Thursday, October 26th
Sometimes I really fucking hate my husband..., calgon, take me away..
Wednesday, October 25th
I'm sad to say that I left the cakewalk defeated TWICE! I didn't go home empty handed though, I won some hot pink plastic monster teeth and a homemade flip up black kitty notepad.
Ugh, I was at Target yesterday and was noticing again how much the holidays have turned into a mass of consumerism. I mean, they sell Halloween lights for your house now for christ's sake. What's next? Halloween trees? Whatever floats your boat, I guess.
I've been in a girly mood, my cd player has included the following in the last few days:
THE BANGS - Tiger Beat
HEAVENS TO BETSY - Calculated
and I put Carrie Brownstein/Mary Timony's side project, "The Spells" on my Amazon Wish List.
My life wish list:
- To be single for a while and have some sweet guy sweep me off my feet. (I can dream, can't I?)
- To have some good bands come soon, so I can get my mind off some stressful situations in my life.
- To have all of my financial problems taken care of.
- To be able to start my own distro of various items (T-shirts, zines, books...) and work from home. I'm jealous ericka! As soon as we get our own computer I'm looking into it.
Please click here to help save stray animals and more importantly, spay or neuter your own pets!
Saturday, October 21st
I'm probably a glutton for punishment but I am going to my 8 year old sisters elementary school tonight with them to the annual Halloween carnival. If all goes as planned, I will be walking out with a cake or some other baked good that I intend on winning in the CAKEWALK!!
Monday, I am joining the throes of mainstream moms and taking the pixie to JC Penney to have her first professional pictures done. I have a coupon for a cheap deal, so why not?
We were supposed to go to the bar tonight with our friends but decided to cancel because we knew said friends were only going to appease us. Upon calling them to let them know, our predictions rang true. Quote "John will be happy to hear that, he was dreading going". Thanks.
Gotta go, the pixie just awoke and she refuses to sit here with me
Friday, October 20th
Well kids, I updated my page about myself with some useless tidbits if anyone cares...
Hmmm, here's a strange one.
Elfgirl is back from her hiatus and has changed her layout.
I also added some new links here.
I've been having fun Christmas shopping at Amazon the last couple of nights...and I added my very special wish list. ;)
While driving in the country yesterday, I looked over and saw 5 or so giant sunflowers decaying but still standing. If I were standing next to them, they would tower over my head. They stand in a pose that suggests that they are mourning the change in seasons, head hanging, chin on chest. Their once vibrant green leaves blackened and hanging lifeless at their sides. It almost looks like they are a family attending the funeral of a loved one. Soulful plants they are...
I wholeheartedly agree with ericka's statement about global warming. I have been telling my husband and friend, John that for years and they always pooh-pooh it saying that Global Warming is a conspiracy. I know the truth, all you have to do is look at the weather trends for the past few years and the proof is in the pudding.
Oh yeah, if anyone wants to help me make some $$$$ at epinions my name is snbcab. please, please, pretty please?
Saturday, October 14th
Ahh, yesterday I worked the first 8 hour day since I spawned the pixie. It was nice to be back in the workforce to get some much needed money but it was the most boring job I have ever done. Damn temp agency. Answering phones just isn't my cup of tea.
Can you believe that no store within a 35 minute drive carries organic baby food other than Gerber. I hate this town!!! AARRRGGGHHH. *whine* I wanna go back to Minneapolis *whine*
-Guilty pleasure alert-
I finally got all caught up on The Real World tonight. I have been all in a tizzy because I have missed the last 4-5 episodes. God, why do I let myself get involved in that show??
Well, this time last year I was just finding out that I was pregnant and flipping out. My diverson? Being packed into a hot little basement in East Lansing on Devils Night to see Small Brown Bike, Quitoxe and Keleton DMD. When faced with such a life changing circumstance a little music does ya good.
Such was the case a few weeks later when I road tripped it to Ann Arbor to see the Alkaline Trio, The Honor System and Moods for Moderns in a dorm lunchroom so aptly named Halfass. Lots of fine punk rock/indie boys at that one. :)
Oh yeah, the vocalist from the Honor System grabbed my ass on the way up to the stage for unknown reasons as it is (was, whatever, it's getting back there!) nothing special. It was one of the few times in my 24 years that that has ever happened and I thought I imagined it at first.
Donate space to the big kitties please.
Well, I think that is about all I can eek out for tonight aside from a HOORAY! because I have a small break from the hubby this weekend. He is in Ohio. Yippee!!
Thursday, October, 12th
11:28 am
Okay husker, I admit, the silverfish are pretty disgusting, BUT, the earwig is pretty damn creepy. Take a look at this quote:
"Several species can fire a foul-smelling liquid, formed in abdominal glands and probably protective in function, up to 10 centermetres." YIKES!! Everytime I go out to get the mail, about 10 of them scurry out of the mailbox handle and I jump back!!! Nasty, nasty little creatures.
More later....
Sorry about the funky link situation - I can't get the program to cooperate.
Sunday, October 8th
7:35 pm
Okay, I promise, no whining today.
I found a site with a neato photography project. Check it out and join in the fun!!
I hope that this will have changed my the time the pixie gets in school, if not, i'll have to get her a "I read banned books" pin for her bag!!
A good log by another a Minneapolis dweller.
It looks like Jessamyn is getting over her TWO car accidents that she was in last month. Nothing like two brushes with death to put a damper on everything, and then to return to a leaky roof and no furnace. OUCH!!
I won't bore you any further tonight. (hee hee)
Saturday, October 7th
Well, apparently my pita is more boring than I thought. I joined bloghop and have had two hits and both gave me horrible ratings.
Sorry guys, I don't have the time to surf the web 24 hours a day and find great links and real life in my house includes a baby girl on my teat every two hours.
Anyway, I will try not to take that personally. I know us mamas aren't hip to the childless folk.
Not to mention that here in Michigan, nothing is exciting.
We went to the Humane Society Dog Walk this morning and nearly froze to death. I got to briefly visit with my old friends. I need to start volunteering or working there again so I can get some piece of mind. There's nothing like 30 dogs barking at ya to clear your head.
hungry?umm, I think this virtual crap is getting out of hand.
Need some help fitting in before that Elliot Smith show? No worries, you've got this
Oh. according to The Spark, I am only 46% Bitch. You couldn't tell by listening to me.
All I can say about this article is, What Took Them So Long.
Monday, October 2nd
2:52 pm
No updates lately as I have been in a major funk a.k.a. depression. I will spare everyone the details though.
But, I will give ya the top ten reasons that *I* will not be voting for Bush. Quotes thanks to Slate (Bushisms)
1. GOV. BUSH on Elian: Because the picture on the newspaper. It just seems so un-American to me, the picture of the guy storming the house with a scared little boy there. I talked to my little brother, Jeb-I haven't told this to many people. But he's the governor of-I shouldn't call him my little brother--my brother, Jeb, the great governor of Texas.
JIM LEHRER: Florida.
BUSH: Florida. The state of the Florida.
- The NewsHour with Jim Lehrer, April 27, 2000
2. "I was raised in the West. The west of Texas. It's pretty close to California. In more ways than Washington D.C., is close to California." - In Los Angeles as quoted by the Los Angeles Times, April 8th, 2000.
3. "I know how hard it is for you to put food on your family." - Greater Nashua, N.H., Chamber of Commerce, Jan. 27th, 2000
4. "Rarely is the question asked: Is our children learning?"- Florence, S.C., Jan. 11th, 2000
5. "And if he continues that, I'm going to tell the nation what I think of him as a human being and a person." - On Gore on the Today Show, Aug. 1st, 2000
6. "The fact that he relies on facts-saying things that are not factual-are going to undermine his campaign." - On Gore in the New York Times, March 4th, 2000
7. "It's cleary a budget. It's got lots of numbers in it." - Reuters, May 5th, 2000
8. "It's clear our nation is more reliant upon big foreign oil. More and more of our imports come from overseas." - Beaverton, Ore, Sept. 25th, 2000
9. "Well, I think if you say your going to do something and don't do it, the trustworthiness."
10. "This is Preservation Month. I appreciate preservation. It's what you do when you run for president. You gotta preserve." - Speaking during "Perseverance Month" at Fairgrounds Elementary School in Nashua, N.H. As quoted in the Los Angeles Times, Jan. 28, 2000
Yup, guys and gals, that is from our potential president to be...he sure will make our country proud.
PLEASE VOTE - DON'T LET THIS MAN IN THE WHITE HOUSE!!!
Cool link alert: in passing This is a journal of overheard conversations.
I guess that's all I have time to eek out today.
Tuesday, September 26th
10:39 am
Highlights of the weekend included:
- Spending time with my 3 1/2 yr old goofball nephew on Saturday, while my brother and SIL were at the Michigan State game.
- Borrowed Oregon Trail II.
- Getting a much needed break from the pixie on Sunday.
- Coming upon two large calves in the road on the way back from picking the pixie up. I tried to find the owners to let them know they were loose but had no luck. Jailbreak!!
I would have tried to help but I learned my lesson a couple of years ago about trying to scare livestock out of the road.
At my inlaws, there is a pasture full of sheep across the street. One night, on the way home, I saw a rather large object in the middle of the road. My first thought was that it was a deer, but upon closer observation, I realized one of the sheep were out. Brilliant me decides to try to scare it out of the road as it was perched on the crest of a hill with low visibility and it was dark. So I go over near it and clap at it and various other foolish things. Next thing I know the damn thing starts to charge me!!! I run behind a bush swearing to myself, and when I got it together I made a run for the house! It got it out of the road long enough for me to call the owners. Then I hear one of them say something along the line of "this is the aggressive one." Oops.
Needless to say, my days as a sheep herder have ended. :)
Chad, my hubby, goes for his GM test today!
The pixie has her first real cold, she picked it up from me. :( Thank god she isn't being cranky, she actually is in better spirits than usual. I was thinking that maybe she should get sick more often!! *joking*
Sunday, September 24th
10:02 am
Well, I just registered to vote for *gasp* the first time ever. I just can't bear the thought of George Dubya getting into office. If my one vote helps to keep him out, then I'm happy.
Here's a link if you're into high school humor.
If you are more of a newshound, I have the the perfect place for you.
Our tenative trip to Isle Royale is the perfect excuse for me to get into shape. My body isn't in horrible shape but it definatley needs some toning up and my cardio system needs work. I have been losing it all for a while now, but having the pixie was the final blow to my body.
Thursday, September 21st
9:41 pm
I've got some good news and some bad news...
The good:
My brother and I are planning a backpacking trip to Isle Royale next summer. This will be my first time backpacking since '94!!! I am a little nervous as I am quite out of shape after having the baby and all. I hope my back can take it.
The good II:
My husband got called to test for a job with GM. For you that don't know what that is, it stands for General Motors, otherwise meaning he will start out making around $20 bucks an hour!!!! Hmmm, how much was that dresser from IKEA?????
The bad:
GM is in Lansing which is in Michigan which means we will not be going back to Minneapolis. Which may mean we will not make it out west either. Though we could save, save, save and then move (hopefully transfer). Time will tell.
In other news, I just finished a rant for the letters section of the newspaper. Everytime I pick up the paper there is an anti-abortion letter or editorial in it. What the Fuck? I respect their opinions but they really could lay off the lecture day after day. I'm sure i'm not the only one that is tired of it. So I put my two cents in.
Damn, if we have to stay here in MI, I am going to turn into a alienated "hipmama" with no one to relate to near me but have money. If we were to go back to MN, I would be "out there" doing things, active in volunteering where I planned to and meeting new people but I'd probably be hurting for money in a major way again. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!! Neither choice is good. * Whine Whine *
Oh yeah, I just saw the clip on the news about that South African swimmer that really couldn't swim very well and I got all weepy because he was trying so hard and everyone was clapping and hollering at him to encourage him to finish. Hooray for having the balls to keep going!!!!
Wednesday, September 20th
1:52 pm
Alright students, today I am going to post a list of my favorite rock boys:
(in no particular order)
The first two are listed for superfical reasons or a.k.a. being hotties:
- Jeremiah Green, drummer for Modest Mouse, although he IS a bit young for me...
- Dan Gallucci, plays guitar for Murder City Devils and occasionally with M.M., I actually spoke with him for half a minute after a show in Detroit!! *Swoon*
- Issac Brock, singer/songwriter with Modest Mouse. Appreciated for his witty lyrics, unique voice and ability to play him guitar with his tongue onstage.
- St. Patrick a.k.a. Paddy of Dillinger four. He's not afraid to show his big hairy butt on stage and you gotta have respect for him for that reason!! And for this quote "I want to get up and fucking drop my pants, whip my dick out and rock the fuck out of you."
- Doug Marsch of Built to Spill. The songs he puts together just seem to flow without much effort. ah, the melody...
The guys of Small Brown Bike. They help organize and play in a festival every year called Michigan Fest and they give portions of the profits to local non-profit agencies such as The Counsel Against Domestic Abuse here in Lansing. Particularily Scott because he is really sweet and friendly. :)
That's all i've been able to dig up for the time being, I know there is more.
Tootles....
Friday, September 15th
6:58 pm
Tommorrow the pixie will be 3 months old - my how time flies.
After a lot of hemming and hawing about going out in the cold and rainy weather, we threw caution to the wind and made the trek to the zoo. Luckily for us, the rain stopped just as we got there. The whole Jack Hanna thing was a wham, bam, thank you man type of deal. But we did get a autographed picture out of it.
I must get out of this miserable little town!!! It is full of ignorant rednecks and I am just about fed up. They can't seem to understand the concept of using a blinker, they are obsessed with driving their customized S-10's or monster trucks around staring at everyone and I don't know how much more of it I can take!! AARRGGHH!!
It's getting to the pixie's cranky time, so I've got to cut it short...
Tuesday, September 12th
11:25 am
Oh, happy day!! Thursday, Jack Hanna (The zoo guy), is going to be at our zoo here meeting visitors. I am going to try to get him to sign the pixie's baby book. I realize that is pretty nerdy but I don't care.
It has been pouring buckets here the last 3 days. Ugh, my MIL left the window on my car down about an inch overnight and the seat got soaked - now the whole car smells like wet socks. Lovely.
I decided I am going to go on a zine, sticker and t-shirt buying bonanza here as they have a particular zine that I have been looking for.
TA-TA for now...
That last entry reminded me of something I had completely forgotten about:
While in Washington, we had been alternating our time between enjoying the outdoors and seeing the cities. On this particular morning we decided to go into Seattle from our campground for breakfast. Where we were staying this time had showers so we washed up and headed out.
We were in search of a specific diner in the northern part of Seattle but never found it. Dismayed, we decided to just drive and see what we found. I spotted a little joint called the American Cafe or something similar. It was a small wooden storefront with a divey appearance. What the heck, we thought. When we got inside it turned out to be nuttier than I could have imagined. The motif on everything was old western. But the place was run by a small asian family. There were cowboys all over the bar, the curtains and wagon wheels on the wall!! Overhead, Sally Jesse was blaring out from the TV. I have to add, that day I had the worst pancakes I have ever had. Bleck. Anyway, that's all I have to add.
Saturday, September 9th
2:00 pm
DESPERATE PLEA FOR HELP!!! I need some suggestions on what I should do with my hair!! I have pictures in the bio link. Should I grow it back out? Keep it short but maybe with a different cut? Or should I just color it (Violet manic panic or maybe a chesnut brown)? E-mail me your opinions...
Well, this week it's my hometown's "Frontier Day's". They get so hyped up about it that it is almost treated like a holiday. All the freaks come out of the woodwork donning their cowboy hats and cowboy boots. On Saturday morning everyone lines up their lawn chairs on main street to get a good view of the parade. You've got the boy scouts follwing behind the horses on a riding lawnmower scooping shit up as it falls so that the school band and other walkers don't step in it. I used to enjoy going to the parade to applaud our veterans, whether it be WWII or Vietnam... I feel they deserve it for the hell most of them went through. There is a huge craftshow on the courthouse lawn so all the old q-tips come out to get their craft fix. The Elephant Ears are what I get excited about but I didn't get one this year. I stopped into the herb fair inside the 1800's courthouse and picked up some lavendar oil and a hand-pressed sage imprint card to send to my pen pal out in Washington.
My husband is always cracking jokes about the fact that it is called Frontier Days and it's in Michigan. I just figure, hey, it was a thriving community in the 1800's, so why not...it's not as if it really makes a difference anyway. Let them have their jollies.
I've managed to make over 100 bucks on the garage sale. YAY!!! Whatever we don't sell is going to the Domestic Abuse Center.
Nothing exciting to report otherwise...
Oh yeah, Husker, my birthday is just 3 days after yours!! Happy belated b-day!!
Thursday, September 7th
11:30 am
Yes, I'm still here. I just haven't had time to update.
Brilliant me decided to throw a garage sale to get some of my old junk out of my hair and make some pocket change. I've made about 60 bucks so far, but that was spent on 2 winter outfits for the pixie and a vet appt. for corkie. Someday I need to get my hair cut...come to my garage sale!!!
I was intending on picking up a part time job but I have been putting that off for a couple of weeks now.
My husband was supposed to have been back in Minneapolis by now looking for a job and a place to live but he hasn't left Michigan yet. We are sort of in a flux for the time being. >:{
We were dicussing the fact that we should have just taken our money last November and just went out to WA or Portland instead of doing this Minneapolis thing with the roommates. I love Minnepolis, don't get me wrong, but it was just a bad time. We can't live with roommates with a little baby in the house. Now we are back at square one as far as savings and housing goes.
I am just ready to move somewhere and stay for a while. I can't wait to decorate a room for the pixie and get her a little library set up. I just got our first order from the children's book of the month club! Yippee!!!
I am at a loss of what to write...
Everyone enjoy your day!!
Saturday, September 2nd
10:40 pm
Ahh, it's that time of year again. Mornings are colder, leaves are falling, schools in and I start feeling depressed about the course of my life.
After high school, I had every intention of going to college to be a certified Veterinary Technician but I just haven't gotten that far. The July after I finished school, I participated in a voluntary 5 week trail building project. But I never got much further than that...
That was in '94 and I'm sorry to say that aside from working, traveling, volunteering at a Wildlife Rehab. Center and a Humane Soc. and attending the community college P.T., I have not accomplished much else.
My husband and I went through a period of a few years where all we did was drink. There was no room for school in that lifestyle. It took a few violent episodes for me to step back and evaluate our lives. It finally took me calling johnny law on him to change things. There have been incidents here and there since but nothing to the degree that it was.
Now that I am sober, aside from one drink now and then, I need to get my act together and get that degree before it's too late.
I live near Michigan State, and every year when the students come back, I start beating myself up about getting my ass in college. Of course, I will never have that whole dorm room and campus lifestyle, but I crave learning and I want more than anything to go.
You don't know how much I wish I were one of people whose parents had saved up college tuition, I feel I would have went as soon as I graduated had that been the case.
But unfortunatley, my dad was a cheater, drug abusing alcoholic and my mother left him. She rarely got the child support owed so she could barely afford to raise my brother and I, much less afford to save for college.
Hello financial aid and loan officers!!!
On a happier note, these are the things I love about this time of year:
The smell of leaves burning.
The chilly mornings, indicating the oncoming winter.
School supplies! - I have a pen and notebook fetish!
Breaking out the sweaters and long sleeve shirts.
Coffee nevers smells or tastes better than in fall.
The happy memories - most seemed to be linked with Fall.
Our wedding anniversery - Halloween. It's been 3 years!
I have decided that I have been WAY too negative here in this journal and I vow to try and be more positive in the upcoming entries.
Friday, September 1st, 2000
11:27 am
Last night I realized that this is the first summer in 6 YEARS that we haven't went camping or taken a road trip. *pout pout*
This scares me - I have considered taking a trip alone in the past, but having my dog with me for company and protection. I cannot believe that her dogs didn't respond to her being attacked!!
It's those types of stories that make me question my decision to bring the pixie into this world.
I take my dog:
to the vet on Wed. to get some X-rays and here vaccs. She has a horrible limp and I need to know what's going on. I have been putting it off because of $$$ and the fact that she didn't seemed to be bothered by it but she has been yelping as of late while walking on it. :{
Friday, August 25th, 2000
7:09 pm
I beat Oregon Trail Today!! YAY!!!
I think I was intended to be a Gemini. My husband and daughter (I've gotta get used to saying that - eek!) are both Geminis and I just missed it - I'm a Leo. The reason I think that I should have been one is the way my thoughts flow.
I have two sides to me. The side that likes the hustle and bustle of the city. I love being able to walk a block to a bookstore or a few blocks to the food co-op. I love people watching, trying to figure out what someone's life is like as they walk by. Being naturally nosy, I like to eavesdrop while riding the bus. And in the city you don't have to worry about having the same old shit for dinner or lunch because you have a whole world of different foods available to you. Then there's the other part of me...
There's nothing like being in the wild, filtering some mountain water and taking that first big drink...
I dream of a small cottage in the mountains complete with a river or pond nearby and a huge organically grown garden and a front yard of wildflowers. When sleeping in the mountains, it gets so unbelievably quiet at night that it almost drives you crazy if you're not used to it. I love wildlife and being surrounded by it.
My ideal place to live is in the Snoqualime Valley in Washington State. To the East, you have the Cascades and to the west, you have Olympia and Seattle, Drive a few hours and there is Portland. It is so perfect because you have the best of all worlds. I want to raise my daughter to go camping and go to the ocean and explore tide pools. I want to take her to the city and see the different lives and cultures that abound.
That's enough rambling for today - don't you think?
By the way - I'm working on getting the Elfgirl links working. I don't know what's going on with that.
Thursday, August 24th, 2000
6:17 pm
I've been watching my half-sisters this week for some extra $$$ and being with them everyday reminds me why I intend on sticking with one child. Their ongoing chatter drives me crazy. They are just 8 so they are still in that stage where one minute they act normal the next minute they are playing pretend or whatever. I guess the reason it is getting to me is because I have been exhausted lately.
Though I did get a mean game of Oregon Trail in today - it reminds me of my elementary school days when we used to play it on an ancient black and green monitor with horrible picture quality.
I think the pixie is beginning her teething early as she has been drooling like a dog and wanting to suck, suck, suck everything. Not to mention, she kept me up last night for the first time in two weeks, fussing.
To control the time I spend on the internet, I have been sticking to a few favorites that I check on daily, those being:
husker's journal
ericka's pita
Elfgirl
Elfgirl's husband
hip mama's BB
Speaking of the Hip Mama BB, there have been child-free people coming in and posting just to start trouble and that really irks me. I mean, they have their opinions and that's fine, but don't come onto a board just to piss people off.
There are alot of things that I feel strongly about such as spaying/neutering your pets, but I don't spout my opinions off all over the place. There are more productive ways to express your beliefs.
That's all for today since I have a nice little tension headache.
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2000
9:29 am
I've been reduced to a baby-talking, noise-making baby diner and strangely enough, (for someone that didn't really want a child yet) I am enjoying it quite a bit. I am obsessed with this stuff
and going to Gymboree and Kids R Us to oogle cute little outfits for her. It was very hard to restrain from buying a hooded cable knit sweater for her yesterday but the $20.00 price tag kept me at bay considering we are at least $3000.00 in the hole at this point in time.
Monday, August 21st, 2000
12:56 pm
I'm such a softie these days - I had one beer yesterday and I caught a buzz. Sheesh, I'm turning into such an old lady.
I've got to get back to the city - I'm letting myself get road rage again here in Michigan. Everyone is either going 5-10 under the speed limit or riding my ass even though I am going at least 5 over the speed limit. I always let it annoy me to the point that I get pissed at them for driving like that. I am trying to be a good girl because I have a baby in the car. No need to provoke someone into violence.
Friday, August 18th, 2000
4:42 pm
Nothing really new to write about today. I'm still broke, still in Michigan and still worrying about those darn hospital bills.
Here's some pages to browse:
Jessamyn
various stuff in this page.
Bye now.
Wednesday, August 17th, 2000
10:40 am
Starting today on a better note.
buy some cool postcards
Stella Marrs makes the best postcards around, check them out...you won't be disappointed.
I am really, really itching to go on a road trip right now. I don't mind taking the pixie, but obviously we would have the make the proper adjustments for traveling with her. Such as no more driving for 8 to 10 hours at a time, no more sleeping in the car at rest stops, and I would have to eat better than I usually do on a trip because I am breastfeeding.
