Feeling...


~Past Lives~

(And a bottle of rum)

Sunday, August 29, 2004 - 01:03 a.m.

Music:The Starting Line - Falling for You

Philosophical Drunk
What Kind of Drunk Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

Mwaha.

I'm going to continue to immerse myself in the internet so I can pretend that going to University next week isn't scaring the crap out of me...


Hmm....

Monday, August 23, 2004 - 03:41 p.m.

I have decided that I need to change my layout.

Problem #1: I am lazy

Problem #2: I really want to wait until I get internet on Hank (teh laptop, people) so my new layout will be configured properly to the screen size. You know, the size everyone else seems to use, so my layouts look shitty on their computer's but fine on this big piece of crap? Yeah.

Problem #3: I need to think of a new layout.

Problem #4: I am lazy.

Right. So. I need to update this more.

I also need to hook Hank up to the 'net so I can download pretty fonts... Shamless Plug.

And so I can make my TBS is Love shirt. Am thinking the writing should go on the back. Yes? No? Anyone care?

Didn't think so.

Going to University scares the shit out of me.

That is all.


Yeah-huh *nods*

Monday, August 16, 2004 - 11:05 p.m.

Music: Taking Back Sunday - The Balland of Sal Villanueva

You know, after watching TBS v.1.0 on IMX and just about that entire live show with Andrea Friday night and then by myself this afternoon, the more I find myself lapsing back to my old ways. The ways where I was like, "Damn you Nolan! Why did you have to leave!?" Even when Adam is apparently mostly at fault.

But, gah! The chemistry on and off stage that they have. *gush*

Adam also has the best lines during the IMX interview. "We wanted the guys and girls to fight each other and not always have the girls win. But we couldn't get away with that. So we stuck in some guns to make up for it." Or something like that. Go listen to it again... part 2 me thinks. It's hilarious.

Ps. JOHN IS A MEGA WHITE BOY

XD

Uhm... not much else interesting to report. Except I got my room number and dorm telephone # and roommates names/numbers today. So yeah. Exciting.

Expect me to pimp out my telephone # soon. Cause yeah. Everyone needs to call me. (Long distance @ 8 cents/minute yo!)

Yeah-huh...


Weee....

Wednesday, August 11, 2004 - 03:25 p.m.

Music: SR-71 - Politically Correct

Am back. Finally. Yay. Grandfather came back with us and is staying til the 2nd of September. Joy.

He better not force me to go to mass... I'll fake my own death. We had to go in Saint John last Saturday and all it did was re-affirm my dislike for organized religion. Sure, I believe in the possibilty of a higher being and and afterlife and all that, but I can't have someone preaching to me about what to do/think/etc. Especially when it's based on a 2000+ year old book. How can that still be accurate. I don't believe it could have gone through all those years and translations and still be 100% accurate. It's just a load of BS to me.

Anyways, enough of me ranting about my religion stance.

Had lunch with Andrea yesterday. *glomps* I miiiissssed her. ^__^ And I gave her her b-day presents. And we hung out at Swirls after. Good times. Then she went to work and I did nothing all afternoon. Yay. But Stephen came over in the evening and we played video games. Mwaha.

Uhm... oh! I watched my Warped Tour 03 DVD that I bought in Halifax finally. It was very cool. During the credits different pictures served as the background and one picture came up and I was like... wait a second. Pause. Rewind. It looks like Adam Lazzara. I think it is. It IS! Because there's Eddie! Mwahaaha! So I was happy. And then the next picture was Adam too. And the camera panned over and I think I saw Matt (okay, just his elbow, but it was too far centre to be Ed or Fred and no one else plays to the drumset like that. Come on!) ^____^;;;

Am trying to catch up on viewing the stuff I've devwatched on DevART. ^__^ Found this instead:
But haven't they been around since the 70's?
Middle Aged Mutant Ninja TURTLES!
"You kids get the hell of my lawn!"

XDDD I am so amused now.

Speaking of amusement. GO HERE. Just do it. XD

I'm going to go do... something. Prolly play more GTA: Vice City. But who knows. ^_____^;;;


Quizzes 'cause I'm bored

Thursday, July 29, 2004 - 08:08 p.m.

I hate being 3 hours ahead of everyone else. No one's online when I want to talk... *pouts*

Conscious self
Overall self
Take Free Enneagram Personality Test


Accurate hey? I'm creeped out slightly.

As an aside, I keep trying to change my hotmail signature and it keeps asking for my password. Over and over and over. Anyone else having this problem? It's pissing me off...

Eysenck's Test Results
Extraversion (77%) high which suggests you are very talkative, optimistic, and sociable but possibly not very reflective.
Neuroticism (55%) medium which suggests you are moderately worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.
Psychoticism (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately offensive, uncooperative, and rebellious.
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Again. This is creepy cool.

Brain Lateralization Test Results
Right Brain (42%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (54%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain
Are You Right or Left Brained?
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It's true again. And whenever I take right/left brain test, the results are usually really close like that. Interesting...

ENFJ - "Persuader". Outstanding leader of groups. Can be aggressive at helping others to be the best that they can be. 2.5% of total population.
Take Free Myers-Briggs Personality Test


Duuude... ^__^;; I like this site...

Big Five Test Results
Extroversion (84%) very high which suggests you are extremely talkative, optimistic, sociable and affectionate but probably not very internally grounded.
Friendliness (82%) high which suggests you are very good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too agreeable
Orderliness (64%) moderately high which suggests you are organized, reliable, neat, and ambitious but possibly not very spontaneous and fun.
Emotional Stability (22%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.
Openmindedness (60%) moderately high which suggests you are intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.
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Spamspamspamspamspam. XD

Dinner time? Maybe? Almost? Soon?

My family is odd...


Halifax Update!

Saturday, July 24, 2004 - 11:17 p.m.

So I'm in Halifax now. At my aunt's house. Yay.

We made it here alive, so that's a relief. ^__^;; And the flight was way better than okay! We only had to make the one connection in Calgary, so after braving the vomit comet again we only had to fly direct to Halifax. The bonus part? They'd oversold the seats on the plane and because Dad's an Elite member (he flies *way* too much) we all got upgrade (free of charge) to exectutive/first class! Booh-ya!! XD It was incredible! I never want to have to fly 'hospitality' again. But that's not going to happen... T__T

I'd give you all the gory details but I don't want to make you jealous. Plus I can't stay on for very long... :P

Hey, Andrea! How'd the birthday go? You hung over yet? ^_^;; I tried calling you last night but no one was home. Your MSN was on though. XP I don't know, but I'm thinking I may call again around Monday or so. Maybe. Depending on what we do and stuff.

Went shopping for a few hours today at the Mic Mac Mall in Dartmouth. Bought the first two books of FAKE. XDDDD I've been looking all over forever for the first few books. Mwahaha! Oh, it was wonderful (yes I read them both already, hush) and absolutely gorgeous. I need the next one now! XDD

What else? Not much I don't think. Played DDR in the mall by myself though. Cause Jaime didn't want to play. But I met some cool people at the arcade and we played together. It was the typical share the pads with the strangers. Awesomeness. I got called amazing. *scoffs* The girl was just barely starting to play on light and the other guy was a relatively decent standard, but I kept picking fast/hard Light songs. ^__^;;; Anyways, it was fun.

Went for dinner. Crazy fancy/upscale restaurant. The whole menu was seafood and steak. And one chicken dish I think... ^_^;;; It was an interesting time.

We were walking back to the car when we saw these two guys pass us... holding hands! I just about died. And then there was a bunch of other guys that came up behind us and with the amount of jeering that was going on, the hand holding can't have been geniune. Which is too bad, cause I went and got my hopes up.

Wouldn't it have been cool if it was. XD I'm such a loser.

Anyways, that's been my trip so far in a nutshell. I might post here semi-regularily. It depends on how busy we are and when we get to Saint John, how often I get computer time. ^__^;;


>_<

Thursday, July 22, 2004 - 11:19 p.m.

Music: The Starting Line - Cheek to Cheek

I hate right now. Hate it so much. Because we're going away tomorrow and I hate flying. Hate it so much. Hate is so much I need to take anti-anxiety drugs to deal with it. It makes the flights more pleasant, but I hate the anticipation and the actual lag time. I wish it would just be: go to airport -- blur -- arrive at destination. That way, I wouldn't have to have to deal with anything.

I get so worked up about flying. Because I can't stand the thought of anything ever happening while flying. I've had these fears for a long time too. They're not just something spawned by September 11th, but I can say that definitely didn't help things. There's just so much I still want/need/have to do that I can't... just can't...

And everyone tells me it's irrational, but that's why it's a fear. Because it isn't likely *going* to happen, but what if it *does*. And I can't distract myself from that fact.

To top everything off, I've had a cold for the last few days. Sore throat and the aches. Finally got Advil Cold pills yesterday, thank goodness. And now my left ear is all plugged and I can't get it to pop and it's pissing me off and I can't ever be comfortable can I? And I had a hard time sleeping last night. Like I slept, but kept waking up and not feeling like I'd slept at all. So I feel shitty all around. Now pile that on top of the stress of last minute packing and my fear of flying.

I've had a hell of a day.

Andrea and I *did* get to go for lunch which was nice. (Considering it's her birthday tomorrow and I feel like a shitty friend for not being here and for not having anything in advance for her.) And I know she's going to read that and tell me it's not true and not my fault. But I feel it anyway. Cause everything's getting to me right now. And it's pressing upon me so hard that tears spill out. How insufferably emo of you Katelynn

And I know everything seems worse at night, but I can't convince myself otherwise. So I'll distract myself with fanfiction and MSN conversations and hope that things will be okay.

I don't know how much more of this I can take...


Oh, where the heck to start..?

Sunday, July 18, 2004 - 04:27 p.m.

Music: Straylight Run - The Tension and the Terror

Man. What a week(end). Yeah. Phew *wipes sweat from brow*

Where *do* I begin?

The Econo Lodge (Large) in Strathmore is a shitty hotel. Don't stay there, stay at the Super 8, it was much better. Yeah.

Saw about a million people from the city in Calgary. Which was very cool. Random list: C, Sam, Shalon, Garrett, Landon (Matz), Mark Robinson, Tyler Reeve, and more. Yeah-huh.

Moving on to the shows. We kinda ignore Story of the Year in favour of getting really close to the other stage for the Thursday show. Which kicked much ass. Because Geoff (lead singer) was wearing a ripped shirt and then he crowd surfed and half the shirt was hanging off him. We all got scattered in the mosh pit but I had fun standing at the edge of it (still close to the stage) and yelling along to the songs I knew. They didn't play War All the Time which was disappointing but Division Street totally made up for it. And Paris in Flames and Signals Over the Air. And another few I didn't know. But that's okay. XD

Our random show for the year turned out to be awesome too. Go Betty Go is an all girl band and they didn't disappoint. I didn't buy their CD but Andrea and C did, so maybe I can rip it. ^__^;;

NOFX played Idiot Son of an Asshole which made me very happy.
"Do you guys want to hear a good, old song or a mediocre new one?"
*crowd shouting*
"What? What are you saying? Asshole? Ooh.. *old*. Okay."
Kekekekekeke...

And then these guys climbed on top of some building (by jumping on top of the vending machines) and got a shout-out from the stage. Which I thought was cool.

Alkaline Trio was fun too. They played Private Eye and Maybe I'll Catch Fire, so my day was made. ^__^;;

Yellowcard and Taking Back Sunday only got to play half a set because of the stupid rain. And thunder and lightening. And threatening twister. Yay. Not. The rain just about killed us. Hail that left welts. Thank god we found Andrea's mom relatively quickly... after making a detour to the tent. Yeah. Fun.

"This is a party, bitches!" -- Adam Lazzara, opening the TBS show. Oh yeah... XD

Got autographs from Ed and Adam, which made me happy. XDD And ladies and gentlemen: Adam Lazzara has a nose ring. Yes. Just in case you didn't know. Freaked me out for a second.

We won't talk about the wussiness involved in getting Adam's autograph. No we won't...

The we went shopping in Kensington and downtown the next day. Fun fun. Got sunburned on my scalp. Not fun. Hurts a lot actually. >_<

Both Andrea and I bought Sugarcult's new CD only to find that it didn't work. >_< As in when we looked on Flora (A's laptop) we found that there was no music option at all. Oi...

And now, time for the swag list:
~ 1 button of Adam Lazzara (kekeke)
~ 3 T-shirts (TBS, Thursday and a Yellowcard one for Jaime)
~ 1 Zip-up hoodie (Alkaline Trio)
~ 2 CD's from A&B Sound (The Calling - Two and Thrusday - Full Collapse)
~ Manga (4 -- 2 Utena, a Shaman King and a Naruto book)
~ 1 book (Rainbow Boys, and yes, I read it already. Hush.)

There's prolly more, but I'm stupid now. Yeah. So I prolly spent about $200. Weee... fun. Now we get ready to go to New Brunswick/Nova Scotia on the 23rd (Andrea's birthday yo!) Yaaay...

I hate airplanes....


Holy knickers Batman!

Monday, July 12, 2004 - 10:15 p.m.

XDD

Lookit what I found.

Adopt Your Own Boyfriend


Adopt Your Own Boyfriend

CONOR! *squeals*

Adopt Your Own Boyfriend


Adopt Your Own Boyfriend

XD

Adopt Your Own Boyfriend


Yesh. XD I am so amused now.

Also because of this: John Squared

Kekekekekekekeke.... Kinneas is the com. mod. Does anyone know how much that amuses me? XD


*runs around screaming*

Monday, July 12, 2004 - 07:29 p.m.

Music: The Starting Line - Given the Chance

Aaaaaaah~! I'm getting soo excited. Like a kid with ADD. Eeeee~! Warped Tour's is on THURSDAY! XDD

So, to psyche myself up, I've been reading the Pit Report on the official Warped page. Aaah! Soo excited. Taking Back Sunday and Thursday were playing kickball against Senses Fail and My Chemical Romance. XD Apparently it was terribly amusing. I was also reading some posts on this Matt Rubano LJ community where they copy his posts and stuff... he was talking about this kickball game (in which hot pink tape was used to mark bases.. XD) and the TBS/Thursday alliance. Which he called Taking Back Thursday. Because he's dorky like that. Kekekekekeke... I love Matt... ^_^

So yesh, so excited about Warped. Must pack tomorrow... ^__^;;; Considering I passed out last night around 11:30 because less that five hours of sleep will do that to you. It was so fun at A's though. Partiness I mean. ^_^ Because Liam was there and he was hilarious. Climbing the tree and giving us the play-by-play as he tried to stradle it to flip himself around to jump off. "Aaah! It's jagged!" XD

And Sandon came. Oh gods. Never ever saw that coming. It was so fun though. Because we think he had a good time and I've never seen him so extroverted without alcohol. Alright, so I've never *seen* him drunk, but hey, I've heard the stories.

Right. Making a list of merch. I need t buy at Warped. Someone let me know if they think I'm missing something important:
Thursday (at least one t-shirt)
Taking Back Sunday (at least one shirt and maybe a zip-up or something else)
Alkaline Trio (shirt? Maybe..?)
Yellowcard (merch in general, want to scope out the booth)
Story of the Year (boothness again)
Anti-Flag (totally want to see their booth, cause yeah!)
The Offical Vans Booth (see above)

Right. ^__^ So happy now. Lalalallala...

I want to play more GTA: Vice City, but I'm actually getting pretty far in it and it's still really scratched. Must try to buy second hand or rent or something. Yeah.

Why am I the only person on the planet that slashes Tommy and Lance? They're so *obviously* flirting. Oh right, cause it's mostly *guys* that play GTA. Hmm.. there has to be some gay guys that play it...

"One day I'm going to save your life and you just might want to kiss me for it."

HELLO?! Slashiness. Gah! Bastard game creators are totally leading up to something with their relationship. I swear, if Lance dies for Tommy or something, I *will* write fanfiction... ^__^;; Or watch, he'll turn on him and try to kill him. *pouts* There's still fiction material in that...

Right. Going now. ^__^;;;


Yeah, I suck, I know

Thursday, July 8, 2004 - 04:50 p.m.

Music: Tears for Fears - Shout

Haven't blogged lately. *points to title* I know I know.

In other, more exciting news, I GOT MY LAPTOP YESTERDAY! Mwahahaha! ^_____^ It's so awesome. I transferred all my small files by CD yesterday and now dad and I are going to try to hook up the LAN cable so I can transfer everything else. ^___^ So happy...

Decided to write last night on the laptop before going to bed. It was awesome. ^__^ Wrote a little one shot/fanfiction thingie for this original idea I had last year. Finished it this morning. I don't *think* it sucks. I can't really remember right now.. XD

I get to have my own desktop! XD Finally! After years of putting up with crap from the family! ^_^ I'm so excited for the wrong reasons.

Have been obsessively playing GTA: Vice City since Stephen let me borrow it. ^_^ Mwaha! I'm not doing too badly actually. Except for right now, where I can't pass this stupid mission. Blah! Other bad thing about it (aside from the fact it's addicting) is that b/c it's Stephen's, it's got this mofo scratch in it... so some parts don't work, or go all pyscho awful. But other than that... I think I may have to but it. ^__^

I'm going to go harrass my dad now, see if we can do the LAN thing. Yeah. ^__^ *crosses fingers*


Wooo...

Friday, July 2, 2004 - 12:05 p.m.

Music: Brand New - Mix Tape

Yeah, so... lots has happenend in the last few days, I've just been busy/lazy/sleep deprived so I haven't posted.

Grad was so much fun. Church service went well. Ceremonies were so bloody hot I thought I was going to die. Banquet was fun - Jesse sang, which was so funny. ^_^ Chem Free was lots of fun too. And I managed to stay up all night. Go me! ^_^ Dan was a lightweight and went home at 2 (though she claims she lasted til 4 once she got home but I don't know...) I discovered that my pool skills are non-existent. Not that it was anything new, but hey. I still managed to with the game somehow. Don't look at me. ^_^ One hour after we started, I sunk the 8-ball on a fluke. Good times.

Took lots of pictures with the Yearbook disposable camera. Can't wait to see them. Speaking of which, I really should go into work on the Yearbook sometime next week. Heh... ^__^;;;;

Went to Fahrenheit 9/11 yesterday with Andrea and then Dan, C and Jenna met us to see Spider-Man 2 about 20 minutes after 9/11 was over. Four hours in a movie theatre! ^_^;; Both movies were good though. Even if Michael Moore made me soooo bloody angry. Gah! Bush should diiiieee!!!

^_^;; Right, down now.

Uhm... oh yeah, then we went to Kelsey's cause Jenna wanted nachos. While C and Dan took off to go to Sandfly. The kitchen lost our order of just appetizers and so we got free 4 Cheese Spinach Dip. Boo-yah! ^_^ Then we went to Sandfly. Discovered there was still 2 hours til fireworks and we were already bored. So we walked from Kin Coulee to Hat News and Tobacco for slushies. On our way back (after I changed my shoes from the evil mosquito inviting sandals to real shoes) we walked back. But we didn't go all the way back to the park. We stopped on Cemetery Hill and sat on the grass with a bunch of other random people and watched the fireworks from there. They were fucking *awesome* fireworks this year. Like the best I've ever seen. It was great.

Then we walked back to Andrea's car and surprisingly got out of there pretty fast considering the traffic everything. So it was a good day.

And I have my Warped Tour ticket! And some spending money (though I'm still taking donations from my parents ^_^) for the million and two T-shirts I want to buy. ^_^ And Dad's gonna buy stain so I can make money staining the fence. $1 a board! Boo-yah! ^_^ And I'm babysitting tomorrow too. ^_^ And I have 75 Mall Bucks (every Grad at Chem Free got 75) so I want to buy a video game. ^_^

Well, Dad's having some guys over to install some new light fixtures in the kitchen, so I need to make myself presentable and find a way to get out of the house for the majority of the day... ^__^;;;

One final chuckle worthy thing: Saw Sandon (with Alisa) yesterday at Sandfly. Asked him if he was hungover. He said he wasn't then, but the day before he sure was. ^_^;; Made me laugh. Sandontheplantperson!!

Note to self: START EDITING DAMMIT! Procrastinator... Maybe I'll actually be able to concentrate on it when I get my laptop and can't use the internet very much... ^_^;; But that's soo long away, Andrea and Christiana will kill me if I don't start soon. Heh... *runs away*


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