Sunday, May 13, 2007, 08:51 p.m.

Nouvelle Vague showcase last night was mesmerising. I couldnt stop having that "mentel" smile on my face except during those moments when we got so annoyed by several ignorant individuals.

I felt strange being at Zouk after for so long. I think the last time I was there was before I left for Europe last August. To be at the "new zion" felt even more strange and unfamiliar. It was not same feeling anymore. The feeling continued to linger even after we headed back in after the usual chilling session. There I was on the dancefloor doing the "joget malas". No more familiar faces. I wasnt that enthusiastic as before and the crowd gave out a different vibe. Maybe it's a sign that i'm getting older and clubbing is very much not part of my life agenda anymore. dah tak kuasa, dah penat. I wasnt a heavy clubber to begin with so it's not that bad. Instead, I found that what I did today was rather enjoyable.

I brought my nephews to watch Spidey. We shared sweet popcorns and lemon tea, had lunch at Pizza Hut and letting them had some fun at the game arcade, toy r us and popular bookstore. If everything goes well, I may be heading to Bintan with them (without the parents) in 2 weeks time. Initially, my sis and parents were not pretty sure to let me go with the boys on my own but I managed to convince them that it will be just fine. I'm sure of my own capabilities and at least, i'm putting the travel voucher into good use. I'm pretty excited about the trip. It will be fun.

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That little something...
Tuesday, May 8, 2007, 12:30 p.m.

I've not felt it for awhile. But when it does come rushing through you, the feeling was indescribable. All you can do is to smile sheepishly, like a little girl or perhaps blush a little.

Last Sat, we headed down to Little Bali after stuffing ourselves silly at Carousel's high tea buffet, our birthday treat for Amirul. It was the usual chillout session, this time over mocktails and great ambience to boot. Everybody else was deep in conversation. I became silent. Diverted my attention to him and was just looking at him talking and laughing. Then I felt the rush, that tingling sensation through my body. I got all smitten, smiling to myself. Of course, he and the rest didnt see it.

It was the same overwhelming feeling I had 8 years ago :P

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Saturday, May 5, 2007, 12:31 a.m.

Winning a $300 travel voucher has been causing me much headache and heartache. The excitement only lasted for awhile. There is a chance for me to use it for a short trip in June but the period is unsuitable for him coz he's moving house. I plan to go ahead on my own, anywhere near as long as I can use the voucher. But, he's not agreeable to that. For the first time, he was begging me not to go on a trip coz i'll be all alone, even though he has very much faith that I'm capable of making it on my own. He told me to be patient for the Japan trip.

I know I sound like a spoilt, ungrateful brat, worrying, whining and complaining abt not having to go on a trip when some are already very much grateful having get to travel at least once a year, worse some do not get to travel at all. I know I ought to be given a tight slap.

But having that voucher in hand tempts me to not waste the opportunity even though I do not lose anything even if I do not use it. Initially, I want to use it for the Japan trip but it is not worth it. But since somehow, I already make up my mind, I shall hold on to it and see what i can do. Use it or leave it. Anyone interested, pls email me. Maybe I can sell it at 20%- 30% off. The voucher expires end of September.

I actually cried while in the shower just now. Yes, I know it's pathetic to cry over such trivial matter or maybe it's PMS. Pls be nice to me and think that it's because of the latter.

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