...but then, no one can really draw a line
between sane and insane, you have to change the border when you think it's
right- because no one else can... though I found out soon enough that the
one that's insane is the world... -Vincent Valentine {MIRROR}
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the ranting people don't want to listen to am really bored :D you noticed? don't like fighting... damn, it's damn hot today is all i can say :D hey! that rhymes.... can't believe this is happening...
wasting time
may 17 '03 saturday 11:15am
watched matrix reloaded yesterday =_= nobody wanted to listen to me rant about it LoL didn't want to get spoiled on what would happen....but! argh! the movie was so cool (or i may be biased coz i'm a big matrix fan... :P the wachoski brothers are geniuses!)
oh and i'm giving the warning now, don't read this part if u don't wanna get spoiled :P
the twins were so cool! the merovignian (?) too, LoL his french accent was funny...reminded me a bit of tolouse from moulin rouge, same funny accent LoL i liked his character, one of those bad guys with class :J the mervignian was one of the outdated programs that the matrix system didn't use anymore. coz the matrix produces programs to replace the old ones, so the old programs face extinction through deletion or they can hide in the matrix, similar programs who are on the hide are persephone (merovignian's wife who gives neo a kiss LoL much to trinity's dismay) the key maker (the old guy with lotza keys, he's the reason that neo, trinity and morpheus visit the merovignian) he can open the door to the source :P
the source of the matrix is located in a building with a hidden door...you'll get me when you watch the movie....LoL anyway, the oracle is also a program by the way :d her purpose is to lead the one to the source. their conversation was one of the interesting types, if you're a geek like me who's out for the philosophical discussions :d also liked his convo with the merovignian and morpheus had some cool speeches
there are also some biblical stuffies...like remember when neo died in the first matrix movie then came back to life again? well, it reminded me mighty much of when christ died and rose again. plus other things that happen in reloaded, like him doing impossible stuff, gathering followers, and being called "the one", "the messiah"...well, tell me if i'm reading a bit too deep into it :D
and in the source, neo meets up with the guy who created the matrix and suddenly all you've figured out so far about the movie suddenly goes tops turvy on you with what the architect (yup, that's the dude who created the matrix) reveals to neo. he says that, neo is not the 1st, he is the 6th and that zion has fallen more than once, this but a cycle. also that neo is not like he's predeccessors, he is more human, because of his feelings...specifically, his love for trinity. and because of his feelings this is what gives him his greatest strength yet his greatest weakness.
another biblical reference when, the architect tells neo to choose the fate of humanity. he tells neo to choose 20 sumthing males and 20 sumthing females, and from there, a new zion will be made...noah's ark? yup, that's what i figured...
anyway, he is given a choice, two doors, if he takes the left, mankind will be saved, though trinity will die, if he takes the right, he can save trinity though all the ones that are connected to the matrix will die @_@
anyways, it's really annoying coz it didn't end definitely coz the story's gonna continue on to the next and last matrix >.< which will come out around november....it's gonna be a long wait...damn....
tuesday, april 29'03 9:34 am
LoL i haven't posted in two consecutive days since....well, anyway, since a long time :P just bumming around first before i start studying for my math long test tomorrow. the only bad thing about summer classes is that you've got long tests every week, coz they condensed the syllabus, imagine, what we take up in 1 sem we take up in a month o_O so yeah, the pace is pretty fast, but the teachers make it a bit easier since they don't have enough time to think of evil plans to torture us with their sinister math operations....
ok, enough about math, let's talk about life....sure....
i don't really have much to say, no insights, kwento or stuff...i forgot them on the way here, i'll remember em someday...probably tomorrow? LoL whatever, come what may :D anyways, online tests!!!
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monday april 28'03 9:05 am
really, i don't...neither do i like getting mad, losing my temper...it gets tiring after a while. there develops a strain, and from what i've heard strong feelings like anger etc. have bad effects on the body. well, anyway...haven't posted in a while :P busy with summer, enjoying freedom...but, yes, i'm back in school- got summer classes in math, which ain't as bad as i imagined it to be :P the teacher's fun, kinda weird and dented in the head but he's cool :D
haven't really done much over the summer, just the usually bumming, eating, sleeping, watching t.v., playing PS (i finished chrono trigger btw :P an old RPG, but twas nice) been drawing a bit too and reading (finally! haven't read a book in ages)
i even started talking to my best-friend in high-school again :P don't think you guys know her or met her (except for those people who went to the anime expo thingy last weekend) she did come from woodrose, though she wasn't around when i was in 4th year...anyway, long story :p but, yeah, been talking to her latelly LoL and she hasn't changed one bit LoL
nina's still the same...well sorta...college changes you but not totally, just a teeny weeny bit :) she's in fine arts U.P. (the course i wanted to go to but my parents wouldn't let me... =_=) and ironically, i'm in the course she wanted *shrugs* strange....
anyway, she helped me out hiding from aissa's maternal unit *shudder* THAT woman is scary...and that is another long story...haaaay...but to sum it up= she doesn't like me...wait, that's an understatement :d well, we didn't expect aissa's mom to show up but she did and nina was helping me prowl around the place undetected LoL my heart was pounding so hard...kinda like when you play hide and seek during your younger years...your heart just keeps on pounding and your hands get all cold and clammy, you're scared of getting found but at the same time its a real thrill hiding :D
twas fun +_+ though we got malas going home...nina's car didn't want to start @_@ geh...and to think i was teasing her about her car (coz for several times somethings happened to her car, like it's overheated twice, it rolled off into a curb LoL that kinda stuff) well, this time, she left her lights on...which left the battery dead...LoL
me: (looking at nina's car) hey! yer car's still here! LOL like it has enough energy to go anywhere else LOL
but after an hour and help from a couple of drivers we got it started LOL so all is well :D
i'm getting hungry now *cue stomach grumble* so i must depart! i'll probably type in again tomorrow :P i'm using the internet in school and this time we can use the computers as long as we want coz the line isn't as long in summer :D yey!
Who are you?
thursday, march 27 '03 1:13 pm
no, but really it is...and it's summer, yes! i am out! woo-hoo! *wallops and tries a backflip* i am freeeeee!!!! *sweatdrop* though i have summer classes in 3 weeks ;_; i've never taken summmer classes before, theres a first for everything i guess *smirk* so, it could be fun...sort of...LOL heck, who cares?
as long as i don't flunk math i'm happy :D *thinks* you know...i'm worrying about whether i'll flunk math or not...when ten years from now, i'd be looking back and wishing that i was ten years younger and didn't have to work or pay the bills or worry about grown-up things like finding a job, keeping the job and dealing with the assholes that i'd have for bosses :P
just thinking...and now, am thinking about how life is really a rollercoaster like they say it is. think about it- you just go up and down, up and down in life, and it's an endless cycle. you get your ups and downs all the time, and with all the downs i had...it made me relunctant to see how much more downs i might go through but wonder of wonders i pulled through somehow *smirk*
i'm at home, so i'm with my parents and sibs :P nice to back home but i kinda miss my cousins and my grandparents, who were hard to get along with but i miss them all the same *smirk* and know that i think about it, its funny how in the start of the year i was closer to gabby (cousin) but know, i find myself closer to koyang (his older bro).
i never noticed it before but gabby had an air, like he was better then everyone. *shrugs* probably got to his head that he was good looking and to make matters even worse, he got a girlfriend. and plus he knows how to suck up >:P plus i didn't like the way he talked to me. he's become a major jerk :P
whew...anyway, am kinda feeling sorry for my filipino teacher. he was really good, i actually learned a lot from him, even though i have never been good at the subject, he actually made me enojoy the course. he was more of the teacher-friend type, very informal and so of course the department head talked to him. saying stuff like he wasn't following the curriculum and other stuff, basically the point was his chances of still teaching the next school year were pretty slim.
which kinda sucks, coz i actually learned a lot and he really had the heart to teach, you could tell that he loved what he was doing and he really was determined to teach us and impart to us his knowledge of the world. the fact that he didn't follow the curriculum shouldn't matter coz he achieved what he was set out to do....but yeah...i guess the department head had a point...and life just was made to be unfair...
haaaay...oh and i'll be changing my layout anytime soon :d getting bored with my layout. so there, got a lotta stuff to do over the summer :D planning to draw and write and play computer games and sleep and wake up as late as i like :d and right now, i am off to draw *smirk*
You are Morpheus, one of the leaders of the
Resistance. And suffice to say, you are one
bad-ass mofo. You can kick the One's ass, you
can break through walls, and you can somehow
survive truth serum and torture. My hats off
to you!
Charismatic and a great leader, you can inspire
your peers to attempt the impossible, and make
it possible.
Packing a katana in the sequel, you should be
seeing pleeenty of action!
"You take the blue pill, the story ends, you
wake up in your bed and believe whatever you
want to believe. You take the red pill, you
stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the
rabbit hole goes..."
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Hey, baby. You're Neo. Go you! You're the hero and
this movie made you famous. After this,
everyone decided to see Bill and Ted's
Excellent Adventure. (That's not true, a lot of
us had seen it before The Matrix.)
Boy have you grown! I used to have a screaming
fangirl crush on you, but now I'm over you and
I'm head-over-heals for your adversary, Agent
Smith (he's coming back), as well as the
guitar-playing diva, Jewel. Whoo!
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You look the most like Neo: The One.
You like dodging bullets and saving the world. You
most of the time refuse to believe what they
tell you. If your mummy told you that it's
otherwise then they tell you, then YOUR MUMMY
IS RIGHT! ...You're actually an idiot... But
since you're agile and concentrated on
everything that you do, people believe
otherwise.
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saturday, march 22 7:33 pm
i really can't believe there's war, that there are people fighting on the other side of the world, that there are people dying...it's crazy, war's crazy, there should never be war. it's senseless, how can people kill another human being? there's something very disturbing in that, killing. Imagine, killing something very much like yourself, something made of flesh, of blood, of bone, something that has a soul.
sure, here i am talking about souls and the like, i'm one to talk...but yeah, we do have souls, what else is there that makes us different from animals? we have intellect and free will apparantly, though we kill just as ruthlessly as the animals, we fuck just like animals...what's wrong with the world?
what makes a man act inhuman? what drives him over the edge, and makes him lust for the sight and taste of blood? is it instinct? man's basic instinct of survival that kicks in? well, what ever it is it's sure as hell scary....
but there's war somewhere out there, even as i type here leisurely. and sometimes that makes me feel so guilty...how can i just be sitting here, typing away like theres nothing wrong, well technically, there isn't- at least not here, this isn't U.S. or iraq, the war isn't here...though i just feel i should be doing something, though there really isn't anything i can do except get on with my sorry miserable life and act like everything's dandy. that's the only thing i can do right? live everyday as i always have, live a normal life as long as i can, coz who knows? i may not have the chance to live life the way i want if war comes here.
so right now, i'll live like my days are numbered and cherish every moment of it, coz heck, at this point, the world is even more uncertain than it was before. so i'm hanging on to everything i have now and i may be paranoid and a whole lot dillussional but hell, better safe than sorry :J
so i'm saying this to all the people who are reading this blog :P i love you guys and i wish i could've spent more time with you guys, and wish that all the times i did spend in your company could've been longer. and to those people who are reading this blog and who i've wronged or offended at some point in my life, i just wanna say i'm sorry...coz life and time you've been given here is too precious to waste fighting with someone...
time is precious, every second counts, it's just up to us how we choose to use it. and folks...let's use it wisely...
wednesday, 1:22 pm march 12 '03
got a free cut in zoology class, so i decided to surf the net, my play practice is still at 5, so i've got...approximately 3 hours and a couple of minutes before practice. i should go home yes, but i am too lazy too walk :P today went rather well actually, despite me going home at around 8:30 and sleeping around 12 to wake up at 4:30 to cram an english paper on Pangako Sa'yo LOL which i have never watched in my entire life, so i just searched online for info on the plot, i found the script so it was pretty ok, then i asked joni for help about it. and what do you know? i finish the paper by 7:30, 3 hours, not bad, considering i didn't know anything abolut what i was writing about...
am also quite happy coz we had a zoology project that was initially due this friday but she devised this schedule that 10 people will report per meeting, since i am one of the people at the end of the class listed alphabetically...i get to show my project next week! >:D which leaves me with lots of free time to write and think about my memoir that i'm supposed to write for english... >.< which i am in no mood to write at the moment, so i will think about it tomorrow- woo-hoo! i've only got one class tomorrow! i can sleep the day away! yey!
and i'm off early this friday too! coz our zoology teacher said we didn't have lab anymore- our project served as our exam, so the rest of the lecture meetings will be for our presentations since we're finished dicussing mitosis and stuffies :P
other than that.....i do not have a life....no social life whatsoever....LOL that'll hopefully change by summer- summer! 3 weeks to go before summer! actually 2 :D
You are...Ysa!
A natural dreamer at heart. You think very
positive, even if things are at its lowest,
ultimate down. You've been through a lot, yet
you've still retained your naiveity, somehow.
Not that that's a problem...you're a natural
when it comes to sports, especially soccer. You
attract guys and girls, which is gross,
considering you're a girl. And when you love,
you love. Not that that's a problem too :p
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friday march 7 03 8:03 pm
have been gone for a while, hehehe, busy with school >.< we finished last in the UAAP season, that sucks, but to hell with that- theres next year and plus, futsal season is coming around this summer- Nike Cup, and we're the defending champions :P
and we're in the championships, for the futsal tourney we had with UA&P, goin against em on the 14th ;_; which reminds me that i've got a whole lotta stuff due on that day. like our english play, athlete's night, zoology project/paper and it's my dad's birthday @_@ i don't know yet how i'm gonna survive that day...heck, come what may! LOL
i swear...when i survive that day- that week, i'll go out and party or something the next day- anybody wanna join me? oh yeah...you woodrose people got exams, gah...
i'm supposed to be typing a paper now...but oh well...i'm too lazy to do anything,i'm beat from school, all i feel like doing is typing away and ranting to my well-neglected bloggy...and plus, some people in my tag-board having been asking the owner of this blog to update- LOL
and i am bored and very inspired...to criticize my myself, my short comings....i dunno, i just thought about it a while ago, seemed like a pretty intresting idea, felt like trying it out (just goes to show how very self-assured i am about my personality...) i'm whacked! i'm nutz! sue me *smirk*
mE:
i am a very vain person- you can't imagine LOL some of you dudes who actually know may not think that so, but heck...i don't put on make-up and stuff but, i am VERY pArTicUlAr about my clothes- i like dressing up, i could spend hours in my bathroom just trying on my clothes, planning stuff to wear....
and i like looking at myself at mirrors, glass windows when i casually walk by one. and my shoelaces....they have to be tied this certain way or else i get very annoyed. they have to be perfect. and my clothes have to fit this certain way for me to be satisfied that i am presentable and good to go...LOL
i get annoyed very easily...this doesn't show either....but believe me, i do, i just don't say anything. and i get mad a lot too, but i keep it in...i keep a lotta things in...the belief that emotions cloud your thoughts and affect your judgement is what i hold to...*smirk* at least i have patience...
i am very sensual...i like the senses...i like looking at pretty beautiful things, i like feeling, touching, i like listening to music, i like tasting spicy, sweet, salty food. it's bad habit i guess...the origin of my vainity perhaps. must have come about from a bad habit i developed in childhood- observing.
was really really quiet as a kid, suppose you can't believe that, the way i go on and on now :J anyway, all i ever did then was sit down and read or draw or just look at the things, people around me, hardly uttering a word from the corner where i sat.
isn't any surprise how i ended up like this, artist, poet- patron of the arts. plus i think too much for my own good, another bad habit. i don't know where being athletic came in...oh yeah, i just was really good at sports, a "natural" as my coach tells me.
i can't think of anything else to badmouth about :P so this session is over...till next time i feel like picking on myself *smirk*
anyway, what else happened....hmmmmmm...oh yeah, christian, he's not bugging me anymore coz i told him i didn't like him and yadda yadda yadda....i'm sure you people already know, courtesy of aissa :P
gino! LOL
ummm...food! we ate in sbarros the other day- wednesday i think :D wum! their white cheese pizza is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. makes my mouth water just thinking about it. also try their eggplant parmegianni (?) i'm not sure i that's how you spell it but, it's wummy too :d
and i have summer classes ;_; it's required. nooooOOOooo...gone are the high-school days when i could just bum at home, just sleeping and eating all day without a worry in the world...heh! at least it's only 1 class...yech! math. i suck at math...i'm in math11 now, but i have to take math12 in summer so that i don't take it up during the regular sem- so you high-school people out there, enjoy your summer vacation while you still can, coz when college comes...
anyway, this is all i have got to tell for this entry :P boring stuff mostly, so till next time around 'dios