ra . ra . avis

.:Monday, September 1, 2003, 11:18 a.m.:.

Had a good weekend. The SPF Family day opening ceremony at zouk on saturday was allright. the food was good, i love the strawberries and cream. i didnt eat much though coz no appetite. the music sux so i didnt really enjoy myself on the dancefloor. it was nice to see habib who is all skinny now and syed faizal. we all had fun despite the bad music. after zouk, made my way to city hall to meet butterscotch, had an early dinner at bk and headed to fort canning for womad. mag, faizan, rini and family were already there. anne and rina joined us soon after. by then, the whole place was already packed. the whole event was spectacular. i truly enjoyed myself though i was very tired and butterscotch wasnt in a good mood. he was quiet all night. all the performers were awesome and their music was really, really good and unique.

samsiah's engagement yesterday was a sweet affair as well. we've not met each other since we graduated from sec sch. i was so touched that she actually remembers me and invited me over. she didnt invite many frens, only a few of us. met sarina and bf there so it was nice as well. samsiah looked all pretty in this gold/beige baju kurung and she definitely had put on a lot of weight. we didnt stay long coz there were so many guests. will definitely meet her up again one of these days.

got home, changed and butterscotch and i made our way to tampines. we were walking aimlessly when suddenly butterscotch stopped in his track and asked what the hell were we doing in tamp, on a sunday where it was all so crowded. we went to the mrt station and take a look at the mrt route. changi airport caught my eyes and off we went there. furthermore, butterscotch have not travel to the airport by train and seen the futuristic looking mrt station. we walked around for a bit and had dinner at popeyes'. The airport was quite busy on a sunday evening so it was not that peaceful. but 1 thing i love to see, the arrival and departure screen. sumthing about it that just got me glued.

.:Friday, August 29, 2003, 04:15 p.m.:.

Click here for my 22nd birthday pics. Pics are courtesy of Huda. I looked oily and smelly. Masam sekali.....

Surprises that never ends.....
.:Thursday, August 28, 2003, 02:59 p.m.:.

Yesterday, started the day very early. woke up at 5am to attend the dragon boat training at kallang. it was my first time since i missed the few trainings at TRACOM so i dunno what to expect. physical wise, i admit i'm not prepared. its been ages since i sweat it out. my stamina level is way low. true enough, it was rather taxing but for a first timer, i did ok. rite now, my whole body is aching. i was told that on the actual day of the competition, we have to row a distance of 400m and in order to travel that distance, 500+ strokes are needed. oh my god! i was panting hard at the end of 50 strokes!! can i make it? the next 2 weeks or so...my weekdays start at 5am. there's training every single morning. can i take it? we'll see.

rushed to amara hotel right after training to attend the koban rehearsal, another tiring event. lucky its only half a day. my bag was freaking heavy, stuffed with wet clothes, shoes etc...so that didnt help either. the nasi padang lunch at international plaza was rather disappointing and expensive. i finished it anyway. grouchiness slowly taking its toll.

after work, made my way to simei to meet the gang. i ended up waiting for them for an hour before fiza and han came and meet me. then han said "r u ready? let's go?" i asked where to? we were supposed to wait for huda, shila and maggie who were on the way, in the cab. fiza said they went straight to the changi. i was confused for a while. nobody told me that we all are meeting at changi for dinner. so the 3 of us took the cab to changi to meet the rest. i swear i was smelly and in a horrible condition. i hated what i wore yesterday and grouchiness level was rather high but seeing the faces of my wonderful friends made me glow a little.

we ordered dinner, chit chat , laughed when suddenly i felt a pinch on my neck. i turned around and it was butterscotch!!! i jus msg him earlier and he told me that he was cleaning his scooter under the void deck and there he was with a birthday cake in one hand!!! he was mc btw. poor boy, he has not fully recovered and actually came to changi all the way from yishun. so, it turned out to be a my belated birthday surprise. all of them actually had it all planned out and i didnt suspect anyting. they sang me a birthday song and started to shower me with birthday gifts. i truly LOVE every single gift. thank you everybody.

after dinner, we made our way to the beach to cut the cake. anne and rina joined us soon after. butterscotch bought a chocolate and raspberry cake and it was delicious. once again, everybody sang me birthday song, this time round in different languages. we spent the rest of the nite talking and laughing at huda's, shila's and fiza's nonsense antics. oh yeah, throughout the night, we kept teasing shila about TJ. it was hilarious. suddenly i totally forgot all about my aching and tired body. had such a great time with my loved ones. i cant stop thanking all of you for making it happen. i went home a happy bunny. pictures will be uploaded soon. look out for them.

gosh, i hated the way i wrote this entry...i'm in a rush now...blogging and tryin to complete some other works..very rushy rushy... but i just had to blog about the wonderful event last night. now, shall go back to whatever i'm doing...

.:Tuesday, August 26, 2003, 09:08 a.m.:.

met up with shila, huda, fiza and ana for dinner last night. guess who joined us? TJ!!! Shila is kinda seeing him and that was the first time ever she brought the guy she's seeing to meet us. usually she dont. right before we went to meet TJ at kampong chai chee, shila kept reminding us to behave ourselves and not say the unnecessary stuff, things that would embarass her. yea rite...the more she kept reminding us, the more we want to tell TJ things.hehehe..she also kept saying that TJ is old, ugly looking and yada yada. he turned out to be this nice man. shila was just exaggerating. we all got along just fine. we talked, joked and did silly stuff. he even knows about my peeing problem. well shila told him and i'm ok with it. it was indeed a nice dinner, we got high on tomyam soup and laughter.

after dinner, the pair went grocery shopping while the rest of us accompanied ana to the money changer. she's flying to london tonite. after which, we chilled at bk. fiza left early coz she wanna catch Friends. it was nice to see my lovely friends last night. i miss them. i've yet to celebrate my birthday with you all tau. so make it happen!!

butterscotch sounded horrible when i called him last night. he's down with fever and breathless. he couldnt really talk. i was dead worried. i'll see you later k baby. hope u're getting better.

Thank You!!
.:Monday, August 25, 2003, 12:07 p.m.:.

i do not have auto roam on my mobile so when i reached sg and turned it on, it went beeping non-stop signalling that there are incoming messages. lots of them...from my dear frens and family, wishing me happy birthday. thank you all so much. i have yet to celebrate my birthday with the butterfly gals and the rest of the gang, poly frens and colleagues. the karaoke session with my colleagues last thursday was just an intro. i know they gonna sabo me sooner or later. A year older now, though sumtimes i wish i'm still 17, growing older has it pluses. Is did write sumthing about growing older and i totally agree with her. I like doing the things we do now, going to the places we go to and basically having a whole new experience. you do things you didnt think of doing, say, 5yrs back. gimme another 5 yrs more and it will be a another new and different experience all over again. Growing up is fun.

I'm back!!!
.:Monday, August 25, 2003, 09:05 a.m.:.

Hey all, I’m back. Had a good, long weekend. The road trip to KL was good but very rushy and tiring. The only shitty part was that I was down with flu! Was sneezing throughout the journey, major headache and temperature just kept rising. Time was wasted when we drove up the long winding road to Genting Highlands. It was not part of the itinerary, but some of them have not been there and they actually wanted to stay the night there. I was there in January and I didn’t like it. Nothing much to see and do I wasn’t really prepared for the cold atmosphere, clothing wise, neither do butterscotch. He was clad in t-shirt and bermudas and didn’t bring his sweater. I became more sick and more agitated. We drove around to check out for room availability at all the hotels there. Thank god all the rooms were fully booked coz i really dun want to stay the night there.

so after dinner, we drove down to kl, dropped by petaling st to shop and drove around to find a place to stay. Most hotels in kl were fully booked as well and we finally settled down at hotel nova at jalan alor. The moment we checked into our rooms, I jumped onto the bed and quickly fell asleep. I was so sick by then. My head was damn heavy and my body was aching. Was woken up by abg ali’s phonecall. He told us to get ready coz they wanna check out the nightlife. it was past midnight when we went out to the streets. I was still sick and not in a good mood but I didn’t want to stay in the hotel all alone. We went to this club at federal hotel and there was a live band playing. The band was good but the female singers sux big time. Apparently there were many arabs in the club so the band was playing lots of middle eastern and latin numbers and the female singers were trying very hard to shake their bon bons to impress. I felt like going up there and showed them the right way to bellydance and do the shimmy. Geram!! The crowd was full of uncles and aunties and they were so full of themselves.

we then spent the next hour or 2 walking around the streets to look for a better place to chill. All I wanted to do was to go back to the hotel and sleep. Some of them were itching to go clubbing but I guessed we were all too knackered so we headed back to the hotel and crashed in. had an early start the very next day, checked out, had breakfast and made our way to templer’s park. Again, it was a waste of time. We lost our way and finally when we got there it started to rain. All I did was to stand at the shelter, shivering, with running nose and occasionally, hiding behind butterscotch from the monkeys. Only budi braved the rain and went for a swim. After templer’s park, drove back to the city, dropped by jln masjid india coz I wanna look for tudungs. Was disappointed though coz couldn’t find the tudungs that I want. we were about to leave when butterscotch and indah decided to stop to see this pakcik, showing off his tricks. He shredded newspapers into long strips and put them in a wooden chest. He claimed that when he opened it, all those newspaper strips will turn too $100 notes. Yea rite…I was standing there with a smirk on my face while the rest were so enticed. He took forever to open up the chest though. In between, he was chanting and babbling. We grew tired from waiting and it was time to go. So we didn’t get to see whether the paper strips did change to money. Then I was telling butterscotch and indah to check their wallets to see no money was missing. I dunno why I told them to do so. It was just a gut feeling.

we had lunch over at the mines shopping centre and window shopped. It was our last stop before heading back to sg. On the way back, we stopped by this lake where people come and fly beautiful kites. There, Butterscotch and his colleagues surprised me with a huge blackforest birthday cake and a belgian chocolates. They apologised for the messy arrangements coz they planned to have the celebration the night before but couldn’t find a single cake shop in kl city. They finally got the cake and chocolates at mines shopping centre. All the while, I was too oblivious and was too busy window shopping and eating. Tot they were buying cakes and chocalates to bring back home. Hehehe. It was simple and nice affair by the lake and I love it. Thank you Butterscotch. Thank you everybody.

yesterday was another nice affair. Went over to butterscotch’s for the doa selamat/family gathering. His mum is leaving for umrah pilgrimage in sept. I went over after religious class to help out. It was my first time meeting his maternal grandparents, uncles, aunties and cousins. his mum was happily introducing and showing me off to everybody. By then, I was so stressed out already but managed to put up a brave front and smiley face. Became more tense when my mum finally came. She came with kak ita and family. That was the first time both families met. My heart was beating very fast. Once in while, exchanged glances with butterscotch and gave him the stressed look. He, as usual, was being very cool. Anxiety took me over and I just had to msg the gals. Zila told me to put on my sweetest smile and not my spastic smile. Hooda told me I’ll do just fine. Well, I guessed I did coz things turned out to be just fine. Pheewww….

Lalalalala...i'm in jolly good mood...
.:Thursday, August 21, 2003, 05:05 p.m.:.

so the kl trip is still on. i'm leaving tomorrow morning and will be back on saturday nite. short trip but its a birthday treat from the love of my life so its nice. he want to stuff me with all the good food there. eat all you want he said.

so once again, i wont be in town to celebrate my birthday which is on the 23rd. A yr ago, i was in tioman with my colleagues. At the very same time, something which i truly regretted happened, something that would have caused a major strain in our relationship. but he was strong and forgiving. honesty, trust and faith in each other kept us going and we were stronger than before and we've learnt to forget it.

During lunch earlier, Adi gave me a mooncake and Firzan gave me a lollipop. So sweet of them. Thanks guys.Tonite my colleagues are going to SPANs-JOM clubhouse for a karaoke session and i know they have sumting up their sleeves to sabo me. its been a tradition here at my workplace, among the NS boys. siti and i get along better with the NS boys since most of them are in the same age group as us. told them to sabo me next week coz i forgot to bring along extra clothings.

last yr was my first time and i was damn prepared and i know this time round, i wont be spared. right now, while i'm typing this, they must be so busy preparing the special "yani concoction" i dun want to imagine or guess the stuff they use to make it.yucks..last yr's was horrible.i almost puked. expired biscuits, coffee, tea, detergent and whathaveyous...eeeeeewwwwww.

i'm praying very hard that they will change their minds of saboing me today.pls,pls,pls...

.:Wednesday, August 20, 2003, 09:04 a.m.:.

the internet connection at my workplace is still on. no signs of termination or whatnots. so its all good. i hope it stays that way. my new big boss is in today. i think he's at Dy's office right now for some orientation. he should come in and meet us all anytime soon. i foresee changes and all. i hope its for the better.

wanted to meet that girls last night or drop by The Cube but gotta go and help butterscotch run some errands for this coming sunday's kenduri at his place. i'm pretty nervous coz his mum invited my whole family. His mum is performing umrah in sept. butterscotch seemed to be so cool about my family meeting his. well, yea...there;s nothing really scary about it and its about high time that the 2 families come together and get to know each other. one step further from the usual exhanging of gifts, dishes, cakes and whathaveyous. but still i'm feeling all nervous, full of anxiety and excitement, having cold feet.

butterscotch told me last nite that our KL trip this weekend may be called off coz his team may have to attend a certain seminar. i'm still waiting for confirmation. well, if really the trip is cancelled, i will still get to celebrate my birthday with my lovely friends here.

Aaaarrrrgghhhh!!!
.:Monday, August 18, 2003, 08:14 p.m.:.

i typed out 2 long entries this morning. the internet connection at work was super screwed up today. so freaking slow and my entries were gone. i was writing about my weekend with friends and the kota tinggi trip. now, too lazy to write it all over again. all in all, it was a good clean fun weekend.

was told that only certain people at work will have rights to access the net. they want to cut cost. right now, almost everybody has rights. in order to have rights, you need to provide good, valid reasons on why you need to have access to the net. right now, i'm crossing my fingers. i rely so much on my work pc coz my home pc is a bitch. no rights means no blogging from work, no net surfing and such. aaarrgghhh....

Have a good weekend...
.:Saturday, August 16, 2003, 09:21 a.m.:.

took half day leave yesterday. accompanied butterscotch to alexandra hospital to have his wisdom teeth extracted. in between, made calls to chels to make plans to meet up. she's leaving this sunday and my weekend is pretty tight. meeting the gals later to discuss and plan our bangkok trip and tomorrow i'm going to kota tinggi with adi and all. so i tried very hard to squeeze chels in my tight schedule. couldnt make it for the dinner with paine and yi ling last night so met up with chels after butterscotch was done with the surgery.

it was nice to see chels. she's been here for 2 weeks and i got to see her for only an hour!!! what crap!! told her to delay her departure but she told me all flights are fully booked. damn it. woman, you come back at the wrong time lah. she'll try to come back at the end of the year so it's not so bad. in betweeb our conversations, we would whine and complain on how the both of us had put on so much weight and our love handles are getting all lovey dovey. hehehe. she's graduating next may/june and will stay in sf for another year to do her practical attachment. she told me to save up and visit her. maybe i should. '

throughout the meeting with chels, butterscotch was in the corner,reading the new paper. he couldnt really talk.even if he does, it's too difficult to hear or understand him coz he had gauze in his mouth to stop the bleeding. poor boy. i hope the painkillers will do you good.

on the way home, met ryzan.he was waiting for ida. met safiah outside the ladies at orchard mrt.then met rizan,he was on the way home too. we took the same train home. rizan was my sec sch classmate for 2 years. he is now with the police force. if you see him, you cant believe that he is a police officer. we were reminiscing the good old times back in damai sec. next year, our sch will be 10 yrs old. was hoping that the sch will organise some anniversary celebration and we, the pioneer batch will be invited,ala sch reunion. it would be nice, wouldnt it? to see everybody all over again. butterscotch then asked rizan how was i like back in sec sch. well, i said i was a nerd, with thick glasses and big curly hair.rizan said that was so true.it was so embarassing. rizan was good looking back then...he still does actually. well, to give some credits to myself, i said i was the smart one. rizan said that was true also.hehehe. talking about the anniversary thingy, maybe i should write in to damai sec and propose the idea.maybe i shld talk to ms koh, my fave geog teacher though she used to always pick on me, in a nice way ah...hehehe

wasnt feeling too good last night.my whole body was aching so badly. probably becos of my bag. not supposed to carry heavy things.by 1030, i was already in bed. was woken up by butterscotch's call again.this time it was arnd 1am. he couldnt sleep coz the pain was unbearable and his back started to ache. poor boy. make full use of your 6 days mc ok and have a good rest.

it was a long day yesterday and another busy weekend....have a good weekend ppl.

Oh Casuarina...
.:Friday, August 15, 2003, 09:05 a.m.:.

met up with butterscotch for dinner. he has been wanting to bring me to eat at Casuarina curry,over at casuarina road. he tried the pratas before and he said they were good. so we braved through the cold night and made our way down to the prata place which is about 10-15 mins bus ride from his place.i had a cheese prata and a paper prata while he had 2 plain pratas and a paper prata. it was good, so crispy. next time i wanna try their tosai masala.

after dinner, went back to his place and played some fighting/killing game on my PS2. but the graphics were too much for me.i got all dizzy and nauseous.my body and arms were already aching due to too many needle prickings over the weekend. made my way home and bed was heaven.was woken up by butterscotch's call at around 3am.he said he couldnt sleep and needed to talk to someone.so we talked for a bit. he was surprised that i sounded so fresh,not groggy. i was not sure myself. babe, dun think too much ok. we'll help each other. it's not an easy journey but as long as our intentions are pure, HE will help us through. insya-allah.

nan, butterscotch loves the t-shirt i got for him. he wanna check out the other designs. will bring him over to the shop soon.

Back to work...
.:Thursday, August 14, 2003, 09:24 a.m.:.

back in the office.for the past 3 days,attended a service excellence course.rather interesting course, lots of discussions and sharing.i liked it that way.

was trying very hard to reach nan yesterday.with his phone cut off and all,it was difficult to reach him.finally,nan called me,at arnd 10pm.he was at the new shop with the rest of the sghiphop clan.earlier in the day i called memek to tell nan to call me in case they met up or sumthing.btw,the new shop is just opposite my place.so i hurried down,was in my slackiest mode.had my ultra thick glasses on which made me look like a goon.i kinda like the shop,kinda cosy,they are in the midst of getting the place done and all.i can be your official maid/cook/interior designer...bought a t-shirt for butterscotch.they really have cool designs.i totally like this t-shirt but its size L is like damn small.damn it.chilled a bit then made my way home.

sina called me to ask if i noe a certain anz. he met an accident recently and his pillon, a girl friend passed away. she got to know it from nan's blog.nina told nan about it.the name did ring a bell but i just couldnt put the face to the name.so i called nina. she said i definitely know this guy.we used to hang out together and all.he is this tall,good looking,pretty face guy.it's been years so i really couldnt recall.most probably,we are going to the hospital to visit him later.poor him. i heard he's in a hysterical condition.he fractured his arm and leg.nina told me that he's in the midst of courting the gal and now she's gone. i so want to go to the hospital coz i want to see anz badly. since sina's call yesterday, i've been trying very hard to recall.his face doesnt seem to appear in my head.Aarrrgggggghhhhhh!!!!!

How's "Shang-rila" so far?
.:Saturday, August 9, 2003, 04:49 p.m.:.

So far so good. i was admitted last night and have been doing ok. i'm blogging from the hospital now. kinda in lazy mode. eat, sleep, watch telly. yes, i watch the telly a lot, i seldom watch telly on any other days. the food is really good and served in huge portions. the staff are hospitable. its like a short getaway. i'm feeling so much better. it would be nice if butterscotch is here. well, i guess thats about it for now. i wanna go back to bed. i kinda like the bed, you know you can move it up and down so its nice.

I'm gonna be fine...
.:Friday, August 8, 2003, 12:17 p.m.:.

For those of you who are wondering what the hell is wrong with me (if you read my entries below), let me tell you this, I myself do not have a clue. Nan was so sweet to call me juz now and asked if i'm allrite. Nan, i really appreciate it tau. made me feel a whole lot better. seriously, i dunno what was wrong, what went wrong. everything just did not fall in the right places for the past weeks. Butterscotch tolerated my screamings,my whinings,my complaints & whatnots. B, i'm sorry you had to go through all that. I'm really looking forward to this weekend. No, it's not going to be a fun weekend but i think its a good time for me to sit and ponder. The gals will be spending National day evening at the esplanade,nan,salim, nina & nafi will be at royal scotts.you ppl have a great weekend allrite.

i'm not going to be alone coz siti's examinations anc check ups are cleared.so she's spending the weekend with me too.so it's not bad at all though a small part of me dun want her to be around so that i can be all alone, lying down there.i'll try to blog from the hospital.i was told that there is internet there.

till then...have a good weekend and Happy National Day.

I juz couldnt stop
.:Friday, August 8, 2003, 09:40 a.m.:.

i cried myself to sleep. i cried when i was on the bus.i cried while watching/reading the news. i cried while listening to the radio. i cried while i'm having shower. i cried while walking alone.i cried while sitting alone. i cried when i tried to be busy at work.i cried while talking to butterscotch.i cried and cried ,all teary. i juz couldnt stop.

Twisted soul...
.:Thursday, August 7, 2003, 08:51 a.m.:.

I'm very,very,very tired,not physically but emotionally and mentally. last night,once again i cried myself to sleep. my eyes looked awful this morning. just how do i make myself clear? i tried and tried to reach that higher plane but yet i came rolling down again. Am i being difficult? Am i being complicated? Am i everything negative? i think i'm looking forward to this weekend where i can find a peace of mind and do a little thinking, all alone lying there.

Wild animal on the loose...
.:Wednesday, August 6, 2003, 08:37 a.m.:.

ok i juz gotta blog this...it was hilarious and definitely gross and disgusting.

this morning was juz like any other mornings.woke up and got ready for work and took the same route to the busstop.in fact, was feeling a little cheery.i felt good and i liked i'm wearing today. walking through the carpark is part of the route, kinda shortcut.its been years and i never seen anything like that.i was walking and at the same time,i was being a busybody checking out the fire brigade and police car parked just by my block when sumthing on the ground caught my eyes.it was a leopard print underwear!!!! that was the first shock, the second one came just righ after that.next to the underwear were 2 huge splats/slabs or whatever you call it of......SHIT!!!! i went like "oh shit!" i couldnt afford a second glance, was so disgusted by then.i juz had to msg the gals.what a gross start to a beautiful day!!

btw, to the abang2 Civil defence and police you better do your jobs well.i dun blame you guys for turning around and checking me out (you are guys afterall). but it was so obvious lah.you all turn and look at the same time.aiyoh.. but then again, you were attending to sumthing that may be impt,sumthing that may concern life and death.you're lucky that i didnt get your name and service number to send you for some counselling session.yeah rite like i can.ok...i'm blabbering,out of tangent.it must be the gross sight.

Crushed and empty...
.:Tuesday, August 5, 2003, 09:22 a.m.:.

went to make a new pair of glasses last night.another 240 bucks...damn it.bumped into nan while making my way to the loo.he was on his way to meet vu and dina for dinner.we chilled at BK for a while waiting for the rest, with me not wearing my contact lenses.i was blind as a bat.then while they were having dinner, i had my eyes checked and chose a new frame.fiza and han came to meet me after they had dinner.then went down to the food court to meet the rest.after smoke,fiza and han left and nan,taufiq and i joined the rest at BK.i met nadia for the first time.azril,memek & justone came to join us later.its been quite some time since i hang around BK.still remember the days where we would chill there almost everyday.gosh, what did we actually do?

i've not been feeling good nowadays.feeling all crushed and empty deep down inside.i dunno why.i got all agitated easily.is it PMS? but cant always keep blaming the hormones rite.hopefully this weekend would do me some good, just lie there and do nothing.

salim's fav granaunt passed away yesterday.i heard that sabri is in yemen,got all stuck there,problems with the immigrations and stuff.poor him,couldnt be here for his grandma's funeral.i hope things will turn out good and he can come back soon.

Crushed and empty...
.:Tuesday, August 5, 2003, 09:22 a.m.:.

Virtual World....
.:Monday, August 4, 2003, 11:15 a.m.:.

i was scanning/reading through my entries for the past year.yes, i have been blogging for a year now.the first few months of blogging saw me sticking to plain boring templates.in fact i took it from saiful's.back then i was NOT the greatest at designing web sites and stuff...i still am.thank god for arli, my site now went through several changes and i like it so much.i also realised that the 1st 3 months of blogging, i had trouble archiving my entries.so now if you tried to view those archives back in June-August 2002, you'll get a little confused and frustrated.but its all good now.

thinking back, it was saiful who first introduced me to online journal or bloggin world. he started his when he came upon dewi's.so it began from there.most of my friends started to blog and now it's like a disease.though some still dont find the fascination of the bloggin world or the disease just dun get to them.the blogging world is so tight. to start off, i had only saiful linked on my site and now the number just keep growing.made a number of online friends through blogging and you realised that it is such a small world afterall.everybody knows everybody.

will i be blogging for the rest of my life? maybe,maybe not. when my time on earth is up, this blog of mine will be just another page in the virtual world.

oh yeah,my dear fren Chelsia is back for a 2 weeks holidays.she surprised me on sunday morning by calling me up.in fact, she coming back was a surprise for everybody, even her family.apparently,she managed to grab one of the SQ promos.the airfare is freaking cheap.we gotta meet up soon woman.

Thank You...
.:Saturday, August 2, 2003, 10:17 p.m.:.

i spent more than half of the day in bed.no plans.tot of making use of the time in hand to do sumthing productive but in the end,continued to stay in bed.then received a call from butterscotch.he wanted to meet up.i tot i'm able to see him only next week.things have not been going well between us so yeah he wanted to meet up and talk.so he came and fetched me and we went to jp's.we chilled and talked.we cleared things out and now it's all good.things have not been on our side lately and we are trying to overcome them without causing any strains in our relationship.

we didnt really stay there long cause it was going to rain.wanted to go to downtown east but decided to go back to my place instead.butterscotch chilled a bit with my dad.they watched soccer.i realised that both of them have this common/similar ways of analysing the game.it was funny watching them two.butterscotch decided to leave early to avoid being caught in the rain.the weather was kinda playing tricks,one moment it looked like it was going to rain, another moment back to normal.he took my PS2 home coz he complains that there's nothing to do at home.his pc is no longer functioning so that means no games and internet.

after butterscotch left, i opened up the gift his mum gave me for my coming birthday.it's a black&white adidas tote bag.at first glance,i didnt really fancy it but after a while it grows on me.thank you cik fiza.thank you butterscotch for the short but sweet evening.

tattoo my skin, jerkass!