sine ranted on Saturday, November 8, 2003 08:35 p.m.

on retrospect...

Oh, damien? Thanks SO MUCH for those flowers. They really cheered me up. :)

The pacing of life around me slows down once again as I plunge head-first into the too-short weekend. :) Am feeling oddly happy and floaty. Yet a slight twinge of "greater accomplishment" seems to plague my contentment. Am still mourning the end of the Matrix trilogy, but the Wachowski brothers ROCK!

Also started playing FFVIII again; the animation is obviously not as updated as FFX, but there is no reason to scorn it. FFVIII is still as brilliant as I found it three years ago, and the old charm is very much retained. :) I do understand, of course, that a lot of my friends, having entered the outskirts of FF fandom only recently, think that FFVIII is just an old relic, and I'm not going to say anything about it. It's a matter of personal choice, isn't it?

I love the Matrix (always have, but this time I must stress it). So of course, I have to give everyone a review of Revolutions.

The Matrix had a certain mysterious and ambiguous uncertainty to its plot, causing it to score with all us pop-culture freaks, and setting a new standard to all things Science Fiction. Reloaded (must remember- it's not called Reload) didn't quite surpass the first instalment, but still managed to bring a lot of wonderful insight and new fight scenes.

Revolutions, the latest instalment, succeeds in giving the trilogy a neat, clear ending, leaving no loopholes or loose ends, but I would have preferred it if the Wachowski brothers brought the ending from a different theme instead of the love theme. Maybe focusing more on the other aspects of the story, or playing up the multi-faceted potential of some of the characters would have brought the "pop cuture" element back with more impact.

Of course, like the first two Matrix movies, Revolutions still retains the "bang" in its fight scenes, but this time in the form of a messy mechenical invasion. There are less of those ingenious (but familiar) wuxia movie-esque fight scenes, and more of those Hollywoodish moves. I find myself missing the adrenaline-pumping times when the Neo-ikkou are running around in the Matrix, fighting off agents and wowing audiences. Of course, the battle scenes (faintly reminding me of an electrical LOTR) are good enough to dislocate jaws.

In all Revolutions is a satisfactory end to the Matrix trilogy, but it could be better.

out

sine

sine ranted on Saturday, November 8, 2003 04:57 p.m.

arrgh.

I think it's just pms and inferiority complex acting up, but there seems to be just so much I have to do. :( Bloody tired, though. Drama wasn't too bad, but I have to worry about the following things:
1. Drama
2. CIP Fair
3. Musical
4. WITs name list
5. Violin Octet
6. Video Editing (bloody Teo is chasing me)
7. Staying back
8. Whether my friends like me or not
9. Overcoming my fear of the basketball court
10. Orion
11. Rain
12. My website

Now that I've got it all listed down, I feel much better. :) Argh. After 8, I will be on this MAJOR calling spree, and then I'll have to go practise cello. DO NOT call me unless you have business, okay? Sorry.

And for those people on excos/committees that I'm chairing/vice-chairing, give me a break, please. Do what you have to do. Make my life easier. I will not "shirk responsibility", as my mother so *bluntly* put it, but please keep it in mind that I have so many things to do that I have to write it down everytime I get home or forget to do it.

As for Teo, I have nothing to say, except that your schedule is too rigid and packed for me to enjoy it as much as my seniors enjoyed their own, or as much as you want us to enjoy it. I am trying my best to be politically correct.

And for those people who have been ripping down our posters for the CIP fair, I used to respect your intelligence, figuring that you'd be smart to figure out that we wouldn't touch your posters, thus having no need to touch ours. But sadly, I find myself horribly wrong. You have caused our hard work to go down the drain, caused the rest of the exco great disappointment, anger and frustration, and have shamed yourself completely in our eyes. I no longer respect your intelligence. I disassociate myself from all of you. I refuse to believe that such scum of the earth exists in my school, and I refuse to believe that very good friends of mine since I was a small girl can readily mingle with people of your mental capacity. I'm not sure if you're going to read this, but if you do, take some time to think over your actions. We can replace our posters and advertisements, but we cannot replace our respect for you.

Just one more word (in deviation from my political correctness):

Bakayarous.

Finally got that out of my system. Now... do you think I should add that into my reflections after the fair?

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sine

sine ranted on Thursday, November 6, 2003 05:16 p.m.

bakayarou

bakayarou.

burnt all my bridges then realized there were no shoulders left to lean on.

Exactly how I feel. Everyone is wallowing in their own problems and then I scream at them and make them pissed and then there's no one left to listen to mine. Oh, so now you've finally realized what a self-centered prat I am, riight? Of course right.

After spending 3 hours prancing about on stage shouting my lines down a lousy mike so the principal can later use a long string of euphemisms to tell us we sucked, I went to past up bloody Qs (refer to damien's blog for details) and then went for lunch, which is strange, because I don't normally go for lunch. Then during lunch, everyone just had to start playing with the lousy basketballs. I wanted to leave, but noooo... I was forced to go to the basketball court and stand a few feet in front of the basket there watching people shoot bloody balls. It is a not-so-well-known fact that by inferiority complex starts acting up as soon as I'm standing in a bloody basketball court and hearing that persistant sound of bloody basketballs bouncing. Go bounce your own heads, bloody basketball boucing bakayarous!

Then went for another two and a half hours of drama. not to bad.

Then came home, sister was in a bad mood, screamed at me, caused my pms to really hit the charts. Called damien, inferiority complex acted up again, screamed bloody bloody bloody at him and hung up. Went to bathe. Called damien up again, said sorry, screamed bloody bloody bloody at him and then hung up.

I have no more shoulders to lean on because everyone else is busy doing something else. I am lousy. I have lost all forms of inspiration for writing, am wooden when on stage, have no sense of diction, am horrible at captain's ball (caused team to lose), start screaming redundantly when anywhere near a basket and a basketball and a basketball player, am unable to write nice autograph, am boring, and am boring boring boring.

Will not write more. Hate myself and hate everyone.

out

sine

sine ranted on Wednesday, November 5, 2003 08:54 p.m.

bleh.

I am tireeeed. Very, very tired.

Tomorrow we have a drama rehearsal, with the principal watching. Oh shit. What if I muff up? What if she says we're wooden again and miss J kills us? ARRGH!! HELP ME!! And the octet has the play the violin as well. :( BAH. Just my luck. Have to practise later.

We had interclass basketball; my class won. ^^ But, as Teo says, it was the P class that had more sportsmanship and spirit. :( BAH. I thought my class had class spirit. Okay, then we have to lose before we have class spirit, riiight? Of course right. My ego is bruised.

On other things, I'm never going to touch the basketball again. What with reading Slam Dunk and watching those super pro people (eg Damien and j and ym and c and a and blah) playing... Nu-uh. Am going to stick with bowling.

No wait... I'm going to stick with writing. :) It's a sport, if you didn't notice. What with fingers twitching and mind working at high speed.

Just called my piano teacher to postphone my thursday class. Am going with everyone on thursday. :) I hope damien is coming... *waggles finger in his direction*. Have yet to call the rest of the octet besides r and o. :( So... I haven't told you why I'm so tired yet. Who wouldn't, if you had to run around either on stage struggling to remember your lines, or run around school doing crazy errands so the teachers, my friends and myself won't think I'm a lazy bum? Some people in class have it easy, man, after the exams. stress-free, right? Of course right. But I think ele has the most stress, what with being stage manager and all. :) I'm starting to feel better.

Watched The O by Homer today. Didn't find it very exciting, because I've already read the damn thing (english abridged version) over and over again. It's very chauvinistic.

*glances up* "The O"? Never mind. Ignore me. I'm in Saiyuki and Slam Dunk denial right now. *smiles wanly* Don't show me another picture of any bishie from either. Ooooh... seki toshihiko is singing... I think my insides have congealed. arrgh... BLOW WINDS ROCKS! Am going to dedicate this as well next tuesday. :) Reminds me of Slam Dunk, because I was listening to it when reading the manga.

Speaking of Slam Dunk, someone just insulted both Hakkai and Kogure by saying that Hakkai looked like Harry Potter. Go potter yourself, you bakayarou! Hakkai is NOT a WIMP like HARRY! Baka.

Bakabakabakabakabakabaka.

BAKAYAROU!

Shit, am I angry, or what?

*smiles tiredly*

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sine

sine ranted on Tuesday, November 4, 2003 02:26 p.m.

a dead soul is worse than a dead body

PLEASE ignore the titles from now on; just trying to be poetic.

feeling kind of wonked off, if that's a term. If someone could see me right now I'd give them this tired smile. Am really tired. :) Loved bowling. Thanks everyone, for being there. before I do anything else I shall write something. I have inspiration.

*tries and tries to write something*


Nope. Nothing. :) Too tired.

Love Slam Dunk. Am mad. Too tired.

augh. blog sometime else.

out

sine

p/s: seki toshihiko and akira ishida and mayo suzukaze and iwao junko ROCK FOREVER!!

sine ranted on Monday, November 3, 2003 08:46 p.m.

tears on snow became crimson blood

nonsense. ignore the title. :) It just sounded poetic. I like it. *winks*

sorry for not blogging for so long; I find myself getting busier and busier as the days go by. And I'm trying to find my inspiration again for Orion. I know, it's JUST the last bit already. I HAVE to persevere!

Wrote a bit of Rain yesterday; was rather poetic, but that just made me fall in love with Damien and Takeshi. Not good. Not good. I'm stuck in a rut for Orion, because I'm not too good at writing love confession scenes, and I haven't touched the Affinity/Ottorino one yet. :( It's just so difficult.

Watched I am Sam again yesterday. I love it. Sean Penn and Michelle P rock forever! The Beatles rock too! Dakota Fanning rocks!

Just realized that I have to finish slam dunk volumes 2-11 by THURSDAY. Shit.

Oh, and before Ele goes out to buy the saiyuki gaiden,
ELE! I'VE ALREADY BOUGHT IT! SPARE YOURSELF THE MONEY!

My family went to Kinokuniya and my sister bought volume 1 of saiyuki and volume 1 of gaiden. And I was making funny squeaky noises all the time, scaring other *quieter* rabid anime fanatics, as my sister put it. saw Wild Adapter volumes 1 and 2 in Japanese, but FC-san says that there's no Chinese version.

Wanted to buy both volumes in Jap but my sister refused. :( Must enroll in Jap class. This depends on how *interesting* my results are. Shit. Oh and Salty Dog I is $50++ in Kinokuniya. GRRR you.

Anyone who wants to get me a birthday/christmas present, PLEASE DO NO FOOT THE BILL ALL BY YOURSELF. POOL YOUR MONEY. *crawls away to sob quietly*

Nope, make that *bawl pathetically*.

Here is some crap I wrote impromptu:

Told me not to make a sound
But then the rays of the sun
Poured through the window
Warm chorale. Burning melodies.

Told me not to make a sound
But then the delicate sleet
Fell to the ground
Soft tinkling. Tears of ice.

Told me not to make a sound
But then the lightning
Forked through the night sky
The sound of silence. Loudest of all.

Aah. you have been scared away. Copyright 2003 Sine. I am using it in rain. please do not copy, not that you'd want to.

Feel so bad. Damien's Numb the Pain ROCKS! Love him.

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sine

sine ranted on Sunday, November 2, 2003 01:37 p.m.

heck. I'm boreeeeed. :(

for everyone who is a bored as me, here is the rabiddoggies forum:
http://s2.invisionfree.com/rabiddoggies

come and join my world of chaos and madness. bleh.

I don't feel like blogging. am feeling extra-bummy. will be practising violin later. will blog after I practise my violin.

on a less boring note, here is my "list of people I respect/admire":
1. God
2. Mom
3. Dad
4. Sister
5. Liu laoshi
6. miss s. tan
7. seki toshihiko! woohoo!
8. mayo suzukaze
9. quentin tarantino(?)
10.JRR Tolkien
11.Dominic Monaghan
12.Ottorino Respighi
13.Takeshi Kitano
14.How could I forget AKIRA ISHIDA?
15.Last one... Nicole Kidman. :)

I am a dysfunctional person. Oops, forgot to add these people:
16.Tobey Maguire
17.Anthony Hopkins
18.Jack Nicholson

Anime bishies:
Hakkai!!! WOOHOO! (saiyuki) i have somesing in my mind... somesing so shweet...
Kenshin (rurouni kenshin)
Spike (cowboy bebop)
Tokitoh (wild adapter/executive committee)
sanzo (saiyuki)
gojyo (saiyuki)
aoshi (rurouni kenshin)
tooya (ayashi no ceres)
yuuhi (ayashi no ceres)
tsuziki (yami no matsuei)
watari- toshihiko-sensei!! (yami no matsuei)
tatsumi (yami no matsuei)
mikagami tokiya (recca no honou)
musica (groove adventure rave)
orion (orion)
damien (rain)
ottorino (orion)
inohara akira (orion)
asai takeshi (rain)
ishida eiji (rain)

bleh. the last six are just there to boost my big ego. :) oops, forgot sine and eternity. nevermind, though. still haven't thought of a name for "That Woman". :)

going to chill out at A Few Good Men. Bye!

out

sine

sine ranted on Monday, October 27, 2003 02:37 p.m.

quiz? my first. :)

okayyyy... but if I didn't get anyone but Hakkai, it would be a big surprise! :) Everything is rigged when it comes to me and quizzes. or else I take it for Orion and get a bad guy. shit.

sine ranted on Sunday, October 26, 2003 09:36 p.m.

clearing up the remains of the party...

Sorry people, but I think my villagephotos bandwidth has been exceeded due to the constant refreshing of a certain damien and ele during our "chat" session yesterday. you can see the remains now. a 91-message enetations box. I'm on my fifth already, and that's saying something. :) So I think you people won't be able to see hakkai for the rest of the month. *starts bawling* But I'm fine, for some strange reason. And I think that's all that matters.

I'm in the process of designing rabiddoggies.revamped, so please be patient; it'll be up pretty soon. And boy, is it a cool page. :) I'm absolutely in love with that picture of tokitoh from wild adapter that's going to appear on my splash page.

just practised cello. what can I say? It's damn fun!! Even though I'm just scraping on the open strings. :) My sister is playing her viola now. My sister rocks! (sorry, big ego alert) I still have to practise the sakura for speech day on the violin. I'm stunned. I actually landed the role of second violin! Give me a pat on the back, kay? And remind me to practise. Oh, and got back by violin results for grade 5. quite good, considering I didn't practise at all. 118/150(pass:100). two marks short of a merit. I'll just treat it as one. *wide grin*. Don't tell Mrs I. :)

Oh, I am writing rain after I finish Orion. The plot is coming along nicely. So far my characters include Asai Takeshi, Ishida Eiji, Damien, Night and Bao. All guys except Bao. Throw me more girls' names, please.

Must congratulate Damien on making me cry yesterday with his horribly sad song, numb the pain.

Must also congratulate Ele on making me cry for the second time in the same day with her horribly sad story, flowers on ice.

you people rock!

love life, love everything.

out

sine

sine ranted on Sunday, October 26, 2003 12:53 p.m.

*grin*

Gomen, damien-san! My dad came in and chased me off and I went to bed. Sorry for being such an irresponsible freak! :( Maybe a shoutbox would be better for turning into an instant messenger. but nevermind.

am super-touched that my name has been mentioned two times on a's blog and a few more on other people's. sigh. I feel like crying. :) *sob*

I am guilty that I have let damien-san down. :( sorry.

Mom is on page 23/32 (big print edition) of my unfinished Orion and she says I shouldn't publish it but keep it locked up somewhere until I get famous with something else. She says parents wouldn't want their kids to read it, and it would be better off as a manga. I didn't dare to tell her my crazy idea of putting it in some anime shop. That would be a dream. ^^; Now... should I write a sequel after I finish? nah. I'll wait. I think I'll write Rain. *winks*

fairly pissed right now; I can't get onto fanfiction.net to read this non shounen-ai fic that's really, really good. :) but the idea has been recycled- this is just a better rendition. aah. It can't load. stupid fanfiction.net. I will now proceed to go to u.net (will not tell you the full one- that one's philosophical yaoi.) for some crap. Oh, I'm also checking up Wild adapter by the same person who brough us saiyuki. just hope it's ok. :)

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sine

sine ranted on Saturday, October 25, 2003 09:43 a.m.

ready, steady... GO!

Am exercising my fingers right now to get ready for the biggest writing marathon in a long time. :) Orion is back on track!

Was very touched by the response Rain got from everyone; love you people! I promise I'll write a full version if I have the inspiration, okay?

I am also very happy that my enetation board is in use again. I was getting damn tired of shoutboxes. zonkboard expired. activetopic clashed with my layout and there was no space for it, sad to say. Never mind. It's more amusing reading your comments. Oooh, seki toshihiko (sanzo) is singing! Jac, you should really hear this. brr...

Oh, and Damien-san's identity crisis is making me giggle. sorry. :)

Off to write Orion'

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sine

sine ranted on Friday, October 24, 2003 09:40 a.m.

yay! look at hakkai! look! he's saaaad! and he doesn't have his gun anymore!

slightly neurotic right now, but I must say, I'm very, very proud of this new layout. I mean, it's white! *squeals delightedly*

So many things have happened since I last blogged; I really don't know where to start. Oh, first thing- I finished this sappy bilingual story called rain (incidentally, this has nothing to do with my current layout). It's sappy, it's sad, it's lousy (even though I cried while writing the last part), and it comes from this idea for a vampire story that I thought of a long time ago. Bishie-licious. 441 chinese words out of 2195 (approx.). Kiss my toes, people! I'm great! :)

Umn, well- I was surfing around people's blogs and I realised that nobody is talking about saturday. good. because I don't want to either. :)

Damien-san is currently out of town right now, and I have no idea how he is going to hold a birthday party when nobody who's supposed to be invited knows when and where it is. :) Heck, I even bought a nice birthday present. And you're getting Rain as well, Damien.

Speaking of presents, I went to comics connection and bought something. Saiyuki, actually. I'm waiting for the entire series of rurouni kenshin- that is if mummy wants to buy it for me (it was my bribe for the exams). I asked the people at the counter loads of stupid questions about whether they had Weiss Kreuz (and stupid old me had to say it with a "German" accent- the guy didn't know what I was talking about until I spelled it out to him). Sadly, they haven't translated it into chinese since who-knows-when. :( they only have jap. shit. then I went over to the saiyuki shelf and realized that volumes 1 and 3 were not there. Asked the lady at the counter. Out of stock. Shit. So I ended up buying volumes 2,4,5 and 6. #6 was to treat myself for being deprived of #1 and #3. I have officially busted my budget.

Oh no. I have ONE more day to finish the script for our musical. Heck. Tomorrow. I have to go write Orion. Oh, I know, I'll bring it (the musical) to where my mom is taking me tomorrow and write the rest of it on paper while reading saiyuki. and then there's the matter of my drama lines. heck. nevermind. day after tomorrow. :)

isn't my procrastination interesting?

I found some pvc transparent sheet. Now my mom can wrap my comics up. whee!

excuse me.

out

sine

sine ranted on Tuesday, October 21, 2003 08:26 p.m.