nevermind ~wednesday, october 29 8:18 am rocking to: [JUDITH] A Perfect Circle mood: very dissapointed as much as i missed my friends...they did something really really immature and bastos. i'm really dissapointed, i thought they had learned better than not to do things like that. i can't believe they really did it but they did and the worst part is that they don't realize how it'll affect other people. while they are safe from being accused, others are being accused. and when somebody takes the blame for their actions, will they turn themselves over as the real culprits? i feel like shouting at them and shaking them into their senses, "WAKE UP!!!! YOU'RE NOT 15 ANYMORE!!!!! GROW UP!!!!!!" sure, they've been through a lot but hey...i don't think they have learned the lessons they were supposed to learn. and that, is a real pity, that is the real waste--if anything, they are the ones who have taken things for granted and still not realized it. and i have no fuckin idea of what'll finally make them wake up and smell the real breeze that blows or the see the sky of blue. when will they finally do away with the imaginary world they have barricaded themselves in and finally face the real world? i know not, i have not the answers for them- therefore as with all things...i will wait it out and hope and wish that they finally snap out of their reverie. good luck to them both. a night of drinking...and other things ~tuesday, october 28 8:54 am rocking to: [I'M STILL HERE] Johnny Rzeznik mood: semi-somber, sleepy and thoughtful i thought i was gonna spend the rest of yesterday, lazing around and reading potter book 4 (been reading the whole set, almost done now...) it was then that my maid called in and told me some "cris" was looking for me. i was like "huh? who?" i went downstairs and true enough, cris and nads were at my front gate...well, surprise, surprise... wasn't really expecting anybody to turn up that day, but hell, twas a pleasant surprise...miss hanging out with my old friends. so we just drove over to cuenca to bum, while waiting for the kids to go home. then we started drinking and talking about stuff sometimes i can't really believe that these were the very same friends i had when i was in high-school. weirdly enough, they sounded tired, defeated, i don't know why...i mean, they shouldn't be right? made me kinda somber and all thoughful. with all the things they were talking about, all their worries and troubles, i kinda realized how much i was taking for granted. and damn me for taking things for granted, and damn me again for taking so long to realize i was taking things for granted. i am such an ass... books ~thursday, october 23 10:05 am rocking to: [JUMPER] Third eye blind mood: productive been sorting out my things since i woke up, i'm almost done. whew! it was only now that i realized that i had so much things to read this sem @____@ and i'm expecting more this coming sem XP yech! with subjects like PolSci, Sci10 and Eco -____- arrrrrrrr...Eco i think would be fine but PolSci!? ugh... oh and i am finally reading a book, for the first time in....i can't remember...nevermind, the point is, that i've finally picked up a book after so looooooooooong. oh and i'm almost done with it :) it's one hundred years of solitude by gabriel garcia marquez. it's fine but, i dunno, something about his writing style i don't like :P can't quite pinpoint what exactly though. speaking of books.... ;______; i'm tempted to buy!!! arrggggggghhh!! it's taking all of my self-control not to buy!!! i told myself i'd have to start saving up for christmas, and i should! *jumps up and down and goes crazy for a bit* there's "the unbearable lightness of being", "the godfather", the 2nd book to the sarantine series, the next book after the famished road, the something memory (ugh....i'm so bad at titles and names that it's sad...) and i just saw "angels and devils" by dan brown when i went to powerbooks the other day *goes even crazier* AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! mom's recipes ~wednesday, october 22 5:48 pm rocking to: [DRIVE~acoustic] Incubus mood: hungry taking a rest from typing mom's recipes @____@ her handwriting is hopeless as far as i'm concerned. she may be a teacher but man...her writing is chicken scratch and even she admits it LOL hehehe love my ma :d my typing out her recipes -_____- which she's had even before i was born so that would be roughly around 20+ years ago? @_____@ so you can imagine the state their in :P planning to type em all out in my compy and print them in nice paper then compile and bind em for her, then decorate to make it nice and pretty. haha, you can see how bored i am :J but my ma thinks i'm such a sweet kid *cough cough* so she just ruffled my hair and pinched my cheek when i told her i'd fix her recipes :P (ma, still thinks i'm a kid, i'm 18 for crying out loud!) speaking of being legal for nearly a year now (yes, i'm almost 19 which is old for me considering that it'll be my last "teen" year, after that, its 20 o____O my lord, time goes by much too quickly...) i'm registering myself this sunday to be able to vote for the up and coming elections =____= dunno yet who to vote for though. initially i wanted to cast my vote for roco, but given some thought, after considering that fpg was running...(god help our god-forsaken country if the dude wins...) the opposition against him would be divided. the masa will surely cast their vote for the action star, which would leave the elite people casting for more than one candidate. so, i cast my vote for roco, though he may not be the most popular vote by far. it's choosing the lesser evil actually...if you compare him to the other presidential candidates. and i really think he could do a good job at being president if given the chance. the past ~wednesday, october 22 11:18 am rocking to: [BEL AIR] Malice Mizer mood: reminiscing god, this song brings back so many memories, good ones and bad ones, i haven't yet decided which i have more of than the other. i don't understand what the hell gackt is singing but hey, one can make an own special meaning of the song. for me, it speaks mainly about memory of something lost, when you hear the clock ticking and the sound of the music box in the intro of the song- doesn't that bring you back somewhere in time? and a glimpse perhaps of how my twisted mind delivered me then. a tidbit of fancy writing which may mean nothing and yet maybe contain a hint of truth at the same time, if one knows how to look for the meaning within and without... I walked down the narrow road, my slim wary hands in my pockets. I drew my coat closer to me, as if it could keep the cold from seeping in. The smoke- i could see before me, rose laguidly, like the lazy silhouette of a lover. Many lovers i have had over the millenia, yet none more the beautiful nor as captivating as the lady who claimed me for all eternity. Lady Death, she had her fingers wrapped around the feeble light that was mine. I am hers to keep, to nurture and to it seems now that I think about it, I was born to serve her. Ironic isn't it? that we are born to die. or try this one, a poem to tickle your fancy, about a dear friend of mine...where ever she may be, who ever she may be at the moment... jilted princess are you happy where you are? the jilted princess- upset from where she sat lofty on her throne, snuffing delicacies from her gilded snuff box, were you ever content? living life in a series of hazy images, doubting the sincerity of men's words and their fractured reasoning. the aristocrats with their ill-bred contempt and hooded malice prowl the evening, their banter and frolicsome tirade- talk of politics, gossip... made sugar sodden sweet sticks to skin you, equidistant of the multitude will listen with deaf ears and with weary countenance, allow them to take you though how long? Before the painted porcelain masks Flake and peel And the silver chalice turn rustic in hue Till the cupids that gather at fountains Cease to spew bouts of water To give way to Time- Who makes a mockery of the once had To reveal that gold is not as gold should be. ...nothing is as it seems i'm digging out the writings of the past, to relive past memories to find that they hurt still. a dull throbbing ache, yet it is pain nonetheless, aged and distilled yet still pure in its essence. not quite what i expected ~tuesday, october 21 8:46 am rocking to: [LUNES] Sponge Cola mood: relaxed, suave artistic mood ok, so sem break ain't what id imagine it to be. hell, i spend the 1st day of this week wishing i had school. god...of all the pig-headed moronic desires of mine... "i want to go to school, i'm bored..." haaay...so i ended up watching tv and trying to decide what i wanted to do next, because for the life of me, i couldn't decide what the hell i wanted to do. you know how it is when you've got too much time on your hands and you get all giddy of all the things you could do with it that you end up doing nothing at all? ok, let's hope that doesn't happen coz id be mad as hell if it did happen to me. lets see...i watched LXG, twas pretty ok, i liked Sean Connery there, was the old refined cool dude who can still kick ass. but i guess thats the usual role he plays nowadays, gone are his 007 days :J the invisible guy was cool too, his name escapes me at the moment but anyway, he was cool too. and of course mina harker, the vampire- as always, the vampires with their charm and cunning will appeal to me as they always have... watched harry potter, the first one on HBO, i think it twas harry potter and the sorcerer's stone right? not really a potter fan, but its fine and nice- the world j.k rowling has created. really original and brilliant actually :J and i can believe it when they say shes the richest children's books writer ever. and according to my teacher, shes even richer than the queen of england, well, how about that? shit man. oh and the latest book, ummm....the order of the phoenix? its the most expensive children's book ever sold, also got that from ms. panch, my teacher for my writing and illustrating for children class :) which i aced by the way...hehe then i played a bit of neverwinter nights on my pc :J then got wallpaper of aribeth coz she's my idol now. i mean, cmon, she's elf, a paladin, the right-hand of the king, really intelligent and really pretty to top it off. she can kick ass and still look nice and pretty, annoying aint it? she's on my desktop now and my lil brother rafa was oogling at her LOL cute kid oogling at her and my drawing of wolverine, which i was working on at the moment. i'm trying to see how good my memory is, so i'm drawing him from memory. so, far i like how it's turning out and i believe so does rafa :) plans ~sunday, october 19 9:09 pm rocking to: [BLACK TANGLED HEART] Silverchair mood: thoughtful, evil plotting mode just thinking of my plans this sem-break, which is a luscious 3 weeks of no academic hassle- ah yes, blissssss, sweet bliss. am planning to do a lotta stuff like: a gen. cleaning of my room watch tv everyday buy dvds of movies i've missed new blog layout write/draw 2 my heart's content start buying christmas gifts put together my halloween costume finish neverwinter nights get a decent workout read tons and tons of books develop flash skills make a music box make a top hat of course, i do realize that i won't be able do all of these things, because i am one lAzY bum. hell, i'll probably end up sleeping most of the day away and when i do wake up- laze around a good 20 minutes before i actually get up. and thats when i'll catch my daily dosage of tv, disney channel, cartoon network, national geographic, mtv and myx been watching the kiddie networks, since my lil bro has it on whenever he's at home. it was recently that i discovered that they're showing a revamped version of he-man, heck, haven't seen that cartoon in ages. the characters are the same and all, they just edited it a bit i guess and yeah, it's pretty cool. and it's only now that i can trully appreciate the plot- which i missed out on when i was a kid. geez...they should have a channel where they show all those old tv shows and cartoons they used to air when i was kid (and i sound like that was so long ago....) shows like ninja turtles, transformers, saber riders, bioman and shaider. oh and there was jem and the holograms right? and how about takeshi's castle? that one was fun, laughed my ass off at that show when i was a kid. but god, the shows i won't miss? carebears, rainbow brite, yechy... hey ~sunday, october 19 2:51 pm rocking to: [DRAIN] X-Japan mood: dunno, somewhat fuzzy in the head... yes, people, that is an ass you see there among the pictures to the left, that is art, not porn ok? i just realized that after playing around with the pictures that people may be disturbed with seeing an ass in my blog -____- oh well....LOL bear with me while i am going thru a fixation with the human anatomy :J nothing really to say about this layout 'cept that i minimized the clutter on the sides, did away with my links and info on me, realized , this is supposed to be a blog afterall- a journal, not some goddamn biography of my life soooo...moving on.... been sick for a week, feeling better though, whole lotz better if you consider that its sem-break *smirks* finally, the free time i have long awaited for is finally mine! *evil laugh* this is also my first time in a week i have touched my computer *kisses pc* been THAT sick that i haven't even gone near d comp.