Thursday, September 28, 2006
heh. exams finished a while back. cant update much cause router is down. anyways. updates laters. as the chinese sayin says.... "i m living in intrestin times" =)
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Been thinking a while on how to start this one... So many things happend a year back. From, "no shakee, i dont wanna go to extracts", " kuhan, sam and vijay are in the hospital, shakee is panicking, i dont know", "Where were you all goin at 12 midnight??" and the one which was said, which was most hurtful " i m sorry, sir". A year has past, yet somethings still play in the head like it was yesterday...
Sam. This fella is one of a kind, and i am not the only person to say such. I think it was funny, as well as sad, that it took him leaving for me to realize that. For those of u who didnt have the previlage of meetin this guy, just imagine the happiest fella u know. Add a bit of neurotic behaviour, a pinch of sarcasm, and a good heart. That would be Sam. His msgs, which i think would require a post by itself, would make anyone laugh, at most just smile.
A year has gone since he left. I said at his rememberence on campus, let us not remember how he went, but remember how he lived. How quickly i forget huh... Whatever said, the incidents of that night, however frightening, and hurting, has made me stronger. Made us stronger if i may say. Lookin at the people who were there this mornin, most of us were composed. Accepted if u may say but the scar tissues are still there...
It would be an understatement to say we miss u man...
Rest in peace - Samuel Anandam Richards. 1982-2005.
Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Road Trippin
Road trippin' with my two favorite allies
Fully loaded we got snacks and supplies
It's time to leave this town, it's time to steal away
Let's go get lost anywhere in the U.S.A.
Let's go get lost, let's go get lost...
Blue you sit so pretty west of the one
Sparkle light with yellow icing just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
These smiling eyes are just a mirror for...
So much as come before those battles lost and won
This life is shining more forever in the sun
Now let us check our heads and let us check the surf
Staying high and dry's more trouble than it's worth in the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
These Smiling eyes are just a mirror for...
In Big Sur we take some time to linger on
We three hunky dory's got our snakefinger on
Now let us drink the stars, it's time to steal away
Let's go get lost right here in the U.S.A.
Let's go get lost, let's go get lost...
Blue you sit so pretty west of the one
Sparkle light with yellow icing just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
These smiling eyes are just a mirror for...
These smiling eyes are just a mirror for...
The day started off well. Wasnt stressed or anythin, cause well its surgery and if u set ur standards low, u dont expect to... u know... lol. So, gave up studyin cause well its end postings. Only way to pass, is if u come for postings reg and know whats goin on...
Was allocated a case in my cubicle. A case of Reccurent Breast Abcess. A word of thanks to Mr Siva's breast clinic classes. That two classes, made a world of difference in the examination. I would say the history part as well as the examination went well, xpt i made two possibly failin errors... i forgot to take her pressure, and my lymph node palpation was havoc. ai... didnt help that the 55 year old malay lady was topless, and she asked me if i was from Nepal. Nepal. Do i freggin look nepal to u??? If she said i was nigerian or somethin, can la... nepal...
Dr Praveen took the case, and based on his looks, i could estimate my marks... ah well... my fault i guess. There was supposed to be a viva at 130, but that was cancelled. So most of us thought no class, and just left. We were 10 mins outside of melaka, when a call came, and we had to go back for classes... bloody hour wasted driving... or sittin in the car rather. Bleargh... Crap...
In a non related issue, and a more personal note, i ve been gettin a regular visitor from the UK, comin in from Justine's blog... there s only 2 people i know in uk, and if ur who i think u are, hope things are alright with u over there... cant believe its almost a year.
Friday, September 1, 2006
How the fuck did Carlos Tevez and Javier Maschereno sign for fuckin West Ham?? I mean like what the fuck...? no disrespect to the Hammers, but this is crap. How does a club like West Ham beat out teams like Real Madrid etc for players... I mean, thinkin bout it, its gonna be fun to watch them play... but i expected them to be at least newcastle level... Pretty sure Alex Fergie, Jose, Wenger, and as much as i hate to say this... Rafa, would be kickin themselves silly... Mr Tevez and Mascherano... Welcome to my saturday nights on ESPN...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Yea... i dont want to remember this, but yea. I love it when i m right, especially bout people. I really need to trust my instincts more... =) have a good day kids...
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Finally found some time. Been a good two weeks already. Surgical posting s been considerably ok, with the manipal staff doing a much better job than it was in 6th sem. Cases are being presented, we actually get to do PR examinations... the works la. Even Prof has been in a good mood. All that said, there s still 2 weeks more to go. So, yea... but if it keeps up, i think it would be safe to say, the staff have made it a really enjoyable posting.
Nothin else much goin on, case write ups are the only thing which keeps me occupied. It s like 2nd year all over again, where work work and more work keep my mind from wondering. Whether i end up a work-o-holic remains to be seen, but i hope i m moving in the right direction with this.
Smelly man. What am i goin to do with him? Good lord, if body odour had a rankin, this fella would be Calvin Klein's Eternity equalvent of smelly crap. Its not like he doesnt know, people tell him all the time, but yet... argh. Best part? dude was molesting the per rectal dummy by molesting his thighs... why... why...?
11th batch had a class party last night. Didnt go for it cause, well, it doesnt meet the purpose. The only people who i feel matter at the moment are the group mates, and so far inter personal relationships in C2 have been quite good. A quite fair number of people had the same idea, and i heard the turnout wasnt as great as expected. I guess things were different in manipal, where people had, more often than not, nothing else to do...
So, me, reuben shakee and sanj decided to go eat pork =) Went to Low low Sang in bukit beruang, ordered the food. When the pork came, it looked like chicken. Upon closer inspection, it was whitish inside... Wheter it tasted like pork, it didnt matter, cause it was bloody chicken. Being the people we are, we didnt argue with the lady and ate our dinner.
As we finished our dinner, sanj got a call from her family tellin her that her grandmother had passed away. That was pretty messed up, but it had me thinking. Maybe things lead up to something. Maybe we were supposed to go out for dinner, maybe she was supposed to have a few of her close friends around when she got the news. Anyways, losing a family member s always gonna be hard, so, my thoughts go out to her. Drove down to PD to drop her in her uncle's place, so she can get a ride back up to ipoh.
In that 6 hours i was with these people, i felt somethin i havent felt in a long time. I was relaxed, i was how to say... not uptight. I have become pretty much uptight over the past few months, which is quite the confusing as well, cause i m being more tolerant. There are things which have happened, which i just let pass. Previously, i wouldnt have had two minds to tell people off. Bah... its probably nothing... maybe i should be more pissed off with things... after all, a short temper fuse runs in the family. =)
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Friday, August 11, 2006
A week after i said it wasnt about me, i ve realized it was my fault all along. Choices i ve made, lead me to where i am, and basically, or theoratically rather, i m where i thought i wanted to be. Unfortunately, i was wrong. Whether its beyond repair, remains to be seen.
Medicine EOP was ok. Surgery next. No point talkin bout that, as obviously, it s surgery. Need to change a bit... how...
Friday, August 4, 2006
My faith has been tested, and i have passed. All thats left is to tie up some loose ends, and hope some normalcy will return. Though i have no idea what happend, i ve come to realize, it was never about me. It wasnt.
Friday, August 4, 2006
i swear to the good God that i pray to, it is takin me my entire mind to not open the bottle of whiskey in front of me now...
Friday, August 4, 2006
Just spent 20 mins outside the house sittin on my dad's car. I have this habit of sittin on my dad s car, over the booth, and just lying there and thats where i ve made most of my major decisions. Thing is, its not somethin i look forward to. I only do it when when there is too much on my head. Too much. Especially when it relates to stuff beyond my control. Like how other people feel. Obviously, i dont care how most people feel, but if i make it a point to know how u feel, it means i rate u highly as a person, and wouldnt want u to feel badly, especially on my account. Today, as i said earlier, i sat on the car.
I thought about stuff. Why it happened. What i could have done to avoid it, and what could i do next. I thought about it, while watchin dark clouds sweep past the semi-crescent moon. I know, corny but the answers are clear. I hate the person i ve become. Its not right. I wish i could take it all back, go back to where it began, and nipped it at the bud, but we all know thats not gonna happen. I always believed i ve been a good judge of character, and i m still sure i am. I have been wrong, though. Still, i know.
So, maybe 10 years down the road, when i read this,maybe i ll look at it and say, this was a turnin point.
Tuesday, August 1, 2006
I missed class the whole day. Woke up this mornin lathargic, and fevrish. Maybe because it was the firing i received from Prof, maybe it is not... have to get used to it i guess. He means well.
So, by spendin the day at home, i was waitin for her to come online. Why? i dont know. I really dont. Maybe i like her. Maybe i miss talkin to her. Maybe i should just let her know what i feel. Maybe. Maybe is a shit word. I keep thinkin, wait... but what am i waitin for. Things fucked up as it is, should i add another worry on my head with this. I mean, maybe it would work out well. Maybe. There s that word again. Keep on feelin like drop of water in the ocean. Why i said that i dont know. I just did. Shit. I keep on hoping that the grey tab on my desktop becomes green. I know she s busy. Maybe thats why she s not online. I guess this is what people mean when they say they miss someone. Thing is... how did i let my guard down? I was supposed to be a freind. Friend. thats another shitty word. Best part is, i wish i had a drink. I just want to get drunk and forget bout everythin. Everything. My studies, take a break from that. My personal life, just disappear a while. My proffesional life, same, just disappear a while. Drinkin would seem the ideal solution. I know. I mean, it ll help me forget stuff... but the shittiest and most fucked up part is...i have to fuckin face it all over again....
Didnt wanna put a new entry for this, but its funny when people wonder why they are being treated like shit, especially when they treat people like shit. What comes around, goes around.
Back to the main one, i m gonna pass surgery. Dammit... I m not a fuckin moron... i m gonna pass the paper...
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Yea. Went home for the weekend for the mother's number 60. Cant believe she s 60. I m 23, so she was 37 when she had me, 35 my brother. How bout that? She was happy with the stuff i got her, and later in the night, her siblings popped up and gave her dinner. I knew they where coming, but i thought we were goin out for dinner. Was good to have people in the house too. All the lil rascals runnin around. Even my cousins kid, Mrnalini, was in a happy mood. 1st time i seen the kiddo smile. Chinam Uncle brought about 75rm worth of durians, and another few kgs of mangosteens. Damn...
Was supposed to meet Pat, and Chew, but that got shelved as i didnt wanna leave the house. Watched Liverpool play Kaiserslauten, with Pepe Reina, the keeper play midfielder supremo, after Garcia took a hit. Thamby boy was with me, and he, after the world cup, is a football fan. Apparently the misguided lil fella is a Chelsea Fan. Indeed. This is how the conversation goes...
Kuhan: Eh, can u name 3 players from chelsea? Thamby : John Terry. i donno la anne... Kuhan : Yea ok... fair enough.
At that point Shebby appears on tv.
Kuhan : Do u know who that is? Thamby : Yes anne... that is Shebby. When Shebby was younger, he was a better player than Steven Gerrard. Kuhan : what the....
He then went on to confuse Peter Crouch and Peter Cech. So, yea... Anyways, a friend of mine, msgd to say liverpool lost. Talk bout nonsense. Man U lost to Preston. Bleargh. And liverpool played with a goalie in midfield. Dammit...
Went for dim sum with Chinam uncle and fly again. Still find it hard to beleive that dim sum for 3 adults and 2 kids comes up to 70 rm. Kuna wears glasses now, as does Thamby. Time s flying. The elder one s goin for UPSR next year, bout the same time i hit my finals. Finals. How bout that? Told my mum, my future is gonna be decided over the next year. Where i want to go to, what i want to specialize in, a lot of things. Gonna put some wheels in motion, but... but.. but shit la... Hopin for the best is what i can do.
Didnt get to see Pat and Chew as they were held up. Jeya anne called from Aussie. Mistook his slang and thought he was Appan uncle. Bleargh. Kena Tuppu for askin for Dharma, instead of Mani Boy or Anne. I mean what the... Kena tuppu for about 5 mins... but its all cool la. I used to get it worse when he was stayin in the house. Lol. Funny how i miss people... Divya and Pooja esp. The 2nd one will tie her hair over her head, and go around pointin at it, callin it "pooja's antenna". Hillarious...
Came back to melaka earlier and had dinner with the housemates. Apparently there was some drama last night, when Jeff found a bicycle lyin infront of the house. He woke up Adam, and they called the cops. Bleargh. The bike was missin in the mornin tho... Gotta be a bit more careful these days.... Gonna pass out now... Sept is a month away. I m hopin i remember this Sept for the right reasons. I need to get things right.... September...
Friday, July 28, 2006
Yea... Cant remember much, but yea. Medicine, after the initial rustiness of not practicing clinical skills, is becoming ok again. Had 2 patients, on assigned beds, die on me. Not my fault la... One was a 41 y/o hypertensive who had a massive stroke, and the other was 75. I think this is why i wont do medicine, as in the subject. Also, i cant take the smell. Dammit. If u thought placenta smelt, this is human excretions... Yea... i know ortho also got bed ridden patients, but trust me, not much smell. Bleargh.
nothin much else to say i guess... how bout that? oh yea... Wild E Coyote is hillarious.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Rockstar Supernova. I m really stumped. The first season, one with INXS, was excellent. Mig, JD, Marty casey and Jordis, those people stood out, while the rest were pretty much good. Inxs needed a frontman, these people wanted to be a frontman. Inxs wasnt formed for Rockstar. They were their own band, with their own type of music, and the idea was novel... but now. Supernova? What the fuck. Seriously. Its a comedy. No doubt theres talent all over in this show. Dilana, is one name no one is gonna forget for a long time, as well as Magni and the aussie dude. Then, Supernova. Their comments are bleargh to say the least, and then u have Navarro, who critisizes the contestants, only to get booed by the crowd, and quickly change his comments. Wtf... seriously. Bleargh...
Paris Hilton. Another what the fuck moment. What are people singin about these days??? " I don't mind spending some time,
Just hanging here with you,
Cuz I don't find too many guys,
That treat me like you do,
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride." and this is coming from a person who made home made porn. I m goin crazy listenin to this kinda crap. Bleargh. Off to watch pirates. Bleargh.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Yea... i ll start from last week. Stayed up whole of thursday, bar a few hours of sleep, to study for ortho end of postings. Yea. The end postings was ok by itself, but to take the case, bad scene. 4 people taking a history and examination is too much. I mean, each person has their own way of doin stuff, there is bound to be a conflict somewhere or rather. But eventually it was ok, missed a few questions, and examination went relatively ok.
Went back to melaka and managed to get on the 430 bus back to the village. Cant beleive it s been 3 months since i ve been home. Wanted to have vege nasi lemak, but apparently his mom passed away few weeks back, so he was closed. Thats a bummer. If ur readin this, best vege nasi lemak ever is available at the stall next to the Sri Sundrarajah Perumal Temple on Port KLang Road, Klang on Fridays and Saturday evenings. Take my word for it.
So, hungry on at night, called up Kc to go makan. People ask me why i call up KC everytime i m home. Why? Simple, cause he s there. He s done me a lot of favors, and he s always there. Unlike some people, whom on msn, "Macha when u coming back, bored la. When u come back call u know. we go mamak" So, when i do come home and call, these people are busy. Fine, i was home 3 days, u were busy 3 days? Practice what u preach brother... Anyways, me kc and ai mei, hit this nasi kandar place... pelita? kayu? not too sure, but it was a con job. Nasi Kandar with chicken and mutton was bloody 11rm. In Subaidah's melaka its rm 8. Ai... Nonetheless, the food was a good prelude to a 14 hour sleep which ended on friday afternoon.
Saturday was almost the same, but went to the spiritual home of Kajang. The roads to kajang have changed so much. In fact they ve changed so much, there s a sign board which says Kajang to the left, followed by another sign board which says Kajang to the right. Only in Kajang. So, went there, and my aunt was preparing her self for a total knee cap replacement in a few weeks, and being the almost final year medical idiot, i was asked to read an xray. I mean, i can read an xray, but i have no clue, yet, what the heck to look for in an osteoarthritic knee... dammit. So, as expected, kena tuppu sial... still... got lots of good advice on USMLE, whacked some more mangosteen, and left rm 150 richer. I love my kajang people. =)
So, left for melaka with my new bottles, 2 wine, 1 Wild Turkey and one Kurant. So, it now stands at... one chivas, one bombay sapphire, one wild turkey, one kurant, 2 wines, and one 1983 Remy Martin. Indeed.
Started medical postings yesterday, which is far less relaxing than ortho. I m not a big fan of medicine, but what to do, its inmportant. Was thrown in the deep end of the pool today when apparently it was my turn to take case. Went to the ward at lunch, clerked the best i could, after all, 1st medicine case in over a year, yes i know, not an excuse. So, in came the medicine HOD. She was a nice lady, but i think i gave her the impression that i m the kinda guy who never attends class. Presentation didnt go to well, but the highlight would be during the history taking. The whole group was there, and well i asked 2 people in particular bout a certain history i should ask. Instead of tellin me, they went ahead and asked my patient bout her past medical history, i.e, diabetis and hypertension. So, not only did they not answer me, they were begginin to annoy me. In simple terms, i told em to fuck off. For the 1st time, i think, someone told them off. I dont think i would forget the disgusted look on their faces, but u think about it. My mum s payin the money so i can be a good safe doctor. If i fuck up on my own course, i ll learn. I know this cause every time i get fired in the ward, or end postings, i dont forget it. If these two clowns do my work for me, and i dont get firing, i may feel better, but i m gonna be stupid...
Guess thats where professionalism and personal issues devide. Be smart kids...
Black Crows - She talks to Angels.
She never mentions the word addiction
in certain company.
Yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan
After you meet her family.
She paints her eyes as black as night now.
She pulls those shades down tight.
Yeah, she gives me a smile when the pain comes.
The pain gonna make everything alright.
Says she talks to angels.
They call her out by her name.
Oh yeah, she talks to angels.
Says they call her out by her name.
She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket.
She wears a cross around her neck.
The hair is from a little boy,
And the cross from someone she has not met, well, not yet
Says she talks to angels.
They call her out by her name.
Oh yeah, she talks to angels.
Says they call her out by her name.
She don't know no lover,
None that I ever seen.
Yeah, to her that ain't nothing
But to me it means, means everything.
She paints her eyes as black as night now.
Pulls those shades down tight.
There's a smile when the pain comes.
Pain's gonna make everything alright.
Says she talks to angels.
They call her out by her name.
Oh yeah, she talks to angels.
Says they call her out by her name.
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.
You know, i was talkin to a friend of mine, and she s an old friend from school. She told me, she avoided a certain group of people in school. She knew it would be bad scened. 10 years down the road,she tells me, that she was right all along. Welcome to the real world kiddo...
Trust ur instincts, and be ur self, she told me. Reformatting complete.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
I have this family in kajang. My mom's 2nd brother's family. He was my "mama", in reference to the relation above, and his wife, Mami. Based on location, they are referred to as Kajang Mama, and mami respectively. I love these people. In technical terms, they are my God-family. I was told even, that my parents sent me there as a toddler, cause the stars didnt agree or something like that. When i think about it now, maybe perhaps it had somethin to do with my eldest brother, but bleargh. Nevermind.
One of my earliest memories as a kid, was my dad carryin me in to their house. The kajang house is a single story banglow, with a verendah sorta thing on the outside. There was, not sure now, this rattan lazy man chair, which was superb for reading newspaper and all, in the mornings, when the sun is out and its breezy. I miss that...
The 1st time i stayed there i think, was when i was 6-7 years old. One of the best damned holidays of my life. Lunch would be home cooked food, which i didnt appreciate back then, and dinner would be always outside food for me. Chinese fried rice, mc donalds, the real deal kajang satay from the flyover near convent, Sweet sour chicken from Flamengos... Apart from that, my uncle used to buy all sorts of snacks, kuihs, ice creams, the works la. It was... fun, u know.
My uncle, is a very simple man. He ll sleep on the floor, waking up daily by 6-630. What he did, God knows... i never woke up before 830 in that place. It is also quite pathetic to say that he, at almost 80 years old, can out run me. Pathetic indeed. A very disciplined person, no nonsense attitude. Yet, every mornin i woke up, there ll be nasi lemak or roti canai, or that chinese long fried dough... whats that eechakue?
My aunty, also a teacher, lovely lady. I ve never heard her speak badly or wrong bout anyone at all. Never. She ll always smile and ask me how i am, how s things and all. I suppose i m very close to them so they are like this, but they are like this to all their nephews and nieces. Even they re grandkids. This lady, will always gimme 5 rm when i was schooling, everytime she sees me. Everytime. Since goin to college and uni, it went up to 50. =)
The sayin that the apple doesnt fall far from the tree holds true, their kids are the exact replica of them. 2 teachers, one lawyer and one Doc. The doc was probably one of my earlier influences to eb a doc, but i donno... now he tell s me "Appu, there are too many doctors, u not gonna make money" and then he proceeds to empty his wallet of rm 10 notes, thus fillin up mine. The lawyer is one better. He says when i was a baby, i used to wet his bed, while he was studyin for his SPM. =hope u see the age difference= These days when i see him, i ask him if his head feels cold against the wall, cause baldness runs in my mum s side, s does hypotensian and hypoglycemia in the ladies, and DM in the males... complicated enough.
The two sisters, both teachers, are ... as different as me and my brother. Similiar in most ways, but different in most others. There s not much to say bout them, cause i would be repeating the same thing i said bout their parents. Lol.
At this point, u'd be wonderin why am i talkin bout this... well... i am, cause i miss them. I miss them, i miss the kajang house, i miss waking up at 9 am, its still cold and quiet, and i have hot breakfast waiting. I miss having the whole day to laze to in that sleepy town, i miss the whole lot of it.
End postings on Thursday. Lovely...
Monday, July 10, 2006
This would be the last entry i hope on my current bleargh. I know u know. Infact we all know. U've got friends, who s got friends who tells u stuff, and i know that these friends tells u stuff. Lovely. As i said, i hope this is the last entry on this.
World Cup is an hour away. Viva la france... Viva Zidane... Should have been against Argentina. The master vs the apprentice. Zidane... vs Messi. Ceh... we are unlucky.
Sunday, July 9, 2006
The past week in Muar has been good enough. Tomorro would be the last week of Ortho for this week, with End Postings on wed/thurs. Medicine would be next, and that, would be a wee bit harder. I think the difference would be in the systems. In ortho, its just bones, joints, and trauma, where else in Medicine and Surgery, it s a multi system discipline, i.e. Respiratory, Cardiology, Git among others. Intrestin, but not my cup of tea.
Mixed week too. Someone came up to me on friday and asked whats wrong with me, and why am i behaving so differently. This person even went on to say, that in the beginning of the posting i was "fun to be around with". i m not quite sure what i said, but it was to the effect of, "i have got nothin to say, so i m not saying anythin". Which is true. I ve realized many things, i ve thought over many things, and i figure, as i ve said many times before, i m different with different people.
I know this for a fact, cause just last night i was out with Sand, and we spoke quite well. Maybe she s just a natural conversationalist, or not, but i had stuff to say, she had stuff to say, and then mamak was there, he had stuff to say as well. Another example, this tall fella in my group. The other day in ortho, while the hosp staff was takin class, and he asks me, "did i watch the world cup". And this is while the lecture is goin on. What do u say to these kind of responses? I just have nothing to say. That aside, Green Day's Walkin Alone -->
"Come Together Like A Foot In A Shoe
Only This Time I Think I Stuck My Foot In My Mouth.
Thinking Out Loud And Acting In Vain.
Knocking Over Anyone That Stands In My Way.
Sometimes I Need To Apologize.
Sometimes I Need To Admit That I Ain't Right.
Sometimes I Should Just Keep My Mouth Shut, Or Only Say Hello.
Sometimes I Still Feel I'm Walking Alone.
Walk On Eggshells On My Old Stomping Ground, Yet There's Really No
One Left, That's Hanging Around.
Isn't That Another Familiar Face?
Too Drunk To Figure Out They're Fading Away
That however is not me...
So, on a funnier not, during case reviews...
Dr NP: *after reviewing Tall Guys paper* Good. Now go back to the wards and join ur classmates. What is your name? Tall Guy: *sticks his tongue out like he always does* Sir i m from C1 sir, i was supposed to come yester... DR NP: *cuts him off* What is ur name, man? TG: Sir, i m from C1 sir. DR NP: *has a look of disbelief on him* What is ur name man?
The rest of the class are either laughin or tellin him "ur name, ur name"
TG: Sir, tall guy *obviously not his real name la...* T... a... l... l... DR NP: *cuts him off again* ok ok... go go..
Only in our college...
Mangosteens. Followed Syed back from Muar on friday, and he stopped by the road side mangosteen stalls. Just last Wednesday, i got 1kg from the Bkt Beruang Pasar Malam for 3.50 rm. As i got down of the car, tie and name tag and all, i ask the joe how much. He says rm 5/kg, which was immidietly brought down to 4rm when he saw the disgust on my face. This was not helped by the fact that there was ant on the fruit. So, didnt buy. The same evening, at the pasar malam near campus, 2 kgs of mngstn plus 1 kg yellow rambutan = rm 10. Yea... finished it all in one sitting. Mangosteens are the best.
I've changed. Live with it. or stay outta my way.
Tuesday, July 4, 2006
This entry is to complement the 1st part of my previous post. Realized it was too vague, and well, someone else might get the wrong idea. If you like pink, and have that biscuit named dog, i m not talkin bout you kiddo =) Lol.
Tuesday, July 4, 2006
People think they've got me figured out. Most people do. Its quite funny at that as well. Why? Cause i havnt figured my self out. I ve figured out some people, yet i m not bold enough nor stupid enough at that, to tell them what i think of them. Its different from observing a natural or acquired trait of someone. This is like... coming to a complete diagnosis based on previous medical history and treatment, instead of just using a current complaint. Basically, what i m tellin you is, fuck u. You dont know me. If u think i m talkin about u, ur probably right. Cause, u know, if u did somethin to me, or thought about me in that way, you should feel a lot shitty right now, and i hope you do. Remember that. Fuck you. Oh, and if you do think its you, ask me on msn, if i talk to you, then its not you. You will, however, feel a bit stupid.
Since thats outta the way, ortho postings resumed after a holiday break for exams. Only in my college, where exams are a lot less stressful than classes. Nothin wrong with the teachin module, but the trip to Muar. Like today, the fuckin air cond didnt work. I mean, fuck la. My mom didnt pay close to 300 000 rm for her son to get dehydrated on a fuckin bus, which is modified from a lorry. (dont ask) I keep tellin my self, one more year, just grit my teeth and get over it... but its this simple things which just fuckin piss me off... Another one. Ortho Assignements.
Since my 1st case was a lower limb, the next one has to be an upper limb case. So, i saw this man in a above elbow plaster slab and bandage. Took a history and examintion... all the way except the measurements, which is quite important in Orthopeadics. Did i mention i sacrificed my lunch break for this? Yea, so i had to stop cause he went in for a CMR - closed manipulated reduction, a very painful precedure where, ur given pethidine (morphine like drug) and a sedative (think of Vicadin)- for his broken radius - the outer long bone in ur forarm.
So, i was in two hearts. One i could watch the CRM, and the other... i dont have his bloody measurements. Went to see DR NP, who told me, as expected to take another case. Just my luck. This morning there was no upper limb cases. All broken legs. No joke. Luckily Dr NP allowed me to continue with the earlier patient. Ai...
Speakin of which, yesterday at posting...
DR NP : Give the types of skeletal traction. Students : *mumbles* calcaneum, upper tibia.. Dr NP : Correct. What is this? *pointing to the pin which goes through the tibia*
Everyone is quiet...
DR NP : thats a steidmenns pin. Ok, what other tractions are there? Me : Sir, Skull traction. Dr NP : Yea correct. Do u use steidmenns pin for skull traction? Me : Uhm... no sir? Dr Np : why? Me : Uhm... it goes through the head? Dr NP : yes, so what is in the head?
Me : The Brain, sir. Dr NP : very good.
Orthopeadics is very intresting indeed... Fracture here... traction there... oh yea.. the CMR - the drugs put you out. My patient was snoring. Then the MA -medical assistant, not the man- comes, and while the housemen pulls this direction --> the MA pulls on this direction <-- and manipulates the 2 broken segments. My patient, wakes up and grits his teeth, and falls asleep again. I mean seriously... pain.
Saturday, July 1, 2006
Yea. Been a long week. Exams started on Monday with Medicine. It was a decent paper, being medicine, well... yea. Straight forward, direct questions. Wheter i pass or not, yea. Tuesday was peads. Peads is the type of paper, where if u ve done ur postings, u re better off equipped compared to those who havent. Point in reference Jeff and me, with Adam. Same goes for OBG, on Wed. Me and Adam found the paper easier compared to Jeff. All of Dr K's shoutin in the ward actually paid off, when what i was shouted at for came out for 5 marks...
Slept off accidently for the ortho paper. I guess it was the lack of over all sleep and all, i just couldnt wake up and study for it. Paper was ok, but didnt exactly answer to the point, which was confirmed by askin Dr NP... but then again, its the 1st ortho paper...
So, that leaves Srugery. I give up. I studied the night thru, slept 3 hours woke up and studied some more. I looked at pictures of diseased anal canal s and rectum, and i wonder what do homosexuals and the back door straight people get pleasure from. On top of that, the net was down, so i didnt use msn. So basically, i should have slammed the paper right?
As soon as i got the paper, i was laughin. I turned left and saw Q, who was laughin as well. I did a primary survey across the hall, everyone was either
a) having a puzzled look
or
b) laughin.
The paper was horrbile. I didnt know what to write. It wasnt as bad as the previous opthal paper where i had sweaty palms, but whoa... i dont remember writin as much rubbish. There was a time in the exam, where i kept on thinkin bout Russel Peter's comedy, where he goes on and on bout "Paint". PAYNT! PAYNT... just say it... And i wasnt the only one who was acting weirdly. Because i sat near the exit, everyone who gave up and came out early passed by me and either smiled or laugh. The invigilators werent too pleased with that, but i suppose they understood. The funniest part? i actually think the exams are more therapeutic and relaxing compared to muar postings.
Went to watch Superman with Adam. Was delighted with the presentation of the movie. Singer got Supes down to the t, and the story was good. Could have used more action and all, but then again the villain is Luthor. The only way there could be more action would be either Matello or Bizzarro makin an appearance.... but that would have dragged it too long. Good watch.
Other short news - Argentina didnt deserve to lose, and i ve padded my windows. No sun light anymore... Eeeya... and Pedro is back =)
*Edit* England are out... wooo big suprise... idiots...
