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Sunday, August 27, 2006, 03:04 p.m.

My Barcelona pics are up on my multiply. the rest are still pending. so check it out!

Thank you to my butterfly gals for the suprise birthday dinner at beach road. aku mcm dah suspect anyway. haha. thank you for the lovely gifts!! i like!

I had such a jolly good time at womad last nite. thanks to amirul and nassar for getting me the tix as a birthday gift. danced the nite away. dah lama tak joget. my feet are hurting. i can feel it. age is catching up. great company, great music, great food. reggae dominated the nite. true blue reggae. jimmy cliff rocked fort canning like nobody business. thank you all for the good time!

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Thursday, August 24, 2006, 12:55 p.m.

i missed hady's performance last nite and now i just watched it on youtube. he did so well and i've been shedding tears everytime i watch it. seeing cik yan crying, touched me further. she must have been so proud of her boy. i've missed voting for hady for the past 1 month and now i'm going to make up for the lost votes. hady, your performance last night was the best birthday gift for me!!! so pls people vote for hady ok. he deserves it. i wont be making this plea if he cant make it tau.

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006, 09:26 p.m.

After almost a month of being away, I'm back. Things are still pretty much the same. My sis, Nora and family are here till Sept before heading back to Sydney. I'm tired though I find it easier this time round to adapt to the time difference than last year's trip. Most of the pics from the trip are on Tin's camera, our official photographer. Anne is now in charge of compiling everything together. I took some pics on my camera but currently in such a lazy mode to upload them. so that can wait.

The trip was AWESOME. Tin, Rina and Anne and the people we met and made friends along the way liven up things further. We gained new experiences, learnt new things, got to know each other a little better, went through the shit and good times together...it's worthy. can you believe it, during our trip, we were planning on our next trip. travel whores we are. oh yea, i think our bodies are pretty toned now especially our legs, from the tremendous walking, climbing up and down stairs, carrying our continuously stuffed with new things backpacks plus extra shopping bags. while i thought i put on weight during the trip, from the endless starchy inputs, my colleagues claimed that i lost weight. i've not weighed myself so i dunno. but i do know that i wish to go on a detox regime coz i can totally feel that there's lots of unnecessary stuff in my body. oh yes, i need a damn good full body massage. tin had hers at Gamla Stan, Stockholm. we were walking and saw 3 ladies and a guy giving massages for 10 min and 25 min. tin went for the 10 min one and she got the guy with the strong hands. now i regretted for not going for it. anyone wants to sponsor me a massage and body scrub treat? it's my birthday tomorrow, you know. hahaha.

talking about my birthday, i didnt even realise that i'm turning 25 tomorrow until mohd mentioned it. After he fetched me from the airport on sunday, we went back home and took a nap. he woke up and was getting ready for work and said to me "i'll see you on your birthday" and i went like "huh? my birthday? when? somehow, i lost track of the time and date. so yea, it's my 25th birthday tomorrow. guess it's been another well deserved treat by yours truly ;)

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Sunday, August 13, 2006, 02:19 p.m.

From Rome to Berlin to Amsterdam to Paris and now, Barcelona, I canīt believe the trip is ending very soon. Anne and I will meet up again with Tin who is now in London with Rina, in Stockholm on Wed. 4 days in Stocktown and then itīs back to Singapore...huge sigh. Hope to meet up with the wonderful friends i made during our trip last year. miss them so.

of course, i miss a lot of people back home too, you noe who you are. iīll be home soon with great pictures and travel stories. the only thing i dread about going back to singapore is having to go to work on monday!!! ok shall get rid of that thought for now. gtg now! till then... take care.

miss ya a lot butterscotch. wish you are here with me. take care & study hard. good luck! iīll see you real soon. luv ya.

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Friday, July 28, 2006, 11:47 a.m.

The day is finally here. Adios for now. Take care and have fun while Anne and I embark on another European voyage, this time with 2 new comrades onboard. Will update as and when I can. Cheers!

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006, 09:47 p.m.

3 days ago we celebrated his 23rd birthday. Today, we kept vigilant as he laid unconscious in ICU. Mansur, Mohd's younger bro was involved in a road accident, on the way home from work this morning.

today's scenario brought us back to the exact same incident 2 and half years ago. the only difference is the accident location and hospital. the call, the rush to hospy, the obligatory paperwork, the cold ICU, long hours in the waiting area...we had to go through all that all over again.

his mum was too distraught. mohd was listless, coming back from night shift and no sleep. few relatives came to visit. whatever happened, no one is to be blamed. if it's meant to happen, it will happen. it's all in His hands. we should think of what's next and keep on praying for mansur's well being.

i was feeling uneasy the whole morning at work. mohd told me that he was heading to eunos with his colleagues for breakfast after work. when he still didnt call me at 10am, i became worried. then his mum called me, crying, asking where he is. my heart started beating very fast, preparing to hear something which i do not wish to hear. then his mum told me that mansur got into an accident. mohd didnt answer his calls coz he had placed his mobile in his bag and didnt hear it ring. hence, his mum called me.

all the while as i was sitting in the waiting area, the what ifs kept filling my head. how would i react? will i be strong enough to face it? this is why i worry and get over anxious everytime mohd is on the road. i won't be at ease till he calls me to inform that he has reached his destination.

on a random note, i have a question. can one get infected from carrying an infant who is having fever and rashes, suspected to be developing into chicken pox? they say if you never suffer from chicken pox before, you will most probably get it. i never had chicken pox and i do not wish to have it coz i'm leaving for the trip next week!! my body is itchy all over now. am i being paranoid?

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Monday, July 17, 2006, 12:03 a.m.

It's 17 of July and my baby is a year older. So, Happy 25th Birthday Butterscotch Honey! For now, have fun with your new toy. I'll see you later in the week.

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Sunday, July 16, 2006, 12:24 p.m.

when i finally threw myself on the bed last nite, a certain feel of relief engulfed me. just lying there, doing nothing with an empty mind seemed like a priceless moment. i was just too bloody knackered. friday and saturday felt like forever.

we were at baybeats on friday nite and i thought i was in whole different world. while such an event was a good opportunity to see people come together in the name of love for music, the downside was that i felt so darn old. our main conversation did not revolve around the bands or music but the audience. young faces and souls, clad in their best garbs (they all looked alike btw) made up the majority. we agreed that it's the growing phase. we were once there, only that it was a total different experience. we, the old faces and souls, ended up all cooped up in a corner, savouring a hearty Subway sandwich, enjoying the music from afar and of course, people watching. the only time i 'joined' in the fun was during the malaysian band, love me butch's set and that, i didnt even survive long. there were sights which i wished to erase from my mind, sights which led to a friend's exclamation "Now, i'm afraid to have a child!" We finally decided we had enough and left the annual music fest for a quiet chillout session at kaki lima.

on saturday, we got ourselves into another kiddy situation. nassar got free tickets to wild wild wet & escape theme park. we ended up in the latter. not wanting to feel sick or puke (we just had lunch), mohd and i looked on as the rest went on a voyage on the viking ship. after that, we were just roaming around park, nothing was appealing enough. the rest then made their way to baybeats (again!) while mohd and i joined his family for mansur's bday dinner at the newly opened newton circus. after such a feast and a heavy, full stomach, i was grateful to nassar who then fetched us to salim's bday chalet all the way at pasir ris costa sands. by then, i was totally worn out. i settled down for some fruit cocktail and rambutans while catching up with the rest. then, it was all written down on our faces that we badly needed to call it a day. once again, i was grateful to nassar for ferryin us home.

I am darn old and boring.

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006, 11:07 p.m.

met up with hafiz for coffee on sunday. it's few hours to the world cup finals and i was still trying to decide whom i should support. hafiz has been rooting for italy all the while so that was easy. fir called and suggested that we watched the game somewhere because it's the finals and it's more fun to be all soaked up in the atmosphere with everybody else than to be watching at home.

i decided on france. i winced and cringed and exasperated and gasped as i watched italy prevailed despite a better performance by the french, not mentioning plenty of opportunities. Of course, there was the head butting incident which has become the talk of the world. i couldnt take my mind off zizou's deep, piercing eyes. i wondered what really happened. he probably thought it over before doing what he did. probably, he just couldnt care less that he ended his career on a negative note and thus, the head butt.

2 hours of sleep, still managed to be on time for work, survived the usual hectic Monday schedule and just when i'm trying to recover from the soccer madness, i immersed myself into another. this time, it was in the form of great music, great lightings and visuals, great showmanship and of course, great company. Coldplay gig was AWESOME. This time I was prepared and eagerly waited for Chris to run into the crowd again. He surprised everyone and turned the security people into kancheong kings when he ran into the crowd back in the 2001 double bill gig with travis. Well, he did and how i wish i was right under his nose, huggin his sweaty body.

The gig whizzed by in a flash and i was still yearning for more. I was so adamant of staying put even when the crowd was already streaming out of the fully packed indoor stadium, believing that the fab four will come back on stage and rock my world. they left behind a captivating experience and me leaving with nothing but praises and a bad throat.

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Saturday, July 8, 2006, 11:14 p.m.

this morning, at around 7+, i woke up from my sleep and just had to laugh coz i just woken from a weird & funny dream. it began with me being dolled up into a mysterious looking arabic queen, exactly what suhana wore during her solemnization ceremony, only mine was in maroon, not black. people started filling up the living room (which was suhana's). i was up and about, trying to get things in order. it seemed like everything was in a rush. i called up mag and hooda to tell them that i'm getting married and was sorry that i didnt inform them and they were not there with me. i told them that everything happened so fast and without knowing it, i was getting married. they sounded disappointed and didnt say a word and just hung up. i wanted to call the rest of the gals up but decided not to, not wanting to hurt them. then i saw the clock. it was close to 3pm. the ceremony was scheduled at 1pm (suhana's was at 1pm). both the kadi and groom were not there. i didnt even know who was the kadi. strange enough, uztaz salim jasman was there, sitting in the living room. i asked if he could conduct the ceremony. he said he couldnt coz he was a guest (he was my sis' big boss) and it was his off day. i called mohd and asked where the hell he was. he said he was just about to leave the house. i got panicky and asked him repeatedly if he has gotten himself composed coz i wanted him badly to say out the akad nikah once, excellently. then i woke up.

i just had to laugh. the whole dream is a carbon copy of suhana's wedding. but no, suhana's husband, zahid wasnt late for the solemnization ceremony. the only "late" episode during her wedding was probably during the reception over at her side. zahid was late coz some of the kompang boys were late. oh, the kadi who was at their solemnization ceremony emphasized so much that throughout his 35 years in the nikah business, never once the groom had to repeat his akad nikah. zahid did it once. probably that was why i got all panicky and obsessed about the akad nikah during the dream?

i told mohd when we met up just now. he thought it was funny too. probably i was just too deeply absorbed and involved in suhana's wedding last weekend that it was all getting into my head. hahaha. in real life, i dunno when will i ever gonna go through all that. but, if i ever going to be, it will still be nice and proud to know that my husband to be do it only once and he do it good. so, i guess you can expect me to be panicky still and pressurising my husband to be *evil laughter*

it's the world cup final tomorrow. france and italy. i'm not sure whom i'm gonna support. i havent got the chance to see italy play. i thought france did a good job against brazil and they deserved to win over the sleeping giants. i heard the italians are strong in their defence. read the reviews and still undecided. i'll watch the game and decide who deserves to win (tho at the back of my mind, i wonder if i can wake up in time for work in the morning)

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Tuesday, July 4, 2006, 10:43 p.m.

i was still in bed, trying to savour and enjoy every minute of my sleep before i had to force myself up to go to work. nowadays, going to work is shitty so no mood. then the boy called me. he told me that he's taking the day off coz he lost his wallet last night, most probably at school. i broke away from my slumber, had shower and heck, i took urgent leave. we did the necessary, called up a few numbers and giving it 2 weeks, just in case if any kind soul would want to return the wallet.

since we were in the vicinity of lavender, he treated me to a satisfying lunch at hajah maimunah. yummmy! after lunch, he suggested minyak atar shopping. i brought him to jamal kazura aromatics. i was reminded of their tv ad eons ago. the arabic tune was ringing in my head. the uncle who was serving us was so so nice. we ended up buying 3 bottles, his are bintang jawa and vanilla musk and mine is moon dance. we were smiling ear to ear, very happy with the purchase. mohd and i are now minyak atar addicts. cheap and nice.

heavy lunch, very very hot afternoon equals to heavy eyes, sweaty bodies and heavy feet. we cooled it off at coffee bean raffles hospital before watching superman returns. mohd didnt realise that i was dozing off during the 1st half of the movie. i became slightly attentive when the actions came punching into the plot. the idea of forming a whole new continent, yada yada didnt appeal to me at all. in fact, i dislike storylines where human beings became too overambitious and try to do something out of the world. dont appreciate that at all.

btw, we actually walked past bugis village 3 times just now. 1st trip was to sim lim square to catch the bus to tampines. then i decided to meet up with mag and shils who happened to be in the area as well to get my watch which was left behind at mag's place during last saturday soccer nite. so it was the 2nd trip down the stretch and then back again to the same bus stop to finally make our way down to tampines. the bus took forever to come and the journey took forever too coz of traffic jam. all that activities in the span of 2 hours really got me panting and lethargic (hope i lost some calories too). a cup of hot chamomile tea after that did me good, especially my throat and heaty body. i think amirul and nassar got freaked out a little when my nose started bleeding when we were out yesterday. thank god no bloody incident today.

we were glad for today. no work and school, though we thought we could have saved our leave days since all it took was to actually call up some numbers to report the loss of the impt stuff in mohd's wallet. but it's been a while since we got to spend quality time, just the 2 of us. so it was good, not wasted at all, get to sniff sniff his armpit all day so i'm satisfied hehehe ;)

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Sunday, July 2, 2006, 08:42 p.m.

too many things are happening. now, when i have the time and a slight drive to write, i dunno where to begin. this space of mine is fast becoming a very very dry, boring spot. so, to any avid readers of my blog (if there is any), pls pardon me.

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Sunday, June 18, 2006, 12:05 p.m.

the brief hiatus was due to the lack of drive to write or share whatever thoughts i had. i'm still feeling disoriented and it has been a whirling, roller coaster ride. i kept myself busy with things coz when i'm alone, my thoughts just go crazy. it becomes one whole of a massive individual brainstorming session. the mind web gets all too tangled up. i'm becoming an emotional wreck. i would like to think that it's solely the hormones' fault (ala Britney Spears) But i know who i am and wont let all these shit engulf me completely. perhaps, for now it's best for me to be all by myself and sort things out. i'm afraid of hurting others and it's especially sucky when you hurt others and not knowing it.

i asked myself too many questions, questions that i dun have the answers to. probably, i just give too much, think too much and in the end, totally drained myself out. while i dun ask anything in return, it will be nice to know that you're being appreciated and not being taken for granted. it's my nature to give my very best for others. i put in my heart and soul. i do not do things and expect to be treated and given the same in return. but in the longer run, i come to a point where i stop in my track, ponder and question and i guess the point is now. so when i ponder and question too much, it gets all messed up causing me to feel all disoriented. the build up is just too much and i hate the feeling. i gotta try harder to get out of this "messy, mind situation" pronto. i know i will.

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Wednesday, May 31, 2006, 08:19 p.m.

i'm feeling slightly disoriented. if i have a car, i would have gone on a long drive, to the other end of the island, find a good spot and drowned myself in me. home is not very conducive at the moment. i wanna be surrounded with my loved ones but at the same time, i wanna be alone. there were moments when i just wanna burst out in tears. it's about a week to my next menses cycle. so is it PMS? maybe, maybe not.

well, at least, something got me cheered up a little earlier today. daya finally got back to me with the train details and all. so now, i'm able to continue planning and move on. it's june already. gosh. it's a total different experience from last year's. last year, it felt like forever. before u know it, i'm back from the trip.

oh yea, the pictures from my recent trip to perhentian island are on my multiply. you can find the link at the side.

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Monday, May 29, 2006, 09:31 p.m.

boy, was i glad that yesterday's event was over. wan and i ran the show like pro, no doubt about that. only a section of the event that got me all flustered and kept asking myself why i ever agreed to do it in the first place. but i guessed there was no turning back. so there, i went up on stage with a heavy heart, trying to open my already heavy eyes and stood,intimidatingly next to hafiz who is a natural born singer, who can reach all the right notes and pitches. my throat was already so dry and tired from all the emceeing since 7pm and so i told myself to give all that I could. the song we did with mayor zainul was more fun and less stressful.

hafiz just sent me the video recordings of our performances. i cringed listening to myself. i went off key at some points and hated myself for being the one ruining our performances, knowing it would have been an excellent solo performance by hafiz. but oklah it's not as if i turn suicidal or something. i thought i could do better but with the event dragging on i had to force myself to stay awake and kept going. by the time it was our turn, i've lost half the will to perform.

but overall, the event was a success lah, a great platform to showcase young talents (and old ones). yep, i felt old to be among them. got me thinking, what was i doing when i was their age, going through the growing up phase. but hey look at mayor zainul. he's one damn good sport, very young at heart, to spare some time despite his busy schedule (he just got back from an overseas trip) to grace a "bawah kolong" event so i guess we are never too old ;) my mum was excited to see me perform with her boss but in the end she missed it coz it was running late. no, i'm not going to show her the recording or maybe i will. we'll see.

one event down, more to come...

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006, 07:57 p.m.

My iRiver H320 is SOLD!!! I'll be away for awhile, so tight up with so many events and projects. will update soon!

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006, 07:57 p.m.

My iRiver H320 is SOLD!!! I'll be away for awhile, so tight up so many events and projects. will update soon!

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iRiver H320 for sale!!!
Wednesday, May 17, 2006, 07:35 p.m.

my iRiver H320 is up for sale for only $150. it's a steal i tell ya. it's 1 yr old, still brand new. can store photos, colour screen, 20GB. email me if you are interested.

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006, 10:13 p.m.

i still choose to believe that i'm still on perhentian island even though the white sandy beach and the crystal clear water are no longer in sight. i'm missing the delicious, finger licking food and great service at aziela cafe. i want my cookie shake! i have to go back. so far, this is the best island i've been to. spain pun kalah. you do not have to travel far to enjoy paradise. still waiting for the pics from fir,our official photographer during the trip. oh, i love sleeper beds especially during super long train rides. they make the journey feels short and effortless. my first time was when i had to travel from hanoi to Sapa. more train rides in jul/aug.woohoo!

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Finally!!!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006, 09:48 p.m.

I guess the disappointment from the last month didnt last long. Finally!! I'm off to Perhentian Island. Have a great weekend, I know I will ;)

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Tuesday, May 9, 2006, 10:40 p.m.

i get super paranoid whenever the boy is on the road. just yesterday i got soo worried when i couldnt reach him on his mobile and i didnt hear from him the whole day. imagination started to run wild. nowadays, he has to depend on his vintage and very cranky 1973 vespa to shuttle from work to sch and vice versa. i think it was close to midnight when he finally called me and told me that he was stranded at the expressway on the way home from sch and the reception was bad there. just when i thought his vespa was cranking up again, this time because it was running out of petrol. his fault for being too confident that the reserve could last. so the poor boy had to call his all time saviour, mr yazid to fetch him some petrol. but apparently, mr yazid had other things on his agenda and he only finally met up with the boy close to 11pm. so what did the boy do while waiting? he fell asleep (yes, at the expressway) due to exhaustion after a long day at work and sch. then the weird part, when he woke up, his glasses were gone. he was pretty sure that he had them on before he fell asleep. when yazid and manazil finally came, they searched but to no avail as well. sooo weird. he wants to go back to that very spot to look for the glasses. i told him to forget about it.

back to my paranoia, now i made him call me whenever he reaches his destination so that my mind will be at peace.

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Sungguh tak glamour
Sunday, May 7, 2006, 09:46 p.m.

yes, yes...if you saw me in Berita Minggu today, yep that was me. an ugly picture it was. who bothers to dress up at 730am to go and vote rite? it was raining somemore. muka aku busuk sekali. i should have asked the photographer to let me select the best shot. thank god it was just a teeny weeny pic but some people noticed it anyway hehe. i was sleeping when my nephew shouted at the top of his voice from the living room, "cik yani!!! you're in the papers!!" and i was like "oooook, let me take a look" and there, when i finally opened my sleepy eyes, i saw a horrible pic of me and threw the papers away. it's history now and that papers will soon be pinned down with taugeh, used as kacang putih wrappers (if they still use it lah) and other purposes ah. oh, you can jolly well doodle on my face, add a moustache, more moles and watever lah. i just took one last look at it. gosh!

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Monday, May 1, 2006, 07:51 p.m.

it seemed like the week was forever and it's finally coming to an end. schedule was packed. from playing hostess to the swedish gals whom i bumped into at the night safari, after endless attempts to reach Mona on her mobile, to rina's bday bash at the ever so popular cash studio (that hot karaoke place at apollo centre)and to nan's bday gathering at dblo. the bday celebration continued on sat nite with a bbq party at pasir ris. and just when i thought sunday was going to be a total chill out day, it turned out to be "satisfy hafiz's craving for potato salad and my craving for macaroni & cheese" day. with our cravings fulfilled, we finally settled down to the main objective of the sunday meeting. but it didnt last long because aziz was driving and we decided that we should do something since mon is a holiday. we ended up at leisure bowl at east coast, bowling the night away.

with too many things going on, it was only nice to end off with a good rest and do nothing on Labour Day. Yes, i've been staying in bed almost all day.

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Sunday, April 23, 2006, 12:02 p.m.

it has been a frustrating work week.i cant hardly breathe. i'm exhausted from completing last minute tasks and clearing up other people's mess. the most frustrating bit is having to work with incompetent individuals. i'm not trying to prove that i'm the most competent one but everyone in the department has to play their role in order to run the department smoothly. shoving everything to your face and expecting you to complete the task, for the fear of the senior management and when something goes wrong, the finger is quickly being pointed at you. ridiculous.

i wish the weekend is longer coz it's back to hell tomorrow. just enjoy whatever's left of the weekend. i'm definitely not stressed out but very, very frustrated.as much as possible, i never allow myself to be stressed out over work. i dont think it's worthy. on friday nite, as i threw myself down on the bean bags on the rooftop of icon, gazing at the stars, sipping on coca-cola, i finally could breathe, well at least for the weekend.

but the week has not been that bad at all. there were things that cheered me up and one of them was mar's engagement. this butterfly gal of mine looked so gorgeous and i was very happy for her. we've not met for the longest time and yesterday was a great gathering to celebrate a joyous occasion. congratulations love! a great beginning to a wonderful journey with your loved one. happy 24th birthday to you too!

it's back to school for the boy. managed to spend a fair bit of time with him this week before schedules get a little bit too tight. my only concern is his body and health. i better start feeding him supplements and what nots to keep him going. haha. i also intend to get myself busy. just hate it when i have absolute nothing to do especially after work. no, no i'm not going back to school, just finished leh, let me take a break lah. for now there are other several options i'm looking at. so we'll see :)

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Thursday, August 17, 2006, 10:07 a.m.

it's sunday already and the long weekend just went by like that. but i'm glad each day was spent fruitfully. if it is otherwise, i would have cursed and sweared coz right now i should have been in perhentian, simply adopting and enjoying the simplest life pattern: sleep, eat, swim/tan, sleep, eat, swim/tan.

since my last entry, there were many things that i wanted to tell the whole world but was too soaked with endless activities. all i'm concerned with is there are more activities and events coming my way this month and i'm already broke (it's not even a week since i got my paycheck!!). damn shitty. to make myself feel better, i keep telling myself that i've been there before and i'll persevere.

oh there's one thing that will make me curse and swear. mogwai is coming in aug and I wont be in sg. tin called me the other day. she asked if our flight tixs are confirmed. i asked her why and she told me the news. all i could utter shit! shit! how nice! just like last year, while i was away, so many gigs and events had to take place in the usually so boring sg. most of the time it would be "dry season" mohd is already making plans and all i could do is sulk. so once again, to make myself feel better, i keep telling myself that i'm going to enjoy myself wherever i'm going to be and i have other big plans on the way. so it's ok to miss a band when i'm going to see dozens more.

now i'll like to make space for a tiny quest/ad/promo. a fren of mine, a budding fashion photographer is building up his portfolio. to start off, he would like to do a photoshoot, theme is spring/summer collection. he needs individuals who are into fashion to model. so if any of you interested or know anyone, pls email me. btw, do not be intimidated by the word "model". you dun have to be a model to model lah. outgoing, fun & fashionable individuals are what we are looking for.

we shall move on from photoshoot to the airwaves. this very good fren of mine is getting wellknown these days, for the right reasons of course. all that is happening, is a showcase of his well deserved efforts that he had put in all these years. his single, Sudah tu Sudah is already a big hit on Ria. he wrote a song for Anuar Zain. My mum loves him and for those of you who do not know him, you will eventually fall in love too. among our circle of frens, we know him as the father of hip hop in sg (i wanted to put grandfather but mcm too old). after all these years, he is the one person who endlessly promoting hip hop to the masses, allowing new talents to come forward and showcase their stuff and of course, pursuing his very own musical dreams. so pls take note of this name eh, Imran Ajmain. nan, do i get commission or something for the brief promo? hehe

last but not least, i would like to congratulate Ernie and Hisham. Selamat Pengantin Baru! Will see you 2 all donned in bridal costumes in a while. I can foresee an all pink affair ;)

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Saturday, April 8, 2006, 12:07 p.m.

mohd is damn bad at keeping surprises. he tends to let the cat out of the bag earlier than intended. a recent one just happened a while ago. we were bickering and teasing each other when he said "hmmph you dont deserve this" then he reached out to something. he placed a grey pouch in front of me. i flip opened the magnetic cover and a 20Gb Ipod was gleaming at me. first instance, i thought it was his and thought he was trying to irritate me on purpose since i've been complaining and whining about my iRiver which he bought me. he took out his and all i could do was grinned sheepishly. his inital plan was to download all my songs into my new toy,have it designed and surprise me. haha but now i know already. when asked why he got it for me, he said now he knows how irritating and non user friendly iRiver is after using it. tau pun. i endured for almost a year now.

actually b, you dont have to get me an Ipod. you know all my whinings and complains do not mean a thing. but since you bought already, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

with this new toy, i promise i wont bite the hard edges and leave unsightly marks. it applies the same for my 2 weeks old L'amour 7370. i have this bad habit of biting/teething hard surfaces. you should see the condition of my old handphones and the remote controls at home. yikes.

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Sunday, April 2, 2006, 12:14 p.m.

yesterday morning, mohd and i brisk walked about 5km and that almost killed me. my legs and body were aching after that and that went on till the rest of the day. that is bad. therefore, it's a huge sign that we should start a healthy regime,be disciplined and stick to it. slowly but surely. the only day we get to run together is saturday. of course, i can always run alone on sundays (if i'm willing to sacrifice my sleep or if i dun get home late the nite before) but then i dislike running alone. no kick ah. running once a week is insufficient. i should include something else. perhaps, yoga which I've abandoned for a while and maybe swimming. again, i dislike swimming alone. as a matter of fact, i dislike doing these things alone. ok, ok that should not be an excuse. i need to get it out of my head.

met edward later in the night and he went jogging too, after a good hiatus of 6 months and like he said, he nearly died, literally. that boy is crazy. after so long of no physical exertion, he actually jogged and sprinted. he said halfway through, he got giddy, his vision blurred and he couldnt breathe. just recently, there was an article on overexertion. overexertion of physical activities could trigger a heart attack while those activities are necessary to prevent it. what edward experienced were some of the symptoms of an impending heart attack. so the key is to listen to your heart and body. so i told edward never to do that ever again. slowly but surely boy. take it slow.

i'm losing my voice. bad bad sore throat and after 3 hours of non stop singing (and screaming) last night, it's definitely a gone case. I sound like a bapok now. if i'm a stewardess, it will scare the hell out of any passenger onboard, Coffee, tea or me?

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