Okay, so I just carried a 5 gallon water bottle up the stairs, and it was HEAVY. What a profound way to start my entry, huh? :) Dawson's was awesome last nite. I really, really envy Joey and Pacey's relationship. How stupid does that sound? To envy the relationship between 2 TV characters. But imagine how awesome it would be to fall in love with one of your best friends. All of the first impressions, and all the apprehension and fear and curiosity that come with the beginning of any relationship would just dissapear. Imagine having grown up with someone.. thru elementary school where you played at recess together.. thru junior high where you went thru that awkward geeky stage together.. thru high school where you confided in eachother about future dreams and goals and fears. I think it would be perfect to fall in love with someone who you know SO well. Pretty much a pipe dream in my life tho. I only keep a few friends. I let FEW people in. It's just not worth the pain and the heartache that come with watching someone who you've actually let in walk away. And the walking away is inevitable 99.999% of the time. Sometimes I think that whatever higher power is above us didn't make people strong enough to REALLY fall in love. Because giving yourself over to someone else COMPLETELY.. and sharing your strengths and weaknesses, your love and hate, your successes and failures, your heart and soul with someone else is the ultimate test of strength. And when it comes down to it.. I'm just not sure I still believe that anyone can cut it.26 Oct 00 1615 hours ER is a really good show. I just watched the last 2 episodes that I had taped. Definitely one of my favorites. I watch entirely too much TV. I usually don't get to watch the show when it's on.. but thank God for VCRs. Dawsons, Felicity, Friends, ER, 7th Heaven, and Roswell. God forbid I miss any of these shows. Anyway, tonite Christy and I are going to see Pay It Forward. We might as well live in the movie theatre. Let's recap this week. Monday we saw Dr. T And The Women. Tuesday we saw Beautiful. Wednesday we saw Meet The Parents AND Lost Souls. Thank God for my AMC movie watcher card. Last nite we went to this little dive bar called The Coo Coo club. That place is so much fun. It's like Cheers.. where everybody knows your name. Des and I hung out with this dude, Pete. He's hella' cute.. and he's a LAWYER. Moving up in the world, we are.. hehe. Next weekend I'm actually gonna' hang out with JAMES. I definitely haven't seen him since we went to Vegas with Mel and Chad. We're gonna' go to Fashion Island and eat at The Cheesecake Factory and listen to Margret Cho's CD over and over again. I totally love James. He's my bro. I'm hella' excited. Oh.. Larry called me again the other nite. His newest revelation is his girlfriend who he's moving in with in a few weeks. Right now.. I really don't know what to feel about that. >shrug< Mostly, it makes me MAD.. b/c it was ME who worryed about him when he totalled his truck, and ME who drove him around for two whole weeks.. to work at 6AM and back home, to test drive cars, to fix his insurance. It was me who bought him lunch every day and dinner every nite b/c he didn't have any money. It was me who slept next to him at nite when he got lonely, and me who took his daughter to the zoo.. and in the end it was HIM who totally liked me... but wasn't ready for any form of relationship. And now it's him who's moving in with "Stacy." Yeah.. anyway.21 Oct 00 1529 hours So, I just got an email from Rob. I was so JUST thinking about him. Weird how he pops up at the oddest times.. but then again, I guess our whole friendship has been based on him coming and going. The Jo Dee concert was good. She puts on a pretty kick-ass show. She's real chatty.. lol. It was FREEZING up on Viejas. Totally like, 40 degrees. During her encore, she sat down and started talking about all the hate and prejudice and ugliness in the world today. She said something about how life is too short.. and NOBODY should waste time hating. She said that once your time is up, ALL you're left with is memories.. and on your judgement day, you HAVE to be able to stand up for what you did in your time on earth. It was really awesome. Then she sang "Even God Must Get the Blues.." and she dedicated it to the Sailors of the USS Cole and their families. How horrible. To me, a tragedy seems SO much greater when the bravest men are involved.. the men who fight for our country. God Bless you guys.
Anyway, on a happier note.. this past weekend was Miramar Air Show weekend! I literally spent all day Saturday and today there. NOTHING amazes me more. Last nite we went to the O club. That's the Officer's club. Where all the PILOTS hang out. 5 out of the 9 Blue Angels were there. FIVE BLUE ANGELS. I was astonished. For the first hour, I was literally beside myself.. lol. I talked to 2 of them. I got names and autographs, and dances and hugs. It was my heaven on earth.. ;) Today I saw them fly, and when the announcer said.. "Flying blue angel #2, the right wing man,Major Hunter Hobson!" I was like.. "I danced with that dude!" They were hella' drunk and being stupid. It was great. I met a cute F4 pilot too. James. He flew in the show.. I drove him back to North Island at the end of the nite.. and we went to this little playground and talked until like, 0600. It was cool. He left for Okinawa today. That's where he's stationed. >shrug< Okay, enough babbling for now.15 Oct 00 1802 hours Editing a webpage is tedious stuff. Not to mention FRUSTERATING. I'd like to thank my friend, Sara for all her hard work and determination, lol. She's a pita girl too. In fact, I kinda' got this idea from her. I'll have a link to her groovy page once I figure out how to successfully put links on here. Work was boring today, as always. I so love the people I work with tho. It's like, we're all one family. Even when I'm not at work, I'm usually always with someone FROM work. It's cool. The season premiere of Friends is one tonite! Totally cool, that is. Friends is the FUNNIEST show on TV.. by far. I've definitely seen EVERY episode from all 6 seasons. Dawson's Creek is my favorite show on TV. I would watch that show thru an earthquake. I wanna' be like Joey. I wanna' have a boyfriend as cute as Pacey, too. I found out today that I get to wear my halloween costume to work. How fun! Right now, I have to go get changed. Des and I are going to Jo Dee Messina tonite. I think I saw her once a few years ago when she was first starting. Des won the tickets on KSON.. (That'll be a link when I have more time to make it one..) Nothing beats a free concert.12 Oct 00 1653 hours
*~"And my ties are severed clean, the LESS I have the MORE I gain.. off the beaten path I reign.. Rover, wanderer, nomad, vagabond - call me what you will.."~* -Metallica
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*~"Tell me why I can't be there where you are.."~* -BsB
*~"Oh, I could fly 'neath the wing of the bluebird as she sings, The 6 'o clock alarm would never ring.. but it rings and I rise, wipe the sleep out of my eyes.. my shavin' razor's cold and it stings.."~*