Twisted Illusions

Friday, July 29, 2005
05:25 p.m.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me....

A portion from Untitled by Simple Plan. It kinda describes how I'm feeling at the moment... I've got nothing more to say.

Sunday, July 24, 2005
04:38 p.m.

I've just finished reading Harry Potter 6, and now I believe that SNAPE must die!!! I could have torn my book in half after reading what he'd done to Dumbledore... Nyahaha... Anyway, overall, the book was pretty good; just as good as the previous one. It had a good story, and it never failed to arouse my curiosity about who the heck the half-blood prince was and what Malfoy was actually supposed to do for Voldemort. J.K. Rowling is so good at that: keeping her readers interesting and wondering. Hehe... And I was glad that it wasn't as thick as book 5. At least it's easier to bring around now. Well, book 7 na lang ang natitira. Hope J.K. Rowling makes up a good conclusion for the Harry Potter series. And again, SNAPE MUST DIE!!!!

Thursday, July 21, 2005
02:39 p.m.

Okay, another set of lyrics again. Hehehe... Wala lang, I just keep hearing this song. It's really popular nowadays. ^_^

The Day You Said Goodnight
Hale

Take me as you are,
Push me off the road
the sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun;
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name.

And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need is time
To me, the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known
oblivion is falling down.

And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need is time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all right.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need is time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

Tuesday, July 19, 2005
10:09 a.m.

Welcome To My Life
Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

CHORUS:
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

CHORUS

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

CHORUS

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Thursday, July 7, 2005
09:42 p.m.

I'm always alone... I've been alone, and it's been like that ever since I entered high school. Four years! I don't want to add another year to that. Why do I get the feeling that everyone just wants to leave me? I'm really depressed at the moment, as you can see... Yeah, I'm used to being alone. But right now, I just want to be with somebody. Is that too much to ask? Sometimes I just imagine that I'd wake up and find someone beside me, still waiting and watching over me.

Tsk... It never even happened to me, though. My left and right are always empty. Even my front and back, too. No one's ever there, and I'm just here, waiting...

Wednesday, July 6, 2005
09:59 a.m.

It's July!!! And this week is "test" week. Yup, I had a test yesterday, and then I'm gonna have another one today, and then another one tomorrow. Hehe... Phew... I've been studying a lot lately. Haay...

Only a few more minutes before I leave for school. Anyway, last weekend was a really uneventful one. I can hardly even call it a weekend. I didn't do anything special, really. Except that I played UO. Nyahaha... Oh, and I worked on a new piece of artwork (click the link on the right side. It's called Jore'Sal). It's just a person I drew based on someone I play with in UO. Hehe... Birthday niya kasi noong Saturday. Wahehehe...

Saturday, June 25, 2005
04:07 p.m.

WOOHOO!!! I'm finally "un"grounded. Now I can play my precious video games again!!! WEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Anyway, what have I been up to? Well, I had a few Long tests in my science subjects. So far, I passed them with flying colors. Hehe... Math was okay... I passed, pero pasang awa rin... Religion was kinda bad. Nyahaha! I knew I should have answered in the "Ms. Frim style". Bwahahaha! Oh well, bawi na lang next time.

I'm taking Karate lessons now. Sayang naman, gusto ko sana taekwondo ulit. Pero sobrang aga naman schedule nila. WAAA! 6am -8am! Sayang talaga. Balik white belt na naman ako. Haaay...

Tuesday, June 14, 2005
10:22 a.m.

*sigh* I won't be able to update much... Just got grounded from using the PC at home. Right now, I'm at an internet cafe near school. Hehehe.... I can't even use the computer at home for homework... O_o Galing talaga noh? Nyahaha! Oh well... *sigh*

Thursday, June 2, 2005
09:39 p.m.

The second week is about to end... And I don't have any problems yet so far. Nyahahaha! I had some quizzes but they were easy. Bwahaha!

Hmmm... I've been emotional lately. And no, it's not because of PMS, mind you.:P Just something else... It surprises me though. I mean, I'm not usually like that....... WAAAAA!!! ;_; I must be "maturing"! It's a damn weird feeling...

Saturday, May 28, 2005
11:23 a.m.

Phew! What a week. Well, so far so good. I mean, I get a lot of homeworks but they're pretty light. Mostly, the teachers tell us to read a certain chapter or topic. So this is how it's like to be in college... You'll be walking back and forth from classroom to classroom, and then you'll be walking another distance to buy yourself some snacks, then when it's break time (let's say, two hours break), you can walk out of school and play Ragnarok or play other video games. Bwahahaha! These are practically the things I did the whole week. Of course, I explored the campus first, so that I'll know my way next time. I ate in Mcdonalds next door. Nyahahaha! Well, for now, I can say that college is kinda fun. Compared to Woodrose, I think DLSU is better. Hehe... Duh.

What else can I say? Hmmm.... I've been bumping into old classmates there. Hehe... Lots of MMCSFI people are there. Too bad they're in different departments. I'm in the college of science... Waaaa! But at least I got to see them again...

Wednesday, May 25, 2005
07:35 p.m.

WAAAA!!! CHEMISTRY!!! I don't like Chemistry! Especially when I know that the teacher is sooooooooo strict!!! WAAAA!!! I guess now we do have a terror teacher! @_@ This is going to be tough... The rest of the teachers are okay, and pretty much fun. But Mr. Chemistry is a different story... I was practically shaking during his class. Nyahahaha...

Monday, May 23, 2005
08:04 p.m.

First day of school!!!!

Well, it was actually okay. Nothing I really had to worry about. I got some new friends from other schools, and even from public school! Nyahaha!!! But one thing about todat was that I HAD NO LUNCH BREAK!!! WAAAAA! Really! I had a hard time trying to find time to eat lunch. It's a good thing my schedule isn't like that until the end of the year! Sheesh...

Let's see... My subjects today were P.E., Math, English, and Religion. So far, the teachers seem nice... No terror teacher yet. Bwahaha... I'll just have to see for tomorrow's subjects then...

Tuesday, May 17, 2005
12:16 p.m.

One of the very annoying things in the world (for me) is the times when my mom starts fixing my room... Why? Because all my stuff disappear! I leave a book on top of the table and make sure it looks neat and not messy when I look at it. The next thing I know, the book goes missing and winds up in the deepest part of my closet!!! Yes, the mother is like an unexpected vacuum cleaner... What's orderly for you, may not be orderly for her, so I warn you to watch out and beware...

Sunday, May 15, 2005
08:35 p.m.

I CAN DRIVE!!!! Well, sort of anyway... I'm still a little crappy at it... Hehe... But hey, it's just the first day. I'll improve tomorrow. ^_^

My cousin just left for home in Olongapo. He's a busy boy... CAT training... And he's a commander! It's hard to believe someone like him can be a commander. Hahaha... Now I know he's got a lot of potential... Even though I don't want to admit it to him...

Haaay... Now I'm alone again... No cousin to play around with and make fun of... No cousin to "beat up" (nyahahaha!) or talk to... And school's already starting next Monday. Haaay... Just one more week.

Friday, May 13, 2005
11:46 a.m.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVAN!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!

It's Friday the 13th today... Hmmm... Is it a lucky day or an unlucky day? Hmm... Actually, I'd call it lucky if UOP would reopen today. Nyahaha! I've been waiting for so long already... Even my cousin, Ivan, is excited, and he's going back to Olongapo tomorrow. UOP sana birthday gift niya ngayon e. Wahehe... Nangangati na kamay ko!!! Gusto ko na magpvp!!! UOP NAAAAA!!!!

Thursday, May 12, 2005
07:28 p.m.

11 more days till school... 11 more days of vacation and it's back to studying for me. *sigh*

I got my student's permit today! Weeee!!! I can drive! I can drive!!! Nyahaha! Driving lessons start on Monday, though. I can see it now... I'm bumping trees and crashing into other cars... Wahehehe... I don't really know if I'll be a good driver. The only experience I had in driving was when I play those racing games in the arcade. Hehe... You should see me crashing all over the place. Bwahahaha! Maybe I'll improve when Monday comes. I look forward to it.

Oo nga pala. BIRTHDAY NI IVAN BUKAS!!! BIBILIN KITA NG CAKE HA! WAHAHAHA!!!!!

Sunday, May 8, 2005
04:23 p.m.

15 more days till school starts. I don't know if I should be dreading the first day of school or if I should be really excited. Well, college is a mysterious place for me at the moment. I don't know what could happen or what it would feel like to be in the school...

Friday, May 6, 2005
04:49 p.m.

GAAAAH!!!!!! It's so hot!!! The heat's killing me! I have the aircon on now here inside my room. I feel very comfortable now. But I know that once I stepped outside my door, I'll perspire right away on the spot. T_T

I've got less than 20 days of vacation. School starts May 23, and I shifted from BS Psychology to BS Biology. They actually accepted me for that course... Woah... And to think that Biology is a quota course... I guess it might be harder than I think it will be. I hope not. I'm looking forward to entering college, especially since it's coeducational. Four years of being in an exclusive school was torture and I was lucky enough to survive it. >_< Up to now, I still think MMCSFI is still the best school. Well, that's my opinion anyway. I still have to go through La Salle first before I can make my final judgement. But between Woodrose and MMCSFI, the answer is obvious... MMCSFI RULES!!! Nyahahaha! Well, let's just hope that La Salle will be better than Woodrose... and that it'll have a better theme song too. O_o

Thursday, May 5, 2005
09:09 p.m.

Yey!!! Finally, I made a new layout. Well, actually I didn't create this layout. Wahehehe... I borrowed it from another website because I got lazy to make my own. Besides, this one's cool. It has Sora in it from Kingdom Hearts (just in case no one knows who it is). I also changed the name of my blog. Instead of Innocence, it'll be TWISTED ILLUSIONS now. Wahehe... I'll be putting up a new tag board, so just wait for it. Bye!!!