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ByeBye pitas.
wing SPEEDED at 01:53 p.m.
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Down on my knees
Nowadays, I start to look arnd my surroundings more often. Wondering if they'll change in 4 years time. I start to think of all my frens more often. Wondering if we'll still have the same connection that we once shared 4 years ago. I start to appreciate my family more. Wondering if they'll miss me and let me leave with a light heart.
There are so many things that i want to say to the impt ppl in my life. Yet i cannot when everyone does not seem to want to know. Do all of you not sense the urgency in me? Or have i disguise it too well.
And to a particular one. I have tried not to be upset with u but i cannot help it. You are repeating the same thing when u have told me that you would not do it again. Those few times when i called u,u didn't bother to ask me what was wrong. We have become so distant that you cannot sense the desperation in my tone already?
The world out there is a disappointing one. However, i can still find beauty in it from little snippets of my life. All i need is that amount of care and love from family and friends.
Can someone, anyone reach out and pull me back before i fall into complete darkness again?
wing SPEEDED at 09:22 a.m.
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
A-Izu....k?
YIPEE! He's playing on the field for the next match! I'm damn happy! Very Very Nice guy :)
But thinking back bout the previous incident- it's like so paiseh.*Gulps*
Anws, met up with Can on Mon. It was great meeting her,haven't talk like for ages. Hey can! If u'll reading this, do keep me updated of ya decision k?
Boo.Hoo. I haven't gotten any news from both sides. Think i've make up my mind enuff. Oh yes, I'm really surprised that ppl do read my blog?! Like how funny. Thought the only ppl who visit are the ones who tag. Hmmm.
wing SPEEDED at 02:36 p.m.
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Monday, April 11, 2005
'Iii-Zuk?'
AHH...My heart has swayed.
*grinz*
wing SPEEDED at 09:34 a.m.
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Tuesday, April 5, 2005
If you'll wondering...
I wan to puke. Literally. Head's spinning round. Don't feel well, not at all. It's not that i don't want to eat, but I can't. Food consumed yesterday night felt like someone stuffed tissues down my throat.Oh shit. What's happening.
Yes, so the pressure built up these 2 days. Finally, I let it out and broke down yesterday. I'm so confused. Called a fren, fren's not free. Called another fren- she gave me some advice, and i'm thankful for it. Let's hope i know what to do when the time comes.
Was on the MRT ride alone this morning. It's pretty interesting how much u can see.
Example 1:Sitting opposite of me was a woman-sleeping so soundly that she's gonna lend on the shoulder of the guy beside her. I could sense awakardness. When the guy left, she subconsciously turned to lend on another guy at the other side. Yours truly thus speculates that she is a very dependant woman.
Example 2:A child holding the hands of her mother. Eyes wandering and searching, just like me. Taking in all that u can see and trying to understand why the world's like that.
Example 3:Geeky guy, spotting a side parting and 'oh too nicely' gelled hair. He had on a pair of round rimmed spectacles. Pants were far too short for him. Kinda reminded me of 'Bubblemunche' ya know? Anws, he was literally curled up like a cat at the farthest end of the seat. I could see a tinge of smile tugging at the sides of his mouth. Probably dreaming of something pleasant. BAM! Back to reality, u wonder how much humility and teasing he has to suffer from others because of his geekiness. He's not ugly. All he needs is for the new ChannelU show to spot him and undergo a makeover. But I'm sure he's a very nice guy. I mean, nerdy guys are usually nice right?
K. That's bout it. I stoned the whole way to YCK after that.
wing SPEEDED at 08:59 a.m.
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Thursday, March 31, 2005
Sleepin Monster
I have nothing much to do and am goin bonkers. It's funny how I'm so bored that i start reading thru my own blog and the feeling's jus so wierd. Bleahs.
K. I'm just goin to ramble nonsensically, probably spotting lots of run-on sentances and gramatically unsound words.
Applications are almost done. I look around, frens around me have decided too. Yea, I have decided too. But why don't i feel a sense of satisfaction? A lingering fear still hides deep in my heart. A fear for my lack of ability.
Read thru many blogs of people whom I don't really know. Their lives seemed pretty screwed too no? In comparsion, I don't have such a bad life. I'm not saying life's bad for me now. That period's over. With all the earthquakes going on in the world, don't others lose more? their homes, families and lives...? I still have those. I'm fortunate.
Ok.Sai.I really have no clue what I'm talkin.My eyelids are getting kinda heavy too. On the other hand, in bout' 10 mins time, I'm goin to laugh at anything and everything. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
I love this pic!!! so SWEET! *gushes*
wing SPEEDED at 03:35 p.m.
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Monday, March 28, 2005
-Sotong Princess-
I bombed 80 bucks on friday. But,i'm happy with the stuff i brought! Found a shirt that's like so me! It has a 'sotong' on the front wearing a crown. So that *ahems!* makes me a "Sotong Princess". May I emphasize the word "Princess". LA-DI-DA! Had a great day with San. Great plans ahead on wed and sat!
Finally drag my ass off to RELC on sat. The counsellor was erm, kinda funny in a queer way, but still managed to raise certain good points. Submitted my application and I'll probably get my reply within 2 weeks. It's kinda funny, but my heart seem to stray towards there at some point of time. Oh well, I'll make my decision when the time finally comes. On the other hand, yesterday night, I dreamt that I couldn't go anywhere for my university study. Scary stuff, I tell u.
Met Lynn at Bugis on sun. It was good meeting up with her since it's been some time. Thanks for da concern from Ada and Lynn. I know u 2 care. :)
K. Going off-track again- Was at Kino and found this Football Book. It's really neat! Has all the famous players and teams around the whole world. There's ronaldo. I like! However, the sad part bout' it is that S-league is BARELY mentioned inside. Oh well. I'm still supporting Albirex. Haha!
wing SPEEDED at 11:03 a.m.
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Monday, March 21, 2005
F-O-R-E-V-E-R Love
Woo!What can I say man...seeing him in real life!goodness!Very gd xian4 chang3. But sad-ed, I didn't get to say my 'add oil' cos he looked so shagged and blur. SUPER SHUAI LA!
The stage!
Customised balloon frm his fanclub that i secretly didn't let go and 'kope' home.muahahah.
Ahhh...finally singing.
Nice profile.
Candid shot!hoho.I like the expression there baby.
Photos-courtesy of xiu.
And not forgetting my meeting with zhong1 dao3 yi4 sheng1 on thurs!ah what can I say....surreal.
That's him ok.
I'm still suffering from adverse effects.hah.
wing SPEEDED at 09:18 a.m.
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
OK LO...
I'm such a contradicting ass. oh wells, it's really complicated. Talking to san yesterday has made me realise that I'm in a dilemma that nobody can help me with. Ever got that feeling that ur inner desire is telling u to go ahead with doing what u actually feel like doing but what comes out of ur mouth is to say 'no' to everything? baa baa...
Nobody understands me.So u out there!don't tell me u understand me, cos i don't even understand myself! siao. The previous incident left a deep deep scar in my life. Nobody can mend it. at least, not at this moment. At that point of time, perhaps I ONLY had my mummy. But of cos, I must give credit to some ppl out there who tried. I know who u r and ur care and concern is deeply appreciated. *ain't i starting to prove my point of self-contradiction?* On the other hand, some ppl have disappoint me so much.
The thought of goin to another country for 3/4 years really scares me. However, can't say that in front of my parents can i? They'll probably worry every living moment of their life. Financial matters would definitely be a huge problem. A fren told me that i could go there and pick apples and i'll probably earn say....S$1000 per mth?*got so much meh?* At least it helps in my monthly allowance.
K. On a happier note, i'm seeing Farran today!
wing SPEEDED at 08:52 a.m.
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Tuesday, March 8, 2005
Fallen'
There's no need to try to be happy. And I don't want to be happy. It's no use trying to assure myself. It's just how it is. Ironically, i'll happily shut myself out from the rest of the world.
I'm a pessimist. Don't tell me bout' the beauty and hope of life. Don't try to ask me anything.
wing SPEEDED at 09:20 a.m.
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Monday, February 28, 2005
-empty-
It's the 4th time already.
Argh!Digustingly frightening.
wing SPEEDED at 09:04 a.m.
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
bababoo
Quiz from Darling's blog(www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/profiler)
Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 50% Visual : 50% Left : 44% Right : 55%
Huiying, you are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."
You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.
You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.
The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.
In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot under- stand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.
To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frus- trated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"
On another note, this morning, while i was on the mrt, saw a guy with the same hairstyle as my lao gong!shuai shuai. And he was super nice too! Gave up his seat to an old grandma. SOoooo sweet! :)
wing SPEEDED at 08:56 a.m.
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
keep rollin'
Highlight!-I dreamt of my lao gong this morning!yesyes!Ok, it's not very exciting but i remember feeling really excited cos he smiled at me!k la...just a smile but i'm in pure bliss can :)
Took the bus to the interchange this morning and suddenly thought of a certain event that happened when i was young. I attended a group tuition when i was pri5. One fine day, a pleasant enuff looking girl(never judge a book by it's cover) sat beside me and decided she was going to make my time at tuition a living hell. Ok, not so kua zhang but gosh!she was noisy, bossy and arrogant. Big deal la, u'll the head prefect and often drink tea with the P, your results are fantastic. so why the hell are u taking tuition?!SIAO.
In the end,poor me had to entertain her nonsense making me realise group tuition didn't helped in my grades. This has taught me to stand up for my rights and firmly assert my erm,freedom to choose not to be nice to people like tat.
Ok. i'm glad i was not at work yesterday after hearing wat mrs wu said. i'll probably roll my eyes out of it's sockets.that would have been hideous.yucks.
U know, i realise i am not a nice person. But on second thoughts, i don't know if everybody feels the way i do. hey, everyone's entitled to their own critics and rantings yea?
wing SPEEDED at 09:43 a.m.
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Monday, February 14, 2005
Crunch Crunch
Now, is it me or did i see more twosome(s) this morning? So couples choose to show more affection and love on this day huh. "honey,today's valentine's day, can u send me to work?"
Now, get out of my sight, u pesky couples. You don have to show the whole world u'll so in love with ur identical shirt and bag.Wat's with all the PDA going on??nauseating if u ask me. Hmm...don't i just sound like a jealous old spinster? Nah...it's the truth. but on the other hand, yours truly is happy to have the affections of a certain mr wang. :)
Ok.Happy Valentine's Day.
Chinese new year's not over.Anyone inviting me to their house to bai nian? I gladly oblige.
wing SPEEDED at 09:20 a.m.
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Friday, February 4, 2005
Check dis out!
I'm happy! Despite the episode yesterday, I've recovered with 'lee hom' therapy and a good lunch today.
Days of surfing the net has helped in my collection of pictures.wheee~ I shall be benevolent and let all of u feast ur eyes on my lao gong!Muahaha.Enjoy!
Here goes:
Once upon a time, there was a 'wang2 shao4',
Who became this:
Wow...Big difference!
Probably due to the carbohydrates and fats that Macs provide, since eating Mac has never been so appealing!(haha!)
To see is to believe: the inner desire of guys to 'act cute'
*gushes* Wang Shao turns to Wang Zi!
And here's Wang Tai and her hubby wishing all a HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
wing SPEEDED at 02:27 p.m.
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Wednesday, February 2, 2005
Xing Zuo
HoHoHo, official announcement, I declare wang lee hom as my 'Wang zi'!pun!pun!pun!tralala~
Ways to make and see a Happy Wing!
1.Love her
2.Give her some chocolate(it really works!proven hypothesis)
3.Smile at her
4.tell her she's wang tai
5.Blast her with leehom's music
6.Allow her to indulge in silly acts and theories.
7.Msg her toopid stuff!deprived of it currently!
8.Elephant!
9.Pigs with wings!
10.Love her *grinz*
Yeap Yeap Yeap. Little gestures do mean alot to me. I accept all care, love and concern.Muahaha!
Eh, was that too self-centred? nvm la, u'll know what i'm talking bout right?
wing SPEEDED at 08:57 a.m.
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
-Ri Yue-
Have i mentioned that life's boring?? when is my leehom coming?!Come come come!
ok.I found this at some msngroup.It's what leehom wrote!(at least i hope that it's really him) it's qt enlighting.Feel inspired! :)
Dear Friends, It's been a long time since I wrote to you last.So much has happened, so little has happened, but right now, I am in shock from the news of my good friend Leslie.I'm not sure what to do right now, who to talk to, so I'm writing this letter, to my diary.
It is so important that we tell one another how much we love them.Each person that we meet in life is a chance coincidence, and a unique encounter.Each person that we meet in life is a living, breathing, loving human being. We often forget that dimension, don't we? It's easier for us to categorize people and see their surfaces only, as suits and ties, as record company staff, as fans, as stars, as Americans, as Iraqis.
We are all the same.We are all so weak and vulnerable, lonely, and sad.We are all twisted and sick, misunderstood and in pain. Yet we live for those moments of parting clouds and warm smiles.I believe that each encounter with another human being is a chance to create these moments, and am more convinced today than ever, that "breaking the ice" and disarming our fellow human beings of their fears and isolation is the key to letting us live in harmony.We should all be able to be ourselves, and connected at the same time.
Leslie was beautiful, rich, talented, successful...we all adored him.I can't imagine why he would, of all people, feel the desire to end that life.Yet at the same time, I can.It's so easy to fall so subtly down into that black hole, to get consumed by the darkness, and before you realize what has happened, you're trapped inside.We all know the darkness.It comes and it takes a hold of you like you haven't even got a say in the matter.It controls you.
Every time I end up there, I am luckily pulled out by something, anything, and lo, I wake up as if from a dream. The darkness is gone without a trace, and I'm free.And in retrospect, I always find it funny how simple and easy it was to get out. It is simple, and a lot simpler, when you have people who are with you in your life.I'm not just talking about a wife, or a girlfriend, but more so about the guy who works the counter at the 7 eleven, the taxi driver, the guy behind me in line at customs...Each is a chance to help each other stay free and in touch with ourselves, to nourish the living, breathing, loving human beings inside the superficial shells of our bodies.Each is an opportunity for a parting cloud.
We come into this world alone.We leave alone.But in the meantime, we are here together.Let's try and function like a network, a team, a family, and communicate with one another, because each of us is a part of the whole. These are my thoughts one day after Leslie took his own life.
Leehom
wing SPEEDED at 09:09 a.m.
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
10 things i hate.
Right. something spurred me to think bout the top 10 things that ticks and pisses me off. and I feel like bitching.
*(in order of hatredness)
1.Accusations(don't u ever accuse me. i'll bite ur head off )
2.Ppl who make empty promises
3.Hypocrites and Liars
4.Jealousy
5.Inconsiderate and unpoliteness.(frigging spare a thot for others.)
6.Smokers who smoke right into my face(u can bloody hell go and die.)
6.bad smell
7.women with big hair and tons of makeup
8.Being stepped on and pushed
9.Ppl thrusting something into my face
10.Insects
Now, all i have to do is make sure I don't commit some of these henious crimes. And if u happen to be an insect or someone who sounds like wat i'm describing....
BACK OFF!!! i repeat, BACK OFF. go back to ur pathetic hole.
wing SPEEDED at 09:08 a.m.
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Monday, January 24, 2005
All u poor souls out there...
OK.so it was a long weekend. Anyways, SAT was....let's not talk bout it. cos i have absolutely *zlich zero* feeling bout it. But considering the fact tat there was an extra maths section, it'll be better?I don know.
Weekend was spent shopping. Brought some stuff that i wanted and am qt happy. yay! But i want more shopping trips!shop till i drop, shop till my wallet gets exhausted.yeaaap.
I feel like being a meanie.(see my title?)commenting on every frigging detail in life.I feel cynical and sadistic. (muahaha) But ok, i shall control this desire and keep it within myself.
I think i need a life. tat is a Social life. SO BORING. Quick! Quick! when is lee hom coming to s'pore??? *haha.tat's some "social life"* Anw, jus brought this toro book at a special offer, it's really qt cheap.(nyek nyek nyek! all u diehard fans out there of toro mus be damn gek)ok, yes, so i was reading his autobio, and i manage to understand wat toro was talking bout.( yay!considering it's in chi!) It's pretty interesting actually. Had a good laugh at some of the pics he took. And yes, may i add tat he's really cute too. :P
I'm reading up on Mozart so if anyone's reading this, wells...u'll learn something bout Mozart.
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart: born Salzburg,27 Jan 1756; died Vienna, 5 Dec 1791.Showed musical gifts at a very early age, composing when he was five and when he was six playing before the Bavarian elector and the Austrian empress.
In 1782 Mozart embarked on the composition of piano concertos, so that he could appear both as composer and soloist. He wrote 15 before the end of 1786, with early 1784 as the peak of activity. They represent one of his greatest achievements, with their formal mastery, their subtle relationships between piano and orchestra (the wind instruments especially) and their combination of brilliance, lyricism and symphonic growth.
At his death from a feverish illness whose precise nature has given rise to much speculation (he was not poisoned), he left unfinished the Requiem, his first large-scale work for the church since the c Minor Mass of 1783, also unfinished; a completion by his pupil Süssmayr was long accepted as the standard one but there have been recent attempts to improve on it. Mozart was buried in a Vienna suburb, with little ceremony and in an unmarked grave, in accordance with prevailing custom.
*Sad life for such a great musician.*
wing SPEEDED at 10:18 a.m.
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Monday, January 17, 2005
-phone!-
I got a new phone. Yeap, finally. flood my inbox!!it's so empty now. *sobz*
FREE INCOMING..so feel free to call me ok.
ok, so when i went to buy the phone, this salesman tended to me.(he's pretty young i presume, with spiked hair and everything)ok, so he was asking me what i want for my phone(rambling off bout mms, mp3 yadayada..) and i went 'no no no...' until he said 'bluetooth',then i got stumped. HAHA. I went like 'HUH wat's tat??' but being someone who ai mian zi, I said 'no' too. OK. have i been living in a cave these past few mths or wat.
Yikes, i don like my life now. feel tired and sick of work. it's boring. Issues revolving arnd my mind,yet to be approached and solved. I was thinking, mayb i've been too honest and straight with my frenz bout what i feel. All along, i thought this is a gd idea, to come up front and face problems. Maybe i was wrong. Mayb i should try hiding everything and pretend that nothing ever happened and get on with life.
Talked to someone this weekend, and realise that perhaps best friends are the people that will disappoint and hurt u the most. Mayb i've expect too much frm my best frenz hence the problems. But is it wrong to do that? Don't we tend to expect more frm the people closest to u?
Right. So there's only how much i can do for others and myself. Sometimes i'm just too tired. Forget being a friend and forget being all nice and friendly. Who's going to be nice and appreciative anyway. yea, so i'm not a nice person, i need to get my rewards perhaps. All that crap bout not asking more than u give? it doesn't work for me, at least not now defidnately.
Just random musings. Seems like i'm drowning myself in self-pitifulness. Too bored, so i tend to think too much. Mayb i should stop thinking, once and for all.
wing SPEEDED at 09:40 a.m.
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Friday, January 14, 2005
-ZZzzz-
Reading the vocab words is soporific.
yay.see i learnt something.
wing SPEEDED at 09:49 a.m.
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
-acbb-
It's amazing how i woke up and thought of u on the morning bus.Staring blankly into the space in front of me and pondering on what has happened between us.
You don't even bother do you? Do u even know what has happened to me these past few months? Why did u act nochalant and bimbotic when you told me that you don like to be this way? It's so sad to see u evole into a 'creature' like that.It's disgusting in fact. Makes me want to throw up. Are looks and money the only things in ur life now? do friendships not matter anymore? what u told me in the past, BULLSHIT.
All i wanted of you was to show some concern and initiative. But u even lost the basic courtesy of being polite and considerate. When I saw you the last time, you just seemed so far, so distant, i can't reach out to you anymore.
So, are you telling me that things are just going to end like tat? If you'll willing to take the first step, i'm ready to forgive and forget everything. cos you jus mean a bit too much in my life.
I hope you see this. I really hope u do.
Human beings: complex creatures. if i ever have a choice, i wouldn't want to be one.
wing SPEEDED at 09:23 a.m.
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
-entertainment-
I'm still dwelling on my stolen hp.(but it's fading.)haha
ok, back by popular demand.
so i'm suppose to entertain yx and jas?
ermz,ok.share with u a simple theory i came up with. If u have problems like being 'vertically challenged',the remedy to it MAY BE to SLEEP MORE. see, if u sleep, u'll not adding pressure to ur legs so that may encourage a better growth. :)
According to Dr Fab, he speculated that when the clock strikes 12am on the eve of New Year,jump as high as u can!!!then u'll attain ur ideal height.(oh wells, all u peeps out there have to wait for the next yr to come, which is a very long wait.) do try it out!
There's all for today.Hope u have learn something new.
The word of the day is: COCO-DILE. *plays sesame street song*
wing SPEEDED at 04:27 p.m.
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Monday, January 10, 2005
-lousy weekend-
SUCKS.
wat the hell, my wallet and hp got stolen by some asshole.freaking bloody idiot.He/she can go and choke on fishbones, fall down the drain or get bitten by rats and cockroaches.
Now, i'm really broke.the freaking idiot took away my pocket money for this week.If you know me and feel injustice for me, CURSE HIM.(or her)
But i'm damn sad.
wing SPEEDED at 09:11 a.m.
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Saturday, January 8, 2005
-turqoise, i wan-
my com is not working.it's irritating me.A LOT. so now, i'm resorting to using my bro's com.he hasn't come back.haha
did i mention i love my new layout?ok..yea,that's enough.anw, frm wat linz told me, make ur 7 mths a fufiling one. so i tried. and other than working, i decided to take up lessons again.YEAP.Pretty excited but i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to perservere in the long run. So..if u know wat i'm talking bout, pls pls pls tell me to perservere and not be lazy!
went for ntu talk today.suddenly, i feel like i have something in mind.actually, i already have in mind the path that i want to walk, but it's really vague.and to be honest, i'm not very confident of myself. anw, keeping tat aside, i was pretty satisfied and happy with my choice. but..BAM! when i went home and talk bout it with my parents, my dad had to disapprove and put me down. freaking pissed. sometimes, i feel like screaming at him "FOR FREAKING GOD'S SAKE, IT'S MY LIFE.LET ME DO WAT I LIKE TO DO AND WANT TO DO. EVEN IF U DON APPROVE, AS A FATHER, SUPPORT ME!AND NOT BE A WET BLANKET." it feels terrible.k..i've got no mood again.
I want to know wat i wan.period.
I think the world is very sad. maybe cos i jus watched a sad drama and cried.then i thot of the tsunami victims and felt sadness rush over me again. I think i need someone to sit me down and talk. but nobody's free.
wing SPEEDED at 09:20 p.m.
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Friday, January 7, 2005
wat say u?
YIPEE!!!!!
I love my new template!!!it's so so so nice! now, everyday, i get to see my ahem 'husband'.Muahaha!ok..i think some ppl out there wants to beat me up already.but i'm happy.
A BIG THANK YOU to TADPOLE HONG!!!I'm so proud of u!!!and a small THANK YOU to wanying(wu taitai)!for choosing the pics! :)*see!i thanked u in public*
I'm proud of myself!haha..haven't been able to squeeze out time to slack these few days.got qt a lot of stiff to do at times. Oh wells.I saw the guy frm 'xi ling men' again yest!he's qt gd looking, that kind of chiselled look.but too short!muahaha!
oh so sad, something not so nice happened yest.thank god weimei was there or else i'll have burst into tears on the spot. thank you so mucchhh gal!(thou we met for like 15 mins but it was enuff to make me feel better)
anw,gd luck to fab and dan in NS!haha!i'll miss ur hair!
wing SPEEDED at 01:11 p.m.
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
reflections
yay!finally my server is working,i hope.been qt irritated with it recently.
Anyways, the year is coming to an end.It's time for me to reflect on it.haha..thou i don usually write it down for the whole world to see, but wells, i'm kinda bored now.
with the A-levels gone, it's a huge relief. not thining bout how i would fare at this moment, rather not make myself worry at this point of time. 2 years of college life, i can't say it has been totally bad, there were very happy moments and memories that still brings about a smile onto my face. However, bad things are bound to happen too. can still rem how much i struggled in the 1st year, being all new to the sch environment, having to start frm scratch and knowing no one in school except for 2 friends.
2004 has taught me a lot.how to appreciate and learn from my mistakes. I can't say i'm almost perfect. i've got a lot of bad habits and traits that i know ain't too good. And i'm thankful to those beside me who are able to tolerate 'this me.' Certain friends have helped me a lot throughtout this journey and i'm truly grateful for them. Because of these people, it has not made my life in nj a living hell. i remember a point of time where i was totally disgusted with everything in the school, hated the teachers the people, everything! But i soon learn to get over it and get on with life.It wouldn't help if i can only feel hatred anw.
I learn to appreciate the effort put in from the teachers. Right frm the bottom of my heart, i'm ever so thankful to ms chan,my fav. mr tsang(haha), ms ting, mr barber, mr d.lee and mrs poon. Especially during the A levels period, they did so so much more than i could ask for.I'm jus hoping that I don't let them down, my parents and most imptly, myself.
yes, and how could i forgot my fabulous class-03A01!Didn't had much of a good impression on the class right at the beginning, maybe bcuz i'm new.but ya..things warmed up and everyone's really friendly and nice. Even though i would be 'hi and bye friends' or even strangers with some of my classmates, but they have left footsteps in my life which i wouldn't forget.
There's ailin:my ever reliable fren,always being able to understand me,maly:the only one who listens to my funny theories and taught me 'satu,duo...',layz:the gal who i will go crazy with when both of us are in our lame moods making lin and maly cringe. my darling aka alexis: with her chirpy and cheery mood always making me smile, beat:your 'miss yous' are so sweet and i luv tat 'elmo' laughter! sharon: stone!the funny gal who do funny things at times, and always asking me to grow taller. biquan: always making funny faces and having a pack of sweets ready to offer. joanne:the 'green freak', who's superrr lucky at everything. siim ann: the 'so exciting!' pharse i still rem.haha. yanrong:her generousity to always offer her hse for our gatherings and those funny things u say out of the blue.sam: thank god for u and beat during gp class in yr1 or i'll hav died of boredom.your 'crush' on *ahem* kinda tickles me too..heh. xiuz:yesyes..i'll rem the bananas!b1 and b2!u have been great company.yay!we both lov lee hom and *MATHS* ya!
Hah..and of cos the lame guys in class.fabian:long legs!how's the air up there? ur gg made an impact!and of cos, u were the one that started calling me 'wing!'ha!junlin: the bao qing tian face i'll rem ya!hah..and the crappiest things come out of ur mouth. jerry: ya..always trying to bully me.but..haha, u'll kinda vertically challenged too!daniel: the pretty 'gal'?! muahaha...but i think u'll very brotherly. robbin: ur winnie the pooh bear keychain on ur bag is the ultimate! and u taught me how to play 'little fighters' on the sch com!zheng yu: with ur chi books on things like travelling and cooking! amir: hitler!ha...going germany?! yea..u'll always asking funny qns. doug: ur ever-famous 'hair and jokes tat i er..don't really get it.
yeap, u guys have been fabulous most of the time and i'm glad all of u were my classmates instead of some other ppl. Let's keep in touch and rock on~
And Zq, it's nice talking to u on our bus journeys. ur funny-looking expressions always marvel me.harhar...betcha didn't know tat huh.yup!and my choir clique:elite,part-timer,xu cen,traitor and kangli, luvvvvvvv our shopping trips and dinners and lunches or watever. loads of crap and more crap!i know we'll keep in touch.yay!
and of cos my bestest bud right frm sec1:san!!!! i don know if u'll read this gal, but i wanna tell u i loveeee u so muchhhhhh!!! thou it's impossible that u'll always be there for me when i need u, but i know u always try ur best. ur little quotes and msgs are really sweet and meaningful.I know u appreciate me jus as much as i appreciate u frm the things u do! over our many stupid arguements, our friendship grew stronger and i know it will continue for as long as we can hold on.:) ur dumb conversations are really entertaining and the silly things we do are really memorable. i wanna be ur bridesmaid when u get married k! muacksss!
if anyone's reading this, hope ur 2004 has been a good and reflective one too!i know mine has.
wing SPEEDED at 10:16 p.m.
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Friday, December 24, 2004
-slacking in da office-
hi ada!
yesyes!the fab lunch.what more can i say, it was fabulous!I'm really touched and happy for the effort u guys put in.the food was great, the company was great!i really miss all of u so muchhhh.haha...it was the gathering of the SOTONG SECT-with the sect leader,elite,traitor and part-timer.good old fun.simple yet sweet. I love the card too(thanks elite!)
I met up with my darling and zhutou the other night at newton too!haha!nice supper-with all the food u shouldn't eat for fear of getting fat.but oh wells.thanks for the top!!!wondeful too! haha...very personalised. :)
had a xmas dinner at yr's hse yest. it was super cool!i've never ate such a 'christmassy' dinner b4.there was turkey and ham!it was really gd.(thanks jerry's mum)muahah!yeap...good ol' fun.
having fun right now, with all the gatherings and xmas spirit kicking in. but somewhere..lurking in my mind, there's fear.eeks.oh wells. I still feel empty and incomplete.issues i haven't face and handled.
wing SPEEDED at 10:59 a.m.
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Thursday, December 16, 2004
Yipee Ya Ya
HaHa..it's my bday today!I ought to wish myself Happy Birthday.Anyway, thanks to all those that remembered and bothered to send me wishes. I really appreciate and am thankful for it.Means a lot! Considering that it's super hard for ppl to remember especially during the holis.
Had a pleasant surprise bday celebration frm my frenz at work.Thanks a lot too!though we only got to know each other for 5 days.hah!Hmmm...and I think Mr Wee is a pretty nice guy as long as I don make any mistakes.*cross fingers*
But my day didn't start out as perfectly. Er...almost got knock down by a taxi in the morning the moment i step out of the house.(-_-") so sickening.lousy driver...don know how to drive!it was at a zebra crossing!how dare he....ok ya.
So sad....and i realise that my best buddy seemed to be forgetting me.It didn't use to be that way. right now, she seems preoccupied with her own stuff only...like not able to get a job she likes. :( I mean, not that I'm asking for much, but we were supposed to be best buddies! Yet, she doesn't seem to give a damn of what's going on in my life.hmph...so sad.
Oh wells, what can i do. Anyways, I have decided. My dream guy must be someone of the same calibre as Lee Hom!!!yes yes! someone who knows how to play at least one musical instrument, sing fairly well with lots of talent!haha...well, I did say 'dream' guy.
Haha..ok.I really love my family!My mummy daddy and idiotic brother! :) Realise that family might just be the only ones that will follow u all the way through your life. Frenz and lovers? They come and go.I think it's just a matter of how long they last.I think.Anyway, nothing's proving me wrong on my theory.
Last note before i end off: I think smurfs are sooooo cute!!! Auzzy and Rovey Rox!
wing SPEEDED at 08:41 p.m.
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Corporate Support Officer
haha! ok..I'm lagging.but yea, prom was alright.had some fun after tat.it's hard to say. haha!
ok so i started work on monday.the title above is what i'm called!haha...sounds super cool.but yea, i'm jus simply a temp, to put it simply. work was really boring on the 1st day. learn some stuff on the second.and yea...my 'boss' is rumored to be bloody fierce...and proving the point-he fired a temp this morning. :x anyways,the director is also super stern looking.eeks!so scary la.work there must be very careful or else...MATTI!
i'm going to sleep now.
wing SPEEDED at 11:11 p.m.
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Thursday, December 9, 2004
Haha!
beat's recommendation(qt true!)so the ones that are crossed out are the ones which i think is not true!muahaha!
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
wing SPEEDED at 10:58 p.m.
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Tuesday, December 7, 2004
Sa-wa-di-kap
just came back yesterday from Thailand.yep-I went to this island called Ko Samui and it's absolutely beatiful!Well, at least for the part of the scenary.It was a short trip, 3 days only.Haha..but i guessed i had fun.learnt some things which i didn't expected to.
I wanna go diving there!!!any takers??!! let's do it when we've save up enough money k!!! must must must!
haha...oh yes!i saw some transversites.(is that what u call them?) eww!then some caucasian guys were like picking up the Thai gers along the roads...and i was thinking like, wat if the 'ger' he picks up is actually a 'he'? i mean wouldn't that be super eww?? eeks! ya..and i can't understand why they have to pick up Thai prostitutes when they come for a holi. what's goin to happen to their gerfrens or wives?IDIOTS.
Oh yes!i went on this half day tour arnd the island.saw elephants!!ssuuupeeerrr cute!!!ahhh!!!!i wanted to ride on one...but yea, my mum was scared lah so i didn't in the end.Met this Austrailian couple and yeap, the things they told me were pretty interesting.
That's bout it for my trip-short and sweet.haha!oh yes!prom's tmr.i hope it's gonna be gd, oh wells...at least the food?? :)
wing SPEEDED at 09:15 p.m.
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Saturday, November 27, 2004
fubbish!
yay!i'm updating.
haha,ok. this is not goin to be a negative entry...at least at this moment. I'm not going to think bout it cos right now, the As are OVER!!!
Ouch....ok my legs are super super tired.3 days of non-stop shopping.blaH..haha, but not that i'm complaining..er..just my legs. my back hurts too!too much sun...i look like a lobster.
OH YeS!my hair!!!it's super short.er...like i whine to many, i look like a dog!!!ok..my hair's not short, but the steps in my hair r reallyy short... bah! SO IF u see me, tell me my hair's not short k?if not i'll be very sad.
Right...so end of As marks the end of JC life.yay!after so much, i think i learn to look at things in a different light.Learn a lot from different things that has happened. But I'm glad that i can say i leave nj with a few reallyy good frenz that i'll be able to hang on to.
haha.. i don know if u'll reading dis, but lao zhu tou, thank u so so so very very much!you'll one of the best frenz i have ever came across! ( i swear it's true!) i cannot explain how much u have help me and those times where it seems like u were the only person that cld understand me.muacks!
yeap yeap, and my all time fav darling!haha...how can i ever forget ur lameness and corny-ness.you just bring a smile to my face with ur happy outlook. And about the incident the last time, i was reallyy touched and thankful for all that've you said,really. yeap,love ya darling! :)
wing SPEEDED at 11:20 p.m.
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Friday, November 19, 2004
Bummer
jus when i thot that there couldn't be anything worse than econs paper,i had to screw my geo paper too.In simple terms, i have screwed my A LEVELS-BIG TIME!
I know, don brood over it. I have to move on. at least that's what i've been taught.but..it's really hard u know? everytime u sit down and try to study for the next paper, your mind wanders off to how badly u've done. :(
Ok,fine. I've never been good in my econs. That explains my screwed essays. But what's worst is when the only subject tat i'm slightly better in had to screw me up too. HA-LE-LU-YA
wrote tourism essay out of point, and wrote 1 page for a 16 mark qn for the other one.haiyah...no hope lah.
but I do need a miracle, and I'm not sure if i believe in one right now.2 more papers left, I can't really feel much. so wat if it's over? i screwed it!I think i sux,so stupid.shouldnt have gone to a JC at all.
but worse come to worse,I thought of a couple of options that i could take.I could retake the As as a private candidate in June. I could go poly and get into 3rd year if i'm not wrong. Or,i could go Australia. (that's if i have the $$$)
Bloody hell.
wing SPEEDED at 05:35 p.m.
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Saturday, November 6, 2004
stay away frm me.
Right...just when i thot my germs could be gone for good. i woke up with a sore throat-again. sux sux sux.
ahhhhh......it's killing me.i can't taste,can't breathe thru my nose properly.oh..i think i can't really hear too.
oh...and i think i jus pass my virus to 4 frenz??!!damn it.
yea...why am i always so lucky?
wing SPEEDED at 05:04 p.m.
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Thursday, October 21, 2004
it's a wierd world out there.
I don't get it.why do some ppl have to act all secretive and everything?did u do something wrong? something behind my back?not like I don't know wat u r doing, but i just don want to spell it out.
...give me a break!
I am so disgusted at your behaviour. you make me sick in the stomach.
Oh wells, I think i don understand the people arnd me well.everyone jus seemed too....complex. what they present in front of u is so different from the life that they lead outside.
I like simplicity.mayb..
Something nicer,i've got a super cute keychain! and it's call "or-lu-lu". yeap.it has cool eyes.
wing SPEEDED at 10:45 p.m.
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