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" smiling wih a cold look, the one who had
his soul violated, is there
any pain when your tears flood?"
--> All about--[
are you happy? i'm beginning to writhe!
]--...but what the heck?!
By 1:oo pm the whole family darted all the way to the world famous, Capilano Suspended Bridge. Woah! One heck of an experience! It was the longest and steepest suspended bridge ever! We even got a certificate saying “I Made It”…and blah blah blah. By the way, the tour guide was a total hottie. Bwhahahahaha. After that…we went straight home. Period.
By the way, a couple of hours ago I watched Pop Japan T.v. The videos that I saw were L’Arc~en~Ciel’s “Killing me”, “Blues” by Soul’d out, “Super Drive” from the opening Theme of the anime “Gravitation” ( The guys who sang it were certified bishies!!! The vocalist looked like Tetsu from L’Arc~en~Ciel ).
We only have 6 days to go before we go home. I don’t know if I should go home…Whatever. “This” is getting worst. haha
“I kind of liked it your way
how you shyly placed your eyes on me…
Oh, did you ever know that I had mine on you?” ->“Eyes on me “by Faye Wong
I’m freaked out. Save me.
Pags taught the class at exactly this Friday, may 20 2005
--> All about--[ did I mention, I had the time of my life?
]--...but what the heck?!
let me post some recap of the things that happened 2 days ago:
May 17….
All of us got up very early ( bummer…) and off we went to Whistler. Guys, that place is a popular “mountain” of some sort for skiing.( Last year, I even saw Justin Timberlake performed there. Great! ) Although it is “summer” here…the mountain is still filled with snow. My 2 cousins were with us and it was their first time there. WE had snow ball fights and we built snow “castles”. ( just a big mound of snow really *winks* ) Dang it was a blast!! When we were taking pictures, all of us were having a hard time because our hands were clad in thick gloves so we can hardly feel the camera. Did I mention that it was very cold? And to think that it is still “summer”. I think that I’ll freeze to death if I went there on there “winter” time.*smirks*
Only 2 hours had elapsed and we went down the mountain via gondola ride because our hands and feet were already numb. After the trip, we went home and slept for a couple of hours. After the short nap, we did some karaoke at home ( my Uncle has this magic sing ). Me and my dad sang Parokya ni Edgar’s “Halaga”. Damn it is weird when I heard my sucky voice when I sang. Dad, you are one heck of a great duet partner. Thanks for quitting at the middle of the song *smiles*…haha
May 18,2005 Wednesday
We went to Tim Horton’s at about 8:30 pm and me, my cousins, my brother and my dad ate some doughnuts, drank coffee and had this open forum. All of our hatred and anxiety was poured out and discussed some possible solutions. ( I did not say some of my so-called “problems” for they could only be fixed by me….crap.) After that, my mom, auntie and uncle passed by and told us that a Japanese commercial was filming nearby. I was the first one who rushed outside and looked for the place. Damn!!! There were so many bishies!!! By the way, Me and my cousins including my brother were included there as extras. *snickers*. I felt like I was attending a local anime convention because the Japanese people there were dressed in gothic Lolita, punk and “normal” Japanese clothing (colored hair, knee high boots, short skirts and cool accessories).
Anyway, last night, or should I say, this morning around 2:30 am to 3:30 am, Jamille kept me company and we chatted the “morning” away. I said things to her which were really corny and good thing that it was ok with her. Sorry Jam, I was really groggy this morning and I was not aware of the things that I said. But I was serious with our “secret”…better not spill it out.
I told her the things that I freakingly felt. I am deliberately exasperated. But what can I do? A big NOTHING… 23 doesn’t know how nijuusan is doing…dang! This really sucks. Am I becoming totally paranoid for no reason? I think I am over reacting with no basis.
We went to tinsel town at around 4 p.m. because we were supposed to watch the Star Wars III-Revenge of the Sith. But unfortunately, it was not showing yet . Dang!! But the t.v. ads said that the movie will be released on this day!!! I hate them!!! What a waste of time!!! I want to see Hayden so badly! His long hair is great! Bishie-like if you know what I mean. So we just went home and here I am typing this crap post.
"I cannot feel my hands anymore...they are becoming numb"-->I forgot the name of the character...haha
Pags taught the class at exactly this Thursday, May 19 2005
--> All about--[ i, pagong
]--...but what the heck?!
i watched the movie "I, Robot" for the 5th time ( nijuusan, you are still considered
as my 05..haha ). why? simple. Will Smith is Hot. *swoons* Too bad he is black and he is...well...
married and stuff. All the hot men are either married or gay...why, oh, why?
Today is exactly 05-05-05!!!! woohoo!!! HAPPEE to me!! haha. Gaisan! Although i'm not literally
happy....why should i, when nijuusan is in the other side of the world. 23 is not happy as well...
this sucks! i want to go home already! Totally ironic...when the day of your so-called "happee"
crawls up to you and greets you...being "happy" is the last feeling you will feel that day.
Weirdness. Having mixed emotions makes my head spin like crazy. I want to burst into tears but i
literally can't...just hope i wont turn into a wacko when i get back home. I'm getting really
depressed and paranoid. If i was to put my emotions into smileys here, i will put ALL
the smileys then. Then it would be a SUPER mixed emotions. <-- brainless wacko is the one who typed
all these words....even this one.
I met up with my friend, Kim, who migrated here in canada 2 years ago. She didn't changed
a bit really, although she didn't recognize me at first sight. ( maybe because she was accostumed
in seeing me with short hair.*smiles* )
ara:"KIM!!!!! musta ka na??!?!?!?!?!"
kim: stood still and gazes at the wacko who called her by her name *glares*
ara: hugs kim and tells her name
kim:wahhh!! miss you na!!! musta ka na babae ka?!!!!
I told her loads of stuff that she missed when she left
Philippines. She was surprised by the latest news and tells me that she misses her days there.
Too bad she will go back to the philippines next year. Maybe i'd go to her place next time.
She lives in Surrey, British Columbia. Maybe next weekend would be grand!
on sunday we would go to Richmond. For there is a rare get-together party for my tito Danny.
I hope he'll bring in some choco and caramel cakes from IKEA!! that tould be totally awesome!
YUM!
After meeting with Kim, me, my dad and Ron went to Starbucks and bonded there. I got myself
a strawberries and creme while the 2 boys indulged themselves with their drool-worthy...java
chip. I resisted some chocos today. Although i ate 1 stick of Kit-Kat ( It usually has 4, right? )
Then off we went to the internet place. There i read 23's e-mail. It made my heart skip a beat
again ( it usually happens when something has totally gone wrong ), but who cares anyway? Have you
ever felt so depressed in your life and you cant to do anything about it? it sucks. Thats what i felt
right then and there. I have disappointed nijuusan...will you ever forgive me??...I
didn't want it to happen. It was really inevitable. They wont let me out that day...that was 3 am in the morning. I really cant argue with them. Gomenasai!!
*cries*
I'm not happy. thats it. But its my "happee". weirdness. this sucks. I.want.to.go.home.right.now.
Pags taught the class at exactly this Thursday, May 5, 2005
--> All about--[ none at the moment
]--...but what the heck?!
Me , kuya chan at my mom bonded today. It was really great!
First, we went to Virgin, the music store that has a whooping 2 floors, to buy some pez ( the
weird candy ) and a book. I bought the "Harry Potter analyzed by fans for fans" by many
authors ( they are fans as well ). I haven't read it yet though. *grins*
Then off we went to Sears ( i immediately went to find the CHANEL store so i could smell Gackt's
perfume yet again...whoo....heaven... ) to take a look at the things there that were on sale. But
unfortunately, we didn't find any low-priced products. haha
Next stop is the Cafe Crepe. We bought a single crepe for the 3 of us so we wont get fat ( for
it is full of CHOCO!). We ate this crepe called "Banana-Nutella". It was super OISHI!!!!! YUM!YUM!
We went to Pacific center to look at some shoes. Then, we passed by this store called "pay-less"
and searched for a great pair of shoes. I stumbled upon this pink boots for winter time.
I fell in love with it with unbelievable haste. So we bought it!! Yey!! Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!
Actually i still don't know why i liked it, for it suits girlies ( which i'm totally not! ).
The freaking pictures will be available in my buzznet account in may ( i'll upload it after i get
home to phil. )
"Ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan-->xxiii
*currently listening to "till they take my heart away by kyla"..somehow this song, how much
i think that its "corny", it reminds me of my 23...shit..... wait...the next song
playing right now is.."jillian by spongecola"...dang! * sad mode *...i miss YOU so much!!!!!!
Pags taught the class at exactly this thursday, april 28, 2005
--> All about--[ nothing interesting
]--...but what the heck?!
We went to metrotown mall today just to buy a toy for kobe. A little car by hotwheels got
his attention. Then we passed by Starbucks. My dad said "oi, gusto nyo ng
java chip...libre ko" ( while looking at me with a weird grin ) My cousins and brother
all said yes except me ( yes!, i really let down my dad's offer ). While my cousins and brother
were indulging themselves in their java chip haven, .i was looking at them with sad
puppy dog eyes, and unfortunately they didn't even offered theirs to me. ( such good
relatives they are...hehe)
I saw my friend's reply to my message to her a while ago. Her name is KIM (haha)...and
she was one of my close friends when i was still a sophie. She is in Surrey, British
Columbia right now. I was planning to meet her after 2 long years of no communication
whatsoever! hehe. Vancouver is near Surrey so i asked her to set up a meeting place
for us so we can go bonding. She gave me her phone number in her reply! Great!
Anyway, me and my dad are going to the gym for 5 straight days now. He was teaching me
to lift weights. Today he pinched my arms ( which is sore from all the weight lifting ), and
told me in a sarcastic way " Wow, may sashimi ka na dyan a! ". Bleargh.
He means that i developed a "teeny" muscle that looks like a sashimi! What the heck?!
I'll prove to him that i can muster a bigger sashimi!!! haha
Pls. pardon me for making lenghty updates recently. I just can't cram all in a small post.
Pags taught the class at exactly this Wednesday, April 27, 2005
--> All about--[ Science World
]--...but what the heck?!
Wow, We have been here for more than a week already! 3 more weeks to go! YEY!
Me, my dad, kuya chan, kuya ger and ron went to Science world earlier this afternoon.
At first i was hesitant to come because i thought that it would be the usual "corny" science
chuvanelle. But i was dead wrong. It was fantastic!! The science concepts were explained in
detail and they give kids ( like me! haha ) a hands-on experience to what they were explaining.
Examples are:
We went to the section of this certain room where they explained the varying effects of
different kinds of fuels. Me and my cousins began cranking the different cars and saw the
smoke coming out of the cars. It was awesome! You can differentiate it at once!
The other one is the how the water from our toilet ( yes...TOILET!) goes to the river and blah-blah.
There was this Humongous replica of a toilet then we began cranking the wheel until the water was
already filling up the back of the toilet. Then you can see water going through the pipes! It
was really fantastic! Woohoo! I felt like an elementary student again. Having learning yet again
those atoms, molecules and stuff that i saw there.
I also answered this gene quiz in a computer in the building. It asked me questions like:
Are you a rightie or a leftie?
Do you have brown,blue or green eyes?
Do you have black, blonde, brown hair?
Do you have a cleft chin or rounded one? ( this was weird though. I thought only male ones get
those handsome cleft chins *grins* )
The result was..out of 479 (489 or something)...only 9 people are similar to me. haha.
Ofcourse it will only be few. Almost all the people here are blondies and they do not have
brown eyes! It's either, blue, green or gray...totally makes me envious! dang!
On our way back home, we passed by the office ( building ) of E.A. ( electronic arts ).
The corporation who manufactures games like NBA live, NHL and a lot more. Mostly
sports themed games.
You can see the pictures in my buzznet account too. ( it wouldn't hurt if you'll visit for a minute )
Pags taught the class at exactly this Tuesday, April 26, 2005
--> All about--[ wi-fi technology
]--...but what the heck?!
*currently listening to Stay Away by L'Arc~en~Ciel
Woah!! This song reminds me of the Amatsu and Kunlun launch in Market!Market!
For this is the song that they played when i ramped onstage as a.k.a "yuki the monk". Bleargh!.
I hate the commentator...he sucks! He pronounced my name with so much gayness. He should be
with hell for God knows what! This sensual song also reminds me when my seatmate and I
wrote the lyrics of this song in a scratch of paper and assumed that it pertains to girls
with their period.
scraps from the lyrics that got our attention:
"Causes stain! Stay Away!"
"Woah! Causes stain! Stay Away...."
this one too...(I assumed that it means that the girl is happy because she doesn't have her
period on the day of their date with her boylet.)
"Maybe lucky, maybe lucky, i dare say i'm lucky!"
Sorry guys, the topic is nonsense ! I just remembered our weirdness ( me and my seatmate paula-babeh!)
Yes, We think that Laruku's song "Stay Away" is about girl's period. *smiles* Enough with it..
Niwei, I have put my ipod photo in shuffle mode and the 23rd song is "Wish you were here" by Incubus.
Cool!!! I really wish YOU were....
My grandpa taught me the arabic word for the number 23...it's "talata-asirin"
It's freaking long...and it sounds like super deep tagalog...hehe
We went to Blendz ( the coffee shop ) a while ago because me and my dad tried the so-called
Wi-Fi technology (wireless internet in selected coffee shops including, starbucks, seatlle's best, blendz
and a store that sells gelato) that is the talk of tinseltown. My dad ordered this Grande-sized
strawberry and creme that tastes a lot like smoothies!!( it was so damned good! ) YUM!
So anyway, at first we ( i mean i, because i was the only one who did all the trial and error thingie...THE hard work!)
were having a hard time connecting to the internet. It was really weird to click the internet explorer
without clicking the dial-up first. So, i was like " Pano na toh?! feeling ko daddy, mukha
na tayong tanga dito...ayaw namang gumana e!" After almost an hour of pure exasperation,
at last the word "yahoo" appeared on the screen. I literally cried "Yes!" when i saw it and my dad
looked at me like i was some kind of a lunatic! I was deep in euphoria after i "connected" to
the net. It was really fantistic when you open your e-mail and you see that your laptop is
connected to nothing. Really cool. Smashing Hi-tech country?--> Canada ( well, next to
Japan and Korea ofcourse! haha )
That's that.....ja ne! ( you can see the pictures in my buzznet account if you want to see it. )
It has only been 8 days since we left and it feels like forever had passed me by already.
My longing is worsening 23...if only YOU knew....
Pags taught the class at exactly this Monday, April 25, 2005
--> All about--[ bleargh!
]--...but what the heck?!
right now i am typing these words in my dad's lappie top. I haven't been able to update my bloggie for such
a long time now because i'm just going to the internet cafe recently to use the web.I have been busying
myself with sleeping for there are nothing much to do here except that and...well...walk,watch tons
of dvds, window shopping ( the things here are so EXPENSIVE man! ) ...talk about VACATION ( more like
one boring hiatus...i hate it! )
btw, YOU already openned your friendster account. neat. thanks for the testi. The lyrics says it all tenshi, just great.
My cousins and 2nd cousins are here today and they are bumming around with me. Most of them are freaking
male so i can't relate to them most of the time. They have their own weird world of theirs.
Then, my tito Rey cooked something that he called " scallops and taters"! Its heaven guys!! the melting cheese, nothing quite
like it at all. Oishi!!! Say hello to fats my mortal body! *smiles*
My cousins and younger brother were watching this indian show earlier. Where the males wore
turbans and the girls sported a piece of cloth to hide their hair...or head... whatever.
Ofcourse they did not understand what the people were saying so they made their own dialogue.
My younger brother voiced the old man, my "kuya" voiced the (tigang na tigang) woman and my
other kuya voiced the woman's husband. They were really funny!!! Even though i believe that
the indian show was a drama genre because there were a lot of crying and shouting.
All of us were already rolling on the floor laughing our hearts out. Kudos to my cousins and
bro!!! That was one heck of a laughtrip!
*currently playing leaving on a "jetplane" by Chantal Kreviazuk*
3 days ago, i saw "hell"'s blog. I was fuming with rage because his frame has this background
that is the same with mine.How can you do that (again?)?!?! You are
one heck of a copycat!!! i hate you!! Stealing other people's design! I wish i can sue you!
I know i'm going to far and that it's just a little thing, but he keeps on doing that!!!
I keep telling myself that it is just "pure coincidence"...but i already put up with that for
5 times!!!! Once is enough but not five! I wish you'd die right now...as in right NOW.
" Crash! into the rolling morning
Flash! I'm in the coolest Driver's High!"
"Maybe this is paradise...."-->xxiii
Shoot! I suddenly remembered Ken's God-like guitar skills!!! *bows down* Dang! Why did you have
to be a smoker?! ( i hate smokers! Yes,go on hate me. )
Pags taught the class at exactly this Sunday, April 24, Sunday
--> All about--[ HAPPEE!!
]--...but what the heck?!
just want to greet my nijuusan , HAPPEE! i mean unofficial happee! whatever....
take care watashi no tenshi! Enjoy the day then....
Pags taught the class at exactly this Saturday, April 23, 2005
--> All about--[ canada hiatus
]--...but what the heck?!
wah! long time no update!! i was just preoccupied with many things.
we are already in vancouver,canada. haha... i feel like my bones are
already freezing because of the unusual cold.
i am already missing my kada ( tropang tutong as we call ourselves ).
Most especially my dadie!!! for *he is the only one in the kada...who is
updated with my current life. Rem ( bestieh ) knows about it too although
she does not belong to the kada.
i heard that Sir Sy Beng will already teach in UST. He will be teaching the Nursing
students by the way. This makes me want to transfer to this school as soon
as possible. But the thought of seeing Armo and Yael made me reconsider at once.:)
By the way to all my cosplay tropa...i shall, yet again, recycle my monk
costume and i will use it in june for the raganarok championship.Dang!
Whenever i think about it, i always feel weird for i will dress up in that
silly costume again. Now i am thinking of cosplaying "RITZ" from
final fantasy tactics advanced in the GBA. She is the pink-haired
girl who is the sort-of "friend" of the main character "MARCHE". Kim, please
reconsider on cosplaying marche. I know you will cosplay him very well indeed.
Same hair length and same height, what more could you ask for? Maybe you still
want to cosplay Tamahome or Tomo from fushigi yuugi. They are cute characters as well.
Fine. I shall post a pic of Marche and Ritz here then so you can see Marche, kim. haha
this is marche, kim. He is gorgeous!!! He is a blondie, i know. But he rocks all in all!!
This is ritz, the one i am planning to cosplay. She is one hell of a pink-haired chick.
After i saw this pic, i just had to drop my big crush, avril lavigne. She rocks my
weirdness world...no more!!! haha.
"my XXIII is the one who rocks my world, not avril. hehe. You are already out of my mind, rock
princess!...But i am not giving up my GACKT! he is a god. dang...but he is already
40....and i don't care a bit. Age aint nothing but a number,sweetie.
"Hell" is bothering me again. The fact that he was born is the biggest mistake he ever did.
I wish he would drop dead before me so i could sneer at his bloody face and cackle like a
madman. That would be ultimate pleasure. May he stop torturing me by reminding me of
his existence.
I missed answering online quizzes, so here are some: they are very accurate. great.
Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it, and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you, humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla
cool. The results are very.....well....like "me".
You are 'Catherin Zeta-Jones'. No, I'm kidding,
that's your mom. Ahaha. You like bondage, but
with a great helping of whips. Your life is
oxymoronic and it gives you a lot of angst.
You enjoy people second-guessing whether the
devil exists once they've glanced at you. But
deep inside, you're just a great big softie.
Admit it, you have a pink room with doily's on
your dresser and stuffed animals on your bed.
And you like the feel of your bare-naked chest
on your flowery comforter. Be sure not to get
your black makeup on the fabric.
Which J Rock Personality?
brought to you by Quizilla
Catherine zeta-WHAT?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!? this is weirdness. But the results are great!!! haha
so much for that, i am now going to hit the sack. Bye guys...i miss you all very much.
YOU too ofcourse :) I'm longing for my XXIII....
kimi no tameni dekiru koto ( what can i do for you?) by GACKT
Forever, I will remain near only you
From when I held you in my arms
From when I noticed the signs
You flashed me an innocent smile
So I didn't ask for the reason behind your tears
You shook off my hand that held yours...
Softly over your back I started saying
"It's okay now," I repeated over and over again
I couldn't say anything but that
To your faintly trembling self but
Always, I will remain near only you
Until I've held you in my arms
Until you've noticed the signs
I'm so happy because in a casual conversation
You smiled at me
You looked a little embarrassed as you smiled
I won't let go of you so I murmured
"It's okay now..." I couldn't say anything but that
If those tears soon disappear
Because I've become your clown then
Always, I will remain near only you
From when I held you in my arms
From when I noticed the signs
Perhaps the number of tears have been
Greater than the number of smiles but
~Stay close by~
That is
What I can do for you
Always, I will remain near only you
From when I held you in my arms
From when I noticed the signs
Always, only I...
Because I can't let go of you
Because I'll absolutely protect you...
I know the some of the lyrics are not understandable and they sometimes don't mean a thing, because
it's just a translated version of the japanese one.
so ja ne now people...i have to REALLY hit the sack...right now.
Pags taught the class at exactly 01:07 a.m. this Tuesday, April 19, 2005
--> All about--[ my life sucks....not!
]--...but what the heck?!
sorry again for another late post! i have been doing a lot lately (including a work provided by my dad).
things are pretty back to normal:
--> i have my report card already ( which ms.______ threatened us that she will "hold" it )
--> i can now update my ipod "pagong".
--> the computer "pags" is running with more haste.
--> i have confirmed my slot in Ateneo ( so there are no worries anymore that my slot will be taken by others)
--> i have finished watching the 4-cd dvd movie entitled "thorn birds" ( shit!! best romantic movie ever! this made my eyes swell from crying)
--> we will be leaving my beloved "Philippines" in 10 days.haha..vacation at last!
--> i already updated my brother's ipod shuffle!! yahoo!
--> i found my long lost cd ( really!! after 4 yrs..i found it again!) in kobe's room. ( i still don't know how did it get there though)
but there are still things that bothers me...things that are not that good:
--> first....i ran out of credits for my cellphone!! ( dang!!)
--> i got a 90.6 average for the 4th qtr. and there was not a BIT of recognition from tpaul ( favoritism IS present in tpaul)
--> my CLOSEST cousins already migrated to the U.S. but i'm hoping to see them soon.
--> my angel sanctuary cd 1 missing. darn!
--> i can't play sims 2!!!! dang!
sorry about the rantings! i just have to let it out *smiles*
We will be leaving for canada in the next 10 days..for a 1 month vaction there. i'm going to miss you guys!!
especially my xxiii!!!!!! My days there will be meaningless without you there! I'll miss you so much!
Now, the catholic church is a wreck! Without the pope, they don't do anything but to pray and stuff. I feel for those
millions of christians who look up to Pope John Paul II as their father...and as someone that is a very close
representation of christ himself. Rumors say that the next pope will be from a third world country...and it will be a black person.
Maybe from africa or something.
Love is complicated and often falters. They may make you feel you are in "paradiso" or in "hell"( whenever things go wrong).
What the heck, im currently in "paradiso"....haha
We went to Ateneo last monday to confirm my slot there. When we got to the admissions office, one of the staff told us to
photocopy my report card and birth certificate in the rizal library. shit!! the library was huge! as in super HUGE!!
The library in st. paul only looks like a "section" there when compared to their library! It has 2 floors! There are
computers, fully air-conditioned and has these "super antique" books that are twice as big as the big dictionary in the library in saint paul.
I also had my picture taken for the i.d.!! cool! We also ahve this freshmen seminar on june 7-9. It will include, campus tours and stuff.
great! haha
My dad told me that he will be enrolling me to a driving school this week. although i don't know if it will push through.
But even though i DO learn to drive, he will still not let me drive until i'm 18. So its just like an emergency stuff.dang!
maybe this post is already long enough to make an entry...so ta-ta for now. I still have to browse for pictures for "pagong" the ipod. haha
Jillian by Spongecola ( technically by Chris Cantada )
I can't explain this
It's hard to understand
I try but I'm lost
Mesmerized by her
That look will surely stay
She smiles at every face, even mine
But, why doesn't she see me in this empty room?
Does she think about you when you do, when you do?
I try to walk that same hill next to you
I try to be that missing part of you
I tremble as I wait
In these busy, city fields
I see a million stares at me
Anxiously looking
Finding the right time to see
If that sign you're looking for, will lead to me
But, don't you see what you're doing to me?
Can't you see that I've been dealt by this, dealt by you?
I guess I'll always do
I try to shut them
Blurring this picture from my head
But even in the dark, you are there
ja ne people!
Pags taught the class at exactly 06:32 p.m. this Friday, April 8, 2005
--> All about--[ rant...rant...rant
]--...but what the heck?!
too much hiatus is boring! it makes me want to go back to school and chat with my friends instead of sleeping here at the house.
i cant think of anything to do except to play Sims 2 ( hours and hours of endless fun!). Now, i'm sick of the sims' giberish
when they "talk" or "interact" with another sim. Shit! now what?! i already finished "the city of ember" by jeanne duprau( its really
great! the story is very original! its about a city underground and the citizens there did not know that they were underground, until
two kids, lina and doon, discovered the "egress" or the "exit" which lead them to the "world" we are in.) i can't wait
for the next installment!!! i want to get my hands on it!!!!!! dang! it will be called "the people of sparks". kewl!!
its like the titles of her books are all about "light" and "fire". end of topic.
now, i am totally depressed, exasperated and freaked out!. my pc cannot read any cds that i put in it. The pc says that it cannot locate any cd-rom in the pc!!!
damn!! i have 2 cd-roms and it cannot locate any cd-roms?!?!?!??!?!?!?!. one of these days i'll bring the c.p.u to
sm to have it repaired. another problem is that , the itunes gone, so is the ipod updater! double dang it! "the" ipod is not
harmed though. but i can't update it until my pc is fixed and the itunes is installed again. which means i have to upload those 5oo+ songs
AGAIN!! i am pissed off, happy?! ( i am fighting with my damn pc....i'm losing it...)
i did something with my hair yesterday...though i'm not telling what IT is.
Jamie called a while ago and told me that we need pictures for the documentation on the parent-daughter dialogue....
I was the one who had the camera back then..but ALL the pictures are long gone when my pc was reformatted last year
(which means that ALL the files are wiped out of the pc's memory....along with those pictures). and now, jamie told me that
ms. dolor will be holding the cards of these persons (jamie, kamz, jo...and moi)...shit!!! problems do have a way to creep
behind your back and tap you from behind and make your life miserable!! i'm OUT of saint paul...but still, "st.paul problems"
are still making their debut comeback to wreck my blissful life!!!! dang it!! i hope ____________ burns in hell along with
her stupidity and ignorance!!! may she never find the man of her dreams because of her disgusting nature and behavior!!
May the new seniors have enough courage to deal with your "animal-like" personality!! i hate you! burn in hell along with
everybody else that i despise!! curse you "demons-in-disguise" here on earth. *burning with rage*
i am mean...true.I may be kind most of the time but if you "cross the line" with me, you may not find the outburst....
appealing. There is this other side of me that only a "FEW" people can deal with.
march 23 ( or was it 24, because it was already morning then)....unforgettable day. I am afraid that this
happiness will take a sudden stop. I just hope not.
"You were always smiling, real friendly like, but the way you smiled was so empty it hurts to watch you."
just want to post a pic of my youngest brother! damn...he is wild!...haha..like moi...siblings...
Kobe (cookie) and andrew the stuffie.
end of rant. get on with your life.
Pags taught the class at exactly 12:43 p.m. this Thursday, March 31, 2005
--> All about--[ ipod! and other stuffs!
]--...but what the heck?!
i have been busy with uplaoading songs for my new ipod!!Its my graduation gift from my parents!
wohoo!! arigatou!! the new ipod will be called "pagong". Its color is white as snow and I
undoubtly love it. I only have more or less 460 songs currently being transfered to my ipod..i mean...
to "pagong". I still hae to upload 9,560 songs to really fill up the memory of "pagong"
woah!...how am i supposed to do that?! i can't download songs in warez because i am not a
dsl subscriber and i'm only using prepaid cards for internet services. dang!
I had wasted 5 days just to upload the songs i really like to itunes and now i'm enjoying
those laborous days of typing the name of the singer, the genre and the title ofcourse.
*currently listening to "tabing ilog" by barbie's cradle.
I'm starting to miss my high school days in saint paul. I'll surely miss those guys i have left behind.
specially my "05"!!! damn!...why did i waste those precious moments when i could have done something....
if i'm not the one who leaves...it's vice versa. I'm looking forward to the time where everything goes
into place and just leaves hopeless romantic people like me happy enough not to consider slashing.
enough with some useless drama. let me just post some quiz results.
Ok you are a romantic anime girl and you love and
care for a lot of people.There is no evil in
you soul or your heart.Though sometimes people
don't feelt he same way as you do you keep on
trying to change their mind.You love to help
people out and you are always happy.Keep on
trying to make the whole world smile because
you know smiles are contagious ^_^.Oh and if it
seems like there is nobody who could love you
as much as you could love them it doesn't
matter the thing is that the only thing that
matters is that he cares and loves you and it
doesn't matter how much well maybe it does but
don't set you standards to high cuz then you'll
find nobody
If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
brought to you by Quizilla
eh?..looks like fuu in magic knight rayearth!!!...this quiz is not even near to the real me!!!...i'm happy?? yeah..you wish!
Hang on a sec! You're not an angel! You're a
goddess! Always the leader in your group of
friends you are the one to go to in a crisis,
your advice is valuable if you give it out,
which is only if you feel people deserve it. Go
you!
Which natural angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla
goddess?!?!?!?! no way!! the pic looks like sakura kinomoto form card captor sakura....hehe
Sound the bitch alert, because you're Miyabi!
You're on 24/7/356 PMS, with an attitude sharp
enough to cut steel! When someone makes you
mad, you get back at them as much as you can.
You're very difficult to get along with.
Authority figures can all go to Hell for all
you care.
Which Great Teacher Onizuka Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
miyabi-chan eh?! that's fine with me, because i like her a lot!! way to go coldheartedness!!!
I am currently busy with those badminton practices. Not that i want to enter a competition of some sort. just want to
get into shape for my next cosplay! yehey!! ahahaha! got to take this badminton seriously!!! Its some chick form
.hack or maybe sohee from ragnarok. if i cant make a costume by june, i think i'll "recycle" my monk costume and cosplay it
again so that my friend marge can have a weird companion in her cosplay mania!
meine "05" keine können Sie ersetzen..., das niemand auf unserer way..i'll Versprechung stehen können, die...
no matter what happens you'll stay right here with me....wherever i may go...i'll think of you..not just a friend i'm missing
but as "something" i failed to notice, failed to listen to, failed to hug, and as an opportunity i failed to grasp. I'm a
total failure!! why does this happen everytime?! i only see the importance of the person when they are not with me
anymore and they already love someone else i'm dying to know who... stupid me.
just want to post some pics of the new additions to my "family". my new...toys!!
my beloved poporing!! got this form market-market!! believe it or not, i just got it as a freebie!!
i also got amatsu and kunlun cds, a kafra shirt and a blasted poster!( i already gave it to paula by the way)
my beloved ipod..that i named "pagong". almost all the things in my room are named pagong...my pc, my stuff toys, my
cellphone and now..my ipod...whahahahaha...i'm thinking of buying a brand new laptop for college..dang! i need it.
Anyway..i'll be studying at the Ateneo..my parents dropped the issue on la salle enrollment. studying there will be a
pain in the butt, so i need all the gadgets that i can have my nasty hands on!!! i may see members of the drastedly drasted
"SPONGECOLA"!!!! yahoo for me. It's actually one of the major reasons on why i like to study there!! many bishies running
around!! hahahahaha
Pags taught the class at exactly 07:08 p.m. this Tuesday, March 22, 2005
--> All about--[ GRADUATION AT LAST!
]--...but what the heck?!
Long time no update guys....its because of those practices which were boring to death, the clearances, exams, cosplay, grad ball and all those stuff which consumed a lot of my time for the past weeks. Ok, enough with the rantings for i'm not here to rant again about tedious engagements i have gone through. Today is the day of judgment, and i will go throught this with a big smile. No tears will flood for i know i will see those faces again in a few years or even a few months from. Who says that its goodbye? it will just be a "see you soon" and a "farewell for now". I will post some things that may happen later!
*edit*
the graduation was a total blast!!! it was great!!! i said goodbye to those never ending mass, the morning assmebly, the paulinian uniform, the airconditioned rooms, the checkered floor of the 2nd floor, the faculty which i dreaded the most, the defense, the blasted reasearch!, the bishie teachers of the institution,the guards, the id system, the concessionaires, the smelly canteen, the cats roaming around the campus, the practices for the intramurals, the tug players, the clearances, the chain rosary, the 3 points of sr. remedios, the deliberation, the sgb, the violations, the paulinian mission song, the st. paul hymn, my batchmates, my crushes in each year level ( don't worry i'll still hunt each and every one of you when i visit st. paul again), the pass slip, the theater, the tardy and absence slip, the ,lockers, the permits and all those stuff. But one thing is for sure, i'll always be a paulinian at heart no matter what happens. even though sometimes i curse the school, its policies and its faculty. i still loved my stay there.
"i'll never forget you. I'll still go there to see you again, no matter the distance, i'll stay by your side and take away your pain away, for i have loved you so much. This feeling of mine caught me by surprise, for i didn't know i'll fall for your kind nature and compassionate heart. you have touched my life in more ways than you'll ever know. you were the only one who understood my eerie and slow nature. you were the only one who knows the true me...my "05"." woah...sorry for the drama but i just felt that i had to post that. i have to let out this feeling of mine that is struggling to be free. i will truly miss you my "05". I hope someday we can spend at least a day together somewhere only we know.
Pags taught the class at exactly 12:54 p.m. this Friday, March 18, 2005