stoner made me cry ytd... *sniff. stone can touch people's heart one also ok... Not counting the break in ATC (where I put most of my feelings on hold) then I had been crying for four days in a row. At least I am (seeming to be) stopping today.
could please someone tell me why the wolf cries to the blue corn moon? and to the bear and the bull and the cow and the real dog and the duck and the real horses and the pigs.. and to those who don't have animal nicks as well.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 08:06 p.m. Monday, June 14, 2004
ATC... wham-bam, 3 days and it's gone. So sad. Last ATC of my life, and it's just over. But, oh well it was very happy :)
Before ATC
The ATC atmosphere was just thick in the air. Got that feeling that something BIG was coming up... and abit stressed too because was wondering how we would run the camp well- 4 years later, it's our turn. So much has gone into preparing it (and so much was cut out too :( but anw tt's not the point) and it was down to 3 days to make sure cadets have a memorable ATC to remember for years... even without the nights in sch and everything we do at night- campfire, night walk, etc.
Was rushing to pack stuff for ATC, den realised there wasn't much to pack coz everyday I can go home and get stuff from my house. Bleah.
On the same night, mum and dad were helping bro to pack stuff. wait, more like screaming at bro to pack stuff and get organised. He's going for NS. So the whole house was in a flurry of activities with my sis like the eye of the hurricane, just sitting around watching TV and otherwise slacking off oblivious to everything around her. Pat done. Go off to bed and set 1) Alarm clock 2) Countdown timer 3) Organiser on my phone and 4) Alarm clock 5) Organiser on bro's phone. Was waking up early to pack abit more stuff and read through all the ATC stuff.
ATC Day 1
Ok. So bro's phone disappeared in the night. Prob. he took it back :P. Anw managed to wake up at 6. Bit by bit rest of family woke up. Another big flurry as harried dad and mum gets bro's documents and bag ready. Bro seems nonchalant. Sis sleeping till 7 when mum chased her to get up coz we have to leave by 7.15 to get to Pasir Ris on time.
Sigh. Feel like I'm the one who's going off to the army coz I was up the earliest and most anxious to be on time while bro is taking his time to bathe.
Shall continue this on another entry. Back to ATC Day 1
Reached sch 10.30. Played the Q&A thingy, in charge of Charlie. Very like no time like that? And the game abit... luan4. But anw Charlie keeps sending "wrong people" up to answer questions, coz the 2 pple in front will look blur den the rest of Charlie bursting to tell the answer. ;) Lots of times.
Next is Mystery Game- whoa the scripts and everything is detailed, but personally I feel it's not as pro as B33 m's starry night thingy- maybe coz we done it before :S dunno. Bravo's reasoning is gooooood- with the bulky bag thing :) Joe playing Molly Lucas very drama hor!
Next there was a bit of drill... like normal drill la. Usu. last time drill will be in the middle of changing parade, then it was such a :D respite from running back into company room and rushing to change into smth else while guarding rifles wearing only a BRA... not me but seen it few times ago. I don't really have that much of a problem with ma'ams coming to qiang rifles in changing parade, what gets me really worked up and peeved and angry is when ma'ams try to qiang cadets' rifles while they are only wearing a bra, and cadets fighting off ma'ams half-naked? What if ma'ams pull at the wrong thing ar? Sheesh. OK I digress. Drill was just drill, let diff. cadets get together with their sqms again and drill. Rmb for S3 tt time
it was like... at least some time off the burden of leading and xiang cheers and just shut down my brain and follow commands. Dunno if it is for this time. Taught B36 new baring and uncak timing. I prefer the new one :)
Orienteering me wx and rz was running around with Alpha. By the end of the thing I almost wanted to cry already. But ATC can't do tt. Basically about half the game we + alpha thought we were looking for an ORANGE cross, till at the music room station I spotted a WHITE cross. Called Cheryl, den I was ! and sheesh at the same time. Alpha was trying freaking hard the whole time and they keep uncovering clues instead of crosses, coz they thought it was orange. Their deduction skills not bad hor! Always hear weiwen going "alpha, the bearing is xxx degrees, so that means the cross should be somewhere here (gestures) ok?" then sometimes also she and liming will get close to the clues, but not quite, can be quite frustrating and xin suan to watch.
Their spirit really not there... aiyo... wx rz and me were encouraging them more than they were encouraging themselves. In tt day 3 of us said more "Alpha jia you!"s than "Bravo jia you!"s...-_-|| then I realised I'm very pro-company... just fight for the company I took come judging time, of course not to the extent of suaning Bravo la, but you get wad I mean. Anw orienteering Bravo didn't really need anyone to fight for them, they were the best liao.
And someone please watch over me when I'm with rz. I'm scared one of these days I'll just blow my top and start getting violent at her. Just feeling like screaming at her. =x *praying that I learn something from all tt happened last yr about emotions. Alpha keeps reminding me of last year. *shivers. Den I tell myself, new year, new company, don't keep dragging the baggage all over the place. So I kept my feelings in. Oh Delta also didn't know they were supp. to look for white crosses, they kept looking for green :S
Bravo was leading by end of Day 1, 4111. Was feeling pretty yi han-ish coz didn't really get to be with them, except for lunch?- whole day with Charlie and Alpha mostly. Bravo was kind of quiet for the first day... not much spirit. Compared to BravoO1 they were the exact opposite, coz Bravo01 was doing :( in terms of points but we were fighting really hard, then Bravo04 was high-flying but not much spirit.
Bravo came over to my house for the night except rz. Dad was being his usual friendly self :D Talked about lots of Bravo stuff, made up the 3 Bravo cheers and jy took over my comp for the whole night :P Joe wanted to sleep early so they took the
now-empty Bro's room (army, rmb?) jy went to read her Bible. (yesterday I went into that room and found our Reader's Digest Guide to the Occult and Mysticism book open on bro's table. Prob. bro reading halfway. An altar downstairs, bible studies in the bedroom with a witchcraft? book on the table... it just hit me at tt point of time how many complex, diverse ideas about life Man has today, and however conflicting they can be, they all CAN coexist).
wx and I stayed up and (finally!) get to use the comp. juz went blog-surfing. Nothing much. Oh yar when the 4 of us were still awake wx showed us this website, very meaningful. One day I stick the url in here if I remember. Now too lazy.
ATC Day 2
Shooting. That was the first word on my mind when I woke up. After breakfast, Dad drove us all to sch. I made him wake up at 6.15 coz that was the time we planned to leave but in the end we left at 6.45, and so he was still bleary-eyed. Thanks dad!
CD com, I was observer, coz now no more night maze coz there is no night. Hrmph. xw draws injuries with such scary real detail. :S:S freaky. Both groups had their good and bad points... different ones though. Somewhere late into the Alpha-Charlie round I casually mentioned to mel that she is dead because no one has attended to her for more than half the comp, then dunno why it spread and soon rz is dead too, then word about this "dead-ness" spread downstairs and lots of pple were dying. The condolence speech penned by hy, wx and me was ! and wx actually ran off to find the poem thing on the internet- whoa. Later for the Bravo-Delta round there were still dead people (who this time come back as haunting ghosts) but no more eulogies. Ah sad. Oh btw during the Alpha-Charlie round, also quite late into it, sihui was one of the last still inside the classroom, on the chair to be transported down. 2 s2s trying to carry her, den dey asked for help. One s3 came in, saw who the casualty was, BRIGHTENED up immediately (like :D:D:D:D!!!!) den us observers were turning round laughing ;) :D. Ah well. Anw sihui still died coz all her help came too late.
Shooting time! Last sch to register coz we came late (taxi took us all over tp) so we had to wait a long time- 2.5 hours. Last year it was 1-hour plus. Zonked out in the stifling heat. Last year I was dozing off all the time and renyu m had to wake me up couple of times, maluating. Joe the reserve took GREAT interest in the grass and flowers (last time not so fenced up) and ants crawling on the floor. Wait so long, all just for your chance of 1.5 minutes to show all that you've got. With that comes malfunctioning revolvers, faulty bullets (there is such a thing-read in the Directive the HQ sent us) and impatient announcers. Don't mean to be so cynical, but its true. We did :I prob like last year or maybe a teeny bit worse. Don't know, can't really compare coz its 18 rounds last year. Still, I'm pretty sure we'll get into finals. If *choi! we don't, it shows us just how much we have to buck up. As ma'ams said, its not tt our standard is dropping, its the other schs that are catching up and overtaking at a fast rate. *plans to write letter to shooting team. Feeling very quiet after that
Back in school was feeling happier with mini chicken feet for shooting team de... :D watch their reactions, so farny! And they sent us screaming and running at the end of the whole thing chasing us off the original place ;) tt was basically it for the 2nd day. Once again, didn't have much with Bravo coz shooting took up a great deal. Saw the 3 plates of food Bravo left us for their outdoor cooking comp... so sweet! Somehow they weren't doing as good... maybe coz only have liulu leading Bravo and joe and me are gone, dunno. wx said Bravo spirit still not there. Went over to cheryl's hse for the night. Writing out Bravo cheers till I fell asleep and couldn't wake up the next morning to memorise all of them. Cheryl's bro's room is HOT at first, then was very COLD!. Joe sleeping on the left side of the bed kept hogging the teeny blanket (she doesn't know- she's sleeping) and keep turning lefter and lefter so I have to follow her if I want a measly share of the blanket, ended up sore all over the left side of my body when I woke up coz I was lying on tt side the whole night with a cold and sleepy coz not enough sleep. *yawn.
ATC Day 3
It started off with ball games, Bravo playing captain's ball first. We could have sub NCOs if we wanted to, but erh-herh-herh... Bravo NCOs are terrible in ball games. S3s were all better than us :P It wasn't so much about winning the game, more like, letting cadets win using their own effort, (because we are so blah anyway) and I'm sure they felt proud of their effort though they lost to Charlie and it was so close! gosh. Finally I see the Bravo spirit out... was so happy and proud :)
Then rugby was... watershed. From the start, it was rough, then it just got worse and worse... just shocking and very, very saddening. :`( One casualty became 2,3,4... it just keeps escalating and wasn't stopping. When sqms turn against their own sqms just for their companies, it's too much. Sure rugby in 2001 was rough and just maybe the injuries were severe too, but at one point there was a stop Yes, tears were shed too, but it was because we tried so hard but yet still lost (adding to our mediocre record) and not because the competition was so fierce and cruel. We were stuck between counting captain's ball scores only and voiding the whole thing, so in the end we voided the whole thing. The points in the light of what has happened becomes insignificant. Then I was feeling really bad too, coz I wondered if I had a part to play- was telling cheryl (loh) and weili about the best company cycle at cheryl's hse the previous night, don't know if it made them feel more competitive... :`(
Things took a better turn at the preparation for The Gathering, Bravo really putting in lots of effort for the cheers and musical thing- yay! While we are outside doing Midnight Parade. Made the fatal mistake of assuming that if alumni knows about time change of gathering, B34 ma'ams will know. Couldn't reach them, then didn't bother trying tt hard. Obviously I was wrong. *sigh.
Bravo cheer comp was done in true Bravo-style, not much change in formation or actions, maybe some cheers not memorized well enough, but we tried hard, and we have spirit! Ah.. tt's the most impt for cheer comp! spongebob helped too I guess, coz Delta was laughing all the way because of him ;)
Bravo is Best company! Not only did we cheer, but ex-ma'ams too... Bravo hasn't been best company for a looong time! :) I was feeling happy too, but not as happy as when I saw the Bravo spirit coming out today... really- tt's the most important. Bravo is like family- close, warm, united and spirited- Bravo's trademark. That leaves wonderful memories for years to come, even after so many ATC experiences and different companies. We still come together and talk lots about Bravo01 because it left so many deep memories for the 6 of us... while the other companies we've been in (sad to say) just fly by... Alpha, Charlie and Delta.
Debrief, mainly about how our Bravo01 was and maybe a little about how s1s2s3s feel about Bravo04, and the ATC in general... like a perfect closure to ATC04... *sigh. There, and it was over.
sorry guys, but in my heart, Bravo01 will be the best company ever. Bravo04 came really close, but in Bravo01 as a blur l'il S1... with everything that Bravo01 had to go through, left a deep impact on me that I still feel today, even though everyone we knew there has passed out and we are on the verge ourselves... the memories stay.
Been blogging for 2hr 15 min... *wow. record liao.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 05:30 p.m. Monday, June 14, 2004
Carb, carb , carb! Ate two sets of garlic bread and soup at Prince with wx and mel. Dental appt made teeth hurt so dun really want to eat full meal. Mel ate them her share and my chicken cutlet- everything ;)
Then we were talking, about lots of stuff. Mostly about our future careers... HOW? I know what I want but I don't know how to get it. Equestrian studies- tt's the proper name of the course I need, but WHERE in Singapore to get it man. Den I need to go overseas budden where's the $$$ man. And den it is so isolating and cut-off coz you leave behind everything and bring only yourself and your hopes and dreams... abit scared la.
Go home sleepy... sleep for 3h liddat. I had dis nightmare about needing spray paint for ATC but I forgot, so was rushing to Coro to buy it, running around like a mad dog at the overhead bridge, bus stop etc. to get paint before ATC starts at 7... but this time pm? haha. Because of tt nightmare I woke myself up and I was like, *gasp! Forgot to get spray paint for the class to do up the 4/13 board thing. Jolted out of bed, changed into house clothes (was in hongzi) and thought all I needed to do was to rush to the DIY store at Cold Storage there. Walk 100m and back. Oh wear my pants wrong way round, tho not obvious. Nobody would see what, sixth ave got hardly any lights. Troublesome, but no problem.
It was CLOSED. Den I rushed over to BTP, (clothes like tt ! :o ) and they dun haf. Met vivien m dere- add tt touch of np, to coincide with for ATC dream. *bleah. Woz hoping not to meet anyone I recognise coz my clothes were 1 step from rags lor :P Orh ok sure groundsheet can bye so sorry u haf to see me in this state. :P. Muz go all the way to West Mall and get. *sigh. All the time in my shabby hse clothes and my pants seem to keep dropping down :P. Ah well. At least I got my spray paint. And end up the experience was worse and more tiring than my dream, with much less adrenaline. Left home 8pm, came back 10pm. *sigh. Tired again.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:42 p.m. Wednesday, June 9, 2004
Thank you.
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you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:41 p.m. Monday, June 7, 2004
Realised I haven't listened to my stereo radio for a long time (always use hp radio) so yesterday I juz tried again for the first time in a while... and the song that came on is this song a few years back, and it was so soft and sad. And the lyrics were so meaningful, it made my cry. Oh my. I heard the song before, but never really did pay much attention to it till yesterday when I listened carefully to the lyrics.
So today went to surf up on the song: "Light in Your Eyes" by Blessed Union of Souls. The actual song is much longer, but this part was the most meaningful, and the bold parts really made me cry...
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:15 p.m. Monday, June 7, 2004
Complete list of things I learnt today:
1) How to floss teeth (taught since forever)
2) Rate of reaction (chem) um, ya.
3) JC culture. HC, RJ, VJ, Temasek, Anderson...
4) Difference between JC teachers and Poly lecturers (I really want to go Poly now)
5) Rigid, tedious school bureaucracy. Looong wait to get things done.
6) Address excuse letters to the Principal
7) Ah gong is a nice person :) explaining in full will take really loong :P
8) Religion
9) Sqms life stories
10) How to bind up rifles with masking tape
11) How to carry 4 rifles to TCHS at once
12) How bad things can get under time pressure
13) How NOT to organise a campfire
sigh.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 09:28 p.m. Monday, June 7, 2004
Feel juz a teeny bit better, so shall blog about, happier stuff.
Ooh, DALT dinner was a smash! $19 and so much FOOD! sashimi, oysters, pasta, ice-cream, sharks' fin, never felt so full for a long time. Thanx ah gong's daddy's fren :) & coz we haf own room can make lots of noise unlike last yr's envt which is so... sterile. Ok nvm. This yr is noisy and happy!
only thing is *sigh... wish sqms will put in more thought into what they put into zhong ji mi ma food. -> sometimes kinda forget some pple can't eat certain stuff. *shudders. The game was good anyhow :)
And den piccy time! Man, halfway I felt as tho the whole unit was holidaying in some foreign country, coz we were posing in a mall so "determinedly", like we haven't been dere and won't ever in our whole lifetime even tho it is just Park Mall haha. And oso coz its abit late and no parents/sch envt around to remind myself of home... feels so Shanghai-ish. :D Didn't go PS. Just wanted to stay outside and do people-watching or walk but nobody really wants to... ah well go home and sleep with a big smile on my face
*sigh. so fast and moods can drop so low.
going off to have a good think.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:33 p.m. Saturday, June 5, 2004
Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, you are not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. You are extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and you allow only a special few into your inner world. Like a wary animal, you are cautious and mistrustful of those you do not know until you "sniff them out". You are very, very instinctive and intuitive. You usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though you may be unable to clearly articulate why you feel as you do. Your feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.
From astrology.com. Hit on the nail- the accuracy is scary. Btw they ask for really specific information-> put sg as country and they ask you which "city" you live in- got things like Bukit Timah (mine), Woodlands, Choa Chu Kang, Buona Vista etc.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:18 p.m. Saturday, June 5, 2004
This is so horribly screwy.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:04 p.m. Saturday, June 5, 2004
Sheesh. I dunno who else gets offended by vulgarities. You know what? I dun care about you. Scroll down and read the rest if you want.
WHAT THE FREAKING HELL DO YOU WANT THIS TIME, HUH? ZHEN DE YAO WO DE MING IZZIT? GO ON, TAKE IT, TAKE IT, YOU ALMOST HAD IT, WHY DUN YOU JUST GO ALL THE WAY THIS TIME? TAKE WHATEVER YOU WANT AND LEAVE ME IN PEACE. GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH AND STOP DRAGGING IT
Which reminds me of this dark and twisted novel- The Tulip Touch by Anne Fine. Inside, there is this bit about two ways to drown kittens-
1) Tulip's father throws them in a pot of water, claps on the lid and goes away. The kitten struggles and occasionally manages to raise the lid a little bit, letting in fresh air, so it lives, prolonging the struggle. It struggles for hours and hours, till it finally dies of exhaustion.
2) Tulip drowns them as well, but she holds them firmly beneath the surface and never let them breathe another breath again. Kitten dies within minutes
Sure, there's so many respites and breaks in the first method, but it is so much more cruel.
Bleah. my template... this is so ironic.
(and a few hours can undo the toil of 10.5 months. like snakes and ladders- one wrong move, and its back to square 1)
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 05:45 p.m. Saturday, June 5, 2004
Some days I turn around and look back
at where I came from.
Walking away from a plane crash, and
seeing the charred black empty shell
engulfed with searing crimson flames
with the sickening smell of burnt rubber, and
how I was so close. too close.
Bare feet running on the tarmac
Burning experience etched forever
Mingled with the sweet comfort of memories
while you keep coming back in a kind of way,
Every night.
It's been a long road.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:41 a.m. Friday, June 4, 2004
Sigh. Forget it. Won't blog about sports day. Super long time ago. Not very nice to rmb anyway- worst sports day ever.
Mid yrs also come and gone. Bleah. Crashed for Bio- D7. Almost everyone got A1 for E maths. Got 84. Give some of tt to Bio and SS next time please. My average is 68 and L1R5 18, most other peeps who have average 68 got L1R5 12-15. Whatever. It's only mid-yrs.
At one point when my L1R5 was shooting up to the sky (when things like Chem and Phys came back and it climbed up to L1R426-27) I was thinking, man, if this was prelims, I would be spending my first 3 months in ITE. No kidding.
Or maybe I shld just go out and work.
Dad's gone all over China for business trip for 1 week now, another week more before he comes back. So loong. Usu. he goes off few days only. But he calls back almost everyday and that's sweet =). I rmb when I was in Shanghai 2 weeks I just called twice and sms-ed a few times. *oops.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:32 a.m. Friday, June 4, 2004
Let's juz make this entry dated May 7th- uh, later make it dated May 8. Balek abit before I start on mid-yrs again.
NP dae
Night before, was doing up u at expense of hw again, like last year. Last NP day parade, must make it really really great... wanted to have caffeine fix at 1am but thought it wasn't much use anyway. Would have kept awake anyhow. Dad sleeping upstairs. Went to sleep the moment I told him I had to be in sch at 6 ;) *feels guilty. Already not bad la, k? At least we get to wake up as late as 5.30.
Done with u at 3.30. Settle in couch for 2hrs of sleep. Not bad compared to last yr.
In sch, u worn, flags brought down to canteen, rifles brought up to canteen, sec 1s, 2s, 3s fall-in... perfect. Den the rain. Things seem to always to happen when its OUR turn.
Rain stops. Quad wet, water swishing all over like some melted ice rink. No problem! First comes ah-gong with 1 (one!) mop den it was 10... 20... ++++ and the whole unit with brooms and dustpans mopping up the quad in FULL-u... about 60 peeps in one sea of blue + the red-and-green of plastic brooms and grey handles and red dustpans, man I douch noe how to call it- hilarious? sweet? heartwarming? man oh man... so memorable and etched in my heart and mind forever. Of course pple were staring and even taking pictures, but anw the parade MUST go on.
The whole time I was standing there I was dou-ing... don't know why. Later debboz and cher said it wasn't obvious. gd den :) Anw I couldn't see anything except a sea of white cloth the whole time coz after the first turong the flag was covering my face and I couldn't do anything to uncover it.
<- Smth liddat. Blow up the pic so it covers ur whole face and stare at it for 10 min. You get wad I mean.
Anw flag covering the face is not a mistake, it's a unpreventable thing- happens even during the actual NP day parade at HQ. Flag is like the long sometimes- pple are more interested in seeing the long wu den the pple who are wu-ing it. Same with flag.
Hormat was PERFECT! yay, dream comes true! All the flags were down, unfolded nicely. Thx to angela for washing e colour flags- nice and clean for e sch to see :) and mebbe it helped too coz it became smoother and slides off easily. :D so sorry it soaked up the rainwater after tt
Mr Kuo was up in front <-*I think* some1 (shufie?) was going "ooh there's Renny!" and well, there's the glorious end :) So perfect. Amanda m said s1's drills not up to standard, of course its a valid statement, granted, but after all tt's happened, tt's not the point, ya. We want our 1st class. we want our 1st class. we want our 1st class..
Piccy taking at rifle range. Cool. Den walked around in full-u for whole day again, last time in 4 years. *haiz...
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:57 a.m. Saturday, May 15, 2004
Two days into the mid-yrs... shall do the commentary bit like last yr again- um, well before Pitas crashed and everything about tt was lost.
Mid-yrs Kit List:
- 1 grey Walkman bag with a broken zip and a big ink spot
- 1 black un-school approved Baleno pullover "Beck" -> security blanket
- 1 pencil box that contains 5 blue pens lovingly bought by Dad when I asked for A (as in 1?) pen. "I didn't know which type you use so I bought a few" um, thanks, dad.
- TYS and books for the day's subjects. And prob. also the next.
- Foolscap to go with TYS
- $ for food at KAP
- Egg from home to be thrown away in school No dad, you didn't see tt ;)
Ah... so light.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:45 a.m. Saturday, May 15, 2004
-spot of peace-
better blog here first before bro and sis wake up and snatch the com away for the whole day.
We have free run of the house. Dad and Mum gone to M'sia for wedding dinner (he xi jiu) for 3 days, so in the meantime it's just bro, me and sis. Bro the oldest basically is in-charge, (which means do nothing) I become chefess, cleaner, washerwoman, ironer, dishwasher, dog-feeder, wad else? basically full-time housewife la. Sis, hmmm... she just has to eat her food and loaf around and create no trouble. *sigh... after I blog finish must go prepare breakfast before they wake up.
Doesn't sound like much fun? I prefer all this to studying for midyears, thank you. Was studying log last night and realised I forgot totally how to solve expo eqns, and some of the rules of expo. I never knew how log graph looks in the first place... so I was like *oh! new discovery. Bleah. Today studying trig. SOOO happy.
Wait. Cannot end on studying note. That hasn't been what I've been doing. Mebbe when I grow up I shall be like, horse trainer-cum-housewife ;) But how do you become a housewife without having children? If you just do housework alone without kids then you are a maid not a housewife. think about that later.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 09:04 a.m. Sunday, May 2, 2004
(look below the superficial)
Man oh man... the day I've been kind of waiting for for 2 years came and gone... so fast! 2 years of days of training... and a night to remember.
Me and mel went earli... special flag party trng. Nort much actually, more like nail-the-flag-to-the-pole session. With 24 flags... well it took long. A bit of trng in the drill shed, while Team B kind of slacked off... sit down the whole way... er.
Lunchtime! We went out to J8 as flag party excursion. 1 CI, 41 shuaiges and 5 chiobus... tt's a lot of pple going around as a big crowd :) But for the actual eating part we separated la... went with mel and yiting and kailing from cedar eat mos burger. My $5 bought corn soup and cookie and coke... eh so unvalue for money. Eat finish everything still feel as hungry as before eating. Bleahz. But too scared to eat too much- later puke everything out.
Continue later horz... now muz go do hw.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 08:27 p.m. Sunday, April 18, 2004
Wahhaaaz... dunno why PE so tiring today. Walk down stairs already thigh pain, stomach pain, arm pain (<- prob. from yesterday's trng, but thigh and stomach leh???) so in the end run v. slow. Bleah. and soccer... grr... last term tennis was better, even though both also hao bu dao na li qu. Good also until nowhere. Blahz. Sweat.
WOW. our class KWS schedule is kinda messed up. Btw we like, haven't prepared anything for the elderly pple dere hor. Friendship doll oso was naked until today.
Big big blackout around midnight. While trying to study ELECTROlysis. Big irony. Found out our torchlights all lauya pok coz used up for my/sis's camps liao. Only reliable one was the 3200 hp. Haha. Finally ma got big clunky one to work :) End up studying chem in dad's car. Coz car got car batt wad haha. But dad chased me out after a while coz he say later batt run out tml car cannot start. Study using candles and torchlight lor. Oh well it was good when it came back. And harh phone no need electricity one meh? K I didn't noe that. Phys fail la.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 02:29 a.m. Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Just want to say... how private can smth on public domain be? The primitive pen-and-paper is still the best... better still if you can pen it down in abstract poetry only you can understand. K maybe tt's too much. But you get what I mean.
Or if you're even too scared pple may chance upon tt paper and see everything keep it in your head or your heart or anywhere you keep things in yourself. Basically juz store it in yourself. Nobody can see it then. And keep tt separate from what you do. Else pple will read your actions. kind of like, no use not telling us directly when you write it in the sand in 2 languages. ok nvm.
Or if you REALLY have to get it out of your system, tell someone who doesn't know the pple whom you nv want the info to get to. Better still if they go very far far away after tt. Physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, spiritually, whatever. And even better still if it's more than one person and they all go far far away, bringing your secrets with them to some other place where nobody knows you. Hahaz.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:51 a.m. Sunday, April 11, 2004
Eng Oral. Nv practiced so hard for it b4. *sigh. Oh well. Btw I tink Ms Choo's idea is good... the calling into her house den practice oral over the phone thing. But... I wish she could give negative comments as well, coz all she says is "good" and "very good" when I know I can improve somewhere. But if she criticize me I'll be like... am I really tt bad or smth liddat. Oh well... guess she knows us best. Coz despite the good thing she's saying I'm still practising by myself and guess tt's what every teacher wants.
The actual thing... prepared lots of things to say about the pic but in the end the examiner didn't ask about tt... so everything was thrown out the window :S. It's pretty much thinking on my feet, and saying whatever happens to come to my mind. Try to smuggle in whatever I can. Btw Illinois is pronounced like "Illinoy" isn't it?
The conver part... tt's really good for me :) coz it's abt nature and I lurv nature! So got lots to talk about. And the examiner seems pretty interested, either tt or becoz I'm the 1st person so she's naturally not so tired yet.
Overall I think it's quite good :) I'll give it 8.5/10 :D
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:40 a.m. Sunday, April 11, 2004
"The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all"
I know you're still listening.
I hope so.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:21 a.m. Sunday, April 11, 2004
Flag Days
Realised after all this time I haven't written anything about flag day yet... oops. thot I blogged it down long ago.
I did two flag days two weeks in a row... 20 and 27 mar. St. Luke's Hospital and Muhammadiyah Welfore Home. It's GREAT exercise and you can do a good deed at the same time, really yi ju liang de... :) and if you are really kiam siap you can go kope the free bottles of water... :P
Most pple you approach donate about $1 liddat... and after a while their faces start to look the same as everyone else... like there is this man/woman-in-the-street face liddat. Composite face like man in the bowler hat (rmb PDD?) Mebbe it's your eyes go o.O after seeing so many strangers close-up on one day. Oh and I noticed if they are with little children they'll always ask the kids to put it in and "take the sticker"
Memorable pple:
- I was slouched by the wall, sms-ing in one corner of the street and not bothering to even ask for donations for about 3 min, den this man just came up and put in some coins in my bag :) So taken aback I only managed a hurried "thanx!" and a big smile
- At the bus stop asking for donations, den this woman was like, "you've got a sticker on your skirt". Located it, stuck it back on the bag. "and here too" okay... "and here also". So malu. But she donated anyway.
- There was this quite elderly man dressed up in a long white (what do you call it? robe?)... looks like a priest/bishop/pastor/religious authority, I'm not really sure (sorry about tt) and he wore this big cross (really big) around his neck. On it (I think, can't rmb) there's this phrase "Walk by Faith, Not by Sight"... so... guess he's blind, and also coz he's wearing sunglasses. He donated generously :) Shows that charity knows no religious bounds because MWH is a Muslim organisation :D
- Reminds me of this woman who smiled and said "children are innocent, no matter the race" as she donated
- There was this woman who just came out of the bank and I approached her. She asked "donate 5 cents can?" and I was like, "yar, any amount would do" and held out the tin for her. She then said "Nono, open out your palm", and so feeling :S I did. WHOA, she released like, few hundred 5 cents coins into my hand man! *big flood. Almost want to drop off the corners of my hand liao. I spent the next 5 min trying to slot them into my tin. Obviously became super heavy after tt.
Best spots to get flag day donations:
- Traffic crossings, while pple are waiting for green man to start crossing. They'll get abit bored and would donate. But you must watch carefully for the timing, coz it won't be good if you ask for donations den the green man comes on
- Bus stop. The pple waiting will be bored stiff and can afford the time to open up their purses/wallets. Dun ask the pple getting off the bus if you can, they are always in a rush one. 10 min later if you go back you find most of the pple are different liao so you can start asking again
- Places with families e.g. water fountains with playing children. Parents feel they have to teach their children values of charity and take this opportunity to do so.
- Some distance away from places of worship, e.g. church. There will be lots of pple around making their way there... and they feel obliged to donate coz... you understand la. But dun stand too near else they mistake you for collecting $ for the church. And personally I don't really like to stand too near... sorry.
Smile! Pple will feel :) and maybe decide to donate... if they don't, well at least you get pple smiling back at you.
Novena area: Lots of pple coming from after NP day parade (not necessarily GOH) training go to Novena Square, we included oso marh. Can go ask from them, but generally students are quite broke :(
And I realised... a lot of elderly vagrants sell stuff like tissue paper, cotton buds, peanuts etc. at Novena. Pls DON'T "compete" with this pple. Their lives are hard enough. Go somewhere else. And take the time off to buy smth too. Their spirit of valiant self-reliance is really commendable.
Thank you all who have donated :) You've helped make someone's day and touched the lives of the less fortunate. Hope you can find your spare change quickly and don't hafta fumble around :) so you can go ahead with the day.
Flag day... can learn a lot about Singaporean pple.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:43 a.m. Sunday, April 11, 2004
You know, if you asked me and I had to give an answer, I'll rather you not come back. Because every time the letting go becomes harder.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 12:11 a.m. Wednesday, April 7, 2004
Okay... this is getting pretty confusing. Guess I have to psycho myself back. Bleah. After I spent one day psychoing myself.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 12:05 a.m. Wednesday, April 7, 2004
Tired. Guess that is what people are now. And they are using whatever little energy they still have to concentrate on other more important things. Yes, I concede they are important, I can't find anything to argue it back with and I don't exactly want to either.
No matter how much you train, unlike some other competition, a lot really depends on that day itself. If you are so lucky that everything goes smoothly, good for you. Usually, there will be something that crops up that you can't prevent. It happens. And if you really so cham and suei suei things go really really wrong, any more good luck and training won't save you. So it's like a, what you get out of it isn't what you put in thing.
And it's true that... it plays second fiddle to other things in NP... like it's not tt important whether we win or not? Juz compare the reactions when we didn't get first, for this last year and for that this year... you can tell. I'm not resentful or jealous or anything. Maybe it's coz more people are involved in that so it affects more people... this is tiny.
Yes, xw, and the rest too, I do want my 1st.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:53 p.m. Tuesday, April 6, 2004
Sorry, I never told you,
all I wanted to say. Now it's
too late to hold you. 'Cause you've
flown away, so far away.
Never, Had I imagined, yeah,
living without your smile. Feelin' and
knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive.
Alive!
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
like so many friends we've lost along the way, and
I know eventually we'll be together, Together babe,
One sweet day. One sweet day.
Picture a little scene from Heaven.
Although, the sun will never shine the same,
I'll always look to a brighter day.
One Sweet Day, Ooh, Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say.
It's hard to lose a friend.
Goodbye.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 08:20 p.m. Monday, April 5, 2004
I knew who I was talking to, but then again I didn't know who I was talking to- tt surreal thingy again. It's only like, around 5am, 3 hrs later, then it hit me. Oh! I actually talked to her. Yar hor... tt kinda thing.
Or maybe it's my brain farnie again. Lack of sleep. But there's soooo many things I need/want to do...
B is for butterfly. B is for...
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 01:30 a.m. Saturday, April 3, 2004
iron and starch, I hate you lots. Bleach, you've become my new best friend ;)
whatever the case, shall hire some professional ironing service for my wedding gown when I grow up. Not ever ironing anything impt and white after No. 1 u... juz put the iron down on the sleeve some brown rust-coloured thingy forms, like gloves after carrying Mach-5 liddat. Rushed to bleach it off, heng at least it came out. Try again, the iron turned lowest already, MORE of it formed. Den muz bleach again. the experience is so scary and frustrating, in the end give up on ironing the sleeve, farnie the other parts of e u nothing happened. freaky. Sworn off ironing priceless white clothes after this NP day parade thing.
Who can iron my wedding gown when I grow up? :S
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 12:28 a.m. Saturday, April 3, 2004
Like, WOW. been doing work since 10.30 and it's now 5. Took only small breaks in between. Really. It's been a looooooong night man. Mind groggy. Studying ting xie. Look at word for 10 seconds oso can't recognise what it is. Bleahz. Horrible mood. Sleep sleep sleep! What I'll do for sleep...
they can be plastered and bandaged and bound up and swaddled and ignored, but raw nerves will be raw.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 05:05 a.m. Thursday, April 1, 2004
Fed up with hw. Shall blog.
Copy copy. Heez. Nvm not tt I mind *spread it around~~
Not making sense. Hu cares. It's almost 4 in the morning and still got lit essay test, ying yong wen, ting xie, jian bao, sui bi and rest of bio report to do. Mite as well not sleep and doubt I can finish by 6.30.
Sigh. Better get back to work
At least the hot chocolate helped.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 03:42 a.m. Thursday, April 1, 2004
happy april fools. lalalaaallaaaa........
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 01:30 a.m. Thursday, April 1, 2004
Astounding things can hit you on the head when you never expect it, such as when you are rushing overdue bio report at 1 in the morning. and you would never guess how much it would affect you till it really happens.
surreal? ethereal? you bet.
then that's not so far away.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 01:22 a.m. Thursday, April 1, 2004
K sorry, sorry. I take it back. Not that I don't miss you. Eh wait, not that I do actually. Bleahz. Dunno how to explain la. *sigh. Forget it. Go back and do your own thing. Just hope you are fine.
A is for apple. A is for...
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:48 p.m. Tuesday, March 23, 2004
MUMMY I LOVE YOU! CONGRATS! :D hao xin ku ni le. :)
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:45 p.m. Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Blame in on a three hour-maths exam. Trying to de-stress.
**start transmission
"Yo wazzup dude! Turn up that dial! You are listening to Batch 35 radio, the only station that rocks the airwaves babae! Before we get down and play the great music, we here seem to have a little technical problem right now- the station is now available in two streams; you can tune in to CT peeps yakkety-yak at 35.35 FM, or turn the dial and listen in on Non-CT peeps gift-of-the-gab at 35.0 FM. We'll see what we can do about this problem, and get back to you shortly. Once again, thank you for choosing Batch 35 radio."
**end transmission
Different frequency.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:34 p.m. Tuesday, March 23, 2004
If you are not inclined on reading this entry, I won't stop you. It's very personal after all.
Mum and Dad were talking about the tenants, some contract problem thing or other. Sis and I got curious, then they explained it to us. Hmmz, it wasn't tt big a problem, and anyway it was like 90% solved. Then Dad went on to his super expensive $200 per head dinner with his Japanese clients, like a thank-you dinner for them or something because they bought lots of stuff from the company :D. It was going on really nice and well, and sis and me were happily listening :)
Don't know how, but then the conversation topic changed to my dad's childhood. He likes to recount his childhood, and well they are interesting :). But this time he went way back, way, way back... and very deep.
He told us so many stories of his grandfather and grandmother, (my great-grandfather and g-grandmother)his parents, and about how they were when they were young.
Seems as though it can come out of a Catherine Lim book... just... much much much x 10 more tragic and heartbreaking. Sooo much suffering and struggles, all for the hope of a better future for future generations. Stories of love (between husband and wife, between mother and child, between brother and sister), lust, second wives, compassion, backbreaking labour, holding through the tough times, hopes and dreams, leaving home, dark days, memories, sweet success...
It was a really long talk, few hours? Sis and I were just listening to every single thing, forgetting all about our food, which long went cold. Towards the end, we were crying... I was trying to hold back my tears really really hard, but it was impossible. In the end Bro who was silently munching his food all along also listened in and joined the conversation
Night time in bed, I realized that the present "Ren" generation is the "fruit" of the excruciating labours put in by the several generations before us... right from my g-grandparent's time, or even before that. There were not even working for a better future for themselves, but for their descendants. Which was us. I was so touched, so guilty, so proud, so many feelings all inside. In the end I cried myself to sleep.
"Qian2 shi4 yao4 zuan4 lai2 de4 ma..." (money must be earned one wad...) Yes, and you need much, much more than work. Lots more. 4 generations, 1 century, and much stregth, hope and courage.
It didn't come easy.
I've made up my mind. If I marry, I would not choose to be childless. Not any more. I want our family tree to go on and on, and one day I will tell my children the same story.
I will bring my children to my parents, and let them be proud grandparents.
I am proud to be a Lim.
Mummy, I am waiting to hear your story.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:32 p.m. Monday, March 22, 2004
Gah. Today made changes to pple's blog links. Coz dun tink they keeping up with the anonymosity thingie anymore. Blarhz. Long overdue.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:31 p.m. Monday, March 22, 2004
Suddenly got reminded of someone, coz realised my tone of the entry on geppers sounds like the tone she used when she was trying to tell me she wasn't pissed...
"Ren Hui, I just want you to know that... I don't get pissed so easily. Ya, ok." *smile. I still remember. Okay, okay, I know.
How are you doing now?
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:36 p.m. Thursday, March 18, 2004
Btw, what's below is just the pov of ONE person. SS and history source-based teaches you to get views of many people before it is considered reliable and accurate and blahz. So ya, go find out from others as well.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 07:31 p.m. Thursday, March 18, 2004
Kaez. Revisit the topic of lsc again. Tho shld be doing hw coz today is slack day and won't have many more slack days left.
I guess you can say that GEP is made up of extreme people.
The wild crazy pple are extremely wild crazy. The quiet ones are extremely quiet. The studious pple are extremely studious. The emotional are extremely emotional. (me)(*wry smile) The nice and friendly pple are extremely nice and friendly. (Ren loves you all!) The (adjective here) are extremely (adjective here)
You get the point.
Most importantly, the normal typical pple (most of us) are extremely normal and typical.
Which, we all are, in one way or another.
Maybe we might be AA during the camp to some people, but hey, you don't see 60 over people acting AA right? They are the extremely wild crazy people. They are part of us, and we are perfectly fine with that [Ren loves you too ;)]. Lots of types of people are us.
And that's why you can't, and shouldn't generalise, and that's why we are angry when that happens.
And that's why we don't get you when you go "That's so GEP!" because GEP is so many things, we don't know what you are referring to. Really.
Btw it's not just you guys. Even the public generalizes, from relatives to friends to pple who write into the ST forum.
I guess we are used to it, but we are not exactly very happy about that either.
Just let us be ourselves, our own individual selves, and if we somehow do have some kind of perceived GEP identity, let it be.
Don't tell me you don't have some sort of class identity too, or CCA identity, that sets you apart from the rest?
Does that mean you are elitist, and people can use this to discriminate against you?
We are unique, just like everyone else.
Take care.
P.S. Found this from some site. Can be used to describe us. http://www.bced.gov.bc.ca/specialed/ppandg/planning_5.htm
- possesses abilities that give evidence of exceptionally high capability with respect to intellect, creativity, or the skills associated with specific disciplines.
- often demonstrate outstanding abilities in more than one area; may demonstrate extraordinary intensity of focus in their particular areas of talent or interest.
- however, they may also have accompanying disabilities and should not be expected to have strengths in all areas of intellectual functioning.
- form a heterogeneous population, their individual needs, experiences, aptitudes and interests vary.
It describes the mainstream too.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 06:46 p.m. Thursday, March 18, 2004
Eek. Realised all my entries so long so far. Try shorten else dun think anybody bothers to read.
Yiting, Xuejun and me are now spending our goh days as reserve 24-flag pple. A bit stressful at first, because we were so blur about the procedures-nv try before marh. But I guess the atmosphere forces you to learn stuff quickly.
I realised tt different contingents got different character one. The less no. of pple in tt contingent, the more obvious the character would be. Last yr and this yr, GOH 2 contingent is huge, made up of lots of schs, so hardly got any character, but aften having been in so many this year, shall sum up how they are like here. Hahaz.
GOH 2 (girls' contingent) last yr and prob. dis year too
Made up of lots and lots of schools, lots of people. At the most make casual talk and bond a bit with the people that are closest to where you are standing.
"The 3 ladies" - Firdaus sir
Whoa! We rock! Juz the 3 of us :) Adrenaline rush every time got parade march-in/past/out man. All about trying our very best and growing into the large shoes. Now, common hope is we reclaim our position, though the chances are quite tiny at that :(
Escorts
Escorts used to be the 3 of us + 6 guys carrying rifles behind. Aniwae rmbered escorts as one where the 3 of us have to learn all the procedures real quick, but sometimes we "harh?" here and dere coz got so much stuff to rmb; and the guys behind are still blur. Dun tink they really bother coz all they have to do is to follow us.
24-flag contingent
Newest con I've joined so far. Testosterone-loaded! Out of the 24 flaggers, only 5 are female, and dat is when the 3 of us join? So usu. there are onli 2 (Mel and Kailing fr. Cedar) girls and 22 guys. Okay...
Happen to be the shortest person ard :(. Kiez, not used to it :P The good thing is tt the guys ard pass round msgs reminding every1 else what to do ("slowly!" "turn!" "spread!" "move left/right!") coz it can be quite complicated, and Firdaus sir seems to jiang jiu 24-flag con so much it borders on picking. Eh & oso found out the guys dun really bother finding out each person's name. Dey juz call you by your sch name. Like, "Maris Stella!" or "Bedok South!" or even "Nanyang!". heez.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 04:59 p.m. Thursday, March 18, 2004
Kiez... dunno where to start blogging about Sec4 lifeskills camp. Aniwae now dun have lots of time aniwae, whiled away the whole morning trying to put in this new template. Maybe I come back from goh training den blog. K juz skip the whole narrative part for now, just impt thots left here.
Stuck in between the two worlds again, as they both meet together during lifeskills camp. Really quite the anti-thesis of each other lorz. O.o Like, sometimes dun even know which side to cheer for during the games, and purposely don't want to join some games because of who I'll be facing off with. The tension is so thick in the air. Us vs them. And for the dressing-up/make-up bit before the formal dinner, also don't know which chalet shld we pop into. Aniwae went to class because it was easier to locate.
Segregation is so super obvious lor. After 4 years, guess nothing much really changes, huh? The same black tee (dunno why it is made in the 1st place if people are so against wearing it because of the elitist thing) , cheering for each other because no one else bothers, trying to play games meant for much bigger classes (we did not bad, sia?), grouped together, stereotyped, stuff like that... I also don't know how we shld proceed. And me too.
Have to admit didn't really spend so much time with sqms except for formal dinner(--> rox!) because finally 4/13 is showing signs of bonding (*yay!) and I wanted to be there when it happened. And when the lines have been drawn if you step over, it's weird and you find yourself so... extra.
Of course it wasn't all that bad. Those few moments during breaks and lunch and stuff, can spend time a bit together, before we both rush back to our classes, our type of classes.
Sqms, you still rock.
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:45 a.m. Monday, March 15, 2004
Whoa... there goes the days of being (NP? Police? State?) flag. *sigh. Been really pia-ing to perfect flag drills since the 3 of us girls ended up there, but I guess if we are not good enough according to Firdaus sir (is tt how you spell his name?), he replaces us with CIs then can't really do anything about it.
It has been very enriching, new, unique and often stressful. Hahaz... And hey, no regrets, we did all we could, if we are not as good as CIs, then, that's okay. Not bad, considering I knew nuts about flag drill when I first joined, den Khirdir sir has to specially pick us out one side receive crash course :P
Below shall be my stepping down speech. *lolx:
I would like to thank:
Firdaus sir, for believing we could do it and giving us a chance. (at first)
Khirdir sir, Kelvin sir, Hassan sir, and others for teaching the three of us flag drill, and the procedures for the parade
Sean sir, for correcting the three of us in subtle ways during march-pasts so we won't incur the wrath of Firdaus sir; can never forget the "*psswsst!"s and "xiao jie...". And oso tt time I asked you to move (at your request) faster a bit and you got scolded by Firdaus sir. The distance was really too near.
The Anderson Sec Sch guy, for teaching Mel and me flag drill the first time we were there because we don't know a single thing. Your teaching is good.
Melissa, for staying back with me to practice flag drill together, and helping to correct my mistakes and give suggestions.
Si Hui and Wen Qi, for agreeing to tutor me in flag drill; but now I guess it shouldn't be necessary. But thanks anyway for offering your help :)
Last but not least, Yiting and Xuejun, of Cedar Girls' and Chung Cheng High, for being such great co-flaggers! *cheerx Will never forget those days of "huh?", "wait it's liddat rite", "13, 14 check bang", "jia you" heez. Keep in touch! Meanwhile, we shall continue to sit down on the benches and watch the parade, looking at the CIs taking over us and then feeling so... k nvm. Won't say.
To the CIs taking over us: Jia you for your position... all eyes on you, cannot let down the parade and yourself... Train hard and let NP Day Parade '04 be a success!
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 11:02 a.m. Monday, March 15, 2004
I like this template! Decided to go off from my nature theme abit and go on to animals... heez. Tried to find a dog/horse one but dun have. Last time spotted a dolphin one but dunno where to find it animore. Sad. But aniwae this is fine. Cute little kittie!
you keep coming back in a kind of way at 10:50 a.m. Monday, March 15, 2004
