///// Sunday, April 14, 2002 ///// 12:31 a.m. /////

My mommy came to visit me today. She is gonna stay until Sunday so I am very happy. ^_^ I was feeling really down so I called her on Friday and she insisted she come. ^^;;; I felt kinda bad but well I really needed a hug. @_@;;; So yeah...we ate out, watched a movie, I made some chai tea for her and stuff...it was really nice actually. I have been sick a lot lately and been going silently insane...so it was nice to have someone to hug. I REALLY needed a hug. o_O;; I mean...I would have payed someone to get a hug. >_<;;; *imagines self approaching a perfect stranger and asking to get a hug* DOH! Actually, I am going to go to Korea this May. ^_^ Gonna see my bro who has been there since December. He has been working. So I am really looking forward to that too. *_* Gonna see my relatives, go site seeing, and SHOPPING!! Dang...manga and doujinshi is SO CHEAP in Korea. *_* Gonna buy lots. I hope to cash in and get some Naruto doujinshi. *_* Preferably with a lot of Kakashi. *_* And for anyone who has seen the latest pics of Naruto, is it just me or did Sasuke get sexier? ^^;; Must be the new hair. *laughs* Ok...me go to sleep now. My mommy is sleeping in my bed so I am gonna snuggle. I am SUCH a baby. >_<;;

///// Thursday, April 11, 2002 ///// 09:13 a.m. /////

Perhaps the strangest thing was that it was snowing in April. Although summer was supposed to be just around the corner, the ground was covered in a light dusting of frost. The air was very still and heavy with the unbroken hold of winter.

The room was not totally dark but not bright either. The shades were down and only a few measly rays of sunlight managed to get through. It was already past noon but you wouldn't know that by the brightness of the room. Slowly, she pulled the cord that raised the metal shades back up toward the ceiling.

For a moment, she was blinded by the light. It hurt so much that she had to cover her eyes and look away. She immediately dropped the shades back down. After a few minutes, her eyes once again adjusted to the semi-darkness of her room.

It was quite filthy. The room that is. Not dirty in the sense that it was covered in grime and mold but that it was messy and unorganized. Books and papers littered the floor and empty yogurt cartons numbered by the handful. Small spaces here and there were the only places that were left untouched. A candle that had been burned to the bottom sat by the bed. The scent of vanilla lingered on.

A knock on the door.

"Sam? Are you in there? I was just stepping out and I wondered if you want a ride to school."

A shuffling of feet could be heard.

"I know you already missed your morning classes but if you go now, you could catch the afternoon ones."

More silence.

"Sam, are you ignoring me?!"

She sighed with annoyance and dragged herself out of bed. A pen and paper was soon found and a quick note scribbled on top. The message was slipped underneath the door and she went back to her bed.

Movement could be heard outside of the door.

"Sam, was it really necessary for you to write me a message? Couldn't you just answer me with your own voice? Ok well, if you're too sick to go to class then just make sure you get the lecture notes from someone else. And I'm going grocery shopping later on. I think you should come too...you can't live on water and yogurt for the rest of your life."

Footsteps faded away from the door.

As she stared at the ceiling, a few random thoughts went through her head. Why was it still snowing in April? Did she forget to blow out the candle before she went to sleep? Was yogurt the adult equivalent of baby food?

She got up again and walked toward the desk. There wasn't a single inch of space on it. Anybody could see that this wasn't where she did her work. She lifted books, cds, and various other items in search of her sketchbook. A sudden urge to draw had gripped her but the sketchbook proved elusive. She sighed. Plain printer paper would have to do.

As she bent down to reach for the box of paper underneath, her right foot slipped on its tenuous grip of the floor. A pile of dirty laundry covered the carpet and it was not the most reliable of surfaces.

She slammed her head sharply against the edge of the desk. For a moment, the world swirled as she fell to the floor in shock. The treacherous layer of clothing served better as cushioning.

Quick footsteps were heard outside the door followed by frantic knocking.

"Sam?! What happened? What was that noise I heard? Are you ok? Did you trip?"

The doorknob was turned back and forth.

"Goddamn it, Samantha! You locked the door again! What did I tell you about locking the door? Now open up this instant! Samantha! Sam!"

Pain reverberated through her skull. Ever so slowly, she pulled herself up from the floor and leaned against the bed frame. She touched her forehead and it stung. When she looked at her fingers, they were covered in a coat of blood.

The pounding on the door and her roommate's frantic pleas were completely ignored. She was mesmerized by the sight of the bright red blood that stained her fingers. Tentatively, she licked her forefinger and tasted the blood. It was bitter and metallic. And very very warm.

For a moment, she tasted life. A life that had no place in that dismal room. The noises outside faded deeper into the background. She licked her finger once more to taste that red nectar as the darkness closed up around her. She slumped on to the floor as consciousness fled from her body.

"SAMANTHA!! SAMANTHA!!"

///// Wednesday, April 3, 2002 ///// 01:36 a.m. /////

"Maybe she couldn't tell you about it. She was afraid of what you might think of her. She was frightened...she was scared...so scared...and didn't want anyone to know her weakness and cowardly side. So she made a barrier around her to hide it. She hated herself, and was so ashamed of herself. She thought, maybe mom will hate me too...just like everyone else does. She thought so all along. She couldn't help thinking that way. Maybe that is why she couldn't tell you. The scariest thing...the most painful thing is...to be hated by the someone you truly love."

Honda Tohru, "Fruits Basket"

"I'm not any stronger than I was before. And nothing has changed that much. But...let's face. Let's face it. What's really important is not the fact that I was once weak...but the will to become stronger."

Sohma Yuki, "Fruits Basket"

///// Thursday, March 28, 2002 ///// 09:26 a.m. /////

Haven't felt like blogging much. Gonna go home today. Be back probably Sunday. Had a fight with bro on chat in the wee hours. I could blame it slightly on the alcohol but tequila is probably no good excuse. Must stop drinking in wee hours alone. Ash says that is the sign of an alcoholic. *laughs* Me and bro patched it up but some of the things we said to each other was real ugly. Haven't slept all night. Gotta clean up room and pack. See academic counsellor one more time before I go home. Everything looking kinda...bleak. Constantly reminding self not to give up...is hard. Will try harder. When I go home, I am gonna ask my mom to make me some doobu chigeh. That is a kind of spicy stew with tofu for the non-Korean readers. Maybe I can ask mom to hug me too...need a hug...

///// Wednesday, March 20, 2002 ///// 12:38 a.m. /////

Just wanna warn you guys this is gonna be a long entry. ^^;; I got up at 6 am to go jogging with Joe. x.x;; My legs are a bit sore since it's been a while from my old days of "regular exercise". -_-;; It's sad I tell ya...I used to be so healthy. But anyway, I am gonna stick to it so after I write this post, gotta go to sleep! Or I won't be able to wake up tomorrow morning. x.x;; Why me?

OMG!! Ruaki sama reads my blog!! *_* *goes on frantic fangirl mode* I mean, I know she linked me back but I wasn't sure if she actually read anything!! *_* Wow I am so honoured! Your blog is one of the ones I check regularly (as in like 5 times a day ^^;;) because you write such interesting stuff and the fanart is to die for. *_* I'm so happy we like the same stuff. ^___^ And yes yes, Scyred is a great show! ^_^ I am currently missing episode 12 and 13 but I have the rest up to 15...I want more. ;_; BTW, if I dressed up as Ren and was willing to be uke, would you date me? *looks hopeful* Gosh...I hope I haven't scared you away with my fangirlish antics. ^_^;;;;

I added some new blog links! ^___^ *waves hello to them* For those who linked me, thank you very much! ^__^ Hope we can be good buddies!

Ano...hello Katherine san. ^^;; You have no idea who I am but I read your blog quite regularly. Hope you don't mind that I linked you. ^^;; You lead an interesting life. ^_^ I also thought Orochimaru looked damn cool when he ripped his mask off. *_* I just wish his tongue wasn't so long. @_@;;

Hi Lenny san!! ^_^ I see your little messageboard is still down. ;_; Good luck with that! ^_^

Hello Kim san. I love your Sanji layout! *_* It's so beautiful! I have noticed a lot of orange layouts lately...maybe we are all working on the same wavelength?

Wai! Alexandria san, where did you get such a cute Chi picture? ^_^ It reminds me of my old Chi layout...which made me feel like a dirty old man. x.x;; Little girls in bathtubs can do that to ya.

Ah, Kurot san, don't I know you? I mean, other than my YnM Keepers List...weren't you in the YnM ML? *tries to remember* And you do run that fabuluous Gravitation site right? ^_^ Your name is quite memorable. Ara? Now you wanna watch Scryed too? Oh please do do!! Very good show! And please...no "sama". Metamia or just Meta is fine. ^_^ And oh my...I checked out your art site. VERY IMPRESSIVE!! I love the way you draw! ^_^ What shocked me the most was that you have Sukishou fanart. O_O;; I have that game! I bought it off ebay ages ago because the main character reminded me of Dark Mousy from D.N.Angel. ^^;; Ne ne...can you tell me the basic plot of the game? It's all in Japanese and I can't understand a thing! @_@;;

Actually, I added some other links as well when I made this layout but I haven't had a chance to talk about them...so let's do it now, shall we? ^_^

Eros. A wonderful wonderful site with lots of original yaoi stories and art. I adore this site! I think my favourite story is Angel Eyes...although the smut scenes in Westland is quite nice too. ^^;;

Bishonen Ink. TONS of fanfics from so many different series. Lots of lovely Final Fantasy 7 fics. *_* It was this site that made me the Tseng x Rufus fangirl that I am today. *is proud* They also have really nice character shrines...I love the one for Reeve and Zax. *_*

Ochiba. I believe this was the first site that distributed digital fansubs of Gravitation and Yami no Matsuei. They tend to be a bit slow in updating but they usually fansub hard to find/new stuff so it's a nice place to visit.

Bishonen Works. The site of the multi-taleneted P.L. Nunn. *_* I love her fanfics and art! Go and read her original yaoi story "Dynasty of Ghosts". It's pretty long but so so good. If she published it, I would buy it in an instant. She also has a scrumptious Saiyuki fic. Go read!

Kikiwai. Ahh...my favourite anime/manga store. *_* It's located in my hometown of Toronto but they ship internationally. The site itself is updated pretty well but I know for a fact that some stuff gets bought so fast (by me) that they never even make it to the update. *evil laughter* So email them if you want to get stuff that is not on the site ne? Very nice service and really nice folks. ^_^

Furor Scribendi. I have been out of the Gundam Wing fandom for a very long time. It was great for a while then it got real ugly. o_O;; But even then, I wasn't much of a 3x4 fan. ^^;; This fanfic site has somehow made me a belated 3x4 fan though. O_O;; Extremely well written stories. All of her stuff is AU (Alternate Universe) so if you are a canon freak, you probably won't like this site. If you like seeing the Gundam boys in other interesting settings, then go forth! Just like to add that this author was one of the very few that actually got a GOOD rating at the site I am about to talk about.

Slap to the Head Fanfiction Review. This site makes me laugh so hard that I cry. They review bad fanfiction so well that it's a work of art. Scathing and downright cruel, I just love how they tear a fic apart. I skimmed through some of the fics they have up and I have to wonder how they stumble across such bad fics. >_<;; I keep hoping that they will do a review on a Pokemon fic where one of the human characters have mad beastiality sex with one of his/her own Pokemon just so I can hear them bitch about it. Does such fanfic even exist? I wouldn't be surprised...but I am too scared to go looking. ;_;

Firedancer's Universe of Chaos. This is Talya Firedancer's fic page. If you don't know Talya Firedancer, you obviously have not read enough fanfics. GO READ! ^_^ Her fics got me into the Gundam Wing fandom before it got ugly. x.x;; Currently, I am enjoying her original stories. I keep hoping she will write more Final Fantasy 7 though. ;_; Zax x Cloud is so pretty!!

The Yaoi Shrine. A huge site full of great fanfics and lots of manga scans. Some pretty graphic stuff here. ^^;; I personally love Sahari's writing. She has the mother of all Arislan fics (threesomes I tell you!! O_O;;) and she wrote the only yaoi Giant Robo fic I have EVER seen! And it was good as too!! Her original stuff is really yum as well...go and read Court of Eternity!

Ok...that is enough linking for today. ^^v Now off to bed and then jogging. @_@;; Grahhh!!!

///// Saturday, March 16, 2002 ///// 07:10 a.m. /////

Wow...two nights straight with barely any sleep...this can't be good for me. x.x; Well the reason that I didn't get any sleep tonight is because I went to see the Resident Evil movie and I was scared spitless. >_<;; I REALLY didn't want to see the movie but Ash and Joe kept badgering me so I said I'd go to get them off my back. UGH. One of my worse decisions yet. I almost left the theater several times because I thought I was gonna be sick. It was so disgusting and disturbing. I hated the game and the movie is much worse. I mean, it's not a bad film in the technical sense. Actually, it kept very true to the game and was filmed very well. But I don't like horror movies like that...it's just not my cup of tea. Afterwards, I was so numb inside and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. Barely said a word to Joe and Ash as we were coming home...I think they thought I was mad at them. I was a bit peeved because they made fun of of the fact that the movie scared me but all in all, I was more disturbed by the movie. Well it's not really bad I didn't sleep all night...I needed to get up early so I can go to Toronto anyways. ^^;; But when I get home, I think I will be so tired that not even visions of flesh eating zombies and skinless dogs will stop me from sleeping. -_-;;;

*looks at her downloads* Come on Scryed #8!! Download damn you!! I already have episode 9-11!! ;_; Download!! I wanna watch this in order!! I need my Kazuma fix!! ;_;

Hai Kit! ^_^ I wrote that passage all by myself. Tee hee. ^^v Actually, it's really old. ^^;; It was supposed to be a long story inspired by a painting that Esca did but I never finished it. ;_; I was cleaning out my hard drive and I found that file and I felt kinda nostalgic. Did you really like it? *blush* ^///^ I haven't written anything in so long since I got my writer's block and lost all faith in my writing abilities. @_@;; You made my day! *hugs tight* Glad to see you passed your Japanese exam. And ne ne...when are you exactly leaving for Europe and how long are you staying there? I think you told me but I forgot. x.x; Meta baka. And it would be so very nice to meet you and wait for the rest of the gang to show up at your place. ^___^ Someday it might come true ne? *hugs*

Ah Leareth chan, sorry I had my MSN messenger on when I wasn't around. ;_; I was in the process of getting drunk with Ash...I needed it after my horrible scare with Resident Evil. It's funny though...I missed out most of the traumatic parts because I had my eyes closed and ears plugged but that somehow almost made it worse for me. Goddamn my imagination. >_<;;;

ARGH!! You have to shoot me, Reinselft!! I am so dumb!! >_<;; I saw a doujinshi that I was almost 100% sure was done by the people of Japaneska and I didn't bid on it!! @_@;; I was so busy running errands today before leaving for Toronto that I completely forgot!! ;_; Boo hoo! I could have had a lovely Kakashi doujinshi. ;_; Well there are other doujinshi (even a Kakashi x Naruto one. o_O;;;) but I think I will hold off. ^^;; Gotta stop spending money. And glad you like the layout. ^__^ Is it that orange? Other people have been making the same comment. ^^;;

Masako chan, you still haven't sent me a picture of your Fuuma-like BF! *laughs* ^_^ And I know I already told you this but I like your layout...even though it gave me a heart attack seeing it after my trauma with the zombies. -_-;; Cursed zombies!! *shoots them all* Don't worry about the name thing...that is actually a common occurence. ^^; Oro? Koizumi Kouhei? That name is familiar...who is it?

Oi Rei! You have an orange layout too! ^_^ It's like an epidemic! I like it a lot. ^_^ I do have to admit though, I was always more of a Mad Hatter kinda girl...would you like some tea? And I mean that in the most non-hentai way. *LAUGHS* ^_^

Ah! Kee changed her layout again...and this time's it's Zoro and Nami! OH NAMI! *_* *glomps her* Very nice. I like. ^_^ And glad you like the orangey-ness (is that a word?). ^-^ I still remember the first time I heard of NIN...somebody made a small plaster sculpture of their logo and I was like "NIN? What the hell is that? A new logo for Nintendo?" And my classmate told me it was some band. ^^;; Oh how ignorant I was. And "Forbidden Lover" is my fav L'Arc en Ciel song...too bad Hyde looks so bad in the video. >_<;; I hate his blond hair phase!! Give me his "Niji" hair phase any day!

All righty!! Gotta finish packing and cleaning up my room. Joe offered to drive me as far as Kitchener and then I am taking a bus there to Toronto. Then it's just a short trip to my manga store and I shall have in my hands Fruits Basket 8 and Naruto 10!! *_* Meta is one happy neko. And oh yeah, she wants to see her family too. ^_~;; *snickers* Ja ne minna!

///// Friday, March 15, 2002 ///// 06:44 a.m. /////

The small room was stuffy and full of tension. The two men, one old and one young, faced off each other like soldiers before the dawn. The well used furniture of the room showed the obvious age of the house. Ryan met his grandfather’s stare directly and did not say a word.

The old man placed a piece of paper on the table between them and pushed it toward Ryan. He looked down and realized it was a painting.

"This was her last piece. She drew it on her deathbed with the intention of giving it to you. Take it."

Ryan gently accepted the small painting from his grandfather’s hands.

"She loved you very much."

The young man’s handsome face twisted into a cold mask at his grandfather’s words. "I truly doubt that."

He stood up and walked toward the door. Without even a goodbye, he opened the door and left. The old man closed his eyes in pain and clenched his fists.

"More than you’ll ever know Ryan...more than you’ll ever know..."

But Ryan did not hear these words as he briskly walked out of the house and toward his car. He did not even spare the quaint little country house a backward glance as he entered the black limousine. When he closed the door the car came to life and started its way down the small road.

Ryan leaned back into the car seat and rubbed his sore neck muscles. He hadn’t realized he’d been so tense during his meeting with his grandfather but it was becoming obvious.

A small beep was followed by the voice of his chauffeur. "Where would you like to go Mr. Voight?"

"Back to the hotel. The jetlag is killing me and I need some sleep."

"Understood, Mr. Voight."

The intercom became silent and Ryan continued to rub the back of his neck. The corner of his eyes caught sight of the piece of paper and he cautiously picked it up.

It was a painting done in the traditional Asian style, subtle and watered down. The delicate purple flowers looked fresh and beautiful against the stark white paper. It was not extravagant or intricate but it imbued a simple beauty.

He sneered at it in disgust .

"How like my mother. Not even a word of farewell but a painting of some useless little flowers."

He bitterly flung the paper to the side and closed his eyes.

It had been a week since his mother’s death. He had found out when his secretary called him during his business trip to Milan. His grandfather had wanted him to come immediately to Canada but the deal he was working out was too crucial to his company. But here he was now, a week late and wishing it had been later.

So what if he had been late? It had been a million dollar deal and it was not like his mother was of any importance. The woman had left him and his father when he was just a child and was practically a stranger.

Then why was he feeling this nagging burning sensation in the back of his throat?

It’s called guilt, Ryan.

He quickly shut out his inner voice. He barely had time for this trip and a mountain of work was waiting for him. With a flick of his wrist, he opened his briefcase and started to plow through the paperwork.

But even as his mind was formulating new plans and ideas, his eyes kept straying back to his mother’s painting.

The purple flowers bloomed under his menacing gaze.

///// Thursday, March 14, 2002 ///// 01:10 a.m. /////

Tis late. x.x; But I plan to sleep after writing this entry so it's all good. ^^v In a very good mood right now because my brother said he will buy me manga from Korea. *_* I sent off my very long list of stuff. ^^; Actually...the list wasn't that long but I included some other info he might need like author names, publishing company, and ISBN numbers so the email got kinda long. x.x;; I hope it helps him find them though. ^^;; I REALLY REALLY want manga. If he can get me Saiyuki 9, all of Shaman King, Hikaru no Go, and Houshin Engi, I will worship my brother and love him forever. Oh wait...I do that already. *rolls eyes* Ok...I'll just give him my soul. ^^v I asked for more stuff but those four are at the top of the priority list. *_* But I wish I can be there in the shop if my brother tries to get me Gravitation...*snickers* Poor bro...maybe I shouldn't have warned him that series is shounen ai. ^_^;;

I have been making some ebay purchases lately...which makes me feel very guilty. x.x;; They weren't expensive purchases but still...I am gonna stop. Really. I am. *stares at all the Naruto doujinshi* WAHH!! NOO!! MUST RESIST!! @_@;;; No more doujinshi!! *cries cries cries* Oh but one of them is by Azumi Tohru!! *cries cries cries* And look at all those lovely Zax x Cloud doujinshi!! ;___; Must. Stay. Away. From. Final. Fantasy. VII. Doujinshi. *SCREAMS* @_@;;;;

In other news, I bought the Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust DVD. *_* That is the 2001 one, not the 1985 one. GORGEOUS ART! I won the auction pretty cheap...only 2 cents more expensive than Amazon.com's price...and that was the lowest price I could find on the net. 4 people bidded on the last 50 seconds of the auction...I bid on the 9 second mark. *snickers* I am one of those last second bidders...the bane of most bidders. Hehehe. Well I had my eyes on this movie since it came out and I have been waiting patiently for its DVD release...I'm not gonna lose out to other people. ¬_¬;; Now if only the mail service from US to Canada was faster...

Yeah!! Reinselft is back! Well she was never really gone but her blog was down. ;_; Glad to see you back in full operations darling. *hugs* I haven't talked to you in ages!! I am sorry to hear about your back. ;_; Take good care of yourself ne? So don't do things like wrestling Zoro to the ground and ravishing him. ^_^

Ahh!! I'm afraid of Americans!! *laughs* ^_^ I love how Trent Reznor got casted in that David Bowie video. I still think The Perfect Drug is one of my favourite music videos...so dark and beautiful. *_* And did you know that L'Arc en Ciel's song "Forbidden Lover" had a video that was almost exactly like it?! o_O;; I guess they liked that video too. >_<;; I still think the NIN logo looks like something for Nintendo...

Esca, your Hikaru no Go doujinshi short is hilarious! ^_^ It's even funnier that you used Akira's actual words in the anime. ^^;; Kyahh...Akira is so scary...he is like Hikaru's stalker!! But I suspect that Akira and Ogata sensei has a thing going on. I mean...come on!! Can we say "sugar daddy"? >_<;; And why does Ogata sensei remind me of Muraki? o_O;;

Ne-chan! *clings* Thanks a lot. ^_^ Glad you like. And I have been sending evil thoughts to all the people causing you pain. If my prayers to Satan goes through, your tormentors should get hit by a car and then run over by a herd of cows. Don't ask me how the cow scenary got in...but it seemed funny at the time. ^^;; And who is this Onii chan that you always speak of? He sounds so very nice. ^_^ Anything going on? ^_^ *innocent smile*

Thanks Leareth!! ^_^ *hugs* And don't go to class! You have to be lazy, goof off, read manga, write fics, spend money, and most importantly, whore your body to me!! *_* So no class for you! *destroys her classrooms*

Aww...Lilack took down the pink Yohji layout. ;_; And it was so interesting looking too. But now she has Naruto!! *_* Yeah yeah yeah!! Good choice ne!! ^__^ Actually, Toriyama's World is down because they are moving servers but when they go back on, you should really read the scanlations. Such a good series!! And oh yeah...if I do end up dishing out cash to get all of Houshin Engi, I am sure you can too! *applies peer pressure* Come on Lilack san....you know you want it...just like Leareth who wants to skip classes...buy manga...skip classes...buy manga...skips classes...*evil laughter* *_*v

Ok Neko chan, now it's your turn. *applies more peer pressure* You want to buy doujinshi...you know you want all that beautifully drawn smut...and if you don't get it now, most likely I will end up snatching it under your nose....buy the doujinshi...*evil cackle*

Thanks Lika darling! ^_^ Ne ne...maybe it's about time I made you a new layout eh? It's been quite a while...I am sure you are sick of the bunny girl by now. ^^;; Would you like another one? I am planning to call you sometime soon...hopefully you will be home.

OK!! That is enough social blogging for me tonight. x.x;; Gotta go sleep now...ja ne minna! ^_^

///// Wednesday, March 13, 2002 ///// 07:55 a.m. /////

It's finally done! *_* *jumps for joy* This layout took me longer than most since I lost it and had to start from scratch again. x.x;; But it's was worth it! *glomps Kazuma* Ahh Kazuma!! I love you!! Now if only you and Ryuhou would get together! *_* The Unresolved Sexual Tension potential between those two is killing me! @_@;; I considered putting up more screencaps of him but I decided 10 is enough. ^^;; Maybe next time. *pulls out her microphone* GO AND WATCH SCRYED!! IT'S REALLY REALLY GOOD!!

And the reason why this layout took me so long? Because I decided to make an archive page as well. ^^;; Some of my older archives had broken pictures because I used to link them off Spree. Since Spree is now kaput, my old posts looked icky and in some cases, unreadable. ;_; So I fixed them up, uploaded it to my current server, made a separate archive page, and voila! My archive page! ^_^ All in all, everything was a real pain in the ass but now I can just sit back and relax. ^___^ I gotta get going now but I will try to social blog later. ^^;; I know I always say that and never do but I really want to go back to my regular blogging. I miss reading other people's stuff and ranting about my own shit. ;_; Gotta go now! Ja ne! ^_^

///// Saturday, March 9, 2002 ///// 10:22 p.m. /////

ARGH!!!!!! MY NEW BLOG LAYOUT GOT EATEN UP!! DAMN FUCKING POWER GOT TURNED OFF!! FUCKING STORM!!! OH I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY!!!

That is all. -_-;;

///// Tuesday, February 26, 2002 ///// 12:40 p.m. /////

Tee hee. I'm at home again and very happy. ^-^ Went to sleep really early because I was tired from the bus ride and I woke up at 6 am. o_O;; Why do I always do this? When I am in London, I can barely make myself get up and face the day...I come home and I am up with the sun. x.x; Weird...

I had fun on Sunday night. ^_^ Although Joe had made my life yucky for a while, I decided that in the spirit of wanting to party, I will forgive him for a night. *ROFL* Well I met up with him and one of his friend Mel. I was slightly nervous meeting her since Joe's female friends tend to be of the...fluffy kind...who just wants to get in good terms with me because they wanna sleep with Joe. -_-;; But it turned out Mel was one of the few females out there who DOESN'T want to fuck Joe and is not a lesbian. ^_^ *Laughs* Mel was really cool and nice. We pigged out an sushi and got nicely buzzed on sake. We thought of going to a bar but decided getting trampled was not a good idea. There were these three cars that went up and down the main streets of London with flags flying and horns honking. It impedded traffic but was really cool to watch. ^_^ Of course it didn't compare with Toronto where most of downtown came to a standstill due to people just pouring out on to the streets. I watched the news and people were jumping on top of telephone booths, on to moving cars, screaming and yelling, etc. ^_^ It looked so cool.

Actually, Eric Lindros was raised in London so we had a home town hero to kinda cheer on. Too bad I didn't see much of him in the game though...I was so very impressed by Kariya and Sakic. *_* But dang it...I have to say this...the American goalie was good. Really good. Richter, you asshole, I hate you but I respect you. ^__^ Peace!!

I don't have a hangover or anything since I rarely drink and I didn't over do it. Still...I drank much more than usual. @_@;; Joe kept on filling my glass. But I knew if I showed up at home with a hangover, my parents would have killed me so I over drink. ^^;;

Since I woke up at 6 am today, I didn't have much to do. No internet at home...only the office computer in my uncle's apartment has the net...and he lives on the first floor of this apartment. ^^;; Good thing I brought my laptop and gigs and gigs of anime. For the hell of it, I watched One Piece. My friend burned the first 6 episode and the movie for me ages ago but I never watched them. When I was watching them, it struck me how familiar Usopp's seiyuu was...and it was driving me insane that I couldn't identify it! I kept rewinding scenes so I can hear his voice over and over again...and then it just hit me. Kappei Yamaguchi. Usopp sounds exactly like Ryuchi from Gravitation without the random weirdness. o_O;; It's so hard to identify that seiyuu...his voice range is so wide! I mean...does Subaru from TB sound anything like Inuyasha? Well it's the same seiyuu ^_^ And then Luffy's voice sounded damn familiar too...and it's Koenma!! O_O;;; *imagines Luffy with a pacifier* And Shanks is Hiko! Well they both got the cape thingy going on...although I suspect Shanks doesn't weigh his down heavy. x.x;; Shanks, can I screw you silly? I don't care if you only have one arm!! XD *researches more seiyuu info* Oro! Sanji is Gojyo!? Well they are both womanizers...that seiyuu is good for that role. ^^v I need to get more One Piece so I can hear Sanji be all sleezy...*cackles*

///// Sunday, February 24, 2002 ///// 05:30 p.m. /////

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS NO TIME FOR LOSERS CAUSE WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS...

OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!! WAHHH!!!!!!

WE WON!! WE BEAT THE USA! THE FIRST GOLD MEDAL IN 50 YEARS!! WE BROKE THE USA'S 70 YEAR RECORD OF NEVER LOSING A SINGLE GAME ON HOME SOIL!! WE KICKED ASS!! 5-2 BABY!!! WOOO!!!!!! *_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*

Ahh...I can hear the cars honking outside right now...I swear, I think I am gonna cry. ;_; I stood up when our national anthem started and it never sounded so damned sweet. Now, I am gonna go and get piss ass drunk with my buds. ^______^ I WAS supposed to go home today but...I'll go tomorrow!! Buwahahaha!! PARTY TIME!! *_*

///// Saturday, February 23, 2002 ///// 12:12 a.m. /////

Ok. I archived everything that was me raving like a lunatic. I feel a bit more sane these days and surprisingly, it's because of the Olympics. x.x;; Seriously. I owe a lot of people email and social blogging but god I need to rant about the Olympics. But it's not a bitter rant!!! ^___^

First of all, this Olympic is gonna be damn memorable for me as a Canadian and a Korean. All the controversy surrounding the country of my birth and country of residence is astounding. People, if you are not watching the Olympics right now, you are missing out on some great entertainment. It's a fucking free for all. After the precedent set by the Canadian figure skating pair getting gold, everyone, especially Russia and South Korea, is complaining up a storm.

Maybe it's because I am a Canadian and obviously biased but some of the complaints that the Russians are putting forth seems kinda stupid to me. The issue of Canada sharing gold with Russia for pairs figure skating is simple: The Russian pair made a crucial mistake in their program while the Canadians were flawless. The only reason the Russians got the gold was because a French judge was pressured to rig the game so that Russia will win the gold. It's not an argument over which program was better, not an argument over technical skills, it's that a judge was corrupted and the gold had gone to the pair with the flawed program. I mean, even before the IOC made its decision to have Russia and Canada share the gold, almost everyone was outraged that Canada got silver. In the medal ceremony, everyone was cheering for Canada. They did a fantastic show and they deserved it. And it's not like Russia was bumped down to silver. I feel bad for the Russian pair since it's not their fault but that's reality for ya.

Also, the things that Russia is complaining about is not really concrete. Saying that Slutskaya deserved the gold in women's figure skating instead of Hughes just because Hughes was fourth in the short program is ridiculous. Personally, I thought Kwan was gonna get the gold...but that fall was painful. x.x;; If the judging had been rigged in the women's single like it had been with the pairs, I can understand why Russia would complain. But it wasn't rigged. That's the difference here...and I really don't appreciate when they start going "Oh but Canada got the gold! Why can't we complain too and say the judging was biased?!" This particular quote really pissed me off:

"We filed the protest because we think the judging was biased," the head of the Russian delegation in Salt Lake City, Viktor Mamatov, told AP on Friday.

"Canadian pairs skaters were awarded their gold medals," he said referring to Jamie Sale and David Pelletier. "Now that subjective judging harmed us, we want the same for Slutskaya."

Excuse me?! Subjective judging?! You call a rigged judging on behalf of the Russians, "subjective judging"? I think there is a MAJOR difference between an unfair RIGGED judging and a BIASED judging. Canada had a much stonger case to get that gold...and I feel that the Russians do not. If one of the judges in the women's single confess to cheating, then I'll hear you out. And I think it's really low that they complained to their president Putin to step in. I know Olympics can't avoid being a hot bed for politics but that's just low. Stick to the athletes, not the politicians.

As for the whole fight over the speed skating with the US and South Korea, that is just so ugly. x.x;; The Korean skater finished first but the judge said that he was "blocking" the American skater and disqualified him. >_<;; Korea had threatened to leave the games like Russian did but I just read that both countries said that they will stay until the end. But Korea still plans to sue the referee that disqualified Kim Dong Sung. I think this quote was the most memorable:

"The gold should be awarded to the athlete who finished first, not the athlete who is the crowd favorite," said Rocky Yoon, deputy secretary general of the Korean Olympic Committee.

I didn't get a chance to see the actual race (which I am cursing myself over) but I have mixed feelings. I am not exactly an expert on the rules of speed skating so I am not sure if Kim Dong Sung deserved that disqualification. But at the same time, he won the race. I don't think the IOC is gonna give the gold to Korea but it will be interesting to see how this goes.

Now the man that has given me the most laughs in all the games is Steven Bradbury. The look on his face as he crossed the finish line and won gold for 1000 metre speed skating was PRICELESS!!! Australia, I salute you!! ^___^ I mean, the last guy in the race won gold!! That is not something you see everyday. ^_^ Who would have thought that he would win gold because he was so far behind the other skaters that he avoided the major crash that took all of his competition down?. ^_^ I mean yeah Korea lost that because of the Chinese skater (who was the blame for the whole crash and later got disqualified) but I have no regrets over Australia getting that gold. ^_^ It was fucking priceless. Steven Bradbury, you da man!! XD

Maybe this is my Canadian blood talking but damn it, I was so goddamned happy when our women's hockey team won gold over the US. Sorry guys, I love you Americans but when it comes to hockey, I am a Canadian through and through. I got all teary and weepy when our flag was raised as our women's hockey team sang the national anthem. I felt so proud to be a Canadian. And now that the Canadian men's hockey team is facing off the US team on Sunday for the gold...my blood is pumping!! All morning, I saw people driving around with Canadian flags, beeping their horn and going nuts!! We SO kicked Belarus' ass in the semi finals! 7-1 in our favour dude!! And each goal was made by different players!! Now THAT is skill! *_*

I know everyone is gonna be skipping work on Sunday. I postponed my visit to Toronto so I can see this match. We Canadians invented the sport but we haven't had an Olympic gold in 50 years!! We have to fix this!! I saw the semi final game between Russia and US today (in which US won with 3-2 and I am SURE the Russians will complain about *rolls eyes*). It was a great game. I wasn't sure what the Russians were doing in the first 40 minutes because they were doing nothing!! They had a great comeback in the third period but not good enough. US was in good shape...it makes me nervous but goddamn it, we're better!!! We lost by one frigging point to Norway in curling and got silver. We can't lose another gold!! I still can't believe we lost the gold in curling. >_<;; It was fun watching all the US Olympic documentary on curling though. ^^;; They just don't understand the game like we do.

It was really fun watching all the media propaganda between the American and Canadian TV stations. They both had these little clips and documentaries where they bash the other country while trying to look like they are not doing it. ^_^ I swear, Canada and the US are like a married couple, we love each other and we hate each other. ^^;;

BUT WE'RE GONNA WIN THAT GOLD FOR MEN'S HOCKEY SO BUWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! *_*_*_*_*_*_*