school...awawawawawa...=____= ~thursday, july 10 '03 12:49 pm and i was complaining when i was freshman that there wasn't anything to do, that the work was too light @___@ turns out that things start to get hectice when you get to 2nd year >.< last year, i could just bum and laze around and go out as much as i wanted. now, i have to go straight home and study my ass off. it's been the 1st month of school +____+ i'm dead tired is all i can say...i carpool everyday, from alabang to katipunan. mondays, i leave the house at 7:30 get home around 9 in the evening coz i've got a late class. the next day i've got soccer training, so i wake up at 4:00, leave at 5:00 have soccer from 6-8:30 am then go to class at 9 then go home at 3 @____@ *imagines a nice fluffy bed and a glass of rootbeer and a box of pizza...* awawawawawawawa... but you know what? i'm so very tired...but i'm happy...happy that i'm actually learning something in school, that i'm actually using my brain and creating new things and ideas. or that i get more of the extra edge when i train every tuesday and thursday morning. so in the long run, despite the hardship, it's worth it- it's so worth it *smirk* oh, and we had a photoshoot last monday for my graphic design class :) twas fun :) my creative and fantasy shots came out cool :P i'll post it though after i edit em for submission (and once i finally get em from my groupmate) i was a samurai for the fantasy shoot LoL they made me pose with the geisha from the other group *shudder* anyways, thanx to lyssa, toni and chris for lending me their stuff, i'll return it friday :) then i did the "got milk" ad for my creative pose :P my groupmates kept on laughing at me, i have absolutely no idea why though :D oh and for my 'writing and illustrating for children' class i wrote a couple of stories and the teacher liked em lotz (and yes, i can write for children if i wanted too :P i'm not limited to dark,angsty poetry/fics LoL) then for history i have to do a group paper on any historical event, phenomenon, person. was planning to write it by myself but i figured that i have too many things to do and not enough time, so i got Laise as my partner, which is ok since i know her and hang with her in the quad benches :P i didn't want to get christian as my groupmate...for obvious stalking reasons :P awawawawa @___@ didn't realize i've got class in a while- gotta go, till next time i post--and may ATENEO win their game against UE this weekend! our team too in soccer :P i hope we win this sunday. just an ordinary day... ~thursday, june 27 '03 12:29 pm ever had the feeling that everything around you wasn't real? that everything you now know, see, taste, feel and experience is just some dream. what if we're just endlessly sleeping and waking in an endless cycle, a mindless cycle. its like when we wake up we don't really wake up, we just think we're awake coz in truth, we're still sleeping. the dream we are living... don't know why, been feeling it a lot latelly...my mind drifts off, disorientation and a feel of not being...not existing here...and coincidentally, i bumped into one of descartes' thoughts from his Meditaions eerily, it made sense...and it took the words right outta my mouth... "How often, asleep at night, am I convinced of just such familiar events - that I am here in my dressing gown, sitting by the fire -when in fact I am lying undressed in bed! Yet at the moment my eyes are certainly wide awake when I look at this piece of paper; I shake my head and it is not asleep; as I stretch out and feel my hand I do so deliberately, and I know what I am doing. All this would not happen with such distinctness to someone asleep. Indeed! As if I did not remember other occasions when I have been tricked by exactly similar thoughts while asleep! As I think about this more carefully, I see plainly that there are never any sure signs by means of which being awake can be distinguished from being asleep. The result is that I begin to feel dazed, and this very feeling only reinforces the notion that I may be asleep." (Descartes) anyway that is all, tis but a short entry i have...so excuse me for my mind is off wandering off to some other worldly plane.... yey! my compy is fixed :D woo-hoo! ~saturday, june 21 '03 9:06 pm there was a virus in my comp >___< fortunately, the comp guy who came over was able to fix it without deleting my files (yes! my 300+ gackt pics are saved! my mp3's too!) *backflips* plus today's game wasn't so bad, 3-2 :P we lost but ateneo actually stands a decent chance this year :) well....we did too last year...ummmm...we did fine in everything EXCEPT UAAP +___+ *mutter* and first week in school was fun, lotza changes, like FRESHMEN @___@ they're literally swarming all over the place...giving me a headache...i've never seen so many people in school....it's like a mall (our library is under renovation so yeah...it's excusable why there is no space) ;____; the lib was my favorite sleeping place >.< so nice and cold awawawawawa... my classes are all swell :J got good teachers in all of my subjects so i don't have any reason to get low in this sem :T working at getting high this sem, haven't really been trying my best at college when it comes to studies :d and carpool ain't half as bad as i thought it would be, sure i don't get to go out with my college buds so much, but i'm closer to home. missed my family lotz when i was in my grandma's house, i missed my room too and my ma's cooking :d wum! and the carpool people aren't bad either, they're all pretty nice :) then it's back to soccer training o__O our new assistant coach is nutz @__@ he made us jog 10 rounds (1 round = 1 soccer field) then made us stretch then made us do another 10 rounds +__+ que horror! i don't quite know how much 20 soccer fields is in meters...but it felt like a hell of a lot... also got my students permit :D yey! i'm gonna learn how to drive...from alabang to ateneo =____= i can imagine the neck aches i'll develop from trying to look past the steering wheel (being short can be such a pain in the ass sometimes...) oh n i've got a bump on my head :P bukol! LoL i think twas coz i bumped my head on someones chin during the game o__O hehehe... fixing day ~sunday, june 08 '03 7:47 pm have been fixing my room for almost two days, plus cleared out my room in my grandmas house :d was able to get rid of a hell lotta junk (ugh...the things i keep in my room..) i'm drawing fanart of squall, getting into the ff8 mood all over again, i'm in the 3rd disc, just got the ragnarok (i've always wanted to draw that ship...the escaflowne is another..) practically just waiting for school to start, am actually kinda excited to go to school :d which is a first if you come from a school like woodrose *shudder* woodrose...ugh... and they say that the best years of your life are those spent in high-school...makes me wonder how bad my life will be if those were my best years... LoL and i got bored so i took this test, kinda intresting actually :d Your Results: You were male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of which we now know as modern South-East USA, approximately in the year 1075. Your main profession was: monk, a dedicated servant of the church. A brief psychological profile of you in that past life: Such people are always involved with all new. You have always loved changes, especially in art, music, culture. A lesson that your last past life wishes you to learn in your present life is: There is the invisible connection between the material and spiritual world. Search to find and to use this bridge. take the past life test at http://www.internetjunk.org i liked the last bit of thing, the first part about me being a monk was kinda weird..oh maybe that was coz i was imagining myself half-bald. the part about me being male was kinda freakish too *evil grin* yet a little voice inside me was saying "cool! then you could slash yourself with other men!" ok, so as stare at the last sentence as most of you probably will hehe...sorry, old habits die hard, i do oh so try not to have outbursts like that, but latelly i've been finding it hard not to >:D oh and i dug up some of my old cds when i was clearing up my drawers, id forgotten that i had a beastie boys and a rage against the machine cd, reminds me of when i was but a young innocent...ok fine, so not innocent t_t but yeah, it was a long time ago, i think i was 1st year high school... and this is why i hate summer (aside from the repetative cycle of sleeping, eating and not doing squat...) i think too much, dwell too much, reminisce too much...on things i'd rather not remember, and it is kinda ironic how the things you remember are the ones that hurt...a lot...you try not to remember these things but you do, you try to forget but somehow your mind\heart, whichever you want deems them important. but hey, i guess that's part of it, your memories, you keep em in exchange for something....ok, so something's bugging me...it's about last summer... dunno....i left things unresolved with a friend of mine...and it bugs me, that i just cut off all contact when i go off to college, not very nice of me i figured but, i don't know...don't know if i ever mattered to the person or what, if i made a difference...but that's my fault, i always want to make a difference, a very big difference in everyone that i meet...but whatever the case...that's not the issue right? that doesn't give me the right to dissapear on people. so...hey, i hope you still read my blog and all, i wanna talk...could we talk? have a lot to say... my computer is going screwy @_@ ororo.... ~thursdat, june 5 '03 04:52 pm this was initially supposed to be yesterdays post, but due to unforseen circumstances.... =____= awawawawawawawa... most of you have heard that sound (ohohohohohoho ^o^ right itchy?) my comp is making topak *__* have to have this compy checked up :P aside from other things.... (paola: yah like like yer head ^o^) anyways, was tired from yesterday's registration but twas coz i woke up early to leave from alabang :d it wasn't as bad as summer registration- now THAT was hell +__+ my sched this coming sem's not bad, mondays are the worst though coz i've got a class from 2:30-5:30, but tis ok i guess since it's a class on graphic design :d my friend myka mentioned it to me during summer classes, was lucky to get that class, i got the last slot whew! then i've still got soccer training at 6-8 am =___= my valuable sleep...but it's all good on friday coz i'm only from 9:30-12:30 ^o^ ok, the F4 vid just flashed by on TV *evil grin* just thought of slashing em...ohohohohoho...ok, i'll try to control myself... (but.... ;__; such pretty boys...so nice to slash...) watched the NBA finals (my poor mavs didn't make it ;___;) spurs have game 1 o__O they're really good, or maybe that was coz kidd wasn't playin well. tony parker was really good though LoL though me thinks he looks much like an evil neko (kuro-kuro!) ah! i know it really doesn't sound like me but i was bored...watched miss universe last night on RPN (sucks coz the commercial breaks were actually longer than the show itself, mega bummer) was kinda hoping miss japan would win :D major babe ahem...but anyway...she screwed up on the answering the question, must be the language and culture barrier prob, don't think she understood the question addressed to her :T hmmmm...lemme fanfiction.... ^o^ some slash F4 fanfiction You are the Undying Artist. Moody, erratic, and empassioned, you find art in the darkness. You cultivate dark beauty and dark artists to surround yourself and drink of the song in their blood. What Fictional Vampire Archtype are You? brought to you by Quizilla ...too damn cute for words ~friday, may 30 '03 10:03 pm You are just too cute for words! Fluffy, adorable and altogether kawaii Which member of the Neko Hordes are you? brought to you by Quizilla ahem...so true...so true...LOL the remedy ~tuesday, may 27 '03 9:44 am i won't worry my life awaaay! :D LoL the song's stuck in my head, i bought the album 2 days ago and i've been listening to it non-stop, it's a bit different from the music i listen, more mellow (i'm toning down perhaps? getting older? ....>:D heh! not a chance!) i haven't quite exactly figured out what the song means but from what i've read it's probably about love :P if you've got poison, i've got the remedy, the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end. when you're in love, it's like poison, it's in, you, eats you up and stuff :) but then the remedy to that is to let the feeling be and let it grow, as like what the last line says, "u shine the light on all of your friends..." so it's something like a love revelation and what to do with love :J it's a fun song, with the chickens in the mtv LoL and there's 3 more days till i'm outta summer school! yosh! can't wait to get out :p can finally go home and laze around and do the things i wanna do, like draw! :D oh and i'm not dorming anymore in my lola's house this school year, gonna be taking a carpool thingy :J i'm staying in my real house so my dad can monitor my driving progress when i start taking driving lessons (yes! finally!) can't wait to drive, though somehow, i think it's a very BIG responsibility, when you think about it, it's kinda freaky coz you could bump someone or some car and actually kill someone and the thought of being responsible for another persons life is really something to think about :T and it makes me wonder if i'm really that old, that i can take that kind of responsibility LoL :D anyways getting hungry so i am off, till next time around :d hahahahahaha LoL ~thursday, may 22 '03 9:26 am My Inner Age brought to you by Quizilla LoL i do look not at all like i'm 18 :D so being 12 isn't so very unbelievable :J hohohohoho life has been fine so far :D for the first time, i'm actually getting pretty ok grades in MATH, then i've got something new to obssess about :d the matrix series, waiting for june 3, for the animatrix to come out in dvd and vcd, also getting t he dvd of reloaded tinkering latelly with adobe now :d just need to find a scanner so i can scan stuffies i drew, haven't drawn much this summer but it's more than what i've written this summer =_= i haven't written squat...only 2 poems which is so not like me +_+ i usually write 8 or 10 poems...but that was before i guess...when i was the depressed angsty introvert that i was...wellllll, now that i'm not that, i don't think i really need to let it out on poetry anymore...yup, am happy, so that's a first :J also been thinking about human nature...how defective man is but how it is the struggle of every man to become good and strive to be perfect...philosophically, to put your potencies into act. ok, so the philosophy i had in high school stuck to me like glue, i suppose coz i think that's the only thing in school i actually thought was gonna be useful, aside from literature man is defective, but it is up to the person himself to become a better person, only as much as you try will you become better but....if you think about it.... it's hard being good, so there is the clincher :P its so hard to be good...and that is my new goal in life :D to be good, because being good is hard and i like hard things, i like the challenge, anything that does not pose a challenge is not worth doing LoL therefore you can conclude that i pusposely make life hard for myself :D end of story. new layout woo-hoo! ~tuesday, may 20 '03 9:35 am hallo :P finally decided on what my layout theme was gonna be :D gackt! was supposed to make it matrix reloaded, theme on the twins but i couldn't get that much nice pics, maybe someday when i'm better at html...as of now, i suck LoL so you guys will just have to put up with the beginner just had my long test in math earlier, around seven, i finished quite early since it was actually easy for once :p permutations and combinations, easy stuff :J seems that i'm good at logic and stuff, and geometry and proving, only math i ever got :d and i've done a bit more thinking on the matrix concept, (SKIP if you don't wanna be spoiled....LoL) and have a theory that agent smith MIGHT be a virus and the zion-world MIGHT actually be a matrix too...so that makes the matrix within a matrix a tad confusing...but that's the only way (as of now) that i can figure out why neo was able to use his powers in the real world...well, there are a lot of possiblities, since neo was the only one among the 6 to have chosen the other door....anyway.... enough about the matrix =_= i've just gotten it bad since i have found no one to rant to about it +_+ woe is me...but yeah, if you're intrested and stuff, go to the matrix site and read some of the comics and philosophy stuff, quite intresting oh and i'm happy coz the spurs beat the lakers! woo-hoo! (sorry to the lakers fans who are reading, no offense meant :d) so, that makes the spurs vs. mavs and nets vs.pistons, obviously nets are gonna win versus the pistons, kidd's damn good...with the mavs and spurs....hmmmmm...haven't really figured out who will win. but i'm for the mavs :D GO MAVS! van exel kicks major ass oh and i got in the team tryouts :) just checked the bulletin board on my way here, happy happy am i LoL the other 3 woodrose people who tried out got in too, yey! meghann zaragosa, anna meer and isa plaza, that makes 5 woodrose people in the team, and hopefully, we'll stand a chancde this year in the UAAP >:T ;_; i just realized i'm a sophomore, college is really fast :D only 8 more days of summer classes left! yosh! that makes one more long test to go and the final exam to pass, after that, freedom! well...for around two weeks =_= guess that's ok, college is fun anyway :D anyways, dazzit, till next oh wait! quizzes! :D Sheesh, another fangirl. Well, I dont blame you. How can any woman resist a sexy body, and the ruggedness that is Wolverine? Hes a loner by nature, a heavy drinker, and is plagued by memories of his past...or lack thereof. It may take time to work your way into his heart, but when you do, he'll do anything for his woman. Just be careful, he has a tendency to stab people in his sleep. ^_^;; Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only) brought to you by Quizilla