Sunday, December 28, 2008
10:34 p.m.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It's been quite a while since I posted. I've been busy... Busy relaxing and playing video games. That's something I can't do while in school. Huhuhu... School draws ever so near. T^T
I'll be going to Olongapo tomorrow until New Year, so I won't be posting again. Mweh...
Anyway, I've started playing Ace Attorney all of over again... And now I'm going crazy over Miles Edgeworth. XD He's soooooooooooo... WEEHHHHHHHHH!!!! *moe* XD I can't wait for the new Ace Attorney to come out! I wanna play as Edgeyyyyy!!!!!
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Friday, December 19, 2008
12:04 a.m.
*gasp* It is now snowing in my bloggy! XD
Belated happy birthday to meeee! LOL. Yey! I'm actually already on Christmas Vacation! I just need to submit some stuff tomorrow then I'm done. XD FINALLY! RELAXATION! I'll be having a birthday party on Saturday. Most of the people I'm inviting are coming, including CARL! For the first time, Carl is coming over. XD But then the unfortunate side is that Rainy-kun can't go. T^T Parents didn't allow him. Waaah... Now I can't give him my Christmas gift to him. Wehh... He also said he had a birthday and a Christmas gift for me. Awww... I guess I'm going to have to wait. Haaaay...
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Thursday, December 11, 2008
10:14 p.m.
Weh. I was just reminiscing about my elementary days. Well, I was thinking about an old friend of mine; someone I "almost" developed a crush on when I was in grade 7. His name was TJ. Well, he was completely my type that time. Mestizo, funny, and sweet. I really could have developed a crush on him, but that time, I was under a vow that I would never have a crush on a guy again. It's a long story. Let's just keep it at that. Hehe...
TJ was an amusing fellow. He never failed to make me laugh. Most of the time he'd tease me. During Religion class, he'd poke me and bother me. He used to like Pokemon cards too. I remember I met him through that. XD He badly wanted a Mr. Mime card and bugged me to death for it. And thus began our "beautiful" friendship. Weh... It's a shame that I only got to really know him in about a year. I wanted to talk to him more.
The one thing I could never forget about him was during our retreat. It was dark that time, and all my batchmates were telling scary stories and such. Naturally, I got a bit scared, though I didn't say anything. Then we all started walking around the place, and it was REALLY dark. >.< Scary even. And what I can't forget was when he suddenly told me, "You can hold on the back of my shirt if you're scared." It definitely wasn't one of his usual jokes, because when he said it, it was serious. It was a really sweet thing to say. And I guess, more reason why I really liked the guy. Hehehe...
Later on in high school, I met him again, and woah. He changed. Well, he changed as in, he started wearing an earring, started drinking, and started smoking. >.< It was a MAJOR turn off. But he was still that nice sweet guy he used to be. Did I still have that interest in him? Well, I don't think I did. I remember at one point, I became afraid of him, because of what he became. Well, I was more innocent than any of my friends were that time. Wehehe. Still childish and innocent. But that fear of him disappeared when I saw that he was still the same old TJ. I was happy enough. XD
College. Funnily enough, he entered the same college I did. And it was so nice seeing him again. I'm willing to bet he isn't virgin anymore though. >.< I mean, just by the way he looks. I may be wrong though. Meh. Come to think of it though, if he wasn't like this; smoking, drinking, being a "bad boy", I could have let myself like him even more. He's not a bad looking guy. Hehe... Well, mestizo is my type. Hahaha! I feel like talking to him now. Unfortunately, he's busy. Weh... Next time then I guess. Hopefully I could have a nice conversation with him. And I suppose it's probably about time he knew about what I felt about him before. XD
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Thursday, December 4, 2008
09:46 a.m.
Stressss.... I have one more exam to go tomorrow and it's Anatomy. The last two major subject exams were HELL. >.< Physiology was crap as always and Biochemistry was a bitch... As always too. *sigh* Anyway, I hope I'll do better in Anatomy. Anatomy always makes me feel better... Well, not always but just most of the time. I do better in the exams in that subject. >.<
It's DECEMBER. Wow. I didn't realize it for a while. It just doesn't feel like it yet. Hahaha! Maybe it's because of med school? Weh. Anyway, last weekend I was digging around in my room and I found my plastic folder thingy with my old sketch pad inside and all the drawings I made when I was still in high school. A few of them were incomplete. Weh. I should try to finish them one of these days... The most recent one was drawn during I think my 2nd year in college... or 3rd..? It was meant for Rain, but I forgot why I didn't finish it and why I was going to draw it for him. Weh... I'll try to finish it off though. I think it's too late to give it to him but I might as well...
Speaking of Rain, weh... We had another fight on YM last night. >.< But this time, there was no resolution like there always was...
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Friday, November 28, 2008
09:32 p.m.
*sigh*
I feel kinda down. Maybe I'm a bit depressed. Weh. It's weird. I don't have the right to be feeling this way, because me and him aren't an item like we used to. Yet, weh, even these things make me feel bad. I find it kinda hard to go back how it used to be before he confessed to me. That time, when he did something that hurt me or something I didn't like, I'd keep it to myself and try to suppress all the feelings I had inside me. But now I can't do it anymore. >.< I guess it's because I can be as open as I want to be with him. Weh... But I really have to learn to shut up. I keep forgetting that I don't have the right to complain anymore.
I really feel like an idiot right now...
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Thursday, November 27, 2008
11:08 p.m.
I'm stressed... >.< Long test week is next week and the profs at school are cramming us with stupid reports and homeworks. What the hell. >.< Weh... Anyway, I don't want to talk about the stress. Let's talk about last Saturday... HATAW HANEP HERO AMPED EDITION!!! XD
I cosplayed. For the first time. Ever. And it was FUN!!!! XD I went as Haruhi Suzumiya from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. Though there were some others who wore the same costume as I did, I still consider myself the CUTEST of them all. Lol. Just kidding. The others were pretty cute too. I'm thinking if I should get a wig this time. But wiggies are sooooo expensive. If I got a wig, though, my cosplay would be more accurate. But I don't know if it's worth my money. Weh. If only my hair was naturally straight... Huhu... All I'd have to do is get a haircut and have it dyed. Waaaaah! Oh well. I have future cosplay plans already. It's funny, because even Martha has plans too. It was also our first time to cosplay. Ever. I think I'll cosplay Shiki Misaki from the game, The World Ends With You. But I have to save up some money first. Mweh.
Grarr... I have to sleep. I'm sleepy. >.< Good night...
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
05:17 p.m.
I am so glad only me and my bestfriend know this blog... I can spill out all my infatuated feelings now... This is going to get girly... >.<
Okay. Let's talk about BKNA. I don't want to say the entire name or his nickname. There may be a spy amongst us. O.o Anyway, yeah... My crush in med school. It's funny, I heard he smokes, yet I haven't seen him smoke though. But I've seen him holding an unlighted cigarette, though I haven't seen him actually smoking. Maybe that's why I'm still infatuated? I mean, smoking men turn me off. And fortunately or unfortunately, I haven't seen him do it yet. Weh... I nearly got turned off too, when he said he had a child. I was like this for a while ---> O_o but it turned out that he was messing with me. Well, loko naman siya eh; him and his partner in crime, Robin.
Many times since I had my hair rebonded, he's been "flirting" with me. It's not the serious kind, but more of playful and joking around. He'd keep reintroducing himself to me and saying that I was pretty and all that, and even though I know that all of them were just jokes, I still get that "kilig" feeling. O_o I have to admit, since he started doing that to me, the "small" crush got bigger. >.< But still, I know full well anyway that there would be nothing between us, because I can see that he likes someone else. I'm not in love with him anyway so it doesn't bother me that much. XD But if he did give me enough attention, there is that small possibility that I might fall. I doubt it will happen though. >.< But then again, we're spending 3 more years together in UERMMMC and he's bound to be my groupmate again and again because we're both "A". A lot can happen. Well, we'll see... Right now, I still have a special person in my heart (yak.. the cheesiness. >.<). We're not committed anymore but, we still have one more chance in the future. Hehe...
Weh... I hope no one else from my class sees this...
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Sunday, November 2, 2008
11:53 p.m.
Meh... I just had a short YM chat with Martha just a while ago and she showed me some of her The World Ends With You fanfics. Meh... It made me miss writing stuff. All I write are haikus, poems, and paragraphs recently. I guess I should go write some fanfics once in a while. Only thing is, I don't know what to write about. Sometimes I do get that urged to write a fanfic, but once the paper and pen's ready, I can't even start. >.< Writer's block? Weh... Well, writing isn't easy. But I guess I should try getting into the habit and revive my fanfiction.net account... Yeah... That would be a good idea.
I'm a high school sophomore in My Japanese coach... すごい ね。。。
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Thursday, October 23, 2008
09:17 p.m.
HELLO!!!
I just came from Olongapo. School's about to start. Huhuhu... There goes my short and crappy sembreak. What's annoying is that my sembreak ends when everyone else's sembreak starts. Pweh... Bullcrap. BULOK ANG UERMMMC!!! :P
Anyway, all I've been doing lately is playing My Japanese Coach. I'm almost trilingual now. XD Well, not really but I can already read and write Katakana and Hiragana better than before and I can make sentences in Japanese in the proper grammar. Plus, I'm starting with Kanji. XD Weeee! Astigness. XD When I finish with My Jap Coach, I'll probably find something to supplement it with. Especially on the grammar part and the writing, since I read in some reviews that there were a few mistakes, especially in the order strokes. Meh.. Oh well. XD
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Friday, October 17, 2008
11:22 p.m.
I didn't think I'd be giving advice to another person about LOVE. Meh. Well, the girl reminded me of my past self. Hehe... The talk was worthwhile... ^_^ I edited the conversation and deleted some stuff for privacy.
HER: onee-chan
HER: can i ask something ._.
ME: yes
HER: uhm ._.
HER: its personal and nothing to do wif pkmn
HER: would it be ok ._.?
ME: yes?
ME: sure
HER: uhmmm
HER: >_<
HER: whats it like to be loved by someone you loved ._.?
HER: not family or friend love
HER: love love ._.
HER: ._.
ME: ahh
ME: Well...
HER: ._.
ME: I don't want to sound cheesy
ME: lol
HER: i just want to know, since you're also a girl and, i really have not felt it yet
HER: its ok ._.
ME: but it actually feels really nice.
HER: i wont mind
HER: really ._.
HER: what else ._.
ME: yeah.
HER: ._.
ME: in a cheesier way, when you love someone who also loves you back, it feels like nothing else matters. something like that. Cause it really feels nice. You get "kilig" moments all the time.
HER: awww D:
ME: hard to decribe. >.<
HER: so nice ._.
HER: meaning
HER: thier no word that would be able to describe it
HER: right ._.?
ME: yeah
ME: especially when you really love each other.
HER: D:
HER: we'll all i got was me loving
HER: and nothing came back D:
ME: Hehe... I had it that way too.
ME: before
HER: still
HER: you're lucky
HER: you had a chance to even feel it
HER: ._.
ME: you'll get that chance too. :D
ME: when you least expect it hahaha
ME: Well, just don't look for it. Let it look for you i guess
HER: most of them say that
ME: lol its true
HER: ._. let love look for you. coz eventually it will
HER: but but but
HER: how will you know it thats it
HER: ._. and its here how do will you?
HER: we'll i've gone to some preety harsh moments
HER: and my hearts a bit numb now D:
HER: so its hard for me to tell its real or just the old same thing ._.
ME: hmmm
ME: so youre the one who confesses first?
HER: ya D:
HER: and i always go piak :(
ME: hmmm ok
ME: maybe i should tell you how i got a bf. lol
(Then I told her my love story... >.<)
ME: basically, i think it was luck. >.< but then again..
ME: i think you have to really know the guy first too.
ME: thats the HARD part
HER: ._.
HER: very lucky D:
HER: anyway
HER: for now
HER: i dont want anymore :3
ME: some guys are sweet even though they dont have that kind if interest in you
HER: when the last time i tried it
HER: just las tsem
HER: i got hurt again
HER: and, we'll
HER: i said
HER: to my self
HER: not to open my heart anymore
HER: since it always getshurt
HER: the pain now is excusiating
HER: >_<
HER: to be honest
HER: i always cry at night
HER: cant sleep
ME: aww
ME: youre 17 right?
HER: yah ._. why?
ME: well, you still have lots of time to find the right guy.
HER: i dont want anymore ._.
ME: i got a guy at 19. >.< everyone else I knew had one when they were like 14-17
HER: i dont wantto get hurt anymor
ME: well, its ok to close your heart for now
ME: you need a break from it after all
HER: ._.
HER: but
ME: thats what i did. until college...
HER: what if no one could open it
ME: youre the only one who can open it. you have to choose to. when you think you are ready for another go
ME: there are plenty of fish in the sea. youre just going to have to go fishing.
ME: you cant catch the right fish in one day
ME: so you have to come back some other time
ME: it could take a while, but once you find the right guy
ME: you'll know that it was worth it
HER: really
HER: ._.
HER: what if i dont >_>
ME: i asked that same question to myself, actually. and it hit me when I least expected it.
HER: anyways
HER: thanks for telling me all this
HER: i dont know for now
HER: but i'll try ._.
ME: no problem. ^^
I really didn't think I'd be giving love advice. Weh. Gotta get used to this I guess...
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
10:46 p.m.
I'm thinking of changing this blog's layout. XD And I'm having my hair rebonded soon. XD Plus, I'm going to have a Haruhi Suzumiya costume done. Yeah, I am so going to cosplay her. Wahahahaha! Many things I'm going to do. XD Meow meow!
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
09:43 p.m.
October 10, 2008 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOI!!!! XD
My dad's gone of to the States last night. Yeah, only my dad. My mom decided to stay home. So, yeah, I'm not so free this October. Huhuhu... But I miss my dad already. I hope he stays safe over there...
Speaking of freedom, just a few days ago, me and my parents had a talk about me not being able to stay in Keystone by myself. Weh... It turned into an argument between my mom and dad. And well, I just learned and realized then that, even when I turn 21, which is the "adult age", I still won't be free... My dad's that overprotective. >.< He always wants someone with me. I can't move around on my own. Even my classmates in UE are making fun of me for having a housemaid with me in Keystone... Weh. It's kinda embarrassing already. Haay. I was kinda excited that I'll be turning 21 soon. But at this rate, even 21 can't get me out of this. No wonder I'm so in love with freedom...
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Thursday, October 9, 2008
09:13 p.m.
GRARARARARAAR!!! I'm finally done with those damn long tests in UE! I still have a final exam next week but it's for PrevMed, a minor subject. Meh...
How did I do in the exams? ... Horrible. Just horrible. I don't even want to talk about it. Med school kills. Anatomy is a bitch, Physiology is a bitch, but Biochemistry is the mother of all bitches in med. >.< Bleh...
I wonder if I'll survive med. I really hope I do...
Haaay...
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Monday, September 29, 2008
07:40 p.m.
September 27, 2008 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAINY!!! XD Hope you liked your gift!!! ^_^
September 28, 2008 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINCENT!!! My buddy since elementary. XD
Whew... I'm going to be hell busy this coming week and the next. Exams are just around the corner. I hope I pass ALL the tests this time. Sembreak is just as close too, so I really have to give my all this time, if I want to have a good vacation.
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Monday, September 22, 2008
09:58 p.m.
First things first, Ateneo beat DLSU in the first game of the championship... Wahh... Pero kaya pa yan. I BELIEVE IN THE ANIMO!!! XD
Second thing, I finally got my yearbook, but Carl took it away from me. >.< His mom wanted... scrap that... DEMANDED he bring home their yearbook. Weh... >.< And so he made off with mine. I'll be getting it back by Wednesday.
Lastly, the depressing part. Rain's birthday is closing in, and I wasn't able to give him his gift today because he didn't come to Taft. Weh... Well, we already planned meeting up on Friday. So, yeah. Other than that, I'm really getting worried. He hasn't talked to me in YM or in the board above. The last time we talked was through text this morning, about his gift. Weh... So I really don't know what's going on with him. After talking to his brother just a few minutes ago, I finally saw the problem. >.< I knew Rain was hiding something from me, though I don't know if it was intentional or not. Actually, hiding something from me wouldn't be fully correct but rather from his dad. And now he has no tuition for this second term and his parents think he's graduating this October. O_o Wehhh... What in the world are you doing Rain? >_< He's making it worse than it already is, and all the more I feel guilty for partly placing him in the position he's in now. I know he's alone in the damn thesis and I'm sure he's scared, but he can't keep running away. The more he runs away, the farther apart we get, and I don't want that to happen. If only he would just ask me for help. I will gladly help him as much as I can. I've been telling him that, but he hasn't asked anything at all. If he'd only ask, then he wouldn't be in such a predicament. He promised me he would graduate by the end of the schoolyear. I hope he keeps that promise. If he doesn't, it'll be like I'm falling through a bottomless pit, and no matter how much I want to hit the ground already, I never will. Though, like I always do, I'll keep believing in him until the term ends. I strongly believe in him, so he's better not back down on me now! Everything will definitely be alright.
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Monday, September 15, 2008
04:49 p.m.
Sino sa class?
Meh... I just remembered this being asked during a break in class. The question didn't reach me though, fortunately. If it did, I'll be teased for life, just like I always was. :P But... Sino nga sa class? Hmm... I'll just say that he's kinda cute. :P My type actually when it comes to complexion and personality (being funny and stuff). Downside? He has braces. But it doesn't bother me much. The even lower side? He smokes. >.< Now that's a turn off. Crush? Meh... I don't know. It was probably starting to become one until I learned that he smokes (what a waste... T^T), but it still doesn't change the fact that he is still kinda cute. Well, all I know is, it won't go any further than that now. B.K.A.
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Friday, September 12, 2008
11:54 p.m.
Rainy's birthday is coming soon. Weh... I don't know what to get him for his birthday. And the idiot keeps saying he doesn't want anything. Weh! I want to give him something even if he says not to! I started thinking of what I could give him: teddy bears, pillows, chocolate, a lovebird (unfortunately, I haven't bred enough so that's out), another literary work... Weh. I don't know what to give him. Well, I still have time. just want to give him something that will make him happy, since he's got a stressful way ahead of him. Mweh... I wish I could be there for him...
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Monday, September 8, 2008
08:40 p.m.
The Rain tastes so sweet. Just like Honey Flavored Chocolate. XD I want more...
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Wednesday, September 3, 2008
08:31 p.m.
I came across a website that talked about Atheism and its a damn good read. XD Made me laugh hard. I didn't finish reading it, but yeah. LOL. CLICK MEH!!!
And here's a nice picture:
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Monday, September 1, 2008
04:59 p.m.
Zettai daijoubu daiyo...
That was quoted by Sakura Kinomoto from the anime, Cardcaptor Sakura, an anime I really liked while still in high school. XD Anyway, the said quote was said to be her "invincible spell". So everytime she was in trouble and on the verge of breaking down, she'd remind herself that zettai daijoubu daiyo, which roughly translates to "everything will definitely be alright".
After watching the whole anime, I kind of developed that "invincible spell" of hers, but modified it a bit. Well, I was in Woodrose and Woodrose is a religious school. Everytime I felt down I kept saying to myself, "Everything will definitely be alright with God's help". Corny? Meh. I don't care. It's helped me through high school and through college. Hopefully it will help me in Med school too. I'm an optimistic person, so that CCS quote kinda suited me. ^^ Even though things went the way I didn't expect them to, I always kept saying it to myself. And in the end, everything did turn out alright. It just doesn't happen right away, but I guess it always seemed to happen at the right moment. Wow... Deep. :P
Well, cheesiness aside, it's actually September now. Time flies fast. >.< We're now entering the BER months. Daddy's birthday is coming up on September 4. Carlos's birthday is on September 10, Rainy's birthday on the 27th, and Vincent's on the 28th. Weh... Many birthdays in a month. Meow.
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Thursday, August 28, 2008
10:23 p.m.
Wow... Right after the exams today, I went out with Rain for one last time. Well, I won't be seeing him anymore till he improves in his thesis. >.< Depression aside, we had fun. Nice fun. I know we're not together anymore, but even though that's the case, I can't stop loving him. Here's to another moment engraved into my memory...
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Honey Flavored Chocolate
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
11:12 p.m.
Look at me now:
Hoping that I’m okay,
Hoping I look fine
Because I am afraid.
Look what you’ve done:
I’m in a damn dress.
I can’t believe I’m in this mess.
But it all seems fine
Because it’s only you
Just you…
Everything starts to feel right
When I’m with you at night.
It’s like I’m falling
But then you’re calling
My name;
It’s not the same.
Because no matter what I do
I just want to be with you.
Now I’m back home
Lying on the bed.
And I remember
What you just said.
You hold my hand
My cheeks start to burn
All of a sudden the world starts to turn.
But everything’s fine
When you said “I love you…
Just you…”
Everything starts to feel right
When I’m with you at night.
It’s like I’m falling
But then you’re calling
My name;
It’s not the same.
Because no matter what I do
I just want to be with you.
Sweet like honey-flavored chocolate
And that’s how I like it…
And…
Everything felt so right
After what happened that night.
Like I was falling
But you were calling
My name,
And then you came.
Because no matter what I do
I just want to be with you.
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Meh... Just an embarrassing song I composed while I was still in DLSU. I guess I finally found the "courage" to put it up here. It's really embarrassing. Wahhh...
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Saturday, August 23, 2008
11:26 a.m.
I watched Return of Jafar the other night on Disney channel. I heard that song I liked in the movie. XD The one with Iago and Genie trying to make Jasmine and Aladdin "kiss and make up"? Wehehe... Lyrics time. ^^
Forget About Love
The Return of Jafar
[IAGO:] Forget about that guy
Forget about the way you fell into his eyes
Forget about his charms
Forget about the way he held you in his arms
Walking on air's obnoxious
The thrill
The chill
Will make you nauseous
And you'll never get enough
Just forget about love!
Forget about romance
Forget about the way your heart begins to dance
Then you feel the blush
When he's spouting out some sentimental mush
Love really is revolting!
It's even worse than when you're moulting
Enough of this fluff!
Just forget about love!
[JASMINE:] I had almost forgotten the way it felt
When he held out his hand for mine
My heart all a-flutter
[IAGO:] Oh, how I shudder
[JASMINE:] The first time we kissed
[IAGO:] It won't be missed!
Forget about 'is touch
[JASMINE:] I can't forget about his touch
[IAGO:] In the scheme of things,
It doesn't matter much
[JASMINE:] It matters so mu-uch
[IAGO:] You're better on your own
A meal becomes a banquet
When you eat alone
[JASMINE:] Hmm-mm-mm-mm
[BOTH:] Love's filled with compromises
[IAGO:] And don't you hate those big surprises?
[JASMINE:] A cozy rendezvous
[IAGO:] Oh, please!
[JASMINE:] Candlelight for two
[IAGO:] Oh, geez!
[JASMINE:] Look you're calling my bluff!
[BOTH:] (I can't) (Just) forget about love!
[JASMINE:] I can't forget about my heart
[ALADDIN:] I can't forget about my heart
[JASMINE:] And how it felt
To fall for you right from the start
[ALADDIN:] I'm still falling
[JASMINE:] Whatever we may do
[ALADDIN:] Whatever we may do
[JASMINE:] You are here for me,
And I'll be there for you
[ALADDIN:] I'll be there
[BOTH:] To wish, to want, to wander
To find the sun
Through rain and thunder
[ALADDIN:] A cozy rendezvous
[JASMINE:] Yes, please!
[ALADDIN:] Candlelight for two
[IAGO:] Oh, geez!
Enough is enough!
[ALADDIN and JASMINE:]
We can't forget about love!
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Friday, August 22, 2008
11:03 p.m.
I just got harassed while ago before taking a shower. A FREAKIN' HUGE COCKROACH WAS IN THE BATHROOM!!! T^T I hate roaches. They scare me. I nearly had a heart attack when I saw the disgusting creature. Wahh... >.<
Anyway, it's exams next week. Wahh... Stress. I wonder if I'll pass all my subs this time. Weh... I hope I do. Anatomy's gotten hard though. Crap...
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008
07:32 p.m.
I'm disappointed yet again... I hate it when Rain pulls me down when I'm trying to pull him up. All I wanted was a simple "yes, I'll do my best with my thesis". But he didn't even give me that after all I told him. It's like he's still scared. How in the world is he supposed to move forward like that? It's okay to be scared, but even so, one way or another he has to get on with it. Here I am, waiting for him, and he can't even reassure me. All the more I become insecure because of this. It makes me wonder, will he really try his best for me? I mean, after all, if he wants to get back with me, he has to get out of DLSU, or I'll be leaving him far behind, even if I don't want to.
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Friday, August 15, 2008
11:46 p.m.
Weh... Rain hasn't done his thesis yet. >.< This disappoints me. He's gonna fail THSBIO2 again and for the 3rd (?) time. Very disappointing... He had so much time to work on it this term and yet this still happens. How could he be so helpless? >.<
Well, I've already told him that next term I'm lessening my communication with him, meaning I'm gonna stop texting him, but we can still speak on YM. Weh... Even though YM is still allowed, I'll barely get to talk to the guy because he only goes on when I tell him to... Well, as much as I really hate to do this, I have to cut our communication a bit. And if he fails again next term, I'm cutting off completely. I can't wait for him longer than a year. Yeah, part of me is still waiting for him, even though I said I'd collect and select. Fortunately or unfortunately, everyone on med school is trying to focus on studies first. So there. I gave Rain one year before he could try courting me, but how can he court me if he can't tackle thesis? The longer he stays in DLSU, the more I start blaming myself for this mess. He helped me with my thesis A LOT and he deserved to graduate with all of us. When I look at it, it's like I'm such a bad person because I left him behind. And this is something I can't forget.
I know Rain can do it. I guess all he needs is a little push. All I can do is just pray for him, and I've been doing that ever since.
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Friday, August 8, 2008
09:56 p.m.
I feel... weh... Well, just disappointed. I wanted to talk to Rain since this afternoon... But he was busy, and now that I'm home from Keystone, he goes to sleep. >.< Just my luck... And 8-8-08 is supposed to be a lucky date? I got a 3/10 in the Anatomy quiz this morning after listening to its extremely boring, 2 hour and a half lecture on the viscera of the neck. "Lucky date" my backside... T_T
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
08:22 p.m.
Grarr... I've been so busy. Med kills. >.< Anyway, I might as well post what's been happening recently.
I have a new lovebird!!! Her name is Rainy (guess who she's named after. XD) and she's a cute, green and blue baby lovebird. But even though she's adorable, she's not tame. T^T Well, we got her where we got Chatot and Tweet's parents. By the way, Tweet's an adorable lovebird too who looks like Chatot but cuter! XD Anyway, Rainy's not tame, so we're still trying to tame her. She's going to be Tweet's future partner (yeah, I think Tweet's a male.). As of now, we have 4 eggs in the nest. XD More babies coming! I hope more than one survives this time. >.< We always get one bird out of a batch of eggs. Huhuhu...
Hmm... What else do I talk about...? Weh... Ewan na. I've just been so busy with stupid school. And I play my DS for a break. So yeah, I barely post here. But maybe I'll try posting more frequently this time...
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Honey, Honey by ABBA (orig version)
Friday, July 25, 2008
10:20 p.m.
(for memorizing purposes... lolz)
Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, nearly kill me, ah-hah, honey honey
I'd heard about you before
I wanted to know some more
And now I know what they mean, you're a love machine
Oh, you make me dizzy
Honey honey, let me feel it, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, don't conceal it, ah-hah, honey honey
The way that you kiss goodnight
(The way that you kiss me goodnight)
The way that you hold me tight
(The way that you're holding me tight)
I feel like I wanna sing when you do your thing
I don't wanna hurt you, baby, I don't wanna see you cry
So stay on the ground, girl, you better not get too high
But I'm gonna stick to you, boy, you'll never get rid of me
There's no other place in this world where I rather would be
Honey honey, touch me, baby, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, hold me, baby, ah-hah, honey honey
You look like a movie star
(You look like a movie star)
But I know just who you are
(I know just who you are)
And, honey, to say the least, you're a dog-gone beast
So stay on the ground, girl, you better not get too high
There's no other place in this world where I rather would be
Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, nearly kill me, ah-hah, honey honey
I heard about you before
I wanted to know some more
And now I know what they mean, you're a love machine
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Friday, July 18, 2008
10:24 p.m.
Today was... fun. ^^ Well, no classes is equal to enjoyment. XD I met with Rain today and we hung out in SM City and watched Mamma Mia!. I got free lunch in Tokyo Tokyo (but I still had to pay for my cousin who met up with us in the mall...), a free ticket to the movie, and we went Karaoke-ing! XD I finally got him to sing for me. Yey! I really thought he'd never sing for me even if my life depended on it. But, well, he did it. And he had an okay voice. Actually, he was pretty good. XD He sang Jumper by Third Eye Blind. Wehehe... Unfortunately, I did most of the singing in there... I sang Close To You by Carpenters, Head Over Feet by Alanis Morisette (spelling?), and Hot by Avril Lavigne. So yeah, it was really fun. Romantic? Not really, since we're forbidden to cross the line... Although he did cross the line a few times, and I guess I did too. But nothing that big. No "I love you"s, no sweet kisses, no blah. Basta. Yeah. But it was still fun. XD
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Thursday, July 17, 2008
05:10 p.m.
Damn... I've been so busy these past days. I had long tests since Monday, and I hated them all. T^T UE's long tests are like DLSU's freaking final exams! They're scheduled one after the after, day after day! O_o I was so tired last night after the last test. As to how I performed, well, Biochemistry was the bitch of all of them. IT WAS SO HARD!!! My score is 36/126. Hahaha... WTH. And only 10 people passed out of ALL 100+ of us in the section. WTH. Physiology was a bitch too, but not as hard as Biochemistry was. I still failed though... Actually, a lot of us failed too. WTH... I got 32/70 for the lecture part. I don't know about lab. Damn. I really hope Anatomy's results are better. It was the easiest among the three majors. I'm going to cry... T^T If I fail in UE, I'm moving to DLSU. If I fail at medicine... I'm going to be a veterinarian instead... I like animals anyway. >.<
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Thursday, July 10, 2008
12:42 p.m.
Just had lunch... I'll be going back to class in a few minutes. Huhuhu... Biochemistry is killing me slowly. GRARARARARRRR!!!! Luckily, Carl is coming over to tutor me. Weee! Hopefully, I'll do good in the upcoming long test.
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Monday, July 7, 2008
11:38 p.m.
It's almost 12mn... Weh... I'll be sleeping in a while. Right now I feel... GRARR!!! I'm just a little annoyed with Rain. Ang babaw kasi ng problema. Grrr... Geez... Forget it... T_T
Next week will be Long Test Week. Am I ready for it? No, I'm not. >.< There's a lot to study, and now I see that more of my weekends will be spent for studying. >.< Wah... Med school... What a pain. But I have to get through this no matter what...
Congratulations to my old bestfriend from elementary. Well, he and his gf are finally legal. I'm happy for him. They've been playing hide-and-seek with her parents for years. And now, they're actually legal. Wow... If only that happened to me too... I hope so...
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Saturday, July 5, 2008
09:34 p.m.
I've gotten addicted to my DS again. And no, it's not all Pokemon now. XD I'm playing Trauma Center: Under the Knife 2! Doctor game sequel! WOOT! I'm bringing this to school. Bwahahaha! I also downloaded some cooking game.. Well, it's not really a game. It's actually a guide. Astig! It can teach you how to cook stuff, so while you're cooking whatever, the DS game guides you through steps and you can move on to the next step via voice command. It's sooooo cool! XD I'll learn some recipes from this. XD No need for cook books. Wahahahaha! Anyway, I also updated my DSTT. I just found out I had to patch it. >.< It has a Haruhi Suzumiya skin now. XD Weee... Happiness! XD Anyway, yeah I gotta go. I'm labeling some skeletal and muscular parts in my pictures... Weh...
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Thursday, July 3, 2008
06:52 p.m.
I'm scared... Scared that a certain someone won't be able to complete a certain something. It worries me to the bone. I know I shouldn't even bother but... I'm still connected to it no matter what angle you look at the sitch. He has this term and the next few terms left. After all, that was the deal, right? I wait one schoolyear for him and he can try again with me. But... If he can't do it by the end of the schoolyear, I really can't wait anymore... Well, all I can do is pray. I said everything I wanted to say to him about it already. I don't want to push the matter anymore, because he'll get all the more pressured. I'm tempted to talk to him about it again. But I was advised to really just leave him be. He makes the choice after all. When it all comes down to it, it's just like the time when I wished he was Catholic... I couldn't convert him, only he can change himself. He was able to. Now I wonder... Can he do it again with this?
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The Difference Between Us
Thursday, July 3, 2008
06:49 p.m.
The Glass and the Wood;
Beautiful yet so brittle,
But Wood wears in time.
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Desiderata - Max Ehrmann
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
06:29 p.m.
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden
misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
This is one of the poems we took up in high school. I can never forget the title everytime I see this poem. Anyway, I dedicate it to Rain. XD It has a nice message. And I especially like the last line. ^^
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The Strength To Smile
Monday, June 30, 2008
08:09 p.m.
What is to be Strong?
The answer’s to simply Smile…
While facing it all.
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Monday, June 30, 2008
02:45 p.m.
I'm unbelievably dismissed early today. Wehehe... Good thing though. I have A LOT to do. >.<
Anyway, I feel kinda down. I've been like this since last night. Well, it's just that my friend, Rain, seems to not be doing what he's supposed to do. What is it you ask? It's thesis... The very thing that caused me to carry a burden until he finally graduates. That burden is knowing that I was the cause of his delay. Yeah, it was partly my fault, and it makes me feel a little worse because I'm not physically there to support him like he did when I was doing mine. Well, I can only imagine the situation he's in right now. It's really horrible... Knowing that you're the only one in the block who didn't make it to graduation and knowing that you can't even start the required thesis. I feel so bad for allowing this to happen to him. He was supposed to be my "thesis-mate", but... My parents had to intervene. Now this is the result. I'm sure if that hadn't happened, he wouldn't be suffering like this. But what's past is past. There's no turning back for him now... He told me that he wasn't strong enough. I've heard him say those words before too. Funnily enough, he said it during THSBIO1. I remember those words: "I'm not as strong as you are." Back then, I couldn't say anything to him. But when he said it again last night, I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
I'm not strong enough.
If only he knew... I don't know if he's realized it yet. But in my eyes, ever since he started sporting the neat short hair, dieting, and reverting back to Catholicism, he did become stronger, at least a little bit. Why? He was socializing more than he used to. He could recite in front of the class. He started smiling more often. In other words, he did change. I was happy seeing him that way. It made me even happier when he wrote to me that he promises to me and to himself that he'll become an even stronger person. But after last night, I hope he doesn't back down on it. I really very strongly believe in his words and in him.
Thesis is really such a cruel word. I hate it and I'm sure he does too. But there's no choice but to bash through it head on, even though its walls are covered in bloodied spikes...
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Sunday, June 29, 2008
08:41 p.m.
I feel like posting more haikus...
Secrets Untold
All my secrets, yours;
All your secrets, aren’t mine;
Left me insecure.
Here's one I just made only a few minutes ago...
Random Joy
I play Pokémon,
You play your Playstation,
Now we’re both happy.
Yeah, the second one was a little weird but... Like the title says... RANDOM JOY. XD
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Sunday, June 29, 2008
08:33 p.m.
I finally found the time to take out the shoutbox. >.< Weh... So much for that... I really thought it would be used a lot. At least it's purpose was for the only other reader of this blog to say something if he wanted. But, nah... He never used it at all, even though I started leaving messages. T_T It's a bit disappointing, but oh well... Hmmm... I suppose it's probably because we get to talk to each other enough already that he doesn't even bother saying anything on here anymore. Maybe I should cut on the communication? Wehehe...
School again tomorrow. Grarr... I don't wanna go... T^T
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
11:47 p.m.
I'm bored... Yeah, that's all. Lolz... That shoutbox up there in this blog... It seems to not have a purpose anymore. >.< Well, that's just thanks to the person I dedicated it to since he's not even using it. T_T I guess I'll be removing it soon. Haaay...
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Monday, June 23, 2008
05:11 p.m.
Weh... I'm bored. So bored my mind isn't working that well. I don't have much to say except a few things that has happened...
I just graduated from DLSU last Saturday. It was great seeing Carl again. XD Well, it was also a bit boring because the ceremony took like 3 hours. Waaah... Well, it still felt good singing the Alma Mater song. Lolz. Oh well...
The typhoon, Frank, just passed, leaving Keystone a mess. What I mean is our unit got flooded and now we have no electricity. Luckily there's no school today, but now I'm bored to death because of this. Huhu... I can't even entertain myself properly for the meantime. I ended up spending money just going here to the net cafe to kill time. Wehh...
Yeah, I got nothing more to say... >.<
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
04:22 p.m.
So far, so good in UE. But I think I'm beginning to feel the weight the profs are putting on us. They like lecturing... and for a LONG time too. >.< We had our first quiz yesterday. It was anatomy and, well, I guess I did okay. Hehe... The prof for the class lectures fast though. Actually, all the profs I've met in UE make you miss the DLSU profs... Waaa! Anyway, I'm already starting to think that med school shouldn't be taken too lightly. Its "high school-like" environment is enough to tell me that. 100+ students in a class makes it even harder since the profs don't even stop for questions. I hope I survive this. >_<
Anyway, I've started talking to Rain again. It was just the freaking day after too. Hehe... I'm weak when it comes to him even until now I guess. Weh... He came over yesterday. We went on a friendly date to SM City (Sta. Mesa). XD We watched a creepy movie, The Happening. Weh... I had fun. It may not have been a romantic date like it used to be. But at least I had a great time. It's always fun being with a friend after all. ^_^
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
04:56 p.m.
UE seems... weh. I just went through a series of boring orientations. Weh... I'm surviving so far I guess...
Anyway, I feel horrible right now. I angered Rain twisce in a row without even meaning to. How? Well, I suppose it's misunderstanding. It always happens... But I've never done this two times in a row. Rain found it rude when I asked him to come over so I can borrow a Biochemistry book. He said that I should be the one to go over his place and pick it up myself since I'm the one borrowing. He got angry. I didn't expect it at all. I really thought he'd be willing to come over. It'd be like hitting two birds with one stone: I get the book and then we could have fun together. But I guess he didn't get the message. He made it seem like he didn't want to come over at all... If that didn't sadden me already, I just HAD to put him on fire again. This time, I thought he had forgiven me after I apologized my heart out. I was playing around with him and he just got mad again... Why? Simply put, it's because I wanted him to smile so I could smile too. I told him to just "prove" that he wasn't angry at me anymore. I knew he wasn't... Or at least I thought he wasn't... I don't know if he really knows how I feel when another person gets angry with me. Since it was twice in a few minutes, I feel really so horrible. I don't like it when he's angry, especially with me. It's like I'm the source of his unhappiness and all I want is for him to be happy. I know I can't give him the benefits he used to get from me when we were still together. But even so, I still... Weh. I know I shouldn't expect the same treatment from him. I expect to be treated differently because of this sitch. But, that still doesn't change the fact that to me, he's still special. And him getting angry or gloomy on me would still affect me greatly.
Hmm... Maybe it's not the same in his shoes. After all, I noticed that I've been predicting his actions wrongly recently. Maybe...
I decided to stop talking to him for a while. I don't want to anger him again and feel more of what I'm feeling now. I don't know when I'll talk to him again. Well, that's it for now. Bye.
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Friday, June 6, 2008
08:36 p.m.
Whew... I slept over at Keystone with a housemaid. The place seems comfy enough. XD The fun part was that I commuted to places. Weeee...
Actually, I feel kinda lazy to update my blog now. Yet I still wanna update. Hahaha... Weh... School's coming. So near. Waaah.... I'll just put up another haiku...
Nap
When the raindrops fall
I’m listening silently,
Drifting off to sleep.
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Thursday, June 5, 2008
10:59 a.m.
Five more days till school. I already did my physical exam in UE. I guess now I'm really officially a UE student. Am I excited? I can't really say. I'm more nervous than excited. It's like those times before school started when I was in high school. I'm nervous. Weh... Maybe it's because UE isn't my school of choice? Just like Woodrose wasn't. Oh well. My parents really wanted me to go here. Let's just see how things turn up. Then again, yesterday I went to DLSU Dasma to meet up with Ronces to pick up some med notes from her. She dragged me to the frosh orientation and I saw my old human bio blockmates heading the orientation and I also saw some biology classmates who enrolled to the school. If only you knew how I felt. I was thinking to myself, "why oh why did I not enroll here?". And Kenneth (a human bio blockmate) had to rub it in some more by saying out loud, "May naaamoy akong UE dito!" >.< Weh... Still a clown, just like he was in DLSU Taft. I missed Ronces. It was nice seeing her again, but unfortunately, I had to leave right away. Well, I suppose it was better if I did, or else I'd be regretting more... Haaay...
Anyway, last night was a rough-- well not really rough-- night for me. I mean I was really bothered by something, and it opened a nearly healed wound. Well, it's just that I was texting Rain some "what if" situations for fun. I was bored, and I had nothing to do. And yeah, I wanted some attention. Wehehe... The guy was watching anime, according to him. What bothered me was his answer when I asked "Pag nag strip ako sa harap mo, anong gagawin mo?" His answer was harsh... Well, it felt harsh. Kinda like sword piercing through your chest. I expected something like "I'd tell you to put your clothes back on" or "I'll cover my eyes", something like that. But... I guess I dug my own grave there. I couldn't stop thinking about it after that, and I had to pretend that I was still playing and joking around. Weh... But I'm okay now. ^^ Sleeping got me over it. Hehehe...
Well, I'll be going off to the apartel I'll be staying in when school starts. We're going to go move some stuff over there. Maybe I'll go to DLSU today too... I hope. Byebye.
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Monday, May 26, 2008
08:28 p.m.
Weh... I'm reminiscing again... I just read Carl's farewell message to me in my notebook, and, well, it made me miss him more than I already did. I texted the guy but he didn't reply. >.< He probably doesn't have anymore load, just like always. Hahaha...
Weh... How time flies. Part of me wishes to go back through time and experience my DLSU life all over again. The other part, though, is thankful that I'm finally graduating. Rarr... I guess I just miss the school, too. I miss it just like I used to miss my elementary school when I entered Woodrose (and NO, I don't miss Woodrose. Bleh...). Hehe... I suppose I enjoyed DLSU life as much as MMCSFI life. Of course, that's DLSU minus thesis. Rarr. Thesis is the most traumatic experience I've had in that school... Weh! Even worse than when I failed MICROBI.
Anyway, today I enrolled in UE. I just need to take my physical exam on June 3. We also rented a unit in Keystone, which is walking distance from UE. Me and my cousin will be staying there five days a week for the rest of the schoolyear. Yeah, independence at last. XD I finally get a taste of it. Sure, it comes with responsibilities and stuff, but I'm actually looking forward to it. Weee...
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Friday, May 23, 2008
12:43 p.m.
I just found out there's five eggs in my breeder's nest now. Woah... That's one egg more than last time. I wonder how many will hatch? ^^ Anyway, it's already decided. I'm going to UE for med school. I didn't really choose the school. My mom did. >.< Well, It's because I was still unsure on where to go. I wanted La Salle because it looked much more comfy there and it was cleaner there too. It also seemed to be much easier there than in UE. UE was situated the way DLSU is. The place actually looks like Taft. O_o It's noisier, dirtier, and say, not as comfy-looking as La Salle Dasma. However, UE has the better reputation. According to my dad, the best doctors and "legends" come from there. It was either UST or UE. He also added that a hospital would much rather take a UE graduate over a La Salle graduate even if their academic standings were as high as heaven. >.< This was an example in one of the injustices we discussed in RELSFOR on my last term in DLSU. Weh...
So it was either I picked what made me happier and do my best there even if I become a victim of injustice or I pick the seemingly better choice and be chosen because of my school and thus become the same "best doctor" as all the rest: a UE graduate, if you know what I mean. Weh... I wasn't against my mom's interference. I didn't really care anymore. My heart is still in La Salle, but I also want to make my dad happy, and not cause him the embarrassment he'll get when his doctor friends find out his daughter went to a school considered lower than Fatima. *sigh* I guess I'm forced to become a clone like all of them, much to my dismay. But like I already told myself, I don't care anymore where I go. If I graduate from UE, I'll make sure that I get accepted in a hospital because of my standings and not the university I came from. If I graduate from Dasma, so much the better for me to prove myself as a graduate from that school. But since UE was already picked for me, I gave them my condition: I stay in a condo. And, yep, they accepted my condition. So I'm going to be living with my cousin in the middle of Manila... just like Rain does every schoolweek. Wehehe... Oh well...
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
06:55 a.m.
Rarr... I'm in a bad mood right now... Guess why... >_<
Anyway, I'll just put up one of my haikus again...
Date Late
The clock keeps ticking
And here I sit, still waiting
Until the sun sets.
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
03:54 p.m.
Just got back home to the Philippines two days ago. It's good to be home. XD I got to see my bird, Chatot, again! She's sooooo cute!!! Yeah, Chatot's a "she"... Well, I assume she is, according to the book, her pelvic bones ek ek match that of a female. I'm not sure if I felt her butt right though. XD Oh, and she's as tame as a kitten. I already clipped her wings just in case she tries to fly away. Other than that, she's sooooo adorable!!!!!!!! She climbs up my shoulder and preens my hair and kisses my cheek!! XD Weeeehhhh!!!!! CUUUUTTEEEE!!!! XDDDDD
Anyway, now that I'm back here, I've got to decide which school I'm going to... La Salle or UE. I can't decide. I told my mom that I'll make my decision in three days. In the meantime, I have to prepare all the stuff I need for enrollment. Weh... I really want to go to La Salle, but my dad makes UE seem like the better choice, but... Weh... Environment-wise, La Salle is more attractive. UE is kinda like DLSU Taft with the wild streets and beeping jeeps and buses and traffic. >.< Weh... I don't know. I guess I'll just think it over while I still can. I just hope my decision will be one I won't regret...
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
07:15 a.m.
We're back in Santa Fe Springs. Finally, wireless internet! XD Hmm... It's Ivan's birthday today. Er... Well, over at the Philippines I guess it's already passed but, weh. Three more days before we go back home. I can't wait to see my bird. XD And I heard that the pair laid eggs again! Yey! I'm sticking to my naming plan. Wahahaha!
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Friday, May 9, 2008
01:00 a.m.
Hi.. Still in Panera but it's just that I was looking up lovebirds in the net (according to my cousin over at home, Chatot, my baby lovebird, is growing up! XD). Anyway, I just thought about the next batch of babies that might come up from the pair we have. As promised, I'd name one after Rain. XD Wala lang. I got a wild idea though. If I get four to survive, I'd give them PRSD initials... Polly, Rain, Silver, and Dee. Yes, kill me now if you must... WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Actually, the name similarities amuse me a lot. LOL.
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Friday, May 9, 2008
12:12 a.m.
Finally I get to post here. Right now I'm in Panera (some bread restaurant) in Panama City Florida. ^^ Here I am, taking advantage of the wireless internet here. XD Wehehe...
Anyway, what's been happening? Well, before coming over to Florida, we went to Las Vegas, one of my least favorite places to go. Why? Because I can't do anything there except stay in the arcade or walk around playing a handheld game system (my nintendo DS). You have to be 21 years old to walk around the place, especially the Casinos. Some shows there are also not for my innocent eyes. Not to mention all these people distributing cards of prostitutes and the price... Interestingly, the cheapest woman I saw was worth $35 while the most expensive woman is $175... Makes me pity the $35 woman. >.< Anyway, so the whole time I was in Lasvegas I was playing my DS and the game I was playing was called Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney. I borrowed a DSTT (like an R4) for the DS from my cousin in Santa Fe. And I've been playing like an addict since then. First I started with Hotel Dusk and finished it. Hey, its a cool game. It's like Trauma Center in a way, but instead of a doctor, you're a detective. Astig. XD Next I played Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, then the sequel Justice for All, then now I'm playing the third sequel Trials and Tribulations. It's an interesting game. ALthough it's all reading, in the game you play as a lawyer. Similar to Trauma Center and Hotel Dusk too. XD I plan to finish all Ace Attorneys in a WEEK!!! Mwahahaha! After the third sequel there's a fourth. Mwahahahaha! Yes, adik na ako sa DS. Take note! I haven't played POKEMON in a while because of Ace Attorney! XD
Before I end this entry, here is another Haiku I made while I was still in DLSU...
My Rain
The Rain, soothing me;
The coldness, so refreshing;
And I smile again.
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Unanswered
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
02:34 p.m.
Questions flood my mind
And asked to you, but refused;
Leaving me to cry.
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Monday, April 28, 2008
04:05 p.m.
Hello. Well, whaddaya know? I guess I can update a bit here. Anyway, we arrived here in LA safe and sound. Yesterday I went to Universal Studios with my half-sis, kuya-in-law, niece, and nephew. It was fun. People there kept making fun of Disneyland. Wahahaha!
Anyway, here I am, sitting in one of my cousin's bedrooms which I sleep in. In front of the bed is a HUGE LCD TV that has everything. What do I mean by everything? I mean a PS3, a Wii, and an XBOX360. MWAHAHAHAHA! Yeah, I have it all in this room. XD
'Nuff 'bout that. Its 1:09am right now. I was just reminiscing a little while ago after playing Hotel Dusk on my DS. Guess who I was thinking about? It ain't that hard. Ehehe... I brought his picture with me, even though I'm supposed to be "trying" to forget about him. Well, not exactly "forget" but weh... I still brought his picture with me anyway. And he still looks so good in a suit. It got me thinking about that other time I saw him dressed that way. It was during one of my classmate's debut we were in first year college. That time I had a big crush on Bean (Weh... everyone knows this...). I clearly remember wishing that he'd ask me to dance, even though I'm the type to refuse. I still wanted him to ask anyway. Hahahaha! But I knew deep down, he wouldn't do it. Rain was in that debut in the good suit (wehehe...), but that time, we were just friends (and I remember oh so clearly how his eyes traveled downwards... Rarr...). However, as I tried to recall the events in the debut, I remembered thinking about how I wouldn't mind either of Rain asked me to dance with him. Weird... I didn't exactly have a crush on him yet. Maybe I did, but Bean had most of my attention. Weh... >.< Ewan. But, when Jen tried to drag him to the dancefloor demanding that he dance with her and the others, he refused, and I thought, "Nah, he wouldn't ask me. The dude doesn't even want to dance..." Yet he still danced with Jen since he was one of the 18 Roses something. Weh...
Look at that... Jen got to dance with both my crush and... er... Rain. Me? I danced with Emman. >.< And yeah I do have regrets in this debut, and it's not only that I danced with Emman. Actually, it's also that I refused to dance with Carl. Yes, Carl. He asked me to dance with him, but I refused because I was nervous. I should have taken his hand that night. He asked first before Emman. Ugh... Idiotic me...
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Monday, April 21, 2008
08:26 p.m.
Hello! I'm in the airport! Wala lang... Just waiting for the flight. Hehehe...
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
11:22 a.m.
Tomorrow I'll be off to the States. Usually I'm excited to go, but now, I really don't know if I should be. The family issue there seems to be getting a lot worse. My uncle and his wife are fighting about I-don't-know-what and the families on both sides are getting involved. The worst that's happened is that today is Eevee's (my first female cousin) birthday and the family in the wife's side were all invited, but not the family in the father's side. WTH. That's just how bad it is there now. Wehh... I hope things get better though.
Anyway, I won't be updating here much. I'll be back in the Philippines by May 18. Byebye.
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Maybe...
Saturday, April 19, 2008
02:38 p.m.
Maybe I’m like a bird:
I tweet and sing
And want to make you happy.
But when I nip you
Out of blind excitement
You begin to find me nasty.
Maybe I’m like a dog:
I bark and whine
And want your attention.
But when in excess
And of loving concern,
You put me on detention.
Maybe I’m like a cat:
I meow and purr
And want to be next to you.
But when I scratch you
Out of innocent surprise
You lock me out of your room.
Maybe I’m like a fish:
I swim and splash
And show you my beauty.
But when my color fades
Out of illness or old age
You leave and then forget me.
Maybe I’m just happy;
Maybe I’m just worried;
Maybe I want your attention
Or just want to feel you near me
I do what I do
All just for you;
But like the bird and the dog,
Like the cat and like the fish,
My simplicity, to you,
Becomes a nuisance, and…
Maybe just for love
You should just set me free.
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Friday, April 18, 2008
10:49 a.m.
Since yesterday, I've been going through a process of getting over Rain... It's hard. It really damn is... But I did make some progress so far. I mean, I can finally look at his picture without starting to cry, but when I moved on to try reading his palanca to me (given during LASARET), the scent of his perfume was enough to make me shatter. I did not continue to even open the letter. Weh... Summer break is going to be long...
Here's a haiku I just made last night:
The Final Stop
Riding in the car,
Hanging on ‘til the next stop,
But your hand has gone.
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
05:26 p.m.
Depression aside... I got good news.
These are my grades for this last term:
CELLBIO - 2.0
GENETIC - 2.5
KASPIL2 - 4.0
RELSFOR - 3.0
LBYBIOE - 3.5
THSBIO3 - 4.0
INTRECO - 3.0
That's the second time I ever got a grading list that doesn't have a line of 1.0 grade. And not only that, I lived up to my goal... MY CALCULATED GPA IS 3.055. You know what that means? I'M A FREAKING 2nd HONOR ROLL DEAN'S LISTER! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEY!!!!!! I hope my name comes out in the bulletin board. I feel so glad, and a bit relieved too. I guess my job is now truly done in DLSU. XD
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
10:52 a.m.
Last night was the block's dinner party. A lot went... We were about 20 or more. Carl didn't go (Waaaa! And he still owes me his picture! PALUSOT!!). Anyway, we ate in Pier One Mall of Asia, the one by the bay. The food was pretty good. Squid, sisig, some vegetable-thing-that-I-don't-know-what-it's-called, and chicken. Everything was good. Rain came and of course, I was happy. Nyahaha... And I was able to get my classmates to keep their trap shut about us for a while, since my parents were supposedly eating in the area. Actually, I only found out just a while ago that they ate in the other Dampa. Weh...
Anyway, me and Rain spent some quality time together after we ate. But I really had to leave the restaurant for a while because the cigarette smoke was killing me. We went to Powerstation first. I played Tekken 5 then Street Fighter... And then Rain forced me to sing in the karaoke cubicle... Huhuhuhu... I was soooooo embarrassed. I'm just not used to singing in front of people... Waaaaa! Damn you, Rain!!!! But then again, I suppose it's better that I did. After all it's our last time to be together like that.
Weh... Depression... I'm sure it will take a lot of time before I recover from this... I couldn't stop crying when I got home. I just didn't want to let him go, but I had to. It was for our own good. I just hope that things will turn out for the better in the future. I don't know if we will end up together or not, but I guess I'll leave that up to God...
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
08:49 p.m.
Wow... Block dinner tomorrow night... I hope I can go. If I can, that means I get to say "bye" to Rain more properly. >.< I couldn't get myself to say it a while ago before I left school because I'd cry. Then my parents would notice. Oh well... Let's just hope...
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Tuesday, April 14, 2008
08:46 p.m.
Weh... What a stressful week last week's been. And it hasn't ended yet. Thesis is eating me up slowly, and I just had to drag Rain in to this. Well, he didn't look too happy when I asked him to help me... But I just had no choice. Weh...
I really owe him a lot for helping me out in thesis even though he didn't hell want to... Well, that's what he said... It was a stab in the chest but I had to accept that. Giving him this burden was probably too much. I do feel guilty; actually even more guilty now since it was my fault in the first place that he isn't graduating right now. If he was still my thesis partner, we would have been happy. Even though I was granted a 4.0 for thesis, I don't think I could have done it without him. He deserves a shar of this grade... But here I am; I took all the glory. Makes me look like a bad person... >_< Saying "thank you" to him won't even do him justice. But the least I could do is do something or make something for him. Well, we'll just see... Tomorrow will be the last day we both see each other again...
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Tuesday, April 8, 2008
09:18 p.m.
Wow... I'm finally using this blog again. Weh... I haven't been updating my LiveJournal for a while either. I've been too busy. Huhuhu...
Anyway, Friday will be the last day of final exams; thus the last day I'm considered a student of DLSU. >.< That's sad... I'll miss the school a lot. After all, it's where I met... Well, you know who you are. Weh...
The following is a message for Rain...
Hello. XD Hehe... Welcome to my blog, The Twisted Illusion (version Exposed). Yes, "Exposed", because you have access to this already. So meh... Anyway, by the time you're reading this, we've most probably cut off communication for summer. Anyway, you can go ahead and read every inch and every corner of this blog. All my embarrassing entries about you are finally exposed to you... *hides in under the desk* Waaaah! T^T Oh, and you can go ahead and use the shout box above. We can talk to each other there too if you like. ^^ Well, I guess that's all for now. I'll be updating this blog and LiveJournal more frequently, so you should check both from time to time if you want to know what's been going on with me. Hehe... Anyway, Happy vacation, Rain!
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Test Entry
Friday, April 4, 2008
11:03 p.m.
Hello. Blah blah Acheche..... Wala lang. Just testing. Test entry lang to. wehehehe... will be deleted when i feel like deleting it...
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Innocent Seduction
Friday, April 4, 2008
10:57 p.m.
I burn a bright pink;
And you continue closer
‘til I breathe no more.
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Love Is A Cliche!!!
Friday, April 4, 2008
10:52 p.m.
Poem I made dedicated to Rain. ^^
Love is stupid
Love is blind
How many more people
Have to fall for this crime?
There’s no way that
I’ll fall for you
Or that would make me
Like all of them too.
Boys here and boys there
Tsk! What a bore…
And the girls pretty up
For whatever could be in store.
As for me, here I sit
Looking at you as if you were…
No, wait, it can’t be…
And I continue to listen to Sir.
You and I, we’ve been friends
For quite a long while
You may be a guy
But, yeah, that’s my style.
I’m not like them
And you know that very well
I’m really such a boy
And everyone could tell.
I find them stupid
Those girls in love
And yet, deep down
I’m a lonely, single dove.
It’s so ridiculous
Yet I watch them.
What is it like?
It makes me so curious.
You held my hand
And I felt myself flush
How could someone like you
Make a tomboy blush?
I shook it off many times
But I was too curious.
I wanted to know
If I was getting delirious.
The more I stayed with you
I was becoming like them
I never thought
From you it would stem.
I hated yet liked it
The warmth of your presence
My hand in yours
Is this love’s essence?
Then came a time
When I could no longer take it
So restless and confused
I couldn’t even sit.
Until it came to me
Like a punch in the face
All I was doing
Was lounging in space.
Now I didn’t care
I may be such a boy
But the truth is there
I’m only a tomboy.
No matter how you look at it
I’m female all the way
And now you see that
I’m no different as I used to say.
All that time
I was slowly changing
It’s all your fault
I’m now a girl who’s loving.
Love is stupid
Love is blind
I hate to admit it
But I fell for it this time.
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