~+ mInD || oBseSsIoN +~

Sometimes... It takes hardly
feel like i'm going into nothingness, so empty and need to charge up. i knew why, but maybe it will take so long time to tell it here. There's nothing much to say anyway.. better go relax and calm down to face everything i've got. nothing much happened, it goes running quickly upon my head now, but still.. with silence, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!

by the way, i've planning to change my blog's lay-out, hope that it's the only way i change my mind too, 'mind revolution' i said, but i guess my mind is still the same... nothing changes. what the fuck i'm talking?!! i dun understand anyway ^^ ah, forget it... betsuni!

so now, wait for my invitation to visit my new style of blog, eh? just hope it happen quickly, because i'm so bored with this 'room style' of lay-out, seemed so cheerly... it's not me @ this time...

atama no naka ni : "kanji kanji kanji kanji"
geez, too much tabako o sutte ne.. tenggorokan sakit neh!!

ee, not much happened lately. i'm just bored here. i said i've got pra-mid test to ma boi, but truthly i'm here... at cyber cafe... i was too bored... geezz...

btw, my theatre club have some nice scenario about Yunani's condition when they would like to strike Sparta. The title is "Lysistrata"... dummy kind of scenario but funny anyway. i would like to join them again, but my college scores seems pretty ugly.. i need to fix it and i need more time for study. guess wut? i was dare not too sleep last nite until 5 AM for study but suddenly i miss my class at 9 AM today... ugh!! kanji no kakikata to tsukaikata wa sukoshi muzukashii desu ne?! hate it! but i like the teacher, Mr. Dance, he was so kind and funny ^^ so father look.

woopz... time is going so fast, i have to hurry or ma boi will know that i was lying.. i promised to bring him some lunch...

okay, that's enough... tha-tha~~

oh, i'm so sleepy & tired...
damn, here!... i was too lazy to going back home after the theatre activities @ college's reunion. too tired to walking, too sleepy for keep walking. and do you know wut? my boi just don't care about what was happened to me today.. he was TOO BUSY with himself....... god... please... i'm....... so.............T-I--R---E----D!! I wish I could just lay down and close my eyes and never wake up until tomorrow afternoon!!! without walking first!

and so now, me @ cyber cafe... i realized my money just Rp.6000,- and now... dunno where to go... feel so small and the road from here until my condo seems so faaaa~~~r-faa~~~r away!!! ssssshhhh.........!!!!

that damned boi! i thanked him @ my last entry before, and now... god, please!!!

AARGH!! USHI~~~~~!!!!
nyaaaa~~~~n!!! ee, koko ni tabako o tsuite mo iimasuka? *asking the owner of this cyber cafe* iimasu!!! I’m about being stress right now -.-"

tomo...soshite atashi no te ga itai, ashi ga itai, atama ga itai, me ga itai, karada to kokoro mo itai yo nee... doushita na? shiranai desu.. ima, atashi no hara wa peko-peko... haraheta!!!

about my tired condition, I thought those all happened b'coz I was too much think about so many things; theatre, band, my college schedule, my boi fren, and bla~ bla~ bla~~

anyway, I’m a lil' bit happy b'coz I’m trying hard to make my study scores better than before. I must say THANKS to my boi... it's all because of his courage. with my x-boiz before, my condition was never good enough like now. however, I wish I could raising up my spirit to still survive even tough here was so many DUMB people around me and trying to set me down with their behaviors.. but they must know, that I don't care and NEVER care about them again!

geezzz... they always come to me and asking me some helps, and usually I try hard to help them as good as I could.. but now, I DON'T CARE... do it yourself, dudes!! I'm not that stupid for being trash over after all that I’ve been trough.. they used to received my help and then stabbed me from behind.

I've got so many stupid friends in here... I could find better friends in somewhere else, I think. So... Jya Mata, Sayonara ne, dumberers! *I don't meaning it for you, who read this ^^, gomen!*