((05:35 p.m.)) James, you are a very nice person and a good friend so I will be brutally honest with you. Let me tell you a little story...a long long time ago, I went through some traumatic experiences that left me scarred and hating humanity in general, especially myself. Now, I have gotten over the problems that caused this trauma but there were some unfortunate side effects...mainly that I couldn't stand to be around people. I was already in my anti-social mode when you met me in the last year of high school. I don't know if you noticed it or not but my loathing of my surroundings was radiating off of me...this also explains why I spent two months skipping school. But by some miraculous chance, I managed to redeem my school marks, attend summer school (AKA. HELL) and get into a very good university...with an entrance scholarship to boot. Now, this made me feel a bit happy and partly re-established the belief that I am not a piece of trash and maybe life can be good again. But as usual, life is a bitch and it didn't turn out that way. Going to University was a very shocking experience for me. And by some horrible mistake, they gave my dorm room away so I had to live off campus with my older bro's two friends. Not a bad deal all around but it didn't help my anti-social nature since I could hole myself in my apartment and never go out. I spent most of first semester shutting people out, including my real life friends and mostly wallowed in my guilt and depression. The only people who really got to communicate with me were my online friends...because they truly are very kind and demanded nothing from me...so I felt safe. Actually, only one of my new blog friends REALLY knows what I am going through.

And this is where you come in, James. You see, I didn't ignore you because it was anything really personal. The fact is, I didn't communicate with almost anyone I knew in real life. Even the three people who I love from the bottom of my heart didn't hear much from me...and even when I DID actually want to talk to them, my computer broke down and left me stranded. I swear, it's like God knows just when to screw me over to be the most effective.

The good news is that I am mostly over this (or I wouldn't be talking to you). I am becoming kind of normal again and talking to people and actually stepping out my room which has become my sanctuary and my prison. Seriously, I don't even chat online much because I hate it...that 9 hour marathon with my Australian friends was because it is SO HARD to talk to them due to different time zones...and I was so happy to have seen them online that I momentarily forgot that I hate to chat.

But once again...I will be brutally honest. James, if there were any instances when I ignored you personally it's because you share one quality with my father that drives me up the wall. Basically, the habit of clinging to me and whining when I don't give you my attention. I have spent most of my life being my father's emotional crutch and having to constantly shower him with my love and attention...I finally put a stop to that and I don't plan to start it again...FOR ANYONE. If you truly were my friend, you would respect my need to alone sometimes and not try to be a petulant child about it. And I don't appreciate it when you try to bribe me with the idea of gifts and rewards. I am not a pet. The fact is, I am a loner and I will always be a loner. I like my silence and I like my singularity. Having friends is great but not if they pressure me to do things that I do not wish to do. The reason my three best friends in real life are the ones closest to my heart is because they know this. And they know just as I do that you do not need constant reassurances to know we are friends. I KNOW I LOVE THEM AND I KNOW THEY LOVE ME. I spend months not being able to see them because they all live far from me and usually I go weeks without a single word passing between us. But when we do talk again we just pick up right where we left off. Just that simple statement I have written above tells me that I do not need constant attention from them to reassure myself. I used to be like that and always needed some form of communication from them because I was insecure and I was afraid of losing them...but I have gotten over that. I know it is not an errant email or a phone call that defines my friendship with them. Distance means nothing. Words means nothing. I just know simply that I love them and that love does not come with conditions. So please James...do not demand things from me when I do not wish to give them. If you simply let it flow you will be surprised by how much attention I will give to you. I offer it freely if you can only take it without placing ties of obligation and guilt. That is one yoke I am unwilling to take up again...not for anyone...and not for you.

Friday, January 11, 2002

((02:56 a.m.)) Last night was just damn crazy. @_O;; Back into the more normal swing of things...although it is already 3 am. ^^;; But I slept a bit so I am not too tired...but I still plan to nod off after I am done with this post. Added three new blog links, E san, Masako san, and Shari san. *waves hello* Just wanna plug that Shari san is the fantastic artist to Sketch of Love. Go and read it folks! ^__^

I am once again blogging while handcuffed to my chair. This is becoming a nightly ritual. Why am I cuffing myself near my computer while typing my thoughts? Could it be my subconscious' way of expressing its enslavement to technology and the internet in general? Am I just becoming a toy to the computer while I live in delusion that IT is MY toy?

Fuck no. I just like being cuffed. Heheheheh...and it's pink and fluffy!! How can I resist!!?? ;_;

Satsuki chan, glad you like the layout. I can't remember the place I got the font but I can email it to ya. ^_^ It's a pretty small file size. BTW, have you got your package yet? *worried* After one of Lika's packages to Alison got destroyed, I have been very suspicious of the Canadian post. x.x;;

A lovely new layout for Reinselft. This time it's Sanji! ^_^ Guess what? I just discovered how to use brushes...but should I? I mean, it is a very handy tool and very pretty but almost everyone seems to use it...and they are the same ones from the same design site! >_<;; Should I keep my originality? *is torn* And Reinselft, it has taken 9 books for me to really like One Piece, but now I really do. ^_^ I mean seeing Sanji was a nice treat but I have now finally decided who is my favourite character...NAMI. That's right, Nami. She never made much of an impact on me on the previous books but wow!! I mean, I thought Sanji had it bad with being stranded on an island and Zef eating his own leg and shit but Nami had to see her mom killed right in front of her and had to suffer for 8 years working for the man that she hates!! And then he betrays her! @_@;; And that scene when she FINALLY turns to Luffy and asks for help...that brought tears to my eyes. ;_; I have decided that Nami is one of the coolest female characters in anime and that is rare since I hate most anime girls. *_* She is intelligent, sneaky, sexy, and a good fighter! *_* But first and foremost...I WANT TO SEE LUFFY AND NAMI TO GET MARRIED AND MAKE LOTS OF BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN TOGETHER. ^_^ Shocking enough for ya?

On other manga news, got to read more Shaman King which made me VERY happy. ^_^ Anna declares her love for Yoh (which gives Manta a heart attack), Ryu looks surprisingly hot with his hair down and wet (it's the Vash effect!!) not to mention the ass shot (!!!!), Amidamaru sees Mosuke again, and Yoh achieves the Over Soul technique. But the definite highlight for me was the intro of the new character Silva. *_* OH SILVA YOU HOTTIE. I love how he meets Yoh looking all sleazy with those sunglasses and his hair slicked back. *ROFL* And holy moly, that outfit of his screams "Please tie me down and do horribly illegal things to me!!" o_O;;; Just look at that shirt!! "YAOI ALERT!!!!" Buwahahahaa!!! Ok that was me being fangirly about Shaman King...

E san, thanks for the compliment but your blog kicks my ass to Jupiter. @_@;; But now I finally get the significance of that orange she is holding in your blog pic!! I was wondering why she looked so sad...and now I know. ;_; Poor Nami...I'll comfort her by distracting the hell out of her *handcuffs her to Meta's bed* HOHOHOHO!!! ^O^. I'll let Luffy have his turn after I have my way with her!! *cackles evilly* As for the Zoro doll, I guess I can always ask Terrence to order another doll. I am very chummy with him. I have this inside joke with him that all the money I spend in his store feeds his children and puts his workers through school. ^^;;; But it's still so weird ne? I still can't believe how this turned out...so fucking ironic!! ^_^ BTW, did you find my blog before or after coming to Canada? Just curious. And thanks for not using my real name...I hate it SO much and I threaten to skewer people with a kunai if they dare use it. *glares at the readers* I just gotta warn ya though, I plan to go to Toronto before May...so if you want anything, you better get Terrence to send it to you by post before I grab it!! *evil grin* But I did not get the Luffy diorama though. Did you get the little SD figurines of Sanji, Zoro, and Luffy? I wanted that for myself but that was gone too. ;_; As for James, oh I have things planned for him. *cracks knuckles* And he complains that I talk about you more than him? What a dork!! *kicks James* Well if you ever write in your blog I might talk about you more, baka yarou. ^___^ By the way, what is the real name of your blog anyway...it keeps changing. o_O;; Nice layout though...I know what a big fan you are of Belldandy. ^_^;;

Kee darling, I would love to be your gay lover in our next life. So shall we be the angsty duo or the sickeningly mushy couple? ^_^ I vote for angsty duo...maybe we can find a sakura tree or two. *laughs* And your editing job is fine! I don't know why you are always saying it sucks. ^^;; Ne ne...do you know when the next update will be? I need my Shaman King fix. ;_; Wanna see more of Bondage King Silva. *laughs*

Leareth, I couldn't really take a good look at that YnM doujinshi site you gave me since I was busy with the tarot but dang it's graphic!! @_@;;; Not as graphic as some other doujinshi I have seen but pretty heavy. ^^;; And if I handcuff myself to the bed, I will never leave it since I am such a lazy arse and I love my bed...almost as much as I love my computer. XD

Hey neko chan...I read up on some summaries and character info on Zetsui/Bronze since you like it so much. I knew the basic gist of the story but not much else. I have decided that it is a very twisted story with angst galore. ^_^ And Muraki's seiyuu is Koji? o_O;; And Koyasu is Izumi? >_<;; I swear, between those two, you can name off every single yaoi/shounen ai show. I will never forget when I met Midorikawa Hikaru and he said that once Koyasu got REAL close and whispered "Midorikawa san...you have SUCH a voice..." *CHOKES* And this man is supposed to be married with two kids???!!! I heard he was real chummy with Seki Tomokazu on the Weiss concerts. x.x;; Oro...seiyuu yaoi gives me brain tumours. >_<;;

Oh no!! Are you ok Lilack san? @_@;;; Perhaps you should sleep with your head elevated...in case this happens again, heaven forbid. And oh my...*looks down at her previous entry to her* I mentioned something about anime characters and nosebleeding...gomen ne!! I wrote that way before I saw your blog post! @_@;;; Gahh!!!

Thanks Rei san! ^___^ Oro? You are doing a double cosplay? How ambitious! ^___^ The Doll Master? Which character is that and what show? *is curious* I look forward to the lovely Kakashi pics! *_*

Kit, got your email and like the idea. ^_^ Shall we keep it our little secret? *snickers* I will send off another reply to it soon as possible ok? *huggles* Get better!!!

Thursday, January 10, 2002

((02:55 p.m.)) Holy shit. @_@;; Well my threesome chat with Leareth and Tsukineko ended about 20 minutes ago. Holy moly...I think I started chatting with neko chan at about 5:30 am...so that means we yakked for 9 hours!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!! @_@;;; Needless to say, I saved the chat. I never save chats (a personal habit) but I did for this one. o_O;; I mean, 9 hours of talking...damn straight I will save it! And no you guys can't read it...it's only between us. *laughs* I can honestly say that I am the Queen of Imsomnia. I was up all day, then all night, and then all day...and from the look of it, all night again. Yeah!! Two days straight without sleep!! Move over Kit, Meta is gonna takeover insomniac overdrive now!! You can be part time pimp. ^_^ You already are with all the manga you buy for people. *laughs*

Had a lot of fun doing tarot reading for them. I don't take the stuff seriously but it is fun. ^_^ But I am just an amateur ne!! The freakiest part was BEFORE the tarot reading!! I was so tired from no sleep and I was hallucinating...here is the short version!!

Metamia: Oh wow...I have reached another state of consciousness. *_* It's like...I am floating and I can hear bells tinkling...and sakura blossoms everywhere...that tree over there is telling me to kill people and feed it blood....
Metamia: @_@;; No sleep makes Meta coocoo
Leareth: bells ...? sakura ...? dead people ....?
Tsukineko: yeah lack of sleep high!
Leareth: meta-chan, are you telepathic or something?
Tsukineko: its pass the insomnia bit must be way over!
Metamia: am I telepathic? Umm...I have had dreams were stuff came true in an eerie fashion. ^^;;
Metamia: why do you ask nyo?
Tsukineko: kekek.
Leareth: because I'm idly working on a X'mas Eve fic with S&S ^^;;
Metamia: Oh really? With bells sakura and dead people?
Leareth: dead person, yes. bells, yes. sakura, not sure
Metamia: x.x;; Weird....Meta psychic....
Leareth: Meta-chan psychic, yes O_O;;;;
Leareth: Lack of sleep makes Meta psychic!

So there you have it folks. x.x; Deprive me of sleep for about two days and I become psychic. Sorry about the bad spelling and grammar...I was typing most of that chat with my hand handcuffed to my chair, courtesy of Miss Tsukineko and Miss Lilack's thoughtful gift to me. ^_^ They named it Fluffy since it's pink and fluffy. I love my handcuff...

Anyway!!! I did a reading for Leareth because she wanted to know if she will finish at least two fic series this year. ^^;; I will let her divulge my answer but I just need to say one thing...that thing over the King of Pentacles isn't that important Leareth!! In the end, that person only represents someone who might help you in your writing endeavour and NOT your romance life as Neko chan obviously wants it to be. @_@;;;; I still can't believe I misread the cards for the Knight of Pentacles instead of the King of Pentacles...they are totally two opposite men. x.x;; Sorry nyo...no sleep, darkish room, no glasses. x.x;; But it wasn't that important a factor in the reading anyway...the other parts were...you /know/ what part I mean. ^_^

As for Tsukineko, she asked about her romantic life. SO many people ask this question. ^^;; Well she posted my reply on her blog so go and read it there...she says that I got it pretty close. ^_^ How flattering. But then she said I got Leareth close too. How nice. ^_^;;; Just remember girls, it's only a game, don't take it too seriously. ^^;;;

Actually, while we were chatting, we briefly went to ODFM and glomped some bishounens. What's a girls' night out without men? Hahahaha!! ^___^ But oh my...I seem to have infected Neko chan with my earlobe licking/nibbling fetish. ^^;;; Down kitty, down!! And wow, the sexual innuendos in that chat room was just flying I tell ya!! *_* Oh my lovely girls. *hugs both* You guys rock!!

That was certainly an interesting night. *_* I wound't mind doing it again. *laughs* Oh yes, did I mention that Learth sent me pics of her trip? Now I know what Reinselft, Kit, and Masako looks like!! I love that pic where Masako is choking Reins! She looks so resigned to her fate!! ^________^

Ok I should really go now...kinda hungry...I'll write again later with more of a "variety" in the social blogging.

Thursday, January 10, 2002

((11:42 a.m.)) Still chatting. Oh gods...I am gonna collapse. @_O;; Marathon chatting!! Woo hoo! The topics are getting downright interesting. Tsukineko, this chat session has shown me just how evil you really are....GOOD FOR YOU!!! *hugs tight* I am so proud of you!! Leareth, I already have pics of me on the blog!! I look ugly enough in them...why do you need more disgusting pics of me? @_@;;; And I wasn't blinded by Ruthanne's blog! ^^; It's just that my eyes hurt from the monitor and I am in a dark room...it was just a bit bright nyo. ^^;; And hora!! Neko linked Esca's Gravitation doujinshi! It is funny ne?? ^__^ I believe Leareth liked the second one. Heh...I love fluffy doujinshi. *_* Ok!! Back to more chatting!! Just one question...are the three of us gonna do back to back blogging all throughout this chat session? o_O;;

Thursday, January 10, 2002

((10:42 a.m.)) Stayed up all night and yes my eyes are bloodshot again. Oh the price I pay for good cybersex with my two wenches!! HA! Just kidding! ^__^ But it really is fun chatting with them...I am still chatting with them! o_O;; Damn...am I not gonna get any sleep today?! @_@;;; They finally sent me some pics!! Woo hoo!! Now I can imagine what Leareth looks like while I fantasize about her in the shower!! *_* And yes I know you will be reading this RIGHT after I finish typing it!! Muwahahahahaa!!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2002

((1:00 a.m.)) I am still hungry but then I only ate one meal today. ^^;; My eyes are all bloodshot because I didn't get any sleep. Plus, I just got my period today. ^_^ Meta is not a happy neko. The no-sleep thing and no-eating thing is all good...I am used to that...but the fucking cramps just won't go away!! >___<;; I wish I was born a man! Curse dad's X chromosome!!!! And on that happy note, on to the social blogging I have been neglecting!! This is gonna be REALLY long folks!

Oro. you know what Kiri? I sound very stupid when I am online. Is most of the stuff I spew out in chat that idiotic? It's a good thing I am rarely online ne? @_@;; *hugs* Sorry to hear about your tires. It's not fair that Dave only lose one and you lose three. Maybe you should sneak out at night and puntcure two of tires...then you will be even. *evil grin* You can even blame it on me so I can face his wrath. ^^v

Oh my gosh! Those clay figurines are so cute!! How do you find links to these things? o_O; I swear, you are the Queen of finding obscure little stuff. And your rant on AnC is hilarious! ^_^ I have seen the whole series and I know what you mean. ^^;; The only saving grace of that Watari look-alike is that his seiyuu was Seki Tomokazu. *_* Seki sama!! I love!! *glomps him*

Just like to introduce myself to E Magnus san. Hello! Can I call you E san like the way Reins chan does? ^_^ I just wanted to ask you a question...did you by any chance get that Zoro doll at a Toronto anime store called Kikiwai? Because I saw one JUST like it on Christmas Eve. I was tight on time so I couldn't get it at the time but I went after Boxing Day...and it was gone. ;_; The owner told me that a man bought it...is that you by any chance? *is curious* And you know what is REALLY freaky. I read your blog and you go to the University of Windsor? Well I have a friend there named James...who has a girlfriend named Lisa. ^_^ You are his friend aren't you? *laughs* Oh man, this is so funny! I went to the same high school as James! I have met Lisa quite a few times too. Actually, I go to Western so I am only like an hour away from you. Did you go to Otakon last year with James and Lisa? Because I was there too. I met a few of his friends there...did I meet you by any chance? I can't believe this!!! It's a small world ne? I swear, it's like 6th degree of Kevin Bacon...but with Reinselft! I have lost count how many times I would meet people or go to websites and see her name. ^_^ She is very popular ne? BTW, your site looks great!! I am very envious! ^_^ I will add your link as soon as possible ne. Thanks for linking me! *very flattered*

Kee, I am happy to know that I am not the only one who wants to be a gay man. *laughs* I mean come on!! They get all the good stuff! I mean, I like pretty boys but I don't like manly girls. ^^;; But unfortunately most pretty boys are well...gay. I think we should start praying, Kee dear so we are reincarnated as gay men in our next lifetime. Or maybe for me as a bisexual man. *_* I still like pretty girls...just not scary muscled ones that could break me in half. ;_;

ACK!! Zankuro chan!! What happened to your blog!!!??? @_@;; *hugs tight* My condolences to your ill computer. I know how it feels to have a messed up computer. >_<;; Hope everything works out for you ne. *glomps*

*DIES LAUGHING* LAINE!!! I'm sorry...I couldn't myself..."but i do digress , why is my picture among dbz porn art ? ;;;_;;;" Hahhaaa!!! *pats Laine* Poor neko...your art has been defiled by DBZ porn. ^^;; As for the picture usage, well are they taking credit for your art? Because if they are, I think you should unlease those beastly artists. If not, I can always help you flame them. ^_^ I know someone who speaks German!! And she is a fantastic artist too!!

Oro? Are you becoming like Enma, Leareth? ^__^;; And I am being challenged? I have to warn you sweetheart, I play mean. How about a compromise? ^_^ A threesome! I don't mind sharing...as long as I get to be on top. ^____^ I mean come on...we all know Leareth is the submissive type? *laughs* Oh I love teasing her. ^_^

Ahh!! You are sick Kit ne-chan!!?? Oh no!! You need to rest properly! Even if your blood pressure isn't high, you still need to give yourself a break. ;_; Get lots of sleep ok? Don't be like me and stay up all night!! *hugs tight*

Ooh...Lilack san...thank you for the wonderful present. I love it. ^_^ Actually, my roommate Joe looked at it and he was scared because he said he has a phobia with being "tied down". My other roommate on the other hand was having more fun with it than me. ^^;; Ashley seems to like handcuffs. *coughs* That knowledge scares ME. ^^;; And ara? You like Final Fantasy 7 fanfics?! *_* Me too! Actually most people don't know this but a lot of the fanfics I read are FF7. ^^;; I am SUCH a Turk fangirl. I love Tseng x Rufus and Reno is just great. Actually, I just did a Turk personality test and I got Reno. Yeah! ^_^ And I am ALL for Cloud yaoi. *_* Seph x Cloud, Zax x Cloud, Vincent x Cloud...can you tell I like him as uke. ^^; Actually I got into doujinshi BECAUSE of FF7. ^^; Saw a gorgeous picture of Vincent and Cloud and I thought it was an actual comic released by Squaresoft...then I found out what it really was. ^^;; Kyahh...some of the random doujinshi I bought are very uh...nosebleed inducing. *blush* And I have read Twig's fic...just need to finish the last few chapters. I liked it a lot but it got a little weird toward the end. o_O;; Cloud went from this competant hardened General to a snivelling mess. @_@;; Some of his actions seemed almost out of character with the Cloud that she had established for most of the fic. ^^;; But that is just my lowly opinion. I really loved that incident he had with that female general. That was truly tragic. This is a really nice FF7 fic. So far nothing naughty but it is really good. ^_^ It is a bit of an alternate universe but I found it refreshing because it portrayed Cloud a bit stonger...not the usual crying mess he tends to be in pre-game Seph x Cloud fics. ^^; I lost count how many pre-game fics I read where Cloud is a whimpering idiot who almost gets raped (or does get raped) and Sephiroth rescues him and then they miraculously fall in love. >_<;; As for Cloud x Aeris, I had some doubts because I think Aeris loved him because he reminded her of Zax but they were very sweet. ;_; I still remember the shock I had when I was playing the game and Seph skewered her. >_<;; OUCH!!!! And oh my...this has gotten very long. ^^;;

Thanks Coanteen!! ^__^ Glad you like it! Did you enjoy the "bios" I wrote for the guys? *snickers* Actually, I was gonna make Gojyo a child pornography distributor and Goku into a serial rapist but I changed my mind. ^_^ I think the ones right now seem more likely ne? *hugs* Talk to ya later!

Wow Neko chan, you did a fantastic job!! *hugs* Omedetou! And I was useless to you so I can't take any credit. ^_^ But it was nice being able to chat with you. Bloodshot eyes are worth it if I can yak with ya! *snuggles* And you did good on the driving test too eh? You're on a roll! ^_^ I am scared of driving so I don't think I will be behind a wheel any time soon. ^^;; I envy you. @_@;;

Rei san!!! I wish I could see your blog properly but the pictures won't load up right. ;_; But from what I can see, it's the one where he is sleeping ne? ^_^ I wuv Kakashi sensei. Oro? My Kakashi pic? Do you mean the pic I was planning to make a blog layout with? And when you do cosplay as Kakashi, can you take lots of pictures? *_* I wanna see nyo!!

You're welcome Lika darling. Always willing to lend a helping hand. Tee hee! *glomps* Glad you like the layout. "Swanky" huh? ^_^ But soon, you will be able to enjoy Saiyuki too ne? *grins* That series has such pretty art. *_* And tell me what is a good time for you ne? Then I can call you and we can chat. *hugs*

WHEW!! Social blogging done!! ^__^ That was really long. Just like to annouce that I added some new links. *waves hello to Kei, Julia, Michiru, Lyn, and Vel'ithya* Thank you for linking me minna! ^___^ I also added two sites. One is Fukagawa which is Esca's fanart and doujinshi site. Really great stuff people!! Go and look! Also added one of my favourite fanfic site, Eros. Thera writes such GORGEOUS original yaoi stories. She is also a great artist and draws her own art for the stories. My personal favourite stories are "Angel Eyes", "Exit Running", and "The Walls of Astyanax". "Westland" is really good too...very...smutty. *coughs* ^^;; Go and read! ^___^

Ok...that is it for now. @_@;; I think I have caught up pretty well ne? More blogging tomorrow! *goes to sleep*

Tuesday, January 8, 2002

((06:23 p.m.)) Ok...it's done...it's finally done. I couldn't make a Kakashi layout like I wanted to but I like this one too. Oh so tired...so hungry. >_<;; I will catch up on all the social blogging but first I need to eat. @_@;;; Hope everyone likes the new layout...as for the "criminal" descriptions of the Saiyuki boys...well I can see them doing it. Can't you? ^^;;;

Monday, January 7, 2002

((03:43 p.m.)) Ok I am back in London. Been a bit busy with stuff. @_@;; I am planning a new layout so I might be a bit occupied today. But then, I haven't been blogging regularly in a long time. >_<;; Hopefully with the new layout and with everything settled down, I will be back to my old self. I have finally read some blogs though. What is this talk of Chinese women and prawns? I go away for a few days and you guys talk about this? o-O;; *laughs* And Leareth, who is this person that is challening me? We all know who you REALLY belong to. *evil smile*

Ok...back to work. I am having a lot of difficulty with this Kakashi pic. It just won't cooperate with me!!! At this rate, I will end up with another layout pic. >_<;; But I want Kakashi...

Tuesday, January 1, 2002

((02:50 a.m.)) Yahoo!! It's now 2002!! I hope this year will be better than the year before. ^^;; My resolution is to go to class regularly and do my homework. ^^;; I will try hard!! I wish everyone a very happy New Years! I am planning to get up early tomorrow for the Red and White show. Basically, it's a Japanese variety show just for New Years when a whole bunch of singers come on and sing. It REALLY made my day when I saw L'Arc en Ciel on it before. *_* They were singing Driver's High. Yeah GTO!! Maybe they will sing again ne? I am hoping to see Morning Musume just because watching them cracks me up. ^_^ Those girls are so cute. One thing bad about New Years is that since none of my family live in Canada, I don't get as much money. ;_; The Chinese will know what I am talking about. ^_^ Ang pow!! *laughs* Our celebrations are a bit different from the Chinese but we give money to each other too. ^_^

Gonna watch Lord of the Rings for the THIRD time tomorrow. ^^; My best friend and her sister wants to go for their second time. This is so strange because I rarely watch movies more than once in the movie theater. I only did that for Titanic and Gladiator and the second time I saw Titanic, I hated it and saw all the glaring flaws without the initial awe of it and I slept through Gladiator. ^^;; But LotR seems to be the exception. I do love Legolas but I think Aragorn is my favourite. ^_^ He is just all around cool!! I just want Legolas for raping/molesting/ravishing purposes. *_* Yummm...Elf...tasty. As for LotR yaoi...well I can kinda see the Aragorn x Legolas thingy but more like they are in the middle of war and there is no women around to get jiggy with. MUWAHAHAHA!! ^____^ I heard Arwen is not as promoninent in the book but I thought they looked sweet together. ^_^ And I am greedy because I want Legolas for myself. *coughs* Anyone seen real life pics of Legolas? I saw some GQ photos of him and he is hot!! Not in that adrogynous elfish kinda way but really masculine. o_O;; The difference a $3000 wig and make-up can do to a guy. @_@;;

To all the people I owe emails, I shall get to it soon. ^_^ My uncle left for Florida this morning to visit his family so he said I can have the run of his computer until I go back to school. Yeah!! Regular internet! I have so much to catch up on my keepers list. @_@;;

Sunday, December 30, 2001

((12:54 a.m.)) Wahh...I have to go to sleep soon. @_@;;; I just finished my homework for my TESOL lessons. We had to get in groups and plan out a 20 minute lesson on something. @_@;; One of the memebers suggested adjectives concerning texture. Wow...so exciting ne? -_-;; Anyway, most of the people in my group were extremely old (they are already retired) and one of them doesn't speak English that well. She has a very heavy Russian accent and I don't think she will make a very good ESL teacher seeing as the international schools are looking for nice precise speech. o_O;; Anyway, it was very trying and by the end, my throat hurt from so much talking. I basically took over the group and took charge without letting them realize it. ^_^ I am evil. Well my best friend Stella did the same for the other group so I feel vindicated. *laughs* The lesson plan seems pretty good and my handouts look beautiful. If only I could do this good in University. ^^;;

Yeah!! Leareth is back!! I was watching Pride and Prejudice and I thought of you. ^_^ Oro? I am getting an "interesting" present? o_O;; Define "interesting" ne? Well it can't be as bad as what I got you and neko chan. *evil laughter* Heh. ^_^

Reins chan!! The new layout is fab!! Zoro makes a fantastic comeback!! ^__^ Oh I was so angry last week because this one guy bought all of the Zoro merchandise in my fav anime store before I could get my hands on it!! He also took all of the Sanji stuff!!! The injustice!! I know this is way late but I love the layout you made for Kit and I wish I can properly see Leareth's. @_@;; Perhaps a new server is in need?

I am so sad. ;_; There is all these people I emailed and they haven't emailed me back. Satsuki? Lika? Kiri? Doko desu ka? ;__________; I know my online time has been shitty lately but I still miss you ne.

Friday, December 28, 2001

((07:31 p.m.)) Oh so tired. x.x;; I am currently taking classes to earn a certificate that will allow me to teach English around the world. I am planning to go to Korea this coming summer with my best friend and teach in my uncle's schools. ^_^ Cool ne? Maybe the year after that, I will try a country I have never been to. Someplace exotic and warm...Italy? Costa Rica? Brazil? Portugal? Oh the possibilties seem endless. *_*

To all those I owe emails and replies, I am very sorry. Like I said, I am home and my access to the net is very sporadic. @_@;; I can only use my uncle's computer and he usually needs it himself. Leticia san, thank you for your kind words. *blush* That is a horrible picture of me. I hope everyone had a nice Christmas. I am looking forward to New Years more since according to Korean tradition, you get money. *_* OKANE. *drools*

Ok I am gonna go now. I am exhausted because the classes go from 9 am to 4 pm. The classes tomorrow and on Sunday is gonna be from 9 am to 6 pm. @_@;; Thank goodness the classes are really interesting with a lot of nice people. I wanted to teach in Japan, but after hearing some of the stories, I think I would rather visit for a vacation. ^^;;;

Sunday, December 23, 2001

((12:01 p.m.)) School is over for now and I am back home for the holidays. ^_^ Oh it feels so nice to be home and be fed lovely Korean food. ;_; It's been so long since I had a good meal. *cries*

I spent the last two days having fun with Stella and Olivia. I missed both of them very much and it was great. We saw Lord of the Rings (for me a second time) and ate sushi, and shopped like crazy. I finally got most of my Christmas shopping done and I need a few people's home addresses...I sent out an email so hopefully I shall be getting replies soon. ^_^

Now for Lotr...it scared the shit out of me. I haven't read any of the books so I was going in with a clean slate to judge the movie by. It was beautiful, it was fantastic, it was amazing, it was freaking scary!! The first time I saw it on opening night with my roommates, I couldn't fall asleep all night because I kept seeing "Evil Bilbo" in my head. o_O;; Seeing him suddenly snarling with his eyes bugging out and teeth all pointy scared the shit out of me. @_@;; And all throughout the movie, I was cringing and grabbing on to Joe's shirt. >_<;; Everytime the great eye came on I thought I was gonna piss iin my pants. And what the fuck was with that elf queen? When she went all psycho on Frodo, she was SO scary!! The only times I wasn't freaked out was when Legolas was on. *_* Oh Legolas. Yumm...elf...I would eat him for breakfast. *_* So pretty. I wanna be a elf and live in their cities. *_* All that water and plants and such beautiful houses...and the hot elves. *_* *cough* Anyway, I thought Elijah Wood made a very pretty hobbit and that kinda irked me. ^^;; Hobbits aren't exactly pretty. ^^;; And I wanted to hit Pippin so hard it was not funny!! He is so very dumb. @_@;; And did Gandalf kick ass or what! ^___^ I heard they left out a lot of stuff from the book and changed certain points but I guess they couldn't help it. The book is pretty thick and a movie could never be as good as a book. All in all, I enjoyed the movie very much...although I am still sleeping with one light on...go away evil Bilbo...stop harassing my dreams! @_@;;

I bought a shitload of manga yesterday. ^^;; Got all of Naruto up to book 9 and I am waiting for number 10. I also got a random copy of Shounen Jump in this Japanese restaurant. o_O;; Half of it is a restaurant and the other half is like a Japanese store with videos, music, snacks, and some manga. They had some of the newer issues of Jump so I grabbed the one with Naruto on it. *_* Yeah!! Colour pics!! I would use them for a layout except Reinselft already used the pic. ;_; Damn you woman!! Also picked up the newest Hanakimi. I was hoping they would continue Umeda's past story but no luck. ;_; And Shin is much more interesting than Sano. ^^; Bought X17 because of the disgustingly cute chibi Kamui and Fuuma...not to mention that scene where Subaru is hugging the "Eye" @_@;; Subaru is quickly losing my respect. Stella got me the Inuyasha artbook so I want to scan like mad. *_* Maybe later.

I was going through some of the Korean cosplay sites that Esca put up. There were a few there that amazed me but this picture was it for me...IT'S YOUNG SEISHIROU AND HIS MOM!!! They even have the blood and the camellia flowers and everything. x_x;; They guy is pretty good looking actually. ^_^ This is a really good Yuki cosplayer but I can't tell whether it is a boy or a girl...which means that he/she has caught the essence of Yuki exactly. o_O;; Here is a cute Tooru. I couldn't find any Kyou or Shigure though. ;_; I have certain misgivings about Final Fantasy 10 since it looks so much like 8 but this Tidus cosplayer is really fantastic! That sword is amazing! Wahh!! It's Lucifer from Angel Sanctuary!! He is definitely my favourite character there. *_* He's got the nozzle and everything just right! I wish North American cosplayers were as good as the Asian ones. I have seen some impressive stuff in Canada and the US but the caliber of making those costumes is so high in Japan and Korea. Another thing is that there are a lot more male cosplayers and usually, the male characters are done by guys. In NA, most of the "bishounen" are done by girls. ^^;; I swear, if I see another female Chichiri, I will hurl. @_@;;

Added some blog links before leaving for Toronto. I didn't get a chance to say anything about them though. ^^;; Thanks for linking me. ^_^ Hmm, she's linked me as "Party Time Pimp"...should I email her and tell her of the typo? ^^;; It did crack me up though. ^_^ Glad to see Rei is back with a lovely Evangelion layout. ^_^ And I linked Leticia because well, she is nice and her blog was interesting. ^_^ Curses, I forgot I owe her an email!! >_<;;; Gomen ne!!

Ok I gotta go...meeting Esca today. I haven't seen her in 4 months!! ;_;

Saturday, December 15, 2001

((11:07 a.m.)) I had a really bad day yesterday. It didn't help that it was the second day of my period and I was bloated, nauseous, cramping, and extremely tired. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong and at the end of the day, I just wanted to bash my head through a wall. I was /THIS/ close to deleting everything and blocking off all sources of human contact. I was that disgusted with myself and the rest of the human race.

But I managed to rant to Esca yesterday and she convinced me going on a killing spree in my school is not a good idea. -_-;; So I archived all of my previous entries and starting off again with a clean slate. *sighs* I am still in the middle of my exams so I am still a bit busy. I wouldn't mind making a new layout for myself but I don't think I should do that. I also know I have a lot of social blogging and linking I must catch up on but I am too tired right now. I'll do it later. It doesn't seem very important right now.