. All I want to do is cry . . .

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Tuseday, November 04, 2003 @ 6.44 pm and she was listing to the tv
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New Layout

Who likes the new layout??

Wai~ Saiyuuki is cool!! ^^ I love Saiyuuki . . . Wai~

Well, I'm working on my other sites, and it's going well. I still have a few more things to add to this layout before being done. I'll get it done soon! V.V Hopefully.

Anyway, it's Halloween . . . and I took almost every kid in my family trick-or-treating . . . >.> how boring! Now I am exhausted as hell. <.<

Take mercy on my pitiful soul . . . and now the kids are screaming banshees . . . go home! X_X

Oh well, I'm gonna finsh working . . . ja

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Friday, October 31 2003 @ 9.24 pm and she was listing to R.E.M "Loosing Your Religion."
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Stuff

I'm working on a new layout for this blog. ^^ And I'm also working on my site . . . damn it, this is taking forever >.<

Anyhoo, we aren't going to the beach, you can read that on my other blog here. I'm kinda glad that we aren't going, cause I really don't have a costume . . . >.> My step-father messed up the pants to the outfit. T__T It's horrid, I know.

I have moved onto another fandom, Star Wars Slash and Angel Slash. ^^ Wai~ Han/Luke and Wedge/Luke are so yummy! As is Spike/Angel! ^^

Okay, I'm done gushing. . . anyway, tomorrow, instead we're having this big get together with some people. Guess that isn't 'big', is it? Oh well, I'm just babbling anyhow.

I know what your wondering, what the fuck do those two topics have to do with each other? To tell the truth, no clue . . . hehe, I better gt off before I start ranting!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, October 30 2003 @ 5.14 pm and she was listing/watching Family Guy
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VAST

Vast, it's the name of a singer/band! ^^ It's very good. I found them when downloading YAOI (shounen ai) music videos! ^^ "Here" is so fucking awsome!

Everyone, go download some VAST now! Go, I command thee!!

Here, I'm going to share with you guys the lyrics of "Here" and "The Last One Alive", which are must listen toos!

Here:

Where do I put the shame?
It feels like a broken toy
I can't play with
Anymore
Where do I put the hate?
To a pixilated screen
I can't watch anymore
All I know is that
I'm here drifting
Somewhere in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And
I never want to leave
Where do I put the books
There's so many I could read
But
They all are filled
With lies
Where do I put the lies
There's so many I could say
But
It seems they're
In the books
I have faith that
You're out there living high
Up in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And
You're never going to leave
Have I been telling
Lies to myself?
Hold me now you know
I am so afraid
To be at all
Have I been telling
Lies to myself?
Hold my now you know
I am so afraid to love at all
Where do I put the love?
Where do I put the love?

The Last One Alive:

There's a place not that far from here
Where people go when their dreams have died
As I walk from it's faceless streets
I must be the last one alive
Where are you, you're not with me
Numb my mind with this fantasy
Watching people live an die on screen
Where are you
You're not with me
Where are you
I'm free
You left me high and dry it changed me
You lied to me now I am angry
And if the sun comes in your room
And awakes you from your vanity
You wont find me 'cause I'll be on top a mountain
Pissing on your grave
Na na na...
There's a place from where I just arrived
And I escaped the last one alive
Where are you
You're not with me
Where are you
I'm free
You left me high and dry it changed me
You lied to me now I am angry
And if the sun comes in your room
And awakes you from your vanity
You wont find me 'cause I'll be on top a mountain
Pissing on your grave

Aren't they cool . . . well, the last one is sort of weird . . . but it has a good melody! ^^

I have actually never heard of VAST until yesterday, so this must be one of those under appriciated bands! ^^ heh, cool.

Well, I'm off to go do some manual labor (using a computer >.>). . . graphic making and site finishing, don't ya know!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, August 28 2003 @ 5.14 pm and she was listing to "The Last One Alive" and "Here" by VAST.
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Reminder

Reminder:

Never ever try to do something nice for bitchy mother, slutty sister, or asshole cousins; because it usually comes back to bite you in the ass. ::LITERALLY::

-__- I'm just so pissed, it ain't funny! Kami-sama . . . I need some sort of vacation already . . . and it's not even Christmas time yet. One thing is for sure, we aren't going to be able to finish up the year without a giant argument.

And that will probably be the time when I start telling everyone how I feel about them. And that will lead to a disaster, and being cut off from the family! ::cheers are heard off in the background from the me::

And then, I will have finally achieved my goal of letting go.

Can you believe I've got a problem with letting go? Yeah, me! Can you believe it?? Well, believe it hunny, cause it's true!

I'm hungry, I'm going out for sushi, away from all the assholes that are my supposed family! Man, if only I would just cuss everyone out, I would probably feel so much better!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Satruday, October 25 2003 @ 5.11 pm and she was listing to Revived Wolf ::Saitoh's Theme::
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shit
Shit, I haven't been posting here for quite along time! Damn, I should keep up with this journal too!! ^^'

Anyway, I got me a SHOUT BOX! ^^ SUGOI!! Wai!

Today, I feel like a Salamander

I really do! Yes, laugh at me, but I really do feel like that. In fact, I too am chewing on my pillow!

I didn't write this in my Other Journal, but I'm working on a whole new look/contents for my site.

Yes, I am incredibly fickel, but who can help that? Certainly not me.

I feel like a Salamander, I want a nap!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Friday, October 24 2003 @ 1.58 pm and she was listing to "Fire Soul Love" ::Bishoujo Sailor Moon::
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Umm, yeah, been awhile!

Uh, umm, sorry for not updating here in a fucking long time! Umm, I kinda started updating in the "drawing" blog. That has become my new blog, and I like it! (Though don't worry, I'll still update here, just not as often!) Here's the link in case you forgot! http://www.blurty.com/users/reki_strife

Anyway, Shaman King started about 3 weeks ago! It's only about the fourth episode, so you haven't missed much! I think it's pretty good, compared to Yu-Gi-Oh and Digimon (though I liked Digimon, it was butchard!!).

Yay!! I hate Sandland! I can't wait for Rurouni Kenshin, now I won't be all pissed that I can't download it off the site I found, that had over 300 chapters! Yea, Rurouni Kenshin is that long!

I just wish that they would decide to translate Weiss Kruez too!

So do I, even though I have the first Naruto book, I really like it! Can't say the same for One Piece, though. I like it better than Sandland!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, September 18 2003 @ 9.31 pm and she was listing to "Cosmic Dare"
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Kickboxing and a diet

I'm not going to update anything on my site, for the rest of this weekend . . . I don't feel like it now that I'm pissed!

Anyway, yea, I've gone on a diet. I feel fat, and I think I look fat . . . yea, I'm feeling cynical, bite me!

Anyway, I plan on taking kickboxing classes. Reasons are #1. I need an outlet for all my anger (all of that anger is directed to my own father.), and #2. I need something to do, I've got the energy, and I've got the strength. But basically, I need an outlet.

Anyway, I should have ranted about this before, but I forgot. Anyway, I want to rant on about Saint Seiya!

Boy is that show awsome!! I think it was by the same guy who did Yoroiden Samurai Troopers, seeing as how they character designs are so freaking similar! I love it! Saint Seiya (Knights of the Zodiac) is so awsome!! ::glomps:: Seiya you rock you bishi!

::hits head:: God, I'm pissed! >___< Damned father, damned world.

Don't worry, I'll shut up now!

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Sunday, September 07 2003 @ 6.57 pm and she was listing to "Sleepless Beauty" (a Nittle Grasper Gravi Song).
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Movies fun!

Aa, yes, yesterday, my sis's friend Sabella came and spent the night . . . we all know how this ended!

Anyway, we went to the movies . . . I saw the Medallion (with Jackie Chan), while they saw Freaky Friday (::sticks tonuge out:: bleh!). Anyway, while the Medallion isn't that good, it has some rather funny and slashy moments that I quite enjoyed!

This one part in paticular! Eddy (Jacki) came to Ireland from Hong Kong (to interpoles headquaters), and there he went to see the cheif. He meets up with his not offical girlfriend (::Screams:: nooooo) and they talk . . . blah blah blah.

This is where the funny part starts to come in

Anyway, Watson (who was Eddys former partner) walks in. He gets all miffed that he has to work with Eddy. Anyway, things go on, and Eddy tries to make nice with Watson, only all the other people in the office take it for a sexual relationship the two were "supposedly" having (because of how somethings were said).

At that point in the movie, I nearly choked from all the laughter! (there was only me in the theater . . . so lucky!) Anyway, that's when I started getting slashy ideas! >__< Ideas pop up at the most inconvinent of times!

And there was this other funny part, where Watson's wife get's attacked (Watson and Eddy were there too). And there was this whole big gun scene . . . anyway, it was really funny when Watson's wife went through their "cleaning closet" and pulled out this huge S.W.A.T. shield and a bunch of guns! It turns out that this lady also works for some sort of police.

Those two things were the only things enjoyable about that movie. It's not much; and looks alittle too fake, but that's what it was. Sadly!

::yawns:: There was a Digimon marathon on this morning . . and of course I watched it! Go Wussy Boy Takato! And Cutie Guilmon!! SQUEEE ::glomps plushies:: So cute!

Anyway, Shaman King also came on Fox Box this morning. It wasn't that bad, one of the main characters voices, Morty's, annoyed the hell out of me! >__< Damned scratchy voice!

Also, I've updated my site, if you want to check it out C L I C K H E R E

Anyway, I have a bunch more updates, though I might not get them all up this weekend . . . Or I might, I don't know, depends on how much I want to work on it, and what we plan on doing!

Yeesh, I am exhuasted! I'm gonna take a nap, or maybe watch tv! Ja!

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Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, November 20, 2003 @ 10.53 pm and she was listing to Sondo Matte Kissu, Orphen Revenge's main theme. Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Tuesday, November 18, 2003 @ 11.45 pm and she was listing to a Wild Wind ::Hiei and Kurama Duet:: Post a Comment

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Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Saturday, November 15 2003 @ 4.52 pm and she was listing to nothing 1 Person boosted my EGO | Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Wednesday, 12 2003 @ 7.16 pm and she was watching Law and Order (which I seem to do alot!) Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Tuseday, November 04, 2003 @ 6.44 pm and she was listing to the tv Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Friday, October 31 2003 @ 9.24 pm and she was listing to R.E.M "Loosing Your Religion." 1 Person boosted my EGO | Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, October 30 2003 @ 5.14 pm and she was listing/watching Family Guy Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, August 28 2003 @ 5.14 pm and she was listing to "The Last One Alive" and "Here" by VAST. Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Satruday, October 25 2003 @ 5.11 pm and she was listing to Revived Wolf ::Saitoh's Theme:: Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Friday, October 24 2003 @ 1.58 pm and she was listing to "Fire Soul Love" ::Bishoujo Sailor Moon:: Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Thursday, September 18 2003 @ 9.31 pm and she was listing to "Cosmic Dare" Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Sunday, September 07 2003 @ 6.57 pm and she was listing to "Sleepless Beauty" (a Nittle Grasper Gravi Song). 1 Person boosted my EGO | Post a Comment

Reki Strife's creativity went up a notch on Saturday, September 06 2003 @ 5.45 pm and she was listing to a mixed cd. Post a Comment