There s something, i ve been sayin to myself. Somethin. I know, but doin the right thing doesnt make u feel good. Sometime s being the bad person is done with intent. Yea. Lets see now... oh yea...

Saturday, November 26, 2005
yea, last year when me and loges were in Tito's, Goa, i heard this trance track. The song got stuck in my head, and being a trance song i kinda knew there was like no way i m gonna find out the title or the singers of the song. So i foggedaboudit.

Fast forward a few months, and i listen to the song again on Fly.Fm, which i feel is the best radio st in malaysia currently. So again i m like crackin my head, tryin to figure out what the bloody title of the song is.

Today afternoon, while chattin with someone about Maggie Mee and Thousand Island Sauce, the song played again and i found out the title of the song. How? I HAD THE FUCKIN SONG ON MY COMPUTER ALL THE FUCKIN TIME. fuckin hell - Deep Dish - Flashdance.

Saturday, November 26, 2005
Just got back from ENT. Paper was straight forward, but due to reasons undisclosed, i m probably gonna fail. Remember when kuhan says he s gonna fail, there s only but a slim chance he s gonna pass. yea...

Been hectic past few days, esp when all the good movies, be it Malay, tamil, or English, Astro airs it durin the time i have my exams. Damn.

Ai... nothin else to write ftm. Oh xcpt someone thought that Brabus (the mercedes modifiers) was the same as Bangbus (the porno show)... right.

Friday, November 25, 2005
confirm....

Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Yea. Nothin much s been goin on. Got mid sems of Ent comin up. Every muscle i can name in my legs hurt. I like people with nice smiles... Yea.

Dont mess with carlos.

Sunday, November 20, 2005
Yea. Just got back from dinner with someone i should really be keepin more in touch with. Lol. Weekend came and flew quite uneventfully. Played badminton and ping pong for the first time in my life. So that took the sting from losing to Ramesh, who wanted to "trash" me, but luckily i was partnered with Jeff, who s quite a good player. Went for dinner with Loges, Wong and Loh, who suprisingly can REALLY EAT... lol. Came home and fell asleep on the couch watchin Man U play *wonder why* and woke up when Loges called for a drink.

Met Q, Marc, and Satu at Jiki and we were watchin the endin of "Dil Maange More" - where the hero, runs in to the goal *suprised it wasnt a cricket match* and gets entangled in the net with the hot mama... WTF. Even the bangladeshi worker *who was wearin a Hello Kitty T shirt* was laughin. Seriously. Ai...

Stayed awake to watch the exhibition match known to the world as "el Classico" - Read Madrid vs Barcelona. Barca & Valencia have always had a place in my heart, since 2004 when i took over them in FM05. Lol. Played my longest ever game there, leadin barca into 2020. The match was one sided, Madrid never had a chance. Oh, and a tip for anyone playin FM06, at the start of the game, Messi is available for 3.8 million pounds. BUY!!! Barca will sell cause he holds up a Non-EU place. Ronaldinho is the man...

Slept to wake up at 830 to watch the All Blacks hold out against England. The AB s did a more violent version of the Haka, which showed em slittin their throats and the English almost wettin their pants. The match itself was thrillin, guessed i m hooked eh Ayu? *and for clarification, my aunt is FROM nz, where i guess they have absolutely nothin to do but watch rugby? :P :P* and Peter Crouch cant even score from a penatly... idiot.

Introducin Carlos the Duck. click on him :)

Saturday, November 19, 2005
Just got back from Harry Potter. One of the better movies i ve watched in recent times. Good effects, better storyline, and the girls are comin of age :P The teather was packed, and i had a field day spottin the Melaka Manipal students. Lol... someone s been callin someone "anna".... hahahahahaha...... ai.. sorry, private joke.

On the way back, saw this 2 mat rempits flyin and makin some of the weirdest, monkey like hand gastures and outspeedin a Honda city.

Fuck. Yea. Fuck. Right thing, wrong thing. Fuck. U know it. I know it. Fuck. Wheee.... I dont have to worry bout back stabbers, i m makin enough a fool of myself that i dont need them. I m still wonderin how people still cant put 2 and 2 together...

Thursday, November 17, 2005
Yea. 9th batch won the interbatch. Right. Went to the gym. Gym nice. I is pedro. I is sore all over... shit...

Movin on in a non-related issue, things are turnin out as expected. I dont like it, but expected... shit...

Thursday, November 17, 2005
Hmmm... been in a very elevated mood over the past few days. Think its the increased social interaction with people, which i must say has been lackin over the past few months. Learnin how to let go of things again, realizin that playin cards right is sometimes just goin with it. Indeed.

Interbatch games are goin on. Used to have so much fun supportin the team back in manipal, esp when Gareth, Mamak, Jeff, the Fip all were involved. Missing all the teasing, ahem... support, i used to render to the Mamak and The Fip especially. Things are really different here. Cant say i m still adaptin, but yea... Somethings never change though, 9th batch is still the most competitive batch around, and as one senior rightly put, it s usually MMMC vs 9th batch. I know they've been gettin stick for their attitude, but i actually understand them. I mean, who doesnt want to win? Sure, they can tone it down a level, but then where s the fun in it? Take a look at this angle, The Manc and Chelsea fans, they badger Stevie G at every kick, but when he puts on an England shirt, he s the hero again. I guess what i m tryin to say is, the badgerin is a part and parcel of the game... but... but... the violance, and the unsportin behavior... that has no place in any sport xpt the WWE. Yea...

Speakin of which, i m beginnin to dig Rugby, esp the New Zealand. Being a big fan of culture in sports, the Haka has enthralled me in ways beyond explanation. The dance itself, performed prior to the match, is just intense. Never seen anythin like it before. I'd say its on par with the Kop singing "You'll Never Walk Alone, but that s a lie. There s nothin better than YNWA by the Kop. Lol.

Ringa pakia
Uma tiraha
Turi whatia
Hope whai ake
Waewae takahia kia kino

English Translation
Slap the hands against the thighs
Puff out the chest
Bend the knees
Let the hip follow
Stamp the feet as hard as you can.

Ka Mate! Ka Mate!
Ka Ora! Ka Ora!
Tenei te ta ngata puhuru huru
Nana nei i tiki mai
Whakawhiti te ra
A upane ka upane!
A upane kaupane whiti te ra!
Hi!!

English Translation
It is death! It is death!
It is life! It is life!
This is the hairy person
Who caused the sun to shine
Keep abreast! Keep abreast
The rank! Hold fast!
Into the sun that shines!

The thunderstorm a few hours back made me turn off the Pc and one tree hill - Season 2 is full of sex, and nipples, and made me, also, to take a look at all of my prev photos. Flashback to the days in Taylors, where life was simple. Lol. Classes, Cybercafe, a bit of trouble with the fish curry, the prom.... simple. Then manipal. Lookin at pics at me and the ex, in our first few months, before things went haywire. Funny i feel. How i used to think that, it was her changin, when all along it wasnt. Funny, i used to think. Think.

Movin along, didnt realize i had so many shot s of Sam. Sam with hair, sam bald, sam in udupi. Why did u go u daft cow...

Snow Patrol - Run.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess....

Monday, November 14, 2005
Yea. Apparently i m married. Hahaha... to Spoon somemore. Lol. Shalini Pillai somthin somthin somthin... and THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO BELEIVE IT... Hare Ram... It all started last week when i told Eash i was goin home for the weekend. She asked me why, so instead of tellin bout Indran's weddin, i told her i was goin to be engageged on Saturday, and married on Sunday. Indeed. She s buyin me a blender. So, like a snowball, things escalated, and to the point people asked me today bout spoon. Hahaha...

Why spoon? Cause of the Matrix. There is no spoon. Lol. Pretty suprised that Sanj didnt put 2 and 2 together but then again who am i kiddin? Most people didnt beleive me. Lol. So i left after lunch on friday, and once again almost died on the highway, when i almost fell asleep. Stopped in Seremban, where 2 cans of Mocha Flavored Nescafe Coffee worked wonders. A bit the confused, but nevermind. Made it home in one peace.

The weekend was quiet, as the klang people werent informed bout my return. Actually i didnt tell em. Why? cause i wanted to be with the keluarga, which i did. Indran's Ponnurukku "err... somthin la" was on Saturday morning at 8, so that meant wakin up at 5. Cis... Decided to sms a few people at that time, which, well... didnt go down to well la... hahah... ai... The whole ceremony went without hitch,so well yea... there are photos, but malas to upload. Maybe later la...

Due to certain "circumstances" the weddin was in KL. So that meant wakin up again at 5, which again i annoyed people by sms in em at the time :) whee... The drive to this place in Kl was freggin annoyin. U see, the reason people put up a ribbon on the car is to indicate a weddin group, so for fucks sake, give way la... Kanninne... can horn some more. Cis. The temple itself was a class of its own la... So was the Mappillais S500 but that s a different case. Yea, the weddin itself went without hitch, nice food :D but no nasi kandar la...

Jumpin forward to Pudu bus-stop. I m never goin there again... i m gonna sleep after tellin u that, i ve been givin so much fake smiles over the weekend, i cant stop smiling. Maybe because of someone. Lol. Oh and try figurin out what Ayeee Kiloh means... night.

Thursday, November 10, 2005
Eyea... Justin came over last night around 12 to do "repairs" on his blog. From what i ve inferred, Vj's sister was unaware of the nature of the accident, and stumbled upon Justin's site, which explained the accident to a tee, and well, had an emotional outburst with her dad, causin him to take the next flight to states to be with his child. Fair enough, but the reason i m bringin this up is, was what Justin did wrong? I mean, he put up his thoughts, which is the truth, whichever angle u look at it. The fact of the matter is, the accident happend. We all know the circumstances of the accidents. We know what happend. That being said, i believe i was non the wiser, with my comment s at the time. I guess i was lucky then that no one from their family came upon my blog. Ai... still so much problems...

Anyways, on a much brighter note, was watchin "Malaysia 's Most Beautiful" on tv8. Not too bad. They had like 15 contestants, and of course, 1 Punjabi gal, and 2 indian gals. U know where i m goin with this, but it'll be a waste of cyberspace. So i ll get to the point, i.e. comments.

" Why am i gonna win? Cause i got this *points to her bust, which was quite inviting if i may say so* and this *points to her ass, which if i may say so again, is equally as inviting*.
"i am single single, *somethin somethin* i m not a double cheeseburger yet..."
"Why am i in this competition? The prize money. I want money"
and the one which takes the cake, " No one can say i didnt sacrifice for my children".

these are not exact quotes la... to my best memory. Indeed. Goin back to klang tomorro for the weddin. Yes. The wedding. Yea. See ya...

Wednesday, November 9, 2005
Last night me and the dam, went to Jusco. I needed to get some "healthy food" so i went to the smoked meat section. The had these frozen cut meat which was, suprisingly, at a 50 % discount. Hmmm... on further inspection, the mystery was revealed. Fuckin meat is gonna expire today (as in yesterday was the last day to consume the meat). Freggin unproffesional in my opinion. I mean, what if the dude doesnt check the dates? Wait... wat am i talkin about... if he falls sick, i make money.... no wait wait. that s not the point... unproffesional... cis... Aight... later kids...

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless. You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

Wednesday, November 9, 2005
Hmmmm... been havin mixed feelings over things. Same as before, i m sure i m feelin messed up over choices i ve made, which i believe are the right choices. Said it many times now, right choices are not nesc the choices which make u float away. I m payin for the choices i ve made, and i know that u know what i mean. After all i know ur reading this. With this being as open as an entry it is, if u do know what i m talkin bout, u know how to contact me. If u dont, well then... Maybe i did make the choices i m supposed to...

That banditto thingy from Kfc is yummy... *yes i know it s non relevant, but its yummy...*

Monday, November 7, 2005
Things which happend in Kajang on Raya day 1...

1) Kajang Godfather : Ur Fat.
2) Selva Sir has given up pork for reasons which increased my mother s paranoia that i will have to carry a Kavadi in Mecca...
3) I m gonna get money randomly from relations for another 2 years...

So far there are 6 people who have had the balls to say i m fat... shit.

Sunday, November 6, 2005
yea... left for klang and reached home safely last friday. Reached home and was in the shower when someone knocked the front door. Apparently my neighbour, Mr & Mrs Khoo, decided to give me 200 rm for deepavali... So my mum took the money, cause well, i was in the shower... So, when i come out, my mum pulls the guilt tactic...

Ma : Mrs Khoo gave u 200 Rm, i think u should give Mani (Dharma) half...
Kuhan : O_o errr... whatever...

So the nxt day, my brother calls me...

Dharma : be there at 8 (PM).
Kuhan : Ok...

So me and my mum leave for Tesco and then to KLIA where the flight from Melbourne comes in at 845... 845. And what he brings from aussie? Krispy Kreme doughnuts... yes. ok la... it tasted a bit better than Dunkins... but.... u know... right. Went to lotus. The food there is not as great as their lightin. Rice was cold, eee.... it was not banana leaf food. Chis...

The rest of the days was blur, but highlights include, gettin 500 bucks from the finance minister (mother). Deepavali came and went, had a mini open house where few people came over, and pictures were taken, but since the camera is in klang... so well, it ll be up later. Someone who came made a mess at my house, sayin somethin bout me shaggin a sheep or somethin to that effect, with my mom in the opposite room... so lets just say next year s gonna be a bit different la...

Radiator fan gave way on from Brickfields (full of indian people) to bangsar. So had to leave the car there, and take the train back to klang, and in the process, missin out on Zouk with the gang. The thing which disappointed me the most is, the car let me down. Sure 13 year old vehicle, but the thing is u trust it and its lets u down... maybe i should start takin better care of it. Was lucky it was in bangsar, not on kilometre 127 on the highway... ai...

Left klang this afternoon to beat the traffic. Arrive in melaka, turned on the comp, to find it go "teeeeeeeeTTTT" and me go " cheeeeebye.... took it to the shop, and found out that the chips were loose, or what ever. Luckily under warranty... i m gonna sleep now... shite... now i remember why i hate.

Thursday, October 27, 2005
Yea. Just got back from a gettin the car ready (oil air etc) for the trip back. No mood to say much, so happy deepavali and raya to y'all. If anyone want s to drop by the house - 33728385. call ya :) cheers.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005
This is by far the stupidest post u will ever read in ur life. Last night, after postin the post, i went to watch liverpool play palace in the hall. So, heated up the ramly burger and watched the 1st half. At half time, disappointed by the match, i decide to sleep. I put the dishes in the sink, and go to my room. I replied Shakee's msg, *which was confirmed this mornin that the msg was sent at 335 am*, and went to sleep. I realized i had not set my alarm, so i set the computer alarm for 645 and the hp alarm for 655, noticin that the phone was oily from the burger and mayo. I go to sleep. I wake up this mornin at 645, and start usin the comp. Suprised to see Jeff up so early, found out he was takin Liana to the clinic. So, i do my stuff on the comp, and realize at 710, my hand phone alarm didnt go off... Which was not suprisin cause the fuckin phone was bloody fuckin missing. It was not by my bed, the house was locked, there were no signs of entry, my money as my housemates valuables were intact, and the only thing missin is my phone. My windows were open, but its grilled and basically, no man could enter. Which leaves the cat. The same one which come s in to the house to ransack the dustbin... I know it sounds stupid, but i ve cleaned my room and no trace of it. On top of that, when adam called the phone this mornin someone pressed reject and when we call now, it just keeps on ringin.... mother... Laugh at me if u must, but i think the cat panicked, smelt the phone and took it out as he did with the chicken piece the other day. Outside, someone must have found it and well... yea. I cant offer any other explanation... Thing is, my phone has a phone lock, so when u change the sim, u need to enter a PIN. So good luck with a worthless phone whoever u are... damn....

Does anyone know how i can kill a cat? Please advise...

Wednesday, October 26, 2005
So what happend last night was quite sad actually. Was told bout Shakee s suprise cake cuttin at Reubans place. Got Jeff and Adam and told them that we ll go at 1130. So, i take a nap at 11, only to wake up at 12 when Farah calls the orange house to find out where we were.... I go to jeff's room, and he s knocked out... AI... i also went back to sleep...

Woke up this mornin to figure out that my plans arent goin exactly as smooth as it should. I thought i had the perfect game plan set in motion, a 4-4-2 if u would, with 2 wingers, but without a Defensive Midfielder... I m gonna be struk when i least expect it but i do hope it works out... but as i said, by the look of things i may have to re-evaluate plans... *dont even bother*

So, Doc JK took class for one hour today and let us off. Discovered that the economy rice at Farmosa is 3.8 times better than the one at Sin Hoe. At Patho Lab this is what happened.

*most of the classmates where in the adjacent room, while 2 unnamed girls were lookin at the microscope and the computer. There was a lab tech lady lookin at another screen settin up malay songs on the computer when another unnamed friend of mine goes.... *

UNF : Eh, why cant they play hindi songs?
Kuhan : *stares blankly* wait. i sing for you. "dil to pagal hai... dil dewaana hai..."
UNF : Have u seen mooraz?
Kuhan : *thinking of hindi movies* Say what?
UNF : Have u seen morons? *points to the other 2 unnamed friends* Look at those two dumbfucks. They are acting like they've never seen a computer in their lives... *or somethin to that effect*
Kuhan : -_-"

Got home and watched a few more episodes of Lost. Its gettin very addictive. I think the difference is in the way that the character developement is such in away that, each one really has a long story on how they got there, and the acting is good. It deserves the accolades it received and i m hopin to finish season one on Friday while waitin for his flight to come on home... yea...

Shakee invited to whole gang to this italian place in Melaka Raya, which was unfortunately closed. So, we went to Bamboo Hut by the melaka river. Nice place. Syed was supposed to pick me up at 715... but somehow somewhere for reasons unknown to me, he came around 8 somethin... no worries there, made our way to the place and well, the food was in the range of good - excellent. Not too thrilled bout the pricing, but it was on Shakee, which came as a suprise. Througout the night, it was constant hammerin of Eashwary and Abhi. The thing is bout these two women are, they give me ammunition to make fun of them. I know they dont mean it, or make mistakes at times, but ere it is...

Kuhan : Eash, i m sorry for makin fun of u...
Eash : its ok ... its ok.... *puts 2 cent face*
K : *pokes her deltoids* waa... ur deltoids quite strong ah...
E : Yes, *points towards her flexed biceps* yes... my biceps very strong....

At this point the whole table is in stiches. Abhi was a bit less unfortunate. As we were assumin the food was gonna be minimal, i told syed bout this place in Bt Berendam which serves Burgers with apples, *dont ask, i m not lying* when abhi interupts. Sensin a perfect con i tell her that syed and me are planning to go to Durian Tunggal *aplace bout 45 mins from ere* to have burger. I told her that the burger was a special 6 buck ramly burger, with chicken, deer, eggs, lettuce and apples. And she actually believed me... :P lol. Theres a few other things which happened, which i will not elaborate on... but do ask me, and i ll tell u. indeed. There was a lot of singing, and also a dude singin bout some ballsless husband or somthin, but it was a fun hang out. Yea...

Here are some dilbert quotes -

"It's so cold I'm getting goose nipples!"
“I'm as full of vinegar as a Christmas turkey.”
“You can stop kicking this dead whale down the beach and find another hobby horse to beat to death.”
"One man's trash is another man's garbage."
“I think I was speaking to Tom, and if it wasn't Tom I'm sure it was someone else.”
"Check the pulse on the temperature."
"He's making a mole hill out of an issue."
"Don't look at me in that tone of voice!"
"I home school three children and am expecting a forth!"
"This is the worst headache I've ever had in the history of my head."
"Imitation is the sincerest form of mockery."
"The squeaky wheel gets the worm."
"You're not the smartest peanut in the turd."
"I'd give an arm to be ambidextrous!"

and ere are the pics....

this is Abhi and 4 pics of the same group.

and finally... after a year of leavin the wasteland, and 3 fuckin years of no emails, my india bank emails me this shit...

Monday, October 24, 2005
nothings been goin on. so i ll leave u with two things. Sometimes doin the right thing makes u feel so fucked up, u wished that u could just drop everythin and run away. Yea.

2nd thing is with deepavali comin up, i see indian people shoppin thru their noses. I mean, sure, festival of lights, new clothes, fine. But when ur income is less than 2000 rm a month, and u buy a 1000rm saree for urself, *not including your kids* its gonna be hard. When i was growin up, my mum used to send us to Jusco/Klang Parade with 100rm each to buy clothes. I used to complain like crap then. Lookin back now, esp this deepavali, my mother mentioned somethin bout havin an open house, i m wonderin, why the hassle? Is it wrong for me to not want an open house *i know i m deviating a bit here*. So yea. Anything goes i told her. It would be fun to have people over. After all, this would be the first time since i was 18 that the whole family are together for deepavali.

Goin back to the indians. Why? If my mum had done the same, as in shop for thousands of rm, i probably would have ended up in some technical college doin something else. Maybe i set my standards high, maybe this happens in all races. I may be goin out on my neck here, but the indian community are like crabs. U know what i mean. I see indian people, and i m not too happy. Maybe i think too much... but then again, if u hav no idea what i m talkin about, go to Jln Tengku Kelana this week and next. Then talk to me. Sleepy...

Sunday, October 23, 2005
Was supposed to be watchin Liverpool play Fulham now, but instead of that match, which the twips lost 2-0, ESPN is airing the Charlton match. Whatever. Was playin FM06 demo last night. Was not doin to well, and decided to sign some key players, Fernando Cavenaghi and a Turkish Wing Back. So these two joes were due to arrive on 1st Jan 2006, while the date was Nov 15th. So having two months to play, i played till round 230 am, knowin well i had 2 lectures in the morning. At 230 am, when the game hit 1st Jan 2006, it auto-saved and said "thank you for playin Football Manager 2006 Gold Demo Version" Kanninne.... wasted my fuckin time... cheebye...

Went for class and then followed Syed, Loges, Shakee and Reuben to Segamat to visit Sam's parents. The journey there was thru winding kampung roads, which if Sam was alive, i would have given him stick for. Lol. His parents took us to the famed Shanta Curry House, where i have to agree, the mutton lived up to the standards and hype that Sam put it up to. Ere are the pics.

This is Shakee bored.

This is me and Loges bored.

and this is Loges's ears.

There s one other picture that will be put up if approved, but i doubt it la... Anyways, made it back safely and went to Bukit Beruang to pray. After last nights indecisions, i ve made *another* stand. Maybe it s time i start being aggressive and be less withdrawn. I know the errors i make, but as i ve said, it s enforced. Cant have that cloud over my head. So yea...

If ur tryin to understand me, dont. People readin this should know that the entries are not for u, but as a record of my thought s at a particular time. Yea. Have nice days kiddos...

Saturday, October 22, 2005
*this is last nights entry, as strymax was down* I ve been thinkin of what i want, or rather what i need to do all this while, to make my life easier. I have. I do what i need to do. I m not too proud of it, but i do it. But it hurts when its done. I know to say fuck the world, but its not that simple. Things are gettin complicated. I cant trust the people i want to trust, i cant lie to people who need to be told lies. Things aint that bad, i may be makin a big deal outta things, but this being a referaral of my past, let it be known, that i do what i do, in my best judgement. If i hurt u, i did it on purpose but its not my intention for it to be like this, the situation we are in. If ur readin this, i m not apologizing. I m just surviving the best way i can.

Thursday, October 20, 2005
i like people too easily. i fall in and out because of the fact i can. ai... they know bout it and they are tryin to make me know that they know. shit.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I could go on and on bout how great Com Med postings are... especially after psychiatry. I come back at 11ish, sleep for 2 hours and when i wake up at 1 somethin, i m happy, cause i dont have afternoon classes. whee... watched harold and kumar go to white castle again. Fuckin awesome show. Esp the cheetah part. Fuckin good show. lol.

So, i went to give blood. First time in my life, so picked up loges and we made our way there, and being the earliest few, didnt have much of a que infront of us. Filled up some forms, and ticked the box sayin i had a tattoo done in the past year. Apperently that 11 month s is enough... hmm... whatever. It didnt hurt as much as i thought it would. The most it hurt was when the plaster pulled out my hair. That was when loges told me that a local was given... cis. Best part, after givin blood, we were offered milo kurang manis. What the fuck? U give blood, and ur tired, glucose should be the best shot in. That wat i think la... what do i know?

While shakee and eashwary was donatin blood, or goin to rather, i traumatized them by puttin on my best Russel Peter's face and went "Somebody's gooooona get hurt reeeeeealll baaaad". Told a few people that the needle was at least 10 inches long, enters the brachiocephalic vein and causes their eyes to twitch. Hehehe... I think i managed to piss a few people off, including someone who told me that she drank last night. Drank what u ask? A mixture of orange juice, carlsberg, 7-up, Punch cordial and buah buaham tempatan. What fruits? Durian and nangka... twip.

Someone i know has a new hair cut and she looks hot :P hehehe... hmmm... went to Peringgit Pasar again to get a stash of Murtabak and Ayam Perchik. I m gonna die when i m fourty. Yea. Not gonna get married, chances are by then my mum would have kicked the bucket (she d be 80) so, no responsibilities. Unless i improve my diet. Then probably i ll live till i m sixty or somethin. ai... fuck.

i m gonna sleep. Liverpool are gonna whoop Anderlect tonight. Cisse hattrick, Crouch 2, Morientes 2. Yea... i m so fucked.

Monday, October 17, 2005
Yea. Com med rocks. Classes from 9-11 and i m free for the rest of the day. LOL. So, i come back and sleep. Yea and get fat. Indeed. Abhi and Deeps were raving on and on over this Nasi Beriyani Tanam at Peringgit Ramadhan shops. Decided to test the hype and went. Delicious to say the least. Mutton was soooo tender. It just fell off the meat. yea...

Shakee kept her word and made the cheese cake today. It was alot bigger than i expected but hei... cheese cake is cheese cake. Here pictures of the cheese cake disappearing or reappearin...

this is man and Fippo in the kitchen of the Orange House jamming, and The Ipoh Twins in the Hall.

The Residents of the Orange House and Liyana.

Sunday, October 16, 2005
Yea. Psych end posting went ok. The pain was writin the reports. Didnt know how to formulate the cases well, so hopefully the mcq s would push the marks up, as these marks count for medicine internals. Medicine. My techniques are just short of fucked up. Massive. Need to do somthin bout that.

I m a messed up guy. I know that. I have "insight". I make fun of people. I use the word fuck as often as i use please, and mind u, i am polite. Also, as i ve said before, i respond to people the way they respond to me. If u behave like a 5 year old, u are gonna be respected and treated like a 5 year old. I used to think i was imaginin these stuff, but i m not. You spend 10 mins around me u ll see what i mean. I know who to irritate, who not to. That also means, i find it bloody amusing that people get irritated and act as if they dont know how i behave. I ve said it once and i say it again, u tolerate my bad side, i m gonna take care of ur ass forever and i always try to be there for these people... indeed.

Anyways, psyche is over and done with. Was asked to comment on it by Dr Raja. I told that the posting s in manipal was a waste of time. Which it really was. I mean, communication is essential in medicine. History, no matter how simple, is essential. If u cant differentiate whether the patients mother or father has diabetis or hypertension... well , ur not gonna go far. really.

Woke up early this mornin as Jason wanted someone to follow him to the EON service centre. I m sill baffled on how people trust me with their cars to drive. Drove Jason's new Waja. Lol. Went there to find that he didnt not make an appointment. So at breakfast, breakfast mind you, i had Nasi Briyani and Chicken *and my mum wonders where my money goes* and came back to watch Ichobard Crane in Sleepy Hollow. Indeed. So i went to temple in the evening. Went in, and i see this chinese lady. Standin next to her is her beautiful daughter, who is Chindian. She's the kinda woman, who stands out. U know, when ur walkin on the street and u see this hot lady and u fantasize of living ur life with her, but in reality u know ur probably never gonna see ever again. Yea... made me happy a bit. Cause most of the times in the temple, u get the same indian girl in different punjabi suits... oh shut up, i dont go to temple to ooogle at women...

I m gonna sleep now. Happy Bday regi... dumb badger...

Wednesday, October 12, 2005
i dont like what i ve become.... as Sam used to say "shit......"

*edit* actually after much thinking and believe me when i say much thinkin, i actually realize i m still the same. Kanninne. Psychiatry is taking a piss at me. Mother....

Hope i dont change now... and as Sam used to say... "Shit..."

Wednesday, October 12, 2005
So me and the el fippo hit Subaidah *always thought it was Zubaidah* for buka puasa yesterday. Had a huge plate of Nasi Kandar, which means it was exclnt, yea. Lol. It was kinda funny that the table s caterin to the Malays had complimentary watermelons, while me and el fippo didnt have them. Didnt think much of it, till Fip said the same thing happend to her in KL with dates. Hmmm... but then again she looks cambodian while i m kottai. So yea.

Woke up at 655 again this mornin, to a beautiful rainy weather. So, naturally i go back to sleep, and missed my Com Med class this mornin, a first in like some 40 odd classes. Apparently the entire orange house residents all overslept. Lol. Wake up again at 9, get dressed and left orange house to Hospital. Usually i follow Syed from the Campus but since i didnt go, and it was raining i drove. Went to the manipal car park in the hospital, found it full, so had to drive around. Parked next to Shakees car, squeezed myself out, only to have an idiot shoutin at me cause i cant park there. Shrugged and decided to re-park my car along a ledge. Was parkin it when the car just slid down the ledge. errr... how to say ah... ai... nevermind. No damage tho. Went round lookin for space to no avail, eventually me parkin right in front of Syed's car and rushin to the ward.

I arrive there at 950 * a half hour journey for a 3 minute walk* to find no lectures. Apparently it s occupational therapy day. Yea. Class was for 10 mins only. Cis... but attendance is attendance. Yea. This song keeps repeatin in my head.

Bruce Springsteen - Streets of Philladelphia.

I was bruised and battered and I couldn't tell
what I felt
I was unrecognizable to myself
Saw my reflection in a window I didn't know
my own face
Oh brother are you gonna leave me
wasting away
On the streets of Philadelphia

I walked the avenue till my legs felt like stone
I heard the voices of friends vanished and gone
At night I could hear the blood in my veins
Just as black and whispering as the rain
On the streets of Philadelphia

Ain't no angel gonna greet me
It's just you and I my friend
And my clothes don't fit me no more
I walked a thousand miles
just to slip this skin

The night has fallen, I'm lyin' awake
I can feel myself fading away
So receive me brother with your faithless kiss
or will we leave each other alone like this
On the streets of Philadelphia

Monday, October 10, 2005
I think they know. I ve been carefull but i think they know. i didnt tell them, but they know. If they dont know, they at least suspect it. They dont know that i know that they know. Damn... hopefully shit doesnt hit the fan...

I m gonna be quiet now onwards...

Sunday, October 9, 2005
Yea. Last week when i was back home, i went to my old room *the back room* to look for my comics. To my dismay, my witchblade comics have disappeared. Cant be bothered bout that anymore, so decided to look for my old wrestling tapes. I find an old dunhill box in the bed rest and i leave it on the top of the bed rest, not payin any attention to it, cause obviously it belonged to the ONLY smoker in the house. So as i said, not payin any attention to it, i left it there.

This mornin i get a phone call from Sherlock Holmes, i mean my mother, who decided, with the polycythemia report *thick blood*, that i have taken up the habit of smokin tobacco. Me. Smoking. Dunhill. Right. Why not? I'm thinkin when i start workin, maybe i shouldnt keep syringes and needles in the house, lest she suspects me of being an intravenous drug abuser... Right.

Saturday, October 8, 2005
woke up this morning to Sahur with the residents of the orange house at 430. Had an excellent spread of rice, dried chilli chicken, and sotong sambal. Lol. Jeff’s mom is da best. From Pau Ayams, to dried chilli chicken… lol. So, went back to sleep. Woke up again at 645 but the weather was perfect. Was cold and rainy. Lol. Just one of those days. Went back to sleep again, missing morning’s e.n.t lecture, which I got attendance accordin to jeff, and also psychiatry, which I don’t need attendance. So yea…

Went for dermat in the afternoon. My last day there. I figure most people are gonna enjoy their dermatology postings. A/c room, chairs… yea. Also over the past week, I met a doctor whom I don’t think I wanna make a role model. I mean, almost all of the MMMC/Melaka GH staff make good role models, no doubt bout that, but I met someone, not affiliated to MMMC, who made me think bout his ideology of medicine. Not gonna elaborate on it more here, if u want to know, ask me on msn. I’ll tell u.

Copied and posted Kanye West’s Gold digger lyrics as testimonial s for a few people on Friendster. That should get some intrestin responses. Lol.

Many of u wonderin still how I got Hypercholestrolnemia?

Sahur – 430 am – Rice *one bowl*, Dried Chilli Chicken, Sotong Sambal.
Buka Puasa – 730 pm – Double Lamb Chop with black pepper sauce, The Windmill Special Chicken Sandwich, One Giant Coke.
Dessert – 830pm – Mars Ice Cream, one kit kat crunchy.
Supper – 1am- Nasi Kandar with Ayam Goreng plus Limau Ais at Zubaidah’s.

How not to die? Lol but then again I m not gonna sahur now… so yea… good night kiddos…

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Wednesday, October 5, 2005
Yeaps, fasted today. Not much a challenge I should say, with no offence to my muslim friends. All the trainin I got for fasting for thaipusam, makes this a real walk in the park. Lol… I can imagine opening my thaipusam fast with a KFC snack plate… hahahah…. Ok… nevermind. Private joke. Right…

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Kuharajan
2) Kuhan
3) Kuha

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Pedro Corleone
2. Estaban
3. Crow?

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair, bout 10 days after I cut it.
2. Eyelashes. Women have wanted it since I was 10
3. *censored*

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Gyneacomastia
2. My Tummy
3. The unability to grow a perfect goatee.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Shit blowin up in my face… *not feces shit, as in stuff*
2. People dyin around me without sayin goodbye.
3. Roaches.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My wallet
2. My keys
3. my phone.
soon to become:
1. stethoscope
2. pen light
3. knee hammer.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Metallica
2. Paul Van Dyk
3. u2

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. T-shirt
2. Shorts
3. a bemused look

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Darude – sandstorm
2. Paul van Dyk – Nothin but you (cirrus remix)
3. Time of your life – Green Day

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. i want her… lol.
2. support no matter what I do, into, whatever.
3. I want her?

2 TRUTHS 1 LIE (in no particular order - happy weeding that lie out):
1. I love her.
2. I want her.
3. I need her.

Have a field day lo….

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Eyes.
2) Sense of humour
3) Maggie mee….
Those who know me, know I like to fuck around with people s head…

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Irritatin the fuck out of people.
2. Eating.
3. Laughin.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Have her by me?
2. Have my psyche reports ready?
3. Sleep.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Surgeon – plastic, ortho, peadeatric.
2. Medicine – Resp, cardio.
3. Fishball soup maker. My kids will get 230 A1’s for Spm.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Goa… from manipal. Cause right now I m not makin money u see…
2) England – Anfield, OT, SB, Emmiretes Stadium, etc…
3) Espanyol – Camp Nou, Mestella, Berneabeu, IBIZA…. Wheee…

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Tell her
2. Visit Anfield
3. Treat at least one patient for every day of my life up to the day I die.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. My ahem
2. My beard.
3. The way I make fuck sound like candy.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. My gynaecomastia.
2. my eyelashes
3. hmmmm?

THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Penelope Cruz.
2. Peyton Sawyer. Told u bout the Maggie mee effect…
3. Meg Ryan. Same la…

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Fip.
2. Dharma.
3. Justine.

Good night kiddos…

Wednesday, October 5, 2005
Yea. Psyche this morning was a tad bit disturbing. A 7 year old kid was sexually abused by her driver. There were a few points which made it extra disturbing… even for my level of tolerance -

1) What kind of a mother lets her child sleep with the maid for 7 years?
2) What kind of a sick man being gets off with 7 year old kids?
3) Where does this sick man get off threatening the kids school teacher to keep quiet?
4) What kind of drugs are the parents on when they don’t fire a person suspected of sexually molestin their 7 year old daughter?

Fucked up world we live in. I m hopin the joe’s genitals are infected by 70 types of fungi, a few types of fleas, add a whip of Scabies, and in short, drop of slowly and painfully…. While we are there, add a whip… or actually a few whips too…. Even animals don’t rape/abuse their youngs…. Fuckin idiots….

Came back and went to Dermat class, which was made intrestin by my realization that the nonsense I learnt in Dermatology posting s in manipal, is ACTUALLY used in Melaka. Lol…. Saw this cutest lil fella who was running around. Scratched his head, and he wanted to follow me home. There s a difference when someone in a white lab coat plays with ur kid and when a normal person does it. I mean, with the lab coat, I feel the parents are warmer to me, when compared to just in normal conditions… yea….

Went and saw some results, passed medicine on the dot and did ok with ObG. Not gonna complain bout that, cause I KNOW how I did, and I m REALLY surprise with the marks. ENT was predictable. Failed. But so did some 65% of the class… hmmm… someone really surprised me though…. That leaves com med left. So, I win my bet with the Shakee. She has to back me a cheese cake now. Wahahaa….. and trust me, her cheese cake is da bomb….

Went then to watch Liverpool Fans vs Man U fans of Melaka Manipal. Lol. It was fun to watch the All Star teams (all of em are college regulars) Liverpool took the lead with a bit of confusion but the best was how man u equalized. A free kick (indirect) was awarded in the Liverpool penalty box, because the Goalie shouted “Lepas” or “let go”. WHAT THE FUCK??? I donno what to say. I ve watched EPL, La Liga, Seria A, Champs League… never seen such nonsense… donno from which kampong the ref came from… but then again, what do I know?

Got home and went out for dinner with Jeff, Adam, and Liana. Watched Sky High. Didn’t know anything bout the movie, but when I saw the Disney logo, I KNEW I was in trouble… useless movie. I d rather sit at home and watch Cartoon Network…. Kanninne…. Aight… gonna sleep. Gotta Sahur in bout 2 hours. Lol. I m fastin with the fools… God help me….

Tuesday, October 4, 2005
Eeeya… been back in melaka since Saturday night. Decided not to go to Penang that day as Indra had enough people with her. So left at 8pm that night, against advice of all family member s who were in the house that night. Yea. Uneventful journey bar one, but yea. Made it back in one peace and watched some footy with Justine.

Sunday rolled on by and Sam’s parents came down to settle some stuff regardin his books and their rent/deposit thingy. Not sure if those people still want to live there… but that’s their call… Developed some photos of the old boy and yea… they appreciated it. Gave his mom Sam’s teddy bear which was in OHbtD since the accident. She asked me to keep it, so there it goes on the top of the cupboard with the whiskey and gin.

Justine, Reuben, & Loges came over to watch the worst match (not performance) by Liverpool in the kop. Garcia kept on givin the ball away, Crouch was headin the ball down to be cleared by Carvalho and Terry…. It s non-sense. Still am amazed though on how Benitez fingers teams like Milan and Juve but fall short against Bolton and Spurs… yea….

Psyche and classes resumed today. Passed my Opthal semester papers on the dot. There were some markin irregularities but this time I m on the benificary side, so I guess I cant complain. Yea… gonna sleep now… night kiddos…

Saturday, October 1, 2005
eeeya... just got home. Woke up this mornin at around 2, where there was a missed call from sam's dad. Also a msg from loges, sayin that Sam's dad is comin to melaka on sunday. So, maybe that s why he called.... hmmmm....

Drove down to midvalley for the 1st time. yea i know, "what the fuck right?" but the thing is with my mom, she still doesnt trust me on kl roads... nevermind. Met up with Chien Mei.

*flashback* Chien mei is a girl i knew from primary school. She's the 2nd kiddo i liked back then after michelle. Lol. Sat next to her in std 3, and then all of a sudden, she disappeared in form 1, and now thanks to friendster, we meet up again after 10 years. *end of flashback*

So, in view of beating the rush hour traffic, i leave early, and wait for her in Coffee Bean, sipping on a pure choco ice blend, when i realize.... i m the only bleedin indian in the entire shop. So on, que i msgd people, tryin to find out why there are no indian s in coffee bean, when the answer came to me. THERE IS NO BRU COFFEE IN COFFEE BEAN!!! indeed.

So, CM came, we had a conflict in intrest in the food choice, as we both didnt know where to go, and ended up in Manhatten Fish Shop or somethin like that. While orderin ...

Kuhan : I ll have an iced lemon tea without ice *as in sejuk la boss*
CM : *looks at me weirdly* then why iced lemon tea...?
The waiter : *giggles*
Kuhan *donno wat to say...*

The food was good. Ordered baked garden fish or somethin, and it came green. I was like... "ai, should have ordered fish and chips" but suprisingly it was good. Definately goin there again. So, we chatted and caught up on old times *did i mention she turned out to be one super hot woman?* and a bit more. Funny how i remember stuff bout people from way back, like in std 4 when someone told the class, she had an orange *as in the fruit* tree and and apple tree as well in her backyard. lol... those were the days.

Decided against the movie, as the crowd was heavy, so we made our way to Faizal Khan's dads shop in Shah Alam. Spent the next 3 hours just talkin bout how things are, how people turned out... lol. Its fun catchin up. Next agenda is to gather people for a mamak reunion in klang. Lol. It ll be good to see Suhanthan, devan all again... ai... off to bed. Drive to penang tomorro... ai... night kiddos....

Thursday, September 29, 2005
does anyone know how to get rid of that fucked up feelin which creeps every now and then at the bottom of the left ventricle? and no... its not a heart attack...

Thursday, September 29, 2005
I have high cholesterol. Not of the good kind. The one i got predisposes to heart attacks... the fuck? also i ve got thick blood. Indeed. How do i deal with this? i curse and swear. The thick blood - is more often than not, seen in smokers... kanninne.... Guess its more exercise and less jiki's satay... hope i dont end up like me dad... eeeya...

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Liverpool Chelsea... on paper... Gonna get hammered. Lets see... yea...

For those who were there at Sam's service and heard the dean, this is actually wat Sam thought of Melaka Manipal ...

"See.There are only three things that are absolutely essential for a normal human life.These are food,clothing and shelter.

I don't ask for anything fancy-i have no use of airconditioned lecture halls,or lecturers who wear jeans to class(?),or a freakin bowling alley,i ask for only those 3 essential things and..i don't get them.

1)Food.How many times have i gotten diarrhea since coming here?2 million and fourty eight?It seems that an essential ingredient to all preparations here are V.Cholera(if you don't know what that is,you need to repeat micro 18 times.That'll take you 9 years),capsicum,and sweat.

2)Clothing.The last time i bought a shirt at dollops,it tore into eight pieces as soon as i wore it.That's how freakin lousy the quality was.They make it from newspaper,and color it with bilirubin.

3)Shelter.I stay in a room which leaks when it rains,and nevermind paying bills in excess of a thousand bucks,there's hardly ever electricity.

I have more to type,but thi"

Thats Sam for ya... =)

and this is me bored...

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate. At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating. When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism. In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative. Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels. You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

C

You tend to notice the big things in life... But the details aren't exactly your forte

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Yea… Jeff came up from melaka yesterday. Picked me up and we made our way to Brickfields, to get the study loan forms from a non-profit organization. The thing bout b-fields is, its full of Indian people. Full of Indian people. Did I say it was full of Indian people? I thought I was in Manipal again. U get Indians of all backgrounds – the estate rappers, the urban rappers, the established ones *who cant live with out Bru coffee* , the half way there…. Basically everywhere. From KFC, to the Makan shops… Indian people… Why am I goin on and on? Cause in melaka only got malay people… heehe… as u can see I m bored…

So got the forms, went to Imbi, as Jeff wanted to list some pc parts. Went to M-valley to catch Flightplan. Decent watch, but the funniest part would be the prejudice part of Americans towards middle eastern passangers. Eeeya… Nothin much happened. I like Midvalley. There s so many beautiful people there. Too many. U can just sit for hours and people watch. U ve got the Chinese ladies, the malay women, the Indian akka’s… as well as a whole lotta others… When compared to mahkota parade in melaka…. I cannot curse enough…

Woke up at 645 this morning as we were supposed to go up to gentings. Plans got shelved halfway, so picked up Adam and it was an Orange House reunion in KL. Spent the day again at midvalley, this time bowling, arcade and at a local Cybercafe… what else to do la… Got a pleasant surprise when someone called. Made plans for Friday night. Lol…. Went to Salmon Steak. Food s still AMAZING there…. Prices have gone up but yea… Tired sial…

Shakee msgd me earlier in the day. Looks like I m not the only one thinking of Sam when songs are played. Thing is, the fucker liked most of the artist I liked, U2, green day, matchbox20, sarah mc Lachlan *where I got pedro Mc Lachlan from* , so it s quite the fucked up when these songs are playin on my playlist and on air… heh… the difference between Gareth and a bucket of shit…. Heh….

Monday, September 26, 2005
Its kinda fucked up being alone and suddenly Sam come s into the picture. Just that fucked up feelin in the corner of the heart. You wanna deal with it, u think u ve dealed with it, but its just there no matter what.

I ve learnt how poisonous my tongue is over the few days. I wrote bout liverpool and milan being in the finals months before it happend. I wrote bout Liverpool winnin the CL months before it happened. Everyone, spare one, whom i said would fail unis have failed "and still are". I told the gang that day in klebang that shit was gonna happen if they drank and drove... few weeks later it did. That day in pschciatry, i told shakee " If sam dies today, its gonna be my fault" and he died. The fuck....

So, here it goes la... all those readin this, shit all my friends, are gonna pass their unis, both 3rd year and final year unis. No ones gonna die till their at least 60 and have one grandchild. She s gonna be mine. Hope this makes some amends...

Monday, September 26, 2005
Eeeyea. Stayed in last night after watchin Liverpool play. Was tired, but still stayed up late on Msn. Woke up this morning round ten to go eat Dim Sum with an uncle and his family. Dim sum is over rated… 5 of us, 3 adults and 2 kids and the bill is 64 bucks… I was like …. The fuck? 64 bucks can have 5 course Chinese meal man… sweet sour pork…. Drool….

Anyways, went to a distant relation’s house for some prayers as my mom’s family gave food. So there I am surrounded by these 3-9 year olds, from my cousins to my nieces and nephews… as I m sittin alone, cause there s no one in my age group there, these kids are playin around me and suddenly they come up to me…

Kid #1 : Anna, why u so lonely?
Kuhan : Errr….
Kid # 2 : Anna anna… sing la the lonely song…. “loneeeeely…. I m so loneeeeely”
Kuhan : *palpitation + crepitation + ronchi + hypertension* shooo shooo go away….

Luckily we left a few moments after that. Jeff’s comin up to klang tomorrow, also there s a rumour abhi will be in klang… so we see how that goes… night kiddos…

Saturday, September 24, 2005
Just got back from mamak. Keepin it short, I ll relate a story Suhairi told me bout mat rempits.

“so, I am workin in secret recipe la. There were a few extra boiled eggs, so I went to La boheimea *or something* and got their mini bread loaf (about 8 slices), added some mayo and stuff and made an egg salad sandwich la. I cut it into half, and gave my co worker *who’s a mat rempit* half, while I ate the other half. Then word spread, and the next thing I know is all the other mat rempits want the sandwich and they buy 2 Jumbo loaves of bread from La Bohimea *or something* and expect me to make the sandwiches. So I boil the eggs and make la… after eating u know what they told me? “Wei, soh… power la sandwich ni…. Rasa macam kat England la…”

That’s mat rempits for you…. Navrin left for manipal. Really donno what s goin on, but I think nothing. Which is funny, since I rarely think. Yea… lalalala…. Good night kiddos…

Friday, September 23, 2005
This aint a song for the broken hearted…. A silent prayer for the faith departed. Happy birthday Sam… Fuck dude, should be 23 on 23, but u aint here u bitch. Lol. Fucker s havin champagne and caviar instead of Jack Daniels and chicken 65 =)

Woke up at 11, 12 , and 1pm respectively. Don’t ask. Had lunch and had to fast as I have to give my blood for random checkin. Basically a boring day till night time. Went to klang GH. Went thru the main entrance, which is reserved for Hospital Staff. So as I enter, this mean lookin female security guard stops me.

M.L.S.G : *growling* Where u goin?
Kuhan : I ere to see Dr Indra.

As soon as I say Dr Indra, she become s a bloody care bear.

M. L.S.G : Yes sir… go ahead…

Maybe there’s a different dr Indra there, I donno, but I was like…. “ooook”. Klang GH. I’m never gonna asked to be post there. Not on my life. Bloody hell, the ward was so full, it s horrible. Extra beds sprawled everywhere. In melaka we’ll be lucky if all the “regular” beds are full, but ere, its 12 A 12 b and 12 c. Bugger I got scared. I really donno how Indra keeps sane… Sigh. Looks like its melaka Gh for my housemanship. Gave my blood. Think I annoyed her when I asked if she knew what she’s doin. Hehehe…

On the way down, comin out of the door I came, I see the guard posted on the other side of the door. You see, in klang GH, they need security on BOTH sides of the door. *don’t ask why* So, the security guard on the inside tell s me to take the longer way out. Malas wantin to argue, I do. Just as I turn, the M.L.S.G from outside scolds the inside guard and tell s her I m related to Dr Indra, and they both ask me to use the door… Hmmmm….

Picked up Cheong Hui and hit esso mamak. Msged KC to join us. He said he d come at 1030. So bored, we msgd Ai Leen to join us.

Kuhan : Hei. We are in Esso mamak. Come la.
Ai Leen : Who else is there?
Kuhan : Me, Chew. Kc s on the way.

So u can imagine my surprise when she sms’s cheong hui….

Ai Leen : Are u in esso mamak with kuha?

Hmmmm…. That aside, I had a huge argument with Cheong Hui. Massive one. Nothin serious. Just the normal bashin we give each other but he did nail in a point. Whenever I speak to the klang group, as in when asked bout a disease, or its pathology, I drill out the answer in medical jargon. Correct me here if I m wrong, but I feel that’s melaka manipal. Everythin is textbook. It could be just my way of understandin, but I think he had a point that I find it difficult to explain terms and conditions in normal lay man terms. But then again, to be fair on my half, I’ve only had one years experience in communicating with patients, and half of that time was spent talking to people who

A) Did not like me
B) Did not speak English.

so u can pardon me on that. But the point was taken, and I do feel that perhaps I do need to brush up on my non medical jargon… but fun la.. arguing like that after so long. Apparently ai mei s not well.... hmmm... Aight… people waitin on msn…. Later kiddos… *edits*

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

Funny eh? how these internet surveys tell u more bout u than people who know you... wat the fuck right?

Thursday, September 22, 2005
Yea… Woke up at an unGodly hour at 745 to go to Chinnam Uncle’s place for prayers. Decided to stop by and have nasi lemak at Selva’s. Nasi Lemak never tasted as good as it did this morning. The sotong was perfect. The weather was perfect, basically, it was one of the better nasi lemaks that I ve had in a while la…. So, went to the prayers, where as expected, I was the only joe in my age category there la…. What to do… what to do…. Went up to my chinna mami…

Kuhan : Is there anything I can do?
CM : Yes, there s coke in the fridge….
Kuhan : *what the….*

As u can see, I was like a grey (black?) elephant. Anyways, prayers went by fast. I met my niece. She s gonna break a few hearts when she grows up. She s just so bloody cute. Would have taken pics if I had my camera. Both her parents are professionals, both have brains, both are good lookin, and both also have culture (I mean real culture) like bharatanatayam (which I cant even bloody spell). What I m tryin to say is, some people have all the luck la… lol… Met some of C. mami’s *Chinna mama -> my mum’s brother, Mami -> his wife* relations, who apparently have some one studying in MMMC. Gayathri Devi. The only G.devi I know is the 9th batch Liverpool die hard. Don’t know any other… So u can imagine my surprise, when this gentleman, calls her up and asks her bout me. Best part? She know s who I am. Lol… I ve said it once before, and I’ll say it again… Many people know who I am, that doesn’t mean I know who u are…. *ceh wah…. Cocky sial….*

So I get back and knock out. Went out with Indra for dinner, and made plans to go get a complete blood work out tomorrow. The works. TFT, LFT, FBC…. Doesn’t make much sense eh? Nevermind…. Will let u know the results….

Bored again so I sent out another SMS poll… “You are fishing in a lake. The lake has no fish. You catch a fish. What do u do with the fish?” the response was ….

Reuben : The fish is unreal.

Anusha of the MK : There is no fish la… so how to catch the fish?

The Shakee : Throw it back in.
Kuhan : Don’t u even wonder what you’re doin fishin in a lake with no fishes in the first place?
Shakee : Who said it was fishless? It s not possible.. could be ppl like wong releasing fishes every month.
Kuhan : Fair enough…
Shakee : =)

Abhi : its not a fish, ill throw it away…
Kuhan : *clap clap* you’re just a bit short of being brilliant.
Abhi : thanks…. Compliments from you are rare… good night!

I have wonderful friends =)

So, I was watchin this tamil movie, which I cant remember the title, but also almost fell asleep watchin…. So the movie goes on and this is what happens….

The hero is doin some accounts when his friend of 20 years barges in with his co worker…

Friend : This is my co worker. He “sincerely” loves a girl, but her father is gonna marry her off tomorrow. We have to kidnap the girl. He “sincerely” loves the girl.
Co worker : I “sincerely” love the girl.
The Hero : Leave me alone.
Friend : DEI!!! He “sincerely” loves the girl da… we have to do something.
Hero : Ok.

At this point, I turn of the television…. I need to be more productive… Off to modern for a Double Cheese naan and Tandoori… how not to be fat la… how???

Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Yea. Wanted to change the lay-out but decided against that, as I like the current lay out. I m stickin to pedro83. It s my outlet and it s done me well since I ve started. Hmmm… Went to class on Friday morning as usual. The morning lecture was fine, was kept busy by takin down notes. Posting on the other hand was a bit too much to take. Signed my attendance and spoke to Dr Wafa. The thing is about psychiatrists are they understand these things. There s even a topic in the textbook dealin with grief etc. Made my way home, packed my stuff and left for klang.

Reached klang in exactly 1 hours 45 mins and this was with a 15 min stop in seremban. Which is kinda weird as I didn’t touch 120 kmph… hmmm… anyways, got sleep. Getting a lot of sleep these day s which is not interrupted. Since the accident I ve always been waking up in the middle of the night, for no reason and fallin back asleep again. So, Friday, rolls by and Saturday morning I m told that Priscilla’s dad passed away. Apparently he touched a live wire in the Temple near my house and got thrown against the temple “Undiyaal” or money box and injured himself. I didn’t know him personally but he s been a very prominent member of the Temple council, and well respected. So I was in a bit of a cross-road. Based on my history with Priscilla, it would be best if I didn’t go but I managed to grab Cheong Hui and we went to the funeral. Paid my last respects, but didn’t see Priscilla. I mean, there wasn’t any reasons to was there?

The weekend rolled by uneventfully after that. Caught the Mancs and liverpool’s awful draw…. Things have to change. Chelsea is there. Its getting to boring… Kanninne…. As I mentioned before I m getting a lot of good sleep. Heh… from few hours a day in melaka, to 13 hours * 2 am to 3 pm* on a daily basis. Holidays are nice now. Perfect timing after the events of the prev 3 weeks. Cant help thinking bout what happened, why it happened, but I think over time, it s gonna be pushed to the corner of my mind, where hopefully it wont be as intrusive as it is now…

Speakin of which, I m moody. I don’t know when I picked it up, whether it normal or not, but I m just plain moody. Most of the times I m ok, jovial and all, but I go into these phases of just zoning out, indifferent to the world if u may, and become the most irritating specimen u ever knoe. I hurl out abuses I don’t even mean, heck I don’t even think about when I m me. I know this hurts people, but thank fully people shrug it off as its “just kuhan” but I need to control my thoughts, my mind, my mood and my tongue…. Went to Shah Alam to see Faisal a.k.a. the Mamak off. He s goin back to manipal to complete his clinics. He told me he s leavin at 730. So at 630 I leave my house.

635 – Sms received – “Faisal” – Hei I m leavin already. See u in 6 months time -

Called him and told him to wait… Fucker pissin me off only. Lol. Saw his grandma. She wasn’t too thrilled that I don’t visit her enough. His brother was chill but maybe he shouldn’t mock his brother like that…. Hmmm…. But what do I know?

Got back to klang, and took my mum to go see some relatives. Went to Chinnam Uncle’s place where his kids, and nephew s were there. The was 2 of his kids, and 5 of his nephews, 4 in the ages of 5-14, and one in the age of 27. So while talking to the 27 year old, who’s a nice guy, the 12 year old comes and punches me, calls me a shrimp, calls the 27 year old, a “bald fat guy who is 35” and does some power ranger ninja stuff hand movement. Bloody fool aint scared of me…. There was a time small kids used to get scared just lookin at me…. Cheebye… I m gonna stop smiling.

So I get home, and I m bored. Decided to send the following sms to a few ladies, just to see their response. “You’re about to go in to labour. You have a choice of 2 people in the labour theater. You get to choose from , ur mom, ur best girlfriend, ur boyfriend, or me.Who do u choose?” and the responses were weird to say the least. Some will be named, the others better left anonymous….

Hwai jien – Your bored right?
Kuhan - Yes.
Hwai Jien – haha =)

Ai mei – Err… Tough 1. All would probably freak out. I’ll just have the doc and a couple of nurses. Thank you. No, no, no chance of u fillin the role of the doc…

*unnamed* Mom.
I said 2 people.
*unnamed* or maybe Boyfriend, so I can curse at him cause its all his fault.
*unnamed* **again** If u think ur gonna look at my vagina , think again…

Shakee – My husband … not my boyfriend. Cause that would be bad on so many levels….
Kuhan – 2 people….
Shakee – ok. Husband and you, if ur the OnG specialist. If not, My mum I guess, but she wouldn’t wanna, so if she says no, my best friend.

Puts – You and my best GF. Y?

Eash – Y would I want u in the labour theater…. Unless ur my gynaecologists la….

Navrin – The doctor and I ….
Navrin – wait a minute. That situation just wont happen.

*unnamed* - I’d choose my mom cause she’s an OBG doc n my boyfriend cos DARN IT he gets me pregnant, he better be there or else…

Anusha of the MK – I choose you. Kuhan – 2 people…. Anusha of the MK – just kiddin, would not choose u. think my best friend girl and the father of my child. Thought I could freak u out by choosin you….

*unnamed* - my bf hoping he ‘s the father, and my husband, and you ,coz you’ll annoy me, enough to push the baby fast enough, and pound u good… hmmm…

So as I analyze all this… I m just thinking…. How many actually just answered my question with out addin masala and ajinomoto? Ai…. But its nice to be wanted… even for the wrong reasons….

I wanna take this time , to thank people who ve stood by me and my friends, over the past few weeks. Its been a bad time, but shit happens…. Hopefully everythin can regain some normalcy in due time…. Later kiddos…..