WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS. NO TIME FOR LOSERS BECAUSE WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Go Korea!!!!! We are going all the way!!!!!!!!!!!! WE KICKED ITALY'S ASS GOOD! About fucking time that we the underdogs are winning...shite this is turning to be one of the most unpredictable and entertaining games ever!!!!

Tuesday, May 14, 2002 >> 02:03 p.m.

Min thank you for the virtual/symbol cake...it took me a few seconds...plus looking at it upside down to figure it out...then i realized you wrote what it was...sigh there goes the brain...snapped like a dry twig...hahaha

so cold...all we had was rain and more rain. why oh why can't it be sunny????? i will have to sacrifice a twinky to the sun gods....!! let there be light! i watch all of the videos that jenni gave to me...fruits basket till 21...so sad i cried..!!! why is it getting so sad??? hmmm also saw the rest of inuyasah...SOOOO COOL.... and i really like scryed, alot!!!! and i like hellsing too...need MORE!!!!!! but i think i should tone it down...hahaha...my brain is getting fried..ah so much anime so little time...

Monday, May 13, 2002 >> 01:14 p.m.

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

argh!!!! i'm getting old!!! Wait! Is that what i think it is?????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO a grey hair!!!!!!!!!!!! haha nah, not yet but i do feel the old bones giving...sigh

Thursday, April 18, 2002 >> 12:26 a.m.

I went out with some friends who i haven't seen for like 3 years...they are my church buddies...hanna, gina, and lina...and it was sooo much fun. It was like we were never seperated for that long period of time...of course things do change but i was glad that it wasn't drastic. Gina is taller than me! she used to be this little imp but now she is more quiet and reserved rather than rambunous! Lina is taller than me! (what is with kids today...? do they all take drugs?) both are my sister's age but the age difference was nothing i always got along with them....And Hanna...awww my hanna banana...she didn't change at all and i am so glad because she holds a special part in my heart and i don't want that to change...it was funny, all the quirks and antics between the four of us are still the same!

when i came home i had this big ass grin and i felt all warm and fuzzy...my sister was upset that she couldn't go. last time she saw them i wasn't there and this time around she wasn't. We plan to see each other more often and those wierdos want to go to the zoo! for the love of crumb cake...the zoo! it's to be expected...

Monday, April 8, 2002 >> 12:53 a.m.

I am PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 4, 2002 >> 06:36 p.m.

It takes a stronger person to admit and realize that we are all weak and that asking for help and understanding is something we all need to do.

Without weakness, how are we suppose to grow stronger?

Saturday, March 30, 2002 >> 02:40 a.m.

Can't sleep but i need to sleep b/c i have to go to work tomorrow...ugh dread!!!! but can't sleep b/c i think too much and i worry too much also...damn you brain!!!!! sigh don't know what to do...i need to plan and do something with my life...my mom said to me "why don't you go out with your friends anymore?" hmmm why don't i? it has been a long time since i went out with anyone...i haven't went clubbing since the summer...and back then i went constantly. i hardly find anything enjoyable anymore. shopping lost all appeal to me. i am beginning to hate my existance in this world and i am finding myself constantly frusterated with my life and everything around it. how did i end up this way? i mean the future always seemed bright before but now....i have to get out of this. i have to beat it.

Wednesday, March 27, 2002 >> 11:53 p.m.

Went out with everyone and bought a ice cream cake...we split the whole thing in 4 pieces and i'm still cold from it...and i can't believe i ate the whole thing...we didn't have any more room left in the freezer. Damn that was a huge piece of ice cream.

Wednesday, March 27, 2002 >> 12:34 a.m.

It's been awhile since i wrote in this thing...^_^ let's see do i have anything interesting to say? nah not really...so i will talk fluff...i was searching the internet and found out that you can d/l old video games..think back to the days where 8 bit systems like nintendo were cool!!!

well you can live those glory days of old by d/ling all the classics like mario bros. or paper boy hahaha so i was on the hunt for "princess tomato" and guess what i found it!!! okay you guys don't understand this is my favourite game of all time...and i literally pissed myself when i found it...^_^ my sister and i played this game when i was 12 and we always rented it from some korean video shop...and i seriously think that we were the only ones that rented it...i mean it was on the bottom shelf...everytime when went to rent a game this was it. ah the memories...so when nintendo was out and the next console came out, the video shop sold all their games...i was soooo upset...i know this sounds so cheesy but i loved that game. So i found it again!!! i phoned my sis and she had a fit!!! she really wants to play this game again..^-^ man and you can play atari!!! i mean the mother of all video games...you go 4 bit...

I also became interested in K-pop *korean pop* and i'm starting to like Fin.k.l and BoA. and i have to agree with my mom that korean singers sing better than Japanese ppl..^_^ hahaha but according to all koreans, we are better than the Japanese in everything...*rolls eyes* but man there was this joke that my dad told me and it was damn funny but sooooooo bad for Japs...i don't think i would like to tell you guys..sorry...but ahem going on...i d/led the new Fin.k.l album #4 and i really like it. BoA is a 15 year old girl that can sing in korean, chinese, japanese and english wow! but the thing that i like about korean singers..you can understand the english that they are trying to sing rather than the Japanese...it's all garbled...i mean have you ever heard a japanese singer with good english pronounciation? hahaha so unheard of..

Tuesday, March 19, 2002 >> 11:18 p.m.

I just help clean the house...phew and it was messy but we had a house check today and i think we passed *judging from the sounds downstairs*

I finally told my dad that i don't want to go to school and that i would like to take a year off but he wasn't really happy about it...and when i talked with jos today he was totally against the idea of me dropping out of school...i really don't want to but i totally utterally fucked up my year and i really don't know what to do with my life...

Thursday, March 7, 2002 >> 05:06 p.m.

Hurrah! Kiri said that she will help me with the evil grammer that i have to do for TESOL...evil grammer!!! But i got up to section 7: conjunctions...uh -_- i'm very surprised...eleven more sections to go...and damn i looked ahead and there are more verb sections...and that was the one thing that gave me the most trouble...so kiri you might recieve a desperate plea for help very soon...@_@

on a different note, since i will not be going to korea...long story...my friend jos asked if i would like to go to cancun with him in the summer...uh hello?? I WOULD LOVE TO GO THERE!!! wow blue water and white sand...nice...but $$$ is going to be the reigning factor in deciding my fate...sob who i hate and love thee money...

plus he wants to hook me up on a blind date...ugh...but more on that later....

Tuesday, March 5, 2002 >> 09:22 p.m.

god damn i'm one tired bitch...i have been doing my tesol grammer thingy and they don't really explain things very well so i was trying to answer questions involving verbs and such and i still don't get it...grammer was never my strong point...i'm all tense and cramped....yuck

Monday, February 25, 2002 >> 09:25 p.m.

Tall, dark, and RUGGEDLY handsome!

Sunday, February 24, 2002 >> 11:59 p.m.

CANADA YOU ROCK!!!!! yahoo we rule the ice...in your face USA we totally kicked ass...

ahem now that is out of the way...that has to be one of the best games i have even seen...i mean it was soooo cool at the persistant charging that the canadian team did to the usa team. they just coming at them with all there might,...the women's and men's got gold!!! how is that for amazing???? 50 years and finally gold!!!!! GO CANADA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, February 22, 2002 >> 11:21 p.m.

Jen I'm sorry if you think all i do is lecture you on not taking care of yourself but i hate to see you this way...i get really upset and angry about it. Your not stupid. But i'm totally confused as why you wouldn't ask your parents for money and eat...damn your misplaced pride...

as for your brother's comment...jen, you're lovely and your bro should keep his advice to himself, it's not like he is god's gift to women either...!!! when you get your groove back you can go back to being a sleek slvete goddess, okay?! it's not like it's impossible, just look at the ppl that lost 300 pounds for god's sake! but anyways please give me a call, i need to talk to you about something else...

uh to anyone else reading this, nothing much new...was the queen of laziness during reading week. nothing was done and was not productive...that is all..^-^

Thursday, February 14, 2002 >> 06:55 p.m.

Happy Valentine's Day to all the single people out there...me included...^-^ for some dumb reason i thought it was yesterday...well that's what happens when you haven't had a boyfriend for many years...ah the sad life of singledom *grins*

Thursday, February 14, 2002 >> 12:03 a.m.

but on a side note i got to see jenni and we went out and did "normal" stuff...and for a day i felt normal....

Wednesday, February 13, 2002 >> 11:49 p.m.

*sigh* why is everyone so sad all the time...well not 24/7 but it seems that everyone has a crappy life or issue that is bothering them...i look around me and all i see is my friends sad, depressed, upset etc. and it saddens me because i keep on wondering if the hurting will ever stop?

i'm not satisfied with my life at all and i have many regreats and i wonder if i will get out of this funk that i have been in for four bloody years. for heavens sake is it too much to ask for some stability in my life? where have the carefree days gone to?? *jebus that sounds so dumb* but nothing really makes me happy and yes jenni not even clothes, they only give me a false high...nothing more...i once though art was the one true passion in my life but now i'm not too sure...i find no joy or satisfaction in everything i do...sure it sounds as if i was better off dead but i'm one of those ppl who won't give up until i find the "true meaning" of my life but so far i have not been successful..i want to live but i don't know where to start or how to start...i forgot how to be happy. so i wouldn't even recognize if i was happy even if it slapped me in the face...

Wednesday, February 13, 2002 >> 01:10 a.m.

jenni is home yay hoo for me...now i can see her...we are going shopping and eating and stuff like normal ppl and be free and happy...^^ we talked for a long time on icq about the incident with her roommates and i came to the conclusion that i will trip one of them and put sugar in the gas tank of the other, we decided that there are laws that protect ppl from murder...so i couldn't kill them...but i can hurt them....^____^

i got really pissed off with the fact that those shit heads take her food and they don't even give her any????

stella: for fucks sake why the hell is joe taking your lamen?
Jen: Yeah...they both eat my cup ramen...and I really don't care...but I found one in his room he was keeping for himself.
Stella: NONONONONONOOOOO you go and take that back...you ate dried up old rice for gods sake and they dare take your food????? *breathes fire* WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY DOING???? you have no money and they take what little food you have ...well no friggen way...

that's not even the highlight of our conversation...just wait and read the part where i go insane..o.O

Jen: Yeah...she ate more of the gim than me...that is why whenever I made rice in the rice cooker, it wouldbe gone. And they would never tell me and I would think I didn't need to make more rice...and they never made any rice to replace what they ate...
Stella: THEN FUCK HER!!! eat some of her food and if she throws it in your face...then tell her that she was a fucken pig when she ate all your food that your mother made for you and that if she is going to be a stingy bastard and count every morsel eaten then tell her you are making up for lost time...if she is going to be that way you be that way back to her...
Jen: x.x;; Stella. You are scary
Stella: now i'm really mad!!!!!!!!!!! i want to take a bit out of her fat behind..!! okay you get up NOW and eat some of her damn food and if she questions anything...fuck no don't reply just say you are going home and some changes are going to be made with the way that they take advantage of your generous nature...no more sharing.!!!!!/ they can just kiss your yellow ass and tell them to buy there own kim....
Jen: O_O;; Umm...ok. No more sharing. ^^;;/Yeah...guess I am too nice...
stella: YOU ARE TOOO FUCKEN NICE *ahem but that is why i love you * but who needs them as friends *shit NO MORE SHARING *REPEAT AFTER ME!* I MEAN IT if i find out that they take even a drop of your food i'm going to have words with them and they aren't going to very nice ones...also i bet 99% there will be the word "fuck" in it...especially to ash the fat face bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!! / AND YOU DAMN RIGHT I'M SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stella: so when can we kill them?
Jen: too illegal
Stella: awwww shite...well at least let me trip on of them down the stairs and put sugar in the tank for the other...
Jen: Sugar in the gas tank would really piss off Joe. ^_^ Its funny but...right now, I am more mad at Joe than Ashley. I was almost expecting Ashley to be cruel to me...but not Joe. So when he was mean to me this week...it hurt more. Am I making sense?
Stella: NO THAT THEY TAKE YOU DAMN FOOD AND WON'T FUCKEN SHARE THEIRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more ramen, kim bap, bap in general or gim....nothing nada zip...good bye , sayanara ,adios...don't let the door hit you as you leave...kiss ass fuckers...
STella: yes you are. sooooooo SUGAR IT IS FOR JOE AND TRIPPING FOR ASHLEY OKAY YOSH!!!!!!!!! *cracks knuckles * let's do it...
Jen: *hugs* You so funny

so it's settled i will hurt those fuckers and NOBODY messes with my sister/best friend or they will suffer the consequences big time...okay now don't be afraid of me i'm quite nice...but when i'm pissed...^_^

Thursday, February 7, 2002 >> 02:24 p.m.

Which drink are you?

Wednesday, February 6, 2002 >> 09:38 p.m.

HOLY SHIT I HAD TO WRITE THIS EXTRA POST!!! i was checking out that tracker thingy that jenni set up for me and i got a search with the words "little girl giving daddy head"!!! argh that is sick man...and some ppl are perverted...i mean that is some nasty shite....and these ppl can't spell..twice they and someone else wrote "litte" for shits sake get it right..!!! ewwww i feel dirty and defiled...*scrubs skin*

Wednesday, February 6, 2002 >> 09:28 p.m.