A lyfe less ordinary..

I am feeling:

The weather is:

Passions
USMC
God
The Creek
Silver screen
Piracy
MyMobile
DAF
Survive THIS
Frisco
Amtrak

Correspondence
Speak your mind
Talk to me

Yesterday
Oct 00//Pass go
Dec 00//Born to shimmer
Jan 01//Auld Lang Syne
March 01//Surviving JH
Apr 01//Frisco

*~"I thank you for your MUSIC, and your stories of the road. I thank you for the freedom when it came my time to go. I thank you for the kindness, and the times when you got tough. And I don't think I've said 'I love you' near enough.."~* -df

"Leader of the Band" has GOT to be one of my favorite songs. Dan Fogleberg is neat. I wonder if many people realize how incredibly amazing music is. Stop and think for just a minute. What would your life be like without music? Music is a common ground b/w EVERYBODY. Black, white, yellow, red, or green.. music UNITES. Take me out of this world on the day the music dies.

I realized something the other day. I was driving with mom out in some really pretty part of town. Of course, it was the outskirts of El Cajon, b/c EC is the Ghetto. So, I realized that life loses a little bit of its magic when you don't live by horse crossing signs. Horse crossing signs speak volumes.. no only about the neighborhood you choose to live in, but about the life you choose to live. When you look out your window, do you see an oak tree? A snow capped mountain? Or neon lights? Outside your front door, do you have green grass surrounded by a white picket fence.. or concrete surrounded by chain link? There is SO much beauty that SO many people miss out on every day. That, to me, is kinda' sad.

So, that's my epiphany for tonite. I think listening to Dan Fogleberg evokes some kind of emotion in me.. :)
18 May 01 2350 hours.

*~She cries, her life is like some movie - black and white. Dead actors faking lines. Over and over again, she cries.. 'don't fall away..'"~* -fuel

So, Tina won. I was gonna' put her picture up and all that grand stuff, but I don't want to. I wanted Colby to win 'cuz he's hot. :) Oh well, I guess we don't always get what we want. congrats Tina.

I am using my mom's comp to post this. Mom's monitor is at LEAST 5 times the size of ours. Plus, the color isn't all screwed up so things actually look the way they're supposed to look. And if that wasn't enough, the chair is really comfy.

School is over in a week and a half. I'm really not sad about this at all. I'm taking swimming and weight training this summer, but other than that, this will be my last real semester in school. At least until I accomplish what I want to in the military. And I thought I'd be sad about that.. and I thought I'd have 2nd thoughts. Like, maybe I CAN make a life by going to school for the next 3 million years of my life. I KNOW I could make it.. but now, it's come down to the face that I WANT to be a Marine. 20 years from now I don't wanna' look back on my life and say, "20 years ago I might have been a Marine." I wanna' say "20 years ago, I was goin' thru hell in Parris Island."

Stephanie is not talking to me right now. I think she's upset about Felixurday 'cuz I stayed with some guy instead of stickin' with her. And I guess, I was wrong. I should have stuck by her. I should ALWAYS stick with her. B/c that's what best friends do. I think she'll get over it. She always does, and we're always okay. We have to be.

I'm gonna' go watch the rest of the CMAs.. and then I'm gonna' watch Boot Camp. I gotta' see some hot DIs before I hit the rack.
09 May 01 2227 hours.

*~"I never will forget the moment [he] arrived in Telluride.."~* -tm

Yay, it's May. I know, I'm funny. Anyway, 01 May is on the April archive 'cuz I don't feel like moving it. Tonite is a nite that will go down in history.. the Survivor finale. I'm actually leaving work early so I can be home to watch it. I have never been so excited over one program on TV.. EVER. It's funny how these people on your TV become like a part of your life. Colby, Tina, Keith.. they're household names. My entry tomorrow will be ALL about Survivor. I know, you're excited. Dawson's was okay last nite. I think that show is runnig out of ideas 'cuz all the new episodes seem to be about all the same things. Felicity was pretty rad too. As was Boot Camp. The DIs on Boot Camp are REALLY hot. All 3 of them. I like McSweeney's Boston accent.. hehe. They all live like, within an hour of me. That's pretty rad. Maybe I'll see them in like, Wal Mart or something one day. There's only 2 more episodes of BC left. I want Moretti, the BOY Moretti, to win. He's a cutie.. ;) So, I guess I don't have anything profund to say. OH, I talked to a different Marine recruiter last nite. I found him on the internet, sent him an email, and he called me last nite. He seems nice. More than likely, I'll enlist with him. I've decided that I can't enlist with JH. He and I got too personal. I want him in so many different ways, and it would be way too dangerous for him to make me a Marine. We could both get in trouble. His career could go to shit, and mine could end before it even begins. Not to mention the fact that I really don't wanna' go all the way to FL to enlist. SSgt Thuesen's, (the guy I talked to last nite), office is in Clairemont. About 30 minutes from my house. It just makes more sense. So, he asked me the initial set of questions, just to make sure that I actually qualify for the Marine Corps.. and in 2 weeks, when school is finally over and I have 15 completed credits, I'm gonna' go to his office and finally take the next step in this enlistment process. I'm not sure if I want to leave in September or January. There are a couple reasons why leaving in January would be better, but they're all pretty lame reasons. The weather in SC, spending the holidays here, going to Frisco on winter break. They're all just excuses to prolong leaving. I think the sooner I leave here, the better. We'll see what goes down. For now, peace out.
03 May 01 1130 hours.