Monday, August 27, 2007, 11:08 a.m.

so on friday i went to womad to catch Asian Dub Foundation. thanks to amirul and nassar for the birthday treat, for both myself and mohd. It felt so good to be outdoors after for sooo long though as i mentioned before my parents were not too keen abt it. as i promised i didnt jump or got squeezed in between sweaty bodies though i was really tempted to run to the front to join the crowd. i told mohd that i felt like going to front and he said "you go ah! go ah!" of course with the disapproving look. he was really keeping to his promise to my parents: to take care of me. haha. thanks lah babe. appreciate it.

amirul actually brought along an inflatable sofa just for me coz it hurts for me to sit on the hard ground. they actually took turns to blow it up for me.haha so touching lor. ADF's set was energetic as always. all i could afford was to stand up and moved my upper body then it's back to the sofa again. haha. i thought adf's full blown gig here many years ago was way better. mostly they played their new songs and 2 fave tracks from the old albums. pictures will be up soon.

sat was spent with the boy. we bought our belated birthday pressies for each other and spent quality time coz it's been awhile. this year, no new toy for him, a shopping spree instead. the weekend was just a fresh start for me ever since i was discharged. more coming my way in the next 2 weeks. woohoo. i really need it. enjoy it while it lasts.

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Friday, August 24, 2007, 11:36 a.m.

Yesterday was my 26th birthday. My mum suggested a little gathering with my close friends since I just got discharged from hospy. It was a nice, simple, humble affair and I truly appreciate it. Thank you to those came and for all the well wishes. Thank you mummy, mak minah and my cousin for the wonderful yummylicious spread. I only manage to do sandwiches since my mum wont let me in the kitchen to help out. So nice of her eh.

As much as I was very happy and blessed, I woke up in the morning with a heavy heart. I went to sleep with the same heavy heart, this time feeling more sadder, slightly disappointed, feeling that something was missing, something was out of place, something was not right. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe I was just being paranoid. Maybe it's true. I'm trying to think positive. But is it wrong of me to think this way?

I'm going to womad tonite to catch ADF and other great acts. In fact, there are more acts I wanna catch on Sat and Sun but i guess one day should suffice especially since my parents are slightly ok with me going tonite ever since I told them the boys already bought me the ticket as a birthday present. The only problem is that I cant sit too long coz it hurts. I also promise that I wont be doing crazy stuff like jumping around or letting myself being squashed in between sweaty bodies. I have 3 heroes to take care of me. Haha. They better be. I'm still sore for missing Gwen's concert. Can you believe it? I actually spent yesterday afternoon listening to her songs and watching her videos. Sedih sekali. Takpe next time lah eh. Ni malam lepas geram.

on a final note, I'm pretty excited about the opening of Changi Airport Terminal 3. But I'll leave that for another entry.

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My extended holiday...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007, 11:54 a.m.

i dun even know where to begin. should i write about the japan trip or the 1 week ordeal i went through at singapore general hospital? which is more interesting? hehe. the former i reckon.

i could easily summarise the japan trip in 1 word. Awesome! except for the scorching, burning weather and the part where i was sick during the beginning of the trip. i had migraine, fever and rashes. mohd's cousing who travels frequently to tokyo for work said it was 40 degrees. when i was in rome, it was 39 degrees and it was still bearable. but of course i didnt end up rotten indoors. the show must go on and it did.

the drama began when i got back. i was on leave on monday, 13th aug, having arrived in sg at 1am. woke up in the morning, found my 9 yr old nephew, amir at home. he was on mc coz he was having some skin infection. as usual he was glued to the tv, busy on the ps2 controller. i washed up, had breakfast and logged onto the net. then i stood up to reach out for the phone which was just an arm's length away, on the bed and just when i wanted to sit back, i found myself falling on my bum on the floor. amir, had unknowingly taken my chair to sit on. for a good 10 minutes, i was bawling on the floor, enduring the pain. amir felt guilty and quickly asked me where was the pain and started to massage me. i crawled myself up the bed and laid down.

i was allright after that, well at least until after lunch. the migraine which i had before departing to japan and while i was there came back. i started shivering and could feel that my body temperature was shooting up. i wrapped myself in bed and tried to sleep. at around 5, my mum came into my room, only to find me all flushing, red as cooked lobster and burning all over. she called my eldest sister and before i knew i was on the way to SGH A&E. i was admitted straight away coz my blood pressure was super low and temperature was too high.

i was put on drip. all i could remember that i was wheeled to different places. i was in and out of consciousness. i could hear voices, discussing my condition and what to do. different kinds of doctors and nurses came to me, examining, questioning. i think i repeated how i became sick a million times.

the next moment i opened my eyes, i realised that i was all alone in a cold room, which very much looked like a room in ICU. true enough, a nurse came in and asked whether i knew where i was. i asked him if my condition was that bad. he said i was in icu firstly because they wanted to put me under close observation and i may need the medical equipment there and also because, all the beds in the other wards were full. so there i was lying, unable to move much, with tubes running through me, still stoned. i actually cried few times coz i felt so helpless and restless, having to lie down and do nothing and what with all the tubes. so rimas.

i spent the next 3 days in intermediate care unit (ICA) where they continuously monitored my blood pressure and fever. i went through so many tests, ct scan, x-rays, u named it, i went through it. the first batch of tests showed positive results and my team of doctors still couldnt figure out what was wrong with me. they decided to do more sensitive tests to find out more.

i was transfered to general ward when my blood pressure showed great improvement, fever gone and i was slightly more active and alert. till the day i was discharged, i was fed with antibiotic through my veins. first it was 4 then finally down to 1. i couldnt be happier when they finally took all the tubes off me and gave me oral medication and said that if my body didnt react to it then i could go home. every morning when dr kenneth tan came to see me, i would ask "can i be discharged today? any longer you have to send me to IMH, coz im going crazy!"

my darling boyfriend was there with me every single day, buying me magazines and books and bringing me for walks when i was able to move. he even brought his laptop so that we could watch dvds and we only realised that there was wireless internet in the ward on 3rd last day of my stay. better than nothing.of course, my family, close relatives and close friends came to visit me and that took the boredom out of me.

so now, i'm at home recovering, on a long medical leave. mohd suggested that i go and spend some time at the spa or something coz i kept complaining that my whole body is swollen and i feel bloated and fat. i still cant move that actively just yet coz the pain from the fall is still there. doctors' diagnosis: scarlet fever which means i had some bacteria infection yada yada. i didnt know there's such a fever. sounds nice eh. i tin is also sick now, suffering from chicken pox. 1 would still like to believe that it was Japan's summer that got us sick.

so it is an extended holiday you can say. such an experience. my mum joked that it was my first time admitted to hospy and i had been through almost all the wards. hopefully, i do not have to go through it again coz it wasnt nice. well at least the nurses and doctors were all fanstatic. i kinda enjoyed the hospital food too. i've always been anyway. hehe.

i would like to thank mohd and my butterfly gals who were there for me since day 1 and my other close frens who came and visited me. to my family and close relatives especially my sisters who were there to see the nitty gritty matters for me. the first 3 days were too overwhelming. of course, i thank Him for opening up my eyes, making me well, still alive and kicking.

on a final note, yes, i did miss gwen stefani's concert. i gave my $150 tix to nassar. i heard good reviews abt the concert and i think they managed to snap some pics of her leaving the indoor stadium. so jealous. i wish i was there and not on the hospital bed. hope to catch ADF this friday. need to convince my mum that i'm fit enough to go.

i shall now go back to planning on what to do to fill my time for the next 3 weeks. i'm tempted to go on a short island holiday. of course, that is just a wishful thinking. gila kepe? if i ever kena caught, that is boy.

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Tuesday, August 7, 2007, 10:47 p.m.

finally i could get hold of free internet. there was in tokyo but usually by then i would be so worn out.

we are in osaka right now, having spent 3 days in tokyo and a day in hakone. another day in osaka and we'll head to kyoto and nara before moving back to tokyo to spend the last 3 days,

there's so much to write but i'm rushing for time, need to look for new accommodation in tokyo coz the previous place we stayed was a bit too far and uncomfortable. we are looking for somewhere in shibuya or something coz the 2nd part of our tokyo stay is dedicated to shopping.

summer in japan is crazy though. the heat is unbearable. it feels like it's biting through your skin and yes, right now, my whole body is full of rashes and soo red like a lobster. i look like i'm suffering from some skin disease or something. maybe i'm allergic to japanese heat. it didnt help also i had very bad migraine before i departed for japan and it got worse under the intense heat.

other than that japan has been great except for the subway stations. you have to climb up and down stairs and walk very far especially when you are transfering from one line to another. japanese ladies and girls love their stilettoes, wedges, platforms and anything that will give them the "height" and it amazes me to see them climb up and down the stairs, effortlessly. they walk fast too.

hakone was a nice change for a while coz of the cool weather, well at least in the evening and you see more traditional architecture, which i think we will see more too in kyoto. we were lucky to get a nice and affordable place to stay, abt 200 metres from hakone yumoto station when before that most places we checked on the net were either fully booked or too expensive.

gotta go now. will write soon if i have the opportunity and time. Happy National Day in advance!

miss you babe

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Thursday, August 2, 2007, 05:36 p.m.

i reckon this is gonna be my last entry before i depart to the land of the rising sun. i somehow thought that i overpacked. will need to recheck again later, must make some room for future damages *gulp*.

last night, i managed to experience almost 30 years of music in a night. for 3 hours or so, we were fed with ongoing the cure music. where do they get all the stamina and energy to play one song after another, stopping twice or is it thrice to do the must have concert factor, ENCORE. amazing. the concert started off very, very slow before it got a little hyped up except that by then, there were many empty seats. at times when it got too mendak, our eyes roamed to spot people worth laughing at, their dance antics that is. jahat kita.

nevertheless, robert smith still has the VOICE and of course, the image. a man of very few words. i thought i heard him said "Sorry, I do not speak" at the beginning of the concert. he uttered "thank you" the most. guess that's sufficient for him. we all agreed that if he wasnt in a band, we would be so weary of him. haha. after such a long time, i guess concerts are just plain to them. i asked mohd if they ever get sick playing their songs over and over again. he said at some points, of course they do but of course, they get paid for doing something they love. so what the heck.

3 hours duduk penat jugak, sakit pinggang and there, they were on stage. we were all so famished coz no dinner before that, perut masuk angin.i guess they were giving it all out coz most probably it was going to be their first and last concert here. remember, robert smith mentioned that they are disbanding soon. oh, and i shall not reveal what me and mohd went through prior to our arrival at the stadium. bleh jadi gila. haha.

got my tix for gwen stefani's concert which is a day after i get back. now, lots of jiggling, booty shaking at that one, oh kids too i'm sure.

till my next entry in japan or something, if i can get hold of free internet. Happy National Day in advance.

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You just cant have it all
Friday, July 27, 2007, 11:37 a.m.

The other day me and mohd were at Funan IT mall. We dropped by John 3:16, the camera shop with the intention of checking out Nikon P5000. Being a Nikon and Sony user for all this while, I’m beginning to fall in love with Canon when I held Canon IXUS 75. I fell deeper in love when Samuel recommended Canon IXUS 850 IS. I like the fact that it has a wide angle lens which means you can capture more and the image stabilizer is a god’s sent. At a price tag of $600 and other freebies, I would have purchased it right away. But Mohd was there and he told me to think it over. It’s the camera or that little something in that blue box. For the greedy me, of course I want both. But I gotta choose only one for my birthday. Obviously, he goes for the toy, it being practical, functional and a way better replacement of the current screwed up Sony, rather than something that you just place on your body.

We discussed it further over dinner and he said we should stick to our initial plan and can always get the camera later in the year or something. and you better make up your mind