sine ranted on Monday, September 1, 2003 09:23 a.m.

all change!!
wow... changed the layout in like... one hour? kiss my toes, people; I'm good!! (nah, just joking) blog later.

out.

sine.

sine ranted on Sunday, August 31, 2003 07:48 a.m.

ease my mind...

just emailed opalstar, feeling kind of guilty for not responding to her email earlier. listening to call me, call me again- i know it makes me feel sad, but i just need that song like i need water. like i need chocolate.

binged on chocolate yesterday, going to stay off it for the next... maybe three or four days? this won't be easy... speaking of loving chocolate, edward (sister's friend) left on friday night. sis went to see him off. was quite sad, according to sis.

kind of felt sad about tigger sporadically this week, but the prelims kind of took my mind off it for a bit. it's back for a bit right now, because of the music i'm listening to. *sigh* must be going bonkers, because i imagined tigger sitting on the floor earlier, smiling weirdly. well, everyone smiles weirdly, but tigger? tigger's totally un-weird- cool is a better adjective. oh whatever.

i close my eyes and i keep seeing things.
rainbow waterfalls, sunny liquid dreams.
confusion creeps inside me raining doubt.
got to get to you
but i don't know how

call me, call me
let me know it's all right
call me, call me
don't you think it's bout time
please won't you call and
ease my mind
reasons for me to find you
peace of mind
what can i do
to get me to you?

mugen no kaze seems to be softer than my cowboy bebop tracks. but nevermind... :)

sine ranted on Sunday, August 24, 2003 12:58 p.m.

mcdonalds and double cheese at that!!
yay! i'm feeling so happy now! i've just finished an entire mcdonalds double cheeseburger and i'm going to bathe and practise violin in a while... heck! science was challenging and all, but i'm so totally glad its over! have to go now

out

sine

sine ranted on Friday, August 22, 2003 03:24 p.m.

i am SUANNED

heh... nice title. yeah, in actual fact, i AM suanned. mom suanned me just this morning abt the syto. whoa. don't worry, mom, I WILL practice because i want more than anything to get in!! yeah, i see reason for you suanning me, but... but whatever. okay, i'm practising!!! I'M PRACTISING AT SIX PM TONIGHT!!! I'M MISSING RAVE!! not that i really mind missing rave; practise is more important.

hhr, mish and i are happy tree friends. that means that we have to be nice to each other. woohoo! i feel so good right now, having two other happy tree friends. maybe i won't feel so good later, but right now, i feel really happy and friendly.

listening to mugen no kaze right now. Mish, go to my makeshift site and download the link that says "happiness" for Mugen no Kaze!!

out.

sine

sine ranted on Thursday, August 21, 2003 02:19 p.m.

feeling... depressed?
wow. i'm drained. don't feel like blogging.

sine ranted on Wednesday, August 20, 2003 06:14 p.m.

personality disorders?

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

yup, i said i would blog some more, and so here i am!! finished all the hmwrk, going to start on english mock paper NOW. or maybe after this. but anyway, i'm feeling kind of cynical and sarcastic. :) *snigger* blame e for that one. heck, his acridity (??) is contagious! did i spell that right?

whatever. anyway, i didn't eat my breakfast and my packed recess. instead, i went to eat some glutinous rice, so i am stuck with a lunchbox full of cheese bread. hve to finish it before my mom finds it. luckily i finished the sandwich earlier.

later i'm going to practise vln so that i will NOT malluate myself in front of amos and germ. mom has been pissed abt THAT too. i might be mad; normally i make it a point NOT to practise. shit. must be little miss bimbo pianist's voodoo or smthing.

am wearing a hairband which is making me look seriously pooped. as in, seriously, i look super-moronic. arrgh! my bangs are too long, but mom is only going to bring me to j8 on friday, which is AFTER my prelims. fat lot of good that does. well... am feeling moderately down abt that person *cough cough* who i shall call... hmm... ok, tigger.

shit, gtg.

out.

sine

sine ranted on Monday, August 18, 2003 04:10 p.m.

woohoo! compos galore!
mom is officially pissed with me, because i didn't tell her about my compo. blog later... yeah right. REALLY!!

out.

sine

sine ranted on Monday, August 18, 2003 03:35 p.m.

gaaah.
woohoo! just printed out two versions of the tday invitation... hope mdm tan likes it. been reading e's blog- totally crazy guy, ne. have to start work now; blog later.

out.

sine

NO FAIR! saiyuki is airing again at 700. shit you, axn.

sine ranted on Monday, August 18, 2003 03:09 p.m.

happy? fat hope

feeling happier now after a whole day full of feeling sad about a certain person who i shall not name *cough cough*... had violin oral today- not that bad, considering i didn't study. tried to practise violin today but didn't seem to be able to feel inspired. should elect jon ong to be my full-time role model. heck, i'm hungry and it's dinner. later i'm missing the ND rally, so i'll come up and blog more...

out.

sine

sine ranted on Sunday, August 17, 2003 06:57 p.m.

why did you have to do that?
I've been getting quite distracted nowadays, and that's not good,especially during the PRELIMS.

and it's all you fault. why did you have to go do that? it's not as if you couldn't wait. if you'd waited until after the psle I wouldn't be blogging right now. but sad to say, you're not going to read this and you're not going to know what you did wrong. i spent the entire weekend feeling pissed at what you did, and hurt at the same time. and yet i want to apologize for being angry. well... sorry then. it's hard to get pissed with you, even though i still can't forgive what you did. well... go have fun by yourself with your little friends- don't bother about me. you don't even know me, do you? yeah, I'm being selfish, but what do you expect? don't you even know the meaning of 'wait'? guess not. whatever i do hurts right now, whether its checking my email, blogging, reading, listening to music, doing homework, eating, sitting in the car, sleeping... you have no idea how terrible the consequences of your actions are. yes, it hurts when i drink coffee. and water. and eat a cheeseburger. it just keeps on hurting, and hurting and hurting... i can't even sit straight during meditation, because the hurt keeps clouding my mind. i'm just a kid, right? i don't get hurt. time will make me forget, right? sorry, wrong answer. i can't blame you for what you did. but i really want to. well... i'll forgive you one day, but before then, all the best as you go your way and i go mine.

out

sine

sine ranted on Saturday, August 16, 2003 04:28 p.m.

dysfunction?
today wasn't that great a day... as in, how great can august 15th get? had ss- challenging and hard. shit then. I'm feeling kind of sad now for so many reasons I can't list them all down. I have to apologise to claire c now, for getting angry with her. I just couldn't take it anymore- I had to do something, let out some of my frustration... hurt something, and I guess claire got it full blast. sorry. sister's friend j flew off to us today; sister was considering going (530am meet at changi airport), but she had too much stuff. am feeling a bit weird, because since jan I've known that j would be leaving, but it never seemed to come. yeah, you'd say I didn't even know the person, but come on, it's PERSON you're talking about. someone who can breathe? like, if a were to pack up and leave for timbaktu right now i'd feel a sense of loss too. :) sorry. shouldn't compare to a. but whatever. uncle sc gave dad this whole bag full of those chewy foot-long sweets and those little strips. ate one foot and a strip for lunch, with two pieces of garlic bread in school. coffee is sitting next to the keyboard as I type. bloated and feeling sick. the sweets seem too sweet for me, but they're good once in a while. I think I'll be able to stay off them for the rest of the day. :) whoa- no sugar in that coffee! but my thoughtful mom put lots of milk ^^x edit:: heh... am currently on my second foot-long sweet. was wallowing in my sorrows so had to go eat something. oh, i found my long lost prefect badge (the old one) in my tote bag. not telling mdm choong. am going to leave it on my display shelf so i can show it to my kids/grandkids if (i have them) when i turn 70... :) have oral tommorrow; and violin. heck, don't talk to me about violin. out. sine.

sine ranted on Friday, August 15, 2003 03:45 p.m.

testing???
HAH! I'm testing the entries out, so WATCH OUT, people!

sine ranted on Thursday, August 14, 2003 05:09 p.m.

oh well... heck.
hey! this is my first time here, and I've sweated blood over the stupid layout which STILL looks retarded... heck care. can't write more, out sine

sine ranted on Thursday, August 14, 2003 05:07 p.m.