i am the master of my fate...

--->>> This day was mysteriously nice to me…I had answered our computer seatwork without so much help from others, although I occasionally ask my seatmate (hazel) for her opinions on the numbers we were answering. The physics class was a blast too. Sir Beng cranked up some jokes to keep us awake. He only made us answer 1 problem concerning potential energy and kinetic energy…although it has 5 sub problems. He even helped me in the 5th problem concerning power because I somehow forgot the formula for it *swoons* although “sexy boy” is much closer to my heart than before *wink*. Then Ms. DV excused me from Sir Beng’s class to discuss with me some topics that I have to tackle with the class for our so-called quiz. Damn…she didn’t even give me examples…only the formulas! But, the topic was not that hard so I just nodded my head every time she asks me if I understood it. Not even half of the class was there after lunch so I only got to teach some of my classmates...but miraculously many passed their papers to me…weird….

I got Bob Ong’s “Alamat ng Gubat”!! I bought it this afternoon in the book fair in our school!! It looks so cool!! I haven’t read it yet because I’m still in the “carnivorous carnival” in the series of unfortunate events and I still have a book more to go!! Yey!! Hehe. The “Alamat ng Gubat” even have a sketch of a turtle in the cover along with some animals...like roaches, crab…and others

Last night my mom and dad surprised me with some tickets they bought. It’s a ticket to Padi’s Point somewhere ( I don’t know which branch!) that features “PAROKYA NI EDGAR’S Inuman Sessions!!!!! I hugged me parents really tight and endlessly thanked them. It has been a long dream of mine to meet those guys!!! It will be on Tuesday, 11:00 pm ( and to think I still have classes the next day!! That means there is no sleeping yet again!!)…I’ll post some pics after the event people!!

Drat!! I still have to go to school tomorrow because I have to attend the CEP in bilibid prison!! Damn!! I was really looking forward on a long sleep tonight!!...bye guys, I still have a lot to do….ja ne!!!

Pags slit her throat at exactly 06:35 p.m. this Friday, January 28, 2005

darn it!!

--->>> ei peeps..its been a long time since i had updated...my schedule has been jampacked (till now though...)with useless things i have to accomplish....

the day was (as usual) boring and unhappy....Our section got the 4th place over-all in the field demo....shocking but true =)...we were not really expecting it but hey, god is nice to us for this day at least...anyway congrats to teres( therese) for bagging the top spot in the field demo and also winning the best in costume ( right?) anyway..here are some pics that we had for the freaking day...

after the field demo..weird combinations of outfits..
after the field demo..just bumming around
getting ready for the field demo
me...during the palarong pinoy chuva!...i look like a bum..hehe


anyway..i'm already beginning to start a new layout...but i haven't decided yet if i'm going to use advent children, kinggdom hearts 2 or final fantasy XII....its because there are so many kawaii pictures in the net!! i can't make up my mind!! damn!!!!

Thats all for now, because i still have to do my english project....bye guys...

Pags slit her throat at exactly 05:55 p.m. this Thursday, January 27, 2005

in search for you....

--->>> wooh...i'm back and updating yet again...i just finished my chores for today and i feel that my hands are nearly numbed because of the endless things that I did today…

I slept last night at 1:00 am because I finished book 6 of “the series of unfortunate events”..and now I’m currently reading “the vile village”…I’m still in chapter 1 though…

*currently munching original popcorn* We went to the church this morning but we didn’t heard the gospel for we arrived late (as usual). While we were standing there in the gates of Mt. Carmel, I reminisced on the good times that *____* and I had. Mt. Carmel was one of those places because this was the last time that we saw each other before my parents confronted me with the issue…nearly a month ago ….anyway, after that we ate at Teriyaki Boy ( yokatta!! Japanese food!! Itadaikimasu!!)..The food was SUPER great….and did I just said great?? I was so stuffed because I really pigged out!!! Hehe! Another cool thing about this resto is that, they play Japanese songs in the background while occasionally playing American songs between intervals. I even heard Utada Hikaru’s “Give me a reason” and “traveling:”…Utada Hikaru, people, is the one who sang the ending song in Kingdom Hearts ( simple and clean or Hikari)….there you go!

I also watched this movie entitled "lost in translation"( i am a bit outdated when it comes to movies...)...which was very great indeed!! just buy the dvd. damn it!!! it includes some japanese!!! yeah!! hehe

I really hate our frinsyiphal!!! She scheduled us for a whole month full of Saturday classes!!! Can this school year be much worse?!?! Can’t imagine that…..And tomorrow will be our “dress rehearsal”…what the hell is that , anyway?!?! Damn!! I want this all to end already so I can enjoy the bliss in soliloquy……


You are a Khaos angel. You are different from all
the rest. You are a special breed of angel,
prone to suffer in the world that you are in
now. No matter how much you try to believe that
your not special, you are. There is alot that
you want to do in this world. Khaos angels are
very dramatic, we tend to have the ability to
cheer people up no matter what the mood, and
hold in your emotions. You should be proud,
Khaos angels are very rare to find in this
world of ours... (and yes. you are a completely
different type. Hence the name

What Different Kind of Angel are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
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i like the result, but the pic, sucks!!


Brainiac

.:: What's Your Anime Personalitiy? ::.
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hte picture is sooo kawaii!!!!


Waaah! You're so LOVABLE! Everybody likes you,
because you're a great person to have around
and it's always happy about everything ^^.
congrats! and...can I hug you?? plz! ^///^

Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!!
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heck!!! lovable?!?! no way!!!!


You're a Sorceress! You're not the loudest person
but when you get mad. I wouldn't want to be the
person you're mad at! Anyways you love to
meditate and you think Silence is the key to
happiness,yay for you!

What Kind of Girl are you? (anime pics)
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wow!!! the result is super accurate!!!! cool!! the pic is nice too!!

so much for the quizzes..its time to end this crap...

Pags slit her throat at exactly 05:42 p.m. this Sunday, January 23, 2005

climb inside my world..hehe

--->>> there..i thought we were going to 8 waves today but it was cancelled...woohoo!!! yey!! now i can enjoy solidarity in my room without anyone bothering me!!!

the day was as boring as usual...not to mention those "smashing" dri-run for the field demo
one of my friends from the sophies even approached me and said
"ate!!! pinahirapan kami dun!! 4 na beses kami pinasayaw dun!

*sigh* that drastedly drasted frinsyiphal deserves to die along with her "underdogs"!!
i just like the school better when i was still a freshmen where the school is organized and unbelievably happy, even though the frinsyiphal was not that nice because she was a devoted disciplinarian...at least it was for a good cause..and i understand her fully! It's my dream to see her back in the "Tpol" as a frinsyiphal so i could leave Tpol happy. knowing that my undergrad friends will no longer bear the inconsiderate mind of the new frinsyiphal!!!

My depression has not subsided one bit... i'm still "collecting" tons of problems and i can't even lessen them!! i'm so pitiful...do you think so?...ofcourse!! i'm helpless and unreasonable....

i saw my classmate kari with a cd of SPONGECOLA!!!!!!!!!! And i saw Yael and Armo in the cover!!! sh*t!!! i want to buy one but i can't..its not because i don't have enough moohlah (money)..but its because i cant go out anymore because of the piles of lies i made last year...and yes I am still grounded...and I just keep on telling myself that i have to pay for those sins that i made....I am such a bad person and I am fully aware of it!..no need to sink it in me...

I haven't finished reading the "ersatz elevator yet" because i am super busy!! But after reading through some pages i found out that "ersatz" means a thing that pretends to be something that its not. For example i am searching for a rope but i can't find one, so i gather some neck ties, beadspreads and some electric cords and tie them together..and now i end with an "ersatz rope" because it acts as a rope but its not....gets?...i'm not that good in explaining things...gomen!

I am planning on making another layout..but i think i just have to do it ...maybe....after 5 months!!! hehe!! because my schedule is jampacked!!! I really wanted to try it out badly!!! anyway..it can wait!!

me and ian bonded together today because tina and jamie were absent...and we talked abou our love problems...sorry if wasn't of much help..but i really tried my best to give you helpful advices with your dilemna....goodluck though!! I'll be right behind you!!!!

i would just like to post some "out-dated pics of mine!! hehe here it goes!!

my brother!! "read between the lines!!"
my kada....c monichan-rem,tina and klaine

does the links work?!?!?! just tag the tag board if you don't see the pics, ok?!?!

ok...just some quiz results!!!


A pretty straightforward video (compared to the
others, anyway), you rely on the coolness of
the band and the fun of just rockin' out to
provide your subject matter. But you DO end
with a kick-ass sarariman victory dance.

Which L'arc~en~ciel Music Video Are You?
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cool!! i like this music video!! one of the first ones that i saw!!! that made me like Laruku a lot!!!


Angry Goth

What Kind of Goth Are You?
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angry?!?! yer right....


Your anime hair color is green.

What is your anime hair color?
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i know his girl!! she's from the tales of destiny!! kawaii!!


You're An Intellectual! You can always be found reading or on the computer.
People always come to you when they need
information. You don't really care about love
at this point, your only goal is to improve
your mind. After all, knowledge is power!

What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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the quiz is right!!! i don't need love right now, i have to study!!


The guy you want is probaly the popular guy in
your school. Which is great to me:) He's so
dreamy that you'll want him to notice you so
badly your do anything. Like in the cafateria
you'ld trip on something infront of him to make
your food spill all over you!!! Even if it's a
brand new shirt or your favourite skirt!!! Oh
well at least he'll notice you:)

Who's Perfect For You??? (Cute Anime Pics)
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*swoons* he's so cute!!!!!
sorry if i posted so many quiz results, i just felt like answering them all!! hehe

bye guys!!!!

Pags slit her throat at exactly 09:43 p.m. this Saturday, January 22, 2005

hellraizer!!!

--->>> *currently listening to Hideto Takarai's roentgen album...its super morbid!
" i have so many things to shout to you...."<-- one of the lines that i really like...

Anyway..this day..is not that good either...the computer class was a bum...even though i understood the new lesson ( finally!), my artistic sense didn't work at all so i ended up with a lousy form!!! all i did was a blinking mickey mouse!!!! sh*t!!!

i'm still studying for the bible quiz bee(again...) on wednesday..damn..i still can't understand Paul's letters!!! And Mrs. Buen (our team captain *barfs*) said that i should make notes and reproduce it so my teammates can study my part of the bible too...damnation has consumed me again...

the eco class was good enough to be not boring...and filipino...was great because i got the chance to eat my oatmeal bar,for ms.cua was out and just gave us notes to copy....

i liked the math class (as usual) because i fully understood the new lesson about intersecting lines and fnding their point of intersection!!! woohoo....great great numbers...i just love geometric algebra!!!!!!!!! (i'm not sure if that is the correct term though)

i'm feeling super hungry now...but there is no food yet...argghhh!!

*curretnly listening to Hello by Hyde..and maybe later i'll listen to his "words of love" ( don't let the title fool you, it's full of inner angst!!)

while me and ian were sitting in the benches there and waiting for my carpool in the covered walkway in the college department, some juniors were also walking in towards the opposite direction and were pushing one of their kada towards us and shouting "ate, may crush sayo o!"...feeling exasperated, me and ian just winked and shrugs it off we know they were just acting stupid and were just having the time of their life...

nywei..we are goint to 8 waves on saturday and sunday...and that means 2 days of internet depriviation ( am i right?? ) and i won't be able to update!!! hell!!!!


Which JRock Vocalist Are You?
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klaha!! but i still like Gackt more than you!! but you have a nice body and a cool voice too!!


Yazoo!

Which of the New Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children Characters are You?
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bishie alert!!!! bishie alert!!!! bishie alert!!! *swoons*

You're Gackt ....You sex Fiend you!

Which Jrocker Matches your Personality
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shoot!! Gackt is soo sexy here!!! *chain me!!!!!* hehe

time to go./...got to watch some movie with my siblings!!!

Pags slit her throat at exactly 06:42 p.m. this Friday, January 21, 2005

misery and the likes

--->>> *sigh* another day full of misery…why can’t the days be more nice to me once in a while?...

I think *_____* got really mad at me because he returned every single thing that I gave him…it was a weird feeling when I saw the things that I worked so hard for….now returned to me…I’m planning on returning the things he gave to me too…maybe one of these days….hell!! I don’t have time for these! I have a lot to do…and I just want these problems to stop bothering me!...please give me a break for once!!!!!! Well if ever you stumble upon my blog…and if you are reading this...I’m really sorry if my heart is as cold as ice….I really tried to change…but to no avail. I did try my best but my instincts got the best of me….gomenasai. I just hope that you’ll really find that special girl that will be more worthy of you. If ever you meet her, let me know, ok?

wahh!! My feet hurts like hell!!! We’ve been practicing our dance steps for our field demo for like…since morning till the late afternoon!!! With just recess and lunch as our “nap time” (hehe). They should have told our section to bring rubber shoes or our P.E uniform for that matter. How are we supposed to dance properly in heels?!?!?!?!?! To think that our dance includes a lot of hopping and those stuffs!!

during our recess, I was just eating my favorite food, ensaymada from red ribbon, then all of a sudden my braces snapped!! The wire near my molars broke!!! Shoot!! I just had to wait till dismissal so I can go to my dentist and have it fixed!! ( it’s up and running now though!! Hehe)

I’m now in book 6 of “series of unfortunate events”…entitled “the ersatz elevator” …I think ersatz is a cool name…maybe I’ll use that to name my “soon-to-be-child”…instead of Oxygen…( I am so weird!!)

Anyway…my research is still making my head spin like crazy!!! I just want this all to end so I can pursue my college life already!!! I want to graduate so bad!!!

I just want to share this weird feeling of mine…I’ve been dreaming about this certain guy that I don’t even know…named Mike. It’s just that, everyday his name just pops inside my head and I will think about it for a while and then forget about it. An hour later I’ll remember it again and think again…This is so weird!! I don’t even know a guy named MIKE!!!!! What the hell is happening to me these days?!?!?!?!?...maybe….problems is consuming me again


Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.

I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.

What type of teenager are you?
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is this quiz telling me that i'm a nice girl?!?!?!?! no way!!!!weird!!


In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics)
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wah!!! Setsuna and Sarah Mudou!!! i love the both of you!!! anyway..i can realte to this result..its accurate and true...


FROZEN QUEEN/ KING You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner. Thats it. PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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wow!! cool!! its super accurate!!!super great!!!
i think that's all for now, i have to do something with my research...

Pags slit her throat at exactly 08:20 p.m. this Thursday, January 20, 2005

i think i'm undergoing metamorphosis...

--->>> hi...did you have a good day?! ofcourse you did...i think i'm the only one who doesn't feel happy everyday...because of the tons of assignments and quizzes that is bombarding my " 0 momentum" brain ( momentum?! you'll get the hang of it in your physics...)....waaahahhahahah....RESEARCH!!!! i'm now problematic because of this subject!!! i just want it all to end and have my vacation already!! damn!! why do i still have to go through this stage of my rotting life?!....
I think i'm being girly nowadays....and here are the signs:
> i find the color "Pink" attractive....
> i scream like a girlie a lot!!
> i enjoy reading "Candy Mag"...
>i like to wear skirts and shorts...*shrugs*
> i speak differently now and with a girlie accent....
...I don't want to be a full-pledged girl!! i want to me a mediocre when it comes to these gender problems!!

i'd like to post this quiz result of mine, which i find really interesting!!!

You Know You're Filipino When....

Your middle name is your mother's maiden name. Your parents call each other "Mommy" and "Daddy." You have uncles and aunts named "Boy," "Girlie," or "Baby." You have relatives whose nicknames consist of repeated syllables like "Jun-Jun," "Ling-Ling," and "Mon-Mon." Mine by the way was "Che-Che." You call the parents of your friends and your own parents' friends "Tito" and "Tita." You have four or five names. You greet your elders by touching their hands to your forehead. You always kiss your relatives on the cheek whenever you enter or leave the room. You follow your parents' house rules even if you are over 18. You live with your parents until and at times even after you're married. You decorate your dining room wall with a picture of the "Last Supper." You keep your furniture wrapped in plastic or covered with blankets. You have a Sto. Nino shrine in your living room. You have a piano that no one plays. You keep a tabo in your bathroom. You use Vicks Vapor rub as an insect repellant. You eat with your hands. You eat more than three times a day. You think a meal is not a meal without rice. You think sandwiches are snacks, not meals. Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy Susan) in the middle. You bring baon to work everyday. Your pantry is never without Spam, Vienna sausage, corned beef, and sardines. You love to eat daing or tuyo. You prop up one knee while eating. ou eat your meal with patis, toyo, suka, banana catsup, or bagoong. Your tablecloths are stained with toyo circles. You love sticky desserts and salty snacks. You eat fried Spam and hot dogs with rice. You eat mangoes with rice--with great GUSTO! You love "dirty" ice cream. You love to eat, yet often manage to stay slim. You put hot dogs in your spaghetti. Everything you eat is sauted in garlic, onion, and tomatoes. You order a "soft drink" instead of soda. You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror. You get together with family at a cemetery on All Saint's Day to eat, drink, and tell stories by your loved ones' graves. You play cards or mahjong and drink beer at funeral wakes. You think Christmas season begins in October and ends in January. Your second piece of luggage is a balikbayan box. You've mastered the art of packing a suitcase to double capacity. You collect items from airlines, hotels, and restaurants as "souvenirs." You feel obligated to give pasalubong to all your friends and relatives each time you return from a trip. You use paper foot outlines when buying shoes for friends and relatives. You're a fashion victim. You can convey 30 messages with your facial expression. You hold your palms together in front of you and say "excuse, excuse" when you pass in between people or in front of the TV. You ask for the bill at a restaurant by making a rectangle in the air. You cover your mouth when you laugh. You respond to a "Hoy!" or a "Pssst!" in a crowd. You'll answer "Malapit lang!"--no matter the distance--when asked how far away a place is located. Goldilocks is more than a fairy tale character to you. You refer to power interruptions as "brownouts." You love to use the following acronyms: CR for comfort room, DI for dance instructor, DOM for dirty old man, TNT for tago nang tago, KJ for kill joy, KSP for kulang sa pansin, OA for over-acting, TL for true love, BF for boyfriend and GF for girlfriend. You say "rubber shoes" instead of sneakers, "ball pen" instead of pen, "stockings" instead of pantyhose, "pampers" instead of diapers, "ref" or "prijider" instead of refrigerator, "Colgate" instead of toothpaste, "canteen" instead of cafeteria, and "open" or "close" instead of turn on or turn off (as in the lights). You use an umbrella for shade on hot summer days. You like everything imported or "state-side." You love ballroom dancing, bowling, pusoy, mah jong, billiards, and karaoke. You have a relative who is a nurse. When you're in a restaurant, you wipe your plate and utensils before using them. You can squeeze 15 passengers into your five seater car without a second thought. You wave a pom-pom on a stick around the food to keep the flies away. You always ring a doorbell twice, assuming that the first ring was not heard. You let the phone ring twice before answering, lest you appear overly eager. Your other piece of luggage is a balikbayan box. You use a rock to scrub yourself in the bath or shower. You're proud to be Filapino - and you pass these jokes on to all your Filipino friends!

Pags slit her throat at exactly 07:08 p.m. this Tuesday, January 18, 2005

why does hell visit me everytime??!!

--->>> ok...lets recall some things that happened this weekend..shall we?!..
[Saturday]
I was pestering my mom to go to the mall so we could watch the "Series of Unfortunate events"...but unfortunately..it was not yet out!! damn!! then we just watched "Kung Fu Hustle" ( that i failed to watch last January 8 in mega mall because i was having a hard time, finding the right heels..)...ok..back to the topic...there..it was REALLY funny! it was just like "Kung Pow!" the other chinese remake movie by an american director..but kung pow was more hilarious than Kung Fu Hustle"...but it was still nice!! After that, off we go to National Bookstore ( my favvorite place in the mall aside from comic quest and comic alley!) and i bought the two books that i still lack in my collection in "a series of unfortunate events"..one was the "ersatz elevator" and the "slippery slope"...
[Sunday]
*shiver*...shoot!! i got up 4 am in the morning and we left the house by 5 am and we got there in Ateneo....5:30 am..i was still groggy but i managed to stay awake and remain focused....wahhh!! the ACET was a pain in the butt!! its the worst entrance exam ever!!!! Curse you!! Curse those answer sheets!! Curse those test booklets!! And curse the time pressure!!!

enough about the rantings and on with the other bad news today...i didn't pass in UST for Nursing although i'm in the waiting list in Psychology!!! shit!! it doesn't make perfect sense!! i really did good in the entrance exam and i flunked!!( not actually "flunked" but its like that )...anyway...i i'm going to La Salle even if i manage to pass nursing in UST!! damn you!! i still cannot accept this treachery!! i'm going to sue you....in hell that is!! joke!! ( but jokes are half meant, right?)

followed by our research class that was just full of shouting and recommendations with the questionnaires!!
i am now dreading the day of the judgment day...the DEFENSE....will someone kill me already, so i can be excused from this nonsense!! i don't want to but i have to!! ( does it make perfect sense?! no? just what i thought...)..anyway...enough with the rantings....let me just post some quiz results...


You are a spring. You are very mellow most of the
time except for the caffine season (which is
year round) but you are also a very nice
person. When people tick you off though God
better save them. lol You are a fairly
socialable person because people know you won't
get mad too easy or seem to. But you are a very
nice peron over all. ^-^

What Season Best Fits You? (anime pics)
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I am a nice person?!! no way..this is weird....

Your Beauty lies in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song: Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone: Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet: Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color: Silver

Quote: "A stranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."

Pags slit her throat at exactly 09:40 p.m. this Monday, January 17, 2005

my head is empty

--->>> i am now currently addicted to this "Series of Unfortunate Events" by my idol, Lemony Snicket. I just recently realized that he is an amazing author and has that power to make his readers read his book nonstop! (literally) He is just like JK Rowling but he prefers to hide his true identity, which makes him more cool....

I want to watch the movie!!!!!!!!! But i don't have time this weekend because i have my ADMU test..though i know that i can't possibly pass there..but still here i am dreaming like hell....
anyway i want to post my favorite screencaps in the movie. You know what Violet Baudelaire ( the only girl in the pic) looks like a mini Angelina Jolie, with her lips pucked up like that...hehe....I just love the cute baby there named Sunny in the book!! And Klaus...geeky but funky!



This is the most used poster whenever i go to SM or other malls for that matter.



They look so gloomy ( like me right about now...)But Sunny is as bubby as usual



The Baudelaire orphans are so adorable that i want them to be my own siblings! *dream on!*

Just want to post some quiz results... because i want to kill time!...

You are Dark


You
are a dark person. Secretive, and a bit
depressed. It's either by problems in your
life, or your attitude towards things. People
feel depressed or sad whenever they're around
you, but it's what you think right? Don't care
about what other people think? I agree with you
on that, but do take care.Please Rate!

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*sigh* i'm back to my old self again..though i don't know why..i keep on telling myself that i have definitely improved...but to no avail....


You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.

shucks....i'm really back...To the heartless, morbid and angst-driven girl that i was way back....pityful...

My math teacher told me that my grade (in math obviously)...have risen to 3 points!! wow!! can't believe it!!...actualy thats the only good thing that happened to me this day....the others...i just want to forget them....anyway...my "friend" out there....just want to greet you ..."happy!" even though "things" are not what they were before...

signing off....

Pags slit her throat at exactly 05:12 p.m. this Wednesday, January 12, 2005

will somebody kill me?...

--->>> What a lousy day...It first started when our principal made the seniors stay behind after the flag ceremony for some reason. She said that the sounds of the heels are making her irritated. ( what can we do?! we are not used to these!!) She made us wear heels so that we can grow up as "sophisticated ladies" ( just thinking of it makes me shiver already! I aint no lady!! I'm totally "gay" ( for those who are suffering from identity crisis like me, should know what i mean and will not take it literally..) We were relieved when she stopped talking..then our principal made us walk the whole 2nd floor...one-by-one!! So that she can see those who can't walk properly with their heels...damn..goodthing that i can still walk properly even though i despise wearing them and those stupid balck foot socks!!Then it was followed by endless seatworks and tons of assignments...how can this day be more frustrating?! Now i'm already dreading to graduate because i still have to endure that very "nice" subject...RESEARCH!!! After that..i still have that "defense"...shoot..how can i survive this?! i looked "wasted" earlier ( the way i have always been anyway...) because i have a lot of problems that i still have to settle. Problems do have their way on crawling behind me and tapping me at the back telling me to give up...You know what... i just realized that a commitment is very hard to handle..even though you think that the both of you will be happy forever...It's no use fighting the circumstances that might go your way because it will just make it worst...and it will bring a lot of suffering on both parties...why is the heart so dumb?!!..anyway..my ACET exam will be this sunday..and right about now..i'm already getting goosebumps...*makes the sign of the cross*...i think this will be the end of my rantings because i still have piles of homework to do and lot of problems to solve....

*edit* ...I just did it a while ago...i didn't know that doing that, will make me feel worst than the time when i was just thinking about doing it...can't relate..i just broke up with...well...you all know who it is...The sad thing is..i didn't explain it to him in detail so i know that he feels bad about it too. Like you were left there hanging and you don't know why...i didn't explain it to him because i simply don't know how to explain to him..i just told him that...our situation has become so hard to bear that i just have to give up to avoid anymore problems...Is that reason enough?..i think not but still i did it...loathe me if you want....its ok...i'll accept it...i just feel so bad that i, (again!) made someones life miserable by a simple phone call...damn it!! i really have to see a psychologist because my emotions are already stirring up again into a total blakchole of "coldheartedness"...But i hope this is not THE end...but a START of something better...


I just feel like posting this...

To "let go" does not mean to stop caring.
It means I can't do it for someone else.

To "let go" is not to cut myself off.
It's the realization that I can't control another.

To "let go" is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another.
It's to make the most of myself.
To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.

To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To "let go" is not to be in the middle,
arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.
To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings
and correct them.

To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To "let go" is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To "let go" is to fear less and to love more...

Pags slit her throat at exactly 05:06 p.m. this Tuesday, January 11, 2005

finished at long last!!

--->>> just finished uploading my 3 frames in different servers which made my head shrink...shoot!! it's 10:00 at i want to sleep alreay...i'll update tommorrow..ja

Pags slit her throat at exactly 09:51 p.m. this Sunday, January 9, 2005