I'm da BITCH...
.:Friday, July 4, 2003, 09:50 a.m.:.

I'm back in the office after 4 days. same routine next week,last week of auditing...finally.The only part i enjoyed about auditing was the interview sessions.i like portraying myself as the bitch and it was kinda funny to see those officers' expressions the moment they entered the interview room and while answering my questions.Some of them were obviously felt awkward or miserable.hehehe...but actually most of the time, i was nice lah...was just trying to put up a stern face.hehehe...

i'm suppose to leave for KL tonite with the whole family to attend a relative's wedding but i decided not to go coz it is a rush rush trip.i dont like rush rush trip.i want to have an ample time to do shopping/sightseeing.The whole family will be leaving tonite by train and will take the night train back to singapore tomorrow evening.see...so rush rush and tiring.i dun like.

hossam and serena ramzy are performing tonite at kallang theatre.deep down inside, i really want to go and see them strut their stuff but kinda broke.so sad.....next time then...

the fun and the scare are over.....
.:Sunday, June 29, 2003, 07:35 p.m.:.

the fun weekend at orchard parade hotel is over and now i'm back in the comfort of my bedroom.huda went to jb yesterday morning and when she came back to the hotel in the evening,boy was she surprised.coz we had decorated the room with pieces/strands of colourful crepe paper hanging down from the ceiling.it was really groovy and psychedelic.we also presented her birthday gifts on trays, just like those hantarans during a malay wedding.it was hilarious.maggie actually bought packets of tissue paper and kinda put them together to look like house or dome or watever is it and in the middle of that tissue structure was Lady Speed stick deodorant.we then had supper at newton and shila,mar and i had a good massage.thanks to zila.she's good i tell ya.i was telling her that i'll hire her once i open up my very own spa/massage parlour.i also told her that she should start a little massage business at home.

all the fun and excitement aside, something happened before we checked out of the room. mar and i had gone for a quick swim at the hotel swimming pool after lunch.both of us were just swimming and chilling in the pool.mar can swim but is kinda paranoid/afraid when it comes to deep waters.so she just stayed in the shallow waters.then she wanted me to teach her tread water.so i did,kept reminding her to stay in the shallow waters.she was doing ok when she decided to move a little to the deeper part.the pool was built in such a way it get deeper and deeper.mar was doing fine when suddenly she started to get panicky and all.she was struggling to keep her head out of the water.since i was near to her, she was trying to hold on to me.i tried to calm her down and all but her weight was pushing me down and down.i tried to break away from her so that i could catch some breath and pull her to the shallow waters but i just couldnt coz she kept pushing me down,grabbing and pulling me.i was helpless myself and got panicky for a while.then i heard mar shouted for help.thank god there were 2 ang mohs,an old man and a young man,father and son i reckon, chilling by the pool.it took a while to catch their attention coz their backs were facing the pool.soon after, the young one swam towards us and pulled mar to the side.i caught my breath and swam to the side where the old man held out his hand to pull me.for a while, i was breathless and it was very tiring.

as soon as i got out of the pool,i ran to mar and wrapped her up with towels.she was shivering.i quickly called the gals in the room.zila,maggie and huda came running down to the pool.zila and maggie were pointing out the reddish scratch marks,all over my chest and hands.thanks to mar's long fingernails and her pulling/grabbing.i dunno how long was the ordeal but i'm sure i dun want to go through it again.i was grateful that we are ok.thanks to the angmohs.i cannot imagine what would have happen if there were no one around.i was recalling the incident every now and then and the things i should have done.i felt shitty coz i was unable to save mar.i was greatly thankful that everything was over and both of us are ok.only now, i have to nurse my chest.

on a lighter note,when i called the gals and told them something had happen to us,they thought we were pulling their legs.this is becoz mar is a funny person and an attention seeker.they thought it was just her another trick to attract attention.well,it turned out to be real one and i think the whole incident will be stuck in my head for a while.

First night...
.:Saturday, June 28, 2003, 08:39 a.m.:.

so i joined the rest of the gals at orchard parade hotel after work yesterday.the room was cosy,classy furnishings and decor but i think i still prefer the room we had over at royal plaza on scotts.mainly becoz of the beds.while at royal plaza,we had 2 super single beds which can fit 2 persons but here at orchard parade we had the normal single beds.no doubt we were given the room on the privilege level but that besides the point.the minibar is not free unlike royal plaza and the things in there are freaking expensive!!!by bedtime, we gals were all over the room,trying to find our very own spot to sleep.i think all of us slept at arnd 3am...so that means i had about 3 hours of sleep and now i'm in the office.

the gathering/cum norimah's bday dinner last night at breeks was nice.it was nice to see the gals again.they were my polymates and its not always i get to see them so yea i made a point to meet up with them last night.i didnt manage to go to hooda's bday gathering at padang but its ok coz i have the whole weekend with her.i would love to be there though coz nan,shak and the rest of peeps whom i have not met for quite some time now were there.perhaps another day k.

i met that somebody on the way to the hotel.at first i wasnt too sure it was him.he looked a little different.our eyes met for a moment while waiting to cross the road. when the green man appeared, i juz walked away quickly.then i had to msg him to ask where he was.his reply "Behind you".so it was him afterall.i think he lost a little bit of weight and maybe thats why i couldnt make out whether that it was him.we talked for a bit before i hurried off to join the gals.i think he's kinda sweet and cute.*wink* hehehe

So many things that i wanna say...
.:Friday, June 27, 2003, 09:19 a.m.:.

i'm back in my office,well not for long coz will be out auditing again on monday till thursday. so thank god for today,at least i can surf the net for a bit and of coz blog.

so many things happened, so many things i wanna write.i dunno where to start.

been very busy since 2 weeks ago,busy wit work,busy wif travelling,busy wit my social life...this weekend is gonna be another busy,fun weekend.the gals and i are checking into orchard parade hotel.its part of our monthly gals get together thingy and of coz to celebrate hooda's birthday.we had so much fun the last time and we are going to do it again except this time round, there's lots of planning to do to make hooda's birthday bash a good one.i think the hardest thing to do is to make sure everybody is happy.each individual is different and has their own respective preferences.however, as much as i tried to make everybody happy,catering to their needs,i really hope they do the same.selfishness wont get you far.sometimes,too many people come together can give you a big headache.too many opinions, too many ideas and the worst fear,things do not turn out the way it should be.

the wedding is still in my mind.i'm sure it was a beautiful wedding.i want to get married too, ASAP!!this hope of getting married asap wasnt in my mind,say 5-6 yrs ago.in fact i thought that i will never find that somebody and get married.but its all different now.if you're looking from Islam point of view,settling down is definitely the best way to bring a man and a woman together,the halal way.butterscotch and i were discussing about this right after i told him about the wedding.of course,the financial factor does play a major part in getting married.sad to say it is rite.butterscotch told me that he would marry me now if he can afford to but oh well, neither one of us has the sufficient means to settle down now.oh well...

on a lighter note,i did my hair yesterday.well, i was in clementi so i tot i dropped by at my favourite hair salon.been telling cheyanne about the salon and how i told her that only Ben can cut my hair and he's the best.so i brought her to Ben's.she wanted to trim her hair and checked out the place.Ben still remembered me.its been a long time.i used to go to him to cut hair during my poly days.i fell in love with his hairdressing skills the very first time he cut my hair.it was almost perfect.Ben is a bit gayish and i like that.after Ben trimmed cheyanne's hair ,i tried to convince him that my hair needed some trimmings and he tried to convince me that i should add some colour to my jet black hair.i wasnt planning to highlight my hair or whatsoever.then i was telling Ben that if i want to highlight my hair,the colour definitely had to compliment my tan.Ben straight away told me that he already had a colour in mind.when i asked him what is it, he wouldnt tell me.he said its a surprise.of coz i had to remind him that i cant afford to have outrageous/stunning highlight,firstly coz i dun really fancy it,secondly,its not appropriate for my workplace.well,what can i say,Ben is the best.He did wonders to my hair and now i'm a happy bunny.Ben will be my permanent hairdresser from now on,its ok that i have to travel all the way to clementi coz its all worth it.

gosh,i hate the way i've been writing.very rushy...rushy writing to compliment my busy schedule? hhhmmm...

The fun that never ends...
.:Tuesday, June 24, 2003, 09:45 a.m.:.

hey i'm back.bintan was good.had a good tan and had so much fun of course with the gals.gonna be out of office till next week coz i'm involved in some auditing work..very busy..i'm still in the holiday mood, feeling all worn out but contented.looking forward to this weekend..gals nite out at orchard parade hotel and hooda's birthday bash.its the fun that never ends,it just go on and on,my friend...

gotta buzz off now, back to work...will blog again if i can afford the spare time...till then...enjoy...

Another fun in the sun weekend...
.:Thursday, June 19, 2003, 08:59 a.m.:.

I have like a zillion things to do before i leave for bintan tomorrow morning.oh well,i hope i can manage and get them done asap.

had belly dancing lesson last night at aunty ja's.alia decided to have it at her place instead of al wehdah coz its only a small number of us attending.no point in renting the room at al wehdah.but i guess it was much more comfortable at her place though aunty ja,huda's mum,hababa and another aunty were there watching us do our stuff.alia then showed us this belly dancing game show or sumthing like that.this particular belly dancer was superb.the way she moves and all...amazing.aunty ja said we are doing better each time.she said we have sense of rhythm.

i reached home feeling all worn out,had a quick shower and straight away went to bed.had a funny dream last night and umam was in it.i miss that boy,truly miss him.hope you're studying hard now with the exams just around the corner.

oh yeah,i collected my pemanggil pictures yesterday.some of it didnt turn out good.i'll try to post the good ones soon.

looking forward to my bintan trip this weekend.another fun in the sun weekend.this time round with my galfrens.gonna be lots of fun.3 full days in bintan,hows that? my mum knowing that i wont be around in the weekend,again kept saying and asking "Eh,you not tired ah? Go here, go there" hehehee my little nephew, Kiki was also complaining..."You're going away again..i'm gonna miss you" dun worry..i'll make it up to you k gemuk..

allrite i better get back to work.thanks to my bosses, we are going to stay till late after work for some urgent meeting...damn it..

Can't get anough of it
.:Wednesday, June 18, 2003, 09:21 a.m.:.

had a good slacking session at home after work yesterday.the boys werent around so its only me and my parents.had a good shower and spent the rest of the evening watching telly.by 10pm, i was ready for bed.about to doze when butterscotch called me.we talked for a bit coz both of us were way too knackered.yes,i'm still in the fatigue/sleep/holiday mode since returning from the trip. i'm collecting my pictures later in the evening, will have them scanned and hopefully will put them up here soon.

this is for those who wants to know more about pulau pemanggil...
Pulau Pemanggil is located about 64 miles offshore from mersing,johor.It is near Tioman but further up.Known as fishing haven, the island is not as commercialized as Tioman.From reading the guestbooks,i realised its more popular among the locals and some singaporeans too.Ang mohs still prefer to go tioman.Less commercialized,less people means a cleaner and private place, your very own little paradise.Personally, i think the beaches on Pulau Pemanggil,Pulau Aur and Pulau Dayang are way more beautiful and cleaner.I didnt really enjoy the waters in Tioman coz there were lots of sea flies or watever they call it.they kept biting/stinging you and it made your swimming/snorkelling activities unpleasant.

The island is a great place to wind down and destress coz all you do is chill and relax.Exploring the island is possible if you have the time.i would love to do that if i have the chance to go there again.however, the resort i was staying at,Lanting Beach Resort is located on the other side of the island, far from the kampongs and all.I think there are other accomodations around the island,mostly chalets and stuff like that.i think they are located much nearer to the kampongs.However,i dont really recommend the place for the elderly or maybe young children coz they may not be able to take the boat ride and furthermore,the whole resort is build on rocky hills so expect lots of steep stairs/slopes.I myself couldnt take it.hehehe.Activities like snorkelling and fishing in the open waters are a must.Within 10 minutes, you can have a basket,half filled with fresh fish.

so if you people wanna have nice short weekend getaway,i recommend Lanting Beach Resort, Pulau Pemanggil.For $210, you get everything for 3 days 2 nights:tranport (van & ferry ride),accomodation,food (3 times a day,buffet style) & island hopping to nearby islands.The package is from Samudra Travel Pte Ltd.Get further details from me if you are interested.salim,do i get a little commission for promoting the island? hehehe...

You know i'm with you all the way...
.:Tuesday, June 17, 2003, 09:55 a.m.:.

watched finding nemo after werk yesterday with butterscotch. the whole show was totally cute and the graphics/animations were good.at the same time,i was reminiscing the times we went snorkelling during the rcent trip.saw lots of parrot fish while snorkelling at pulau dayang and the parrot fish in the show caught my eye instantly.i just love its vibrant colour.the cinema was filled with parents and their little children and several couples.so in between you will hear loud laughter,screaming and wailing and you got distracted by the movements around you,children who couldnt sit still and parents tyring to keep their children in control.children tend to ask lots of questions and oh yeah..they asked their questions aloud.nevertheless,i totally enjoyed the show.

my phone conversation with butterscotch last night turned into something ugly.it was a harmless conversation that turned into tongue slashing,heart breaking argument.i was getting all too paranoid,thinking too much of all the possibilities,how its going to affect our lives,suddenly i was filled with endless insecurities.maybe butterscotch was right to say that i'm too narrow-minded when it comes to this.but all i want you to know that i'm with you all the way.you yourself know what is the best for you.i respect your interests,your needs,your wants and your dreams.I'm with you all the way.

Gosh! I'm back in singapore?!! :(
.:Monday, June 16, 2003, 10:37 a.m.:.

hey,i'm back.reached singapore at around 8 last night.the trip to pulau pemanggil over the weekend was a good one.kinda exhausting due the long journey but it was all worthwhile.the food there was EXCELLENT!!! it was rather a short trip.waking up to the sound of the crashing waves every morning was nice.the moment i opened the window,strong wind gushed in and the morning sun greeted me.it just made you feel good.i'll try to post the pics i took.love to take more pictures but my batt decided to go kaput the moment i finished up the first roll of film.below is a brief travelogue of the trip.

9 of us including myself left singapore on thursday nite for mersing.the journey would normally last for 2-3 hours with stopover at some restplace.but thanks to our driver who was speeding all the way, sending shiver down to my spine,we reached mersing earlier than expected.the next 4 hours was spent waiting for the tide to go high.to kill time,we chilled at this 24 hour coffeshop.we played several games to keep ourselves awake.we finally board the boat at around 530-545am.for your info,it is a fishing boat or a troller.since it was moving at a slow speed,it will take about 3 to 5 hours to reach pulau pemanggil.only these fishing boats go to pulau pemanggil.no catamarans or fast speed boats.

we finally reached pulau pemanggil at around 1030am.yes it was a bumpy ride and it got uncomfortable at some point.the best tip is to sleep throughout the journey and yes, dun forget your anti seasick/travel pills,they helped big time.my grogginess,sleepiness ot whathaveyous suddenly diappeared the moment i saw the blue,crystal clear waters.the sea looked like this huge piece of fabric,displaying the different tones of blue.we stayed at lanting beach resort, the only resort or accomodation on the island.it's right at the jetty.i fell in love the moment i saw the whole damn place.the resort is situated on this rocky hill,very kampong style and all,very laid back so dun expect shangri-la.we were served breakfast and then checked in.the rooms were very simple and basic.since the whole place is on hills,getting to one point from another is rather tiring coz you had to climb steep staircases and trust me, when i said steep,it is really steep.so you dont have to go hiking elsewhere, the resort is good enough.our first day on the island was spent swimming and sun bathing at this private lagoon.totally private,no one else but us.the corals were beautiful though most of it were dead.the fishes were small but beautiful and colourful.we also got to play the congkak and carrom.couldnt remember when was the last time i played the congkak.learnt new tricks here and there.

right after dinner,we spent the night, karaokeing,playing table tennis and watching vcds.the resort had this nostalgic feel to it.the dining/living area was decorated with lots of antiques and old pictures.it was really cool.the view from this area was captivating.the south china sea was right in front you and all you gotta do is sit down,enjoy the breeze and the spectacular view.

the next day, we went out for island hopping.we went to pulau dayang and pulau aur.the whole day was spent swimming and snorkelling in the beautiful waters.here at pulau dayang and aur, the corals and fishes were way more beaufiful,alive and interesting.we were so engrossed in snorkelling that we didnt realise that we were slowly being swept away by the current.by the time we realised it,we were so far away from the shore.so we had to swim back.it was very challenging and exhausting.i thought i couldnt make it and got all panicky at one point.kept telling myself that i can do it.swimming against the strong current was no big joke.the moment i reached the shore,i was panting very hard and couldnt believe i swam that far.we then had our packed lunch in this little cave on pulau aur.unfortunately,it was not that clean but cosy enough to fill up our hungry tummies.after lunch,we chilled at a coffeshop near the jetty,chit chat with the locals.they are really nice,soft-spoken and very hospitable.

we were then being brought to a good spot somewhere near pulau pemanggil to fish.our catch was rather satisfactory and it was really my first time fishing in the open waters.we didnt managed to spot any dolphins during the island hopping which was disappointing.salim saw them both times he were there.well it was not that bad coz i was lucky enough to see a flying fish.our last dinner at pulau pemanggil was the best, in fact like i mentioned earlier the food there was superb,buffet style,home cooked food.by then we had the whole resort to ourselves.after dinner we basically did the same things we did the night before but this time round, we stayed up till about 4am to chill and enjoy our last night on the island.it was a full moon night.nice,very nice.

the next day,we left the island right after breakfast.another 4 and half hours boat ride back to mersing,2 hours of waiting for our van to pick us up from mersing and another 2 hours or so journey back to singapore.my heart sank when it was time to go.i would really love to stay another day or two.everything was over in a jiffy and now i'm back in singapore,say hi to stress.but stress will not get to me that fast coz i'm armed with good memories,great experiences and pictures to remind me of pulau pemanggil.i love to go there again.

now i'm looking forward to another fun in the sun weekend.so i guess stress will not visit me anytime soon.

Busy,busy,fun,fun June
.:Thursday, June 12, 2003, 08:45 a.m.:.

I'm leaving for Pulau Pemanggil tonite, will be back on Sunday nite.came to work this morning in my slackest mode,t-shirt,capris and birkenstocks.took the bus,carrying my backpack and got all the strange/blank stares from the aunties,uncles and whoever in the bus.pretty excited about the trip of course but not really excited about the crowd i'm going with.but at least i have butterscotch and salim to enjoy the pleasures of the island with if the rest are just too...eerrr...boring...irritating whatever it is.its funny right why i'm complaining when in the first very place i've chosen to go with them.butterscotch told me the exact thing.i must say that they are really fun bunch of people. in fact some of them went to tioman with me and it was really fun and we had a good time.this time round its not the same crowd and i'm just not too comfortable with some individuals.but of course all this petty things shall not be of any barriers to my long awaited holiday.

my next 2 weekends are very much going to be occupied as well.next weekend going to bintan with the gals and the following weekend we're going to have our monthly gals nite out/butterfly nite at orchard parade hotel.busy,busy...

How did it go?
.:Tuesday, June 10, 2003, 09:12 a.m.:.

day 2 of my 3 day diet.1st day of diet yesterday wasnt too bad, well at least during the first half of the day.last night,i didnt have the dinner i've prepared from home, i only finished the broccoli.i was in bugis to meet up with matno and najib.by 7pm, i was freaking hungry.so i bought sushi.yes, sushi is not in the menu.the boys came late so i had time to do a little window shopping.was at topshop when i saw this particular top which i've been eyeing.its $19.80 after 70% discount and i can have 10% more if i use my F3 card.what a good deal but in the end i didnt get it.why? becoz it doesnt fit nicely on me especailly the chest area.i love the embroidery but it's too hard and doesnt fall nicely.but then again,i may change my mind and get it anyway,its freaking cheap.to make myself feel better, i bought an necklace instead.chill with matno and had to wait for quite some time for najib.finally he came at 8,with the snorkels of coz.we all chill till bout 9plus and then made our way home while najib went to fetch mariam from work.

3 day diet...
.:Monday, June 9, 2003, 09:42 a.m.:.

my sunday was spent with butterscotch after not seeing each other for so many days.it was a rather relaxing day.we chilled, talked and laughed.it was nice.he was sweet enough to accompany me do my grocery shopping.i'm trying out this 3 day diet thingy,starting today.huda supposed to start today also.will call to check on her.the diet was recommended by laura, shila's colleague and she swears by it.so butterscotch and i headed down to cold storage and ntuc to get all the stuff i need for the diet.butterscotch asked me on why i was keen on trying out the diet.i told him i', just giving it a try...see how it goes.it's not as if i'm really so hard up to go on a diet.i dun really care in the first place.then he said that we gals are funny,willing to try stuff like these.after grocery shopping,we chill somemore.

to all my butterfly gals, it's a small matter.no big deal about it and there's no need to make a big fuss of it.all we need is time management and good planning.it'll turn out fine and hopefully everybody is happy.that's important :)

3 day diet...
.:Monday, June 9, 2003, 09:42 a.m.:.

my sunday was spent with butterscotch after not seeing each other for so many days.it was a rather relaxing day.we chilled, talked and laughed.it was nice.he was sweet enough to accompany me do my grocery shopping.i'm trying out this 3 day diet thingy.it was recommended by laura, shila's colleague.so butterscotch and i headed down to cold storage and ntuc to get all the stuff i need for the diet.butterscotch asked me on why i was keen on trying out the diet.i told him i', just giving it a try...see how it goes.it's not as if i'm really so hard up to go on a diet.i dun really care in the first place.then he said that we gals are funny,willing to try stuff like these.after grocery shopping,we chill somemore.

to all my butterfly gals, it's a small matter.no big deal about it and there's no need to make a big fuss of it.all we need is time management and good planning.it'll turn out fine and hopefully everybody is happy.that's important :)

only for 10 mins? hhhmmmm......
.:Saturday, June 7, 2003, 11:50 p.m.:.

so the initial plan today was to go rollerblading,me & shila.but the weather wasnt too good to us.it was raining while we're on the way to east coast.so end up meeting huda who had to be in sch for some meet parents session.had an early dinner.we did to east coast to chill/rollerblade after that though.but get this,shila and i only rollerbladed maybe for about 10 mins!! how pathetic was that! it was drizzling anyway and so we wanted to get out from there before it started to get heavy.

we spent the rest of the evening chilling at starbucks siglap.met vu,dina,azril & that noshin gal.it was a lovely nite, filled with our nonsensical acts and laughter.suhana called me to ask about tomorrow's plan and i thought i was kinda rude to her.didnt mean to..so sorry.btw, shila and i thought that we should get ourselves new rollerblades.

New club?
.:Saturday, June 7, 2003, 12:51 a.m.:.

juz came back from another chilling session at maggie's.met up wit shila and ina in town,walked around a bit.had ya kun kaya toast for dinner then made our way to simei,out of town.so many people..headache ah.shila and i walked around eastpoint to kill time while waiting for maggie.maggie was at someone's place,doing his/her hair.

by 9.30pm,we were already at maggie's,chilling and laughing as usual and of course indulging ourselves with fruit tree's aloe vera and apple juice and potato chips.i took a short nap while shila was busy chatting with some indian guys while maggie was busy playing the snake game on shila's phone and trying to beat her highest score.in between my nap,i managed to watch this documentary on the gal with the beautiful,amazing eyes.she was on the cover of the national geographic magazine.

on the way back home,in the cab, shila said maggie's place is like a club to us.we go there and have fun,get high on aloe apple juice,and come back home past midnight.it should be next hottest club in town.hehehe.invitations only through IRC.hehehe.maggie's grandma is the chief bouncer and madam of the club.dun play play.gosh..i'm laughing my heart out now.i better stop.

there's a huge pimple right next to the biggest mole on my right cheek.it's disturbing and attracting attention.her name is josephine and she's from makati city.josephine,pls go back soon ok.i dun really fancy your presence.

I simply can't wait.....
.:Friday, June 6, 2003, 10:07 a.m.:.

went to samudra travel right after work yesterday to meet up with Salim.his mum,aunty sa'nah was still around in the office.very nice lady...reminded me of aunty jah.i spent the next 45 minutes or so discussin & planning for our coming pulau pemanggil trip.salim showed more pictures of the island,beautiful,breathtaking pictures.i was going like ooohhhs aaaahss.i simply can't wait to jump into the clear,blue waters.i know i'm going to eat a lot,buffets and bbq.it's going to be a short trip but definitely i'm looking forward to wind down and chill.

met shila and her colleagues,Ina,Amy & Khairin for dinner after that.very loud,cheerful bunch,Ina especially, very hyper,can be a little irritating too.Thanks for the treat though,hehehe.walked around town for a while.it was such a heartpain to walk around with those sale/discount signs screaming at you when you are too freaking broke.i want to get almost everything at body shop,one of my fave shops but of course that didnt happen.same thing happened when we stepped into Zara.aaaaaarrrrrrggghhhhhh!!!!!!went home,all tired and jaded and a sad bunny.

i think i kinda hurt butterscotch's feelings last night.i was being too inconsiderate and unreasonable.so sorry baby.

Maybe i should be a chef/event planner/caterer
.:Thursday, June 5, 2003, 08:40 a.m.:.

the belly dancing class was cancelled yesterday.most of the gals couldnt make it.so instead,shila and i made our way down to pasir ris to chill with huda.but before that,shila and i had a rolling good time at ntuc checking the stuff we need for the 3 day diet laura recommended.laura is shila's colleague who swears by this 3 day diet.i was looking through the menu and all and i think i can live through it.actually the diet was meant for huda but i kept pestering shila to prepare for me as well.so huda and i will start the diet next week, monday to wednesday.

why do i say i wanna be either a chef or event planner or caterer? because deep down inside i enjoy doing all those things that are related to these areas,its just that my potential is not shown to the fullest or there is no opportunity for to flaunt it.i did event management back in poly and it was nice and i like it.i love cooking and i think i'm good at it.i love homec lessons back in sec sch.i even got distinction for homec during my O's.all these ideas of venturing into a new scope/area derived from the little planning sessions i had with shila and the gals.it all started from the butterfly party we had last month.right now,we've been planning and working on huda's birthday bash and its going to be exciting.i shall not elaborate more on it,if not it wont be much fun.it shall be in hush hush mode at the moment.

the swell on my gum had subsided after the treatment and right now i'm on medication.thank god for the antibiotics and painkillers.the pain no longer haunting me, a little though.my gum kinda soft and fragile after the removal of the plague/dirt.i can feel it flapping.it's all good now.

Ouch Ouch Ouch!!!!
.:Wednesday, June 4, 2003, 01:55 p.m.:.

i took the morning off to visit the dentist to get my swollen gum treated.i had to coz the pain was just too unbearable.after a long wait,finally it was my turn.the dentist examined my gum and said that the swell was the result of the accumulation of plague/dirt on my gum,almost gingivitis.so she injected my gum twice (ouch ouch) and spent the next 5-10 min or so cleaning/digging out those shit(ouch,ouch,ouch,ouch).it wasnt a pleasant experience.the pain was too excruciating.i teared a bit.she examined the rest of my teeth and gum and said they are not in good condition.its expected i told her coz its been almost 8 and half yrs since i visited the dentist.yes, its that freaking long.my mum's constant nagging never got me step into the dentist.its not because i'm afraid,in fact i love going to the dentist, still remembered those days back in primary school,free treatment.i was always hoping that the nurse will call me up for checks and all.its just that i'm just too lazy or just dun want to spend my money on getting my teeth cleaned.after the whole ordeal,my mouth was numb and there was so much blood.i was given antibiotics and painkillers to make the pain go away and i made another appointment to get my teeth cleaned,polished,treated and whatnots.

i got back and told my mum about it,
mum: see, i told you so many times to go but you're stubborn
me: it hurts so much, so much blood. mum: of course lah, so long already, so many years.the plague is way too hard already.why not make it 9 years then u decide to go?
mum: just take a look at your sis.auntie magdelene's had to change her needle several times coz they broke while cleaning your sis' teeth.that reminds me to go and remind her to go to the dentist again.
me: that really happened?!(by this time i was laughing my heart out)
mum: you better get your teeth cleaned at the next appointment.
me: allrite...

when it comes to visiting the dentist,only my mum and second sis are the disciplined ones.actually i've been meaning to get my teeth/gum cleaned but like i said earlier,i'm just too plain lazy,too broke or rather spend my money on something else.i was examining my teeth just now and i realised it is horrible.i can imagine all the plague/dirt stuck in every nook and cranny of my teeth.now i cant wait to get them all digged out.from now on,i'll make sure that i visit the dentist every 6 months.for those of you who have not been doing so, pls pls do so before things get worse.i truly learnt my lesson.

When will it go away?
.:Tuesday, June 3, 2003, 09:01 a.m.:.

my swollen gum is getting bad to worse.it's so painful, it started to hurt my my jaw and neck as well.i couldnt eat properly.i could feel a lump inside my neck,just below the jaw.its hurts when i put pressure on it.i need to go to the dentist but i'm broke.hopefully it will just go away soon.dun feel opening my mouth and talk so ms yani today will be quiet ok and definitely not in the best of moods.

ouch...ouch...
.:Monday, June 2, 2003, 08:36 a.m.:.

woke up with a swollen gum.it hurts so much.now i have to chew my food on the left side only.told me my mum about it and she went "see, i told you to go to the dentist, you dun want," but wait a minute..what it got to do with me not visiting the dentist.i remembered saying that i would like to visit the dentist to have my teeth cleaned and all.hhmmm..

spent my sunday at home.was planning to go roller blading but no kakis.but it was all good.spent the evening watching telly.watched art nation and stillframes.i like stillframes.last night they were featuring nature photography.thanks to saiful who reminded me.i think nature photography is indeed unique in its own way.i've not really been into nature photography,maybe i should go more in depth and explore.rather interesting.there's more to just a pretty picture.

its june already..middle of the year and before you knew it,its december and another new year will come rolling in.