++ Sunday, October 8, 2000 ++

*listening to Diana Krall and trying not to kill the computer* It's my brother's music...and it's his computer...must...not...destroy...AHH!!

Sorry folks. O_O;; I had to listen to this singer OVER and OVER again while working at the cafe. The same CD repeating day after day for about 6 months. x.x; I get a tic in my eye, I tell ya.

Kit san, thanks for the encouragement. ^_^ I know many others are going through what I am too. It doesn't make me feel better but less alone. *hugs* You are like my older sister ne? Always giving me encouragement and advice. *laughs* And did you say Peacemaker? As in Shinshengumi Imon PEACEMAKER? *_* Does it have this cute little boy, a sexy ninja, and lots of other bishounens? Because if it is, I just bought book 4-6 today!! I love it so much! But I think that is the last volume. ;__; Not too sure but...

Which reminds me, I haven't bought anime stuff in a long time so I decided to treat myself a bit today. ^^;; Like I said above, picked up three manga, a Para Para 4 CD (which rocks!!) and BACKGAMMON 3!!!!!!!!!! *_*_*_* THIS IS DEFINITELY MY FAV SAIYUKI ARTBOOK!! I wanted to get the Fruits Basket manga and the Noir CD but they were sold out. ;___;

Saw Stella briefly today. She was tired out of her mind so we couldn't talk much but it was nice. I saw her for a total of about...30 minutes. ^^;; But it was still worth it. ^_^ I missed her lots. I also got a phone call from Esca today. ;_; Thank you unni...I wuv you too. ;_; I guess my pathetic blog post yesterday stirred your sympathies. *laughs* But thank you again for calling...I really appreciated it. ^__^ Ok! Now I am off to bed! I am hoping to see Stella tomorrow morning before going back to London. x.x; And no, that's not London, England. ^_^ That's London, Canada!!

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 12:59 a.m. ++

++ Sunday, October 7, 2001 ++

It is very very nice to be home. ^_^ I haven't been fed so well in ages! It's so wonderful to be able to kick back and do nothing. ^___^ Actually, I have been surfing for Harry Potter fanfics. Especially Sirius x Remus fics. Anyone got any links?

I wish my brother would fix my computer. ;_; I am dying without it. *sighs* So sad...my life is so very dependent on my computer. x.x;; I am planning to go to my favourite manga store tomorrow...hopefully I won't blow too much money. ^^; One thing I do hate about my new University city is that I can't find any manga!! And since I was hitching a ride to come up to Toronto, I missed the new episodes debut at the anime club! >_<;; I missed Fruits Basket! *cries cries* But I did get some episodes of Star Ocean Ex today. ^__^ Haven't watched it yet...but it sounds good. Also got Yami no Matsuei 7-9 from Ochiba!! *_* The only bad thing, my brother won't let me download Realplayer. ;_; I wanna see Muraki grope Tsuzuki. ;_;

And now that my anime/computer rant is over, onto the personal stuff! ^__^ Been feeling a little down. It really sucks being off-campus. Most of the first year people have this "dorm people bond" thing so it is hard making new friends. Except for my Japanese class, all of my classes are huge...and slightly intimidating. I don't know anyone there and I know my roommates slightly. I guess it's just growing pains...leaving the nest and all that. But it's even harder when you don't know anyone and you have trouble making friends. You don't know anything about this new city and you don't have a car. The buses are reliable but come very infrequently. I have been on anti-social mode for the last two years...constantly pushing people away and not making friends. Now I am thrust into this environment where everyone is so peachy keen eager to befriend you. It's almost scary.

And while this is going on, I'm trying to hold on to my best friends. One friend goes to Med school about 4 hours away, one friend is still in Toronto, and the other lives in the States. It's rough. I have already used up all of my phone calls. I try to email, blog, and contact them. But it's never enough. To make it worse, all three are horribly busy as well. They have their own lives, troubles, and struggles to go through. I guess compared to them, I have it kinda easy. Easy course subjects, all bills being paid by parents, and living off-campus in a nice apartment with cool roommates and all the stuff I want. So why do I feel so goddamned lonely?

Maybe it's because I have been sick lately. When I get sick, I get all whiny, childish, and horribly needy for a hug. @_@;; I CRAVE hugs. Maybe it's that whole "the fastest way to recover from a cold is to give it to someone else" theory. My body is instinctively trying to spread germs. That is probably why I always want to hug my brother when I am sick. ^___^ But I digress. I think my prolonged sickness has been making me all needy. x.x;;

I miss my old life, despite the ups and downs. I really do sincerely miss my family, my bed, and my old room. I miss my friends and I miss Toronto. Maybe that is why I am online so much...just hoping and hoping that I might be able to speak to someone I love and know. Too bad most of my real life friends are not online much. *sighs*

So am I whining? Oh yeah. Am I wallowing in my own self-pity? Oh yeah. Will I get over this after I finish this entry? Oh yeah. Will my horribly depressing thoughts come back? Probably. ^_^ But I will get over that too. *laughs*

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 02:30 a.m. ++

++ Monday, October 1, 2001 ++

UGH. Currently using my roommate's computer because my own is busted. I don't know how or why but the softwares used to install my new keyboard and scanner TOTALLY screwed up my computer. @_@;; So my brother took it back home so he can save what is important and format the whole damn thing. ;__; What if he doesn't manage to save my stuff? What will I do if I lose EVERYTHING. ;___; My HTML stuff, hundreds of pictures I scanned, mountains of MP3, AND 14.4 GIGS OF VIDEO!! @__@;; NOO!! NOT MY INUYASHA EPISODES!! *CRIES CRIES*.

So yeah, hopefully I will be back soon. x.x; *crosses finger*

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 12:57 p.m. ++

++ Thursday, September 27, 2001 ++

*COUGHS* Is sick nyo. -_-; Feel crappy nyo. AND IT'S PROBABLY ALL YOUR FAULT NYO!!! I have been sick since I saw you dude. @_@;; And Coanteen is tall, deadly, and Esca's best friend. Can you guess who she is? ^__^

Added two new blog links. One is Lazuli and the other is Liz. *waves to both* ^_^

Hey Reinselft! Have you ever been to this One Piece site? The owner of the site just requested a keepsake at my list and I was looking through it...although I know next to nothing about OP. ^^;; It had a lot of really good doujinshi scans though. *_* Copy and paste these links to a new window to see them ne? I thought this doujinshi cover was very sexy. ^_^ Who is the dude that Luffy is hugging? *_* Nice tattoo on his arm. Sanji and Zoro looks really good in this one, although Luffy looks insane. -_-;; AND ISN'T THIS PICTURE SO CUTE??!! *_* I don't know who the chick is but Chibi Luffy is so kawaii. *_* And this is so pretty and heartwarming...and then it gets really yaoi. x.x;; I wish I knew what was going on...ACK!! OH NO!! I REFUSE TO BE SUCKED INTO ONE PIECE!! *starts chanting it like a mantra* I have seen others who got infected by you!! @_@;;;;;;

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 04:49 p.m. ++

++ Tuesday, September 25, 2001 ++

WOOHOO! I managed to fix my connection! I am a genius! *_* Actually no because it took me forever to figure it out. -_-;; But the important thing is that I have internet again! *hugs her cable modem tight* I have my first Tae Kwon Do class tomorrow. I think it's just a demonstration but still. ^_^; Oh man...I am gonna be so bruised and beaten up from this. @_@;; And hopefully along with the pain, I will learn how to kick ass! *_*

Kiri dear, so do you have two blogs now? o_O;; I am confused...and what is the Lazuli one for?

You are so right, Stel. Champ is the cutest puppy in the world!! I miss him so much! Have you heard anything about him lately? And oh yes, Olivia sucked up to me so I can make her a blog layout...and it worked. ^^;; Want me to make you one after I am done with hers? Oh yes, can you tell me her blog URL again? I keep forgetting...

*sniff* Come and cook for me, Esca!! I am starving! ;_; Give me Korean food, woman! I have this dying need for a doobu chigeh. @_@;;

Like the new digs, Reinselft. ^_^ And I checked your blog with the Netscape 4 again and it looks ok. ^^v Glad to be on your hate list. I feel so honoured. *laughs*

It's so strange, Leareth. At home, your blog looks fine but at school it is weird. o_O;; The library's computer is probably messed up. ^^;;

Love the new layout, Kit. *_* Chibi Saiyuki characters! Is the pic from a doujinshi? It doesn't look like Minekura style to me.

Oi Satsuki chan...I miss you! ;_; I have been offline so long! Hope to see you on chat soon. ^^v

Glad to see you back and virus free, Taryn. ^_^ Hope you stay that way.

Daijoubu, Alison chan. ^_^ Is a common mistake ne. *hugs* I haven't talked to you in a while too...genki desu ne?

ACK!!! >_<;; I knew I shouldn't have put up baby pictures of me! Stop squeezing me, Lika chan!! ;_; Well now that you have seen pics of me, don't you think you should return the favour? ^_^ *is curious* And oh yes, I don't think I can make your bro's wedding. ;_; There has been complications with getting my student loan and it's going to be delayed...meaning I will be severely strapped for cash. ;_; Gomen ne. I really wanted to go too. *hugs* Maybe some other time ne?

Ara...Coanteen...I think there is something wrong with your blog. I can't see any of your entries!! O_O;;

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 11:55 p.m. ++

++ Tuesday, September 25, 2001 ++

ARGH!! *pulls out hair in frustration* My internet connection has been down for the last 5 days!! I called the server and everything but I don't know what is wrong! *cries cries* And I am forced to use the university computers...but they all have Netscape!! >_<;

So gomen nasai minna for not being around for a while...I will be back as soon as this is fixed. @_@; Until then, it's Netscape hell for me. -_-;;

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 01:35 p.m. ++

++ Friday, September 21, 2001 ++

I am going to visit my family this weekend so I will not have reliable internet access. ;_; The saddest part is that I am going home not to relax but to do manual labour. -_-;; I feel so loved. *laughs* Bye bye everyone!!

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 02:28 p.m. ++

++ Friday, September 21, 2001 ++

I just added some pictures in the info section for the hell of it. *laughs* Put your cursor over the little thumbnail and it will tell you what the heck the pic is about. I can't believe I put up baby pictures of me. ^^;;; Ok now it is time for my belated social blogging!!

Oi Reinselft san, your blog looks fine on my Netscape 6...but I saw it on Netscape 4 and it looked kinda odd. x.x;; It would only show the upper parts where you have the images and not the rest! I could barely scroll down! But who cares...it's Netscape right? ^^;;

Thanks Kit san. ^_^ It seems you have very bad luck with computer viruses. x.x; I wish you much luck.

Glad you like it, Esca. ^_^ Heh, now our blogs are "half-brother blogs"...and watch out for hot tubs if the guy is a Scorpio. ^^;;

Satsuki chan, have I mentioned that I love your new layout? It's gorgeous!! I am mucho impressed. ^_^

Actually Leareth chan, when I was looking at your blog at my University, it was all scrambled looking. x_x;; It looked fine at home so maybe it's just the computers there...as for Taryn's site, I haven't been to it in a while. The idea of a virus makes me nervous.

Oh, thanks for the virus cure link Alison chan. ^_^ JUST in case I get it of course. >_<;; And thanks again for the compliment...by the way, Inuyasha is a dog demon. *laughs* ^__^

Oi oi Stella...I will try to catch ya in TO tomorrow ok? *hugs* Hope to see ya soon. And you are such a shameless hussy. ^__^ *gives a stuffed Inuyasha doll*

I am happy you are feeling better, Katzy chan. ;_; You seemed so down for a while there. *hugs* Gambatte kudasai!!

Heh...a doll made by the creature, Coanteen san? ^__^ Take a picture of it because I wanna see! And yes, Inuyasha rocks! Glad you like my layout. ^^v

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 03:10 a.m. ++

++ Thursday, September 20, 2001 ++

MUWAHAHA!! I have done it!! I finally finished making this layout! Oh gods I am so happy I am done! *_* This layout is partly Laine san's fault. Her extremly funny Inuyasha parodies made me rewatch a whole bunch of episodes and sparked my obsession again. ^__^ Thanks!!

I have to say out of all of my layouts, this was definitely the most time consuming. x.x;; It wasn't too difficult but I had a heck of a time figuring out how to change the colours on the scroll bar. x.x;; Also, the pictures for the layout took a while to make...the longest I have spent yet! I suck at Photoshop so I had a lot of trouble trying to get that picture of Inuyasha...there was background stuff I had to edit out. >_<;; It was hard ne!! But putting that Kagome picture was even harder. x.x;; *kicks Photoshop* I hate you! *hugs* But I love you. ;_;

Ok. Now I can actually start studying for my Japanese test. ^_^ I am not worried at all since that class is a breeze! I am so happy I already know hiragana. *_*

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 12:32 a.m. ++

++ Monday, September 17, 2001 ++

I should go to sleep...I really should...I am very tired after all...and I have boring English first thing in the morning. >_<;; OK!! Just one entry before I hit the sack!

Like some people I know, I am also getting sick of the stupidity arising from the WTC in the States. Not to mention the constant depressing reports. So in the spirit of "moving on, healing, and living life again" I wanted to write about a GOOD news I saw on TV. That's right. A GOOD news. It turns out that a couple and their respective families were headed for Las Vegas for a huge-ass wedding but was detained because their plane had to land in Canada. When they arrived in Nova Scotia (It's the province that is the most east, touching the Atlantic), they stayed with a nice family. Then in one day, the whole community pulled together and planned a wedding for them!! Complete with formal wear, food, decoration, a limo, A PERSONAL ESCORT WITH A FULLY UNIFORMED MOUNTIE ON A HORSE, and the whole town showing up! Now THAT is what I call good news. It was so touching to see the happy couple and knowing that even through this tragedy, life goes on, people fall in love, and plan a future together. The newly married couple didn't plan on getting married in Nova Scotia but they looked damn happy. ^___^ One of the nicest things about being a Canadian is that we have an international reputation for kindness and generosity...it's so gratifying to see this public opinion proved over and over again. GO CANADA!! WE ROCK!! *_*

All right! Now for the social blogging! ^___^v

Oh yes yes Laine san!! The art is nice eh? ^___^ I wish they had more of their doujinshi stuff up though. ;_; Oh yes, I have been flashing your URL to many people and they like your stuff. ^__^ And as soon as I get my scanner back up and running, I'll try to scan you some stuff. ^^v

Tsukineko chan...are you ok? o_O;;; *hugs* Don't do anything rash ok? @_@;;

Leareth, it's ok to be happy. ^_^ I am in a pretty good mood myself now that my Spree problem is solved. I think Envy.nu shows up pictures...have you considered them? I wish I can give you some space but this isn't my server so I can't. ;_; Gomen nasai. *hugs*

Glad you are getting lots of rest, Kit san. I know I have been neglecting this. ;_; I will try to make it on Monday ok? I hope you are back from your trip by then.

My darling, Satsuki, I hope everything is good with you. ^_^ Don't be like me and sleep at ungodly hours. *laughs*

*evil grin* Alison...Seishirou is back...prepare to be ravished. H_H

Hey Lika chan, it was great talking to you...I really hope I can make your bro's wedding. ^_^ We could have so much fun screwing with Mike's mind! *_* As for dear Subaru...well may the best man win. *winks*

Katzy chan. *hugs* I hope you are feeling better. I will email you soon ok? I am so behind my emails...

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 02:07 a.m. ++

++ Sunday, September 16, 2001 ++

KYAHH!! I AM SO HAPPY!! *tackle glomps Esca* Thank you so much for giving me some of your space!! Now I don't have to archive my pics at some crappy server!! *_* I love you!

In that spirit, I also linked Coanteen who is also sharing some of Esca's space. ^__^ Hi hi!! *waves*

Now I can REALLY start making a new layout. *_* I started an Inu Yasha one but I really don't like it. x.x;; I wish my freaking scanner was working!! *kicks it*

++ Inuyasha kissed Kagome at 02:38 p.m. ++